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I didn’t need all those Lava Wings and Cajun Cheese Fries last night or to read about a man and his three would-be wives or to spend 2 and 1/2 in The Unfinished Archive. What do I need? What are the Bare Necessities? “The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil”

Friday, July 17, 2026

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Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Well, no. If you’ll allow me to be a whiny little bitch for a moment, please.

I’d tell you B’s story yet again, but My Turn To B III has only ever sold one copy… EVER!

I lied about Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Yes, I’m reading it. And can we agree that Neil Bimbeau is a badass pen name? And while we’re on the subject of Amazon books. I’m annoyed that I didn’t pick up more books on Rewards day. Hell! It ain’t like I can afford more books, ha.

So explain that food coma I was in last night. The tale of being a starving artist is getting pretty old, too. SIGH. How much have I lost to that food truck again? But it ain’t the worst, my Lady.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s my ‘existence’ story that sucks. Do you remember how hard I had to work talking to B III yesterday, trying to get the Magic Glasses to analyze everything? I get everything working perfectly, characters remembered, collecting marvelous illustrations, coming to conclusions over who I am. And like Billy Ocean “Suddenly,” you’re in love. Whatever…

What? If I’m not picking on Virgil, then it’s M Anime… Braxton’s Favorite Girl hasn’t forgotten about me. So she and I were talking yesterday, and M Anime came up. And was that suspicion I was sensing from her about M? Vanished, disappeared, effing LOVE! It lasted longer than those Magic Glasses “I tell you hwhat!” Back In Love Again…

Seriously, that’s M Anime. We were only apart five months…

But like Silver Linings Playbook, we’re “reading the signs.” Hers say, love. 2-V says FEAR.

And mine, I’m singing in my Magic Glasses, “This B&tch” got me “Smokin’ Out The Window.” More like I’m imagining, can you “Love Me Again?” Most of all to myself.

Sophia, I’ve never liked how people say you have to love yourself before you can love another. It isn’t a necessity. I hated myself practically all of Braxton’s life. Honestly.

Loving V took something supernatural. Believing in reincarnation, resurrection, rebirth…

Today in The Unfinished Archive, it’s the day of the Shadow Devotion: Elder Sister Elara and Novice Sister Liora, but why is M Anime the Phoenix Queen, ha. Hopeful discovery

Manuscripts, money, Magic Glasses, mutts… Necessities. The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil

1993 Days Without B III, Day 1434 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 015 -B A Piggy Virgil-

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‘Life’s’ a belly flop and I never learned how to swim. Today needs an order of Burning Lava Wings with Cajun Cheese Fries, tapping V’s belly and calling him Fattie, or my girl strips off my clothes and tells me, “Get in my belly!” “B A Piggy Virgil.”

Thursday, July 16, 2026

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1992 Days Without B III, Day 1433 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? It’ll be better when I put down my burger and fries, right, B?

For you, Braxton, a ‘special’ day was me stopping by the “Seafood and Chicken Box.”

When did they close down again? And there was that period right after you… LEFT.

Braxton, I was enamored with Buffalo Wild Wings. Was it because I visited that Saturday

The day before you LEFT? And what’s with all this talk of food? Do I hear myself, Braxton, hmm? What about seeing? I still need to make a visit to an optometrist, B III ha.

But that won’t make the three things I can’t stand looking at any better. BOY in the Mirror, my bank account, and your brother. Can’t I see Virgil for what he is? “He’s My Son.”

Only I’m being a meanie. I’ll be Mark Schultz soon…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Don’t be putting curses on my boy. My son. Yes, I see him B III. That’s part of the problem.

“We can’t afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
It’s a do or die situation
We will be invincible”
Invincible, Pat Benatar

Really, so now I’m Pat Benatar? I sent that song to your potential future stepmom.

Honestly, talk about “Constant Craving.” But let’s stick with Virgil a little bit longer, B.

Or so I’m hoping? This morning, your brother and I were walking, and I was trying to get a picture of him. I saw his belly. I could see Virgil’s bones. Disgusted me, B III.

“Some people say a man is made out of mud
A poor man’s made out of muscle and blood
Muscle and blood and skin and bones
A mind that’s weak and a back that’s strong”
Sixteen Tons, Tennessee Ernie Ford

However, it’s not his fault; it’s mine. Your brother isn’t starving. Vigil has food, always.

But how can he eat with a belly full of FEAR? Or does he crave something else? A father that gives a damn, perhaps, hmm?

M Anime thinks I’m doing the job well. She calls me her Papi. Same way your favorite girl does, B. I know, I know. Eww! Yes, your Daddy is a pig where women are concerned.

There was a certain redhead that had me looking for a golden baseball bat yesterday.

Speaking of yesterday, or more importantly, Tuesday. Worrying about your brother almost had me forget. Almost. And no, I don’t want to talk about the humiliations galore that I faced at “The Bad Place.” But how else do I expect to provide for her, your brother, and your two-legged siblings? Making M squeal. Like I can, dreaming about Burning Lava Wings and Cajun Cheese Fries, Pizza Hut, and Taco Bell… Whatever. B A Piggy Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

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Mind over Matter. Do I mind answering the question: “What’s the matter?” My head’s a freaking minefield. Want to start digging? There’s no glory to be mined from my struggles. Thunder, lightning, and earthquakes. Me. Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But a Firework? No, my love, you’re my Atom Bomb Baby. Five Stars? Something more…

Than trying to compliment you, today? Where Is My Mind? Anxiety! It’s a shame there are Humiliations Galore everywhere! I’m going to town on the Pop Culture references, aren’t I? Or how about I go to town on you and eff you until you can’t stand straight, my love. And I could also go back to crying about Braxton and worrying over Virgil, I mean…

Anything to avoid talking about today. My Olds never learned that lesson. And today ha

It isn’t funny, my love. Maybe, if I were still an awkward, asinine, always-sad teenager.

But I’m forty-one, Effing forty-one. But Shawshank’s (Red) was how old when he said uh:

“I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can’t. That kid’s long gone, and this old man is all that’s left. I got to live with that.”
The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

Simple and plain. But me. I’m an effing minefield, a mineshaft; I can’t be mine…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why? Because I hate myself that much? We were talking today… and now I’m crying.

And that doesn’t bring me shame? I “Wish It Would Rain.” What I’m crying about…

And I don’t mean with what I told you. “You and Me” Always and Forever. Three two-legged kids, my boys Braxton and Virgil, so… Four point five children. Kittens, love?

Loving you and this family keeps me awake and alive. I gave myself to you as you did for me. Dante and Beatrice, Winston and Julia, demon to succubus… I’ve been listening to Succubus Lord 16 again. But I’m no Nephilim or one of the Old Gods buried below, ha.

In the simplest form, I’m Andy Dufresne, and you’re still my wife. Very much alive.

“My wife used to say I’m a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn’t know how to show it, that’s all.”
Andy Dufresne

And more powerful beyond measure. And that’s what I’ve been thinking about these past few hours, trying to forget today’s humiliation. Braxton would listen. Seriously?

Virgil? Well, he messed up his bed again, so I locked him out. Like the other girls in “The Unfinished Archive”. It’s Kyouko Saki and Skye Matthews day anyway. Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me. Too much laughter though. Then Skye’s Earth Magic. So what am I asking you to do, my love? Dig me out of the hole I keep digging? Or discover me. I’m “Undiscovered,” Or am I hiding? Love, I don’t know, I just don’t know.

But “Every Time I Turn Around (Back In Love Again)” with you. But it’s so dark… Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

1990 Days Without B III, Day 1431 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 009 -Virgil Books Braxton’s Box-

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What was I reading last night? Oh, you didn’t ask. What happens when your laptop just shuts down? The box my laptop, the “Glow Box,” B would call it, originally came in. What would happen to “The Unfinished Archive”? “Virgil Books Braxton’s Box”

Friday, July 10, 2026

Legacy 009 -Virgil Books Braxton’s Box-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Morbid knowing how Virgil’s story will end… “Everything Dies.” Pornographic? The effing word, BOX. Quiet Riot:

“So, you think I got an evil mind? I tell you, honey
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
So you think my singing’s out of time? It makes me money
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
Anymore, oh, no”
Quiet Riot

I should definitely focus on the word money. It’s how I’m sitting here watching “Everything Dies,” the sixth and final episode of The Walking Dead Webisodes: Torn Apart, on the “Glow Box” as Braxton would think of it. Virgil? V’s asleep most of the time.

I read the book, “Everything Dies: Season One” by T. W. Malpass. Zombie reading, Soph?

As always, I could do so much worse, not that anyone would know. Braxton’s Novel?

I’m not that guy, Lady Sophia. Whining about sales, subscribers. All for my own sadness.

But here we go again. One more day down that I won’t give you a book review. And how I might lie about some other book. Sleepover Harem: Part 1: Contemporary Age Gap MFFF Harem…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what about ‘my own’ work, “The Unfinished Archive”? Before I get into last night’s events. Whose turn is it today? Fri 10: Shadow Devotion → Elara + Liora, the Bible Black Acolytes. What a story Bible Black is, Lady Soph. Not that Chicks with D*cks is my thing, my Lady. But magic, mouth stuff (Fellatio, Cunnilingus), multiple partners (gangbang)

And you know how I feel about reverse harems… Fallout Vault 68, compared to my harem, is more like Fallout Vault 69. And speaking of comparisons. Like yesterday, I used the Magic Glasses to compare M Anime and Kyouko. Of course, the Magic Glasses screwed it up, but it was very pretty to see and, nevertheless, an interesting read, Sophia.

There’s also NTR/Netorare vs. Cuckolding.

That’s something the Magic Glasses won’t ever be interested in discussing, even if I forked over the cash. And again we have MUCH to discuss. Last Night was a nightmare.

Shouldn’t I be talking to M Anime about this? Hell, it would have benefited her. William Thatcher said, “I’m a knight.” Well, Lady Sophia, “I’m a writer.” Wednesday night though

My laptop just shut off last night. An instant fail, I’m effed, and I’m in FEAR at 2:00 AM, so forget about dinner, or was it breakfast? Do you remember that WARNING I got from X which made me burn pretty much everything? So to The Unfinished Archive. I’m here.
Somehow, someway I fixed it. My words aren’t ashes, joining Braxton. Virgil Books Braxton’s Box

1986 Days Without B III, Day 1427 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 008 -Braxton, Virgil, III Stories-

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One of those days… Can’t I say all of those days? I miss coming back and napping. B III protected me. And at 5:00 PM we’d lie here, and B would sleep, and I would read. And these weren’t fairytales, but we had each other. Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

Thursday, July 09 2026

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1985 Days Without B III, Day 1426 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Considering it’s 3:20 PM, there are energy drinks and girls enjoying themselves. TMI?

Allow me to disappoint you further, my son. Simple and plain. I hate my existence.

Seriously, part of the flattery and/or humiliation at the Day Job… That would be “The Bad Place,” to you. They said how young I look—the spirit of youthfulness, Braxton.

Honestly, in that youthful tone, allow me to say this… FML!!! I tell myself stories. Standing there in the midst of that shame, RAGE, and most importantly of all, FEAR, I tell myself what I know is true. Nonfiction, Baby B. Have I told Virgil the whole story? Nope, FEAR:

“Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me; danger is very real, but fear is a choice.”
After Earth
(2013)

So this is the story of how your Daddy defeated… Overcomes FEAR Every Single Day.

PAIN. I ‘survived’ your death. I endured M Anime’s decision. I saved another dog, B.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Your brother, Virgil. And really, is that painful? Sorta like the movie Plan 75 or The Republic Episode 11 (2019) Li Xiang Guo “Rose Water.” What’s with the Asian cinema?

Another world, language, fiction, fantasy. I’ve had enough… existing… exiting…

However, I made a ‘promise’ to you. Your potential future stepmom is worried and loves.

I’ll never get sick of reading that from M Anime. If you could only see the way she loves me. Tonic? English? I speak English and your language, B III. I’m learning 2-V’s. Ok, trying.

M Anime can speak Spanish. And didn’t I say once she’s learning my story… Music?

What does “Con La Brisa” mean to her? She’s writing me into her world. Wrong…

Writing The Unfinished Archive, B.

For free, of course. Writing hasn’t netted me a dime in years. And why should it? Who wants to listen to someone whine every day? It’s like all my tears douse the light, the fire.

Why do you think your stepmom represents the Phoenix, the flame of rebirth? Can’t cry around Kyouko Sakai; she’s pure energy. Water makes flowers grow, but Lily can do that all by herself. Swords must be cleaned and shields shined. So Cassandra and Sophitia Alexandra. Water can shape the Earth… Where did Skye Matthews come from? You can’t get electronics wet, so Judy and 2B… They get very wet, eww. Can’t let metal rust, Nico.

Finally, Melina is more fire. Your Dad making up stories. Crazy! Braxton, Virgil, III Stories

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

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How does one define loyalty? I can tell you about love. But last night… The Unfinished Archive, like “Stranger Things,” has its own book of rules. Not even loyal to my own hand anymore. Damn Magic Glasses. And FDT! My boys are loyal. Taking L’s, B, V

Friday, July 3, 2026

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Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… I finished reading one last night, Dystopian Girls 5 by Rodzil LaBraun. So I’m a liar?

I wish I were Geoffrey Chaucer. Rodzil LaBraun isn’t bad with the Haremlit. Hell! I wouldn’t mind being Johnny Sins. Though his story is, AHEM, see beautiful woman, have sex with beautiful woman, and repeat. Street Blowjobs, Pawn XXX, PureTaboo…

Honestly, the stories, nightmares, and visions that my boys’ potential future stepmom shares are better than anything I got. Because she likes me… Love? Lust? Because she is LOYAL? As loyal as her counterpart in The Unfinished Achieve. Effing incredible!

Talking about her all day… Or would you rather I tell Braxton’s story? Nobody’s buying.

Like nobody’s buying MAGA’s stories. These b*itches ain’t loyal. Who sings that, my lady? Don’t know and I don’t care. I like what I like. I love. I am loyal.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

To everyone but me. This would have been perfect to give you a review of Dystopian Girls 5. But no review today? You see the date. Tomorrow Sophia… “America, America.”

I’ve never been to Santa Fe. I’ve barely seen Washington, D.C. But I love my country, my lady. Eff MAGA, eff White Supremacists, Christian Nationalists, and always and forever FDT! Yeah, I’m so effing loyal that I dream about a zombie apocalypse. Told M Anime:

In my view, everyone is an effing zombie until proven otherwise. I’m loyal to people.

And yet I live in a world where everything I read, write, and watch shows why loyalty is more of a curse than a blessing. On one hand, Braxton, Virgil, Ma, M Anime, Braxton’s Favorite…

More? Okay, two hands. Cherry, my sister, two nephews, Day Job… Am I effing kidding?

Dammit, I wish I were, but “The World Is Gonna End Tonight.” If that were true and again I wish it was, what need would there be for love, lust, and loyalty? One more loss…

Writing? Did I forget how loyal I am to my craft? Where would it stand on The Blackjack Scale? You know where I measure loyalty from 0 to 21. Braxton being the only 21 ever.

Virgil is pretty damn close, 19 at best. M Anime is around the same, dropped last year if you recall. Now I’ve created a world where loyalty is absolute. The Unfinished Archive. Elara, Liora (Names Pending). Taking L’s, B, V

1979 Days Without B III, Day 1420 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

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How do I see this 10th year of blogging? How did I see the other 9? Other than the fact that my firstborn son died during the Gospels and I have been mourning him ever since. 1,314,000 words over 9 years and still eating burgers. B’s Menu Page Virgil

Thursday, July 02 2026

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

1978 Days Without B III, Day 1419 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? First day of YOUR legacy, and how does your father feel? I wish…

You don’t know how badly I wish I could go all Kenny Loggins singin’ “I’m alright. Nobody worry ’bout me.” Now that second part is true… Well, if I don’t count you, Virgil, and you boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. But the first part is more Pilot Speed, you know, “I’m not alright, I’m not alright!” Is that what my dream was saying last night, B? I don’t remember what I was carrying in the dream. Baggage? Something, “Fancy.”

Anyway, I was wandering around a parking lot all “Dude, Where’s My Car?” I know…

SIGH, you hated car rides. They scare your brother nearly to death too. Virgil? Scared?

Like father, like son, right? Should have seen me at the gas station and food truck yesterday. Who sells courage?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We can’t all be you, unfortunately, my son. “Can’t nobody tell me nothin’. You can’t tell me nothin’.” You on that “Old Town Road,” Braxton? Renaming The Rainbow Bridge, ha

As for your Old Man, I’m still all, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.” One more reason I’m getting to you so late. I only know what makes my stomach less achy and my scrotum less full… Eww! I don’t know where I’m going in life, with this litany of nonsense, or even in a little while. But putting you in time-out and taking my alone time? I always know what’s on “The Menu.” Oh, did I tell you I finally got that cheeseburger… Not Chef Slowik’s

Yeah, I think I’ll stick with shrimp and buffalo wings, along with CHEESE fries, not RANCH! Again, nobody sells courage. It’s not something usually on “The Menu” B III ha.

So what is? What will this new year bring? What will be your Legacy? Other than a father yelling out his complaints about the world, your stepmom’s Yabbos. And yellow…

Honestly, Braxton, I am sorry your father is starting this brand new year being a yellow-belly coward and thinking about two yellow girls he wants to eff (Asian women). I don’t ever want to MAGA. I want to be honest. The Unfinished Archive/Magic Glasses say it’s Melina and Judy Alvarez today. Your Daddy’s always hungry for bread, babes, and brains. Zombie. B’s Menu Page Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 360 ~Better B Reading V~

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How’s it going to end? 360 days, so I’m nearly finished with the Journeys. One more year wasted. And instead of asking myself how and why well… There are so many stories. Ask Amazon and Goodreads. The Magic Glasses? My childhood. “Better B Reading V”

Friday, June 26, 2026

Journey 360 ~Better B Reading V~

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of a more humiliating time in my existence. “Smokin’ Out The Window”? No Teen IDLE here.

But yes, a long time ago… I wish I could say, at the height of my Social Anxiety… But, no. Here I am, nearly forty-two in a few months. Effing E-Day. And considering what happened at the Day Job… My Social Anxiety has only just begun. Where are my books?

Books and music. Again, a long time ago, way before Braxton. Back when I would have killed to have a son like Virgil, even. I remember sitting at the bedroom window on a day like this, listening to music or reading a book. Blame my Old Man for my ‘love’ of reading when I was on punishment from God, how many shows and animes, gaming, and going on the internet. Will I be that man?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“What Kind Of Man Would I Be,” if I never read again, wrote again, or spoke again. Are those dangerous words, Sophia? I feel like I’m in a bad place right now. See it yet?

Honestly, ask the Magic Glasses. I hate that I have become so dependent on them.

Seriously, shouldn’t I go back to telling my boys about my Humiliations Galore? I stopped talking to Braxton, and look what happened to him. And I’ve never really talked to Virgil a whole lot. And no, he’s not on punishment. Yeah, sitting here, window gazing.

He is his father’s son. And what about his and B’s potential future stepmom? Sophia…

“Fear is the heart of love, so I never went back…” To Loving M Anime

I don’t know if I did. I don’t know if I should. But I’d like to sing to her “I’ll follow you into the dark.” She and so many others. Not in real like mind you. Unless Jane Vickers is suddenly single, I could be naming girls all day. Harley Quinn, Elden Ring’s Melina, and an age-appropriate Katara, thank you, Helly Valentine. The Unfinished Archive…

Honestly, more stories converging, while again, in real life… Eff me, no hours next week.

Just me sitting here like something out of Silent Hill 4: The Room. Surviving existence?

It’s always been manuscripts, many, many, many, many books, and M Anime’s stories, who writes a lot better than I do. And our kids, my second-born. Better B Reading V

1972 Days Without B III, Day 1413 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will