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Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

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SIX on the brain, Six the number, a sixth sense about some things, and I’m sick of myself. What time was I up? Tomorrow, When The War Began or today, whatever. Today was a hard one; five years almost six have all been hard ones. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

Saturday, July 18, 2026

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Not from effing Haremlit! But it’s fun to dream. What isn’t fun? FEAR… HUNGER… GRIEF

And as I said last week (Hank Olson’s Voice), “I’m effing hungry.” The Long Walk…

However, that wasn’t the biggest thing this morning. And no, I’m not going to brag about my “Enormous Penis.” I haven’t written anything as wise as Da Vinci’s Notebook, Luna.

“My Turn To B III”? Am I still btchin’ about not selling any books? I’d like to think I’ve grown beyond that… More Dck jokes? Yes, I was showing off to M Anime. No food…

Anyway, Lunalesca, since I haven’t been able to buy new books lately and have been lying about the ones I do have… Yes, a conversation better served with Lady Sophia, but Saturday is my time. Hell, the Magic Glasses created a schedule for the Harem.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Okay, so what the eff was I trying to say again? Oh yeah, so last night I was reading Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Jackson Avery is having a conversation about mourning with his doc:

“I wanted to tell her she was wrong. That I’d been grieving that woman for fifteen damn years. Except, had I? Really?”

“People fall apart when that happens! It’s not strange or abnormal; it’s the most natural thing in the world. You think people would have judged you if you’d taken some time off? Gone to therapy? Bought an RV and roamed around the country for half a year, processing your loss instead of running from it?”

“Treading water for fifteen years. Never sinking beneath the surface, but never swimming to safety. Just existing, instead of living.”

“I would not want him to prioritize being useful over being human.”

“We talk about your grief, your loss, and your guilt. We talk about why you think it’s more important for you to be useful than to be happy.”
Pledged To Him 12: Unconventional Romance, Neil Bimbeau

This brings to mind two things. But you’re going to need six, right? Lunalesca, the biggest concern is that I got to thinking about Braxton. Jackson confessed not mourning, Lauren.

That’s his wife, by the way. And Braxton truly was my better half, Lunalesca, honestly.

Anyway, Lunalesca, the five things I started thinking about as I had my Therapy Session:

  1. I always find the right book for these moments.
  2. Did I ever truly mourn my firstborn son, Braxton?
  3. Jack gave up sex when his wife died, duh. I did as well. Oh no, Chloë Grace Moretz’s legs
  4. He got into business, made a ton of money. I wrote books, two about B III, not one cent
  5. Jack got Positive Stress, three brides, a harem. Me? M Anime, Kyouko Sakai, “Lily”

Has “The Unfinished Archive,” which isn’t a year old, been a positive or negative thing?

It’s what I asked the Magic Glasses as I wasted more time playing Whiteout Survival? Oh, and everything about Braxton. Virgil’s a testament to the fact that I’m not “Alright.”

Lunalesca, it started with the question. Not, What the hell am I gonna do? Because 2 + 2 isn’t 5. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

1994 Days Without B III, Day 1435 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 015 -B A Piggy Virgil-

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‘Life’s’ a belly flop and I never learned how to swim. Today needs an order of Burning Lava Wings with Cajun Cheese Fries, tapping V’s belly and calling him Fattie, or my girl strips off my clothes and tells me, “Get in my belly!” “B A Piggy Virgil.”

Thursday, July 16, 2026

Legacy 015 -B A Piggy Virgil-

1992 Days Without B III, Day 1433 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? It’ll be better when I put down my burger and fries, right, B?

For you, Braxton, a ‘special’ day was me stopping by the “Seafood and Chicken Box.”

When did they close down again? And there was that period right after you… LEFT.

Braxton, I was enamored with Buffalo Wild Wings. Was it because I visited that Saturday

The day before you LEFT? And what’s with all this talk of food? Do I hear myself, Braxton, hmm? What about seeing? I still need to make a visit to an optometrist, B III ha.

But that won’t make the three things I can’t stand looking at any better. BOY in the Mirror, my bank account, and your brother. Can’t I see Virgil for what he is? “He’s My Son.”

Only I’m being a meanie. I’ll be Mark Schultz soon…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Don’t be putting curses on my boy. My son. Yes, I see him B III. That’s part of the problem.

“We can’t afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
It’s a do or die situation
We will be invincible”
Invincible, Pat Benatar

Really, so now I’m Pat Benatar? I sent that song to your potential future stepmom.

Honestly, talk about “Constant Craving.” But let’s stick with Virgil a little bit longer, B.

Or so I’m hoping? This morning, your brother and I were walking, and I was trying to get a picture of him. I saw his belly. I could see Virgil’s bones. Disgusted me, B III.

“Some people say a man is made out of mud
A poor man’s made out of muscle and blood
Muscle and blood and skin and bones
A mind that’s weak and a back that’s strong”
Sixteen Tons, Tennessee Ernie Ford

However, it’s not his fault; it’s mine. Your brother isn’t starving. Vigil has food, always.

But how can he eat with a belly full of FEAR? Or does he crave something else? A father that gives a damn, perhaps, hmm?

M Anime thinks I’m doing the job well. She calls me her Papi. Same way your favorite girl does, B. I know, I know. Eww! Yes, your Daddy is a pig where women are concerned.

There was a certain redhead that had me looking for a golden baseball bat yesterday.

Speaking of yesterday, or more importantly, Tuesday. Worrying about your brother almost had me forget. Almost. And no, I don’t want to talk about the humiliations galore that I faced at “The Bad Place.” But how else do I expect to provide for her, your brother, and your two-legged siblings? Making M squeal. Like I can, dreaming about Burning Lava Wings and Cajun Cheese Fries, Pizza Hut, and Taco Bell… Whatever. B A Piggy Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

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Why do I need music so much, movies, the moaning of my woman? Because if I have to listen to myself, look at the man in the mirror, lament everything that happened Tuesday… I don’t know what I would hear next. But being my boys’ dad. Shame B, Shame V

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I have been a disappointment. I have been ashamed, asinine, and afraid. Downright stupid. And I killed Braxton.

Do we both need to hear all about how I killed my firstborn son… The four-legged variety for anybody reading. What, nobody’s here? Isn’t that a shame? That was yesterday.

Inspector, if I want to avoid talking about that, I better come up with something else, hmm… Make some noise. Like Virgil crying all last night after crapping his bedding…

Let’s start with yesterday morning… Getting back from the Day Job… I won’t say, Echo.

So instead of putting up the gate to lock Virgil in Braxton’s room. I only wouldn’t let Virgil into mine. He eventually slept on the stairs all night even when I removed the gate, Echo.

Like father, like son, Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… Except our own depression, explicitness, FEARS

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

How is Virgil explicit? He looks at food the way I look at his and Braxton’s potential future stepmom. Feasting on her beauty has cost me dinner many a night. Well, unless I want to be an old man and enjoy some Early Bird Specials. Old Man? Like Braxton’s Dad?

And again I’m not childless. Virgil is here. And M Anime is dedicated to pregnancy.

Inspector, my problem stems from how I’m going to pay for everything. A MAN PROVIDES

And here I am “Breaking Bad.” I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed.” “Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked,” they say. And what can be more wicked than repeating the same mistakes?

“Hell Is Repetition”
Andre Linoge

Sloth, Gluttony (I didn’t share breakfast with Virgil. Ahh Treachery.

My favorite. My Ninth Circle offense. However, M Anime is desperate to land me in the Second Circle with her angelic form. Her effing Yabbos. Unless Jane, Kristen, Angie show

“Girl, if God made anything prettier than you, I hope he kept it for himself.”
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air

If I had their bodies, I wouldn’t be in the financial strait I’m in. But no, I’m sitting here, E.

“Invincible”? Who am I, Pat Benatar or Billie Jean? Just singing “I Need a Dollar.”

Inspector, I don’t know what’s going to happen. And do you know why I keep telling myself the same story? Because I can’t stand listening to the new ones. Again, like yesterday morning. I’d rather listen to my bank account be drained”—the Echo” Inspector.

It’s almost soothing, like Eminem. “The Horror, The Horror.” Shame, Shame. Shame B, Shame V

“Oh, all around the World,
There’s an echo.”
The Echo

1991 Days Without B III, Day 1432 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

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Mind over Matter. Do I mind answering the question: “What’s the matter?” My head’s a freaking minefield. Want to start digging? There’s no glory to be mined from my struggles. Thunder, lightning, and earthquakes. Me. Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But a Firework? No, my love, you’re my Atom Bomb Baby. Five Stars? Something more…

Than trying to compliment you, today? Where Is My Mind? Anxiety! It’s a shame there are Humiliations Galore everywhere! I’m going to town on the Pop Culture references, aren’t I? Or how about I go to town on you and eff you until you can’t stand straight, my love. And I could also go back to crying about Braxton and worrying over Virgil, I mean…

Anything to avoid talking about today. My Olds never learned that lesson. And today ha

It isn’t funny, my love. Maybe, if I were still an awkward, asinine, always-sad teenager.

But I’m forty-one, Effing forty-one. But Shawshank’s (Red) was how old when he said uh:

“I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can’t. That kid’s long gone, and this old man is all that’s left. I got to live with that.”
The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

Simple and plain. But me. I’m an effing minefield, a mineshaft; I can’t be mine…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why? Because I hate myself that much? We were talking today… and now I’m crying.

And that doesn’t bring me shame? I “Wish It Would Rain.” What I’m crying about…

And I don’t mean with what I told you. “You and Me” Always and Forever. Three two-legged kids, my boys Braxton and Virgil, so… Four point five children. Kittens, love?

Loving you and this family keeps me awake and alive. I gave myself to you as you did for me. Dante and Beatrice, Winston and Julia, demon to succubus… I’ve been listening to Succubus Lord 16 again. But I’m no Nephilim or one of the Old Gods buried below, ha.

In the simplest form, I’m Andy Dufresne, and you’re still my wife. Very much alive.

“My wife used to say I’m a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn’t know how to show it, that’s all.”
Andy Dufresne

And more powerful beyond measure. And that’s what I’ve been thinking about these past few hours, trying to forget today’s humiliation. Braxton would listen. Seriously?

Virgil? Well, he messed up his bed again, so I locked him out. Like the other girls in “The Unfinished Archive”. It’s Kyouko Saki and Skye Matthews day anyway. Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me. Too much laughter though. Then Skye’s Earth Magic. So what am I asking you to do, my love? Dig me out of the hole I keep digging? Or discover me. I’m “Undiscovered,” Or am I hiding? Love, I don’t know, I just don’t know.

But “Every Time I Turn Around (Back In Love Again)” with you. But it’s so dark… Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

1990 Days Without B III, Day 1431 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 010 -Braxton, Virgil, FREE Courses-

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Virgil never asks me, “What’s for dinner?” Okay, “Now that is a lie.” And “I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day.” Well, last night anyway. How could Shrimp betray me so, and my laptop? What’s next, hmm? Braxton, Virgil, FREE Courses.

Saturday, July 11, 2026

Legacy 010 -Braxton, Virgil, FREE Courses-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Then why am I doing my best Hank Olson impression? “I’m effing hungry.” The Long Walk…

Yeah, if the laptop broke down again, I would be in a rush to take The Long Walk, dear Lu.

Walmart, Best Buy, and hell, even through Target. Have I no shame? Of course, Lunalesca

It’s why I would be buying a new laptop instead of trying to get this one fixed, no doubt.

The guy who can’t buy food is suddenly going to buy new tech. One more reason I put 2B, Judy Alvarez, and Nicoletta Goldstein, “Wrench Wenches,” in the harem. But IRL…

Braxton would have been pacing, ha, loudly barking, mad or nervous about my angst, Lu.

And Virgil. He is my son, but he’s more than done with the “Glow Box.” It doesn’t add to the food bowl and takes attention.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And why should he get attention… Must I be mean? Well, I’m sick, I get lazy, mean, and I nap even more. But when it was B III, he’d be by my side like he was living a Sade track.

“By Your Side”. If I can’t fix my things, I can’t fix my body either. I was about to say something about Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom, but Braxton knows the pain she’s in and continuing to go through. Last night she had my body going all over Lu.

I was horny and grossed out… Not because of her horror story about the airport.

Lunalesca, it had to be the shrimp and rice or a spoonful of peanut butter. And since it was orange…

Don’t you wish we could expel that A-hole from the White House like that, Lunalesca?

Hell, all of MAGA! Eff them and FDT. Because what more can they do, Lunalesca?

Seriously. But comedy comes in threes, and so I’m waiting for my third course. It beats my third leg. Eww! Like most days, I’m working on The Unfinished Archive. Today is Nico and Cassandra. The Magic Glasses still confuse Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico) and Judy Alvarez. If only that’s the worst of my problems, Braxton, willing. But I doubt it, Luna.

Today I’m reminded of all that money I wasted trying to fight those Carpenter Ants. Wednesday, July 30, 2025, Journey 029 Virgil, Braxton Vs. Hulk. Money would fix everything. PROVIDE MAN! Braxton, Virgil, FREE Courses

1987 Days Without B III, Day 1428 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 008 -Braxton, Virgil, III Stories-

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One of those days… Can’t I say all of those days? I miss coming back and napping. B III protected me. And at 5:00 PM we’d lie here, and B would sleep, and I would read. And these weren’t fairytales, but we had each other. Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

Thursday, July 09 2026

Legacy 008 -Braxton, Virgil, III Stories-

1985 Days Without B III, Day 1426 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Considering it’s 3:20 PM, there are energy drinks and girls enjoying themselves. TMI?

Allow me to disappoint you further, my son. Simple and plain. I hate my existence.

Seriously, part of the flattery and/or humiliation at the Day Job… That would be “The Bad Place,” to you. They said how young I look—the spirit of youthfulness, Braxton.

Honestly, in that youthful tone, allow me to say this… FML!!! I tell myself stories. Standing there in the midst of that shame, RAGE, and most importantly of all, FEAR, I tell myself what I know is true. Nonfiction, Baby B. Have I told Virgil the whole story? Nope, FEAR:

“Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me; danger is very real, but fear is a choice.”
After Earth
(2013)

So this is the story of how your Daddy defeated… Overcomes FEAR Every Single Day.

PAIN. I ‘survived’ your death. I endured M Anime’s decision. I saved another dog, B.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Your brother, Virgil. And really, is that painful? Sorta like the movie Plan 75 or The Republic Episode 11 (2019) Li Xiang Guo “Rose Water.” What’s with the Asian cinema?

Another world, language, fiction, fantasy. I’ve had enough… existing… exiting…

However, I made a ‘promise’ to you. Your potential future stepmom is worried and loves.

I’ll never get sick of reading that from M Anime. If you could only see the way she loves me. Tonic? English? I speak English and your language, B III. I’m learning 2-V’s. Ok, trying.

M Anime can speak Spanish. And didn’t I say once she’s learning my story… Music?

What does “Con La Brisa” mean to her? She’s writing me into her world. Wrong…

Writing The Unfinished Archive, B.

For free, of course. Writing hasn’t netted me a dime in years. And why should it? Who wants to listen to someone whine every day? It’s like all my tears douse the light, the fire.

Why do you think your stepmom represents the Phoenix, the flame of rebirth? Can’t cry around Kyouko Sakai; she’s pure energy. Water makes flowers grow, but Lily can do that all by herself. Swords must be cleaned and shields shined. So Cassandra and Sophitia Alexandra. Water can shape the Earth… Where did Skye Matthews come from? You can’t get electronics wet, so Judy and 2B… They get very wet, eww. Can’t let metal rust, Nico.

Finally, Melina is more fire. Your Dad making up stories. Crazy! Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

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Why bother with “Careless Whispers,” and if I remain silent… You should have seen me at the Day Job. Then I stayed late to avoid my Old Man. And I left Virgil to what? And yet there she goes, my beautiful woman saying… “Virgil B Whispering Sometimes”

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Some I whisper, some I try to wipe out from existence… Thanks for the WARNING, X. And sometimes…

Sometimes I leave Virgil asleep on the ‘couch’. Hell, I would have to put Braxton in timeout. “Hopelessly Devoted,” he was. But he didn’t need to see his perverted father…

And who was I whacking off to this morning? “Lily” and 2B… The Unfinished Archive.

It is their day, Inspector Echo. But Sophitia Alexandra… And of course B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom, M Anime. My Attention, Yabbos and three little words: I Love You.

“I tell them that I love them. I find myself sometimes wanting to tell you that I love you and miss you. Am I allowed to say that? Like when I do miss you cause I haven’t heard from you. Maybe cause I seem too corny and mushy? Maybe I’ll send you running for the hills?”
M Anime

“Well, you can say you love me all you want.”
Me

“Okay. Then yes, Will, I love you.
And I want you to stay!
Like every day. On this Earth.”
M Anime

I was practically begging her this morning after she said it again last night… Love.

Inspector, I could go on and on about her love and how I can’t say it back. What about V?

I’m sure he dreams of a father who loves him. But he whimpers while sleeping.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what pray tell was his father doing? Pray tell? Old English… Yeah, I was also whacking it to Beatrice and Dante… Beatrice and Lucifer. Shouldn’t I keep that quiet?

“Love, I do.” Dangerous words. No, that would be what X warned about. Consent, Echo.

But the way M Anime speaks. And no, I won’t betray her like that. She ain’t Rihanna. And the money that would take. I’m sure hardware stores and Tractor Supply sell a bit of that.

My Ravishment fantasies aren’t going anywhere, Inspector. M’s begging Tuesday.

However, I can do a million times worse. Have I gotten around to sharing, Inspector?

Cuckold, NTR (Netorare), Exhibitionism, Hatefuck, Rpe fantasy, a few videos I watched with Braxton’s Favorite Girl but with M? Madness

But a fantasy we’ve whispered in the night. How she plays a retail delivery girl, and I’m an irate customer, and she takes off all her clothes but for her socks… Feet Echo, uh no.

And something else… Then she becomes a “Free Use” delivery girl. Oh my, dear Echo.

Sounds suspiciously like Abbey Rain in “Don’t Tell My Manager!” I looked for that, Echo.

And I’m not ashamed? I am ashamed about how quiet I am at the Day Job. I got no balls.

Or at least let me pretend for a sec, I’m Virgil. Or Effing Elsa from The Menu. Oh no, Echo:

“You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve”
The Menu (2022)

I won’t be getting paid this week. I’m starving… Kinda. Writing’s going nowhere. A bad father. Virgil B Whispering Sometimes

1984 Days Without B III, Day 1425 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

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Independence Day… Fascists run my nation. FDT! A slave to FEAR. And while my girl reignites thoughts of fatherhood, what about freedom? Forty-one years and the only time I pop off is for yabbos or effed up thoughts. “Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off.”

Saturday, July 4, 2026

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And that right there is freedom. Who am I kidding? I’m Elon Musk… I am Negan.

Free me of everything but power, my dear Lady Lunalesca. I read something last night.

“I was no longer free to think like that. After all, freedom was just another word for nothing to lose.”

Rodzil LaBraun… Hell, all of Haremlit ain’t bad. I tend to “hate” reverse harems.

Lunalesca, does that make me a typical guy or what? A basic bro? There’s Vault 68…

Honestly, can’t we start the day with Happy Independence Day!? I would take British rule or an alien invasion over MAGA. Eff MAGA and FDT! You want worse, Lady Luna.

Let me tell you, if it weren’t for the memories of my firstborn son Braxton, Virgil’s life, and the “love” of their potential future stepmom, I would, as Rocko said, “I WILL DO SOMETHING NOT NICE!!! Plus, I don’t like loud noises (e.g., fireworks) and I hate leaving a mess.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Have you seen the house? Lunalesca, have you seen my notes for the Magic Glasses?

Seriously, I spent the better part of the morning trying to “educate” on Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico). Isn’t that one of the freedoms we enjoy? The freedom to see her naked…

Don’t get me started, Lunalesca. Today has been lazy, loud, lustful, and loth… Really Lu?

What about “Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness” all up and through the Declaration of Independence? First, let me explain that I’m just a black man. And dear Lu

This Is America. The best way to put that is America is like my Old Man. Do you want it?

I have spent today escaping to two other worlds, Whiteout Survival and The Unfinished Archive.

That’s where (crap) pops off. And neither of those places is a democracy, a constitutional republic, or whatever, Lady Lunalesca. In Star Wars, I’m Pro-Sith, so I back the Empire…

So as I said before, my Lu, to be Elon Musk with the cash flow. Or TWD’s Negan, the power. But unlike any of the leaders in the good ole U.S. of A… Benevolent Dictator?

Luna, no one would think of Shang Tsung as such. But wisdom… magic in particular, Necromancy… Everything comes back to my Braxton. Freedom from grief? Acceptance, Lady Lunalesca? Never! I will live with my grief. But freedom from FAFO (my consequences), from falling asleep at every opportunity, and especially from FEAR! Not popping either head off. Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off

1980 Days Without B III, Day 1421 of Virgil’s Arrival

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How do I see this 10th year of blogging? How did I see the other 9? Other than the fact that my firstborn son died during the Gospels and I have been mourning him ever since. 1,314,000 words over 9 years and still eating burgers. B’s Menu Page Virgil

Thursday, July 02 2026

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1978 Days Without B III, Day 1419 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? First day of YOUR legacy, and how does your father feel? I wish…

You don’t know how badly I wish I could go all Kenny Loggins singin’ “I’m alright. Nobody worry ’bout me.” Now that second part is true… Well, if I don’t count you, Virgil, and you boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. But the first part is more Pilot Speed, you know, “I’m not alright, I’m not alright!” Is that what my dream was saying last night, B? I don’t remember what I was carrying in the dream. Baggage? Something, “Fancy.”

Anyway, I was wandering around a parking lot all “Dude, Where’s My Car?” I know…

SIGH, you hated car rides. They scare your brother nearly to death too. Virgil? Scared?

Like father, like son, right? Should have seen me at the gas station and food truck yesterday. Who sells courage?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We can’t all be you, unfortunately, my son. “Can’t nobody tell me nothin’. You can’t tell me nothin’.” You on that “Old Town Road,” Braxton? Renaming The Rainbow Bridge, ha

As for your Old Man, I’m still all, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.” One more reason I’m getting to you so late. I only know what makes my stomach less achy and my scrotum less full… Eww! I don’t know where I’m going in life, with this litany of nonsense, or even in a little while. But putting you in time-out and taking my alone time? I always know what’s on “The Menu.” Oh, did I tell you I finally got that cheeseburger… Not Chef Slowik’s

Yeah, I think I’ll stick with shrimp and buffalo wings, along with CHEESE fries, not RANCH! Again, nobody sells courage. It’s not something usually on “The Menu” B III ha.

So what is? What will this new year bring? What will be your Legacy? Other than a father yelling out his complaints about the world, your stepmom’s Yabbos. And yellow…

Honestly, Braxton, I am sorry your father is starting this brand new year being a yellow-belly coward and thinking about two yellow girls he wants to eff (Asian women). I don’t ever want to MAGA. I want to be honest. The Unfinished Archive/Magic Glasses say it’s Melina and Judy Alvarez today. Your Daddy’s always hungry for bread, babes, and brains. Zombie. B’s Menu Page Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad