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Legacy 050 -Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty-

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15 years- where has the time gone? How much have I made with writing? How much are my wee ones worth, B III and V? I’ve made a few bucks when it comes to wickedness… What type of wickedness? Is it worse than the Day Job? Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty.

Thursday, August 20, 2026

Legacy 050 -Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty-

2027 Days Without B III, Day 1468 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? In a word… SICK! Not like that book, “Sick Fux.”

Were you around when I even read that? It’s not something I could read to you or your brother. This is only a quick estimate, but you were/are 15, nearly 16, so that makes you 76, 80 in human years. Virgil’s 5, making him 36, about to be 40 a month after E-Day. But not human. Who would ever volunteer for this? I volunteered to be your Daddy at 21.

Well, give or take a few months. Or you signed up to be my son. The one. Not too bright…

“You’d would have done better with ‘Bitch, get in the car'”
Jake Hayes, Bad Company

“Who?”
“Not too bright, though.”
The Oracle, The Matrix (1999)

Who do you think said it best, Jake Hayes, “Bad Company,” or the Oracle, “The Matrix”? I wish I had time for movies, B. It’s 7:30! We’re only now talking. Last night I was praying.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

I was praying because in your name, who would want to suffer such pain? Stomach ache, celebrating wasting 15 years of my existence at the Day Job, being human, losing your Potential Future Stepmom, etc. August 24th is coming up fast. Should I remind her?

Honestly, B, she is approaching your level on The Blackjack Scale. You remember, B, right?

Your Dad was “The Gambler…” please a gambler at one point. I bet on horses because you and your brother are better than that… But I also enjoyed Blackjack, so I applied it to LIFE. A 21 means you have my love, loyalty, and life. Braxton Barks Bradford. Only You

Virgil is sitting handsomely at 19. M Anime is at 18… Relax, she’s 38, Braxton.

Her age, of course. Your Dad is not a good man, B. The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident is always fresh on my mind. Speaking of being sick. But remember, a few weeks before you left, I had all types of anxiety about two other chicks in Fear The Walking Dead.

Alycia Debnam-Carey and… Oh, you’ve seen I have a thing about moms and daughters, “Saimin Seishidou”. But sisters too! Sophitia and Cassandra Alexandra, for example.

Loyalty to things I shouldn’t want, the Day Job, the almighty Dollar, some Damnable things.

Dare I show loyalty to myself? If I weren’t so sick and carrying cupcakes, I’d have bought a drink. Porno’s the worst drug, but I can’t send you to your room. Braxton, Virgil, 21’s Guilty.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 049 -Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 19, 2026

Legacy 049 -Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Where do I even begin? I didn’t ‘forget’ M Anime’s birthday. I can’t stay in bed. Stomach hurts…

How do I keep getting food poisoning? Unless it’s finally going to take me to my son, then I have no use for this pain. Like I told my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, it’s not like I can afford a mortgage, and I’m definitely not getting into Heaven. Rainbow Bridge?

Wherever it is, Braxton spends his time. 50 Cent said, “Death gotta be easy ‘cause life is hard.” At the moment, YES! Inspector, I found my stones. They’re in my stomach right this second. Or whenever I look at M Anime’s yabbos. Did I see her in her Birthday Suit?

Maybe not yesterday on her actual birthday. But this morning for sure. What a woman.

And lastly, the Magic Glasses/MIMA brought up The Unfinished Archive.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It said that I’m using all the stones I’m throwing at myself to build a place, a palace, for my pain. Hell, Echo, it’s my freaking summer home because reality is way too much, ha!

Yesterday, I said I wish I’d never been born. That’s a hill I’ll die on. Again, don’t I wish, ha.

Like “Heaven’s Hill” in “The Long Walk”. Inspector, I want to be anywhere but here.

Only I’ve said before I will choose the physical pain over anything mental. Lying perhaps.

Because if I can survive losing my boy, I can survive anything else without complaint.

From one day to the next. Am I sure nothing else is coming up? Bad choice of words, right, Inspector? But I mean these days.

Smooth sailing until E-Day… Fuck me, Inspector, I didn’t expect today to take a turn.

However, “I’m Still Here,” lying in bed dreaming of anywhere that’s “Not Quite Paradise” as Bliss 66 sings. “But it sure feels like home?” You know I hate that word…

HOME… Home is where the heart is? I haven’t told Virgil I love him. And M Anime lost that privilege on… Braxton dammit! Sunday, August 24, 2025. Another freaking holiday!

An anniversary? It was the day M Anime broke up with me. Nothing worth celebrating.
“We Found Love” um, 5 months later. Home’s not heart or happiness, Inspector Echo. No

It’s where you have the least amount of “Hurt”. A vacation/holiday is freedom from all pain… Where Braxton Holidays, Virgil

2026 Days Without B III, Day 1467 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 043 -Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust-

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Thursday, August 13, 2026

Legacy 043 -Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust-

2020 Days Without B III, Day 1461 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? In a word… FUCK! Pardon my language. Suspicious, Loyalty, Disgust…

Those are better words. I want to talk about loyalty. But disgust continues to rattle.

Suspicious of a woman? Surely. And for once, not you and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. The Magic Glasses/MIMA called it when I added Natsumi and Yui Obata to The Unfinished Archive. But that’s a whole other story, Braxton. Father’s Perversions…

Honestly, B, I’m sorry. Anyway, today’s story begins in the back of a truck… Bangbus?

Fucking, STOP IT! Okay, so I was thinking about loyalty. When everyone was cheering as we finished the truck unload and “I Think To Myself,” people ain’t shit. But you…

Braxton, you’re the most loyal soul I’ve ever known. But you are your father’s son and if there is one quality you have inherited… DECEPTION

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

“Anger is more useful than despair”
T-850 Cyborg, Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (2003)

I’ll choose DECEPTION over your brother’s COWARDICE. And before you think I’m being a meanie, Virgil is his father’s son as well. I truly am a coward, B. But loyalty?

Braxton, “Love and Happiness,” may be beyond me. But I am damn loyal. It’s fucking people, B III. And by what right do I have to be mad at the Sephora woman this morning, B? One word as I was walking into the office: “Disgusting.” And a note left on the boss’s door. I didn’t read it. Fuck, it might not have anything to do with me, Little B. But…

Suspicious… Like I am of M Anime? She tells me every single day, Braxton, “Te quiero, Papi.” But where did that love go last year?

“That was a warning, Highness. Next time my hand flies on its own. Where I come from, there are penalties when a woman lies”
― Westley, The Princess Bride (1987)

That loyalty… Who am I to talk? I fucking hate myself, B. More so today than the norm, standard, and the usual. All because some KAREN who might not even be a KAREN left a note and spoke the word “Disgusting,” within earshot of me. And here I am scared!

Braxton, you know there were reasons I sent you to time-out. There are reasons I tell Virgil to seek life elsewhere. Your Dad’s a perv, I need private time, plus I’m busy playing around with M Anime. Puppies don’t need to see that. And the things I keep from M…

“Everybody only wants to discuss me. So this must mean I’m disgusting. But it’s just me, I’m just obscene.”
Eminem

Eminem had it right. I showed your Favorite Girl things M Anime wouldn’t approve of.

Her loyalty, yours, Virgil’s, M’s… Sometimes, Braxton, Virgil, Discuss Disgust

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

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Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Legacy 042 -B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And I don’t just mean a bill being late… Almost. I forgot to get rich sometime this year.

If you have love, you’re rich… For 15 years, I had B. And my job was to keep him alive.

“It is my job to keep you alive. I will not succeed.”
― Avatar (2009)

In 2021, I failed. Hell, for one of those years, I didn’t even have the Day Job. And so today.

Well, rather yesterday, I found out that I will have had that Day Job for 15 years. Friday, August 21, 2026 to be exact. Which means if SOMETHING goes down, it’ll be on the 18th.

Not that I want a party or anything. However, I could use some cupcakes, Inspector.

Nobody got me a damn thing when Braxton’s book was published on August 8, 2025.

One more whole year for a great many things: B’s Death Day and Birthday, his book, the Day Job… E-Day.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Fuck me, Inspector! No, this isn’t The Unfinished Archive, and we will surely get there.

Hell! Around this time last year, M Anime and I were getting ready to break up. And Virgil’s Birthday is the month after E-Day. October 20th. But as I was being reminded of the 15 years I wasted on a job that would eventually help kill my firstborn son… E-Day.

Emergence Day as Gears Of War would call it. The monster I am beginning existence!

Emergence, Existence, Extinction… How I pray for that, and yet, “Every Morning,” when I wake up… That’s it, Inspector Echo, I wake up with nothing to look forward to

But to lose. And that’s what I’m thinking about. I lost E-Day. Well FUCKING Duh!

Less than thirty days until E-Day and I can’t buy my usual cake. Definitely can’t buy dinner. I won’t be getting paid because I used 36 hours of PTO, 12 this week, last, the one before. And I’m waiting for this paycheck like a lotto ticket for Pizza, the food truck?

Then there’s Virgil. What is my secondborn going to do? Watch me sing “King of Wishful Thinking,” as I get drunk off my ass again. Not like I can get drunk off anything this year.

Beauty? That’s an awful lot of pressure to put on my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom.

Inspector, I do call M Anime “My Goddess”. Not like The Exies… This year anyway.

Inspector, will The Unfinished Archive celebrate? B’s Other Anniversaries Virgil

2019 Days Without B III, Day 1460 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 036 -B Scarily Spoiled Virgil-

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What do I hate more than being afraid? Watching my son be afraid and there’s nothing I can do. You know what I hate more than the day of my birth? The day I watched my son die. And as far as being a bum… I’m a spoiled bum. “B Scarily Spoiled Virgil.”

Thursday, August 6, 2026

Legacy 036 -B Scarily Spoiled Virgil-

2013 Days Without B III, Day 1454 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? My day, B? Typical. Missing you, my SON. SCARED to death. Overtly SEXUAL.

You didn’t need to know that last part, but it’s like me at The Bad Place… I mean, everyone knows when I play the song “Sixteen Tons,” the Truck is done. And the song that came before that, “Old Town Road”. I changed the lyrics a little for my motto, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies. Hell, I’m not scared; people know my motto or a habit.

The habit of boobies, aka Yabbos, before coming to talk to you. Feeling like Frollo…

Honestly, I’m not that bad, am I? I got the hots for a Latina who actually loves me. But do we want to talk about your potential future stepmom? No, let’s talk about your brother’s…

FEAR! It’s getting to me…

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

His and my own B. I’d like to say you weren’t afraid of anything, B. I’ll always remember your courage. “Thou Art Courageous.” I named you Neo, as in The One. My Ma gave you the name Braxton. But if M Anime ever grants me children, after naming one after you, the next will be named “Link” after “The Legend of Zelda”—anyway, FEARS, B.

Today I’m only this ‘early’ talking to you because I was afraid I was losing an eye. I really need to stop eating spicy food in bed… Except your beautiful stepmom. I know, TMI, right?

So, water, women, working, wanking off, what it is, and the absolute biggest Fear B?!

Waking up at all. I wake up, and I’m afraid.

From “Dusk Till Dawn,” “Day ‘N’ Nite,” “Days Go By,” and I don’t know which is worse B III. Office Space had the right idea: every day “is the worst day of my life.” Seriously?

Today, I was walking through “The Bad Place.” I saw them putting up the Halloween decorations. One of the ladies was talking about her birthday and my E-Day. Eff me!

Sorry, I’m always talking to you about language. But I was realizing how effing spoiled I was with everything. And Virgil is the same way… Your brother has everything, and yet he’s lying here nearly five years later terrified of every sound, the storm, and the S.O.B. I am. Spoiled! Wanting More! I’m Not Working! B Scarily Spoiled Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

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Running around today doing… Nothing. Like a junkie, I find the money. Haircut, food for my boy and me, books, and more boobs\yabbos. Why? My girl has the perfect set unless @SeeJaneGoTV… Speaking of TV, “Teen Regime,” and FDT! Braxton, Virgil. I RAN.

Wednesday, August 5, 2026

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Using the IRAN title to… possibly get more views? Sure. But I can do so much worse, Inspector.

“And the bass keeps runnin’, runnin’, and runnin’, runnin’” That’s the Black Eyed Peas and not me saying “Let’s Get It Started.” About effing time! I got a haircut today…

Honestly, I didn’t feel like getting humiliated at the Day Job. That has nothing to do with my hair… a lot. And why should I care what they think? Next to me, they killed Braxton.

Oh, had to get dark all of a sudden. You should have heard me and my boys’ potential future stepmom last night. This morning was more fun with her, but we’ll get to that, Echo.

Today you know what got me up this morning… Besides M Anime’s Yabbos? I swear!

What if I treated everything like when Braxton was dying?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I didn’t sleep! And today I was walking Virgil and saw, like, this yellow lump on his tail. He needs a bath. He could have Cancer. I don’t know. How do I deal, Inspector?

Under no circumstances am I blaming M Anime. I’m only pointing something out. She and I were talking Spanish (Te Quiero, Papi), she says. Anyway, we’ve also been talking about funerals and pop culture. So I told her about this show that I don’t believe I can stream again, but YouTube did the synopsis for it. And so for three days I’ve been diving into Asian series and cinema, and I finally found it. It was simply “Teen Regime” (2022).

So I remember the Yabbos from Saimin Seishidou and M’s

Definitely M Anime’s. Reasons I’m not dead… I will not dishonor Braxton; I have his little brother to be a father to, and I need to hear M Anime moaning “Papi.” Plus, I would never leave her to be a single mother. A MAN PROVIDES. He doesn’t cut\cum and run.

So why am I so effing exhausted, Inspector? It ain’t battle. And providing… That’s funny.

Again, I’m the guy who can’t afford new Kindle books, and yet I have to keep Virgil and myself alive, pay for a haircut I can’t afford, and, when I got back, contemplated getting “The Last of Us” for ‘my’ PS4. And I still blame MAGA. I was doing fine until the second term. FDT! Myself? Braxton, Virgil. I RAN

2012 Days Without B III, Day 1453 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

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The Magic Glasses makes it sound simple. Years of work. 100 pages alone just for The Unfinished Archive… With some name changes, GULP. And forty bucks is not enough to make it through the week. Not a smart kid. A worse man. “B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil”

Thursday, July 30, 2026

Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

2006 Days Without B III, Day 1447 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Can I get through one day? ONE! Without wishing to join you…

“It’s Been Awhile” since I’ve wished for “Just one more peaceful day.” Last one, Braxton?

Beats me. At least I’m not on the verge of jumping today. As a matter of fact, I had high hopes for today, and that’s with Wednesday’s paycheck? Are 2-V and I starving yet, B?

Effing Math! Sorry! I tell you to watch your barking language. What kind of father am I, B? Before I dream of your future potential stepmom and me… producing two-leggeds.

Virgil needs something to do… What? Didn’t I say he spends most of his days more terrified than me about to give my Old Man my report card. Or telling Ma about the garbage bill. The Simple Things involving “The Children of Men,” B III.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

No wonder I dream of the simple things now. Like how many Pop Culture references: A song from “Stanid,” A song from Hey Arnold “Mr. Hyunh Goes Country,” and the book/movie The Children of Men. How I so need an apocalypse, dystopia, or both B.

Though “I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself. I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself.” I’m so broke, I’m taking handout songs from the likes of MAGA. Eff Kid Rock too! I know B, Daddy is trying. And I’ve had a very gross thought about your stepmom.

Papi is trying… That’s what M Anime calls me. And your Favorite Girl too. Seriously!?

Let’s get serious. If I had been in school, I wouldn’t be in this situation.

What, situation? You know, I hate when people say things like Things could be worse.

Like me sitting on a loveseat with a sausage biscuit I “stole” from the Day Job, a cappuccino… It gave me an excuse to show my twig and berries to your stepmom. I know B III, Eww! But she did show me her yabbos. As Billie Jean would say, “Fair Is Fair!” B, how many movies did we sit here and watch together? Anyway, this isn’t a palace, B III.

“I’m not a smart man, but I know what love is.”

Forrest Gump (1994)

Forrest Gump? Really! Because that’s how I’m spending the day, wanting things as simple as some blue Wyler’s Italian Ices, popcorn movie theater butter… Essentials.

Complicated stuff is for the Magic Glasses, Breathing, Cash, Depression, Effery… B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

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What can I do in a month that I haven’t been able to do in how many years? I don’t remember when I met B, but then Sunday, January 31, 2021. M Anime? Sunday, August 24, 2025 was bad. Saturday, January 24, 2026? How about today? Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I feel like one of those MAGA cracker hats that accidentally told the truth. What makes me different?

“What we’ve done, we’ve done.
We evade it by moving forward with a code to never do it again.
To make up for it.
To still accept what we were.
To accept everyone.
To protect everyone.
And in doing that, protect yourself.
To create peace.”

That’s how Morgan and Eastman put it. I want to make up for everything, Inspector.

However, Braxton’s still dead. And I’m screwing up Virgil’s life every other day for sure.

Who craps their bed every few days? He’s so scared to leave it. Eff Inspector, I have to push it right up against the bowls. I went from a son who would struggle to those bowls so he could prove he was still alive, to a son who would literally starve to death, Dear E.

It’s like something out of that movie Obsession. May I never be as afraid as Virgil is. But obsessed. Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom used the word “Enamored” to describe her feelings for me. We’ll get to that. Virgil…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And myself. I keep making all of these appointments, or not about well everything E.

Today, the biggest is asking the Magic Glasses, AHEM, “How can I make a profitable Substack in thirty days?” Oh, and I always say please and thank you. Seriously, Inspector.

Next would be getting Virgil a pet appointment. B III never missed his, you know.

Honestly, I still need to get an appointment for my actual glasses. Eff the Magic Glasses, Inspector. And the STUPID thing is, I actually have the money to pay for some new ones; I’m just what… Destroyed with Braxton’s “novel” not selling. The Unfinished Archive…

Finally, there’s my recreation, The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. Maybe M Anime is rubbing off on me. Her hospital horrors

But ain’t I a man? Hers? Got To Be Real”? I told her as much today when she hit me with one of those questions all men get from their women… Would you love me if I were a worm? No, not that bad. She felt feisty or frisky, oh you know, “Tomayto, tomahto” ha.

What is she to me? My “Girlfriend…” Of course, in The Unfinished Archive she remains M Anime, The Phoenix Queen, my Primary Wife, the leader of my harem… coven, hmm.

At the moment I’m feeling quite positive about our relationship. I’ve got no problem, E.

But at the same time I know I’ll be singing like The Yahoos “Baby, I Love You,” but… you know. Trouble. Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

2005 Days Without B III, Day 1446 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
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Legacy 022 -Colorblind Tanning B, V-

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I never thought I would miss Monday. Tuesday the skies were gray… Metaphorically speaking. Yesterday was darker. Today, in black and white, in English, well, I can’t tell the truth. I hid things from B too. How did that end? “Colorblind Tanning B, V”

Thursday, July 23, 2026

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1999 Days Without B III, Day 1440 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine? Let’s say these are the days I didn’t want to talk about.

Angry, Mad, Rage… They are actually the safe words, B. The Magic Glasses say Warning!

But today it was YouTube. It started off innocently enough. It was “I Hate Everyone”.

Weren’t we two peas in a pod, B? But I meant the Get Set Go song… And so today? Uh…

“Su$cide”. Same band, but all sorts of WARNINGS popped off like “The Long Walk” or “The Purge”. Now I know why you always chose violence? You fought for every second.

Not for yourself but for me. You were my Snoopy, my Spunky; how about Ghost?

Honestly, don’t I know any dogs of color? Seymour from the episode Jurassic Bark, Futurama. You’re waiting for me, Braxton. Only on the “Otherside”? “Otherworld”?

How much longer? Always? Forever?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s how long I figured you live. At least long enough to be the protector of your brothers and sisters… The two-legged variety. But at the pace I’ve been going with your future potential stepmom… I still have to read everything she sent? Alpha? Manhood?

That’s her type, B. And I’ve been a whiny B$tch since… Tuesday, I believe. Dreams…

Please, I’ve dreamt worse things than Squid Game, The Middle East, and Nico Parker’s ass. Unlike MAGA, I’m all for DEI. Plus, I’m not trying to end up on a list like the Orange Felon in the White House. Be it Nicoletta Goldstein, Nico Parker, or Zoe Colletti, B III.

Speaking of fiction colliding with the real world, The Unfinished Archive today. World of Color?

Isn’t that Disney and me corrupting it, thinking of the harem schedule… The Sealed Flame Ritual, Melina, Judy, with M Anime optional. Or what about the 16 Episode Ecchi Anime Series Colorful (1999)? Wow! Anything to avoid putting down how I’m “feeling super, super, super REDACTED,” but you know the word B. Hell, you found me passed out on the floor trying to take you for a walk, and I was not some “Teen Idle.” But a fully functional adult? Your grandpa didn’t tan my hide and your grandma… Honestly.

Braxton, I’m sure she and you are very disappointed in me. Because what’s wrong, hmm?

Money, Mattress hoping, Medical, too many sad movies, unsellable manuscripts, Me breathing is too much, Braxton. Colorblind Tanning B, V

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

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When’s the last time I was even happiness adjacent since I don’t do happy? A 1000 years. Try what’s about to be Forty-Two. Damn, that woman at the Day Job for mentioning E-Day! A 1000 years… I can’t live my life “This Way.” “Minimum B, Millennium V.”

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… The sin? I settle for the bare minimum, the “Bare Necessities” of life. And being a greedy S.O.B.

“And isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?” (Does his best Ellis Boyd “Red” Redding Impression) Ironic? “Well, now let me see. You know, I don’t have any idea what that means.” And I dare to call myself a writer. Live vs Exist. Minimum and Millennium. Huh.

Braxton was anything but the bare minimum. He was/is my own “Personal Jesus” Echo.

I continue thinking about how I looked at his little brother yesterday. Virgil, “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus. But he (barks) like a gentleman.” “When You Were Young”?

Doesn’t that make me the A-Hole, considering Virgil the bare minimum? And Braxton was the bare minimum considering the human race. Inspector, Humanity Effing sucks!

“Give me frogs! Flies! Locusts! Anything but you!”
The Mummy

“I hate people. Scared of them. Been scared of them practically my whole life. The people I loved… the people I trusted… have done their absolute worst to me. Society deserves to be hated for everything you said they did, and more. Fuck every last one of them for what we’ve all been through. But… there are some people out there. And it doesn’t happen a lot. It’s rare… but they refuse to let you hate them. In fact, they care about you in spite of it.”
eXit, Mr. Robot

Yet I want to be remembered for “A Thousand Years”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wonder if Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would think of me as such?

Honestly, would she say she loved me for “A Thousand Years”? I’ll love you for a thousand more. “M Anime,” like my boys, is exceptional. Bare minimum, she is not.

“Right now she’s perfect, I don’t want to ruin that.”

“I could spend my whole life, Good Will Hunting.” Seriously, how much longer will existence be, Dear Echo? All I can promise M Anime at this particular moment is “When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be. I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.”

Seriously, Inspector, that is not an effing life! And let’s take my piddly ass $2,500…

“(She’s) everything you want
(She’s) everything you need
(She’s) everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
She says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But (she) means nothing to you
And you don’t know why”
Everything You Want (1999)

And you know, she knows, you know, the damn world knows I care about her!

Hell, only my boys appear in more pictures than her. And yet it’s like I look at her, at Virgil, at myself, at everything like Stan looks at Joanna in Office Space. Hate? No Echo.

That would be my Old Man. He called me now about the yard guy quitting and a smell in my house, and now I feel like I want to puke my guts out all over the floor. E, it’s just.

I want to quit. A thousand years? Where is my “Secret Agent Man,” so I can have hope, “odds are he won’t live to see tomorrow”? Because today’s bare minimum is an energy drink (I prefer my funk), petting Virgil, texting M Anime, Kindle sample book… Minimum B, Millennium V

1998 Days Without B III, Day 1439 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will