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Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

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Ask V about me drunk… “This one time my Dad drank a lot and spun me around to King of Wishful Thinking and Days Go By”. B’s Fav Girl has seen me drunk. I wish I could afford to have a drinking problem so I wouldn’t whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil.

Wednesday, October 28, 2026

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Is whining a sin? No more so than staying up until 10:30 PM for this… Lying on Kindle.

Being a pop culture whore… (Takes a sip of Bloom) It’s just the way I’m wired, isn’t it, Inspector? Isn’t it? Two things. One, a small introduction into the “Backrooms”. Two, I’m thinking about Bloom from the Winx Club, naked. I was always more of a Flora man, honestly. And trust me, Inspector, I can think of so much worse. “Lollipop Asia.” I’m not whining…

Mary: “You want to know the real reason your wife left you? It wasn’t the drinking! Or the stumbling home at all hours or the rage! It was the whining! Nothing’s ever your fault is it? You drink too much? Blame your job. You hate your job? Blame the world. You get kicked out of the house? Blame your wife. You attack me and tie me up? Blame your brain- you are your fucking brain, you dipshit!”

Clark: “You’re saying it’s my fault?”

Mary: “Yes. But it’s just the way you’re wired, isn’t it? Isn’t it?”
Backrooms (2006), Kane Parsons

This is what I’ve been thinking about since I watched the Backrooms. This one scene.

Inspector, it explains why my Braxton left. See, I did it again. And you know something, “I don’t think I want to change.” No, let me remain a “Man of Constant Sorrow.” Better my tears for my “Lost Boy,” Because “Oh yes, there will be blood.” Again, Pop Culture Whore.

Better blood than… Eww! We’ll get to that. And why say Eww? It’s a function of the male anatomy. And I won’t take the fall for a woman failing to cum. Selfish lover… Me? Never.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do I have to whine about today? The humiliation at the Day Job that I couldn’t put a Christmas sock display up? The Visual Lady had to help me. I am the “village idiot” once again. King Kong and Captain Clark got nothing on “Smiling Faces Sometimes,” hmm.

I wasted another $40 bucks today on Bloom and chicken. And today’s payday, my Inspector.

So there’s more money to cry about, and I’m no billionaire. The money disappears. Fuck!

Then there’s M Anime. (Drools).

“So This Is Love”. Not yet. But I like the fuck out of her. I lust the fuck for her…

Sigh, I can’t whine about her not knowing me. She knows I’m no Prince Charming.

However, does she know everything? I’m sure I’d be “Beggin” for her to come back.

Inspector, remember the third worst day of my existence? Not my fault. Yeah, keep telling yourself that, “Clark.” What, I do want a therapist that’s good in bed. And now I’m thinking about Mary naked. Rule 34 Inspector, fucking Rule 34. But M Anime, right.

Today she asks me, “Do you think of me only as Pussy?” “Strawberry Wine” at her age, Inspector. A drink? I’m sober; that’s why I whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil

2096 Days Without B III, Day 1537 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

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I consider myself WOKE, but what am I doing for the world? I have a boy that needs me. A woman who wants to raise a bunch of good little boys and girls with me. And a son who went to sleep, long ago, long ago, long ago. Weekly B Vitamins Virgil.

Tuesday, October 27, 2026

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I love Braxton. I love Virgil. My Ma and Sister. Braxton’s Favorite Girl. Cherry…

And I was honestly about to say there is nothing wrong with my memory. Seriously?

Today, though, like most days, I’m just low on energy. Sounds rather simplistic. But because comedy comes in threes, there’s Virgil, and “Dollar, dollar bill, y’all.” How can I expect to get any of those when I can’t stay awake? And then when I do fall asleep… I should save this for Inspector Echo, since there’s nothing wrong with my memory, but I love reading…

Honestly? So I was reading Dystopian Girls 7 a few days back… Virgil has been six one whole week. Anyway, I started reading, and everything went blank. I wake up in the morning intending to talk to you, but I check Kindle first. Bad husband…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Zero! Checking on my reading before my girl… Not what I meant. Zero-day reading streak! So I feel there’s a mistake, and I check the book. I never got off the starter page, my love

All because I had no energy, and so I chose to pull my own version of the Sisko, my love:

“So… I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men.”

No, I didn’t go that far; I simply turned off the automatic date, set it back to the 25th, and read for about twenty minutes. I swear, why didn’t I think of that when I lost the reading streak I had after Braxton died? Anyway, my point is this. I ain’t Divergent’s Tris. I got scared for Virgil today and didn’t know whether to go nuts or take a nap.

Now can you imagine if I put the energy of a lost reading streak into us, the kids, this life

There was a time when I loved myself, you know. Whenever I see another pair of tits anywhere. I need to stop! This week it’s all Juliet Starling, Mikura Suzuki, and this Asian girl I’ve been drooling over for a while. Bringing work home? Stop. I need to go, go.

Anyway, what I meant is, I took pills for ANXIETY. And they increased my energy.

Braxton lay dying, and as the song goes, “And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.” I did. He died. Sleeping to not fail? Waking for… Weekly B Vitamins Virgil

2095 Days Without B III, Day 1536 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 117 -B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship-

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“Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends. Mm, get high with a little help from my friends” I got drunk with B’s Fav Girl. My second, uh, B, V, M… Can I count all my friends on one hand? And I ain’t one. “B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship.”

Monday, October 26, 2026

Legacy 117 -B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? I’m sure you can hear me bark from up here, right?

Or is it down there… At least it’s warm. Not in the Ninth Circle of Hell. How many times must I bark that you’re not going that way? Not even Virgil, living or dead. Treachery is not who my father is. Others, sure. It’s why I remain top of the heap, ain’t it? Always Dad

Number one. Top of the list. King of the hill. A number one. But like you say to 2-V and my potential future stepmom, it’s in our nature, isn’t it? Man’s Best Friend, like Shadow:

“We didn’t have to. It’s built in. Has been ever since the dawn of time… when a few wild dogs took it upon themselves to watch over man, to bark when he’s in danger, to run and play with him when he’s happy, to nuzzle him when he’s lonely. That’s why they call us man’s best friend.”
Shadow, Homeward Bound

And it’s only one more reason you believe you failed me. And you think you’re failing my brother. Man’s Best Friend. But what are you? Daddy, always and forever. Glory:

“And what are you?
So full of hate you wanna
go fight everybody…
…because you been whipped
and chased.
That might not be living,
but it sure ain’t dying.”
Glory

Why Can’t We Be Friends?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“Dead Like Me” much? For the record, the movie was garbage. One that I’m glad we didn’t sit through together. Friends, you, me, my Favorite Girl, maybe one day stepmom.

“Just because (I’m) dead doesn’t mean that I can’t move in with you.”

“And just because I’m (alive) doesn’t mean I can’t have a splitting headache.”
Dead Like Me

That’s what friendship is, isn’t it? Finding someone you can stand to be around… And by that I mean sitting in our reading spot, Dad, ordering all our yummy favorites, and watching anything and everything on the Glow Box, and occasionally sending me outside. Like time-out? I’m sure I don’t even want to know what you and my bestie saw.

“Wasn’t it you who said that true love is all about finding someone you can stand to be around for 10 minutes at a time?

“Yeah”

“You got 10 minutes”
―

My bro’s only done that once with you and my Favorite Girl. He was won over, far too easily, am I right? Another sign that he ain’t me. More like a Backrooms version, for sure.

So we’re really doing this. “Just call my name, and I’ll be there.” Any ole movie night sounds about right, Dad. So the Backrooms only I’m not Mary, and you aren’t Clark. Not Captain Clark either. A monster, which is what this is all about. You thinking like that, ha.

Who can be friends with a monster? “No face as hideous as my face…” “When does a man become a monster?” Here’s a question for you, my father. Why do you think we are friends? You don’t remember the day we met, the day you and Miss M Anime met.

However, V, Saturday, August 13. 2022. “You thought you’d find a friend.” And you did.

You? The Man in the Mirror… B’s Brotherhood, Virgil’s Friendship

“You might never become king of the world, but you may very well be treated like a king by the people that matter most.”
Dystopian Girls 7 by Rodzil LaBraun

“Heaven’s my witness, and the stars that look down on us, all he did was care too much for a luckless friend.”
― The Aeneid

2094 Days Without B III, Day 1535 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 116 -Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B-

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I’m weak this week. Last week? And what about the week after? It’s called being an adult. Yeah right. Have I mentioned how much I hate being forty-two? And Virgil has only been six for five days. A whole week makes me weak. Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B

Sunday, October 25, 2026

Legacy 116 -Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And yet you dare to smile on camera. Even for a pretty girl. Planned a doctor’s visit?

Dentist, Optometrist, general practitioner… Because you were trying to impress a pretty girl with your “Enormous Penis.” You should shut up. Not because you’re being STUPID again. But you shouldn’t laugh, smile, or make a funny face. Seriously not helping…

Money would. But you’re not taking V to see the veterinarian anytime soon, you know.

Is he weak? Like father, like son. His weakness? V is too damn polite. If only he had gone to the potty on the floor instead of a training pad. V wasn’t blessed with fists, so his paws tap-dance as he waits forever and a day to let himself come inside any room. Hmm indeed

And you know where you want to be. Why? Scared, sleepy, skeevy… Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING The Bad Babysitter, Bill Nichols
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Forgetting the word, skeevy. Hell! You’ve long since forgotten why you even began this “Legacy.” And before that “Journey.” And before that… But being a “Bad Man.” Not that bad. Nowhere near. But I told B and V’s Potential Future Stepmom about a certain model.

And I did show Braxton’s Favorite Girl a certain film. Talk about trusting someone, hmm.

Again, the boys’ stepmom. I might have let it slip that you have a thing for the mother-daughter angle. Saimin Seishidou mostly, though Jahara Jayde (Julianna) and Skye (Nico Parker) look so damn hot together. And there is an Asian mother-daughter set too. The daughter looked particularly fetching as a “San Romero Knights’ Cheerleader.” Really!

“Firefly?” Daddy Fuck! Day One. It’s Impossible! Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Seriously keeping it in your pants… Nope not this morning. Freak! This week’s gonna suck!

Next week, too, but you have bigger fish to fry. Speaking of which, are you eating today? Maybe? Possibly? I didn’t have dinner last night. I know, my bad. Hell! I didn’t even have the energy to dream, or even have nightmares, about the “Backrooms.” You’re a pop culture whore.

Okay, so keep it in your pants, nuts about pop culture. Find your pillow, perhaps…

Because your puppies need their papa. M Anime wants her papi. And there’s also profit
Then maybe you can eat. Maybe you won’t be so weak that you’ll be down for whatever. Is there a “Possibility” you’ll be a good man? Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B

2093 Days Without B III, Day 1534 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

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Sure, I can run. I need cash from the Day Job, I care about my woman, and I still consider myself the father of two canine companions. But only one has shuffled off the mortal coil. The other turned six on Tuesday. “Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil.”

Saturday, October 24, 2026

Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So I’ll invest in Carolina Reaper Peppers. Or what’s this new pepper…The 2023 Pepper X

And what’s this talk about, spicy food? I’m hungry! Or I’m an idiot carrying $35.00.

And I still haven’t left the house yet. What have I been doing all day besides being sick, Lady Lunalesca? I did it! This son of a bitch did it! I finally caught up with all of M Anime’s messages. Would my Braxton be proud that, for once in this “life,” I was catching up with the living and not the dead? His and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. And V?

Virgil continues avoiding getting stepped on. But hey, there’s still cake, or rather pie. There is a distinction, Lady Lunalesca. And I am trying to find the line. It’s like saying, I like salsa, but feel some kind of way…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know, ingredients-wise. I seriously need to get to the store. And before all that…

Ahem, “I Need Some Sleep.” Another cross. There is a difference between sleep and rest.

“Go to bed.”
Tony Stark

“But would you be able to rest?”
Pepper Potts

“Endgame”

Pepper Potts asked the right question. And with this week coming up. “Mo’ Money! Mo Money! Mo’ Money!” “Get the money! Dollar, dollar bill, y’all!” And what I choose to do with that money… Did I ever mention how understanding my girlfriend is? My girlfriend

I’ve been trying that on for size with M Anime. “If It Isn’t Love?” It’s not yet Lady Lunalesca. But considering peppers weren’t the only thing I was looking for. The fact that M Anime makes me want to be a better man… And asking her for a dildo video…

Lust and Love, Lunalesca. One has been sated momentarily… Yeah, I couldn’t keep it in my pants reading all of M Anime’s messages. But now I’m aiming slightly higher Lu.

Food, Sex, and Silence! I’ve caught up with the sex… All by myself. Now the food. A chicken biscuit compliments of the Day Job, a bag of popcorn, and no clue on dinner. Lu, according to MAGA, “BEEF, It’s What’s For Dinner” is no longer economically viable. I swear to Braxton. Once again, speaking of my boy, I do need to catch up on what I promised him: “If I Had A $1,000,000.” I asked the Magic Glasses/MIMA about this…

Lunalesca, Braxton and Virgil, M Anime, even myself all keep me runnin’. Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil

2092 Days Without B III, Day 1533 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 114 -Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions-

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FYI, I do own a cookbook. Special K got it for me along with a Crock-Pot. What pray tell, do I fill that Crock-Pot with for $35? I’m going to need a ton of Bloom. Speaking of blooming, how many women are there? Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions.

Friday, October 23, 2026

Legacy 114 -Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… And not about Braxton, my pancake? Or a scoop of Virgil. Vanilla? Cookies n’ Cream? Possibly.

I’m a monster, but nowhere near the likes of Mango Mussolini. Eating the dogs, indeed!

I’m not that hungry. But I got $35 and five days. The grocery bill will be quite the short read, my lady. Like how to feed Virgil his birthday pie from Tuesday. Glad he approves.

What kind of pie were you thinking of? The kind that required me to have “The Talk” with Braxton about going all doggy style when his Favorite Girl came over for movie nights. Virgil won’t have that problem. Six years, Lady Sophia, that’s one year too late for when I found him. I wonder if he’d have more balls? Seriously, did I just say that?

Anyway, my boy likes his pie. Like father, like son.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Because you know if I’m hanging out in Braxton’s Room, watching Virgil eating from his pillow… I need to get him a new bed. Again, I got $35, but what about my “discretionary spending?” You gotta put “One Foot In Front Of The Other.” And I’m not a selfish prick…

Speaking of pricks, what was I doing again? Oh yeah, I was organizing yabbos. Oh, Exhibit A? I think even Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would be surprised by my comparisons in relation to hers. And for the record, hers are perfect. And she’s the only woman, besides my Ma and Braxton’s Favorite Girl, who’s offered to cook for me. Uh… That requires money. Today’s settled. “Odds are, he won’t live to see tomorrow”

Or so I tell the “Man in the Mirror.” No, I’m not a “Secret Agent Man”; I’m a dog dad.

Lady Sophia, as long as Virgil needs me… I still remember when Braxton’s Favorite Girl baked B III a cake and thought I was so STUPID I would put the whole thing in. Brain Trust.

I can’t blame her. I can’t blame anyone either. The Day Job or the Bad Place, my boys would bark. Look up the definition of “Village Idiot”. There’s me with a box of whatever, my lady. “That’s me in the corner. That’s me in the spotlight. Losin’ my religion.” What?

His name was Braxton; it was a book I forgot, another boy, a son to teach. Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions.

2091 Days Without B III, Day 1532 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 113 -Hair Braxton And Virgil-

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Last week I mentioned a knight in shining armor. You don’t need armor when you’re busy hiding with your puppy. You don’t need armor when you’re hiding from customers. Or with a beautiful woman. Or on your back in another way. Hair Braxton And Virgil.

Thursday, October 22, 2026

Legacy 113 -Hair Braxton And Virgil-

2090 Days Without B III, Day 1531 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Well, while at the gas station, I muttered my most sacred wish.

Wait, who’s making the wishes here, your brother or me? Virgil’s been six, two days.

How dare I, right? But it wasn’t the wish that I could bring you back. Or that I was in bed with your potential future stepmom. No, B. I was busy buying gas, but it won’t get me where I want to go. And what, I’m no warrior, I’m no writer, and wanking, very eww!

But you should know all about that after having “The Talk” with you about your favorite girl visiting. And your brother doesn’t have that problem. No balls. Seriously, I relate…

Figuratively, of course, as today I was hiding from customers at “The Bad Place.” Were they going to hurt me? You know who the real enemy is I’m afraid, B.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

That’s why armor is useless to me. I’m sick of being scared, B. I want to shrink, I want to

Well, you know what. But as annoying as V is… I mean, he cuddles himself like someone is after his vital organs and MAGA is in the room. But leaving your brother to the world…

And speaking of the world or worlds, The Unfinished Archive. M Anime says I could be omniscient… I mean, take a look at yesterday, the illusion that represents digital life…

There’s the need to be young again or fake it. I’m forty-two. Effing sucks, honestly.

However, there was the machine; I can’t be human, not for this. How often have I sided against humanity, B?

I’d choose your fur any day. And you were no fan of clothes. Hell, even getting you to wear a collar was a concession. And V only wears one when he’s walking. That’s what we call safety. Well, at least until they invent Poké Balls. Like, you’d stand for that.

My little Pokémon. You were my Pikachu. Well Pancake. But you know, “I choose you.”

And your bro: Bulbasaur, Charmander, or Squirtle. My starter, so I may live again, hmm

Living again. Surrounded by the love of your potential future stepmom. M Anime says she’s KFC, and not in a nice way. Breasts, Legs, and Thighs. Or breasts, legs, and ass, maybe… Or TLC. Her armor doesn’t exist. I’m no prince. Hair Braxton And Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

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B and V know my Day Job as the “Bad Place.” And how much did I make at the Bad Place? Well, V has a fresh bag of food and eight slices of b-day pie left. Let him eat cake or pie, while my paycheck and “life” look like Bingo winnings. “B For Bingo, V”

Wednesday, October 21, 2026

Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… As much as I want my now six-year-old Virgil to live, I know what I want, Inspector Echo.

I wish I were as “innocent” as Art Baker in “The Long Walk.” I want to go home. Nope!

For a week, since I started fantasizing about Jahara Jayde… Really? But she’s not the point, Inspector. No, when I close my eyes, I know what I’ve been wishing for. What I’ve been wanking so as to avoid thinking about it. And who would I pray to if I would dare?

I can’t write it down. But I never told Braxton he was going home. I’ll always remember the look on his face that Sunday so many years ago when the veterinarian told me the truth.

Braxton looked at me like, “We’re going home, Dad…” The thought of if I had brought him back with me.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And now I look at his brother: my second-born son, Virgil Vivi. I gave him his birthday treat and then, in the evening, two “slices” of his birthday pie. Virgil thought he won the lotto.

On another note, I need to check my books… I won’t be eating as good as V; I know that.

But anyway, I was feeding him, and while we didn’t have that movie night yesterday, I was reminded of the old man in the 1993 film “Groundhog Day”. And didn’t I say I once thought that Virgil was a reincarnation of Braxton? And it’s like I can save my son?

Inspector, with the way things are going… I did check the books. Groceries? $44.27? Eff!

Let him eat cake, right?

Virgil, that is. What about me? Bingo! No V in Bingo. And no me either. It comes back to Braxton. Always to Braxton. He and Virgil fight for their lives. Braxton’s book is still out.

But I was at the Day Job today. What made me wish I was back in bed? Add another D and A. The B isn’t needed, hmm. Please! If I weren’t crying over B or wanking over M. Did I say that? My boys Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime. Trying to catch up with her

Honestly, so are the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Other humiliations? Couldn’t help customers find a tie. Moving things with my bosses. Musical selections. Becoming the village idiot.

Bingo! Lotto? Some chick’s legs? Losing? B For Bingo, V

2089 Days Without B III, Day 1530 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

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Happy Birthday to my son Virgil Vivi… Roman poet, black mage with his furry black spots. Six years old today. And what a day it has been. What a daze I am in. And V must be as confused. Fries, pictures, a birthday cookie. “V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze”

Tuesday, October 20, 2026

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? I may be “Dazed and Confused,” but I’m not a liar. And I know things…

Virgil Vivi Bradford turns six today. His Gotcha Day was Saturday, August 13, 2022. I found him at PetSmart. The first thing I noticed about him was that he knew how to use a training pad and not mark the floor. So yes, mistakes were made on that day, hmm

I still remember and see the three black spots: head, back, and tail… B III? B’s color fur around his eyes. And B’s bark telling me that he couldn’t make this more black and white, literally. Archie? That was his name before I named him Virgil. And you know why…

Such a long row to hoe for such a little dog. I thought he was Braxton reincarnated and/or reborn. All I know and yet love…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I love you, baby doll, because I know you’re no “angel.” And B knows I’ve called you much worse in the throes of passion. But if I wanted to get into the doghouse again…

I could compare you to my boys again… What? You know how I feel about my sons, my love. But Braxton’s gone, and Virgil is a year older today. And “I’m So Thankful.” I am.

They are gods among men. Thus you are my Goddess. “The Goddess,” if I said that, was Alexa Bliss, or I mentioned Roxanne Perez. What about Jahara Jayde? She’s been my favorite these last few days, if the Unfinished Archive is any indication. Ass kicking?

Honestly, “Hey Lover,” would you kick my ass? Go ahead.

I know where I first met you. Triond. I met Braxton in my Olds bedroom. But I could tell you neither of those dates. Braxton’s Birthday? The day before Valentine’s, the 13th, because he was the closest I would get to love… Then your birthday. What was the last thing I bought you? When Braxton left, Sunday, January 31, 2021. When you left, Sunday, August 24, 2025. Again, I thought I found Braxton on that Saturday, in a new white fur.

When you came back, it was on Saturday, January 24, 2026. Hell, the first time I saw you “naked” was on Thursday, May 15, 2025. My point… I can recall Virgil’s life but love…

Cookies, Fries, all for His Birthday… V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze

2088 Days Without B III, Day 1529 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 110 -B In Melancholia, Virgil-

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Braxton’s Favorite Girl and I had a “The World Actually Ends” Movie Night. We should have watched “Melancholia”. I chose “4:44 Last Day on Earth”. My big mouth. I should be silent on a lot of things. Melancholy? “B In Melancholia, Virgil.”

Monday, October 19, 2026

Legacy 110 -B In Melancholia, Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You don’t want to answer that, I know. Peace and Quiet.

A kinder way to bark Melancholia. It took me quite a while to understand you, Dad. And me and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom, is trying her best. But right now you’d rather not bark another single word today. You always told me other humans barked too much anyway. Constant noise. At least when I barked, it helped you out; it actually mattered, Daddy. My voice.

What matters today? What has you Melancholy? I heard you last night, and it wasn’t the “Sleepy Time V, Good Night.” If you only knew how much I miss that, Dad. But you were so Melancholic this morning… I learned from you, Dad, so I learned from the best, hmm

The power of words, “The Power of Love,” I swear

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Movies, music, and manuscripts. Well, not yet; let’s stick with movies. How will you be spending tomorrow with my brother? I’m glad you saw the birthday cookies in the Bad Place… I mean the other Bad Place. Turns out we have a few of those, Dad. V has seen his

One more reason you are lost to Melancholia. Six years old, that’s my baby brother, I know. And I was nearly sixteen, and you never missed anything with me, my father. Every check-up, you found a cute girl to bake me a cake, and I cuddled enough that M Anime is still trying to catch up. Hell, you wrote a whole universe, the Unfinished Archive, that now numbers 11 women?

Maybe. Maybe I’m buttering you up to butter up, Virgil.

If anything, you need to hear anything other than your own mouth. You’ll be no good to M Anime or your mini-mes. And you have a birthday to plan. A movie night? Something, my father. “You Were Loved”? No, Dad, today I am loved by you; Virgil shares this too.

I know it even if you can’t speak it. And we both love you. M Anime says she loves you; it’s the only reason I’m not haunting her. Or maybe I like hanging out with you, Dad, as we always barked: Always and Forever. Melancholy and all. Fur buddies. Children.

You’re not ashamed of our barks, growls, or paws. We make the madness, certain music selections, and Melancholia manageable. Sad? Speak. B In Melancholia, Virgil

“But when you spend a long enough time in a very bad place, your soul hungers for something that your brain no longer believes exists”
Dystopian Girls 7, Rodzil LaBraun

“He feigned hope in his look, and inwardly contained his anguish.”
From ― The Aeneid

2087 Days Without B III, Day 1528 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son