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The leap to 42 is in a few days. The leap to 16 was too much for Braxton. And Virgil is trying to make it to 6. But we’re not frogs. Be we angels? We are but men, just some with more hair and four legs. We keep hopping along. Braxton And Virgil Leap.

Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Legacy 063 -Braxton And Virgil Leap-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I’m more like MAGA than I am like my boys. Unconditional love… Ringing any bells? Beats my playlist.

The Day Job? Again? Yes. And I don’t even want to talk about it now. Bigger fish to fry E

Or should I say frogs. Do you fry frog legs, bake, or whatever? All I know is I want a piece of Kermit’s ass right now. His legs will do. I thought I wasn’t going to talk about this? It’s T-minus 5 days. Emergence Day. Imagine if those poor bastards on Sera had the heads up. A world full of monsters beneath them. Only takes one to kill, doesn’t it?

Speaking of monsters and killing, MAGA. If I’ve learned anything, it’s that HATE is expensive, Inspector. It “Feels Good.” I ain’t gonna lie. But it’s more expensive than an ISP.

I can look up Jaundice.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

A medical condition that turns the skin and the whites of the eyes yellow because of high levels of bilirubin in the blood. Random, I know, Inspector. But I heard it in my dreams a couple of nights back. Why? Virgil’s tail? A bath is in order. Coldplay’s yellow. Yellow…

As in yellowbelly coward. No wonder I summoned up the blood today, my dear Echo.

But this wasn’t righteous. It was pure anger, rivaling the RAGE Virus. Remember B III?

The madness I hid from Braxton that led to my indifference and, days later, his death. I shouldn’t say that. No, no, Inspector! Back then I hated myself; today I hate the whole damn world because I wear my heart on my sleeve and then…

Blue? I should have been blue and thought about Braxton leaping out of this Hell. And Hell, Virgil will leap to be around me, or rather crawl like an escaping slave. It irks me too. But it doesn’t make me see red. And that’s what I saw today. Red. Genocidal.

Inspector, those are specific acts committed with the intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnic, racial, or religious group. “I’m not crazy or anything.” Superman? Nope.

Misanthrope? That I am. And it’s not easy “Bein’ Green.” Sick to myself, Inspector Echo. Wanting to leap my black ass off the ledge rather into the drink. Swimming’s terrifying.

But Langston Hughes is far more eloquent than I. Kermit? E-Day? Braxton And Virgil Leap

“The calm,
Cool face of the river
Asked me for a kiss.”
From Langston Hughes

2040 Days Without B III, Day 1481 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

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My favorite hentais? First, we’d still be here. Second, don’t judge me. Not much chance of that. If we’re talking about V, breaking his heart, and M Anime broke my heart. But we’re Back In Love Again. But what is love? Not hentai. Judgy Of Animes B-V

Saturday, August 29, 2026

Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Lies! But put owning an anime studio as one of my goals. Dreams? Wishes? E-Day Wish…

Fuck me! You know, for a second there, Lunalesca… I had a moment of positivity.

Honestly, another year where you can call me Comic Book Guy from The Simpsons: “Oh, I’ve wasted my life.” And for the record, I haven’t watched The Simpsons in a very long time, Lunalesca. Peanuts was the story of my life… As Charlie Brown, not as Franklin. I didn’t think you were one of those people, Lu. Rocko’s Modern Life was practically my bible for adulting. Hell, Virgil, Spunky, and Snoopy. Noticing a pattern, Lunalesca.

However, today I’m hoping to break that pattern. No, Virgil is alive and well… Wishing. I’m not going to cry over Braxton right this second. Or be pissy at their Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

So get to it, eh? Or in the words of Cody Rhodes, What Do You Wanna Talk About? Well, uh, Anime. Hentai and Ecchi, specifically. Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny? Sigh!

01: Bible Black
02: Casual Romance Club -L’etude de l’amour-
03: “Cool Devices” Operation 07: Yellow Star (Ayana)
04: Colorful (TV Series 1999)
05: Desert Island Story X
06: Desperate Carnal Housewives, Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi
07: Discipline: The Record of a Crusade
08: Eiken (TV Mini Series 2003–2004)
09: Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko
10: Himawari wa Yoru ni Saku (Hisato Azuma)
11: Isaku
12: Kite (Sawa)
13: Kuroinu Kedakaki Seijo wa Hakudaku ni Somaru (Claudia Levantine)
14: Mezzo Forte (Mikura)
15: Midnight Sleazy Train, Saishuu Chikan Densha
16: Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance
17: Sex Taxi\Kojin Taxi (Kyouko Sakai)
18: Shusaku
19: Virgin Roster: Shukketsubo
20: The Blackmail: Tomorrow Never Ends

Why 20? My Dear Lady Lunalesca, I could go on forever and a day. Are any Hentais love stories? Again, I’ll be here all day trying to find some. Hell, I knew some softcore pornos that were all about the love. How things change. The “man” I am, judging Hentai.

Perhaps I’ll share this with M Anime. I’ve spent most of the week judging her. And then thinking What Is Love? Baby, don’t hurt me. Don’t hurt me no more. Yet I’m a sadist, hmm.

She’s a Masochist with a Breeding Kink (but real). Judging Lovers… Judgy Of Animes B-V

2036 Days Without B III, Day 1477 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 057 -Talking Anime B-V-

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Thursday, August 27, 2026

Legacy 057 -Talking Anime B-V-

2034 Days Without B III, Day 1475 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? “We’ve Only Just Begun,” haven’t we, B? Virgil, help us. At least he’s here.

V isn’t someone that can be refuted, who I would return in a million years, and must one day be reckoned with. That is, if I can keep him alive. Vet visits, eye appointments, docs

Cash basically. And do you know what I realized, B? I never asked you whether V could join our family. While I may have forgotten his Gotcha Day… Saturday, August 13, 2022. I will never forget you all but pushed him into the car. You know V’s never jumped in.

Here we are in 2026, and I still had to listen to him cry in your room until his rescue…

Vis-à-vis picking him up in his pillow and bringing him into the Den. It’s like I’m “The Big Bad Wolf.” That’s heavy. Literally, “The Heavy.”

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

And speaking of picking things up, lifting… Something, something, truck unload, spirits, and then son. Tell me what effing happened yesterday with your potential stepmom.

Remember the day we had to have “The Talk” about you not humping your toys around your favorite girl. Not latching on to her yaboos or behind. Seriously, Braxton Barks.

Anyway, she loved you even for the eight months after E-Day as you threatened fingers.

She became your favorite, and we both love her, but then there’s M Anime… Braxton…

She’s my favorite HUMAN. Hell, Braxton, you’re a little god, the angel on my shoulder, my prince. She’s my goddess. The Most Beautiful Girl in the World. My Phoenix Queen.

But last night, Geez Louise!

“You Always Hurt the One You Love.” Well, I killed you. The only silver lining is that 2-V is “healthy,” but hasn’t seen a vet. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself on E-Day. I fucking hate that I was born. And here we have M Anime on the 24th of 2025.

Braxton, you hurt me; you left. I hurt me; I stay. M Anime hurt me; she left. And then you returned. Not a reincarnation of your brother, but as the song goes, “He Lives In You.” I’m Still Here.” And M Anime came back. Of you, me, and her, who do I hate? I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror. LOVE? Talking, you, V, M… “Someday.” Talking Anime B-V

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 056 -B’s Are Silent, Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 26, 2026

Legacy 056 -B’s Are Silent, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And I don’t only mean the fact that Virgil catches far too many Z’s. And when awake, Inspector…

B was like this; your brother was all that, the almighty Braxton Barks Bradford, Inspector.

I miss him. And besides his last breath, the last beat of his heart, how his head bobbed, Inspector. I remember the silence. B was brave enough to exist in silence. But he would bark his head off for anything and everything. And that’s what I’m thinking of right now. And it’s too much damn noise. Or it’s silent like a graveyard. “You choose.” Major…

“For better or for worse, there’s going to be wheat, and there’s going to be chaff. You choose, boys. Remember, you choose.”

“Shut the fuck up! Holy shit! Suck a dick, will you? I mean, just… You fucking lotus-eater. You old sack of shit. Shut up!”
The Long Walk (2025)

Excuse me, The Major from The Long Walk. The sound of my boots pounding pavement

More like wood or linoleum flooring, the Day Job, “The Bad Place,” my boys imagine.

Speaking of imagine… “Whatever You Imagine.” Wasn’t I last week or the week before… “Disgusting.”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I made up a whole story in my head that I had offended someone at the Day Job and they would never let me touch the speaker again. My nearly forty-two-year-old ass worried over something so trivial. And do we need to walk down the road of E-Day, Inspector E.

That’s causing the most noise—the sound of blowing out candles on an Emergence Day cake that I will never light. Hell, I might not have enough cash for a cake this year, I bet.

Between keeping Will’s Writings, Witticisms, and Wisdom/The Unfinished Archive alive. And the way my ISP keeps robbing me. I’m losing “Mo’ Money, Mo Money,” Echo.

That chime of the phone is rarely good news. And B III and 2-V’s, stepmother…

Potential Future stepmom to be sure. Braxton knows I appreciate her dirty Spanish, my dear Inspector Echo. But still I come off as one of The Yayhoos singing “Baby I Love You…” but leave me the Fuck Alone! Though that’s not exactly true this week…

Seriously! This bitch (Braxton’s words) broke my heart the 24th of last year and had me “Smokin Out The Window.” And all I wanted to hear was her crying, screaming, and moaning. Her and the man she supposedly chose. Suffering? Sexually? Am I a SIMP? A Sadist? The stuff I hear in the silence. Sex causes me not to think. The creation of a life…

Admittedly attempted, allegedly. But death can be noisy too. Shut-up? Scream? B’s Are Silent, Virgil

2033 Days Without B III, Day 1474 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 052 -Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines-

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Saturday, August 22, 2026

Legacy 052 -Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… But I wouldn’t behave like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, or Mark Zuckerberg. And as always, FDT!

Yet another morning and he ain’t dead yet… I wonder how much time that would get me for wishing that was today’s headline? Trust me, Lunalesca, I’ve done much worse.

Into The Badlands, Fear The Walking Dead, and if you aren’t into Mother\Daughter or Sister\Sister, the WWE’s Judgment Day stable. What am I talking about? I’m just saying there are worse things than “Dead Presidents,” the movie Lunalesca… Seriously! ‘wink’

But today’s headline, Lu, is, I’m still “Alive.” Rats! Body-wise, I’m Feeling So Good Today

But unlike Charlie Brown… he didn’t have to mourn Snoopy. I still mourn my Braxton.

And it’s not like his brother has much of a life. Black and white, much like his eyesight, My Lady. And what am I doing?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Much like yesterday, “Times Like These,” “I guess I’m stuck here riffing for you,” Luna.

Song lyrics, movies, and even sports. Can I put one thing down on the page that is actually mine, Lu? Money. How many books did I buy last night, being an idiot, because I only want to get rid of 300 Kindle Points before watching them dwindle by the month’s end, Lady Lu? Pledged To Him 15, Sleepover Harem Part 2, and Blank Checks. SIGH

Do you remember Lunalesca, how I said that the right book seems to find me? So between the two books about harems… Blank Checks poses the question: how much money would it take to make my dreams come true? Physically fine. Mentally? Where’s my obituary?

It wouldn’t be front page news. If I had Stephen King’s because I don’t want to be J.K. Rowling… I have standards. Yeah, this coming from a man who wants to become a New York Times Best-Selling Author, who wants to own a production company rivaling Bang Bros, Pure Taboo, and Fakehub. I want to own a brothel out Nevada way or California, My Lady. And after all that, a small bookstore in a farming town. Seriously, my dear Lu.

Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom wants a farm with a white picket fence, flowers, and all the food she can grow to sell at the local farmer’s market. Luna.

Everything Front page story. Three babies, resurrecting Braxton, someone worth life. Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines.

2029 Days Without B III, Day 1470 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 050 -Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty-

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15 years- where has the time gone? How much have I made with writing? How much are my wee ones worth, B III and V? I’ve made a few bucks when it comes to wickedness… What type of wickedness? Is it worse than the Day Job? Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty.

Thursday, August 20, 2026

Legacy 050 -Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty-

2027 Days Without B III, Day 1468 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? In a word… SICK! Not like that book, “Sick Fux.”

Were you around when I even read that? It’s not something I could read to you or your brother. This is only a quick estimate, but you were/are 15, nearly 16, so that makes you 76, 80 in human years. Virgil’s 5, making him 36, about to be 40 a month after E-Day. But not human. Who would ever volunteer for this? I volunteered to be your Daddy at 21.

Well, give or take a few months. Or you signed up to be my son. The one. Not too bright…

“You’d would have done better with ‘Bitch, get in the car'”
Jake Hayes, Bad Company

“Who?”
“Not too bright, though.”
The Oracle, The Matrix (1999)

Who do you think said it best, Jake Hayes, “Bad Company,” or the Oracle, “The Matrix”? I wish I had time for movies, B. It’s 7:30! We’re only now talking. Last night I was praying.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

I was praying because in your name, who would want to suffer such pain? Stomach ache, celebrating wasting 15 years of my existence at the Day Job, being human, losing your Potential Future Stepmom, etc. August 24th is coming up fast. Should I remind her?

Honestly, B, she is approaching your level on The Blackjack Scale. You remember, B, right?

Your Dad was “The Gambler…” please a gambler at one point. I bet on horses because you and your brother are better than that… But I also enjoyed Blackjack, so I applied it to LIFE. A 21 means you have my love, loyalty, and life. Braxton Barks Bradford. Only You

Virgil is sitting handsomely at 19. M Anime is at 18… Relax, she’s 38, Braxton.

Her age, of course. Your Dad is not a good man, B. The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident is always fresh on my mind. Speaking of being sick. But remember, a few weeks before you left, I had all types of anxiety about two other chicks in Fear The Walking Dead.

Alycia Debnam-Carey and… Oh, you’ve seen I have a thing about moms and daughters, “Saimin Seishidou”. But sisters too! Sophitia and Cassandra Alexandra, for example.

Loyalty to things I shouldn’t want, the Day Job, the almighty Dollar, some Damnable things.

Dare I show loyalty to myself? If I weren’t so sick and carrying cupcakes, I’d have bought a drink. Porno’s the worst drug, but I can’t send you to your room. Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 049 -Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 19, 2026

Legacy 049 -Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Where do I even begin? I didn’t ‘forget’ M Anime’s birthday. I can’t stay in bed. Stomach hurts…

How do I keep getting food poisoning? Unless it’s finally going to take me to my son, then I have no use for this pain. Like I told my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, it’s not like I can afford a mortgage, and I’m definitely not getting into Heaven. Rainbow Bridge?

Wherever it is, Braxton spends his time. 50 Cent said, “Death gotta be easy ‘cause life is hard.” At the moment, YES! Inspector, I found my stones. They’re in my stomach right this second. Or whenever I look at M Anime’s yabbos. Did I see her in her Birthday Suit?

Maybe not yesterday on her actual birthday. But this morning for sure. What a woman.

And lastly, the Magic Glasses/MIMA brought up The Unfinished Archive.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It said that I’m using all the stones I’m throwing at myself to build a place, a palace, for my pain. Hell, Echo, it’s my freaking summer home because reality is way too much, ha!

Yesterday, I said I wish I’d never been born. That’s a hill I’ll die on. Again, don’t I wish, ha.

Like “Heaven’s Hill” in “The Long Walk”. Inspector, I want to be anywhere but here.

Only I’ve said before I will choose the physical pain over anything mental. Lying perhaps.

Because if I can survive losing my boy, I can survive anything else without complaint.

From one day to the next. Am I sure nothing else is coming up? Bad choice of words, right, Inspector? But I mean these days.

Smooth sailing until E-Day… Fuck me, Inspector, I didn’t expect today to take a turn.

However, “I’m Still Here,” lying in bed dreaming of anywhere that’s “Not Quite Paradise” as Bliss 66 sings. “But it sure feels like home?” You know I hate that word…

HOME… Home is where the heart is? I haven’t told Virgil I love him. And M Anime lost that privilege on… Braxton dammit! Sunday, August 24, 2025. Another freaking holiday!

An anniversary? It was the day M Anime broke up with me. Nothing worth celebrating.
“We Found Love” um, 5 months later. Home’s not heart or happiness, Inspector Echo. No

It’s where you have the least amount of “Hurt”. A vacation/holiday is freedom from all pain… Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil

2026 Days Without B III, Day 1467 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

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Saturday, August 15, 2026

Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Because my girl wants a farm. Braxton wanted more territory and hated people. A “pot” farm…

Just Kidding! But no, I would actually grow weed, peppers (Carolina Reaper), and I have a thing about black roses. But when I started “The Unfinished Archive,” one of my first Animas (unnamed), but she’s known as “Lily” because of, well, lilies—certain blonde girl.

Anyway, I would plant millions in honor of my son. I still want to build him a temple someday. Hell! I want to find some plant that could bring him back. Uh, he’s ashes, Lu.

And can I stop thinking about Rapunzel and Mother Gothel naked for a little while?

Seriously, Lady Lunalesca, what is it about the mother/daughter dynamic that makes my “monster” grow these days? I’ve been all about Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance as of late. SIGH

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why am I always thinking with a HARD six inches? Because at seven, I have to think about that KAREN at the Day Job Thursday. Once again, Lady Lunalesca, I don’t even know if her word, “Disgusting,” or that note she left on the boss’s door was even about me. But I see everything… Not that note, though. So I blind myself with bigger yabbos.

This brings me back to my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. “I’m An Asshole.”

She made a list of her thoughts throughout the day, and guess whose number one?

Lunalesca, “It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” You know my list of priorities. My boys, then her, then other women’s yabbos, then fucking writing, blogging The Unfinished Archive…

Unfinished, like “The Long Walk.” But I feel like “The Running Man.” What I want…

Lunalesca, at the end of the day, someone to “Stand By Me.” Stephen King, seriously.

Luna, I have no idea where I’m going. And most days I’m not gaining any ground whatsoever. Like Cameron Frye: “I gotta take a stand.” But if I’m going to stick with the Stephen King motif, I have to make “The Stand.” Either way, “I’m going to defend it. Right or wrong, I’m going to defend it.” “I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror.”

However, Lady Lunalesca, A MAN PROVIDES! So I have to move. Like a Fucking Helldiver? I advance. Sometimes by miles, sometimes by inches. Lord, I wish! YARD It’s B, V

2022 Days Without B III, Day 1463 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 043 -Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust-

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Thursday, August 13, 2026

Legacy 043 -Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust-

2020 Days Without B III, Day 1461 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? In a word… FUCK! Pardon my language. Suspicious, Loyalty, Disgust…

Those are better words. I want to talk about loyalty. But disgust continues to rattle.

Suspicious of a woman? Surely. And for once, not you and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. The Magic Glasses/MIMA called it when I added Natsumi and Yui Obata to The Unfinished Archive. But that’s a whole other story, Braxton. Father’s Perversions…

Honestly, B, I’m sorry. Anyway, today’s story begins in the back of a truck… Bangbus?

Fucking, STOP IT! Okay, so I was thinking about loyalty. When everyone was cheering as we finished the truck unload and “I Think To Myself,” people ain’t shit. But you…

Braxton, you’re the most loyal soul I’ve ever known. But you are your father’s son and if there is one quality you have inherited… DECEPTION

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

“Anger is more useful than despair”
T-850 Cyborg, Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (2003)

I’ll choose DECEPTION over your brother’s COWARDICE. And before you think I’m being a meanie, Virgil is his father’s son as well. I truly am a coward, B. But loyalty?

Braxton, “Love and Happiness,” may be beyond me. But I am damn loyal. It’s fucking people, B III. And by what right do I have to be mad at the Sephora woman this morning, B? One word as I was walking into the office: “Disgusting.” And a note left on the boss’s door. I didn’t read it. Fuck, it might not have anything to do with me, Little B. But…

Suspicious… Like I am of M Anime? She tells me every single day, Braxton, “Te quiero, Papi.” But where did that love go last year?

“That was a warning, Highness. Next time my hand flies on its own. Where I come from, there are penalties when a woman lies”
― Westley, The Princess Bride (1987)

That loyalty… Who am I to talk? I fucking hate myself, B. More so today than the norm, standard, and the usual. All because some KAREN who might not even be a KAREN left a note and spoke the word “Disgusting,” within earshot of me. And here I am scared!

Braxton, you know there were reasons I sent you to time-out. There are reasons I tell Virgil to seek life elsewhere. Your Dad’s a perv, I need private time, plus I’m busy playing around with M Anime. Puppies don’t need to see that. And the things I keep from M…

“Everybody only wants to discuss me. So this must mean I’m disgusting. But it’s just me, I’m just obscene.”
Eminem

Eminem had it right. I showed your Favorite Girl things M Anime wouldn’t approve of.

Her loyalty, yours, Virgil’s, M’s… Sometimes, Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And I don’t just mean a bill being late… Almost. I forgot to get rich sometime this year.

If you have love, you’re rich… For 15 years, I had B. And my job was to keep him alive.

“It is my job to keep you alive. I will not succeed.”
― Avatar (2009)

In 2021, I failed. Hell, for one of those years, I didn’t even have the Day Job. And so today.

Well, rather yesterday, I found out that I will have had that Day Job for 15 years. Friday, August 21, 2026 to be exact. Which means if SOMETHING goes down, it’ll be on the 18th.

Not that I want a party or anything. However, I could use some cupcakes, Inspector.

Nobody got me a damn thing when Braxton’s book was published on August 8, 2025.

One more whole year for a great many things: B’s Death Day and Birthday, his book, the Day Job… E-Day.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Fuck me, Inspector! No, this isn’t The Unfinished Archive, and we will surely get there.

Hell! Around this time last year, M Anime and I were getting ready to break up. And Virgil’s Birthday is the month after E-Day. October 20th. But as I was being reminded of the 15 years I wasted on a job that would eventually help kill my firstborn son… E-Day.

Emergence Day as Gears Of War would call it. The monster I am beginning existence!

Emergence, Existence, Extinction… How I pray for that, and yet, “Every Morning,” when I wake up… That’s it, Inspector Echo, I wake up with nothing to look forward to

But to lose. And that’s what I’m thinking about. I lost E-Day. Well FUCKING Duh!

Less than thirty days until E-Day and I can’t buy my usual cake. Definitely can’t buy dinner. I won’t be getting paid because I used 36 hours of PTO, 12 this week, last, the one before. And I’m waiting for this paycheck like a lotto ticket for Pizza, the food truck?

Then there’s Virgil. What is my secondborn going to do? Watch me sing “King of Wishful Thinking,” as I get drunk off my ass again. Not like I can get drunk off anything this year.

Beauty? That’s an awful lot of pressure to put on my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom.

Inspector, I do call M Anime “My Goddess”. Not like The Exies… This year anyway.

Inspector, will The Unfinished Archive celebrate? B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil

2019 Days Without B III, Day 1460 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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