Monday, September 7, 2026

Legacy 068 -B Visualizing E-Day, Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Can we pretend, Daddy, just for a little while? Another world:

It’s sometime after 7 AM, Emergence Day. Braxton wakes up. You named your first two-legged son after. Virgil finally has someone else he’s attached to. I know you and my stepmom are ‘busy’. Virgil does his best to wrangle the rest of our siblings in.

Three, as stepmom wanted. Braxton, Willow, and Mirabel. Or perhaps their Braxton, Luke, and Leia? Three daughters… Katniss, Tris (Beatrice, B for Braxton), and Ember.

Dad, the point is Virgil tries to slow them down, and by the time they reach you and stepmom… “Happy Birthday, Daddy!” Three times over. Stepmom still knows better, ha.

“Love Is A Long Road.” And yours has further to go, but Stepmom, the three, my little brother Virgil approaching six. To us that’s 40.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And you’re 42. No longer the Slave “41” (Cue Ben-Hur Galley Drums), More like The Bullitts’ “All About You.” Because today is all about you, my father, this life… Existence?

Far from it. Farmland, fields full of flowers, food growing all over thanks to stepmom.

Her greenery. And you, my father? Living a life somewhere between Ryan and his Beauties by Jack Pinkhunter and Bikini Days by Michael Dalton. Do you see my stepmom as such a woman… She’s a woman of the land. You remain a man of leisure. A man of passions. As you sing to my furry little brother, “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies.” And your work, the discipline, never changes. Not even now. But what has Dad

You don’t want to die today. Above everything else. You’re not yearning to “go up.”

Somehow, someway, you’re not looking to me. You’ll “Never Forget Me.” Bone Thugs-N-Harmony, Akon, and Memphis Bleek, sure, but never me. That’s what makes this day easier to bear than the worst day ever. You’ll never accept me being gone, but you can at least, for a while longer, know that you are “Alive.” You’re still breathing, so you can blow those candles out. You can take a breath and be happy (okay, too much to ask), but me, Virgil, and our two-legged siblings are all happy for you being alive. V and my stepmom?

I don’t want to know what you visualize. But Happy Birthday!!! B Visualizing E-Day, Virgil

“When we stop trying to create happiness, happiness comes by itself. It is a common mistake to believe we have to work hard for happiness, or that happiness is conditioned by what we have, and who we are in society. Happiness is the experience of mind when there is no presence of fear. That’s all. It’s simple.”
― Michael Kewley

“Endure, and keep yourselves for days of happiness.”
The Aeneid

2045 Days Without B III, Day 1486 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, August 31, 2026

Legacy 061 -Virgil Will B Eating-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Well, you haven’t killed anybody, the Magic Glasses/MIMA, and you’re sober.

First off, I guess the whole “killing anybody” angle wasn’t very funny, ha. Meaning me…

Second, the worst you’ve done with The Magic Glasses/MIMA is create outfits for the Order of Bible Black, or um the Order of the Black Bible, with two Asian women. A mom and daughter duo. Is this one of those things you’d send me out of the room, Dad? SIGH

And as far as being sober… Now that’s something you would tell me about and not the bottom of the bottle—memories of you and my bro. You drunk off your ass on E-Day, Dad.

LANGUAGE! Yes, I know. But last year you had enough money to get drunk and dance with Virgil to “King of Wishful Thinking.” M Anime…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Ms. M Anime to V and I, I suppose. Our potential future stepmom. Did you get her a present for her birthday last year? And on yours, you were only trying to survive, I know.

Today it was two bags of chips from the Day Job, two mini sausage biscuits, two popsicles… maybe. A bag of popcorn, a cappuccino, and a Raspberry Lemonade Bloom shot. And if you’re really lucky, maybe you won’t burn down the house using the oven.

“Someday you go through the rain
Someday you feed on a tree frog
This ordeal, the trial to survive
For the day we see new life”
Snake Eater, Cynthia Harrell

Yeah, you might be better off trying to be a “Snake Eater” rather than a pizza in the oven, my father. Thou Art Courageous, and I recall barking that while hiding. You did try, Dad.

Bacon. The simple things, my father. Remember meeting my Favorite.

Was it E-Day that she sent the pizza and then you left me and went to the movies with my Favorite Girl, and you came back with her? Yes, “I was intemperate in my youth.”

That’s a nice way of saying I hated her guts once upon a time. But never in my whole life, all fifteen years of it, did I hate you. And now we sit here, “Imagine,” me on your left, Virgil on your right, a late Monday afternoon and the biggest thing on your mind. Yabbos

M Anime’s to be precise, and I don’t need to know that, Dad. Anyway, there is your belly and what you and Virgil will eat 7 days from now. E-Day vittles. Virgil Will B Eating

“Sometimes we think that, because we don’t say the right things or love the right people or even think the wrong thoughts, that we don’t deserve a seat at the table”
Pledged To Him 12

To what crime do you not drive the hearts of men, accursed hunger for gold?
― Virgil, The Aeneid ―

2038 Days Without B III, Day 1479 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Monday, August 24, 2026

Legacy 054 -Betrayed The B’s Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Humiliating. That to you constitutes betrayal. Because? You hate your life.

I promised not to do this… What, be like my brother? Sitting on a pillow, sad, unsure, just waiting for you to come back from “The Bad Place” to wag my tail, waiting for fries.

However, I am my father’s son as well—your son. And I know how we feel. But today is just a day, and it isn’t even Tuesday. Dad, it isn’t one of the BIG 3, but like Office Space ha:

“I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that’s on the worst day of my life.”
Peter Gibbons, Office Space (1999)

So the BIG 3, so we can forget about today, which is hard enough, I know it is my father:

“Every day that man remains free is one more failure. 347 days, gentlemen. 347 failures!”
Chancellor Sutler, V For Vendetta

15,326 failures and counting. Each and every one a betrayal of self. But for 3 in particular you can blame someone else… my grandma, myself, and my potential future stepmom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now I’m sure I’ll have plenty to say about the second-worst day of your life come E-Day, but today… You don’t need to be reminded how I betrayed you, or you betrayed me, hmm. Whatever.

“I sold you, and you sold me.” 1984? Oh, we will be talking about Miss M Anime in a minute. Your Julia. But you and me, Dad. The one day you couldn’t save me, father.

Honestly, the one day I didn’t defy you. Sunday, January 31, 2021. Your rules, father.

Don’t crap in the house. Don’t be afraid to ask you for a bite; stealing isn’t necessary. Dad, if you called me, I needed to respond. And don’t bite the hand that feeds me. Don’t die didn’t make the cut.

But you tell Miss M Anime “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die.” However, last year…

Daddy, she betrayed you. Me, my brother, your fucking Olds. LANGUAGE! I know, Dad, I know. But even yourself… You hate every breath you take, but with 15,326 failures, Dad.

“I’m Still Here.” You say that to yourself every day. I’m here! I say that to you. So does V

But M Anime said she loved you, and then she said goodbye. Hell, my father, for five months, she didn’t make another sound. And until you reached out, Saturday, January 24, 2026, she finally said hello again. To betray someone you claim to love. Daddy…

Treachery: The Ninth Circle of Hell. How do I save you? Betrayed The B’s Virgil

Well, if I was already headed to Hell, I might as well go all out
― Sleepover Harem: Part 2

“Ah, merciless Love, is there any length to which you cannot force the human heart to go?”
Virgil, The Aeneid

2031 Days Without B III, Day 1472 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son