Monday, September 14, 2026

Legacy 075 -Braxton, Virgil, Worrying Bites-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? It’s 3 AM and “whatever bitter brew you’re drinkin’” What, Bloom?

I remember when you were all about 5-hour Energy. All the times when I would get my mid-morning Z’s under the table and your eyes would be stuck on the Glow Box. And you would always tell me how when you were done, we’d have fun and go outside, Dad.

Done? You didn’t mean with the day, the do’s and don’ts; it was a ton of those, I know, right? Being my Dad. Always and Forever my Dad. Like that movie we saw, First Knight:

“Brother to brother, yours in life and death.”
First Knight

That you never need worry about, my father. “I’m Still Here.” “I’m Still Standing,” Dad. Yes, “I’m still standing! I’m still strong!” Like father, like son. And no, I don’t mean everything in the Glow Box. You’ll turn that off.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But buying my brother more French Fries (that’s what you call those fry golden stick things, I like…) My Future Potential Stepmom. And what isn’t to be always and forever:

“It is a common mistake to believe we have to work hard for happiness, or that happiness is conditioned by what we have, and who we are in society. Happiness is the experience of mind when there is no presence of fear. That’s all. It’s simple.”

• Michael Kewley –

You’ve been thinking about this a lot, my father. It’s nice to have it defined; at least I know finally. It’s why I always, always, ALWAYS wanted to be so brave. What took me down?

You worry it was your indifference near the end. You worry it was you, period. You worry that there is worry in a place like this, where I am. Always full of worry, my father.

Because you can’t get full of anything else. Food? You’re still worried about walking into the kitchen. Too much fun. Dad, you fuck around plenty.

LANGUAGE! Yes, Dad, I know, I know, watch what I bark. However, you don’t disagree.

And even before you met Miss M Anime or my Favorite Girl, you had your “big sister” who told you why you found it so easy to starve yourself, which is ‘pretty reckless,’ I think.

Look who’s talking, right? I didn’t eat either, and yet I was so full of love for you, of memories of being a good boy, your son, and there was worry, not an ending knowledge.

No, a fear that gnawed away at me. A Black Dog Serenade. Biting, Pulling, Tasting.

However, I raged, Dad, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. I cooked. So much more tastes better than fear. Braxton, Virgil, Worrying Bites

“Still, we have a moment to simply be two men for a little longer, and not worry about how history might view us.”
Logan Jacobs

“The seeds of life – fiery is their force, divine their birth, but they are weighed down by the bodies’ ills… That is the source of all men’s fears and longings, joys and sorrows…”
Aeneid

2052 Days Without B III, Day 1493 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, September 7, 2026

Legacy 068 -B Visualizing E-Day, Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Can we pretend, Daddy, just for a little while? Another world:

It’s sometime after 7 AM, Emergence Day. Braxton wakes up. You named your first two-legged son after. Virgil finally has someone else he’s attached to. I know you and my stepmom are ‘busy’. Virgil does his best to wrangle the rest of our siblings in.

Three, as stepmom wanted. Braxton, Willow, and Mirabel. Or perhaps their Braxton, Luke, and Leia? Three daughters… Katniss, Tris (Beatrice, B for Braxton), and Ember.

Dad, the point is Virgil tries to slow them down, and by the time they reach you and stepmom… “Happy Birthday, Daddy!” Three times over. Stepmom still knows better, ha.

“Love Is A Long Road.” And yours has further to go, but Stepmom, the three, my little brother Virgil approaching six. To us that’s 40.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And you’re 42. No longer the Slave “41” (Cue Ben-Hur Galley Drums), More like The Bullitts’ “All About You.” Because today is all about you, my father, this life… Existence?

Far from it. Farmland, fields full of flowers, food growing all over thanks to stepmom.

Her greenery. And you, my father? Living a life somewhere between Ryan and his Beauties by Jack Pinkhunter and Bikini Days by Michael Dalton. Do you see my stepmom as such a woman… She’s a woman of the land. You remain a man of leisure. A man of passions. As you sing to my furry little brother, “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies.” And your work, the discipline, never changes. Not even now. But what has Dad

You don’t want to die today. Above everything else. You’re not yearning to “go up.”

Somehow, someway, you’re not looking to me. You’ll “Never Forget Me.” Bone Thugs-N-Harmony, Akon, and Memphis Bleek, sure, but never me. That’s what makes this day easier to bear than the worst day ever. You’ll never accept me being gone, but you can at least, for a while longer, know that you are “Alive.” You’re still breathing, so you can blow those candles out. You can take a breath and be happy (okay, too much to ask), but me, Virgil, and our two-legged siblings are all happy for you being alive. V and my stepmom?

I don’t want to know what you visualize. But Happy Birthday!!! B Visualizing E-Day, Virgil

“When we stop trying to create happiness, happiness comes by itself. It is a common mistake to believe we have to work hard for happiness, or that happiness is conditioned by what we have, and who we are in society. Happiness is the experience of mind when there is no presence of fear. That’s all. It’s simple.”
― Michael Kewley

“Endure, and keep yourselves for days of happiness.”
The Aeneid

2045 Days Without B III, Day 1486 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, August 31, 2026

Legacy 061 -Virgil Will B Eating-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Well, you haven’t killed anybody, the Magic Glasses/MIMA, and you’re sober.

First off, I guess the whole “killing anybody” angle wasn’t very funny, ha. Meaning me…

Second, the worst you’ve done with The Magic Glasses/MIMA is create outfits for the Order of Bible Black, or um the Order of the Black Bible, with two Asian women. A mom and daughter duo. Is this one of those things you’d send me out of the room, Dad? SIGH

And as far as being sober… Now that’s something you would tell me about and not the bottom of the bottle—memories of you and my bro. You drunk off your ass on E-Day, Dad.

LANGUAGE! Yes, I know. But last year you had enough money to get drunk and dance with Virgil to “King of Wishful Thinking.” M Anime…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Ms. M Anime to V and I, I suppose. Our potential future stepmom. Did you get her a present for her birthday last year? And on yours, you were only trying to survive, I know.

Today it was two bags of chips from the Day Job, two mini sausage biscuits, two popsicles… maybe. A bag of popcorn, a cappuccino, and a Raspberry Lemonade Bloom shot. And if you’re really lucky, maybe you won’t burn down the house using the oven.

“Someday you go through the rain
Someday you feed on a tree frog
This ordeal, the trial to survive
For the day we see new life”
Snake Eater, Cynthia Harrell

Yeah, you might be better off trying to be a “Snake Eater” rather than a pizza in the oven, my father. Thou Art Courageous, and I recall barking that while hiding. You did try, Dad.

Bacon. The simple things, my father. Remember meeting my Favorite.

Was it E-Day that she sent the pizza and then you left me and went to the movies with my Favorite Girl, and you came back with her? Yes, “I was intemperate in my youth.”

That’s a nice way of saying I hated her guts once upon a time. But never in my whole life, all fifteen years of it, did I hate you. And now we sit here, “Imagine,” me on your left, Virgil on your right, a late Monday afternoon and the biggest thing on your mind. Yabbos

M Anime’s to be precise, and I don’t need to know that, Dad. Anyway, there is your belly and what you and Virgil will eat 7 days from now. E-Day vittles. Virgil Will B Eating

“Sometimes we think that, because we don’t say the right things or love the right people or even think the wrong thoughts, that we don’t deserve a seat at the table”
Pledged To Him 12

To what crime do you not drive the hearts of men, accursed hunger for gold?
― Virgil, The Aeneid ―

2038 Days Without B III, Day 1479 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, August 24, 2026

Legacy 054 -Betrayed The B’s Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Humiliating. That to you constitutes betrayal. Because? You hate your life.

I promised not to do this… What, be like my brother? Sitting on a pillow, sad, unsure, just waiting for you to come back from “The Bad Place” to wag my tail, waiting for fries.

However, I am my father’s son as well—your son. And I know how we feel. But today is just a day, and it isn’t even Tuesday. Dad, it isn’t one of the BIG 3, but like Office Space ha:

“I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that’s on the worst day of my life.”
Peter Gibbons, Office Space (1999)

So the BIG 3, so we can forget about today, which is hard enough, I know it is my father:

“Every day that man remains free is one more failure. 347 days, gentlemen. 347 failures!”
Chancellor Sutler, V For Vendetta

15,326 failures and counting. Each and every one a betrayal of self. But for 3 in particular you can blame someone else… my grandma, myself, and my potential future stepmom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now I’m sure I’ll have plenty to say about the second-worst day of your life come E-Day, but today… You don’t need to be reminded how I betrayed you, or you betrayed me, hmm. Whatever.

“I sold you, and you sold me.” 1984? Oh, we will be talking about Miss M Anime in a minute. Your Julia. But you and me, Dad. The one day you couldn’t save me, father.

Honestly, the one day I didn’t defy you. Sunday, January 31, 2021. Your rules, father.

Don’t crap in the house. Don’t be afraid to ask you for a bite; stealing isn’t necessary. Dad, if you called me, I needed to respond. And don’t bite the hand that feeds me. Don’t die didn’t make the cut.

But you tell Miss M Anime “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die.” However, last year…

Daddy, she betrayed you. Me, my brother, your fucking Olds. LANGUAGE! I know, Dad, I know. But even yourself… You hate every breath you take, but with 15,326 failures, Dad.

“I’m Still Here.” You say that to yourself every day. I’m here! I say that to you. So does V

But M Anime said she loved you, and then she said goodbye. Hell, my father, for five months, she didn’t make another sound. And until you reached out, Saturday, January 24, 2026, she finally said hello again. To betray someone you claim to love. Daddy…

Treachery: The Ninth Circle of Hell. How do I save you? Betrayed The B’s Virgil

Well, if I was already headed to Hell, I might as well go all out
― Sleepover Harem: Part 2

“Ah, merciless Love, is there any length to which you cannot force the human heart to go?”
Virgil, The Aeneid

2031 Days Without B III, Day 1472 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, August 17, 2026

Legacy 047 -BORED, ROOM, Braxton, Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Day’s, the game is nearly over. Did I step on it?

Did the “Glow Box” turn off? Did you flip the board over? Can I come out of timeout, um, eww, I know what that means. Hell, I was/am the same way. Does Heaven have bitches?

First, Dad, I’m using the proper terminology for the females of my species. Secondly, the way you talk to me and my brother’s, Potential Future Stepmom… M Anime ain’t boring.

Thirdly, are you still trying to find out where I am? The Rainbow Bridge, The Unfinished Archive, or making sure you’ll be warm and cozy in Hell. Let’s not play this game, my father. We’ll be here all day. Well, what’s left of the day because there was so much.

Virgil’s still sitting beside you, bored. “Is It A Crime?”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

When I know that you believe, life’s a game for everyone, and love’s the instructions.

Daddy, you say that V is like you, silent, scared, and allow me to break one of our cardinal rules by now using a very bad word… STUPID. You and Virgil… One and the same.

However, I’ve been thinking about your Favorite Girl… And while we’re on the subject, you should get on the Glow Box and talk to my Favorite Girl. But let’s focus on M Anime, Dad. You know how you said she says “Te Quiero Papi” all the time. Love, my father.

Maybe never towards yourself… We’re not opening that can of worms… What, I was cremated! What I mean is you love me. Virgil? M Anime?

What about the future you were building, really Dad? Becoming a bestselling author. Making The Unfinished Archive profitable or being CEO of Second Circle Creations.

You’re not bored, you’re not basic, and you’re not busting your balls… Despite M Anime.

I can appreciate a set of yabbos and a nice butt, can’t I? But you’re not working as in the Day Job and what you truly want from this existence. Even now you ask “Where’d You Go,” and then want to know when I’m “Coming Home” Angels In The Outfield…

Honestly, “when the angels win the pennant.” Uh, what do we know about baseball, Dad? Nothing. Nevertheless, Dad, we played the games. Now I want you to win. Live To Win. BORED, ROOM, Braxton, Virgil

“To save the world, people had to think differently”
N. K. Jemisin – Emergency Skin

Now, whoever has courage and a strong and collected spirit in his breast, let him come forward, lace on the gloves and put up his hands.
Virgil, The Aeneid (19 BC)

2024 Days Without B III, Day 1465 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son