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Legacy 044 -Virgil’s Gotcha Day… B+-

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Friday, August 14, 2026

Legacy 044 -Virgil’s Gotcha Day… B+-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… A true one because I’m not orange fuckin’ dick in The White House. FDT! But really?

B Plus? IT WAS TUESDAY! I was telling Dear Future Wife in Legacy 042 “B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil” about everything I have coming up. And I fucking forgot one thing.

Saturday, August 13, 2022: Virgil Vivi Bradford aka 2-V’s Gotcha Day. Writing saves, doesn’t it, Sophia? But of course, yesterday was a bad day all around. Karen left a note.

Fucking Hell! I still don’t know if that was about me. I didn’t even share the details with Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. However, let’s recap Virgil’s origin story.

Virgil was born October 20, 2020. I found him in the same place Braxton died, PetSmart/Banfield Pet Hospital. His name was formerly “Archie”. Three black spots, Braxton’s tan fur around his eyes. Used training pads.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Not much of a story, huh? Am I being a meanie? It’s more like I have no time, and that’s exactly why I give yesterday an F. Because like Virgil’s brother, Braxton, the Day Job, or rather “The Bad Place,” as my boys think of it, makes me forget everything. An Oubliette like in the 1995 film “First Knight”. I remember nothing but “the horror, the horror.” You have to forgive me. I’ve been watching a lot of movie/story recaps. As I said, no time.

Except for The Unfinished Archive… M Anime, much like Braxton, is fire. Fire is life…

What about water? It makes things grow. Like my Lily, my eternal grief. Braxton’s Death.

And Kyouko Sakai. Sex Taxi 5\Kojin Taxi 2. Never-ending Ride\Drive.

I swear there are so many stories. And you know why that is? I’m avoiding reality. Books can be scary. But FUCK MAGA, I continue reading. Only Markwayne Mullin confessed:

“I don’t want reality!” This brings me back to Thursday. Did I make up a story, or is it real?

I listened to music during Truck Unload. I’ve grown “comfortable.” I go to the office only to hear a Sephora worker say the word “Disgusting!” And not even at me as she tapes a note to the GM’s door. And that’s where I’ve been—that one single moment, Lady Sophia.

Not celebrating my Virgil or even lazy enough just to write I wanted the “Saimin Seishidou” characters in the harem. F-! Virgil’s Gotcha Day… B+

2021 Days Without B III, Day 1462 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And I don’t just mean a bill being late… Almost. I forgot to get rich sometime this year.

If you have love, you’re rich… For 15 years, I had B. And my job was to keep him alive.

“It is my job to keep you alive. I will not succeed.”
― Avatar (2009)

In 2021, I failed. Hell, for one of those years, I didn’t even have the Day Job. And so today.

Well, rather yesterday, I found out that I will have had that Day Job for 15 years. Friday, August 21, 2026 to be exact. Which means if SOMETHING goes down, it’ll be on the 18th.

Not that I want a party or anything. However, I could use some cupcakes, Inspector.

Nobody got me a damn thing when Braxton’s book was published on August 8, 2025.

One more whole year for a great many things: B’s Death Day and Birthday, his book, the Day Job… E-Day.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Fuck me, Inspector! No, this isn’t The Unfinished Archive, and we will surely get there.

Hell! Around this time last year, M Anime and I were getting ready to break up. And Virgil’s Birthday is the month after E-Day. October 20th. But as I was being reminded of the 15 years I wasted on a job that would eventually help kill my firstborn son… E-Day.

Emergence Day as Gears Of War would call it. The monster I am beginning existence!

Emergence, Existence, Extinction… How I pray for that, and yet, “Every Morning,” when I wake up… That’s it, Inspector Echo, I wake up with nothing to look forward to

But to lose. And that’s what I’m thinking about. I lost E-Day. Well FUCKING Duh!

Less than thirty days until E-Day and I can’t buy my usual cake. Definitely can’t buy dinner. I won’t be getting paid because I used 36 hours of PTO, 12 this week, last, the one before. And I’m waiting for this paycheck like a lotto ticket for Pizza, the food truck?

Then there’s Virgil. What is my secondborn going to do? Watch me sing “King of Wishful Thinking,” as I get drunk off my ass again. Not like I can get drunk off anything this year.

Beauty? That’s an awful lot of pressure to put on my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom.

Inspector, I do call M Anime “My Goddess”. Not like The Exies… This year anyway.

Inspector, will The Unfinished Archive celebrate? B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil

2019 Days Without B III, Day 1460 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 037 -B In Translation, Virgil-

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Friday, August 7, 2026

Legacy 037 -B In Translation, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… In what language? Braxton? “Aniara” is Swedish. M Anime (Braxton bless her) is teaching me Spanish.

But let us begin with my boys, Braxton and Virgil. I swear I could read Braxton like a book. He spoke a language of love, loyalty, and let them come. Thou Art Courageous, I said. Yeah, I speak the language of pop culture, but we’ll get to that. Damn entertainment!

Now Virgil speaks the language of FEAR and of having a failing father—Braxton’s proof.

But there’s also the fact that Virgil doesn’t have any vet paperwork. Bathing appointments. He could use a new everything. There’s nothing—effing failing fatherhood.

Yeah, the father who’s much too busy lying about the books he’s reading. Or I’m letting the Magic Glasses/Mima write erotica about Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima in The Unfinished Archive. Mother-daughter incest, Breeding, Taboo

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Interesting… Like effing MAGA and so everybody hears me… FDT! He said groceries is quite a word. B III help me, I’m beginning to believe him because I’m broke, Sophia.

Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom and I were talking about our childhoods the other day. And it turns out we both tried to starve ourselves at some point. Memories.

I still remember my first ‘meal’ when I broke. A few swigs of grape soda and three peanut butter Girl Scout cookies. Best meal I ever had. I’m sure I wrote all this down someplace.

Currently, though, I’ve been looking for things to add to my grocery list, Lady Sophia.

I’ve been jonesing for ice cream. Even one of those cheap ice pops. A steak

Effing E-Day! Do I have enough to celebrate…? That’s the way wrong word, my lady.

One of the ladies at the Day Job whose birthday is close to E-Day keeps bringing it up to me. I don’t want to see another E-Day. I’ve been saying that for going on forty-two years, give or take seven. That’s the last celebration I remember. Well, there was that time my Ma wrote me all those notes. Or when she took me to this ‘fancy’ restaurant. I hate E-Day!

Can I write that clearer? I wrote Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles once, and my Grandmommy got me the second movie instead of the arcade game I wanted. Ninjas? Asian? Teen Regime, The Virgin Psychics, Sweet Combat… B In Translation, Virgil.

2014 Days Without B III, Day 1455 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

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Running around today doing… Nothing. Like a junkie, I find the money. Haircut, food for my boy and me, books, and more boobs\yabbos. Why? My girl has the perfect set unless @SeeJaneGoTV… Speaking of TV, “Teen Regime,” and FDT! Braxton, Virgil. I RAN.

Wednesday, August 5, 2026

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Using the IRAN title to… possibly get more views? Sure. But I can do so much worse, Inspector.

“And the bass keeps runnin’, runnin’, and runnin’, runnin’” That’s the Black Eyed Peas and not me saying “Let’s Get It Started.” About effing time! I got a haircut today…

Honestly, I didn’t feel like getting humiliated at the Day Job. That has nothing to do with my hair… a lot. And why should I care what they think? Next to me, they killed Braxton.

Oh, had to get dark all of a sudden. You should have heard me and my boys’ potential future stepmom last night. This morning was more fun with her, but we’ll get to that, Echo.

Today you know what got me up this morning… Besides M Anime’s Yabbos? I swear!

What if I treated everything like when Braxton was dying?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I didn’t sleep! And today I was walking Virgil and saw, like, this yellow lump on his tail. He needs a bath. He could have Cancer. I don’t know. How do I deal, Inspector?

Under no circumstances am I blaming M Anime. I’m only pointing something out. She and I were talking Spanish (Te Quiero, Papi), she says. Anyway, we’ve also been talking about funerals and pop culture. So I told her about this show that I don’t believe I can stream again, but YouTube did the synopsis for it. And so for three days I’ve been diving into Asian series and cinema, and I finally found it. It was simply “Teen Regime” (2022).

So I remember the Yabbos from Saimin Seishidou and M’s

Definitely M Anime’s. Reasons I’m not dead… I will not dishonor Braxton; I have his little brother to be a father to, and I need to hear M Anime moaning “Papi.” Plus, I would never leave her to be a single mother. A MAN PROVIDES. He doesn’t cut\cum and run.

So why am I so effing exhausted, Inspector? It ain’t battle. And providing… That’s funny.

Again, I’m the guy who can’t afford new Kindle books, and yet I have to keep Virgil and myself alive, pay for a haircut I can’t afford, and, when I got back, contemplated getting “The Last of Us” for ‘my’ PS4. And I still blame MAGA. I was doing fine until the second term. FDT! Myself? Braxton, Virgil. I RAN

2012 Days Without B III, Day 1453 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

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Simply put, sometimes you’ll read crap you don’t like. But I ain’t MAGA. Braxton’s papers are on the coffee table. His “Final Form,” yes and no, is on the nightstand. But what’s ticking me off? The clock and insurance forms… “As B Reads, Virgil”

Friday, July 31, 2026

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Or how about a book review? It’s called “Clock”. I read it every day. IT STINKS!

No, I’m not The Critic’s Jay Sherman. And am I ashamed I looked up “Does Jay Sherman have sex with Alice Tompkins?” More like Alice Tompkins naked… semantics, my lady.

But there are worse things to read… An alarm clock. There’s plenty of reading material.

Of course I read every day. A regular like in “The Book of Eli”. And while I’ll sing a variation of “Old Town Road… “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies. That buddy

My B III is dead. At least I don’t burst into tears whenever I read his name on the grave.

Speaking of graves, Life Insurance. I’ll be reading some papers later on. Eff people Sophia

The Food Truck doesn’t give receipts, but my effing bank account is another sad read.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But at least they don’t lie. Insurance people don’t lie? “This Is America” And myself?

Retail therapy, they call it. After talking to the effing insurance lady, I’ll need chicken.

You are what you eat, right? So should I go to McDonald’s since I’m a liar like the leader of MAGA? FDT! Plus, I’m wasting some poor person’s money… Mine. I missed Kindle’s Double Points again! But yesterday, since I’m already lying about the “Forward” series, I bought “Emergency Skin” by N. K. Jemisin. I always appreciate reading black writers.

Being one myself… (rolls eyes). But I also stick with the “classics,” “Harem Lab – Part Two” by Kelly Notte. Futuristic, Sci-Fi, Flesh… I’ve been on a kick since “Aniara”

And that’s what The Unfinished Archive is, my Aniara. This place, palace, planet… My ancient obsidian temple, guided only by my BBC… uh, my penis. I hear you, Soph. Eww!

It’s not all gratuitous sex… I’m always trying to find my boys a stepmom. Braxton, Virgil, and my “girlfriend” M Anime. What the eff do I need life insurance for? B’s dead; the Ferryman will get Virgil long before me, dammit. And I got nothing to offer M, my lady.

My “Mima,” again from Aniara, has three channels. Braxton, Virgil, and tons of porn, ha!

Today I was imagining Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima joining the Harem. Sousuke Miyajima (father), and Kiichiro Miyajima (grandfather) for reference. Magic Glasses added Hana “Kairi”. As B Reads, Virgil

2007 Days Without B III, Day 1448 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

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What can I do in a month that I haven’t been able to do in how many years? I don’t remember when I met B, but then Sunday, January 31, 2021. M Anime? Sunday, August 24, 2025 was bad. Saturday, January 24, 2026? How about today? Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I feel like one of those MAGA cracker hats that accidentally told the truth. What makes me different?

“What we’ve done, we’ve done.
We evade it by moving forward with a code to never do it again.
To make up for it.
To still accept what we were.
To accept everyone.
To protect everyone.
And in doing that, protect yourself.
To create peace.”

That’s how Morgan and Eastman put it. I want to make up for everything, Inspector.

However, Braxton’s still dead. And I’m screwing up Virgil’s life every other day for sure.

Who craps their bed every few days? He’s so scared to leave it. Eff Inspector, I have to push it right up against the bowls. I went from a son who would struggle to those bowls so he could prove he was still alive, to a son who would literally starve to death, Dear E.

It’s like something out of that movie Obsession. May I never be as afraid as Virgil is. But obsessed. Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom used the word “Enamored” to describe her feelings for me. We’ll get to that. Virgil…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And myself. I keep making all of these appointments, or not about well everything E.

Today, the biggest is asking the Magic Glasses, AHEM, “How can I make a profitable Substack in thirty days?” Oh, and I always say please and thank you. Seriously, Inspector.

Next would be getting Virgil a pet appointment. B III never missed his, you know.

Honestly, I still need to get an appointment for my actual glasses. Eff the Magic Glasses, Inspector. And the STUPID thing is, I actually have the money to pay for some new ones; I’m just what… Destroyed with Braxton’s “novel” not selling. The Unfinished Archive…

Finally, there’s my recreation, The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. Maybe M Anime is rubbing off on me. Her hospital horrors

But ain’t I a man? Hers? Got To Be Real”? I told her as much today when she hit me with one of those questions all men get from their women… Would you love me if I were a worm? No, not that bad. She felt feisty or frisky, oh you know, “Tomayto, tomahto” ha.

What is she to me? My “Girlfriend…” Of course, in The Unfinished Archive she remains M Anime, The Phoenix Queen, my Primary Wife, the leader of my harem… coven, hmm.

At the moment I’m feeling quite positive about our relationship. I’ve got no problem, E.

But at the same time I know I’ll be singing like The Yahoos “Baby, I Love You,” but… you know. Trouble. Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

2005 Days Without B III, Day 1446 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

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Am I just now reading that it’s been 2000 days since B left? And 1441 days since V came on the scene. Doesn’t have the same zing. But neither does having $2000 in the bank. Enough for Burning Lava wings. Not books? Movies? Braxton And Virgil, Scene.

Friday, July 24, 2026

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of my boys Braxton and Virgil. Brothers that have never met. Trying to keep Virgil… Alive!

Myself? Not so much. I better enjoy my boys being together in The Unfinished Archive.

Braxton forbid, something happens to V. My boys will be together—the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, a picnic in a garden. I’m not Thanos. But I always imagined Braxton would want us lying in a garden, under some awning. At the head of the bed would be all fried food to the left and right, cold food and snacks. At the foot of the bed, we could climb off and run around in the sunlight for a while. “Island In The Sun.” Don’t make me… “Weezer”

I don’t see myself as funny. I’m sitting here “Wondering if a n-a like me can go to Heaven, Sophia. Don’t see it happening. “Jeezu”!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yesterday I meant to buy some more books. I’ve practically lost all my Kindle Rewards points. Yeah, like those are important? Anyway, it was effing humiliating. I have a belly.

And instead of buying “Sunrise on the Reaping” or “Julia”. What with $32.00. A shame.

No, the shame is thinking about the Burning Lava Wings on that effing food truck and what groceries I can get to survive the week. So, skip the food truck. I can get two days.

Belly full, brain full of boobies/yabbos, but my bank account will be empty. Oh, and I cannot forget to buy air fresheners. I was about to say I didn’t have to read what my Old Man said—effing chiseled in stone. Being alive is bullsh$t!

That’s not what Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom sees. Disappointing… She is who she is, but I don’t knock her for it. As I was trying to tell her yesterday, or rather show her. My sadness is like Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 Ego’s Expansion. It reigns over all.

Fight it, forget it, feel it, and at some point be happy. Existence is one big funeral, and I’m just looking for my hole. Eww! You know what I was thinking, Lady Sophia… M Anime’s

Uh, she has three and amazing yabbos too. But she’s naïve, Julianne Moore in Blindness.
.
Emilia Clarke in Me Before You. My point? Sometimes you see the worst… That’s it!

Living in pain, ugliness, never escaping. Braxton And Virgil, Scene

2000 Days Without B III, Day 1441 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

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When’s the last time I was even happiness adjacent since I don’t do happy? A 1000 years. Try what’s about to be Forty-Two. Damn, that woman at the Day Job for mentioning E-Day! A 1000 years… I can’t live my life “This Way.” “Minimum B, Millennium V.”

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… The sin? I settle for the bare minimum, the “Bare Necessities” of life. And being a greedy S.O.B.

“And isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?” (Does his best Ellis Boyd “Red” Redding Impression) Ironic? “Well, now let me see. You know, I don’t have any idea what that means.” And I dare to call myself a writer. Live vs Exist. Minimum and Millennium. Huh.

Braxton was anything but the bare minimum. He was/is my own “Personal Jesus” Echo.

I continue thinking about how I looked at his little brother yesterday. Virgil, “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus. But he (barks) like a gentleman.” “When You Were Young”?

Doesn’t that make me the A-Hole, considering Virgil the bare minimum? And Braxton was the bare minimum considering the human race. Inspector, Humanity Effing sucks!

“Give me frogs! Flies! Locusts! Anything but you!”
The Mummy

“I hate people. Scared of them. Been scared of them practically my whole life. The people I loved… the people I trusted… have done their absolute worst to me. Society deserves to be hated for everything you said they did, and more. Fuck every last one of them for what we’ve all been through. But… there are some people out there. And it doesn’t happen a lot. It’s rare… but they refuse to let you hate them. In fact, they care about you in spite of it.”
eXit, Mr. Robot

Yet I want to be remembered for “A Thousand Years”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wonder if Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would think of me as such?

Honestly, would she say she loved me for “A Thousand Years”? I’ll love you for a thousand more. “M Anime,” like my boys, is exceptional. Bare minimum, she is not.

“Right now she’s perfect, I don’t want to ruin that.”

“I could spend my whole life, Good Will Hunting.” Seriously, how much longer will existence be, Dear Echo? All I can promise M Anime at this particular moment is “When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be. I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.”

Seriously, Inspector, that is not an effing life! And let’s take my piddly ass $2,500…

“(She’s) everything you want
(She’s) everything you need
(She’s) everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
She says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But (she) means nothing to you
And you don’t know why”
Everything You Want (1999)

And you know, she knows, you know, the damn world knows I care about her!

Hell, only my boys appear in more pictures than her. And yet it’s like I look at her, at Virgil, at myself, at everything like Stan looks at Joanna in Office Space. Hate? No Echo.

That would be my Old Man. He called me now about the yard guy quitting and a smell in my house, and now I feel like I want to puke my guts out all over the floor. E, it’s just.

I want to quit. A thousand years? Where is my “Secret Agent Man,” so I can have hope, “odds are he won’t live to see tomorrow”? Because today’s bare minimum is an energy drink (I prefer my funk), petting Virgil, texting M Anime, Kindle sample book… Minimum B, Millennium V

1998 Days Without B III, Day 1439 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 016 -The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil-

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I didn’t need all those Lava Wings and Cajun Cheese Fries last night or to read about a man and his three would-be wives or to spend 2 and 1/2 in The Unfinished Archive. What do I need? What are the Bare Necessities? “The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil”

Friday, July 17, 2026

Legacy 016 -The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Well, no. If you’ll allow me to be a whiny little bitch for a moment, please.

I’d tell you B’s story yet again, but My Turn To B III has only ever sold one copy… EVER!

I lied about Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Yes, I’m reading it. And can we agree that Neil Bimbeau is a badass pen name? And while we’re on the subject of Amazon books. I’m annoyed that I didn’t pick up more books on Rewards day. Hell! It ain’t like I can afford more books, ha.

So explain that food coma I was in last night. The tale of being a starving artist is getting pretty old, too. SIGH. How much have I lost to that food truck again? But it ain’t the worst, my Lady.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s my ‘existence’ story that sucks. Do you remember how hard I had to work talking to B III yesterday, trying to get the Magic Glasses to analyze everything? I get everything working perfectly, characters remembered, collecting marvelous illustrations, coming to conclusions over who I am. And like Billy Ocean “Suddenly,” you’re in love. Whatever…

What? If I’m not picking on Virgil, then it’s M Anime… Braxton’s Favorite Girl hasn’t forgotten about me. So she and I were talking yesterday, and M Anime came up. And was that suspicion I was sensing from her about M? Vanished, disappeared, effing LOVE! It lasted longer than those Magic Glasses “I tell you hwhat!” Back In Love Again…

Seriously, that’s M Anime. We were only apart five months…

But like Silver Linings Playbook, we’re “reading the signs.” Hers say, love. 2-V says FEAR.

And mine, I’m singing in my Magic Glasses, “This B&tch” got me “Smokin’ Out The Window.” More like I’m imagining, can you “Love Me Again?” Most of all to myself.

Sophia, I’ve never liked how people say you have to love yourself before you can love another. It isn’t a necessity. I hated myself practically all of Braxton’s life. Honestly.

Loving V took something supernatural. Believing in reincarnation, resurrection, rebirth…

Today in The Unfinished Archive, it’s the day of the Shadow Devotion: Elder Sister Elara and Novice Sister Liora, but why is M Anime the Phoenix Queen, ha. Hopeful discovery

Manuscripts, money, Magic Glasses, mutts… Necessities. The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil

1993 Days Without B III, Day 1434 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

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Why do I need music so much, movies, the moaning of my woman? Because if I have to listen to myself, look at the man in the mirror, lament everything that happened Tuesday… I don’t know what I would hear next. But being my boys’ dad. Shame B, Shame V

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I have been a disappointment. I have been ashamed, asinine, and afraid. Downright stupid. And I killed Braxton.

Do we both need to hear all about how I killed my firstborn son… The four-legged variety for anybody reading. What, nobody’s here? Isn’t that a shame? That was yesterday.

Inspector, if I want to avoid talking about that, I better come up with something else, hmm… Make some noise. Like Virgil crying all last night after crapping his bedding…

Let’s start with yesterday morning… Getting back from the Day Job… I won’t say, Echo.

So instead of putting up the gate to lock Virgil in Braxton’s room. I only wouldn’t let Virgil into mine. He eventually slept on the stairs all night even when I removed the gate, Echo.

Like father, like son, Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… Except our own depression, explicitness, FEARS

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

How is Virgil explicit? He looks at food the way I look at his and Braxton’s potential future stepmom. Feasting on her beauty has cost me dinner many a night. Well, unless I want to be an old man and enjoy some Early Bird Specials. Old Man? Like Braxton’s Dad?

And again I’m not childless. Virgil is here. And M Anime is dedicated to pregnancy.

Inspector, my problem stems from how I’m going to pay for everything. A MAN PROVIDES

And here I am “Breaking Bad.” I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed.” “Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked,” they say. And what can be more wicked than repeating the same mistakes?

“Hell Is Repetition”
Andre Linoge

Sloth, Gluttony (I didn’t share breakfast with Virgil. Ahh Treachery.

My favorite. My Ninth Circle offense. However, M Anime is desperate to land me in the Second Circle with her angelic form. Her effing Yabbos. Unless Jane, Kristen, Angie show

“Girl, if God made anything prettier than you, I hope he kept it for himself.”
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air

If I had their bodies, I wouldn’t be in the financial strait I’m in. But no, I’m sitting here, E.

“Invincible”? Who am I, Pat Benatar or Billie Jean? Just singing “I Need a Dollar.”

Inspector, I don’t know what’s going to happen. And do you know why I keep telling myself the same story? Because I can’t stand listening to the new ones. Again, like yesterday morning. I’d rather listen to my bank account be drained”—the Echo” Inspector.

It’s almost soothing, like Eminem. “The Horror, The Horror.” Shame, Shame. Shame B, Shame V

“Oh, all around the World,
There’s an echo.”
The Echo

1991 Days Without B III, Day 1432 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will