Love in the context of myself is often a dirty word and there a few in this to give you fair warning, there’s also the want of green, and I’m not endorsing PCH, though I still search there but what about for the Man In The Mirror. “Love Is Like Will”
Sunday, January 13, 2019
Episode 196 ~Love Is Like Will~
To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, say you have a million dollars, and you’re there, you’re going to get it, but while you’re out, you might as well do a few things before you stop by to pick it up. I remember being heavy into PCH once upon a time, hell you are too, but I’m talking about hours upon hours of play, yeah I honestly missed writing, but I was all in for some simple paper, something green that didn’t make me jealous, sick or more monstrous.
Call it delusion, insanity, obsession, but I never liked it and would I have loved it, if it resulted in my winning… to be like John Wyllie (August 31st, 2012) or Tamar Howard (February 27, 2015). The 27th hurt the most because I remember going into work that day; I was watching the notices and knew that PCH was in town, and how confident was I that all that “hard work” was going to bear fruit, not the job but the games and what happened next? Nearly four years ago, if that had been you we wouldn’t be having this conversation, but again you didn’t want to do any of it, and here you are now, waking up at 2:15 AM every morning, reading, writing, sigh TRYING Six Impossible Things:
- I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 014 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
Completed (Day 020 No Fap) - I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
Failed - I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
Failed - I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
Failed - I Will Finish The Art of the Pimp by Dennis Hof
Completed - I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
Failed
There are days that you hate writing I know; you downright despise it, we can go back to the reason this started, and no I’m not talking about childhood dreams, like most things this is all because of a Bitch (Language), you’re acting like a Pussy (Will)… where’s the positive? The positive is, you can make every day like the 27th, not the failure, frustration, or the train of Fucks (stop already) today could be the day, as your Motivations go. If you want another F here’s one for you, FIGHT, Blessed Cause I Got Fight. The difference between PCH and what you are doing now and yes, you will continue to search with PCH and play the occasional game, not to mention the mailings because honestly, you like money a lot, but you love you and to become someone even better Six Impossible Things:
- I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 020 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
- I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
- I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
- I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
- I Will Read Deal with the Devil (The Forge Trilogy #1)
- I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
When you looked at PCH you eventually only looking at other people and yes you don’t like most people… you called the veterinarian a jerk, and he saved B III’s life, and you love Triple B because he sees you. I feel sort of like O’Brien from George Orwell’s book 1984 telling you that you must love yourself, it’s not enough to read the words, to obey what I’m saying but you must look at the man in the mirror and know my friend the truth Love Is Like Will.
I Will Have No Fear