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Legacy 130 -B Barks, V Voices-

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B’s dead, V’s whining, my girl texts. Yet here I am surrounded by noise. And everyone at the Day Job wonders about my playlist. There are reasons, I imagine an ancient temple and a land of the dead. Bedrooms with Beautiful Girls? “B Barks, V Voices.”

Sunday, November 8, 2026

Legacy 130 -B Barks, V Voices-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And I really had to dump a week of texts on your head. I humbly apologize. SIGH.

Now who do you want to make mad today besides yourself? Braxton, Virgil, their potential future stepmom, the Day Job… Like M Anime, you keep telling yourself, “I’m So Thankful” that you still have a job. Yeah, the job that killed Braxton Barks Bradford sheesh.

Again, it was your indifference. You can hear Braxton barking that it wasn’t your fault.

Virgil’s voicing concerns. Only from being away from you. And then you see him balled up on the floor. A scoop of vanilla ice cream was being generous. He makes himself even smaller, like a ball of lint. That’s not you being a meanie; that’s you being accurate. Hell, Braxton got the business end of a rolled-up newspaper, but making Virgil comfortable… Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Bikinis Forever: An Unconventional Romance
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 007 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s on your to-do list, much like Wesley Snipes sound advice: “Listen To The Woman.” And are you? You’re more like Kyle Barker (he-he) and Maxine Shaw: “You don’t want a girlfriend; you want a psychiatrist that’s good in bed. Listen to my problems. Listen to my problems!” But that goes both ways, you know. You bring up your Day Job as she brings up hers. And it’s how you say that the last thing this world needs is another dumb white guy in charge; the same can be said about a woman. As the song goes, you know, hmm:

“I was raised in the canebrake by an old mama lion
Can’t no high-toned woman make me walk the line”
Sixteen Tons, Tennessee Ernie Ford

But M loves you, and that’s enough. The right (woman) in the wrong place can make all the difference in the world. Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

So find a way to fix Virgil and answer the freaking woman who loves you. But you’re tired, hungry, scared, a million other things because, like you, I don’t know what to say anymore. I’m sorry doesn’t bring Braxton back. “It’s okay, nothing’s gonna hurt you,” has worked wonders for Virgil; he’s been here for years. And just this morning you were taking screenshots of M Anime’s text, and I don’t think dressing her like a sluttly cheerleader is going to help… Hey, who said Juliet Starling was slutty? “Angel With A Shotgun…” Angel with a chainsaw is more like it. So many freaking voices! Oh, you’re “Crazy”? About doing right by M Anime, sure. Listening to a dead fur buddy. B Barks, V Voices

2107 Days Without B III, Day 1548 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 127 -Pause Braxton, Paws Virgil-

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I’ve been on my feet all day. And V? I remember my B’s last days when I carried him everywhere except his water bowl. He wanted to be a man even when I put it next to him. It was his kidneys, not his belly or paws. But V? Pause, Braxton, Paws Virgil.

Thursday, November 5, 2026

Legacy 127 -Pause Braxton, Paws Virgil-

2104 Days Without B III, Day 1545 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Do you run across the Rainbow Bridge all the time? Sit and wait…

Not unless the powers that be shoved a pillow under your hairy behind. Braxton Barks.

Much like your Pa, you are a man of leisure. I swear B it’s been a minute since I’ve napped so hard I’ve forgotten what day it is. I woke up two hours ago thinking I was going to be late to “The Bad Place.” Hell, I wasn’t that far away from seeing you again. The sleep of the damned. Speaking of which, I couldn’t find myself seeing you again. Because you know your father is a “Lazy Ass…” Man of Leisure. I think I at least heard you today. I was at The Bad Place, and I don’t know whether this was for you or me, Little B. However

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

Welcome to the Black Parade. All black everything… My mood, my soul, but your bro…

That’s what really got to me today. I was taking a picture of Virgil, and I saw his paws, B.

“That’s How You Know” you fucked up. You get Black Parade; your brother reminds me how I failed you both. This is “How You Remind Me.” Paws, feet, and what might as well be claws. I swear, what have I been doing, B? Like I said. I was busy taking a good-ass nap. Fuck! Pardon my French, but since I’m on the subject… Let’s talk man to man, B III

About your potential future stepmom? The woman that knocked me off of my feet… I swept her off her feet…

You know how I feel about feet? I’m sure you listened in on your favorite girl and me some. What can I say? Your old man likes high heels. Not clear heels, mind you. Tacky!

Anyway, I’m not entirely sure how M Anime feels about feet, but she does find heels annoying despite The Magic Glasses/MIMA saying otherwise. Your Dad has a vision B III

But that vision doesn’t pay the bills. It doesn’t get your brother help. And next week’s pay is going to be… Well, more like the week after, but still I’m broke, and why’s that again:

I’m stuck selling shit furniture because someone won’t get off their fat fucking ass and help me!”
Clark, Backrooms (2026)

Minus the fat part as I talk to the Man in the Mirror who hates his own feet. But seeing Virgil’s… Pause, Braxton, Paws Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

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“Will you be proud of what you’ve done in this life? Because if you ain’t, you better start getting square.” No, I ain’t proud. I played the village idiot. Existence is like a test I never studied for. Yet bringing new life. Someday. “Got Your B, V.”

Wednesday, November 4, 2026

Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… How do I define sin? How do I define good? How do I define gone? How about rest?

And I dare to call myself a writer. No doubt I’m a whiner, hmm. Have I forgotten the Backrooms already? Like I forgot prison and my favorite cheerleader. Always waiting.

That’s why I won’t call myself a retail “Associate” either. That was part of my humiliation

I’m standing there at the Day Job, waiting as the village idiot does for my instructions, Inspector. Instructions would mean an instructor. And if I’d listened years ago, Inspector.

Well, I wouldn’t be sitting here in the middle of the bed, having failed to educate my second-born son. I wouldn’t have failed the first. I wouldn’t be lusting after some PYT half my age. How about trying to turn my boys’ future potential stepmom into Lollipop Chainsaw’s Juliet Starling?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“And if you don’t expect too much from me
You might not be let down”

Now I don’t count that as a failure. How I ever won M Anime is a fucking miracle, Inspector Echo. That takes a genius intellect. Wait a damn minute, is that gratitude I feel, hmm? I could talk about M Anime herself, but that would involve me being a meanie.

Embarrassing enough that a forty-two-year-old man is using the word meanie. I’m still a Dad. A dad who is being mean to his son because Virgil didn’t want to go out in the rain and instead used the hallway as a bathroom. I didn’t teach him to use training pads.

Anyway speaking of instructing and saying mean things. Like a girl dressing up as a San Romero Knights’ cheerleader and riding a dildo. Mean enough

No that’s a solid A+ life. But everything else dear Echo. How do I get to sleep on time as it won’t be tonight? How do I become successful at this? The Unfinished Archive. Please!

To cook, to clean, to collect a decent paycheck every week. Oh I know how to cum which is yet another reason we are here so late. Because I haven’t… No Nut November, ah yes

Didn’t I fail day one? And what was the quality of that? What was the reason? I have no clue. Why am I still whining about it? Why can’t I stop whining? Full stop, Inspector.

If I approached everything like how I won M Anime? Or my Ma making me study. Got Your B, V

2103 Days Without B III, Day 1544 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 125 -There’ll Be Time, Virgil-

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What time is it in America? Morning, Afternoon, Evening? To say goodnight. I have a puppy; I call this prose, and I have a good girl that’s never been on the pole. But with her body… There’ll never be a time. But to love her… There’ll Be Time, Virgil

Tuesday, November 3, 2026

Legacy 125 -There’ll Be Time, Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And there’s always time for more… Or should I say room. Why not both tonight?

Tonight? There’s always time for me to feel STUPID. Though I’m not sure if this is or not, to be honest. One of my greatest fears is my STUPIDITY. My Own Worst Enemy, for sure.

And love makes me very STUPID. You know I love my boys. So I don’t correct people when they ask about my Braxton. Sure, you can call that fear, too. Anxiety! But as far as I’m concerned… BRAXTON LIVES! Because to say otherwise… To accept the loss of B III

Speaking of loss, it’s Election Day! I heard something about Guam, but that’s it. Lovely. If I am to be STUPID about something, let it be out of love rather than Dare to be Stupid.

Hate had its time, love.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I want to say there was a time I even hated you. And there’s no shortage of time for me to hate myself. Should I go, Julia Stiles, aka Kat Stratford, about all the things I hate and then have a proper cry? I think I’m too drained to cry right now. Honestly, my love.

Dehydration is not my biggest concern. Starvation? Death does not frighten me at all, my dearest. How I might die… How I might be remembered. Writing about hating time, love.

I think about something you asked me a few days ago as I continue playing catch-up, “Every Morning.” And despite everything, mornings, thinking about you, about us is the best time, but you did ask…

From M Anime:

1: Have you been annoying me this past week?

2: Do you send me too many messages?

Will I find the time to give you a straight answer? Oh, I have all the time in the world to remember and compare this to Detroit: Become Human. You know the “Meet Kamski” chapter when Elijah Kamski allows Connor to ask only one question: Time for some Q&A, perhaps, for example: What is it about these Mother/Daughter pairings happening

What is it that makes me have these Cuckold vs. NTR fantasies about you, goddess?
There’s the whole Juliet Starling Lollipop Chainsaw Fantasy, thoroughly explored.

There’s also the question of what time I’ll love myself to come to bed at a decent hour… Not tonight, sadly. There’ll Be Time, Virgil

2102 Days Without B III, Day 1543 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 124 -B And V Timed-

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It’s way too late. I say that every evening. I was in bed at 10:40 PM. That is a miracle. Tonight? Day of the Dead. I sit trying to conjure up a son who timed out years ago. And his brother needs a Dad. My girl needs a man. Time’s up. “B And V Timed”

Monday, November 2, 2026

Legacy 124 -B And V Timed-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Are you still listening to me bark or the constant tick-tock?

Tick-tock, tick-tock. I remember being with you to watch all those Hunger Games movies, except “The Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes.” You share pictures of me on TikTok. Still the M.V.P. over Miss M Anime. “I’m Comin’” could be my intro song. Though Virgil and I’s potential future stepmom means that in another way, I suppose… Eww. And then there’s all the time you need for well… Everything. Tick-tock, Mr. Wick. How many references is that, Dad? As always, I remain my father’s son. There is no time limit. Eternity.

However you live, my brother lives. And every day it’s as if we’re “living” reverse lives, my father. “Hunt Him Down!” “Braxton Lives!” Remember “The Running Man”? The things you do for a time, Dad.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Here and now, it’s only you and me as V gets one more slice of his B-Day pie, ha. Lucky

How many of those did you buy for me, Dad? For fifteen years, you were buying me burgers and enough fries to make me puke. You even got my fav girl to make me cake.

Fifteen years Dad. And you remember the time. Every time. And you’re doing it again.

You know, when you’re sad enough to join me… Again, I say no! Remember how hard I fought. Maybe a bad example, because if it had been up to me… What are our words, Dad?

Always and forever. There have to be dogs in Heaven… Cerberus wouldn’t get any rest…

Dad. Hell’s not for you.

Not saying I wouldn’t follow you. But it’s not your time. And I don’t mean to bark all “Me Before You,” because that isn’t fair. At all. My memory, M Anime, my mutt lil’ bro.

Language! I know, but I can say that, can’t I? Fur and all. If only you had as much time as I have fur that you’re still finding after all this time. Once again, you and me always and forever. And you feel like you’ll be behind forever. No wonder you prefer yabbos to butts.

What, I am a guy too. And while you say so formally, I might bark: fatherhood is the epitome of manhood. But there is more. If only time to find it. B And V Timed

“To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven”
Ecclesiastes 3:1

“No day shall erase you from the memory of time”
The Aeneid

2101 Days Without B III, Day 1542 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 123 -Boys’ Night B V-

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Ask me what I had scheduled. Have the car looked at. Apply for benefits that I haven’t used at the Day Job. Figure out a way to save money. $40 for groceries… $25 for editing something no one reads. Then my boys or my girlfriend… Boys’ Night B V

Sunday, November 1, 2026

Legacy 123 -Boys’ Night B V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And how much of an idiot are you? Wow, very harsh for the “1st of tha Month.”

J, F, M, A, M, J, J, A, S, O, N, D… Don’t tell me you’ve become a conspiracy theorist?

Simply seeing that no month of the year begins with B or V. No day of the week either, hmm

But every day comes back to them. That’s a lie! How long was Braxton dying before his second-to-last appointment? You sat right where you are now when you got the expected and yet unexpected call. Yes, you needed to go and pick him up. Yes, you need $500 for B

To tell that he was dying… His time, your money, Stupidity of all. He would never accept it was his time to leave, and here you were, what, whining, worrying, welcoming failure, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Ryan And His Beauties 3
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Again, so harsh. Or as the Joker would ask, “Why so serious?” Honestly, it’s time?

“Seventeen” might have been better. Hell, Seven, or was it eight? Will you stop already?

And do what exactly, since discovering where Braxton went firsthand is off the table with, you know, Virgil living here. Depression, doing something productive, hell, even playing with your dick. Two Asian women handled that… Not in some massage parlor

Like you have time. That’s today’s point. You don’t have time, a ton of money, or even too much sense. And years ago you promised Braxton. Fuck, you need to promise Virgil, or even their potential future stepmom, M Anime. You put in the “work,” and for what, hmm? Waiting to fail Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Always another chance, another try, and another night. Those days of sitting with Braxton’s favorite girl and watching movies are long gone. It took you two days to watch the “Backrooms.” You caught Resident Evil because E-Day netted you freebies.

Remember having a little bit of money? You’ll get paid for the 30th and then the 6th next week. So around the 20th you’re effed again. Not your fight, hmm; on the 6th you’re good.

And while you’re busy scheduling, how about the Unfinished Archive. The Magic Glasses/MIMA can handle that. When I think about everything I had scheduled. And you? General doctor, optometrist, Virgil’s veterinarian, the car, and again, all for fucking what I ask you! Not your fault. So, Boys’ Night B V

2100 Days Without B III, Day 1541 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 120 -Case VI Detective Braxton-

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B’s Fav Girl and I have a joke. “Do you need bail money?” Not much of a joke. But it’s another reason I sleep a lot. Ha! I don’t need to think about the crime scene that is living. V’s been on the case for six years. “Case VI Detective Braxton.”

Thursday, October 29, 2026

Legacy 120 -Case VI Detective Braxton-

2097 Days Without B III, Day 1538 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Yes, I still ask because I can’t accept some things. Death, desire, dum-dums

Accepting Sir Patrick Stewart’s death is sad; may he Rest In Peace. Icon, a legend.

Braxton, to me you were more than my brother, my best friend, my beast. Balls! Braxton, my son, Thou Art Courageous. And that’s why I can’t accept you being gone. Not now, not ever. As far as I’m concerned, I remain a father, a dog dad of two. Always! Forever!

And what does that make me? That’s the question I’ve been asking myself Day Job-wise.

Am I delusional? Am I damned for what happened to you? And then there’s your brother, V. Not loving him as much makes me a dum-dum. As Carlos says, Dee-Dee-Dee

That brings me to today. Yesterday was about my whining vis-à-vis “Backrooms.” Not done there.

Today I got two words for ya, Village Idiot! What, you thought this was about your brother turning six, nine days ago? There I go being an idiot. At least the village doesn’t see this

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

But what do I want the village to see? I’ve been so exhausted I can barely remember all my worrying about the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Isn’t that what life espouses, Braxton?

With enough money, life can be whatever I want it to be. So where is all the money going, hmm? Virgil still has cake and even pie. That’s another thing, B. Where’s my time, hmm?

I told myself I’d be done by 10:30 PM… I still remember being up at 4:00 AM some nights, B. You and your brother’s looks.

Bedtime before I have to go back to the Day Job, aka “The Bad Place.” Why not name it the Backrooms, B III? Of everything in that place, I’m the something off for sure, Braxton.

Again, the Village Idiot. And if it only stopped at the Day Job. It’s the same with Whiteout Survival, writing, and women, too. It’s a constant “Mad Season” here, B III, honestly. No wonder you made sure I always got to bed, and Virgil is content to cuddle almost all the time. Stupidity is catching.

It’s the only time I shut up. If it isn’t rage or indifference, I constantly whine about anything and everything. Is it any wonder I seek solace in Virtual Insanity? Safety, sinning, scared sometimes… And STUPID. Case VI Detective Braxton

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

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Ask V about me drunk… “This one time my Dad drank a lot and spun me around to King of Wishful Thinking and Days Go By”. B’s Fav Girl has seen me drunk. I wish I could afford to have a drinking problem so I wouldn’t whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil.

Wednesday, October 28, 2026

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Is whining a sin? No more so than staying up until 10:30 PM for this… Lying on Kindle.

Being a pop culture whore… (Takes a sip of Bloom) It’s just the way I’m wired, isn’t it, Inspector? Isn’t it? Two things. One, a small introduction into the “Backrooms”. Two, I’m thinking about Bloom from the Winx Club, naked. I was always more of a Flora man, honestly. And trust me, Inspector, I can think of so much worse. “Lollipop Asia.” I’m not whining…

Mary: “You want to know the real reason your wife left you? It wasn’t the drinking! Or the stumbling home at all hours or the rage! It was the whining! Nothing’s ever your fault is it? You drink too much? Blame your job. You hate your job? Blame the world. You get kicked out of the house? Blame your wife. You attack me and tie me up? Blame your brain- you are your fucking brain, you dipshit!”

Clark: “You’re saying it’s my fault?”

Mary: “Yes. But it’s just the way you’re wired, isn’t it? Isn’t it?”
Backrooms (2006), Kane Parsons

This is what I’ve been thinking about since I watched the Backrooms. This one scene.

Inspector, it explains why my Braxton left. See, I did it again. And you know something, “I don’t think I want to change.” No, let me remain a “Man of Constant Sorrow.” Better my tears for my “Lost Boy,” Because “Oh yes, there will be blood.” Again, Pop Culture Whore.

Better blood than… Eww! We’ll get to that. And why say Eww? It’s a function of the male anatomy. And I won’t take the fall for a woman failing to cum. Selfish lover… Me? Never.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do I have to whine about today? The humiliation at the Day Job that I couldn’t put a Christmas sock display up? The Visual Lady had to help me. I am the “village idiot” once again. King Kong and Captain Clark got nothing on “Smiling Faces Sometimes,” hmm.

I wasted another $40 bucks today on Bloom and chicken. And today’s payday, my Inspector.

So there’s more money to cry about, and I’m no billionaire. The money disappears. Fuck!

Then there’s M Anime. (Drools).

“So This Is Love”. Not yet. But I like the fuck out of her. I lust the fuck for her…

Sigh, I can’t whine about her not knowing me. She knows I’m no Prince Charming.

However, does she know everything? I’m sure I’d be “Beggin” for her to come back.

Inspector, remember the third worst day of my existence? Not my fault. Yeah, keep telling yourself that, “Clark.” What, I do want a therapist that’s good in bed. And now I’m thinking about Mary naked. Rule 34 Inspector, fucking Rule 34. But M Anime, right.

Today she asks me, “Do you think of me only as Pussy?” “Strawberry Wine” at her age, Inspector. A drink? I’m sober; that’s why I whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil

2096 Days Without B III, Day 1537 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

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I consider myself WOKE, but what am I doing for the world? I have a boy that needs me. A woman who wants to raise a bunch of good little boys and girls with me. And a son who went to sleep, long ago, long ago, long ago. Weekly B Vitamins Virgil.

Tuesday, October 27, 2026

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I love Braxton. I love Virgil. My Ma and Sister. Braxton’s Favorite Girl. Cherry…

And I was honestly about to say there is nothing wrong with my memory. Seriously?

Today, though, like most days, I’m just low on energy. Sounds rather simplistic. But because comedy comes in threes, there’s Virgil, and “Dollar, dollar bill, y’all.” How can I expect to get any of those when I can’t stay awake? And then when I do fall asleep… I should save this for Inspector Echo, since there’s nothing wrong with my memory, but I love reading…

Honestly? So I was reading Dystopian Girls 7 a few days back… Virgil has been six one whole week. Anyway, I started reading, and everything went blank. I wake up in the morning intending to talk to you, but I check Kindle first. Bad husband…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Zero! Checking on my reading before my girl… Not what I meant. Zero-day reading streak! So I feel there’s a mistake, and I check the book. I never got off the starter page, my love

All because I had no energy, and so I chose to pull my own version of the Sisko, my love:

“So… I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men.”

No, I didn’t go that far; I simply turned off the automatic date, set it back to the 25th, and read for about twenty minutes. I swear, why didn’t I think of that when I lost the reading streak I had after Braxton died? Anyway, my point is this. I ain’t Divergent’s Tris. I got scared for Virgil today and didn’t know whether to go nuts or take a nap.

Now can you imagine if I put the energy of a lost reading streak into us, the kids, this life

There was a time when I loved myself, you know. Whenever I see another pair of tits anywhere. I need to stop! This week it’s all Juliet Starling, Mikura Suzuki, and this Asian girl I’ve been drooling over for a while. Bringing work home? Stop. I need to go, go.

Anyway, what I meant is, I took pills for ANXIETY. And they increased my energy.

Braxton lay dying, and as the song goes, “And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.” I did. He died. Sleeping to not fail? Waking for… Weekly B Vitamins Virgil

2095 Days Without B III, Day 1536 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 117 -B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship-

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“Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends. Mm, get high with a little help from my friends” I got drunk with B’s Fav Girl. My second, uh, B, V, M… Can I count all my friends on one hand? And I ain’t one. “B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship.”

Monday, October 26, 2026

Legacy 117 -B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? I’m sure you can hear me bark from up here, right?

Or is it down there… At least it’s warm. Not in the Ninth Circle of Hell. How many times must I bark that you’re not going that way? Not even Virgil, living or dead. Treachery is not who my father is. Others, sure. It’s why I remain top of the heap, ain’t it? Always Dad

Number one. Top of the list. King of the hill. A number one. But like you say to 2-V and my potential future stepmom, it’s in our nature, isn’t it? Man’s Best Friend, like Shadow:

“We didn’t have to. It’s built in. Has been ever since the dawn of time… when a few wild dogs took it upon themselves to watch over man, to bark when he’s in danger, to run and play with him when he’s happy, to nuzzle him when he’s lonely. That’s why they call us man’s best friend.”
Shadow, Homeward Bound

And it’s only one more reason you believe you failed me. And you think you’re failing my brother. Man’s Best Friend. But what are you? Daddy, always and forever. Glory:

“And what are you?
So full of hate you wanna
go fight everybody…
…because you been whipped
and chased.
That might not be living,
but it sure ain’t dying.”
Glory

Why Can’t We Be Friends?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“Dead Like Me” much? For the record, the movie was garbage. One that I’m glad we didn’t sit through together. Friends, you, me, my Favorite Girl, maybe one day stepmom.

“Just because (I’m) dead doesn’t mean that I can’t move in with you.”

“And just because I’m (alive) doesn’t mean I can’t have a splitting headache.”
Dead Like Me

That’s what friendship is, isn’t it? Finding someone you can stand to be around… And by that I mean sitting in our reading spot, Dad, ordering all our yummy favorites, and watching anything and everything on the Glow Box, and occasionally sending me outside. Like time-out? I’m sure I don’t even want to know what you and my bestie saw.

“Wasn’t it you who said that true love is all about finding someone you can stand to be around for 10 minutes at a time?

“Yeah”

“You got 10 minutes”
―

My bro’s only done that once with you and my Favorite Girl. He was won over, far too easily, am I right? Another sign that he ain’t me. More like a Backrooms version, for sure.

So we’re really doing this. “Just call my name, and I’ll be there.” Any ole movie night sounds about right, Dad. So the Backrooms only I’m not Mary, and you aren’t Clark. Not Captain Clark either. A monster, which is what this is all about. You thinking like that, ha.

Who can be friends with a monster? “No face as hideous as my face…” “When does a man become a monster?” Here’s a question for you, my father. Why do you think we are friends? You don’t remember the day we met, the day you and Miss M Anime met.

However, V, Saturday, August 13. 2022. “You thought you’d find a friend.” And you did.

You? The Man in the Mirror… B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship

“You might never become king of the world, but you may very well be treated like a king by the people that matter most.”
Dystopian Girls 7 by Rodzil LaBraun

“Heaven’s my witness, and the stars that look down on us, all he did was care too much for a luckless friend.”
― The Aeneid

2094 Days Without B III, Day 1535 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son