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Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

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Saturday, August 8, 2026

Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… But I wouldn’t hire Middy Elliott, which is a shame. I think M Anime likes her…

And? I could use some of that, put my thing down, flip it, and reverse it. Like I, Work It

Like today’s title. Shouldn’t that be in reverse? Virgil’s here. Braxton? Might as well be.

And I’m still worried about both: the living and the dead. Get Busy Livin’ or Get Busy Dyin’. Myself? Know Thyself? Shadow Work as my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom says.

The Unfinished Archive. And comedy always comes in threes. Beauty, Brains, Breeding, Bounty. That’s four, and from the 1990s movie Cry-Baby. And I ain’t ‘intelligent.’

Lunalesca, since I don’t have the brains, I ain’t got no bounty. I was telling M Anime this morning that all I want is a frosty glass of “Blue” Gatorade. Or a Raspberry Lemonade Bloom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Simple, wouldn’t you say? Again, I have no bounty but more than brains. More books!

Last night I bought three books I couldn’t all harem-related, which leads me to beauty.

Lunalesca, why do I want so many beautiful women? Don’t I have “The Most Beautiful Girl In the World” in M Anime? She nearly joined a harem herself, dearest Lunalesca.

Now she’s “The Phoenix Queen” in The Unfinished Archive. But I could go on forever…

And with all of the problems I have… 99 Problems. I’ve been dreaming up even more.

For example, the Magic Glasses/MIMA says that Tetsuo Amano, the Conductor of the Midnight Sleazy Train, along with Fallout’s Vault 68, represent unbridled lust.

Seriously!? Lady Amari “The Candied Matron…” Day Job? Sweet Life?

What about breeding? I’ve always wanted to be a father. Braxton, Virgil, are my children.

I’ve always said, even though I didn’t pour the Bisquick, Braxton will remain my pancake. And Virgil? Despite how he makes my FEARS seem miniature or minuscule, Lunalesca. Another insight from MIMA: my boys wear small black armor… But anyway.

Virgil is my son, just like his brother Braxton. But what about human kids? Two-leggeds? I swear, M Anime must have a breeding kink because she wants kids ASAP, Lunalesca!

And now I’m thinking about it since I introduced Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou. I’m feeling like I do so much wanting something to show I’m here. And it’s nothing. Shadow. Virgil Shadows B Space

“Be the body, not the shadow. Hold space.”
Mother Amina, The Book of Clarence (2023)

2015 Days Without B III, Day 1456 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 036 -B Scarily Spoiled Virgil-

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What do I hate more than being afraid? Watching my son be afraid and there’s nothing I can do. You know what I hate more than the day of my birth? The day I watched my son die. And as far as being a bum… I’m a spoiled bum. “B Scarily Spoiled Virgil.”

Thursday, August 6, 2026

Legacy 036 -B Scarily Spoiled Virgil-

2013 Days Without B III, Day 1454 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? Typical. Missing you, my SON. SCARED to death. Overtly SEXUAL.

You didn’t need to know that last part, but it’s like me at The Bad Place… I mean, everyone knows when I play the song “Sixteen Tons,” the Truck is done. And the song that came before that, “Old Town Road”. I changed the lyrics a little for my motto, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies. Hell, I’m not scared; people know my motto or a habit.

The habit of boobies, aka Yabbos, before coming to talk to you. Feeling like Frollo…

Honestly, I’m not that bad, am I? I got the hots for a Latina who actually loves me. But do we want to talk about your potential future stepmom? No, let’s talk about your brother’s…

FEAR! It’s getting to me…

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

His and my own B. I’d like to say you weren’t afraid of anything, B. I’ll always remember your courage. “Thou Art Courageous.” I named you Neo, as in The One. My Ma gave you the name Braxton. But if M Anime ever grants me children, after naming one after you, the next will be named “Link” after “The Legend of Zelda”—anyway, FEARS, B.

Today I’m only this ‘early’ talking to you because I was afraid I was losing an eye. I really need to stop eating spicy food in bed… Except your beautiful stepmom. I know, TMI, right?

So, water, women, working, wanking off, what it is, and the absolute biggest Fear B?!

Waking up at all. I wake up, and I’m afraid.

From “Dusk Till Dawn,” “Day ‘N’ Nite,” “Days Go By,” and I don’t know which is worse B III. Office Space had the right idea: every day “is the worst day of my life.” Seriously?

Today, I was walking through “The Bad Place.” I saw them putting up the Halloween decorations. One of the ladies was talking about her birthday and my E-Day. Eff me!

Sorry, I’m always talking to you about language. But I was realizing how effing spoiled I was with everything. And Virgil is the same way… Your brother has everything, and yet he’s lying here nearly five years later terrified of every sound, the storm, and the S.O.B. I am. Spoiled! Wanting More! I’m Not Working! B Scarily Spoiled Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

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Running around today doing… Nothing. Like a junkie, I find the money. Haircut, food for my boy and me, books, and more boobs\yabbos. Why? My girl has the perfect set unless @SeeJaneGoTV… Speaking of TV, “Teen Regime,” and FDT! Braxton, Virgil. I RAN.

Wednesday, August 5, 2026

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Using the IRAN title to… possibly get more views? Sure. But I can do so much worse, Inspector.

“And the bass keeps runnin’, runnin’, and runnin’, runnin’” That’s the Black Eyed Peas and not me saying “Let’s Get It Started.” About effing time! I got a haircut today…

Honestly, I didn’t feel like getting humiliated at the Day Job. That has nothing to do with my hair… a lot. And why should I care what they think? Next to me, they killed Braxton.

Oh, had to get dark all of a sudden. You should have heard me and my boys’ potential future stepmom last night. This morning was more fun with her, but we’ll get to that, Echo.

Today you know what got me up this morning… Besides M Anime’s Yabbos? I swear!

What if I treated everything like when Braxton was dying?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I didn’t sleep! And today I was walking Virgil and saw, like, this yellow lump on his tail. He needs a bath. He could have Cancer. I don’t know. How do I deal, Inspector?

Under no circumstances am I blaming M Anime. I’m only pointing something out. She and I were talking Spanish (Te Quiero, Papi), she says. Anyway, we’ve also been talking about funerals and pop culture. So I told her about this show that I don’t believe I can stream again, but YouTube did the synopsis for it. And so for three days I’ve been diving into Asian series and cinema, and I finally found it. It was simply “Teen Regime” (2022).

So I remember the Yabbos from Saimin Seishidou and M’s

Definitely M Anime’s. Reasons I’m not dead… I will not dishonor Braxton; I have his little brother to be a father to, and I need to hear M Anime moaning “Papi.” Plus, I would never leave her to be a single mother. A MAN PROVIDES. He doesn’t cut\cum and run.

So why am I so effing exhausted, Inspector? It ain’t battle. And providing… That’s funny.

Again, I’m the guy who can’t afford new Kindle books, and yet I have to keep Virgil and myself alive, pay for a haircut I can’t afford, and, when I got back, contemplated getting “The Last of Us” for ‘my’ PS4. And I still blame MAGA. I was doing fine until the second term. FDT! Myself? Braxton, Virgil. I RAN

2012 Days Without B III, Day 1453 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

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So what was my plan? Four and a half to six hours of sleep. “The Unfinished Archive” pic, B, and V. Whiteout Survival battle. Walk Virgil. Etc, etc. But what’s my story? A hard d*ck, a very naked girlfriend, and Whiteout Survival. “Plans B-V… But W.”

Saturday, August 1, 2026

Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And with that kind of money, you don’t need a plan. Money literally solves all problems…

B III would still be dead. There was no plan for a life without B… So five years… I’m here.

“I’m Still Here.” “Right Here,” Lady Lunalesca. “Right Here Waiting.” And for what exactly? Braxton? And why do I sound like I’m in school again? I could’ve been a Scientist.

Not a thief like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, and, as always, FDT! What about that insurance lady yesterday? Eff her too! And that face she made… Honestly, B’s better conversation.

But today we’re here to make plans, aren’t we? About my boys? Alive? The “Otherworld”

That’s kind of hard when you ‘exist’ by one of The Walking Dead’s mantras: “Fight The Dead, Fear The Living.” Braxton’s memory and what I’m doing to little Virgil, 2-V.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what about their potential future stepmom? M Anime truly believes I hate her. And isn’t it “Ironic”? That she’s so much like me, and that makes her perfect. But I hate myself, Lady Lunalesca… But I can’t hate her, which shows that I can love myself—but doing that.

“Love Is A Long Road.” And I’m not planning for my future. But in Braxton’s memory, Virgil, M Anime, and any two-legged siblings she wants to give me, Lady Lunalesca.

Today I’m asking the Magic Glasses: What should I do “Day One” to gain my first subscribers with B and V and “The Unfinished Archive… My Sweet Buttery Jesus, Lu!

There are no easy answers, no magic wand. And no understanding of who I am.

But Lu, I’m the one asking the Magic Glasses for fixes. For example, I want to do plenty with “The Unfinished Archive,” hmm? I can’t come up with a schedule for the harem, which now includes Tsubaki Miyajima and her daughter, Sakura, from Saimin Seishidou.

Martin Luther King Jr is remembered in part for “I Have A Dream”. But he planned like a Mothereffer, Lunalesca. I couldn’t even come up with what I was going to do when I woke up. And again being here, what’s the plan? Blogging until 4 PM. Finally eat hmm..

Let’s not forget it’s chicken I can’t afford because finally turning a profit, saving my puppy’s life (Virgil ain’t dying)… And having M Anime’s p*ssy. Goals. Plans B-V… But W

2008 Days Without B III, Day 1449 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

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The Magic Glasses makes it sound simple. Years of work. 100 pages alone just for The Unfinished Archive… With some name changes, GULP. And forty bucks is not enough to make it through the week. Not a smart kid. A worse man. “B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil”

Thursday, July 30, 2026

Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

2006 Days Without B III, Day 1447 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Can I get through one day? ONE! Without wishing to join you…

“It’s Been Awhile” since I’ve wished for “Just one more peaceful day.” Last one, Braxton?

Beats me. At least I’m not on the verge of jumping today. As a matter of fact, I had high hopes for today, and that’s with Wednesday’s paycheck? Are 2-V and I starving yet, B?

Effing Math! Sorry! I tell you to watch your barking language. What kind of father am I, B? Before I dream of your future potential stepmom and me… producing two-leggeds.

Virgil needs something to do… What? Didn’t I say he spends most of his days more terrified than me about to give my Old Man my report card. Or telling Ma about the garbage bill. The Simple Things involving “The Children of Men,” B III.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

No wonder I dream of the simple things now. Like how many Pop Culture references: A song from “Stanid,” A song from Hey Arnold “Mr. Hyunh Goes Country,” and the book/movie The Children of Men. How I so need an apocalypse, dystopia, or both B.

Though “I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself. I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself.” I’m so broke, I’m taking handout songs from the likes of MAGA. Eff Kid Rock too! I know B, Daddy is trying. And I’ve had a very gross thought about your stepmom.

Papi is trying… That’s what M Anime calls me. And your Favorite Girl too. Seriously!?

Let’s get serious. If I had been in school, I wouldn’t be in this situation.

What, situation? You know, I hate when people say things like Things could be worse.

Like me sitting on a loveseat with a sausage biscuit I “stole” from the Day Job, a cappuccino… It gave me an excuse to show my twig and berries to your stepmom. I know B III, Eww! But she did show me her yabbos. As Billie Jean would say, “Fair Is Fair!” B, how many movies did we sit here and watch together? Anyway, this isn’t a palace, B III.

“I’m not a smart man, but I know what love is.”

Forrest Gump (1994)

Forrest Gump? Really! Because that’s how I’m spending the day, wanting things as simple as some blue Wyler’s Italian Ices, popcorn movie theater butter… Essentials.

Complicated stuff is for the Magic Glasses, Breathing, Cash, Depression, Effery… B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

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What can I do in a month that I haven’t been able to do in how many years? I don’t remember when I met B, but then Sunday, January 31, 2021. M Anime? Sunday, August 24, 2025 was bad. Saturday, January 24, 2026? How about today? Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I feel like one of those MAGA cracker hats that accidentally told the truth. What makes me different?

“What we’ve done, we’ve done.
We evade it by moving forward with a code to never do it again.
To make up for it.
To still accept what we were.
To accept everyone.
To protect everyone.
And in doing that, protect yourself.
To create peace.”

That’s how Morgan and Eastman put it. I want to make up for everything, Inspector.

However, Braxton’s still dead. And I’m screwing up Virgil’s life every other day for sure.

Who craps their bed every few days? He’s so scared to leave it. Eff Inspector, I have to push it right up against the bowls. I went from a son who would struggle to those bowls so he could prove he was still alive, to a son who would literally starve to death, Dear E.

It’s like something out of that movie Obsession. May I never be as afraid as Virgil is. But obsessed. Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom used the word “Enamored” to describe her feelings for me. We’ll get to that. Virgil…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And myself. I keep making all of these appointments, or not about well everything E.

Today, the biggest is asking the Magic Glasses, AHEM, “How can I make a profitable Substack in thirty days?” Oh, and I always say please and thank you. Seriously, Inspector.

Next would be getting Virgil a pet appointment. B III never missed his, you know.

Honestly, I still need to get an appointment for my actual glasses. Eff the Magic Glasses, Inspector. And the STUPID thing is, I actually have the money to pay for some new ones; I’m just what… Destroyed with Braxton’s “novel” not selling. The Unfinished Archive…

Finally, there’s my recreation, The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. Maybe M Anime is rubbing off on me. Her hospital horrors

But ain’t I a man? Hers? Got To Be Real”? I told her as much today when she hit me with one of those questions all men get from their women… Would you love me if I were a worm? No, not that bad. She felt feisty or frisky, oh you know, “Tomayto, tomahto” ha.

What is she to me? My “Girlfriend…” Of course, in The Unfinished Archive she remains M Anime, The Phoenix Queen, my Primary Wife, the leader of my harem… coven, hmm.

At the moment I’m feeling quite positive about our relationship. I’ve got no problem, E.

But at the same time I know I’ll be singing like The Yahoos “Baby, I Love You,” but… you know. Trouble. Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

2005 Days Without B III, Day 1446 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

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If B had known how life would turn out, if V knew… Hell, “I’ll Always Love My Mama,” so no Terminator. My A$$ should have played in traffic at 7 or 8 and saved her some trouble. But B III stuck around. In Dog years, “Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…”

Saturday, July 25, 2026

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… I could be if I asked the Magic Glasses. Elon Musk bought himself a pair, Lunalesca.

But I highly doubt he’ll make “The Magic Glasses” by Neil Bimbeau a reality. Um? He is a Cracker Hat MAGA. I can’t put anything past them. And Rule 34 is always a thing, Lu.

I’m sure there are already plenty of pornos about hypnosis, augmented realities, and X-ray vision. Remember Paige and the WWE, “The Submission Sorority.” Big mistake…

Like the 1997movie “Mortal Kombat: Annihilation.” Or how about the time I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, hmm…

Honestly, “Of … …” I didn’t think for a second she would hightail it out of here. No, that only happened when she saw what the King of Ward Three and his men did to the women in the Blindness.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I also kicked her out when she fell asleep during our Star Wars Marathon. Seriously?!

Anyway, why all this talk about movies? I did pass by Regal the other day. I’ve seen “Better Days I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, Lunalesca. Am I thinking about all the movies I’m not watching these days from this loveseat I currently reside on? Hell, there was a time I wanted to buy a “Casting Couch” and produce some content… M Anime would kill me. Onlyfans, Ha! Only as I was driving by the movie theater, besides thinking about how Braxton hated movie nights he wasn’t involved in and Virgil only having one while B’s girl visited.

SIGH, I need effing money!

Braxton hightailed it to The Rainbow Bridge five years before it got this bad. And Virgil, I’m sure, barks every day, why the eff I had to adopt him. And why do I keep breathing?

“Poor, all my life I’ve always been poor
I keep askin’ God what I’m for
And he tells me, “Gee, I’m not sure…””
Seymour Krelborn

Seymour Krelborn had the guts to ask at least. But God and I haven’t been on speaking terms since B III. So, as I told my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, I am an open book.

“Someday” when my life has passed me by… No, one day. How about sometime today, I need to ask the Magic Glasses how I can make this blog/Substack profitable in a month. Before Virgil heads in Braxton’s direction. Where am I going? Beneath the dirt, broke, to look at boobies/yabbos. Books? Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…

2001 Days Without B III, Day 1442 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 022 -Colorblind Tanning B, V-

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I never thought I would miss Monday. Tuesday the skies were gray… Metaphorically speaking. Yesterday was darker. Today, in black and white, in English, well, I can’t tell the truth. I hid things from B too. How did that end? “Colorblind Tanning B, V”

Thursday, July 23, 2026

Legacy 022 -Colorblind Tanning B, V-

1999 Days Without B III, Day 1440 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine? Let’s say these are the days I didn’t want to talk about.

Angry, Mad, Rage… They are actually the safe words, B. The Magic Glasses say Warning!

But today it was YouTube. It started off innocently enough. It was “I Hate Everyone”.

Weren’t we two peas in a pod, B? But I meant the Get Set Go song… And so today? Uh…

“Su$cide”. Same band, but all sorts of WARNINGS popped off like “The Long Walk” or “The Purge”. Now I know why you always chose violence? You fought for every second.

Not for yourself but for me. You were my Snoopy, my Spunky; how about Ghost?

Honestly, don’t I know any dogs of color? Seymour from the episode Jurassic Bark, Futurama. You’re waiting for me, Braxton. Only on the “Otherside”? “Otherworld”?

How much longer? Always? Forever?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s how long I figured you live. At least long enough to be the protector of your brothers and sisters… The two-legged variety. But at the pace I’ve been going with your future potential stepmom… I still have to read everything she sent? Alpha? Manhood?

That’s her type, B. And I’ve been a whiny B$tch since… Tuesday, I believe. Dreams…

Please, I’ve dreamt worse things than Squid Game, The Middle East, and Nico Parker’s ass. Unlike MAGA, I’m all for DEI. Plus, I’m not trying to end up on a list like the Orange Felon in the White House. Be it Nicoletta Goldstein, Nico Parker, or Zoe Colletti, B III.

Speaking of fiction colliding with the real world, The Unfinished Archive today. World of Color?

Isn’t that Disney and me corrupting it, thinking of the harem schedule… The Sealed Flame Ritual, Melina, Judy, with M Anime optional. Or what about the 16 Episode Ecchi Anime Series Colorful (1999)? Wow! Anything to avoid putting down how I’m “feeling super, super, super REDACTED,” but you know the word B. Hell, you found me passed out on the floor trying to take you for a walk, and I was not some “Teen Idle.” But a fully functional adult? Your grandpa didn’t tan my hide and your grandma… Honestly.

Braxton, I’m sure she and you are very disappointed in me. Because what’s wrong, hmm?

Money, Mattress hoping, Medical, too many sad movies, unsellable manuscripts, Me breathing is too much, Braxton. Colorblind Tanning B, V

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

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When’s the last time I was even happiness adjacent since I don’t do happy? A 1000 years. Try what’s about to be Forty-Two. Damn, that woman at the Day Job for mentioning E-Day! A 1000 years… I can’t live my life “This Way.” “Minimum B, Millennium V.”

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… The sin? I settle for the bare minimum, the “Bare Necessities” of life. And being a greedy S.O.B.

“And isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?” (Does his best Ellis Boyd “Red” Redding Impression) Ironic? “Well, now let me see. You know, I don’t have any idea what that means.” And I dare to call myself a writer. Live vs Exist. Minimum and Millennium. Huh.

Braxton was anything but the bare minimum. He was/is my own “Personal Jesus” Echo.

I continue thinking about how I looked at his little brother yesterday. Virgil, “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus. But he (barks) like a gentleman.” “When You Were Young”?

Doesn’t that make me the A-Hole, considering Virgil the bare minimum? And Braxton was the bare minimum considering the human race. Inspector, Humanity Effing sucks!

“Give me frogs! Flies! Locusts! Anything but you!”
The Mummy

“I hate people. Scared of them. Been scared of them practically my whole life. The people I loved… the people I trusted… have done their absolute worst to me. Society deserves to be hated for everything you said they did, and more. Fuck every last one of them for what we’ve all been through. But… there are some people out there. And it doesn’t happen a lot. It’s rare… but they refuse to let you hate them. In fact, they care about you in spite of it.”
eXit, Mr. Robot

Yet I want to be remembered for “A Thousand Years”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wonder if Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would think of me as such?

Honestly, would she say she loved me for “A Thousand Years”? I’ll love you for a thousand more. “M Anime,” like my boys, is exceptional. Bare minimum, she is not.

“Right now she’s perfect, I don’t want to ruin that.”

“I could spend my whole life, Good Will Hunting.” Seriously, how much longer will existence be, Dear Echo? All I can promise M Anime at this particular moment is “When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be. I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.”

Seriously, Inspector, that is not an effing life! And let’s take my piddly ass $2,500…

“(She’s) everything you want
(She’s) everything you need
(She’s) everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
She says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But (she) means nothing to you
And you don’t know why”
Everything You Want (1999)

And you know, she knows, you know, the damn world knows I care about her!

Hell, only my boys appear in more pictures than her. And yet it’s like I look at her, at Virgil, at myself, at everything like Stan looks at Joanna in Office Space. Hate? No Echo.

That would be my Old Man. He called me now about the yard guy quitting and a smell in my house, and now I feel like I want to puke my guts out all over the floor. E, it’s just.

I want to quit. A thousand years? Where is my “Secret Agent Man,” so I can have hope, “odds are he won’t live to see tomorrow”? Because today’s bare minimum is an energy drink (I prefer my funk), petting Virgil, texting M Anime, Kindle sample book… Minimum B, Millennium V

1998 Days Without B III, Day 1439 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

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SIX on the brain, Six the number, a sixth sense about some things, and I’m sick of myself. What time was I up? Tomorrow, When The War Began or today, whatever. Today was a hard one; five years almost six have all been hard ones. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

Saturday, July 18, 2026

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Not from effing Haremlit! But it’s fun to dream. What isn’t fun? FEAR… HUNGER… GRIEF

And as I said last week (Hank Olson’s Voice), “I’m effing hungry.” The Long Walk…

However, that wasn’t the biggest thing this morning. And no, I’m not going to brag about my “Enormous Penis.” I haven’t written anything as wise as Da Vinci’s Notebook, Luna.

“My Turn To B III”? Am I still btchin’ about not selling any books? I’d like to think I’ve grown beyond that… More Dck jokes? Yes, I was showing off to M Anime. No food…

Anyway, Lunalesca, since I haven’t been able to buy new books lately and have been lying about the ones I do have… Yes, a conversation better served with Lady Sophia, but Saturday is my time. Hell, the Magic Glasses created a schedule for the Harem.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Okay, so what the eff was I trying to say again? Oh yeah, so last night I was reading Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Jackson Avery is having a conversation about mourning with his doc:

“I wanted to tell her she was wrong. That I’d been grieving that woman for fifteen damn years. Except, had I? Really?”

“People fall apart when that happens! It’s not strange or abnormal; it’s the most natural thing in the world. You think people would have judged you if you’d taken some time off? Gone to therapy? Bought an RV and roamed around the country for half a year, processing your loss instead of running from it?”

“Treading water for fifteen years. Never sinking beneath the surface, but never swimming to safety. Just existing, instead of living.”

“I would not want him to prioritize being useful over being human.”

“We talk about your grief, your loss, and your guilt. We talk about why you think it’s more important for you to be useful than to be happy.”
Pledged To Him 12: Unconventional Romance, Neil Bimbeau

This brings to mind two things. But you’re going to need six, right? Lunalesca, the biggest concern is that I got to thinking about Braxton. Jackson confessed not mourning, Lauren.

That’s his wife, by the way. And Braxton truly was my better half, Lunalesca, honestly.

Anyway, Lunalesca, the five things I started thinking about as I had my Therapy Session:

  1. I always find the right book for these moments.
  2. Did I ever truly mourn my firstborn son, Braxton?
  3. Jack gave up sex when his wife died, duh. I did as well. Oh no, Chloë Grace Moretz’s legs
  4. He got into business, made a ton of money. I wrote books, two about B III, not one cent
  5. Jack got Positive Stress, three brides, a harem. Me? M Anime, Kyouko Sakai, “Lily”

Has “The Unfinished Archive,” which isn’t a year old, been a positive or negative thing?

It’s what I asked the Magic Glasses as I wasted more time playing Whiteout Survival? Oh, and everything about Braxton. Virgil’s a testament to the fact that I’m not “Alright.”

Lunalesca, it started with the question. Not, What the hell am I gonna do? Because 2 + 2 isn’t 5. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

1994 Days Without B III, Day 1435 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will