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Legacy 008 -Braxton, Virgil, III Stories-

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One of those days… Can’t I say all of those days? I miss coming back and napping. B III protected me. And at 5:00 PM we’d lie here, and B would sleep, and I would read. And these weren’t fairytales, but we had each other. Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

Thursday, July 09 2026

Legacy 008 -Braxton, Virgil, III Stories-

1985 Days Without B III, Day 1426 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Considering it’s 3:20 PM, there are energy drinks and girls enjoying themselves. TMI?

Allow me to disappoint you further, my son. Simple and plain. I hate my existence.

Seriously, part of the flattery and/or humiliation at the Day Job… That would be “The Bad Place,” to you. They said how young I look—the spirit of youthfulness, Braxton.

Honestly, in that youthful tone, allow me to say this… FML!!! I tell myself stories. Standing there in the midst of that shame, RAGE, and most importantly of all, FEAR, I tell myself what I know is true. Nonfiction, Baby B. Have I told Virgil the whole story? Nope, FEAR:

“Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me; danger is very real, but fear is a choice.”
After Earth
(2013)

So this is the story of how your Daddy defeated… Overcomes FEAR Every Single Day.

PAIN. I ‘survived’ your death. I endured M Anime’s decision. I saved another dog, B.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Your brother, Virgil. And really, is that painful? Sorta like the movie Plan 75 or The Republic Episode 11 (2019) Li Xiang Guo “Rose Water.” What’s with the Asian cinema?

Another world, language, fiction, fantasy. I’ve had enough… existing… exiting…

However, I made a ‘promise’ to you. Your potential future stepmom is worried and loves.

I’ll never get sick of reading that from M Anime. If you could only see the way she loves me. Tonic? English? I speak English and your language, B III. I’m learning 2-V’s. Ok, trying.

M Anime can speak Spanish. And didn’t I say once she’s learning my story… Music?

What does “Con La Brisa” mean to her? She’s writing me into her world. Wrong…

Writing The Unfinished Archive, B.

For free, of course. Writing hasn’t netted me a dime in years. And why should it? Who wants to listen to someone whine every day? It’s like all my tears douse the light, the fire.

Why do you think your stepmom represents the Phoenix, the flame of rebirth? Can’t cry around Kyouko Sakai; she’s pure energy. Water makes flowers grow, but Lily can do that all by herself. Swords must be cleaned and shields shined. So Cassandra and Sophitia Alexandra. Water can shape the Earth… Where did Skye Matthews come from? You can’t get electronics wet, so Judy and 2B… They get very wet, eww. Can’t let metal rust, Nico.

Finally, Melina is more fire. Your Dad making up stories. Crazy! Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

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How do I see this 10th year of blogging? How did I see the other 9? Other than the fact that my firstborn son died during the Gospels and I have been mourning him ever since. 1,314,000 words over 9 years and still eating burgers. B’s Menu Page Virgil

Thursday, July 02 2026

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

1978 Days Without B III, Day 1419 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? First day of YOUR legacy, and how does your father feel? I wish…

You don’t know how badly I wish I could go all Kenny Loggins singin’ “I’m alright. Nobody worry ’bout me.” Now that second part is true… Well, if I don’t count you, Virgil, and you boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. But the first part is more Pilot Speed, you know, “I’m not alright, I’m not alright!” Is that what my dream was saying last night, B? I don’t remember what I was carrying in the dream. Baggage? Something, “Fancy.”

Anyway, I was wandering around a parking lot all “Dude, Where’s My Car?” I know…

SIGH, you hated car rides. They scare your brother nearly to death too. Virgil? Scared?

Like father, like son, right? Should have seen me at the gas station and food truck yesterday. Who sells courage?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We can’t all be you, unfortunately, my son. “Can’t nobody tell me nothin’. You can’t tell me nothin’.” You on that “Old Town Road,” Braxton? Renaming The Rainbow Bridge, ha

As for your Old Man, I’m still all, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.” One more reason I’m getting to you so late. I only know what makes my stomach less achy and my scrotum less full… Eww! I don’t know where I’m going in life, with this litany of nonsense, or even in a little while. But putting you in time-out and taking my alone time? I always know what’s on “The Menu.” Oh, did I tell you I finally got that cheeseburger… Not Chef Slowik’s

Yeah, I think I’ll stick with shrimp and buffalo wings, along with CHEESE fries, not RANCH! Again, nobody sells courage. It’s not something usually on “The Menu” B III ha.

So what is? What will this new year bring? What will be your Legacy? Other than a father yelling out his complaints about the world, your stepmom’s Yabbos. And yellow…

Honestly, Braxton, I am sorry your father is starting this brand new year being a yellow-belly coward and thinking about two yellow girls he wants to eff (Asian women). I don’t ever want to MAGA. I want to be honest. The Unfinished Archive/Magic Glasses say it’s Melina and Judy Alvarez today. Your Daddy’s always hungry for bread, babes, and brains. Zombie. B’s Menu Page Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 359 ~Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton~

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The World Is Gonna End Tonight, Far Cry 5. Fallout’s shown the aftereffects for tons of games? Oh, to go back to those GTA Vice City days when I would have a bad day and then ask myself Am I A Psycho? “Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton.”

Thursday, June 25, 2026

Journey 359 ~Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton~

1971 Days Without B III, Day 1412 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? To quote Hootie & The Blowfish, I “Only Wanna Be With You.”

Today was so effing Embarrassing! Wednesday I paid an Exorbitant price. And “Yesterday” and I mean so many yesterdays, B. I’ve been effing ‘Exhausted’. Humiliated

Even now, I think I shouldn’t be so candid with you. But it’s “Times Like These” I remember how you died. I hid you away from my Fury, for Wrath and Ruin. My B III…

I love you, but no father wants his son to repeat the wrongs his Dad has done. Hell, I don’t want you to suffer the “Humiliations Galore” I have endured. “Takin’ the bumps and the bruises of all the things.” And what about your brother? Will I confide in Virgil when I didn’t in you? Am I the bomb, Braxton? Or am I the shelter?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

The Vault. Like Jules in “Pulp Fiction,” I’m going through a ‘transitional period,’ And B…

I’m trying, Braxton, I’m trying real hard, to be the shepherd. Or the Vault Overseer…

Doesn’t make me a good man, either, given Vault-Tec’s colorful history. Here’s a random thought. You know, you and Virgil’s potential future stepmom doesn’t like the color blue, hmm. Yet I always color her in blue. Isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? “When flames be blue, trouble’s a brew.” Wasn’t that from Final Fantasy X-2? I’m still avoiding talking, B.

Colorful (Magna) Series, Elden Ring’s Melina, and Harley Quinn? I would rather talk about them.

Okay, what STUPID things did your Daddy do that either have me blowing up the world or hiding from it…

Wednesday I was talking about how I spent my last $20 on buying Virgil’s dinner.

Anyway, the same day I got my paycheck, I was headed to that damn food truck, and I swear I lost the $20 I was holding. I went to the food truck anyway, meaning… $40

And today, eff me! It was the manager’s birthday, and like an idiot, I played two songs, B III. Did you know that Stevie Wonder’s song was about Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and don’t play 50 Cent’s “Da Club” for older white women? My existence is a Vault-Tec Experiment gone terribly wrong or right… It’s Vault-Tec, I love you. And Virgil’s stuck here. But do you have $17.05, son, till, Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton?

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

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What’s the word I’m looking for? If anything, it’s better than I remain silent. My entire existence is feeling a bit like “Pontypool”. And then I have a quiet dog and a “girlfriend” who texts with occasional voice messages. And if she were here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? It’s why I’m asking: are the kids asleep? Virgil? He’s in time-out—his bedroom shenanigans.

Some kids wet the bed at his age. Still going #2… He shouldn’t do that. And I shouldn’t be awake at all hours in our bed, my love. Well, not unless we’re busy. Fifty Shades…

Meatloaf is my safeword for the record. I’m sure you’ve heard the joke, baby doll. Because it means “I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.” A song at the Day Job…

Speaking of that old Day Job, “Here.” What am I still in grade school? Or is it the fact I need to remind myself that “Here I Am,” or “I’m Still Here,” Hating Existing Always…

What happened to “HEA” as in “Happily Ever After” from the Erotica I used to read, my love? Anything FREE?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Meatloaf, Here, and Free. What’s with my list of words now? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. MAGA breathes; they lie. I breathe and tell myself you “Make Me Wanna Die”. I don’t need the words, but they are always there “In There Air Tonight.” But love.

Well, before we get to it, what will be your word? Your WARNING to me. Braxton knows I’ve been getting a lot of those lately. YOU need to pay a bill, they say. There’s Yabbos.

A few E-Days are coming up. My Old Man’s is the 24th. A few more days, the Journey will be over, and I’ve wasted my time for yet another year. And my own E-Day! Eff!

A little more time, please.

To say something… You would say, “Say what you need to say”. But would you understand me if I did? How about, “Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say?” There’s so much. I continue to hold back. Why? Is it me or the words that aren’t safe? Searches might indicate one thing. And I know I’m not a good man. I only want to be yours, love.

When things like Rough Sex, Ravishment, and Mock R*pe are on the table, eff me!.

Honestly, how do you when I think such things? When things like every single FEAR, and being called STUPID set me off? And when the “Sounds Of Silence” seem the only way forward. There’s love and… B-V List Of Safewords.

1969 Days Without B III, Day 1410 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 352 ~Sacrifice, Isaac, Braxton, Virgil~

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Work hard, don’t waste time, and know WHAT you want and WHY. Sacrifice. What more do I have? My Day Job is a waste. But it pays more than writing, though both of those equated to zero this week. So 20 bucks or so… “Sacrifice, Isaac, Braxton, Virgil”

Thursday, June 18, 2026

Journey 352 ~Sacrifice, Isaac, Braxton, Virgil~

1964 Days Without B III, Day 1405 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Well, I didn’t k*ll anyone today. But neither did Abraham. And where’s Isaac?

More to the point, where is the time I took to read the Bible? So I’m lying, but I did skim Genesis yesterday. And how about the book I’m reading? You know the one I lied about a couple of weeks ago, B. “The Headmaster’s Office: Angela Gets her first ‘D’”. Um, eww!

Last night I started but “Love Is Louder.” Hell, “Love Is a Long Road.” And “If It Isn’t Love…” You know, between you and Virgil’s potential stepmom and me. I swear, B, I would wake up with you sitting in my head, M Anime’s yabbos on the phone, or telling her to “Sit On My Face”. Again Eww! You don’t want to hear that, Braxton, but it’s the dream, SIGH, or her pussy “Pictures On My Phone”.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Is that what your Dad sacrificed, his filter? And that’s what brings us together, Braxton…

Madness, misfires in my cerebral cortex, minutes to waste. Last time I checked, it takes 330, so 5 and a half hours to produce one Journey, one mark of a jester, or I’m a jerk…

Speaking of which, I have jerk-off sessions that last longer… Will I stop already!? Geez!

I’m not Wheeler Walker Jr. I remember giving you “The Talk.” The opposite of “All The Pussy You Will Slay.” I’ll give that one to your namesake should your stepmom and I be so blessed. There are three talks every black man must give his son. About effing, the future, and the efffing police. Eff MAGA and as always FDT!

Am I willing to sacrifice anything to stop them? Hell, B III, today I was thinking how I’m going to survive on $20 until next Wednesday. And then what? You can guess my hours from this week. And your brother has to eat too. Virgil never goes without. Never ever.

But I sacrifice everything munching on something tasty, M Anime and our munchkins, and making you and Virgil proud for what? Lying here like a bum. Git Up, Get Out…

Braxton, I hear you barking, and that’s what I was thinking yesterday. More to sacrifice?

Grieving you? Never! Ignoring M Anime, not again. My writing? Can’t give that up, though it nets me nothing. Losing myself? Sacrifice, Isaac, Braxton, Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

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My boys have better dreams for me. My own? You can’t imagine, or am I just being a guy? I tell my girl plenty that men aren’t any good… Myself too. No wonder I dreamt I was a plumber last night. Not in a porno way. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil.

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I’m not a ‘religious’ man, a ‘good’ one, or much into Game of Thrones.

A little late for that one, but I cannot ignore all of the Yabbos on that show. Maisie Williams’s side boob? That’s the reason I know she was in that movie “The Falling…”

You know the man you married. Braxton was barking the other day about me. The real me. It’s why, short of my Old Man, I don’t give a damn what anybody thinks about me, my love. I hate myself that much. “Many Men, many, many, many, many men, wish death upon me.” They have to get in line. I’ll beat them every single time. But you? Kids?

I guess I’m a liar, duh, because I do care what you think. Braxton, Virgil, two-leggeds, even your kitties. For now, “Just You And Me”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now I could go all Captain America “I can do this all day.” Personally, I’m more The Hulk “I’m always angry.” But with you and me, well, “I’m always horny.” But there’s things work to be done. I got to vote for someone who’ll wreck MAGA. FDT! There’s a war to win in Whiteout Survival. And the whole wide world and whatever comes next, love.

Okay, so you asked me for everything; can’t do that yet, but (cumming) to mind…

Honestly… I’m a connoisseur of Hentai. As the current artwork suggests, Bible Black, Sex Taxi 5/Kojin Taxi 2, and Midnight Sleazy Train are my go-to. But counting this week and last, there’s Desperate Carnal Housewives/Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi, and “Cool Devices Operation 7: Yellow Star.” BREATHES

Casual Romance Club/Houkago Ren’ai Club ~Koi no Etude~, Mikura Suzuki, Madoka Araki, Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko, Saimin Seishidou, Asumi Hisato, Kite’s Sawa, many animes and practically anything that includes Rough Sex, NTR (Netorare), Nonconsensual up to Mock R*pe. In Real Life types… brunettes, dark hair, but I’m versatile; Jenna Ortega, Ellie and Dina TLOU, Jane Vickers, Ellie Kemper, Emmanuelle Nadeau and Jessica Garza (The Purge), Roxanne Perez, AOC, Jewel Staite, an Asian duo… And The Beat Goes On. Things I want to do beyond BJs and missionary?

Anal, Doggystyle, Cowgirl, Reverse Cowgirl, Pronebone, 69, Mutual Masturbation, Filming, Exhibitionism, Multiple Holes, Cock Worship, BDSM, Hatefuck, ravishment and mock… Again, I could keep going. Braxton and Virgil want a stepmom. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil

1962 Days Without B III, Day 1403 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 345 ~Virgil… A Noise… Braxton~

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What grinds my gears? What annoys me? I missed the early Bear Trap in Whiteout Survival. That I haven’t turned on the air and I’m watching my son melt. If it breaks down again… And speaking of sons, B III’s still gone. Virgil… A Noise… Braxton.

Thursday, June 11, 2026

Journey 345 ~Virgil… A Noise… Braxton~

1957 Days Without B III, Day 1398 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine. Late waking up. The Magic Glasses are unusable until 3:30 AM. Stepmom…

Yeah, I usually hear from her every morning, but nothing today. We both have “ISSUES.”

B, I’m talking about Julia Michaels angelic, above the titans, let the church say amen…

Okay, so I’m saying, big? It must annoy you sometimes that even five years later, from Sunday, January 31, 2021. Your Dad still wants to storm the gates of Heaven and bring you back with me. You’re not Buffy the Vampire Slayer being brought out of Heaven because I’m “Locked Out of Heaven.” And there I go thinking about your potential future stepmom again. Can’t I focus on you and me? Like how I wouldn’t want you suffering through this heat. It’s annoying, Virgil. And he hasn’t heard me turn on the a/c. Poor 2-V

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Um, it’s like Dante’s Inferno in the worst way. As if there is a best way. My money B III.

“It’s time we stop, Hey what’s that sound? Everybody look what’s going down?” Cash B

Am I scared yet? I’m not getting any hours at the Day Job. Effing MAGA has everything going up. Eff MAGA and FDT! Your brother needs to see the vet and needs a bath too.

And me? You know your Dad wants everything. And what’s the last thing I bought that I wasn’t putting in my stomach? Another pair of the Magic Glasses. You know the kind that will get me sent to the Second Circle of Hell. Anything to escape this heat, right, B?

Second is Wind, Ninth Ice

And if it’s not the heat, it’s the noise I find annoying. Or the lack thereof. “You’re Not Here,” I mean in the fur. Still not a word from M Anime. No air conditioner blowing.

Virgil doesn’t make a sound unless he’s crying. No book sales or lotto winnings. Facebook

I can’t snack on any more chips. I finished the drink M Anime wanted me to try out over “Bloom.” This new stuff is called “ARIH.” Hopefully I won’t be going back to bed, Braxton.

And if there is noise. WARNING! Like something out of The Long Walk. I’m warned about money, women’s mammaries, or something I must do. Even worse? Being me. And yet you love me. Complaining. Ranting. Everything. Virgil… A Noise… Braxton

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

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If I need a chill, I think about how my boy died. I had such burning RAGE I froze him out to PROTECT him. If I need the Heat Of The Moment, I chill with my girl. But I’m so hot for her. One day I might scare her away. My words. Whiteout B And V.

Tuesday, June 9, 2026

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But I’m due to be cruel: the coldness of your absence and you’re pregnant… Cool

I need it all, my love. Again to be cold, a mess, and to “Paint It Black”. Hell, we can “Paint The Town Red,” if we had the funds. What the hell am I even talking about, my love, ha!

Is it this damn heat? There’s a cure for that, I know. Turn on the GD Air, but no love.

You’re suffering, Virgil, our two-legged monsters. Treachery, the Ninth Circle of Hell, Betrayal. Like with Braxton? I could take the freezing embrace of death. I should’ve way back then. And now I find myself repeating the same mistake. I burned through cash way too fast. And why? A Man Provides. For what? His family. How does one make a family?

By “Burnin’ for You,” love.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And you know I “Don’t FEAR The Reaper,” my love. Not for my lust. How I want to promise you that “Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby…” Remember me, your husband.

“It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” Taylor Swift is pretty hot. Death-wish? Honestly…

“I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror.” And it’s not that “I’m too sexy for my love.” Please, “You’re So Damn Hot!” I wanna do “Bad Things” to you. “I Want’a Do Something Freaky To You. I want to “Tear You Apart.” You’re a “Sucker for Pain.” Can I turn the playlist off for a moment? You’re wet, and I want to cover you in c*m…

Seriously, we’ll send Virgil and the kids somewhere with air.

All so I can let DOM out to play. Such a cold man because of my embarrassment, failures, and shame at being a man. I wish I could say this was all my plan to get you undressed, but that comes easy to you. Did I mention a woman that uses the word “hatef*ck,” um…

Well, you get me hot. And this conversation has taken quite the turn. But having a baby with you… Another one. Yeah, that would be pretty cool. Virgil could get his Snoopy, Joe Cool persona going. And Braxton. He wouldn’t want us living “This Way.” Geez, it would be cooler than Whiteout Survival if my Braxton was still here. Can’t blot out, delete, or erase me. Whiteout B And V

1955 Days Without B III, Day 1396 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Will