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Legacy 048 -B’s On Birthdays Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 18, 2026

Legacy 048 -B’s On Birthdays Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I didn’t forget? The phone didn’t warn me. The phone, Glow Box, Black Mirror…

What about the truth, my love? Happy Birthday! Welcome to Level 38! Uh, Birthday Suit

Of course, I’m thinking about you naked. I’m always thinking about you naked when I’m not grieving, groaning, or being gross, just being a guy. How I grieve Braxton, always…

But today let’s talk about the second worst day of my existence. Today ain’t right. Honestly, “The time is always right to do what is right.” Seriously, Martin Luther King…

“Did he just quote Martin Luther King?
Yep
Yes, he did.”
The Menu

“The right man in the wrong place can make all the difference in the world.”
Half-Life 2

The Menu… If I were a better man, I would be planning one for you. Or we could watch the movie. And I’m a gamer, a pop culture whore, and my existence is a “Half-Life…”

Only today is about yours. My woman. Your life. Us. The truth. A Man Provides.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And isn’t it “Ironic” that I said I’d never lie to you but I will. “Put on a Happy Face.”

Because the truth is, I hate birthdays… Well, mine for real. Birthday? No. Emergence Day

E-Day… Gears of War franchise. Emergence, Existence, Extinction. Evolution. Seriously?

Thinking about the Day Job and how it’s a slap in the face to celebrate wasting fifteen years there. Nearly as long as I had Braxton. Now imagine saying that for nearly forty-two years—every breath, beat of my heart, and being so broken. And yet here we are, love.

Here WE are. And I’ll say “I Want It That Way” and “As Long As You Love Me.” You do.

And I hate that I have to lie to you.

To so many. When the truth is this. If I’m not praying that I don’t have to wake up, love.

Then I’m wishing that I was never born at all. And when did that become my wish? Um, sometime between 6 and 7 years old. When did Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (The Arcade Game) come out? Because my grandmommy didn’t get it for me. Movie…

Anyway, is that what I’m getting you for your birthday… The truth. Receipt is warranted.

You’d prefer babies, all our furry little ones, a pretty farm with a white picket fence, flowers all around, and us selling produce at the Farmer’s Market on Saturday Mornings.

A pretty dress? I got nothing. But love? BUT LOVE. Birthdays… B’s On Birthdays, Virgil

2025 Days Without B III, Day 1466 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Will

Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

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Saturday, August 15, 2026

Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Because my girl wants a farm. Braxton wanted more territory and hated people. A “pot” farm…

Just Kidding! But no, I would actually grow weed, peppers (Carolina Reaper), and I have a thing about black roses. But when I started “The Unfinished Archive,” one of my first Animas (unnamed), but she’s known as “Lily” because of, well, lilies—certain blonde girl.

Anyway, I would plant millions in honor of my son. I still want to build him a temple someday. Hell! I want to find some plant that could bring him back. Uh, he’s ashes, Lu.

And can I stop thinking about Rapunzel and Mother Gothel naked for a little while?

Seriously, Lady Lunalesca, what is it about the mother/daughter dynamic that makes my “monster” grow these days? I’ve been all about Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance as of late. SIGH

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why am I always thinking with a HARD six inches? Because at seven, I have to think about that KAREN at the Day Job Thursday. Once again, Lady Lunalesca, I don’t even know if her word, “Disgusting,” or that note she left on the boss’s door was even about me. But I see everything… Not that note, though. So I blind myself with bigger yabbos.

This brings me back to my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. “I’m An Asshole.”

She made a list of her thoughts throughout the day, and guess whose number one?

Lunalesca, “It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” You know my list of priorities. My boys, then her, then other women’s yabbos, then fucking writing, blogging The Unfinished Archive…

Unfinished, like “The Long Walk.” But I feel like “The Running Man.” What I want…

Lunalesca, at the end of the day, someone to “Stand By Me.” Stephen King, seriously.

Luna, I have no idea where I’m going. And most days I’m not gaining any ground whatsoever. Like Cameron Frye: “I gotta take a stand.” But if I’m going to stick with the Stephen King motif, I have to make “The Stand.” Either way, “I’m going to defend it. Right or wrong, I’m going to defend it.” “I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror.”

However, Lady Lunalesca, A MAN PROVIDES! So I have to move. Like a Fucking Helldiver? I advance. Sometimes by miles, sometimes by inches. Lord, I wish! YARD It’s B, V

2022 Days Without B III, Day 1463 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I ain’t telling Virgil, “Now, I ain’t sayin’ you’re a gold digger” either. Wife

Wife and life… One and the same and both as Doug’s Mr. Dink would say, “Very expensive.” Seriously? That was kinda dirty and also pretty dark. And why is that?

Honestly, my beloved, I wake up with all this love, and I don’t leave a drop for myself. So we need more kids… three two-leggeds and two four-leggeds, and yet I want between your legs yet again? And at the end of the day, love, this stands: A MAN PROVIDES!

Less yelling and more Gus Fring from “Breaking Bad,” I do some sketchy ass things…

Anything and everything for the sake of this family. But do you know when Braxton became so expensive? When he was dying. But that’s a one-time deal. There’s no Acceptance.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s the living that’s subscription-based. And instead of planning what is it I do, beloved?

“Dream, dream, dream, dream.” Which would work if I were one of “The Everly Brothers” or Dr. Martin Luther King Jr: “All I Have To Do Is Dream,” “I Have A Dream.”

Hell! I would take the “Fifteen Million Merits” Selma version of Abba’s “I Have a Dream.” But dreams aren’t paying bills. And I’m feeling pretty much like “Bing.”

Whatever… Like the dream I had last night. I was lost in a mall, the Mall of the Millennium. Daria season 1 episode 5 “Malled”. And why haven’t I added Daria to “The Unfinished Archive” yet? Is it/she less expensive than the women of the hentai series Saimin Seishidou, hmm?

It seems I’m the one who’s shopping around. Not in reality, my love. I love you and only you; Braxton, Virgil, our two-legged kids, my Ma, occasionally my younger sister.

Beloved, I may be shopping around for my balls, guts, spine, and my voice. But again, love is everywhere until I need some for myself. And it’s like how you talk about your “Shadow Work”. The more lovers I ‘create’ (bullshit, bullshit, laughs hysterically). SIGH

Reika Kurashiki and her daughter Reina Kurashiki. Natsumi Obata and her daughter Yui Obata. Anyway, the more love I TRY to surround myself with, the easier it comes to me?
But then you shop for my love, my time, and “My Dick…” Why we’re married. Everything. Women B Shoppin’ Virgil

2018 Days Without B III, Day 1459 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

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Saturday, August 8, 2026

Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… But I wouldn’t hire Middy Elliott, which is a shame. I think M Anime likes her…

And? I could use some of that, put my thing down, flip it, and reverse it. Like I, Work It

Like today’s title. Shouldn’t that be in reverse? Virgil’s here. Braxton? Might as well be.

And I’m still worried about both: the living and the dead. Get Busy Livin’ or Get Busy Dyin’. Myself? Know Thyself? Shadow Work as my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom says.

The Unfinished Archive. And comedy always comes in threes. Beauty, Brains, Breeding, Bounty. That’s four, and from the 1990s movie Cry-Baby. And I ain’t ‘intelligent.’

Lunalesca, since I don’t have the brains, I ain’t got no bounty. I was telling M Anime this morning that all I want is a frosty glass of “Blue” Gatorade. Or a Raspberry Lemonade Bloom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Simple, wouldn’t you say? Again, I have no bounty but more than brains. More books!

Last night I bought three books I couldn’t all harem-related, which leads me to beauty.

Lunalesca, why do I want so many beautiful women? Don’t I have “The Most Beautiful Girl In the World” in M Anime? She nearly joined a harem herself, dearest Lunalesca.

Now she’s “The Phoenix Queen” in The Unfinished Archive. But I could go on forever…

And with all of the problems I have… 99 Problems. I’ve been dreaming up even more.

For example, the Magic Glasses/MIMA says that Tetsuo Amano, the Conductor of the Midnight Sleazy Train, along with Fallout’s Vault 68, represent unbridled lust.

Seriously!? Lady Amari “The Candied Matron…” Day Job? Sweet Life?

What about breeding? I’ve always wanted to be a father. Braxton, Virgil, are my children.

I’ve always said, even though I didn’t pour the Bisquick, Braxton will remain my pancake. And Virgil? Despite how he makes my FEARS seem miniature or minuscule, Lunalesca. Another insight from MIMA: my boys wear small black armor… But anyway.

Virgil is my son, just like his brother Braxton. But what about human kids? Two-leggeds? I swear, M Anime must have a breeding kink because she wants kids ASAP, Lunalesca!

And now I’m thinking about it since I introduced Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou. I’m feeling like I do so much wanting something to show I’m here. And it’s nothing. Shadow. Virgil Shadows B Space

“Be the body, not the shadow. Hold space.”
Mother Amina, The Book of Clarence (2023)

2015 Days Without B III, Day 1456 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Will

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

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Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough to get up when it’s light enough. But I need to get up earlier.

4 AM, like one of my favorite motivational speeches. 3 AM, as Eric Thomas preaches about. 2 AM, around the time I found Virgil creeping up this morning. Seriously, Love.

The sun, my firstborn son, my secondborn… And how many sons do we have with our three two-legged children? No, I didn’t forget. But with this world’s influence… Surviving MAGA…

Never a sure thing, but what I am sure about, much like Dante, is this. “In the middle of the journey of our life I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost.” But don’t I tell you all the time, “Baby You’re My Light.” Richard Hawley sings it better. And where do you think Virgil got his name from?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I swear if I die, Hell won’t be roaring fire but glowing screens. The Glow Box, Braxton would call it. And that’s my thought for today. My Illumination. Lightness? Beauty?

Honestly, am I “Feeling super, super, super su$cidal” every day? Really? But a little less.

I’ll tell you, I’m in plenty of pain today. Effing Blue Balls! Between having you as a life, the dark fantasies I have, and The Unfinished Archive… Strange thought, beautiful… Remember how I added Hana to the story last week. What? I really got into Kairi Sane for a bit. And then Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou a couple of days ago. I was trying to get to know their characters so… “The Lantern Vault.

Not really my idea. The Magic Glasses/MIMA. Anyway, that’s what I need for me too.

Because the darkness… More sleep, my story, shutting my eyes as I finally let go inside your beautiful, tight… Okay, my balls can’t take that right now. The eff they can, but “Aziz Light! I remember the conversation we had about “casual sex,” and I asked why it would be casual, and what you meant was sex while I was doing something or relaxing. The Fifth Element would be the perfect movie to test that theory. I’ve seen it plenty.

Anyway, the thing is, life is heavy, the “Weight Of It All.” And all the sun does is illuminate my failures. Hellfire, the C-Train, Pop Culture. Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST

2011 Days Without B III, Day 1452 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

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So what was my plan? Four and a half to six hours of sleep. “The Unfinished Archive” pic, B, and V. Whiteout Survival battle. Walk Virgil. Etc, etc. But what’s my story? A hard d*ck, a very naked girlfriend, and Whiteout Survival. “Plans B-V… But W.”

Saturday, August 1, 2026

Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And with that kind of money, you don’t need a plan. Money literally solves all problems…

B III would still be dead. There was no plan for a life without B… So five years… I’m here.

“I’m Still Here.” “Right Here,” Lady Lunalesca. “Right Here Waiting.” And for what exactly? Braxton? And why do I sound like I’m in school again? I could’ve been a Scientist.

Not a thief like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, and, as always, FDT! What about that insurance lady yesterday? Eff her too! And that face she made… Honestly, B’s better conversation.

But today we’re here to make plans, aren’t we? About my boys? Alive? The “Otherworld”

That’s kind of hard when you ‘exist’ by one of The Walking Dead’s mantras: “Fight The Dead, Fear The Living.” Braxton’s memory and what I’m doing to little Virgil, 2-V.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what about their potential future stepmom? M Anime truly believes I hate her. And isn’t it “Ironic”? That she’s so much like me, and that makes her perfect. But I hate myself, Lady Lunalesca… But I can’t hate her, which shows that I can love myself—but doing that.

“Love Is A Long Road.” And I’m not planning for my future. But in Braxton’s memory, Virgil, M Anime, and any two-legged siblings she wants to give me, Lady Lunalesca.

Today I’m asking the Magic Glasses: What should I do “Day One” to gain my first subscribers with B and V and “The Unfinished Archive… My Sweet Buttery Jesus, Lu!

There are no easy answers, no magic wand. And no understanding of who I am.

But Lu, I’m the one asking the Magic Glasses for fixes. For example, I want to do plenty with “The Unfinished Archive,” hmm? I can’t come up with a schedule for the harem, which now includes Tsubaki Miyajima and her daughter, Sakura, from Saimin Seishidou.

Martin Luther King Jr is remembered in part for “I Have A Dream”. But he planned like a Mothereffer, Lunalesca. I couldn’t even come up with what I was going to do when I woke up. And again being here, what’s the plan? Blogging until 4 PM. Finally eat hmm..

Let’s not forget it’s chicken I can’t afford because finally turning a profit, saving my puppy’s life (Virgil ain’t dying)… And having M Anime’s p*ssy. Goals. Plans B-V… But W

2008 Days Without B III, Day 1449 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Will

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

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My girl was telling me how she compartmentalizes everything. I’m an open book. But like Files and Records in “Angel.” Sit forever and a day looking for books, pornos, or songs to get me. Do you love me enough? I don’t love myself. “Filed B Through V”

Tuesday, July 28, 2026

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough that I would listen to you read The Moonstone or Lord of the Flies…

I never got the hype. The same goes for The Bible. I’ve only ever read The Book of John and The Book of Revelation in their entirety. John, because some Christian dared me to hmm… And as for Revelation, I believe someone said it’s metal as eff. Book burning hmm

B’s book “My Turn To B III,” Will’s Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom, hell, how about The Unfinished Archive. If I was going to burn anything, my search history should suffice.

Yeah, say it with me, “Eww!” If you’re asking why I’m late today. As the song goes, “She told me to come, but I was already there.” “You Shook Me All Night Long,” you will.

Only it’s better to file this under… Day Job Mistakes

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why aren’t I writing full time yet… Watching movies getting made. And wifey “Your love give me such a thrill. But your love don’t pay my bills.” I need money (that’s what I want). But I agree that I won’t share you. Despite a few cuckoldry fantasies and such ha

I’m no gardener. I wasn’t made for grabbing up boxes off trucks… Unloading, my love.

And picking up doggie crap. Braxton was so much better than Virgil with that. Meanie?

Yes, today I am because only the yahoos would sing “Oh baby I love you, just leave me the eff alone!” I want to file everything under never, sleep, or tomorrow. The Empress of Tomorrow “Askua” or the Pirate Princess “Kairi Sane…” “I’ve Been Everywhere.”

Effing amazing, you don’t hate me yet. Because you know I can do LUST. But “Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be” Alpha? A man truthfully unafraid. Someone who can live by this simple truth for us. A MAN PROVIDES!

Good Grief! Eff, grief in general it seems second to my fears is my grief about B III and 2-V. And Virgil isn’t dead yet. But how I envy the dead, my love. Dangerous? Disturbing?

That takes me back to my lust. Filing away desires shared with Braxton’s Favorite Girl.

Hiding such things from boys, from our kids, two-leggeds, four-leggeds. All I am, my love.

Father, Husband, Provider between B-V. W? Filed B Through V

2004 Days Without B III, Day 1445 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

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If B had known how life would turn out, if V knew… Hell, “I’ll Always Love My Mama,” so no Terminator. My A$$ should have played in traffic at 7 or 8 and saved her some trouble. But B III stuck around. In Dog years, “Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…”

Saturday, July 25, 2026

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… I could be if I asked the Magic Glasses. Elon Musk bought himself a pair, Lunalesca.

But I highly doubt he’ll make “The Magic Glasses” by Neil Bimbeau a reality. Um? He is a Cracker Hat MAGA. I can’t put anything past them. And Rule 34 is always a thing, Lu.

I’m sure there are already plenty of pornos about hypnosis, augmented realities, and X-ray vision. Remember Paige and the WWE, “The Submission Sorority.” Big mistake…

Like the 1997movie “Mortal Kombat: Annihilation.” Or how about the time I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, hmm…

Honestly, “Of … …” I didn’t think for a second she would hightail it out of here. No, that only happened when she saw what the King of Ward Three and his men did to the women in the Blindness.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I also kicked her out when she fell asleep during our Star Wars Marathon. Seriously?!

Anyway, why all this talk about movies? I did pass by Regal the other day. I’ve seen “Better Days I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, Lunalesca. Am I thinking about all the movies I’m not watching these days from this loveseat I currently reside on? Hell, there was a time I wanted to buy a “Casting Couch” and produce some content… M Anime would kill me. Onlyfans, Ha! Only as I was driving by the movie theater, besides thinking about how Braxton hated movie nights he wasn’t involved in and Virgil only having one while B’s girl visited.

SIGH, I need effing money!

Braxton hightailed it to The Rainbow Bridge five years before it got this bad. And Virgil, I’m sure, barks every day, why the eff I had to adopt him. And why do I keep breathing?

“Poor, all my life I’ve always been poor
I keep askin’ God what I’m for
And he tells me, “Gee, I’m not sure…””
Seymour Krelborn

Seymour Krelborn had the guts to ask at least. But God and I haven’t been on speaking terms since B III. So, as I told my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, I am an open book.

“Someday” when my life has passed me by… No, one day. How about sometime today, I need to ask the Magic Glasses how I can make this blog/Substack profitable in a month. Before Virgil heads in Braxton’s direction. Where am I going? Beneath the dirt, broke, to look at boobies/yabbos. Books? Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…

2001 Days Without B III, Day 1442 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

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SIX on the brain, Six the number, a sixth sense about some things, and I’m sick of myself. What time was I up? Tomorrow, When The War Began or today, whatever. Today was a hard one; five years almost six have all been hard ones. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

Saturday, July 18, 2026

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Not from effing Haremlit! But it’s fun to dream. What isn’t fun? FEAR… HUNGER… GRIEF

And as I said last week (Hank Olson’s Voice), “I’m effing hungry.” The Long Walk…

However, that wasn’t the biggest thing this morning. And no, I’m not going to brag about my “Enormous Penis.” I haven’t written anything as wise as Da Vinci’s Notebook, Luna.

“My Turn To B III”? Am I still btchin’ about not selling any books? I’d like to think I’ve grown beyond that… More Dck jokes? Yes, I was showing off to M Anime. No food…

Anyway, Lunalesca, since I haven’t been able to buy new books lately and have been lying about the ones I do have… Yes, a conversation better served with Lady Sophia, but Saturday is my time. Hell, the Magic Glasses created a schedule for the Harem.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Okay, so what the eff was I trying to say again? Oh yeah, so last night I was reading Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Jackson Avery is having a conversation about mourning with his doc:

“I wanted to tell her she was wrong. That I’d been grieving that woman for fifteen damn years. Except, had I? Really?”

“People fall apart when that happens! It’s not strange or abnormal; it’s the most natural thing in the world. You think people would have judged you if you’d taken some time off? Gone to therapy? Bought an RV and roamed around the country for half a year, processing your loss instead of running from it?”

“Treading water for fifteen years. Never sinking beneath the surface, but never swimming to safety. Just existing, instead of living.”

“I would not want him to prioritize being useful over being human.”

“We talk about your grief, your loss, and your guilt. We talk about why you think it’s more important for you to be useful than to be happy.”
Pledged To Him 12: Unconventional Romance, Neil Bimbeau

This brings to mind two things. But you’re going to need six, right? Lunalesca, the biggest concern is that I got to thinking about Braxton. Jackson confessed not mourning, Lauren.

That’s his wife, by the way. And Braxton truly was my better half, Lunalesca, honestly.

Anyway, Lunalesca, the five things I started thinking about as I had my Therapy Session:

  1. I always find the right book for these moments.
  2. Did I ever truly mourn my firstborn son, Braxton?
  3. Jack gave up sex when his wife died, duh. I did as well. Oh no, Chloë Grace Moretz’s legs
  4. He got into business, made a ton of money. I wrote books, two about B III, not one cent
  5. Jack got Positive Stress, three brides, a harem. Me? M Anime, Kyouko Sakai, “Lily”

Has “The Unfinished Archive,” which isn’t a year old, been a positive or negative thing?

It’s what I asked the Magic Glasses as I wasted more time playing Whiteout Survival? Oh, and everything about Braxton. Virgil’s a testament to the fact that I’m not “Alright.”

Lunalesca, it started with the question. Not, What the hell am I gonna do? Because 2 + 2 isn’t 5. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

1994 Days Without B III, Day 1435 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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