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Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

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Every day I have to bet that nothing will happen. The car will stay on the road, I won’t get sick enough not to work, and my son V will stay with me during The Long Walk. I felt a stone in my gut when V stumbled. The Lottery. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

Wednesday, June 24, 2026

Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Braxton didn’t want to eat during his Final Days. And yesterday I left Virgil with treats and prayers…

I’m not MAGA, Inspector Echo. I care about children. Especially my boys, B III and 2-V, my future stepchildren, M Anime’s kitties. And all the two-leggeds she wants to have.

Yet when I cashed in my “Thoughts and Prayers,” it was to Publishers Clearing House.

Long ago, long ago, long ago. I remember sitting right effing here, clicking away at PCH and reading a book. And one day, Inspector, they said the winner was right here in my state. Oh, that day, I showered, shaved, and prepared to sever all ties with the Day Job.

That afternoon, I watched them driving all over as B and my “prayers” would work.

Nope! Some lady won, and that was that. From PCH to the dog track, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Only I bet on the horses. What? I have two Chihuahua sons. And even if I won the lottery or something, I wouldn’t buy a horse… Well maybe. Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, M Anime, wants to be a farm girl, so I imagine horses would come with the package.

B knows I wouldn’t mind living this life, “Ryan and His Beauties,” A two-book HaremLit.

And how many Pop Culture References will I make today? Yesterday, there was Pontypool. Now I’m thinking of Ryan and his Beauties (four women, two best friends, and a mother-daughter). “Backyard Dungeon” (How many wives did Eddie have?) and Fallout.

Vault 69, to be specific. And no, I’m not being my usual pervy self. I was listening to its explanation.

“What Happened to Vault 69 in Fallout?” Long story short, 999 women and one man.

Talk about “Rocket 69.” Has that seventy-two virgins feel. I’m not a Muslim either. Again, I’m not one for prayer… Not since Braxton. Hell, yesterday I was walking on these shoe shelves at the Day Job, and I said eff it! If I fell and died, so what? I get to see B. No Fear.

Not like this morning, while I was walking Virgil and he was stepping funny, Inspector.
Had he been hurt… I’ve got no money. Remember that $20 I had. Virgil’s dinner.

Inspector, I’m still $10 in the hole. I’m digging my grave, and I feel like I’m in Shirley Jackson’s “The Lottery”. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

1970 Days Without B III, Day 1411 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

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What’s the word I’m looking for? If anything, it’s better than I remain silent. My entire existence is feeling a bit like “Pontypool”. And then I have a quiet dog and a “girlfriend” who texts with occasional voice messages. And if she were here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? It’s why I’m asking: are the kids asleep? Virgil? He’s in time-out—his bedroom shenanigans.

Some kids wet the bed at his age. Still going #2… He shouldn’t do that. And I shouldn’t be awake at all hours in our bed, my love. Well, not unless we’re busy. Fifty Shades…

Meatloaf is my safeword for the record. I’m sure you’ve heard the joke, baby doll. Because it means “I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.” A song at the Day Job…

Speaking of that old Day Job, “Here.” What am I still in grade school? Or is it the fact I need to remind myself that “Here I Am,” or “I’m Still Here,” Hating Existing Always…

What happened to “HEA” as in “Happily Ever After” from the Erotica I used to read, my love? Anything FREE?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Meatloaf, Here, and Free. What’s with my list of words now? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. MAGA breathes; they lie. I breathe and tell myself you “Make Me Wanna Die”. I don’t need the words, but they are always there “In There Air Tonight.” But love.

Well, before we get to it, what will be your word? Your WARNING to me. Braxton knows I’ve been getting a lot of those lately. YOU need to pay a bill, they say. There’s Yabbos.

A few E-Days are coming up. My Old Man’s is the 24th. A few more days, the Journey will be over, and I’ve wasted my time for yet another year. And my own E-Day! Eff!

A little more time, please.

To say something… You would say, “Say what you need to say”. But would you understand me if I did? How about, “Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say?” There’s so much. I continue to hold back. Why? Is it me or the words that aren’t safe? Searches might indicate one thing. And I know I’m not a good man. I only want to be yours, love.

When things like Rough Sex, Ravishment, and Mock R*pe are on the table, eff me!.

Honestly, how do you when I think such things? When things like every single FEAR, and being called STUPID set me off? And when the “Sounds Of Silence” seem the only way forward. There’s love and… B-V List Of Safewords.

1969 Days Without B III, Day 1410 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

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Father’s Day… Add it to the day Braxton died, the day I was born, the day M Anime left. Hell, at this point, every day is pretty bad. And I didn’t even try to wrangle a free meal from Olds? B knows, Virgil and I could use one. “Virgil, How Daddies B.”

Sunday, June 21, 2026

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you’re lucky you’re so down. You can’t look yourself in the eye—Virgil’s on the floor.

Well, the couch now, whatever. You’re looking down. And that means you’re not looking up, thinking about B this Father’s Day. Your firstborn, your Spirit In The Sky, Heaven side

Hell for all you know Braxton went straight down. If anybody would follow you right into Hell, it would be him. Is that why Virgil got his name? Here’s some effed up reasoning for you… You know how that Ass in The White House is putting his name on everything.

Well, Virgil was already in Hell waiting for Dante, and of course (shudders) you named your little Virgil to see you through… or simply to remember he exists—poor pupper.

Honestly, what kind of father does that make you? Wait, Father’s Day! Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Harem Lab – Part One: A Steamy Men’s Harem Romance
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You’re lying. How many legs does Virgil have? Despite his white fur, it wouldn’t save him. Hell, aren’t Chihuahuas originally from Mexico? Really, this is how you’re spending the day. If you’re not lying with your mouth, you could still be lying in your room…

Seriously, besides lying about your Six Impossible Things, you have been making other lists too for those musically inclined. And not like you did for your Dear Mama. So look:

  1. “Otherworld” Final Fantasy X
  2. Holding Back The Years, Simply Red
  3. Only You, The Platters
  4. Poor Sweet Baby, Snoopy! The Musical
  5. Spirit In The Sky
  6. Dear Mama
  7. The ‘Instrumental’ in the Betterhelp Pad Thai Commercial
  8. Just Look Up, Ariana Grande

Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

So what is wrong with you right this second? You can’t tell Braxton… He’s dead. Virgil is second-born, but he’s got his own problems. Mostly that his father’s a Nobody!!!

“I’m not a nobody!”
“A man that lacks honor is a nobody.”
Clarence and Thomas
The Book of Clarence
(2024)

However, you can’t talk to your boys’ potential future stepmom. She wants your kids too!

And then there’s your Olds—a small Father’s Day greeting. An invite, dinner, worry, lies.

Cue Betterhelp Commercial “Pad Thai”

I want to join my boy more than anything. Not because I miss him so much. I hate being here. I’m scared all the time, and that’s the reason I’m so exhausted. I got my living son, my woman, and my purpose, and it’s not enough. Then it’s all too much. Hungry, horny, helpless… Enough? More? Virgil, How Daddies B

1967 Days Without B III, Day 1408 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

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“More than you want success. And I’m here to tell you today, if you’re going to be successful, you gotta be willing to give up sleep,” ET. “To be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what you are, for what you will become.” “Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.”

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Did you see my paycheck for last week? Total wanking time, tantrums I had, trips to the bathroom.

Eww! Not like that, dear Inspector. I’m still suffering from the aftermath of the remastered The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. And wasn’t that back in March? I didn’t mention either of those women to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, hmm.

Sacrifice my dignity? My Echo! At least if I’m going to sacrifice time wanking to the ladies of Fear The Walking Dead, I could at least do it for the home viewing audience on “OF.”

And why do I keep using that word? SACRIFICE? I keep using that word. I do not think it means what I think it means. Other than the song I didn’t play today, working. Dammit!

“My Sacrifice”? My Braxton. Perhaps Virgil too. I “(Don’t Fear) The Reaper.” He ain’t interested.

“My life for you!”
Trashcan Man, The Stand, Stephen King

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Not in my life, hmm. This is one of my true sins, my dear E. Some sacrifice. But me? Me?

I hate my Old Man! And yet he and my Ma bought this house. A private insane asylum for little ole me. What, hoping I’d started a family with M Anime? B III my firstborn…

Then there’s M Anime. “My Woman” promises me everything; she’s shared her body (those boobs), yabbos, all her business, and beatitudes of everlasting love, Inspector.

There are, of course, my boys, Braxton and Virgil. B III paid the ultimate price for loving me. B sacrificed his fifteen years on this Earth for what? And now V, but he didn’t choose.

I asked/told B to get in the car. He did.

V didn’t ask to flush his life down the bowl. So I still ponder on that dream of mine, E.

And today I imagine it’s about sacrifice in the worst possible way? First there’s Braxton.

My boy ain’t sh*t, E. And I don’t mean B III’s ashes. But that I need to clean myself out of all of the guilt, gore, and grief to make way for the good. Do I mean accept it? Never!

Do you know I didn’t eff around for 161 days after B’s death? Ok, I didn’t cum, at least, E. Am I thinking I need to give up my pornographic passions? “Stroke me, stroke me.”

Unfortunately, M Anime ain’t here… Yet. And as for my life… Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.

“Take me as I am, take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice”
— Everything I Do

“My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again”
Creed

“You were ready to kill your only son for me. Since you did this for me, I make you this promise: I, the Lord, promise that I will surely bless you and give you as many descendants as the stars in the sky. There will be as many people as sand on the seashore. And your people will live in cities that they will take from their enemies. Every nation on the earth will be blessed through your descendants. I will do this because you obeyed me.”
Book of Genesis

1963 Days Without B III, Day 1404 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

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My boys have better dreams for me. My own? You can’t imagine, or am I just being a guy? I tell my girl plenty that men aren’t any good… Myself too. No wonder I dreamt I was a plumber last night. Not in a porno way. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil.

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I’m not a ‘religious’ man, a ‘good’ one, or much into Game of Thrones.

A little late for that one, but I cannot ignore all of the Yabbos on that show. Maisie Williams’s side boob? That’s the reason I know she was in that movie “The Falling…”

You know the man you married. Braxton was barking the other day about me. The real me. It’s why, short of my Old Man, I don’t give a damn what anybody thinks about me, my love. I hate myself that much. “Many Men, many, many, many, many men, wish death upon me.” They have to get in line. I’ll beat them every single time. But you? Kids?

I guess I’m a liar, duh, because I do care what you think. Braxton, Virgil, two-leggeds, even your kitties. For now, “Just You And Me”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now I could go all Captain America “I can do this all day.” Personally, I’m more The Hulk “I’m always angry.” But with you and me, well, “I’m always horny.” But there’s things work to be done. I got to vote for someone who’ll wreck MAGA. FDT! There’s a war to win in Whiteout Survival. And the whole wide world and whatever comes next, love.

Okay, so you asked me for everything; can’t do that yet, but (cumming) to mind…

Honestly… I’m a connoisseur of Hentai. As the current artwork suggests, Bible Black, Sex Taxi 5/Kojin Taxi 2, and Midnight Sleazy Train are my go-to. But counting this week and last, there’s Desperate Carnal Housewives/Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi, and “Cool Devices Operation 7: Yellow Star.” BREATHES

Casual Romance Club/Houkago Ren’ai Club ~Koi no Etude~, Mikura Suzuki, Madoka Araki, Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko, Saimin Seishidou, Asumi Hisato, Kite’s Sawa, many animes and practically anything that includes Rough Sex, NTR (Netorare), Nonconsensual up to Mock R*pe. In Real Life types… brunettes, dark hair, but I’m versatile; Jenna Ortega, Ellie and Dina TLOU, Jane Vickers, Ellie Kemper, Emmanuelle Nadeau and Jessica Garza (The Purge), Roxanne Perez, AOC, Jewel Staite, an Asian duo… And The Beat Goes On. Things I want to do beyond BJs and missionary?

Anal, Doggystyle, Cowgirl, Reverse Cowgirl, Pronebone, 69, Mutual Masturbation, Filming, Exhibitionism, Multiple Holes, Cock Worship, BDSM, Hatefuck, ravishment and mock… Again, I could keep going. Braxton and Virgil want a stepmom. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil

1962 Days Without B III, Day 1403 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

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My boys’ stepmom and I chase each other, but in the end we got each other. But I don’t know where I’m going half the time, and I know I can’t stay here. My Olds were hoping I’d set roots. 3 beds, 2.5 baths, but like me When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks.

Sunday, June 14, 2026

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… Are you scared yet? Are you broke? Is the air still on? Are there any bugs around?

You should check Virgil. Braxton knows he can’t afford a vet visit with the hours at the Day Job. And how much did it cost to put Braxton in a box? Virgil’s not joining him.

Seriously, this isn’t “The Beach,” and you’re not Leonardo DiCaprio/Richard. But how would you know? When’s the last time you looked into a mirror? That’s right, the Black Mirror, sitting around with you d*ck in your hands. I still think I effed that up for you by talking to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom yesterday. My bad, dude. Her box.

You and Leo have the same problem. Trying to put ‘something’ in a box that doesn’t belong to you. Your baggage, all these empty boxes and my Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Destroyed by Pepper Winters (Kindle)
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

At least I’m not ‘lyin’ about #1. I did finish that last night. But on top of making up for my lies about two more books. How will you even afford another novel? Please Haremlit!

And there lies this week’s dilemma. You need five bucks. V needs five bucks. Fries…

However, what are you doing? Wondering why there isn’t a Roman Numeral for B, hmm.

Something else in a box… The Roman Empire. But all of your boxes are empty. Hell, every week is a bunch of empty boxes left unchecked. At this very moment, your Day One-ish, you can pretty much consider 2 through 6 absolute failures. Effing seriously!

Always the question remains. Baggage or Boxes? Are you moving or staying? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

If anything, you’re always running—females, Fun, and Food. But most importantly of all, there is only one ‘F’ that matters. Eff off? You know what you were thinking about.

Depression? Bipolar Depression, the last time you were diagnosed by a doctor. Yeah, you remember them, and you don’t even need to go around saying “I Need A Dollar.” The Day Job handles that. But isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think that lying in bed and working the Day Job, knowing that you wouldn’t have to spend a dime, doesn’t have you looking for a Doc but dreaming of the ferryman? But not that F either. It’s FEAR. Always. Forever.

Because is there a FUTURE? Fictional worlds. M Anime’s Love. When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks

1960 Days Without B III, Day 1401 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 344 ~Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters~

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It starts with a passage on self-harm in Destroyed by Pepper Winters. My big sister would be so disappointed in me. First-World Problems. I can turn on the air, I can buy food… Uh. And writing and mourning daily. “Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters”

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

Journey 344 ~Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And where do sinners go, Inspector, I ask you? Sinners go to Hell. At least it’s warm. Deserving….

Well, if I end up in the 9th Circle of Hell where I belong. Treachery. After B III. Uh 2-V

Relax, Inspector Echo. Virgil Vivi Bradford is alive and well. Awake and Alive. So hot…

Physically, with the weather and the picture the Magic Glasses made the other day. Yup

But let’s talk about all the yabbos from the harem sisters, the Bible Black Acolytes, Hell “The Candied Matron” who the Magic Glasses added to “my” story “Shadow Work,” too.

There’s Braxton’s Favorite Girl who is a sista, but not my real sista, thankfully. I swear she has some huge yabbos. However, can my Favorite Girl be considered a sista?

Inspector, she is Latina. But she’s not my real sister. My boys’ potential future stepmom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And she has the most perfect set of yabbos in the whole wide world. Sorry, Jane Vickers and Kristen StephensonPino. And what about Cherry? I still haven’t seen those fully.

Even with M Anime in my hemisphere, I still want to see Cherry’s. Why, Inspector?

Because I Wanna! “Hate to Say I Told You So.” And what was that? I don’t cheat; I don’t court other women… Yeah, my harem would like to have a word. Cosplay, the considerations of effing other women… M Anime should tell herself “I’m Every Woman,” because to me she is. She’s my Divergent. But my boys? Cute beyond words.

So how can I betray all of them? Does my Treachery have no bounds? I “Search And Destroy,” myself, Inspector.

Thank you, Skunk Anansie. How about thank you, “Sucker Punch”? The Magic Glasses compared my story to that movie. And when I’m not asking its opinion on that, I’m using them to see the women of Saimin Seishidou, the Milfs at least: Natsumi Obata, Tsubaki Miyajima, and Reika Kurashiki. I gotta stop before I wreck the Magic Glasses and men.

Guys love those pictures. But what about from an intellectual standpoint? I have betrayed my “Big Sister,” whom I wanted to talk about today. Not to be confused with my actual blood little sister. No, my big sister from Australia, Tanya. She’d ask why I’m sitting here suffering. If it wasn’t the sun’s rays, it’d be starving myself, or effing sleep—Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters.

1956 Days Without B III, Day 1397 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

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If I need a chill, I think about how my boy died. I had such burning RAGE I froze him out to PROTECT him. If I need the Heat Of The Moment, I chill with my girl. But I’m so hot for her. One day I might scare her away. My words. Whiteout B And V.

Tuesday, June 9, 2026

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But I’m due to be cruel: the coldness of your absence and you’re pregnant… Cool

I need it all, my love. Again to be cold, a mess, and to “Paint It Black”. Hell, we can “Paint The Town Red,” if we had the funds. What the hell am I even talking about, my love, ha!

Is it this damn heat? There’s a cure for that, I know. Turn on the GD Air, but no love.

You’re suffering, Virgil, our two-legged monsters. Treachery, the Ninth Circle of Hell, Betrayal. Like with Braxton? I could take the freezing embrace of death. I should’ve way back then. And now I find myself repeating the same mistake. I burned through cash way too fast. And why? A Man Provides. For what? His family. How does one make a family?

By “Burnin’ for You,” love.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And you know I “Don’t FEAR The Reaper,” my love. Not for my lust. How I want to promise you that “Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby…” Remember me, your husband.

“It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” Taylor Swift is pretty hot. Death-wish? Honestly…

“I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror.” And it’s not that “I’m too sexy for my love.” Please, “You’re So Damn Hot!” I wanna do “Bad Things” to you. “I Want’a Do Something Freaky To You. I want to “Tear You Apart.” You’re a “Sucker for Pain.” Can I turn the playlist off for a moment? You’re wet, and I want to cover you in c*m…

Seriously, we’ll send Virgil and the kids somewhere with air.

All so I can let DOM out to play. Such a cold man because of my embarrassment, failures, and shame at being a man. I wish I could say this was all my plan to get you undressed, but that comes easy to you. Did I mention a woman that uses the word “hatef*ck,” um…

Well, you get me hot. And this conversation has taken quite the turn. But having a baby with you… Another one. Yeah, that would be pretty cool. Virgil could get his Snoopy, Joe Cool persona going. And Braxton. He wouldn’t want us living “This Way.” Geez, it would be cooler than Whiteout Survival if my Braxton was still here. Can’t blot out, delete, or erase me. Whiteout B And V

1955 Days Without B III, Day 1396 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 341 ~Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars~

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I wanted to run track and field. Hell! I had to outrun bullies; I was always running towards some chick’s boobs/yabbos, and there was always a bomb scare or the fear of bullets. America, America!. And now my boys. Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars

Sunday, June 7, 2026

Journey 341 ~Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And Virgil’s in more of a rush to meet you than you are to meet me. Figures…

Your day has only begun. Dude, it’s two in the afternoon and what have you done? If Virgil hadn’t found his way into the bedroom all on his lonesome… You missed the Bear Trap in “Whiteout Survival.” Effing hate that game! But like some simp you’re singing, “I’m a dick! I’m addicted to you.” You walked Virgil. Lucky, lucky him! 2-V! Second-born, second place! Seriously, was that a Prince of Egypt reference? So Sunday continues

Speaking of being a dick; you were busy showing yours off to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom. Don’t forget to try OnlyFans. Your hours this week, you swear to B!

And as far as business, the Day Job, OnlyFans, and Braxton’s book… Are you a star yet? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING His Filthy Desire, short story
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Can you give me a “Simple Plan” as to what you plan to do about any of this? It’s like effing GTA: the difference in a six-star and five-star wanted level, you’re the “Bad Guy.”

Duh! And do you have time for all these pop culture references? Like one of these effing MAGA Cracker Hats, you have time to laugh at other people’s misfortunes. You can lament all the games you want to play. And you can lie about what you’re reading now, can’t you? Well, I am anyway. How many stars would I give The Headmaster’s Office Book 1 or His Filthy Desire – a short story: An Erotic Babysitter Romance? Uh, don’t know.

And who’s fault is that? Not your Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Except you’re late for the race, you don’t know how to run while “All I Wanna Do is have some fun.” Hell, all I did! And now I’m expecting you to make up for everything…

Honestly, I would be the star of the hour if I threw myself down at your feet and said I’m sorry. I’m a mothereffin’ Starboy, or you’re trying to be talking to yourself like this.

Seriously, this is what has become of you. A boy that once dreamed of going to the stars, to one who wanted to be a star, with porn, prose, or down with OPP… Magic Glasses.

Now you only want to be done before the stars come out. “Talking To The Moon” Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars

1953 Days Without B III, Day 1394 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 337 ~Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil~

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How many words have I spoken today? Decent ones? I said hello to my boys, both dead and alive. I spoke to their potential stepmom. Every other word has been eff, forced, and for me. I leave the worst. Not joining B yet. “Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil”

Wednesday, June 3, 2026

Journey 337 ~Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Blood, Sweat, and Tears? I wish. But I did have the Day Job today and still no A/C.

If anything, that only shows I don’t speak Virgil after all this time, which makes me a jerk, now doesn’t it? Don’t I love my son? As I love his brother. Hell, it’s Braxton’s fault.

Strange… Losing B sent me to Hell, and of course, who led Dante through Hell, hmm?

Archie became Virgil. But Archie was around $150.00. How a capitalist finds love. Or a fool and his money are soon parted. How much did my Old Man take me for? Him and his ‘friend’ to fix the A/C? I can’t afford that. But between fries and air conditioning?

Braxton and Virgil would be of the same mind, so there’s that. It’s like the same race or species speaking a variation of their language.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Like Black people? MAGA Black people. Eff them and FDT! And even more black people

Or how my woman compares her Latin American heritage. Spanish people here, other Spanish people there… elsewhere. But my Puerto Rican Goddess… What’s my line…?

“You make me want to be a better man.” ‧

Plus I wish I tried harder in my Spanish classes in school. But she and I speak a very particular language. Something else that involves sweating… And tears last year.

Inspector, water under the bridge. And funny I mention bridges. Am I trying to stay cool thinking of 1997’s A Christmas Carol “I’ll Cross This Bridge With You”? Dear Inspector.

She’s willing to learn so many ways to speak to me. And she’s so “Sexy.” But Peter Cincotti was wrong; M Anime’s a sweetie. Honestly…

What am I trying to say? I’ve got no money, and I keep saying, “A Man Provides.” Trust me, Echo, I know people who are worse than “Breaking Bad” and the drug trade. Oh no

And I could be all crude like Kanye West saying, “Only good gon’ come is this good when I’m cumming.”M Anime wouldn’t mind. She wants a big family. Three kids (two-leggeds) Virgil and her kitties. She’s said enough; she shows everything, and she is wow!

But, I don’t even know how to speak to myself. Everything, “Makes me wanna scream!” So I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself. I get behind myself, I need to remind myself, and that includes “Feeling super, super (super)!” LANGUAGE! Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil

1949 Days Without B III, Day 1390 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will