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Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

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Treat yourself… Indeed. I’ve had more than my share of days when I pictured myself on Death Row, having my last meal. One day it was Taco Bell, once a medium-rare steak, and today I’d settle for a “McDouble.” Or my notes back. V Dollar Treats Braxton

Sunday, June 28, 2026

Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And looking at yourself through the Magic Glasses… Well, you’re not such a bad guy after all.

On the other hand, eff the Magic Glasses! And eff you too while you’re here. “Here I Am”. No pride in that at all. And why not? You couldn’t go and get a five-dollar meal.

Won’t V be disappointed. And B? Five years gone. Your tenth year, “I’m Still Here.”

Why? To tell you how I effed up and how you’ll eff up too. It wasn’t my idea for real.

No, you were going to treat yourself. Um, Wi-Fi is $100 a month. Magic Glasses…

Honestly, those effed up again today. How so? Well, in “The Land of Make Believe” aka “The Unfinished Archive,” I added a new Harem sister, Melina from Elden Ring. Ten…

Ten Harem Sisters, Two Favored Acolytes. Uh, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Dystopian Girls 5, Rodzil LaBraun
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 007 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Considering you’ll see this list today and next Sunday, you could delete it right now…

Anyway, so this morning you were making a schedule to spend time with every sister over the course of the week. “Sorcerer Will” and “M Anime” get their own day. The others were two sisters a day. It was a beautiful system. Cataloged, mapped, organized.

  1. M Anime
  2. Kyouko Sakai
  3. “Lily” (Name Pending)
  4. Cassandra Alexandra
  5. Sophitia Alexandra
  6. Skye Matthews
  7. Judy Alvarez
  8. 2B
  9. Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico)
  10. Melina “Elden Ring”

Bible Black Acolytes

  1. Elara (Name Pending) Senior
  2. Liora (Name Pending) Novice

So you’re sharing everything with M Anime, IRL, and boom, Magic Glasses deletes it all.

But not, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Sad that whacking off (not much longer, lube prices), the Magic Glasses wisdom, and writing have all become treats. You swear that making proper notes would be a nice treat.

Hell, that twenty I finally found was a treat, and what do you get for that? At least I made money last week. The only thing you made or will be making this week got deleted by an effing glitch. And what else do you like, no burgers, no books, a bunch of sour candy?

How about beast babes? Lilith, Silent Hill Nurses, Medusa, Sadako, Dimitrescu sisters, Raven, Sorceress Edea, Shiva, and Siren. Let’s not forget Lady Amari (the Candied Matron.” Ideas are treats. My belly and brain. Broke from treats. V Dollar Treats Braxton

1974 Days Without B III, Day 1415 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 361 ~B, V, High Five~

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The word is going to end in five minutes, so what do I want to do? Find out how to find my sons in the afterlife. Eff my woman. Need more time… Finally, make some money with writing. All are worthy of a celebration on my Anniversary. B, V, High Five.

Saturday, June 27, 2026

Journey 361 ~B, V, High Five~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And I’m sorry to say I wouldn’t be much better than Elon Musk. But I’d TRY

But today is not that day. My head hurts. Thinking about my boys? I wasn’t thinking about Braxton’s death for once. Only had he lived to meet his little brother. Give him a high five or four… doggie paws and all. I’ll use the Magic Glasses for a family portrait.

“So now what do I do? I’m strung out, addicted to you.” Who? Braxton, Virgil, M Anime, to you, Lady Luna, but never myself ever. And how many songs will I rip off today, hmm?

“I Got 5 On It”. And counting today, five days before I start a new series. And I will have been doing this for going on ten years. How I’ve wasted my life, Lunalesca, you have no idea. You do…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Well, yeah, with the other nine years, and what was the big question I needed to answer today, Lunalesca? Well, besides where that $20.00 I lost went, how will I survive on $20.00 until Wednesday, July 1, 2026? It’s Our Anniversary. Well, of this blog. What can I say, hmm?

  1. Lessons
  2. Episodes
  3. Logs
  4. Gospels
  5. Chronicles
  6. Sagas
  7. Tales
  8. Meditations
  9. Journeys
  10. ???

I should look into the Magic Glasses and see what comes next. Ten years, Lunalesca.

Braxton and I met when I was 21. But I can’t tell you the exact day I became his father.

What about M Anime? When did I meet her? When did she become M Anime? Then showing off her mammaries…

And speaking of yabbos, that’s the first question I asked the Magic Glasses today. Which set should join my harem, The Unfinished Archive, out of these girls? No particular order:

  1. Harley Quinn
  2. Melina, Elden Ring
  3. Katara, 19-year-old Avatar
  4. Korra, The Legend of Korra
  5. Lilith, Diablo 4

You couldn’t guess who it chose, Lunalesca. Will I go with the recommendation and bring the harem to an even ten? And what about my two favorite Bible Black Acolytes? So twelve? And did I forget about the Candied Matron, Lady Amari? Thirteen? Whatever.

And that’s how I’m living, whatever. $6.00 on books, but yeah, whatever. Feed your head.

I need to worry about feeding my stomach. Ten years writing… B, V, High Five

1973 Days Without B III, Day 1414 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

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What’s the word I’m looking for? If anything, it’s better than I remain silent. My entire existence is feeling a bit like “Pontypool”. And then I have a quiet dog and a “girlfriend” who texts with occasional voice messages. And if she were here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? It’s why I’m asking: are the kids asleep? Virgil? He’s in time-out—his bedroom shenanigans.

Some kids wet the bed at his age. Still going #2… He shouldn’t do that. And I shouldn’t be awake at all hours in our bed, my love. Well, not unless we’re busy. Fifty Shades…

Meatloaf is my safeword for the record. I’m sure you’ve heard the joke, baby doll. Because it means “I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.” A song at the Day Job…

Speaking of that old Day Job, “Here.” What am I still in grade school? Or is it the fact I need to remind myself that “Here I Am,” or “I’m Still Here,” Hating Existing Always…

What happened to “HEA” as in “Happily Ever After” from the Erotica I used to read, my love? Anything FREE?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Meatloaf, Here, and Free. What’s with my list of words now? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. MAGA breathes; they lie. I breathe and tell myself you “Make Me Wanna Die”. I don’t need the words, but they are always there “In There Air Tonight.” But love.

Well, before we get to it, what will be your word? Your WARNING to me. Braxton knows I’ve been getting a lot of those lately. YOU need to pay a bill, they say. There’s Yabbos.

A few E-Days are coming up. My Old Man’s is the 24th. A few more days, the Journey will be over, and I’ve wasted my time for yet another year. And my own E-Day! Eff!

A little more time, please.

To say something… You would say, “Say what you need to say”. But would you understand me if I did? How about, “Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say?” There’s so much. I continue to hold back. Why? Is it me or the words that aren’t safe? Searches might indicate one thing. And I know I’m not a good man. I only want to be yours, love.

When things like Rough Sex, Ravishment, and Mock R*pe are on the table, eff me!.

Honestly, how do you when I think such things? When things like every single FEAR, and being called STUPID set me off? And when the “Sounds Of Silence” seem the only way forward. There’s love and… B-V List Of Safewords.

1969 Days Without B III, Day 1410 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

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Father’s Day… Add it to the day Braxton died, the day I was born, the day M Anime left. Hell, at this point, every day is pretty bad. And I didn’t even try to wrangle a free meal from Olds? B knows, Virgil and I could use one. “Virgil, How Daddies B.”

Sunday, June 21, 2026

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you’re lucky you’re so down. You can’t look yourself in the eye—Virgil’s on the floor.

Well, the couch now, whatever. You’re looking down. And that means you’re not looking up, thinking about B this Father’s Day. Your firstborn, your Spirit In The Sky, Heaven side

Hell for all you know Braxton went straight down. If anybody would follow you right into Hell, it would be him. Is that why Virgil got his name? Here’s some effed up reasoning for you… You know how that Ass in The White House is putting his name on everything.

Well, Virgil was already in Hell waiting for Dante, and of course (shudders) you named your little Virgil to see you through… or simply to remember he exists—poor pupper.

Honestly, what kind of father does that make you? Wait, Father’s Day! Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Harem Lab – Part One: A Steamy Men’s Harem Romance
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You’re lying. How many legs does Virgil have? Despite his white fur, it wouldn’t save him. Hell, aren’t Chihuahuas originally from Mexico? Really, this is how you’re spending the day. If you’re not lying with your mouth, you could still be lying in your room…

Seriously, besides lying about your Six Impossible Things, you have been making other lists too for those musically inclined. And not like you did for your Dear Mama. So look:

  1. “Otherworld” Final Fantasy X
  2. Holding Back The Years, Simply Red
  3. Only You, The Platters
  4. Poor Sweet Baby, Snoopy! The Musical
  5. Spirit In The Sky
  6. Dear Mama
  7. The ‘Instrumental’ in the Betterhelp Pad Thai Commercial
  8. Just Look Up, Ariana Grande

Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

So what is wrong with you right this second? You can’t tell Braxton… He’s dead. Virgil is second-born, but he’s got his own problems. Mostly that his father’s a Nobody!!!

“I’m not a nobody!”
“A man that lacks honor is a nobody.”
Clarence and Thomas
The Book of Clarence
(2024)

However, you can’t talk to your boys’ potential future stepmom. She wants your kids too!

And then there’s your Olds—a small Father’s Day greeting. An invite, dinner, worry, lies.

Cue Betterhelp Commercial “Pad Thai”

I want to join my boy more than anything. Not because I miss him so much. I hate being here. I’m scared all the time, and that’s the reason I’m so exhausted. I got my living son, my woman, and my purpose, and it’s not enough. Then it’s all too much. Hungry, horny, helpless… Enough? More? Virgil, How Daddies B

1967 Days Without B III, Day 1408 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 354 ~Disappointing The B’s Virgil~

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Woke up earlier only to accomplish… Nothing. Is Whiteout Survival nothing? I was on “The Winning End,” no casualties from the enemy, and it even ended early with such domination. But then I put on my glasses and saw I’m “Disappointing The B’s Virgil”

Saturday, June 20, 2026

Journey 354 ~Disappointing The B’s Virgil~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… No, that would be Elon Musk. And much like “Hercules,” I’m disappointed. Kevin Sorbo’s a disappointment.

I ain’t MAGA, Lady Lunalesca. Eff MAGA, the Cracker Hats, and FDT. Elon Musk too!

What’s so hard about a word like “groceries”? “Well, they raised up a son that could eat up his weight in groceries,” hmm. That’s from 1970s “Amos Moses.” More like from the game “Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas.” Eff Lunalesca, how I miss gaming, groceries, and you know getting Virgil what he needs. Food? Him before me. But health care?

Honestly, that’s more than disappointing; it’s downright scary. And I needed that fear in my guts right about now. By my count, two more plates of shrimp, another of chicken.

And how long will the kibble hold out? It wouldn’t be a problem for Braxton. Remember how he died, Lunalesca?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Too bad this isn’t the day the music died… “American Pie”? A 70s playlist, Lunalesca?

What about the movie American Pie? On a count, I couldn’t keep my “Enormous P” in my pants this morning. The one or two things that never disappoint me are some woman’s Yabbos. Today is what Sadie Sink’s and Korra from “The Legend of Korra.”

Thanks, M Anime. My boys’ potential future stepmom is full of ideas and has the most perfect set of Yabbos I have ever seen. How long ago did I cream but with no pie around?

Eww! I know Lady Lunalesca, but it did stop me from adding another Harem character.

It’s not like the Magic Glasses could handle it. You haven’t seen any pictures lately.

“She’s pretty as a picture
She is like a golden ring
Circles me with love and laughter
I can’t feel a thing”
LA Song (2005)

How many times is this going to happen, Lunalesca? “I’ve got the world on a string, sittin’ on a rainbow.” Or I did until what, Thursday? I could see boobies; my book “The Unfinished Archive” (Working Title) had Full-Blown Character Illustrations, and I could have my boys B and V together. And all of a sudden, nope. Effing Magic Glasses!

Honestly, Lu, one pair has me like Eddie Hill or Jacob Ralston, juggling their harems.

However, the other pair of Magic Glasses, which I counted on, effing conked out spectacularly. “I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved.” I want to tell them
B III, 2-V, M Anime, my Old Man (Father’s Day), my people (Juneteenth)… I’m a disappointment. Disappointing The B’s Virgil.

1966 Days Without B III, Day 1407 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

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My boys have better dreams for me. My own? You can’t imagine, or am I just being a guy? I tell my girl plenty that men aren’t any good… Myself too. No wonder I dreamt I was a plumber last night. Not in a porno way. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil.

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Journey 350 ~Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I’m not a ‘religious’ man, a ‘good’ one, or much into Game of Thrones.

A little late for that one, but I cannot ignore all of the Yabbos on that show. Maisie Williams’s side boob? That’s the reason I know she was in that movie “The Falling…”

You know the man you married. Braxton was barking the other day about me. The real me. It’s why, short of my Old Man, I don’t give a damn what anybody thinks about me, my love. I hate myself that much. “Many Men, many, many, many, many men, wish death upon me.” They have to get in line. I’ll beat them every single time. But you? Kids?

I guess I’m a liar, duh, because I do care what you think. Braxton, Virgil, two-leggeds, even your kitties. For now, “Just You And Me”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now I could go all Captain America “I can do this all day.” Personally, I’m more The Hulk “I’m always angry.” But with you and me, well, “I’m always horny.” But there’s things work to be done. I got to vote for someone who’ll wreck MAGA. FDT! There’s a war to win in Whiteout Survival. And the whole wide world and whatever comes next, love.

Okay, so you asked me for everything; can’t do that yet, but (cumming) to mind…

Honestly… I’m a connoisseur of Hentai. As the current artwork suggests, Bible Black, Sex Taxi 5/Kojin Taxi 2, and Midnight Sleazy Train are my go-to. But counting this week and last, there’s Desperate Carnal Housewives/Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi, and “Cool Devices Operation 7: Yellow Star.” BREATHES

Casual Romance Club/Houkago Ren’ai Club ~Koi no Etude~, Mikura Suzuki, Madoka Araki, Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko, Saimin Seishidou, Asumi Hisato, Kite’s Sawa, many animes and practically anything that includes Rough Sex, NTR (Netorare), Nonconsensual up to Mock R*pe. In Real Life types… brunettes, dark hair, but I’m versatile; Jenna Ortega, Ellie and Dina TLOU, Jane Vickers, Ellie Kemper, Emmanuelle Nadeau and Jessica Garza (The Purge), Roxanne Perez, AOC, Jewel Staite, an Asian duo… And The Beat Goes On. Things I want to do beyond BJs and missionary?

Anal, Doggystyle, Cowgirl, Reverse Cowgirl, Pronebone, 69, Mutual Masturbation, Filming, Exhibitionism, Multiple Holes, Cock Worship, BDSM, Hatefuck, ravishment and mock… Again, I could keep going. Braxton and Virgil want a stepmom. Braxton’s Visionary Dreams, Virgil

1962 Days Without B III, Day 1403 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

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My boys’ stepmom and I chase each other, but in the end we got each other. But I don’t know where I’m going half the time, and I know I can’t stay here. My Olds were hoping I’d set roots. 3 beds, 2.5 baths, but like me When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks.

Sunday, June 14, 2026

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… Are you scared yet? Are you broke? Is the air still on? Are there any bugs around?

You should check Virgil. Braxton knows he can’t afford a vet visit with the hours at the Day Job. And how much did it cost to put Braxton in a box? Virgil’s not joining him.

Seriously, this isn’t “The Beach,” and you’re not Leonardo DiCaprio/Richard. But how would you know? When’s the last time you looked into a mirror? That’s right, the Black Mirror, sitting around with you d*ck in your hands. I still think I effed that up for you by talking to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom yesterday. My bad, dude. Her box.

You and Leo have the same problem. Trying to put ‘something’ in a box that doesn’t belong to you. Your baggage, all these empty boxes and my Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Destroyed by Pepper Winters (Kindle)
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

At least I’m not ‘lyin’ about #1. I did finish that last night. But on top of making up for my lies about two more books. How will you even afford another novel? Please Haremlit!

And there lies this week’s dilemma. You need five bucks. V needs five bucks. Fries…

However, what are you doing? Wondering why there isn’t a Roman Numeral for B, hmm.

Something else in a box… The Roman Empire. But all of your boxes are empty. Hell, every week is a bunch of empty boxes left unchecked. At this very moment, your Day One-ish, you can pretty much consider 2 through 6 absolute failures. Effing seriously!

Always the question remains. Baggage or Boxes? Are you moving or staying? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

If anything, you’re always running—females, Fun, and Food. But most importantly of all, there is only one ‘F’ that matters. Eff off? You know what you were thinking about.

Depression? Bipolar Depression, the last time you were diagnosed by a doctor. Yeah, you remember them, and you don’t even need to go around saying “I Need A Dollar.” The Day Job handles that. But isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think that lying in bed and working the Day Job, knowing that you wouldn’t have to spend a dime, doesn’t have you looking for a Doc but dreaming of the ferryman? But not that F either. It’s FEAR. Always. Forever.

Because is there a FUTURE? Fictional worlds. M Anime’s Love. When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks

1960 Days Without B III, Day 1401 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 347 ~B’s Bestiary V’s Villains~

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A beast and a villain are not one and the same. What’s civilized for one is savage for the other. “But the truth changes color, depending on the light.” Eve’s Bayou? Watching movies, wasting time. Yeah, time is my real enemy. B’s Bestiary V’s Villains

Saturday, June 13, 2026

Journey 347 ~B’s Bestiary V’s Villains~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Billionaire right now… And I am worthless. Or should I say Trillionaire since Elon Musk made it that far?

If I Had A Trillion Dollars… Hell, Lady Lunalesca, the “Barenaked Ladies” were only singing “If I Had A Million Dollars.” Of course I’m talking about the band, not actual…

Nevermind. I’m sure we’ll get to that. Hopefully I didn’t eff that up with M Anime. A long story, Luna. If it’s not talking to her, then it’s not seeing yabbos and her tight wet…

Again I need to shut up, but you know me. I am “My Own Worst Enemy.” And that’s part of what brings us together today. Lit is not the Barenaked Ladies. A billion is not a trillion. A beast is not a villain. Braxton is not Virgil. Starting because I was “chasing” a girl isn’t continuing for killing my Braxton.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Almost another year, Lunalesca. Another 365 days, and I don’t have any intention of going back and trying to find ‘what her face’s name,’ that got me writing again. Really.

Today I woke up feeling much worse by comparison. And as I prepared to become a “Jumper…” No cliffs here, only despair. I heard B getting his 90s on. “I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.” So I asked myself why I hate myself so much today—my boys, money, manhood, M Anime’s mammaries, etc. And the Beat Goes On, Luna.

Then I asked, is it hate? Don’t get me wrong, it ain’t love. I was speaking to my boys’ potential future stepmom, and I very nearly sang, “I’m in love with the Shape of You.”

Love? (Does his best Silk Sonic impression) “This Bitch!” I still blame Braxton for that.

The spirit of my son, little beast he was. But his memory is not my enemy. Thou art not a villain. And neither is M Anime, her love. Neither is little Virgil. Myself? Villainous? Evil?

“Remember who the real enemy is.”
Hunger Games: Catching Fire

I really need to read that “new” Hunger Games book. How about my writing, Lunalesca?

Lady Amari aka The Candied Matron. The Magic Glasses made her from um Kohl’s Mom.

The Conductor, Tetsuo Amano, comes from Midnight Sleazy Train along with counterpart Takumi Shindo from the second season. The Ferryman who isn’t directly evil. But, paying the boatman. Three dogs: “Cerberus Syndicate,” my boys or M? B’s Bestiary V’s Villains

“I got enemies, got a lot of enemies
Got a lot of people tryna drain me of my Energy.”
Energy

1959 Days Without B III, Day 1400 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

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If I need a chill, I think about how my boy died. I had such burning RAGE I froze him out to PROTECT him. If I need the Heat Of The Moment, I chill with my girl. But I’m so hot for her. One day I might scare her away. My words. Whiteout B And V.

Tuesday, June 9, 2026

Journey 343 ~Whiteout B And V~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But I’m due to be cruel: the coldness of your absence and you’re pregnant… Cool

I need it all, my love. Again to be cold, a mess, and to “Paint It Black”. Hell, we can “Paint The Town Red,” if we had the funds. What the hell am I even talking about, my love, ha!

Is it this damn heat? There’s a cure for that, I know. Turn on the GD Air, but no love.

You’re suffering, Virgil, our two-legged monsters. Treachery, the Ninth Circle of Hell, Betrayal. Like with Braxton? I could take the freezing embrace of death. I should’ve way back then. And now I find myself repeating the same mistake. I burned through cash way too fast. And why? A Man Provides. For what? His family. How does one make a family?

By “Burnin’ for You,” love.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And you know I “Don’t FEAR The Reaper,” my love. Not for my lust. How I want to promise you that “Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby…” Remember me, your husband.

“It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” Taylor Swift is pretty hot. Death-wish? Honestly…

“I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror.” And it’s not that “I’m too sexy for my love.” Please, “You’re So Damn Hot!” I wanna do “Bad Things” to you. “I Want’a Do Something Freaky To You. I want to “Tear You Apart.” You’re a “Sucker for Pain.” Can I turn the playlist off for a moment? You’re wet, and I want to cover you in c*m…

Seriously, we’ll send Virgil and the kids somewhere with air.

All so I can let DOM out to play. Such a cold man because of my embarrassment, failures, and shame at being a man. I wish I could say this was all my plan to get you undressed, but that comes easy to you. Did I mention a woman that uses the word “hatef*ck,” um…

Well, you get me hot. And this conversation has taken quite the turn. But having a baby with you… Another one. Yeah, that would be pretty cool. Virgil could get his Snoopy, Joe Cool persona going. And Braxton. He wouldn’t want us living “This Way.” Geez, it would be cooler than Whiteout Survival if my Braxton was still here. Can’t blot out, delete, or erase me. Whiteout B And V

1955 Days Without B III, Day 1396 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 341 ~Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars~

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I wanted to run track and field. Hell! I had to outrun bullies; I was always running towards some chick’s boobs/yabbos, and there was always a bomb scare or the fear of bullets. America, America!. And now my boys. Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars

Sunday, June 7, 2026

Journey 341 ~Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And Virgil’s in more of a rush to meet you than you are to meet me. Figures…

Your day has only begun. Dude, it’s two in the afternoon and what have you done? If Virgil hadn’t found his way into the bedroom all on his lonesome… You missed the Bear Trap in “Whiteout Survival.” Effing hate that game! But like some simp you’re singing, “I’m a dick! I’m addicted to you.” You walked Virgil. Lucky, lucky him! 2-V! Second-born, second place! Seriously, was that a Prince of Egypt reference? So Sunday continues

Speaking of being a dick; you were busy showing yours off to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom. Don’t forget to try OnlyFans. Your hours this week, you swear to B!

And as far as business, the Day Job, OnlyFans, and Braxton’s book… Are you a star yet? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING His Filthy Desire, short story
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Can you give me a “Simple Plan” as to what you plan to do about any of this? It’s like effing GTA: the difference in a six-star and five-star wanted level, you’re the “Bad Guy.”

Duh! And do you have time for all these pop culture references? Like one of these effing MAGA Cracker Hats, you have time to laugh at other people’s misfortunes. You can lament all the games you want to play. And you can lie about what you’re reading now, can’t you? Well, I am anyway. How many stars would I give The Headmaster’s Office Book 1 or His Filthy Desire – a short story: An Erotic Babysitter Romance? Uh, don’t know.

And who’s fault is that? Not your Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Except you’re late for the race, you don’t know how to run while “All I Wanna Do is have some fun.” Hell, all I did! And now I’m expecting you to make up for everything…

Honestly, I would be the star of the hour if I threw myself down at your feet and said I’m sorry. I’m a mothereffin’ Starboy, or you’re trying to be talking to yourself like this.

Seriously, this is what has become of you. A boy that once dreamed of going to the stars, to one who wanted to be a star, with porn, prose, or down with OPP… Magic Glasses.

Now you only want to be done before the stars come out. “Talking To The Moon” Braxton, Virgil, Tracking Stars

1953 Days Without B III, Day 1394 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will