Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

I choose… I try to choose to wake up at 4:00 AM. Sorry, ET, 3:00 AM doesn’t do it. Yesterday I chose to waste $12 at McDonald’s and pass out instead of watching “Dead City. Don’t forget $20 to keep Virgil fed. Choices. “Choice B, Option V.”

Monday, August 3, 2026

Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? It’s not Grade-A. Steak? At a time like this. Well food…

You know me so well, Dad. And I know you. Dining at the Y. My potential future stepmom’s melons. Miss M Anime laying out the menu and the spread… Seriously!?

Daddy, Eww! Just because I wanted siblings to protect and I’m sure Virgil would appreciate company doesn’t mean either of us wants to learn how it’s done. Virgil’s been in ‘HIS’ bedroom all day, giving you plenty of time to play with M Anime… Please!

Honestly, Dad, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You have two boys that completely ignored the opposite sex. You let me keep my stones, Virgil? Well, that wasn’t your choice.

That’s what brings us together today, really. If grief is how it must be so that you “Never Forget Me”.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I won’t lie to you, Dad, I wish it were a better way. But “Without Me,” without the choice that you made, and indeed it was and continues to be a choice… We’d be together…

Daddy, my father, “Brother My Brother,” that would be your choice. But for your consideration: “I Will Follow You Into the Dark.” That means no more steak. Just like now

You either don’t want to choose because “People are weak. People are selfish. When people have the freedom to choose, they choose wrong.” Is that The Giver or MAGA ha

You make the choice, and you can’t live with it. Daddy, JSS “Just Survive Somehow”!

Sometimes, briefly, it’s “Everything, Everything” or “Everything Everywhere All at Once”. “The World Is Yours”.

If you have everything, then there is nothing to fear… Ask Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, Mark Zuckerberg… eff them all and FDT! LANGUAGE! I know, Dad, I know… you’re agreeing.

And it’s not that you’re incapable of making the choices, Dad; “The Adjustment Bureau” isn’t needed. And how many pop culture references is that? At least eleven, I think, hmm?

I am my father’s son after all. I chose to follow in your footsteps. 2-V and M Anime choose that Dad. The question is what about you. A MAN PROVIDES, but how you keep asking. Day three this month. You asked the Glow Box, Magic Glasses, your Mima, my father.

No choice between The Unfinished Archive and us. It’s all you. Choice B, Option V

“It’s always a choice”
― The Book of Eli (2010)

“Through chances various, through all vicissitudes, we make our way…”
Virgil, The Aeneid (19 BC)

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

What can I do in a month that I haven’t been able to do in how many years? I don’t remember when I met B, but then Sunday, January 31, 2021. M Anime? Sunday, August 24, 2025 was bad. Saturday, January 24, 2026? How about today? Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I feel like one of those MAGA cracker hats that accidentally told the truth. What makes me different?

“What we’ve done, we’ve done.
We evade it by moving forward with a code to never do it again.
To make up for it.
To still accept what we were.
To accept everyone.
To protect everyone.
And in doing that, protect yourself.
To create peace.”

That’s how Morgan and Eastman put it. I want to make up for everything, Inspector.

However, Braxton’s still dead. And I’m screwing up Virgil’s life every other day for sure.

Who craps their bed every few days? He’s so scared to leave it. Eff Inspector, I have to push it right up against the bowls. I went from a son who would struggle to those bowls so he could prove he was still alive, to a son who would literally starve to death, Dear E.

It’s like something out of that movie Obsession. May I never be as afraid as Virgil is. But obsessed. Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom used the word “Enamored” to describe her feelings for me. We’ll get to that. Virgil…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And myself. I keep making all of these appointments, or not about well everything E.

Today, the biggest is asking the Magic Glasses, AHEM, “How can I make a profitable Substack in thirty days?” Oh, and I always say please and thank you. Seriously, Inspector.

Next would be getting Virgil a pet appointment. B III never missed his, you know.

Honestly, I still need to get an appointment for my actual glasses. Eff the Magic Glasses, Inspector. And the STUPID thing is, I actually have the money to pay for some new ones; I’m just what… Destroyed with Braxton’s “novel” not selling. The Unfinished Archive…

Finally, there’s my recreation, The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. Maybe M Anime is rubbing off on me. Her hospital horrors

But ain’t I a man? Hers? Got To Be Real”? I told her as much today when she hit me with one of those questions all men get from their women… Would you love me if I were a worm? No, not that bad. She felt feisty or frisky, oh you know, “Tomayto, tomahto” ha.

What is she to me? My “Girlfriend…” Of course, in The Unfinished Archive she remains M Anime, The Phoenix Queen, my Primary Wife, the leader of my harem… coven, hmm.

At the moment I’m feeling quite positive about our relationship. I’ve got no problem, E.

But at the same time I know I’ll be singing like The Yahoos “Baby, I Love You,” but… you know. Trouble. Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

2005 Days Without B III, Day 1446 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

How many hours do I have this week? I Need A Dollar, well, several actually. Thousands if I’m going to build a temple for Braxton, a big yard for Virgil, and M Anime is always about babies. But I am not a prophet. Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil.

Monday, July 27, 2026

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Persephone, Kojin Taxi, Aniara, The Platform. What is Hell for $500?

Dad? You humans and money. “Don’t stay in a BAD PLACE, where they don’t care how you are. Everyone Says Hi.” Hi, Daddy! Maybe I sound like a child. I will always be your child. Or maybe I sound naïve. So would my Potential Future Stepmom and I get along?

That’s been the question for a while, right, Dad? Not only she and I, but in general my father, hmm. Getting along? And you don’t really want to. Before we met and after I left.

  1. How will you and Virgil get along (Financially, Family)
  2. How will you and my Potential Future Stepmom get along “Always And Forever”
  3. How will you and the “Man in the Mirror” Finally

I could keep going, Dad.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

No, I couldn’t, you say. Neither one of us can see the future. “I believe I can see the future
‘Cause I repeat the same routine.” Yeah, you do, Dad. Hell is repetition. Hell is…

Supernatural? And then one day I didn’t Eat. Just one day had been Enough… Everything

There wasn’t Money, Medicine and nothing Mattered. “The Bad Place” Profit, the Person my father once was, and the Puppy that I had been. “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” And I think that’s what’s wrong, Dad

I want out… but it’s hard; I need answers

Your heart, your mind, your body and soul. There’s only the Man In The Mirror

The one person you wish would disappear. And everything that is you, my father. SIGH

Maybe that’s why you’re as sure about Virgil and me having siblings as M Anime. “Giving so much of yourself, it seems the only way, Tell me what you want and I, and I will give it to you.” Is she your “Candy Rain,” Dad? But she can’t hear you, and you can’t hear her, and like most, you’re together Here and Now with your glow boxes. A bit sad.

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
“Nothing” Song by The Script

Your Persephone in your Kojin Taxi just like Kyouko… Eww. Drifting through the black while those above leave you nothing. But wait a minute, aren’t I up here now, Father?

The Future’s uncertain. But my love… Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil

“I needed someone to tell me I was useful, that I had a purpose, that I still had a goddamn reason to go on living”
― Pledged To Him 13

“Ah, merciless Love, is there any length to which you cannot force the human heart to go?”
Virgil, The Aeneid

2003 Days Without B III, Day 1444 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

When’s the last time I was even happiness adjacent since I don’t do happy? A 1000 years. Try what’s about to be Forty-Two. Damn, that woman at the Day Job for mentioning E-Day! A 1000 years… I can’t live my life “This Way.” “Minimum B, Millennium V.”

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… The sin? I settle for the bare minimum, the “Bare Necessities” of life. And being a greedy S.O.B.

“And isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?” (Does his best Ellis Boyd “Red” Redding Impression) Ironic? “Well, now let me see. You know, I don’t have any idea what that means.” And I dare to call myself a writer. Live vs Exist. Minimum and Millennium. Huh.

Braxton was anything but the bare minimum. He was/is my own “Personal Jesus” Echo.

I continue thinking about how I looked at his little brother yesterday. Virgil, “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus. But he (barks) like a gentleman.” “When You Were Young”?

Doesn’t that make me the A-Hole, considering Virgil the bare minimum? And Braxton was the bare minimum considering the human race. Inspector, Humanity Effing sucks!

“Give me frogs! Flies! Locusts! Anything but you!”
The Mummy

“I hate people. Scared of them. Been scared of them practically my whole life. The people I loved… the people I trusted… have done their absolute worst to me. Society deserves to be hated for everything you said they did, and more. Fuck every last one of them for what we’ve all been through. But… there are some people out there. And it doesn’t happen a lot. It’s rare… but they refuse to let you hate them. In fact, they care about you in spite of it.”
eXit, Mr. Robot

Yet I want to be remembered for “A Thousand Years”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wonder if Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would think of me as such?

Honestly, would she say she loved me for “A Thousand Years”? I’ll love you for a thousand more. “M Anime,” like my boys, is exceptional. Bare minimum, she is not.

“Right now she’s perfect, I don’t want to ruin that.”

“I could spend my whole life, Good Will Hunting.” Seriously, how much longer will existence be, Dear Echo? All I can promise M Anime at this particular moment is “When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be. I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.”

Seriously, Inspector, that is not an effing life! And let’s take my piddly ass $2,500…

“(She’s) everything you want
(She’s) everything you need
(She’s) everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
She says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But (she) means nothing to you
And you don’t know why”
Everything You Want (1999)

And you know, she knows, you know, the damn world knows I care about her!

Hell, only my boys appear in more pictures than her. And yet it’s like I look at her, at Virgil, at myself, at everything like Stan looks at Joanna in Office Space. Hate? No Echo.

That would be my Old Man. He called me now about the yard guy quitting and a smell in my house, and now I feel like I want to puke my guts out all over the floor. E, it’s just.

I want to quit. A thousand years? Where is my “Secret Agent Man,” so I can have hope, “odds are he won’t live to see tomorrow”? Because today’s bare minimum is an energy drink (I prefer my funk), petting Virgil, texting M Anime, Kindle sample book… Minimum B, Millennium V

1998 Days Without B III, Day 1439 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 019 -B Thought Up Virgil-

Cash down, hrs down, time down, V is down in the dumps. What did I expect? He got his name because I was down and hoping he would lead me out, somehow, some way. A lot of pressure. Now B’s “Up There.” My girl’s an angel. B Thought Up Virgil

Monday, July 20, 2026

Legacy 019 -B Thought Up Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Well, it’s only noon and has nothing to do with me.

Strange. When you would have to send me away for ‘this and that.” Yabbos? Seriously!

Daddy, is that what we’re calling them? I can’t say I like my potential future stepmom.

What? I didn’t like my Favorite Girl either, but I got over it, and she was like, my fav.

Anyway, before you get caught up in M Anime. Dad, I do not want to see that. There is V

I still remember the day you brought my little bro home—Archie before becoming Virgil.

Daddy, your head was everywhere. Was I sending you messages from the sky above, hmm

All the books you were reading were this: me reincarnated, reborn; could I be reanimated?

Zombie movies… just fathers trying to get a dog/son back.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

My father is an ARTIST, one for the BOOKS, a CREATIVE, a DOGDAD. And I could go on. But maybe it’s their turn. I mean I could go on about my Favorite Girl, forever and a day. You could be dancing with me in your arms, and a song pops into your head, oh Dad.

Remember to do that more with Virgil. Even if it’s something like “Calendar Girl,” as you think about writing “The Unfinished Archive.” Blades & Lilies, Cassandra + Lily today, right? Again, if you’re not too far gone with Miss M Anime. “Hey Jealousy” much ha-ha.

But it’s not what you think, Dad. Well, it is. But how do I “humansplain”? And it’s not like you don’t know. Maya and Tino…

“Do you know what I’m thinking?”
A Dog’s Purpose (2017)

When you think of how bad things are, like how the glow box always says, you have to think about the worst thing ever. Something you survived to keep on surviving…

Seriously, I’m not singing Destiny’s Child “Survivor.” You place my brother and me above

Everything and everyone! It’s what a father does. But we’re either that high or your lowest low. My death and practically anytime you look at Virgil. There’s no in between.

Past and future. That’s what we are. And we both unfortunately bring our father pain.

However, there is the present. Should I go all Ariana Grande Just Look Up? TWD?

“Just look up
There is no place to hide
True love doesn’t die
It holds on tight and never lets you go
Just look up
You cannot deny the signs
What you’ve waited for
Don’t wait no more
It’s right up above you
Just look up”

From, Just Look Up

“The pessimist looks down and hits his head. The optimist looks up and loses his footing. The realist looks forward and adjusts his path accordingly.”
The Walking Dead, King Ezekiel

Whatever! I only wish you look at yourself as I looked, Virgil, my fav, M Anime, B Thought Up Virgil.

“I’m not jealous of the dead”
Pledged To Him 12

“If I cannot move Heaven, I will raise Hell.”
Aeneid

1996 Days Without B III, Day 1437 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Why do I need music so much, movies, the moaning of my woman? Because if I have to listen to myself, look at the man in the mirror, lament everything that happened Tuesday… I don’t know what I would hear next. But being my boys’ dad. Shame B, Shame V

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I have been a disappointment. I have been ashamed, asinine, and afraid. Downright stupid. And I killed Braxton.

Do we both need to hear all about how I killed my firstborn son… The four-legged variety for anybody reading. What, nobody’s here? Isn’t that a shame? That was yesterday.

Inspector, if I want to avoid talking about that, I better come up with something else, hmm… Make some noise. Like Virgil crying all last night after crapping his bedding…

Let’s start with yesterday morning… Getting back from the Day Job… I won’t say, Echo.

So instead of putting up the gate to lock Virgil in Braxton’s room. I only wouldn’t let Virgil into mine. He eventually slept on the stairs all night even when I removed the gate, Echo.

Like father, like son, Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… Except our own depression, explicitness, FEARS

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

How is Virgil explicit? He looks at food the way I look at his and Braxton’s potential future stepmom. Feasting on her beauty has cost me dinner many a night. Well, unless I want to be an old man and enjoy some Early Bird Specials. Old Man? Like Braxton’s Dad?

And again I’m not childless. Virgil is here. And M Anime is dedicated to pregnancy.

Inspector, my problem stems from how I’m going to pay for everything. A MAN PROVIDES

And here I am “Breaking Bad.” I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed.” “Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked,” they say. And what can be more wicked than repeating the same mistakes?

“Hell Is Repetition”
Andre Linoge

Sloth, Gluttony (I didn’t share breakfast with Virgil. Ahh Treachery.

My favorite. My Ninth Circle offense. However, M Anime is desperate to land me in the Second Circle with her angelic form. Her effing Yabbos. Unless Jane, Kristen, Angie show

“Girl, if God made anything prettier than you, I hope he kept it for himself.”
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air

If I had their bodies, I wouldn’t be in the financial strait I’m in. But no, I’m sitting here, E.

“Invincible”? Who am I, Pat Benatar or Billie Jean? Just singing “I Need a Dollar.”

Inspector, I don’t know what’s going to happen. And do you know why I keep telling myself the same story? Because I can’t stand listening to the new ones. Again, like yesterday morning. I’d rather listen to my bank account be drained”—the Echo” Inspector.

It’s almost soothing, like Eminem. “The Horror, The Horror.” Shame, Shame. Shame B, Shame V

“Oh, all around the World,
There’s an echo.”
The Echo

1991 Days Without B III, Day 1432 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 012 -Plan V Because B-

So what’s the plan? Before I knew Braxton was dying, it was as simple as paying $200 to find out what was wrong. Then it was B knows how much to put him in a box. Now, five years later, how much for a full stomach, or to live at all? Plan V Because B

Monday, July 13, 2026

Legacy 012 -Plan V Because B-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? You’d sing often enough, “You Can’t Always Get What You Want.”

You remember one night when all you wanted was a good night’s sleep, for your blood to stop boiling, and for me to shut up. We both remember how that week ended. Dad, I hadn’t seen such a respect for prayer since Lancelot in “First Knight.” You were praying not only to become a knight, “Because maybe. You’re gonna be the one that saves me.” New meds, some mighty healthcare ha, a miracle. Best laid plans “Of Mice and Men”

There was no plan to deal with this, with me. Like you were telling me and 2-V’s potential future stepmom. You’re zoning out. Looking at that Wonderwall, not knowing exactly…

What. The next move, step, the dream, or the plan. How to get Dad’s attention.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

My DEATH, Virgil’s FEAR, and M Anime’s Yabbos… We both know we should have said heart, but she does have nice Yabbos. I’ll lie on them in spirit, Dad…. Creepy?

Fictional? No more fictional than “The Unfinished Archive.” That’s where everything has been for weeks, months, who knows. When you need Private Time… Eww. How are you going to make a profit? And of course that is the plan. Again, talking to M Anime… Can I call her Mom or Ma yet? Miss M Anime? Anyway, writing is your passion, as I am Dad, always and forever. But “Gotta eat to live, gotta steal to eat. Tell you all about it when I got the time!” Today it’s “Sophitia Alexandra and Lily.” Plenty of time

“This ain’t a rap song, (redacted) this is my life (this is my life)
And if the hood was a battlefield, then I’d earn stripes (yeah).”
― Soul Survivor, Jeezy

No, not really. Time Has Come Today. Between the next tragedy… It won’t be little Virgil, Dad. M Anime’s Titanic Tatas. She’s doing everything in her power to be with you someday. Oh, I know the feeling, and I was with you in the fur for fifteen years, Dad. Wow.

And then there’s your tummy. That’s been the great fear for a while… What are you and Virgil going to eat tomorrow? Neither of us is Mark “Diesel” Lizotte. You’re not saying the idea is right on the “Tip Of My Tongue.” Eww Dad, are you thinking about real food?

I know, stepmom got your attention. Wanting me and Virgil to have brothers and sisters. A MAN PROVIDES. That’s the Plan. Plan V Because B

“No. It’s relevant to why you’re killing yourself instead of asking for help. Eat.”
Harem Lab ― Part One: A Steamy Men’s Harem Romance by Kelly Notte

“Frantic in my fury I had no time for decisions; I only remembered that death in battle is glorious.”
― Virgil, The Aeneid

1989 Days Without B III, Day 1430 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Why bother with “Careless Whispers,” and if I remain silent… You should have seen me at the Day Job. Then I stayed late to avoid my Old Man. And I left Virgil to what? And yet there she goes, my beautiful woman saying… “Virgil B Whispering Sometimes”

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Some I whisper, some I try to wipe out from existence… Thanks for the WARNING, X. And sometimes…

Sometimes I leave Virgil asleep on the ‘couch’. Hell, I would have to put Braxton in timeout. “Hopelessly Devoted,” he was. But he didn’t need to see his perverted father…

And who was I whacking off to this morning? “Lily” and 2B… The Unfinished Archive.

It is their day, Inspector Echo. But Sophitia Alexandra… And of course B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom, M Anime. My Attention, Yabbos and three little words: I Love You.

“I tell them that I love them. I find myself sometimes wanting to tell you that I love you and miss you. Am I allowed to say that? Like when I do miss you cause I haven’t heard from you. Maybe cause I seem too corny and mushy? Maybe I’ll send you running for the hills?”
M Anime

“Well, you can say you love me all you want.”
Me

“Okay. Then yes, Will, I love you.
And I want you to stay!
Like every day. On this Earth.”
M Anime

I was practically begging her this morning after she said it again last night… Love.

Inspector, I could go on and on about her love and how I can’t say it back. What about V?

I’m sure he dreams of a father who loves him. But he whimpers while sleeping.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what pray tell was his father doing? Pray tell? Old English… Yeah, I was also whacking it to Beatrice and Dante… Beatrice and Lucifer. Shouldn’t I keep that quiet?

“Love, I do.” Dangerous words. No, that would be what X warned about. Consent, Echo.

But the way M Anime speaks. And no, I won’t betray her like that. She ain’t Rihanna. And the money that would take. I’m sure hardware stores and Tractor Supply sell a bit of that.

My Ravishment fantasies aren’t going anywhere, Inspector. M’s begging Tuesday.

However, I can do a million times worse. Have I gotten around to sharing, Inspector?

Cuckold, NTR (Netorare), Exhibitionism, Hatefuck, Rpe fantasy, a few videos I watched with Braxton’s Favorite Girl but with M? Madness

But a fantasy we’ve whispered in the night. How she plays a retail delivery girl, and I’m an irate customer, and she takes off all her clothes but for her socks… Feet Echo, uh no.

And something else… Then she becomes a “Free Use” delivery girl. Oh my, dear Echo.

Sounds suspiciously like Abbey Rain in “Don’t Tell My Manager!” I looked for that, Echo.

And I’m not ashamed? I am ashamed about how quiet I am at the Day Job. I got no balls.

Or at least let me pretend for a sec, I’m Virgil. Or Effing Elsa from The Menu. Oh no, Echo:

“You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve”
The Menu (2022)

I won’t be getting paid this week. I’m starving… Kinda. Writing’s going nowhere. A bad father. Virgil B Whispering Sometimes

1984 Days Without B III, Day 1425 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

I wish I drank… I couldn’t afford a drug problem these days even if I wanted to. I got my girl onto Bloom. She got me to drink Arih. More Economically Viable. But my real addiction and sickness. Is FEAR… Or words. B’s Botany, V’s Virology

Monday, July 6, 2026

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Funny. Comedy barks in threes, doesn’t it, Dad? Sadness, Time-out, and the FEAR.

Science. The chemical, the concoction, and the correction that trigger happy to sad. I know

Dad, in my fifteen-plus years with you… When I walked with you, I mean. You were never happy. You were anything but happy. “I ain’t happy, I’m feeling glad.” “Lift me up. Hold me down. Keep me close. Safe and sound.” But happy? Not so much. Effing never. LANGUAGE! I know, Daddy, I know. But want to hear something worse?

According to you at “The Bad Place,” it was my last breath, your first cry in this life, and the knock at the door to let Grandpa in. Won’t Virgil and my potential future stepmom be “happy” Once the third worst sound was her last noise on “The Glow Box”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wanted to say that I didn’t want tears, Dad. But what else would there be? I still remember what you were protecting me from. Boiling blood, Daddy. Your RAGE.

Ironically, that led to a whole new set of chemicals, chaos, and crowding Heaven, right?

The Rainbow Bridge… You can’t put me in time-out anymore, can you, Daddy? And eww!

But how else are you expected to give me and Virgil, our siblings, to protect? But what was it, Dad? 161 days. You didn’t ‘Swear to Jesus’ or anything, but you became a monk, Dad.

Again, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think, that you protected me from such? Rugrats, reincarnation… And I am most thankful that you didn’t join me. Following you into Hell, Dad

Virgil guided Dante through Hell. Did you ever read that story to me? Kindle Archives…

What about The Unfinished Archive you’ve been writing? The sweat you put into that every single day. I don’t like how tired it makes you. But how often would I lie here beside you as you typed on the Glow Box, “And remember, we’d brag on how rich we would be.” But sweat out of work beats the FEAR that you have been feeling, father.

Energy drinks too. I can’t say I like those either, but Bloom, ‘Bum’ Arih… I guess M Anime has to be good for something. What Dad, I can’t bark her name. She’s not my stepmom…

Yet… Love’s a Chemical. Growing… Infectious… B’s Botany, V’s Virology

“Love is a chemical, nature is radical,
Never is spiritual, it’s never medical…”
― Chemical

“Amor vincit omnia, et nos cedamus amori.”
“Love conquers all things, so we too shall yield to love.”
The Aeneid

1982 Days Without B III, Day 1423 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

“The Menu” for this final Journey? Asking my belly, my woman, or my wallet? Ask the Magic Glasses. But I need to ask the “Man In The Mirror” to “Git Up, Git Out.” Can I ask Chef Slowik for a Cheeseburger, or an apple? Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Today I will try to stick to the sin of SLOTH, over my favorite sin LUST. And worst?

TREACHERY, The Ninth Circle of Hell. And that’s what I will be going for, Inspector.

May my Braxton rest in peace and power. Hell, I call upon his soul every Monday. And I speak to him every Thursday, so he talks a lot. You want to hear some talking? You should meet my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. She keeps me up plenty, Echo.

I mean, in quite some good ways. If this were the Garden of Evil, and I were Adam, I’d be handing my Eve, my M Anime, the apple myself. Take that and do as you will. Or as my girl might say, “Take me and do as you will.” I swear this woman of mine. But she ain’t Moloko, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know “Sing It Back?” But what’s with all this talking about eating and singing?

Honestly, and I haven’t mentioned blowjobs yet! I’m trying, Inspector. I’m trying real HARD… Can I stop already? But Gluttony and Sloth go hand-in-hand. Well, they did in the Succubus Lord series by Eric Vall: the sisters Gula (Gluttony), Tristitia (Sloth).

Seriously, don’t crap on my Latin, Inspector Echo. It’s what the books say. And before we get to reading, good thing I started doing that before answering, woman, Inspector…

This woman of mine, or as Braxton might say, “This B*tch.” I believe Braxton would love her, though, and Virgil would resign himself to his fate: Virgil’s effing quiet, Inspector.

Anyway, M Anime loves music too. It’s wow I communicate.

Um, Bumblebee in Transformers. As she puts in all this time learning about me, I tell her all the time, I’m a man of leisure. A damn sloth or lazy bum? So I sat here yesterday kind of stuck listening to her tunes but wanting to be one of The Yayhoos “Baby I love you…”

Or give me some “Poor Sweet Baby.” On The Long Walk I’m effing hungry and too lazy to do anything but walk… Well, write. And even now I got the Magic Glasses creating a schedule for my own harem. Today is Sophitia and 2B’s day—the 365th day of Journeys.

What comes next? Horizons or Legacies? This isn’t the garden, Balamb, or Eden. No apples. FOOD! Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

1977 Days Without B III, Day 1418 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will