Tag: Anxiety

Legacy 122 -Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

Heavily? Much Ado About Nothing? This is my brain, minus any drugs but sorrow. Depression? It’s not that I’m the Village Idiot so many make me. I’m exhausted, my emotions are everywhere, and my ideas become more egregious. Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil.

Saturday, October 31, 2026

Legacy 122 -Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So I’m dead on the inside? It’s the outside that sucks. S-word thoughts and tendencies. Always.

“He who is everywhere is nowhere”
― Lucius Annaeus Seneca

No, I’m not WHINING about Seneca today or the other S-word. This whole damn week.

That’s been my thing, Lunalesca, the WHINING. I always seem to hear exactly what I need to hear at exactly the right time, whether it’s the Backrooms or Roman philosophy. How do you think Virgil got his name again? Misery loves company. Someone to talk…

More like someone to bark. Because if I keep listening to myself… One solid voice…

Lunalesca, those are my boys. Braxton and Virgil are always with me. Where they stand.

I don’t stand, my lady. I rest… Now that’s funny! I run. “Run Boy Run”. I rant and wait: there’s more. And that’s the problem that greeted me as I took Virgil on a walk.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I’m fucking everywhere, and I shouldn’t be. Pete said in The Long Walk something along the lines of, you don’t think about making it to the end. You think about making it to the next moment. Because I know the end, Lunalesca. Outside, if anyone were willing to lay me with my sons. Sprinkle them both with me. I shouldn’t dream such things, Virgil Lives!

Inside, however, I’m going straight to Hell. Failure in being a father. Braxton Lives Too!

Only not really. Really? He’s in a box on the nightstand. He’s in my heart and mind, my Dear Lady Lunalesca. How many posts have been dubbed “Firstborn”? Honestly Luna.

Braxton pretty much occupies the space where Virgil lies right this second. Quit being mean.

Mean, Afraid, Exhausted, Lazy, being a WHINER. I tell my boys’ potential future stepmom all the time: B died due to my indifference. “I Tried” so hard to protect him.

There was so much Anger, Hate, and Rage. And the FEAR! So I covered it up as Braxton lay dying. “How To Save A Life,” indeed, I was working. “How To Say Goodbye,” who am I, Paul Tiernan? “I try to say goodbye,” always, forever. Year 2026, Lady Lunalesca.

And having failed this SIMPLE task, I overcompensate. “I Feel Everything”! Why do you think the harem of the Unfinished Archive is so big? I can’t love people in slices. Myself? I’m learning to love M Anime… Love’s everywhere, overwhelming, and I’m… Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil.

2099 Days Without B III, Day 1540 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

I consider myself WOKE, but what am I doing for the world? I have a boy that needs me. A woman who wants to raise a bunch of good little boys and girls with me. And a son who went to sleep, long ago, long ago, long ago. Weekly B Vitamins Virgil.

Tuesday, October 27, 2026

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I love Braxton. I love Virgil. My Ma and Sister. Braxton’s Favorite Girl. Cherry…

And I was honestly about to say there is nothing wrong with my memory. Seriously?

Today, though, like most days, I’m just low on energy. Sounds rather simplistic. But because comedy comes in threes, there’s Virgil, and “Dollar, dollar bill, y’all.” How can I expect to get any of those when I can’t stay awake? And then when I do fall asleep… I should save this for Inspector Echo, since there’s nothing wrong with my memory, but I love reading…

Honestly? So I was reading Dystopian Girls 7 a few days back… Virgil has been six one whole week. Anyway, I started reading, and everything went blank. I wake up in the morning intending to talk to you, but I check Kindle first. Bad husband…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Zero! Checking on my reading before my girl… Not what I meant. Zero-day reading streak! So I feel there’s a mistake, and I check the book. I never got off the starter page, my love

All because I had no energy, and so I chose to pull my own version of the Sisko, my love:

“So… I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men.”

No, I didn’t go that far; I simply turned off the automatic date, set it back to the 25th, and read for about twenty minutes. I swear, why didn’t I think of that when I lost the reading streak I had after Braxton died? Anyway, my point is this. I ain’t Divergent’s Tris. I got scared for Virgil today and didn’t know whether to go nuts or take a nap.

Now can you imagine if I put the energy of a lost reading streak into us, the kids, this life

There was a time when I loved myself, you know. Whenever I see another pair of tits anywhere. I need to stop! This week it’s all Juliet Starling, Mikura Suzuki, and this Asian girl I’ve been drooling over for a while. Bringing work home? Stop. I need to go, go.

Anyway, what I meant is, I took pills for ANXIETY. And they increased my energy.

Braxton lay dying, and as the song goes, “And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.” I did. He died. Sleeping to not fail? Waking for… Weekly B Vitamins Virgil

2095 Days Without B III, Day 1536 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

Sure, I can run. I need cash from the Day Job, I care about my woman, and I still consider myself the father of two canine companions. But only one has shuffled off the mortal coil. The other turned six on Tuesday. “Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil.”

Saturday, October 24, 2026

Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So I’ll invest in Carolina Reaper Peppers. Or what’s this new pepper…The 2023 Pepper X

And what’s this talk about, spicy food? I’m hungry! Or I’m an idiot carrying $35.00.

And I still haven’t left the house yet. What have I been doing all day besides being sick, Lady Lunalesca? I did it! This son of a bitch did it! I finally caught up with all of M Anime’s messages. Would my Braxton be proud that, for once in this “life,” I was catching up with the living and not the dead? His and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. And V?

Virgil continues avoiding getting stepped on. But hey, there’s still cake, or rather pie. There is a distinction, Lady Lunalesca. And I am trying to find the line. It’s like saying, I like salsa, but feel some kind of way…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know, ingredients-wise. I seriously need to get to the store. And before all that…

Ahem, “I Need Some Sleep.” Another cross. There is a difference between sleep and rest.

“Go to bed.”
Tony Stark

“But would you be able to rest?”
Pepper Potts

“Endgame”

Pepper Potts asked the right question. And with this week coming up. “Mo’ Money! Mo Money! Mo’ Money!” “Get the money! Dollar, dollar bill, y’all!” And what I choose to do with that money… Did I ever mention how understanding my girlfriend is? My girlfriend

I’ve been trying that on for size with M Anime. “If It Isn’t Love?” It’s not yet Lady Lunalesca. But considering peppers weren’t the only thing I was looking for. The fact that M Anime makes me want to be a better man… And asking her for a dildo video…

Lust and Love, Lunalesca. One has been sated momentarily… Yeah, I couldn’t keep it in my pants reading all of M Anime’s messages. But now I’m aiming slightly higher Lu.

Food, Sex, and Silence! I’ve caught up with the sex… All by myself. Now the food. A chicken biscuit compliments of the Day Job, a bag of popcorn, and no clue on dinner. Lu, according to MAGA, “BEEF, It’s What’s For Dinner” is no longer economically viable. I swear to Braxton. Once again, speaking of my boy, I do need to catch up on what I promised him: “If I Had A $1,000,000.” I asked the Magic Glasses/MIMA about this…

Lunalesca, Braxton and Virgil, M Anime, even myself all keep me runnin’. Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil

2092 Days Without B III, Day 1533 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

WillLeave a comment

Happy Birthday to my son Virgil Vivi… Roman poet, black mage with his furry black spots. Six years old today. And what a day it has been. What a daze I am in. And V must be as confused. Fries, pictures, a birthday cookie. “V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze”

Tuesday, October 20, 2026

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? I may be “Dazed and Confused,” but I’m not a liar. And I know things…

Virgil Vivi Bradford turns six today. His Gotcha Day was Saturday, August 13, 2022. I found him at PetSmart. The first thing I noticed about him was that he knew how to use a training pad and not mark the floor. So yes, mistakes were made on that day, hmm

I still remember and see the three black spots: head, back, and tail… B III? B’s color fur around his eyes. And B’s bark telling me that he couldn’t make this more black and white, literally. Archie? That was his name before I named him Virgil. And you know why…

Such a long row to hoe for such a little dog. I thought he was Braxton reincarnated and/or reborn. All I know and yet love…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I love you, baby doll, because I know you’re no “angel.” And B knows I’ve called you much worse in the throes of passion. But if I wanted to get into the doghouse again…

I could compare you to my boys again… What? You know how I feel about my sons, my love. But Braxton’s gone, and Virgil is a year older today. And “I’m So Thankful.” I am.

They are gods among men. Thus you are my Goddess. “The Goddess,” if I said that, was Alexa Bliss, or I mentioned Roxanne Perez. What about Jahara Jayde? She’s been my favorite these last few days, if the Unfinished Archive is any indication. Ass kicking?

Honestly, “Hey Lover,” would you kick my ass? Go ahead.

I know where I first met you. Triond. I met Braxton in my Olds bedroom. But I could tell you neither of those dates. Braxton’s Birthday? The day before Valentine’s, the 13th, because he was the closest I would get to love… Then your birthday. What was the last thing I bought you? When Braxton left, Sunday, January 31, 2021. When you left, Sunday, August 24, 2025. Again, I thought I found Braxton on that Saturday, in a new white fur.

When you came back, it was on Saturday, January 24, 2026. Hell, the first time I saw you “naked” was on Thursday, May 15, 2025. My point… I can recall Virgil’s life but love…

Cookies, Fries, all for His Birthday… V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze

2088 Days Without B III, Day 1529 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 108 -The Sleeping B Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

Am I slow? Or is it everything and everyone else? It has to be me. And I’m tired of waiting. I’m tired, period. I remember when 400 words was supposed to be easier, and now… What time is it? It was 2:30 AM, and I’m still in bed. The Sleeping B Virgil

Saturday, October 17, 2026

Legacy 108 -The Sleeping B Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And still a misanthrope. An equal opportunity misanthropist. But big yabbos and a tight pussy help.

Seriously! What, Lunalesca? I’m trying to stay awake here. And as much as I love, love, Braxton is gone. And my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, “My Goddess,” why aren’t I busy with her today? Trust me, I’ve been up “All Night Long” before. Lunalesca, sigh.

Guess you can say I’m out of practice. Hugh Hefner or Dennis Hof, I’m not. What, dead, Lunalesca? Is it too much to wish? But what I mean is an everlasting party. Cum one, cum all. Eww! My record is five orgasms over the span of a few hours. I’m not Jim from American Pie. So who am I? I was sitting in the parking lot thinking, I’m so tired.

Lunalesca, I’m so tired of trying. Like (Dystopian) Riley said:

“I have no allegiance to mankind in general, only to my man.”
Dystopian Girls 7

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s my M Anime. Hell, those are my boys. M hates the comparison, but I’m not comparing her to my furry boys like that. See, to me, everyone’s (deceased). Zombie…

Scary, but it’s the season, and so when someone is in this bastion of life in the realm of the dead, it means they’re something special. More Than A Woman. A warrior in my eyes

“I am First Omet’iklan, and I am dead. As of this moment, we are all dead. We go into battle to reclaim our lives. This we do gladly, for we are Jem’Hadar. Remember: victory is life!”
― Star Trek DS9

Yes, the Jem’Hadar were the bad guys. But I think it’s more the alien aspect. I’ve been reading the Unfinished Archive, and the women who make up the Sorcerer’s Harem are witches/sorceresses/, and divine entities. The Sisterhood of the Black Bible/Acolytes of the Black Bible Order are all witches. Named mothers and daughters… The prisoners in the dungeon, monster women…

Again, I am tired. And let’s be clear, I’m tired of people. Clearer? I’m tired of being me, Lady Lunalesca. A man, a boy, always. Diary of a Tired Black Man. I ain’t that smart…

Again, I’m tired. I’m so fucking tired I looked up sleeping contests. Next to misanthropy

And since neither the Sorcerer nor I can bring back the dead yet… My Braxton. And I’m trying to keep Virgil safe. I have been remembering Sleeping’s greatest hits, Lunalesca.

Number one will always, forever be those afternoons when B III would watch over me.

Whenever I answer every message from M Anime, and one had her yabbos on display.

When I’m sick and wake up feeling good, I imagine Heaven. The Sleeping B Virgil

2085 Days Without B III, Day 1526 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 104 -Virgil And The B’s-

WillLeave a comment

Love should give me enough energy to wake up. But I really, really, REALLY missed having a Bloom this morning. And I haven’t seen any bugs in a minute. FEAR is a big motivator. And Braxton knows I don’t love that. “Virgil And The B’s”

Tuesday, October 13, 2026

Legacy 104 -Virgil And The B’s-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Then how come I don’t say it? “Yo te quiero, Papi Y te deseo”. Honey?

I want you to know I hear you. I do. I will. However, marriages go in this day and age, you know. Love is more than a buzzword to me. Though, to paraphrase Virgil Hawkins, aka Static Shock (My son V’s name was inspired by a lot of things). Ok, the word LOVE does put a shock to my system. I forget how to speak English. I can’t eat… Well, you… Do I ever stop? And I can’t get enough of hearing that word; it’s like a song from Glee:

“’Cause I feel that when I’m with you, It’s alright, I know it’s right
And the songbirds are singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before”
Songbird, Glee Cast

And don’t get mad for the comparison, but Braxton showed me love until his last…

Breath… Beat of his heart… Belief in his eyes that I would bring him back. That’s what Dads do, hmm:

“He was the boy’s father. Father’s are supposed to protect their sons, not leave them alone.”
― A Different Alchemy

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do husbands do? “Well, I’ll be sitting here. Working on this beer. Oh, baby, I love you, just leave me the fuck alone.” You know I don’t drink. No, I’m just tired today.

And so I’m sitting here humming “I Want A New Drug.” “But Your Love Is My Drug,” isn’t it? Oh, looks like I found my phone. Plus, I have a puppy sleeping on my lap, and you know the law. You can’t move for anything. And if Virgil were Braxton, it would not even be a question. Again, being sleepy turns me into a fucking meanie. And yesterday I was talking to Braxton about beast. But I’m not some superhero trying to keep my control.

I’m not a fucking drunk.

I’m “Just A Man.” And what is worse than a man? People are so vexed with what a woman is. The people MAGA has no respect for. Incubators. Broodmares for the state, the fear out of The Handmaid’s Tale. But you are my wife, and the things we do, hmm…

I’m surprised I don’t bother you about my Stuff And Thang more often. Bugging you.

That’s what I feel like sometimes. I want to say I’m a busy bee, but I’m more of a mosquito:

“If you think you’re too small to make a difference, try sleeping in a closed room with a mosquito.”
―

But I’m squished and squashed. It’s like I’m constantly bleeding out. “These wounds won’t seem to heal. This pain is just too real.” “Oh yes, there will be blood.” I write shit. But Honey, there’s you. Virgil And The B’s

2081 Days Without B III, Day 1522 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 101 -Braxton Storms Out Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

“Te Quiero Papi” is one of the best things my girlfriend says. Next to it… I’m always wet for you. She says it in Spanish too, but I love you/te quiero is the first thing I learned. If I don’t get blown away or washed away. Braxton Storms Out Virgil.

Saturday, October 10, 2026

Legacy 101 -Braxton Storms Out Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now…Which means I cry on the softest pillows. Visit the wettest and wildest places… With my dick!

Seriously! Oh, and burn my eyes with only the hottest herbs and spices, Kentucky Fried…

Or I hire a hot maid to clean up my bed sheets. Maybe that’s a fantasy M Anime, and I can explore. However, M’s falling into girlfriend/wifey/mother-of-my-children mode. Uh, me? A man ain’t supposed to cry, so I find the stormy weather pretty perfect, Luna.

So I’m wasting the day. And didn’t I waste yesterday too? As a father and a husband, I can only imagine what would have happened if I’d only brought back an eight-pack of water. Hmm.

Always a day late and a dollar short, emphasis on the DOLLAR. Family, Lady Lunalesca.

Braxton cried for a day, then took his storm straight to the Rainbow Bridge. Paradise?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Another thing Virgil and I have in common. We are both big criers. So what is it today, Lunalesca? Sweat, blood, or tears? I’d say cum… Please! Yeah, I’m not feeling very sexy right now. Yeah, like I wasn’t staring at the tits of my favorite Asian mother and daughter duo earlier today. Which brings me back to what I should be worried about, Lady Luna.

The Magic Glasses/MIMA. If only I could have been there, you know. What, like that scene out of Transformers… Glen Whitmann/Anthony Anderson? Oh, I need to piss myself too. I know, Lady Lunalesca, I’m being gross. I’m sorry. But I’m empty. At least that’s how I feel. Water, water everywhere, and it’s like I’m in a barren desert, Lunalesca.

My cup is empty or filled with Bloom. Maybe I should say doom and gloom, which is how the world all around looks. What time is the damn hurricane? I didn’t know what time it was last night. But I woke up, and the town had not blown away. Blowjobs…

Honestly, I need to stop. But I can’t “Drift Away,” “Float On,” “Beyond The Sea” of misery, which is the loss of my son. On top of everything else? Sink or swim, is it not?

Drowning is not my cup of tea, Lunalesca. And now I’m thinking about the cocktail they gave my Braxton all those years ago to end it. No friendly drop to help me after. Just the rain. Braxton Storms Out Virgil.

2078 Days Without B III, Day 1519 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 097 -B’s Blindness Binds Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

The mind’s eye and my one-eyed monster have been plenty busy these past few days. But my own eyes; I can’t see nothing, or I see too damn much. But as usual, I only want to shut my eyes and sleep. And after? And after… B’s Blindness Binds Virgil

Tuesday, October 6, 2026

Legacy 097 -B’s Blindness Binds Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? “Can you hear? Can you read? Are you receiving the signal? Do you copy me?”

Wow, that’s saying a lot… Not me, Theresa Walker’s “I Don’t Wanna Die.” How I wish we could sit here and watch the movie “Dead Air.” Can I even see it? I just don’t know.

Didn’t somebody say, love is blind? And apparently deaf as well. And how about, Stupid

“I feel stupid,” because today I want to show gratitude. For Braxton? No matter where my boy may roam, he still sees his way HOME to me. In spirit, at least. And he loves me.

Honestly, it made me blind to how he aged. I didn’t see some old man. I saw my son, B.

So my blindness must have been going on for a while because I see Virgil cuddling closer and closer still.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He’ll be six in two weeks, October 20. Not even halfway to his brother’s age yet, and he’s already like a ghost. Do I see him yet? Do he and Braxton see each other? Sometimes…

Yeah, maybe I am blind. I think I see Braxton nudging him forward, but Braxton could be standing in the way, and that’s why he’s scared to come in. Braxton is all Gandalf the Grey: you shall not pass. For a while, I thought Braxton had become Gandalf the White in Virgil’s little body. Reincarnation? Necromancy? I am grateful that isn’t true, my love. Why, because of how I treat Virgil? The younger brother from “The Man Who Watched the World End” or the burned son from “A Different Alchemy”?

I am grateful for all these insights I’ve been seeing, even about you, my love, The Unfinished Archive. Since I haven’t been using the Magic Glasses/MIMA for ideas, I have sought my own counsel. The Man in the Mirror? Seriously! When it comes to you:

You are the Phoenix Queen, and every other sister is a part of you. Lily, your garden, and my mourning. Kyouko Sakai, your sex drive. Cassandra, your exuberant strength. Sophitia, your mature strength. Skye, your ties to the Earth and knowledge. Judy, your expertise, green thumb. 2B, wanting to be a better woman. Nico, your knives. Melina, your scars and faith. Sadly, my brain isn’t getting smart; my head’s been fucked up. “My eyes, my eyes. B’s Blindness Binds Virgil

2074 Days Without B III, Day 1515 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 094 -B’s Don’t Become V’s-

WillLeave a comment

A man at a gas station asked me for $0.75. I had $0.70. This is after he saw I screwed up my ATM card twice. And before that, I was humiliated at my Day Job. Not fired, only named, blamed, and shamed. How many years of schooling? B’s Don’t Become V’s

Saturday, October 3, 2026

Legacy 094 -B’s Don’t Become V’s-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So, I can be there for my girl, buy the Day Job, and resurrect my son.

And while I’m at it, I could take care of his little brother, my V. I have nothing against V

But my stock is dropping fast, Lunalesca. My dollars, my dogs/boys, and my damsel too.

So what do I want right now, hmm… From a trillion to wanting to have the strength to get my ass up and spend fifteen bucks on a movie. And have a frost Bloom, Lunalesca.

Must it always fall back to money? I guess I’ll have to fill you in on the Day Job, but let’s count up the humiliations galore at the convenience store first, my dear Lady Lunalesca.

1: I didn’t know how to use my card at the food truck
2: An inferior Icee
3: Seventy-five cents

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

None of these things would have been necessary if I made better grades in school. I never believed I would live this long. “(Forty-two) stoney gray steps towards the grave. You know the box awaits…” Oh, I couldn’t be all “The future’s so bright I gotta wear shades” type of a guy. Hell, that’s everyone these days. But why not yesterday morning I am so…

In need of a thesaurus. But okay, long story short, ahem: Yesterday I was assigned visual, but instead they had me working “truck unload,” so that’s what I did. Nearly three hundred boxes, and then the ASM “J” and bosses “C” and “S” were all over me. And not in the Unfinished Archive Harem sort of way. The Humiliation begins.

Not that I’m remotely interested in any of them. I tell Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom all the time that there’s a reason blowjobs turn me on. Seriously, Luna.

Between getting yelled at, talked about, laughed at, dismissed, and then trying to be a good boyfriend on top of it all. Once again, there are grades, there’s growing up, and there’s green. All of those things, Lunalesca, that’s “What Makes A Good Man.” Honestly.

And G comes before F. But here I am, a forty-two-year-old boy skipping all the way to V as if Virgil was supposed to save me. Virgil didn’t save Dante; he was his guide, Lunalesca. Nothing more. Losing B, I lost everything. Hell’s eternal and deep B’s Don’t Become V’s

2071 Days Without B III, Day 1512 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 090 -B Plays Portal Virgil-

WillLeave a comment

What Hell is this? What time? Which dimension? But it all tracks. A loving and loyal wife. Same for the family, furry and not. And the home? Monday, Fine. Today… A reenactment of the movie Starship Troopers. I prefer Succubus 8. B Plays Portal Virgil

Tuesday, September 29, 2026

Legacy 090 -B Plays Portal Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But do you know what I need to reread? Pet Loss? Some love story? Kinda

The instructions to the game “Portal”? How I miss the days when games came with actual instruction booklets. I love those. And players’ guides. Game Genie. To have time again.

But no. What I’m in the mood for today is Succubus 8 (Riddles And Revenge): A LitRPG Series by A.J. Markam. “Give Me One Reason to stay here,” you say… May I suggest “Portal 2”? Seriously, what is it about me and portals today? And in the spirit of full transparency, I’ve never played either Portal. And I’m trying to remember Succubus 8 as best I can. This is what happens when you don’t use a woman for audiobooks. Sheesh!

Anyway, I finally got to bed last night, and this morning everything has gone cattywampus.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Your lover, your best friend, your husband, father to our children, I damn sure try!

Honestly though, a plumber, an exterminator, a repair guy, an award-winning author, my love… This is where it is written, “you have been weighed, you have been measured, and you have been found wanting.” Yes, I am guilty of saying that every day is worse than the last. But with you, our children, fur and skin, I can survive. Only today it’s like I stepped through a portal… Maybe only by a few days to show all my effing loserdom.

You don’t know how badly I want to go back right now. How far? It has nothing to do with you, my boys, our family. Just me. My E-Day wish.

Near the end of E-Day month. I wish the day never existed. Always and forever.

Honestly… I know, my love, I know. I tend to take things too far. But that’s because I want to be even farther away. Or is it further? Did I mention that my writing sucks?

Anyway, A.J. Markam’s protagonist “Ian” had powers over the “Hell Pont”; he could use portals to travel anywhere. Why do you think I chose magic in The Unfinished Archive? Necromancy, time travel, and, portals. And why yesterday was “FINE”.

Today: Ants, busted drawer, crazy toilet, and let’s not forget about the car. Loving you?

Going to see a movie, lying in bed prattling on about the Halliwell sisters. Beats Hell. B Plays Portal Virgil.

2067 Days Without B III, Day 1508 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will