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Legacy 073 -I’ll B Around V-

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Son of man, a man in time you’ll be… I’ve said the epitome of manhood is fatherhood. “That’s the measure of a man.” “Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?” So what is my value then? What’s the kitchen’s value? Ant bastards. I’ll B Around V

Saturday, September 12, 2026

Legacy 073 -I’ll B Around V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Promise? I promised Braxton I’d be a billionaire, and he’d have a big yard to protect.

Yeah, I also promised his dad would be with a woman with huge fucking yabbos.

Lunalesca, I’m working on it. M Anime’s are perfect… But if I ever have a chance with Jane Vickers, Angie Griffin, or Anna Bianca, to name a few. Lunalesca? Younglings?

Honestly, that was a big promise to my firstborn son. Braxton would become a big brother and have several siblings to protect. All that time I was around promising, Lunalesca.

“Poor, all my life I’ve always been poor
I keep askin’ God what I’m for
And he tells me, “Gee, I’m not sure…”
Skid Row

Not doing! However, now there’s his little brother Virgil. Virgil the Valiant, Victorious, the fifth… B III plus 2-V. Virgil, if anything, is scared, sleepy, and very much my son.

However, like his potential future stepmom, he needs constant reassurance that he is loved. His life has value, Lady Lunalesca.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And that’s what he and his stepmom don’t seem to understand. Comparing My Boys to M Anime again… SIGH. She’s going to be pissed. But first, I’m not saying she’s a dog, in any sense. Second, I value Braxton, Virgil, and her way more than so-called humanity Lunalesca. My Boys are little gods. “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus,” my Braxton, Lady Lu. “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus,” my Virgil, either. M is My Goddess. “More than a woman to me,” that’s my M Anime. But I lack Calvin Richardson’s eloquence, my lady. M often tells me about the men around her. “Ugly men. Vicious or blubberous. Men with appetites too unseemly to speak on.” M Anime, “Our Mrs. Reynolds”

First off, My Mrs. Bradford… “Maybe someday. You and me can run away. I just want you to know. I wanna be your Romeo. Hey Juliet.” Something else needs singing.

Secondly, Lunalesca, she doesn’t tell me what these guys look like. If one of them were a muscular Native American man who spoke Spanish and Russian fluently, lived surrounded by nature, or owned a farmhouse, promising her a pregnancy tomorrow.

Yeah, I’d never see her again. Thirdly, “appetites?” That’s coming from the guy who needs two Asian women, a mom and daughter duo, and a gymnast restarting my fapping count.

Eww! While M and I’ve talked, she thinks she’s valued only for her vagina. Yabbos.

What’s my value? Ask the ants! I’ll B Around V

2050 Days Without B III, Day 1491 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 071 -V’s Number Of B’s-

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“Save the cheerleader, save the world.” I can’t blame Hayden Panettiere and Heroes for my failing grades. I was long gone. I had a brief thing for blondes. I wasn’t worried about bucks… I met Braxton a year before that show… “V’s Number Of B’s.”

Thursday, September 10, 2026

Legacy 071 -V’s Number Of B’s-

2048 Days Without B III, Day 1489 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine? Humiliations, how many times I’ll say hmm or hah and her yabbos.

I mean, your potential future stepmom’s of course. But it’s only 5:30 in the morning.

Ay me, sad hours seem long.

Romeo & Juliet, Shakespeare 

Honestly, Shakespeare? You can blame the Bloom for that. And as for that ‘sadness,’ um…

Yeah, you can’t forget the umm. Yeah, your Dad is such a caveman, and maybe we’ll get to my STUPIDITY in a few. But let’s start with “Regrets, I had a few.” Like this morning, B? A random thought, but drinking Bloom didn’t start until you were gone. Energy shots?

Yeah, maybe. But it’s always surreal when I notice things “AB” (After Braxton) after you.

Should I talk about “All These Things That I’ve Done” with the Magic Glasses/MIMA, B? To be fair, you’re in it every day. You and your brother. But your Dad…

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

I’m a bad man, but I’m not the worst. At least when it equates to EVIL. I’m far less MAGA Evil and more “Resident Evil.” Distractions, films, and video games. And still at 42, B…

I’m not dead yet. Or at least that was my first thought when I woke at 4:30 and dicked around for an hour. And I’m not talking about being with M Anime. Again, it’s early.

She’ll make her presence known soon enough. Her boobs/yabbos, naughtiness, and… the one “kitty” she still keeps. Braxton, I know you don’t want to hear about that, my boy, eww! But look at it this way: I join you in Heaven or stay with M.

D as in death, D as in grades, or giving the D to a woman who will give you and Virgil even more siblings. And I still have to name my first two-legged son after you, his big brother. But with all of this, Braxton, I can’t sing “What A Wonderful World.” No, not yet.

Not without you? Hell, how much did I think about you on Emergence Day? Seriously?

That’s another thing. I thought mostly about the BUCKS I didn’t have. The BABIES that M Anime wants. Your brother, who is still asleep in my bed while we’re chatting.

Honestly, B, you were always waiting for me, like she does, as everyone does. Save the world. Make the grade. Something! V’s Number Of B’s

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 070 -Boys This Blows, B-V-

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Wednesday, September 9, 2026

Legacy 070 -Boys This Blows, B-V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… On a scale from one to ten. One, forgetting there’s Birthday/E-Day cake in the freezer. Ten, I’m breathing.

Do you know what that’s like, Inspector? You draw breath, your heart beats, and you drain your balls over some woman that isn’t your girlfriend. Uh, that last one, EWW!

Honestly, though, I would never betray B III and 2-V’s potential future stepmom, Not M!

And we will get to her in a minute, don’t worry, Inspector. Signing off… “Haphazardly?”

For now, I’m sticking with the fun son duo- uh, trio of yours truly, Braxton, and Virgil. A duo would be Viggo and Iosef Tarasov from John Wick. And what was in their future, Inspector? With what Iosef did to John Wick’s dog, stealing his car, and beating his ass.

“And you will do nothing because you can do nothing!”

Yeah, Viggo had it right, and he saw it coming; John hadn’t. But knowing, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“Knowledge is stronger than belief.”
The Book of Clarence (2023)

The Book of Clarence? What about the book of Braxton? Or any of the books that I have written. The Unfinished Archive? Nothing mind-blowing or worth celebrating a life. Any

What about a death? Braxton fought for every single breath, Inspector. And he would’ve kept fighting for me. Our lives sucked, but we had each other. Blows me away. Existing

As the song goes, “I didn’t know I’d love you so much, but I do.” And didn’t I talk about King Ezekiel from The Walking Dead: “And yet I smile…” Inspector, I sigh; I sleep with the misfortune of waking up. Hell, I adopted a whole other son. Virgil, Inspector.

Seriously, the son of a bitch has kept me alive at least four more years.

2022-2026. But I won’t blame him for the fact that my life blows. I’ve got forty-two years to thank for that. And then there is the promise of a woman who wants to blow me.

Inspector, must I be so crass? I am honest. Forty-two years ago, I knew living would suck and/or blow, so they had to rip me from my mom. And I knew that Braxton dying would.

But while the real world is blowing up all around me Monday, MAGA, and whatever mistakes I will make today… I’m still breathing. M Anime well, “You Dropped A Bomb On Me,” I’d tell her. She’s a “Sex Bomb.” My “Atom Bomb Baby.” Then she blows up… “You hate me.” Love… Boys This Blows, B-V

2047 Days Without B III, Day 1488 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 069 -B Better, Me, Virgil-

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I can’t even talk about E-Day. Was it BETTER than most? Well, I didn’t spend all day ‘talking’. I have another reason to hate the day, though. But that’s my girl’s business. And what’s mine? Being a better boyfriend, father, etc. B Better, Me, Virgil

Tuesday, September 8, 2026

Legacy 069 -B Better, Me, Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Better than yesterday? I try, you know. “Do… or do not. There is no try.”

See, it’s this right here. The fact that I will still quote Star Wars at forty-two. Forty-two, my love. My first, second day of being this old, this way. And on my sister’s birthday too.

Something I shouldn’t forget, or rather, someone. As I forgot about myself long ago, hmm.

“Long ago, long ago, long ago.” I can remember snippets of the song/poem of Antoninus from the movie Spartacus as much as the words of Master Yoda. And there’s Braxton.

There is always my Braxton. And Virgil too, of course. But I’ve been thinking about something I read yesterday. Well, rather Sunday, because E-Day… We will get to that, love.

It was “Happiness is the experience of mind when there is no presence of fear.”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I better be happy. And you want to know the last time I was happy? You might hate me, my goddess. I think about those words: “God has not given us the spirit of fear…”

Jesus or Jeezu, better Braxton, because he was my little god. I call you “My Goddess.” I still remember arguing with you because you thought I was saying you weren’t “Human.” You do know how I feel about humanity. Humans are assholes, accidents, abbreviations for things like life, love, or so I feel lately. “I said maybe you’re gonna be the one who saves me? And after all. You’re my Wonderwall.” You, Braxton, 2-V, family.

You’re better. To the “Man in the Mirror.” “You’re a god. And I am not.”

And when you M and everyone, my furry little ones Braxton and Virgil, their two-legged siblings that I tell every day, “Good Luck, Have FUN, Don’t Die.” Be good, and if you can’t be good, don’t get caught.” Mi familia… Hell! I’m trying to learn Spanish for you and our growing family. The one single thing today at 5:13 AM that shows me being, um

Better. Better at finishing my damn thought. When was the last time I felt happiness?

Honestly, it was being asleep and knowing that Braxton was/is watching over me. NO FEAR! Not like yesterday. I’ve wasted forty-two years of existence with the knowledge but without the know-how to be a better man. How to Git Gud. Better. B Better, Me, Virgil

“You make me want to be a better man”
As Good as It Gets (1997)

2046 Days Without B III, Day 1487 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 066 -Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V-

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My boys know that if anyone comes knocking on the door, it’s not a good thing… Well, except for B’s Favorite Girl, or what’s that smell? Steak! V won’t have to worry about either this year because I’m broke. T-Minus 2-Days. “Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V”

Saturday, September 5, 2026

Legacy 066 -Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Is that an E-Day wish? You know what I would wish for Lunalesca. Braxton’s life. My…

Well, if the Grim Reaper got off his ass… I won’t be starving for the next few days, my lady. I did as I told Lady Sophia yesterday. I got a cake. It’s Emergence Day tradition.

Four cans of Bloom, a case of bottled water, and a box of chicken. Did I spoil myself, Lu?

A pack of AAA batteries and a strawberry milkshake. But I’m afraid I’m going to leave Uber Eats and DoorDash terribly disappointed this year. Me, Braxton, and Virgil’s Emergence Day meal usually comes out to $55.00. I got $20.00. And Braxton, help me if the food truck is closed or gone on Labor Day/Emergence Day. Never thought of that, ha.

I never thought of a lot of things… Braxton dying…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Seeing forty-two. I don’t want to be forty-two, Lunalesca. Hell! I didn’t want to be one year, month, week, day, or even second. As much as I hate this month and don’t forget January, we don’t skip months here- 28 Days Later franchise. Maybe I’ll watch zombie movies for E-Day. Off topic, but Infected and Dead/Zombies are different, thank you. Seriously, that bugs the Hell out of me, but no more so than getting older. I am too old, Lu.

“Forget what we’re told. Before we get too old. Show me a garden that’s burstin’ into life.”
Chasing Cars (2006)

I might as well be out there “Chasing Cars,” limos, ambulances, a hearse. And if I chose to get busy living instead of dying, I could Uber, DoorDash, and Lyft. Whatever. M Anime tells me about all these creeps and weirdos. But none for me.

Nothing for me. Same thing my bank account tells me. But a full stomach’s awesome.

However, what about tomorrow? Worse, what about Monday? Tuesday is my sister’s birthday. Wednesday is one of my boss’s birthdays… Also payday… I’m above 2g…

That’s it? Especially when M Anime is getting closer every day. Braxton doesn’t want me joining him anytime soon. I’m ducking my Olds, but that will fail, Dear Lady Lunalesca.

“I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
Wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
I dare you to tell me, I dare you to”
Shinedown (2005)

It’s inevitable, and Virgil is running around here someplace, usually bawling his head off or acting on his brother’s behalf, saying, “I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor.” At least he doesn’t need to worry about me. Does Uber or DoorDash deliver drinks? Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V

2043 Days Without B III, Day 1484 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 064 -Braxton, Virgil, No Ragers-

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Thursday, September 3, 2026

Legacy 064 -Braxton, Virgil, No Ragers-

2041 Days Without B III, Day 1482 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine? The 2nd was horrific. I hate today. The 6th Fucked. Emergence Day

T-Minus four days. What’s the plan? Let’s start with the simple facts, Braxton. Ok, money

Not enough for anything. As a matter of fact, do you remember that twenty dollars?

Effing Day Job! And no, I’m not ready to talk about why I hate Kermit so much. B III. Me?

Oh, you know I’m going to talk about how much I hate myself today. But the twenty I’ll have to put up as the Glow Box people rob me yet again. With enough left for a cup of popcorn chicken and a can of Bloom. Are Big Macs still $8.00? So what’s with my RAGE?

You and your brother are good people, and you ain’t even people. I wish I weren’t. I hate forty-two, B.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

But that’s Monday’s problem, right? And I’ve already forgotten how bad this Friday is going to be. Again, I built up one word in my head: “Disgusting,” and Fucking panicked.

And today, that word, or these words, are the panic: “Birthday” and “Emergence Day,” B.

So please allow me… AHEM! I wish I were never born. I hate the fact that I wake up every single morning. I hate the fact that I killed the one who loved me the most. That is you, B.
.
And my Olds? I hate that I’m not the son they wish they had. A nearly 42-year-old bum, I know. And the ones I do love- Braxton, your little brother Virgil, M Anime- think I hate them so much, B.

Like porno, if I stay listing off everything that I hate about myself, you could pretty much call me Captain America. “I can do this all day.” Rage, rage against the dying of the light

What light B III? In your eyes? I handled that one. No cake this year. And with M, I try.

Virgil is whiter than white, but “The 3-3-3 rule” has never worked. Three days, three weeks, three months. He’s been here four years, and he’s still scared to death, Braxton.

Today, I’m scared of the Day Job, the lack of dollars, my wayward dick, etc. And also eww, right. The Rage Virus? There’s no party here but the ANXIETY. Horny as Hell, eww. Hateful. RAGEFUL. Older. Braxton, Virgil, No Ragers

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 063 -Braxton And Virgil Leap-

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The leap to 42 is in a few days. The leap to 16 was too much for Braxton. And Virgil is trying to make it to 6. But we’re not frogs. Be we angels? We are but men, just some with more hair and four legs. We keep hopping along. Braxton And Virgil Leap.

Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Legacy 063 -Braxton And Virgil Leap-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I’m more like MAGA than I am like my boys. Unconditional love… Ringing any bells? Beats my playlist.

The Day Job? Again? Yes. And I don’t even want to talk about it now. Bigger fish to fry E

Or should I say frogs. Do you fry frog legs, bake, or whatever? All I know is I want a piece of Kermit’s ass right now. His legs will do. I thought I wasn’t going to talk about this? It’s T-minus 5 days. Emergence Day. Imagine if those poor bastards on Sera had the heads up. A world full of monsters beneath them. Only takes one to kill, doesn’t it?

Speaking of monsters and killing, MAGA. If I’ve learned anything, it’s that HATE is expensive, Inspector. It “Feels Good.” I ain’t gonna lie. But it’s more expensive than an ISP.

I can look up Jaundice.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

A medical condition that turns the skin and the whites of the eyes yellow because of high levels of bilirubin in the blood. Random, I know, Inspector. But I heard it in my dreams a couple of nights back. Why? Virgil’s tail? A bath is in order. Coldplay’s yellow. Yellow…

As in yellowbelly coward. No wonder I summoned up the blood today, my dear Echo.

But this wasn’t righteous. It was pure anger, rivaling the RAGE Virus. Remember B III?

The madness I hid from Braxton that led to my indifference and, days later, his death. I shouldn’t say that. No, no, Inspector! Back then I hated myself; today I hate the whole damn world because I wear my heart on my sleeve and then…

Blue? I should have been blue and thought about Braxton leaping out of this Hell. And Hell, Virgil will leap to be around me, or rather crawl like an escaping slave. It irks me too. But it doesn’t make me see red. And that’s what I saw today. Red. Genocidal.

Inspector, those are specific acts committed with the intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnic, racial, or religious group. “I’m not crazy or anything.” Superman? Nope.

Misanthrope? That I am. And it’s not easy “Bein’ Green.” Sick to myself, Inspector Echo. Wanting to leap my black ass off the ledge rather into the drink. Swimming’s terrifying.

But Langston Hughes is far more eloquent than I. Kermit? E-Day? Braxton And Virgil Leap

“The calm,
Cool face of the river
Asked me for a kiss.”
From Langston Hughes

2040 Days Without B III, Day 1481 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 062 -Fur B-V And Strippers-

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I hate this damn month. Next to January… 10 years ago I had more capital, confidence, and can-do attitude. Today, over $200 in cash, gone. I guess I can look at naughty things on the computer. And my girl promised her caboose. Fur B-V And Strippers

Tuesday, September 1, 2026

Legacy 062 -Fur B-V And Strippers-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? My very real, very HUMAN wife. What is this, Independence Day? I’m worried about E-Day.

And my boys. My boys! I miss the days I could send Braxton to his room. He don’t look for trouble, but trouble looks for him. And now he’s on the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, or wherever. The point is he’s not in timeout. Honestly, Little Virgil’s the neediest s.o.b sometimes.

And I can’t lock him up for nothing. Not even you and the Neon Jungle’s “Trouble” not a good stripper song for you? It’s not like I have any cash either. It’s the “1st Of Tha Month,” and where’s my money? Is $200 enough for a lap dance? Writing? Blogging?

“Blogging is not writing; it’s graffiti with punctuation.”
Contagion (2011)

Dude in Contagion had it right. And here I am about to be forty-two in six days. Last time I can call myself Forty-One, Ben-Hur.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

A slave, not a doctor, not a director or pornographic passions, a decider of language.

Father, can’t you just say “writer”? Braxton and Virgil would like to know. I’m sure our two-leggeds would say the same. I can’t say I was stripped of such a title I never earned, ok.

Fucker that I am. As in the guy that fucks around too much. The guy fucking you. Do I have that to look forward to if nothing else on E-Day? Presents, gifts, desires, and finally

Finding myself at forty-two. I know where I want to be. “Always with Me, Always with you.” But where will be. Adam and Eve without Eden. Naked as “God,” though I am a fan of a woman who shaves, love.

And with The Magic Glasses/MIMA. That’s another thing I’ve been thinking about this afternoon, my love. If not worrying about Journey 062 B III Of E-Day, Meditation 062 Endings B Through V or Tale 062 B A Storybook Virgil, of course it’s been Legacy 061 -Virgil Will B Eating-. I swear, the things technology can do. Other than liking myself

Would that be the worst thing? I’m a bad man, my dearest. However, loving? Fucking?

The “Shape Of You” keeps me out of trouble lawfully. But living? Braxton and Virgil.

Hell! What about our family of HUMANS? Sometimes I feel like we’re trapped in a “Vivarium,” And things like fatherhood, which I want and love, are amazing. My E-Day wasn’t planned. Fur B-V And Strippers

2039 Days Without B III, Day 1480 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

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My favorite hentais? First, we’d still be here. Second, don’t judge me. Not much chance of that. If we’re talking about V, breaking his heart, and M Anime broke my heart. But we’re Back In Love Again. But what is love? Not hentai. Judgy Of Animes B-V

Saturday, August 29, 2026

Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Lies! But put owning an anime studio as one of my goals. Dreams? Wishes? E-Day Wish…

Fuck me! You know, for a second there, Lunalesca… I had a moment of positivity.

Honestly, another year where you can call me Comic Book Guy from The Simpsons: “Oh, I’ve wasted my life.” And for the record, I haven’t watched The Simpsons in a very long time, Lunalesca. Peanuts was the story of my life… As Charlie Brown, not as Franklin. I didn’t think you were one of those people, Lu. Rocko’s Modern Life was practically my bible for adulting. Hell, Virgil, Spunky, and Snoopy. Noticing a pattern, Lunalesca.

However, today I’m hoping to break that pattern. No, Virgil is alive and well… Wishing. I’m not going to cry over Braxton right this second. Or be pissy at their Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

So get to it, eh? Or in the words of Cody Rhodes, What Do You Wanna Talk About? Well, uh, Anime. Hentai and Ecchi, specifically. Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny? Sigh!

01: Bible Black
02: Casual Romance Club -L’etude de l’amour-
03: “Cool Devices” Operation 07: Yellow Star (Ayana)
04: Colorful (TV Series 1999)
05: Desert Island Story X
06: Desperate Carnal Housewives, Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi
07: Discipline: The Record of a Crusade
08: Eiken (TV Mini Series 2003–2004)
09: Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko
10: Himawari wa Yoru ni Saku (Hisato Azuma)
11: Isaku
12: Kite (Sawa)
13: Kuroinu Kedakaki Seijo wa Hakudaku ni Somaru (Claudia Levantine)
14: Mezzo Forte (Mikura)
15: Midnight Sleazy Train, Saishuu Chikan Densha
16: Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance
17: Sex Taxi\Kojin Taxi (Kyouko Sakai)
18: Shusaku
19: Virgin Roster: Shukketsubo
20: The Blackmail: Tomorrow Never Ends

Why 20? My Dear Lady Lunalesca, I could go on forever and a day. Are any Hentais love stories? Again, I’ll be here all day trying to find some. Hell, I knew some softcore pornos that were all about the love. How things change. The “man” I am, judging Hentai.

Perhaps I’ll share this with M Anime. I’ve spent most of the week judging her. And then thinking What Is Love? Baby, don’t hurt me. Don’t hurt me no more. Yet I’m a sadist, hmm.

She’s a Masochist with a Breeding Kink (but real). Judging Lovers… Judgy Of Animes B-V

2036 Days Without B III, Day 1477 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 057 -Talking Anime B-V-

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Thursday, August 27, 2026

Legacy 057 -Talking Anime B-V-

2034 Days Without B III, Day 1475 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? “We’ve Only Just Begun,” haven’t we, B? Virgil, help us. At least he’s here.

V isn’t someone that can be refuted, who I would return in a million years, and must one day be reckoned with. That is, if I can keep him alive. Vet visits, eye appointments, docs

Cash basically. And do you know what I realized, B? I never asked you whether V could join our family. While I may have forgotten his Gotcha Day… Saturday, August 13, 2022. I will never forget you all but pushed him into the car. You know V’s never jumped in.

Here we are in 2026, and I still had to listen to him cry in your room until his rescue…

Vis-à-vis picking him up in his pillow and bringing him into the Den. It’s like I’m “The Big Bad Wolf.” That’s heavy. Literally, “The Heavy.”

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

And speaking of picking things up, lifting… Something, something, truck unload, spirits, and then son. Tell me what effing happened yesterday with your potential stepmom.

Remember the day we had to have “The Talk” about you not humping your toys around your favorite girl. Not latching on to her yaboos or behind. Seriously, Braxton Barks.

Anyway, she loved you even for the eight months after E-Day as you threatened fingers.

She became your favorite, and we both love her, but then there’s M Anime… Braxton…

She’s my favorite HUMAN. Hell, Braxton, you’re a little god, the angel on my shoulder, my prince. She’s my goddess. The Most Beautiful Girl in the World. My Phoenix Queen.

But last night, Geez Louise!

“You Always Hurt the One You Love.” Well, I killed you. The only silver lining is that 2-V is “healthy,” but hasn’t seen a vet. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself on E-Day. I fucking hate that I was born. And here we have M Anime on the 24th of 2025.

Braxton, you hurt me; you left. I hurt me; I stay. M Anime hurt me; she left. And then you returned. Not a reincarnation of your brother, but as the song goes, “He Lives In You.” I’m Still Here.” And M Anime came back. Of you, me, and her, who do I hate? I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror. LOVE? Talking, you, V, M… “Someday.” Talking Anime B-V

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad