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Legacy 135 -Virgil’s Weekly B-Plus Stories-

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What starts a great story? Maybe I should have done a book review over… Whatever this is. I spent the better part of the day reading about how I’m going to keep Virgil alive. Six years old. And how long on the Archive? Virgil’s Weekly B-Plus Stories.

Friday, November 13, 2026

Legacy 135 -Virgil’s Weekly B-Plus Stories-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… But a B+ is giving me too much credit. Only Virgil would like hearing them. Maybe…

It got him out of B III’s Room. He likes crapping in the hall. I like vomiting on the page. Like father, like son. Still, I long for the days when I wasn’t terrified of going downstairs and could sit at the dining room table, with B III sleeping away under my feet. His life.

The days when I would go to the library and type up novels, convinced I was building, or rather writing, a better life for my son and me. Hell, 2-V wasn’t even born. And M Anime was some far-off acquaintance. And now here I am, my lady, about to interrupt us because I’m too lazy to explain The Unfinished Archive during off hours. Really, hmm.

So, a summary. So basically:

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“A sigh escapes from heaven, and worlds end”
Lara Fabian

With a breath, a tear, and a flame, the world ended. Braxton Barks Bradford was gone. And his father longed to follow. The winds howled, the waters rose, and the fires wasted the old Earth away. And thus the new world was forged from a dog’s bark, his boy who had become a man’s prayer, and the birth of a brother. Braxton Barks, Will, Virgil Vivi. Always and Forever, a prophecy, a power that transcends everything, a promise that must never be broken. To say goodbye to a prince lost. An unfinished goodbye now and always. So, upon that veterinary table, came The Unfinished Archive.

The oldest of gods acquiesced to the father and son. Braxton was given new form, as was Will; Virgil found.

But man was not meant to live only amongst the beasts. And so the first three sisters knew faith. M Anime, Will, now the Sorcerer Will’s great love, the Phoenix Queen, summoned from within the fires that consumed Braxton, came to be, promising new life.

From the final bark, a woman arrived. The eternal traveler for the road could not end. The power, the pleasure, the pain, the phallic nature for Will is a man. And Kyouko Sakai, the perversion and the price of a new life. A part of The Phoenix Queen’s sacred promise.

Not only to forge new life. But to never forget those in death. Thus Lily, the third sister, the eternal tear. I swear this story, Sophia. Virgil’s Weekly B-Plus Stories

2112 Days Without B III, Day 1553 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 133 -Braxton, Virgil, Books Rule!-

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So I see it’s Wednesday and Veterans Day too. Should’ve found some military erotica to read while I sat at that dealership as the mechanic said $1,100, then $999, finally $796.60. But I thought about my embarrassing novel. Braxton, Virgil, Books Rule

Wednesday, November 11, 2026

Legacy 133 -Braxton, Virgil, Books Rule!-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… No military erotica for Veterans Day? I’m no soldier, writer, or much of a reader either. Resetting Kindle.

But my biggest sin this week is being $800 in the hole. $796.60, completely honest.

Inspector, what did I do yesterday… More books, more boobs, aka yabbos and less bucks.

And yes, this is more of a Lady Sophia situation, but what’s more embarrassing than not having a dollar to your name? Killing your dog… I spent how much putting Braxton in a box because I was indifferent. But he, Virgil, and their potential future stepmom will tell you. If I desire, if I dedicate my dollars, if I show any discipline, it’s to writing.

Inspector, four hundred words per day, every day, and I haven’t missed a day in over a decade. And now I have to waste your time with Unfinished Archive business.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Rules I made up, and I still don’t follow them, or do I? Braxton’s Rules, 50/30/20, the 52-week money challenge to save $1,378. And yesterday I brought up 3+4+3+4+3+4? Why?

“Order Is Heaven’s First Law”
― An Essay on Man

Okay, the Unfinished Archive weekly schedule is like this, Echo: the start of each week

Sunday: The Phoenix Renewal. A day that belongs to the Phoenix Queen of the Harem, aka M Anime. And a day of “Resurrection, Redemption, Resolution” (Destroyed by Pepper Winters) to any and all prisoners confined within The Unfinished Archive’s walls

Monday – Friday: The Main Harem and Potential Sisters. As of Wednesday, November 11, 2026, the Main Harem consists of eleven sisters. And two potential sisters.

Monday: three sisters
Tuesday: four sisters
Wednesday: three sisters
Thursday: four sisters
Friday: three sisters

Saturdays: Reserved for Acolytes of the Black Bible Sisterhood. Two Acolytes of the Sisterhood, a trainer from the main Harem. And a Potential who is promoted to the main harem. If no sister is promoted, the Phoenix Queen takes her place beside the Sorcerer Will

The Main Harem is allowed to make unique pairings, but following in the spirit of “Saimin Seishidou” Hypnosis Sex Guidance, any and all familial bonds must stand, which include these:

Mother-Daughter
The Alexandra Sisters
Creator and Creation: Judy and 2-B

And how I’ll figure this all out is the story I keep telling myself. Sorry, it’s been running laps in my head all day. Something better be running besides my car. $800 for what, hmm?

Texting, Braxton, Virgil, Books Rule!

2110 Days Without B III, Day 1551 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 128 -Virgil, Endings Will B-

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SPOILER ALERT: Chris went to jail in “Get Out.” Mike Enslin died in room “1408. Dr. Robert Neville didn’t make his heroic sacrifice in “I Am Legend.” What did I want him to die? I wanted to see Anna’s yabbos. Endings sometimes… Virgil, Endings Will B

Friday, November 6, 2026

Legacy 128 -Virgil, Endings Will B-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of my first erotica? “The critics, the cynics. And all my heroes in the Methadone clinics…”

Well, they might not count “Fifty Shades of Grey”. But it is what it is… Have I told you how much I hate sayings like that? It’s the same way I sorta despise “alternative endings.”

Like alternative facts. I’m not fucking MAGA, Sophia. Jan 6th isn’t the 5th of November:

“Remember, remember! The fifth of November,
The Gunpowder treason and plot;
I know of no reason
Why the Gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot!”
―

I could also tell you about being accused somewhat of “stalking” a girl. Day Job…

Honestly, I’d rather not. But telling you the ending of my Little B isn’t any better. Looking into his eyes, holding his little head, and the silent barks I remember… “I’m sorry I failed you.” “Dad, this isn’t the way home.” “Why can’t I stay?” Great, I’m crying. Today’s humiliation…

Easily forgotten when I remember the end of Braxton’s story.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies… That’s my problem, Lady Sophia. 2-V has four paws. Braxton has none, unless you count him running across the Rainbow Bridge.

But boobies/yabbos are plentiful. If we’re counting from 12:00 AM… Ok let’s see here, hmm:

1: Stormi Maya
2: Daenerys
3: Missandei
4. Sisters of Battle
5: Carlie Jo Howell

Does it count that at least three of these I wasn’t specifically looking to see their yabbos, though I have at one time or another? Also, lots of people hated the Game of Thrones ending.

That gets us back on point, doesn’t it? For example, I hated the ending of Resident Evil (2026) for sure. Seeing myself… monstrous. M was telling me about belittling myself

Ah, M Anime. A love story? HEA? I’ve told her on more than one occasion that I wish “life” was like a porno. Paying some chick to get fucked in a hotel room or some random place like Street Blowjobs? Hell, when’s the last time I sat and “watched” porno?

Seriously, between splicing videos for M Anime and the things the Magic Glasses/MIMA can do. And I still worried about that? Between looking at Virgil’s paws and knowing I’m failing him. But his loyalty… Speaking of loyalty, fun fact: the food truck gave me three free shrimp. How much of that money should’ve gone to my boy? Food and Erotica.

Sophia, my latest book, another Harem. HEA. But not real life. Virgil, Endings Will B.

2105 Days Without B III, Day 1546 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

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“Will you be proud of what you’ve done in this life? Because if you ain’t, you better start getting square.” No, I ain’t proud. I played the village idiot. Existence is like a test I never studied for. Yet bringing new life. Someday. “Got Your B, V.”

Wednesday, November 4, 2026

Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… How do I define sin? How do I define good? How do I define gone? How about rest?

And I dare to call myself a writer. No doubt I’m a whiner, hmm. Have I forgotten the Backrooms already? Like I forgot prison and my favorite cheerleader. Always waiting.

That’s why I won’t call myself a retail “Associate” either. That was part of my humiliation

I’m standing there at the Day Job, waiting as the village idiot does for my instructions, Inspector. Instructions would mean an instructor. And if I’d listened years ago, Inspector.

Well, I wouldn’t be sitting here in the middle of the bed, having failed to educate my second-born son. I wouldn’t have failed the first. I wouldn’t be lusting after some PYT half my age. How about trying to turn my boys’ future potential stepmom into Lollipop Chainsaw’s Juliet Starling?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“And if you don’t expect too much from me
You might not be let down”

Now I don’t count that as a failure. How I ever won M Anime is a fucking miracle, Inspector Echo. That takes a genius intellect. Wait a damn minute, is that gratitude I feel, hmm? I could talk about M Anime herself, but that would involve me being a meanie.

Embarrassing enough that a forty-two-year-old man is using the word meanie. I’m still a Dad. A dad who is being mean to his son because Virgil didn’t want to go out in the rain and instead used the hallway as a bathroom. I didn’t teach him to use training pads.

Anyway speaking of instructing and saying mean things. Like a girl dressing up as a San Romero Knights’ cheerleader and riding a dildo. Mean enough

No that’s a solid A+ life. But everything else dear Echo. How do I get to sleep on time as it won’t be tonight? How do I become successful at this? The Unfinished Archive. Please!

To cook, to clean, to collect a decent paycheck every week. Oh I know how to cum which is yet another reason we are here so late. Because I haven’t… No Nut November, ah yes

Didn’t I fail day one? And what was the quality of that? What was the reason? I have no clue. Why am I still whining about it? Why can’t I stop whining? Full stop, Inspector.

If I approached everything like how I won M Anime? Or my Ma making me study. Got Your B, V

2103 Days Without B III, Day 1544 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 121 -B In Character Virgil-

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What a character. No, I’m not talking about Ryan from “Ryan and his Beauties 3”. How many women are in the Unfinished Archive? Considering writing all night. I’d still be reading if I had the cash. A starving artist. “B In Character Virgil”

Friday, October 30, 2026

Legacy 121 -B In Character Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Honey, why you callin’ me so late? What? Lots of songs are stories. The “Backrooms”. Really?

Well, most of my stories come off as ranting, complaining, and yes, whining? Yes, Sophia.

I can’t get Renate Reinsve aka “Mary’s” words out of my mind. Or would you rather I tell you a story of my “Lost Boy”? Make something up as to why Virgil comes rushing in.

B III’s ghost? Tis the season. Speaking of which, Halloween Erotica? No, not this year.

Sophia, it would affect my character. And now I can hear the wails of grown-ass men saying everything from: “Show your character!” to “Stay in character!” The Backrooms again, my lady. Well, Renate Reinsve, naked anyway. If I’m not a pervert, I’m a Lazy Ass

I whine and call myself a writer. I wank and wonder which woman this week.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s pretty obvious now, ain’t it? The Unfinished Archive. Unless you’re wondering why I’m so late this evening. The Magic Glasses/MIMA. Until I’m willing to fork over the cash, the story is at a standstill until around 6:00 tomorrow evening. The AI, I swear, Soph

Come this time next week, I may still be me, but my country may change. Anytime I want to whine about how horrible a man I am, I need only look at MAGA. Braxton, remember?

Hell, they have dog killers on their side of the line. And at least B died in love, my lady.

I was speaking with his and Virgil’s potential future stepmom the other day about how men want to die. Warriors, wordsmiths, Tyrion’s views on women:

“In my own bed, at the age of 80, with a belly full of wine and a girl’s mouth around my cock.”
Game of Thrones

I’ve never read the book and only seen two seasons of the show, but what I’ve been “writing…” Nope! What the Magic Glasses/MIMA has been writing. A professor having “relations” with a student and then her mother as the father is Cuckold New or special?

Hell No! Nightmare At The Meat Market is all about a man watching the woman of his dreams get groped, gang-banged, and, as they said, “graped” by men. He even helps organize it. M Anime can write the same, a million times better than me. But that’s only half of “my story.” As I sing, my life is a movie: fur buddies and boobies. Honestly.

Characters of vigilance, virtue, and valor. Not me or my son. B In Character Virgil

2098 Days Without B III, Day 1539 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

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Ask V about me drunk… “This one time my Dad drank a lot and spun me around to King of Wishful Thinking and Days Go By”. B’s Fav Girl has seen me drunk. I wish I could afford to have a drinking problem so I wouldn’t whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil.

Wednesday, October 28, 2026

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Is whining a sin? No more so than staying up until 10:30 PM for this… Lying on Kindle.

Being a pop culture whore… (Takes a sip of Bloom) It’s just the way I’m wired, isn’t it, Inspector? Isn’t it? Two things. One, a small introduction into the “Backrooms”. Two, I’m thinking about Bloom from the Winx Club, naked. I was always more of a Flora man, honestly. And trust me, Inspector, I can think of so much worse. “Lollipop Asia.” I’m not whining…

Mary: “You want to know the real reason your wife left you? It wasn’t the drinking! Or the stumbling home at all hours or the rage! It was the whining! Nothing’s ever your fault is it? You drink too much? Blame your job. You hate your job? Blame the world. You get kicked out of the house? Blame your wife. You attack me and tie me up? Blame your brain- you are your fucking brain, you dipshit!”

Clark: “You’re saying it’s my fault?”

Mary: “Yes. But it’s just the way you’re wired, isn’t it? Isn’t it?”
Backrooms (2006), Kane Parsons

This is what I’ve been thinking about since I watched the Backrooms. This one scene.

Inspector, it explains why my Braxton left. See, I did it again. And you know something, “I don’t think I want to change.” No, let me remain a “Man of Constant Sorrow.” Better my tears for my “Lost Boy,” Because “Oh yes, there will be blood.” Again, Pop Culture Whore.

Better blood than… Eww! We’ll get to that. And why say Eww? It’s a function of the male anatomy. And I won’t take the fall for a woman failing to cum. Selfish lover… Me? Never.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do I have to whine about today? The humiliation at the Day Job that I couldn’t put a Christmas sock display up? The Visual Lady had to help me. I am the “village idiot” once again. King Kong and Captain Clark got nothing on “Smiling Faces Sometimes,” hmm.

I wasted another $40 bucks today on Bloom and chicken. And today’s payday, my Inspector.

So there’s more money to cry about, and I’m no billionaire. The money disappears. Fuck!

Then there’s M Anime. (Drools).

“So This Is Love”. Not yet. But I like the fuck out of her. I lust the fuck for her…

Sigh, I can’t whine about her not knowing me. She knows I’m no Prince Charming.

However, does she know everything? I’m sure I’d be “Beggin” for her to come back.

Inspector, remember the third worst day of my existence? Not my fault. Yeah, keep telling yourself that, “Clark.” What, I do want a therapist that’s good in bed. And now I’m thinking about Mary naked. Rule 34 Inspector, fucking Rule 34. But M Anime, right.

Today she asks me, “Do you think of me only as Pussy?” “Strawberry Wine” at her age, Inspector. A drink? I’m sober; that’s why I whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil

2096 Days Without B III, Day 1537 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 114 -Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions-

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FYI, I do own a cookbook. Special K got it for me along with a Crock-Pot. What pray tell, do I fill that Crock-Pot with for $35? I’m going to need a ton of Bloom. Speaking of blooming, how many women are there? Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions.

Friday, October 23, 2026

Legacy 114 -Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… And not about Braxton, my pancake? Or a scoop of Virgil. Vanilla? Cookies n’ Cream? Possibly.

I’m a monster, but nowhere near the likes of Mango Mussolini. Eating the dogs, indeed!

I’m not that hungry. But I got $35 and five days. The grocery bill will be quite the short read, my lady. Like how to feed Virgil his birthday pie from Tuesday. Glad he approves.

What kind of pie were you thinking of? The kind that required me to have “The Talk” with Braxton about going all doggy style when his Favorite Girl came over for movie nights. Virgil won’t have that problem. Six years, Lady Sophia, that’s one year too late for when I found him. I wonder if he’d have more balls? Seriously, did I just say that?

Anyway, my boy likes his pie. Like father, like son.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Because you know if I’m hanging out in Braxton’s Room, watching Virgil eating from his pillow… I need to get him a new bed. Again, I got $35, but what about my “discretionary spending?” You gotta put “One Foot In Front Of The Other.” And I’m not a selfish prick…

Speaking of pricks, what was I doing again? Oh yeah, I was organizing yabbos. Oh, Exhibit A? I think even Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would be surprised by my comparisons in relation to hers. And for the record, hers are perfect. And she’s the only woman, besides my Ma and Braxton’s Favorite Girl, who’s offered to cook for me. Uh… That requires money. Today’s settled. “Odds are, he won’t live to see tomorrow”

Or so I tell the “Man in the Mirror.” No, I’m not a “Secret Agent Man”; I’m a dog dad.

Lady Sophia, as long as Virgil needs me… I still remember when Braxton’s Favorite Girl baked B III a cake and thought I was so STUPID I would put the whole thing in. Brain Trust.

I can’t blame her. I can’t blame anyone either. The Day Job or the Bad Place, my boys would bark. Look up the definition of “Village Idiot”. There’s me with a box of whatever, my lady. “That’s me in the corner. That’s me in the spotlight. Losin’ my religion.” What?

His name was Braxton; it was a book I forgot, another boy, a son to teach. Braxton, Virgil, Pie Instructions.

2091 Days Without B III, Day 1532 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

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B and V know my Day Job as the “Bad Place.” And how much did I make at the Bad Place? Well, V has a fresh bag of food and eight slices of b-day pie left. Let him eat cake or pie, while my paycheck and “life” look like Bingo winnings. “B For Bingo, V”

Wednesday, October 21, 2026

Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… As much as I want my now six-year-old Virgil to live, I know what I want, Inspector Echo.

I wish I were as “innocent” as Art Baker in “The Long Walk.” I want to go home. Nope!

For a week, since I started fantasizing about Jahara Jayde… Really? But she’s not the point, Inspector. No, when I close my eyes, I know what I’ve been wishing for. What I’ve been wanking so as to avoid thinking about it. And who would I pray to if I would dare?

I can’t write it down. But I never told Braxton he was going home. I’ll always remember the look on his face that Sunday so many years ago when the veterinarian told me the truth.

Braxton looked at me like, “We’re going home, Dad…” The thought of if I had brought him back with me.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And now I look at his brother: my second-born son, Virgil Vivi. I gave him his birthday treat and then, in the evening, two “slices” of his birthday pie. Virgil thought he won the lotto.

On another note, I need to check my books… I won’t be eating as good as V; I know that.

But anyway, I was feeding him, and while we didn’t have that movie night yesterday, I was reminded of the old man in the 1993 film “Groundhog Day”. And didn’t I say I once thought that Virgil was a reincarnation of Braxton? And it’s like I can save my son?

Inspector, with the way things are going… I did check the books. Groceries? $44.27? Eff!

Let him eat cake, right?

Virgil, that is. What about me? Bingo! No V in Bingo. And no me either. It comes back to Braxton. Always to Braxton. He and Virgil fight for their lives. Braxton’s book is still out.

But I was at the Day Job today. What made me wish I was back in bed? Add another D and A. The B isn’t needed, hmm. Please! If I weren’t crying over B or wanking over M. Did I say that? My boys Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime. Trying to catch up with her

Honestly, so are the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Other humiliations? Couldn’t help customers find a tie. Moving things with my bosses. Musical selections. Becoming the village idiot.

Bingo! Lotto? Some chick’s legs? Losing? B For Bingo, V

2089 Days Without B III, Day 1530 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 107 -Plan V, Be Truthful-

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I planned on sleeping. What time is it? Why am I so hard? It wasn’t that Teachers erotica I finished. And “Dystopian Girls 7”? What about my girl and the plan for my boys? If I don’t make plans, I can’t fail them. Or dream… “Plan V, Be Truthful”

Friday, October 16, 2026

Legacy 107 -Plan V, Be Truthful-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… About plans A through U? Of course (rolls eyes). Plan A is for Afraid. Don’t be!

If I’m being honest, Lady Sophia… And because comedy comes in threes, I’m annoyed; I’m worried about Archie, or rather, my Virgil. And AI isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, hmm.

The Magic Glasses/MIMA. I was working on something this morning, and let’s say the Magic Glasses/MIMA miscalculated, misjudged, and got it wrong. And who’s teaching who, my lady? Or rather, as AC/DC put it, “Who Made Who? Mad, mistaken, a monster, when it comes to things like the manuscript I’m reading or the one I’m writing. Lying ha!

Only in bed. Because short of talking to my boys, Potential Future Stepmom, or taking care of said boy, Virgil, today has been a joke. But allow me to do something “productive…” A Book Review:

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Teachers Lie On Their Backs:
Or at least I did when I was reading this, which is somewhat disappointing while reading Sean Dalton’s “Teachers: A Single Dad Harem Romance.” Usually I’m on my stomach, or one hand is busy as I try to read something like this. In bed, yes, but holding this book with two hands. Not saying it’s bad, just sort of blah. The encounters with the staff and the moms were ok but nothing special. By any means. It was more David and his ex-wife going at each other that did anything. This book was rather tame; my girl sends wilder things in a text. I’d recommend this to her or anybody that wants to write wilder.

Teachers? A softcore Erotica lesson.

Do I have any other plans for the night? Being asleep? I wish. Being a criminal? “If Your Girl Only Knew…” Jahara Jayde, Jewel Staite, or just some Asian mother and daughter that makes me drool. While awake? As, again, it’s going to be one long night for sure, ha!

No cookbook, but I have to make dinner. I’ve already been burning through cash. As I try to do the books. Oh, and I am reading Dystopian Girls 7, which I lied about reading, hmm.

Is there a worse lie? Omissions, maybe, which is another thing I’ve been thinking about.

While it isn’t love yet, truth, loyalty, and plans for the future are important to me. But I’ve failed, fibbed, fallen… Plan V, Be Truthful

2084 Days Without B III, Day 1525 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Will

Legacy 105 -Braxton, Virgil, F Forgetting-

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Priorities, Accountability, hell, do I even remember my manhood? My girlfriend started a new job. A pup is looking at me because he has business outside. So I’m lying here trying to remember a time I wanted to be alive. Braxton, Virgil, F Forgetting

Wednesday, October 14, 2026

Legacy 105 -Braxton, Virgil, F Forgetting-

BLESS ME, Echo,
For I have sinned… Forgetful much? Fuck Columbus! Indigenous People’s Day was the 12th. Virgil’s Birthday is the 20th. And Jahara Jayde…

For the record, I’m not counting a “wet dream” as Day One, hm. But what about my girl, M Anime? I texted her this morning, but I didn’t say “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die”.

One of these days, I need to remember to see that movie. Like wrestling, last night. “Dead City”. And how many things do I want to see? With what money? Yet another bill came in the other day, and then there’s the Day Job stuff. Adulting is the worst, Inspector.

Every day I wake up, and, except today, when I thought, “Wow, I came on her face. That was awesome,” Eww! Nine times out of ten, I think, why couldn’t I shuffle off this mortal coil, so to speak. Forgetful?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I’m a man without conviction
I’m a man who doesn’t know
How to sell a contradiction
Karma Chameleon, Culture Club

Karma Chameleon was right. When was the day I talked about not forgetting anything E

E as in elephants. Today’s question is this: How do I decide what to remember? I’ve been getting a bad vibe from Virgil lately. Is it because he’s getting old? My six-year-old little man. Five of those years he’s spent with me. B III had a harder road. Fifteen years.

Inspector, I don’t know what it was. A thought of Rabies? Rancid breath. Really, really, REALLY having no money. But like MAGA, I drift from one fuck up to the next. What was it, near the end of September to early October, the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Then it was the Day Job. And now my little boy. And like my woman

SIGH! Three little words escape me. I’m more inclined to say JSS “Just Survive Somehow”

Am I doing that myself? If anything, this sure is Hell ain’t living, Inspector. Honestly.

I’ve forgotten words like “Love and Happiness.” Relax, Rest, fucking Respect… I did mention the Magic Glasses/MIMA, right? I swear, RAGE, HORNINESS, and FEAR, Echo.

But no, I’m not one of these MAGA Incels. FDT and all of MAGA. But my boys are better men, Inspector. I said last week they give no F’s. Food, Forty Winks, and finding their father. Which is one more reason I’ve been worried about Virgil getting all cuddly, Echo.

I keep seeing that scene from I Am Legend. What does he remember? Have I forgotten? Braxton, Virgil, F Forgetting

2082 Days Without B III, Day 1523 of Virgil’s Arrival

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