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Legacy 127 -Pause Braxton, Paws Virgil-

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I’ve been on my feet all day. And V? I remember my B’s last days when I carried him everywhere except his water bowl. He wanted to be a man even when I put it next to him. It was his kidneys, not his belly or paws. But V? Pause, Braxton, Paws Virgil.

Thursday, November 5, 2026

Legacy 127 -Pause Braxton, Paws Virgil-

2104 Days Without B III, Day 1545 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Do you run across the Rainbow Bridge all the time? Sit and wait…

Not unless the powers that be shoved a pillow under your hairy behind. Braxton Barks.

Much like your Pa, you are a man of leisure. I swear B it’s been a minute since I’ve napped so hard I’ve forgotten what day it is. I woke up two hours ago thinking I was going to be late to “The Bad Place.” Hell, I wasn’t that far away from seeing you again. The sleep of the damned. Speaking of which, I couldn’t find myself seeing you again. Because you know your father is a “Lazy Ass…” Man of Leisure. I think I at least heard you today. I was at The Bad Place, and I don’t know whether this was for you or me, Little B. However

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

Welcome to the Black Parade. All black everything… My mood, my soul, but your bro…

That’s what really got to me today. I was taking a picture of Virgil, and I saw his paws, B.

“That’s How You Know” you fucked up. You get Black Parade; your brother reminds me how I failed you both. This is “How You Remind Me.” Paws, feet, and what might as well be claws. I swear, what have I been doing, B? Like I said. I was busy taking a good-ass nap. Fuck! Pardon my French, but since I’m on the subject… Let’s talk man to man, B III

About your potential future stepmom? The woman that knocked me off of my feet… I swept her off her feet…

You know how I feel about feet? I’m sure you listened in on your favorite girl and me some. What can I say? Your old man likes high heels. Not clear heels, mind you. Tacky!

Anyway, I’m not entirely sure how M Anime feels about feet, but she does find heels annoying despite The Magic Glasses/MIMA saying otherwise. Your Dad has a vision B III

But that vision doesn’t pay the bills. It doesn’t get your brother help. And next week’s pay is going to be… Well, more like the week after, but still I’m broke, and why’s that again:

I’m stuck selling shit furniture because someone won’t get off their fat fucking ass and help me!”
Clark, Backrooms (2026)

Minus the fat part as I talk to the Man in the Mirror who hates his own feet. But seeing Virgil’s… Pause, Braxton, Paws Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

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“Will you be proud of what you’ve done in this life? Because if you ain’t, you better start getting square.” No, I ain’t proud. I played the village idiot. Existence is like a test I never studied for. Yet bringing new life. Someday. “Got Your B, V.”

Wednesday, November 4, 2026

Legacy 126 -Got Your B, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… How do I define sin? How do I define good? How do I define gone? How about rest?

And I dare to call myself a writer. No doubt I’m a whiner, hmm. Have I forgotten the Backrooms already? Like I forgot prison and my favorite cheerleader. Always waiting.

That’s why I won’t call myself a retail “Associate” either. That was part of my humiliation

I’m standing there at the Day Job, waiting as the village idiot does for my instructions, Inspector. Instructions would mean an instructor. And if I’d listened years ago, Inspector.

Well, I wouldn’t be sitting here in the middle of the bed, having failed to educate my second-born son. I wouldn’t have failed the first. I wouldn’t be lusting after some PYT half my age. How about trying to turn my boys’ future potential stepmom into Lollipop Chainsaw’s Juliet Starling?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“And if you don’t expect too much from me
You might not be let down”

Now I don’t count that as a failure. How I ever won M Anime is a fucking miracle, Inspector Echo. That takes a genius intellect. Wait a damn minute, is that gratitude I feel, hmm? I could talk about M Anime herself, but that would involve me being a meanie.

Embarrassing enough that a forty-two-year-old man is using the word meanie. I’m still a Dad. A dad who is being mean to his son because Virgil didn’t want to go out in the rain and instead used the hallway as a bathroom. I didn’t teach him to use training pads.

Anyway speaking of instructing and saying mean things. Like a girl dressing up as a San Romero Knights’ cheerleader and riding a dildo. Mean enough

No that’s a solid A+ life. But everything else dear Echo. How do I get to sleep on time as it won’t be tonight? How do I become successful at this? The Unfinished Archive. Please!

To cook, to clean, to collect a decent paycheck every week. Oh I know how to cum which is yet another reason we are here so late. Because I haven’t… No Nut November, ah yes

Didn’t I fail day one? And what was the quality of that? What was the reason? I have no clue. Why am I still whining about it? Why can’t I stop whining? Full stop, Inspector.

If I approached everything like how I won M Anime? Or my Ma making me study. Got Your B, V

2103 Days Without B III, Day 1544 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 122 -Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil-

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Heavily? Much Ado About Nothing? This is my brain, minus any drugs but sorrow. Depression? It’s not that I’m the Village Idiot so many make me. I’m exhausted, my emotions are everywhere, and my ideas become more egregious. Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil.

Saturday, October 31, 2026

Legacy 122 -Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So I’m dead on the inside? It’s the outside that sucks. S-word thoughts and tendencies. Always.

“He who is everywhere is nowhere”
― Lucius Annaeus Seneca

No, I’m not WHINING about Seneca today or the other S-word. This whole damn week.

That’s been my thing, Lunalesca, the WHINING. I always seem to hear exactly what I need to hear at exactly the right time, whether it’s the Backrooms or Roman philosophy. How do you think Virgil got his name again? Misery loves company. Someone to talk…

More like someone to bark. Because if I keep listening to myself… One solid voice…

Lunalesca, those are my boys. Braxton and Virgil are always with me. Where they stand.

I don’t stand, my lady. I rest… Now that’s funny! I run. “Run Boy Run”. I rant and wait: there’s more. And that’s the problem that greeted me as I took Virgil on a walk.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I’m fucking everywhere, and I shouldn’t be. Pete said in The Long Walk something along the lines of, you don’t think about making it to the end. You think about making it to the next moment. Because I know the end, Lunalesca. Outside, if anyone were willing to lay me with my sons. Sprinkle them both with me. I shouldn’t dream such things, Virgil Lives!

Inside, however, I’m going straight to Hell. Failure in being a father. Braxton Lives Too!

Only not really. Really? He’s in a box on the nightstand. He’s in my heart and mind, my Dear Lady Lunalesca. How many posts have been dubbed “Firstborn”? Honestly Luna.

Braxton pretty much occupies the space where Virgil lies right this second. Quit being mean.

Mean, Afraid, Exhausted, Lazy, being a WHINER. I tell my boys’ potential future stepmom all the time: B died due to my indifference. “I Tried” so hard to protect him.

There was so much Anger, Hate, and Rage. And the FEAR! So I covered it up as Braxton lay dying. “How To Save A Life,” indeed, I was working. “How To Say Goodbye,” who am I, Paul Tiernan? “I try to say goodbye,” always, forever. Year 2026, Lady Lunalesca.

And having failed this SIMPLE task, I overcompensate. “I Feel Everything”! Why do you think the harem of the Unfinished Archive is so big? I can’t love people in slices. Myself? I’m learning to love M Anime… Love’s everywhere, overwhelming, and I’m… Let’s B Everywhere, Virgil.

2099 Days Without B III, Day 1540 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 120 -Case VI Detective Braxton-

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B’s Fav Girl and I have a joke. “Do you need bail money?” Not much of a joke. But it’s another reason I sleep a lot. Ha! I don’t need to think about the crime scene that is living. V’s been on the case for six years. “Case VI Detective Braxton.”

Thursday, October 29, 2026

Legacy 120 -Case VI Detective Braxton-

2097 Days Without B III, Day 1538 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Yes, I still ask because I can’t accept some things. Death, desire, dum-dums

Accepting Sir Patrick Stewart’s death is sad; may he Rest In Peace. Icon, a legend.

Braxton, to me you were more than my brother, my best friend, my beast. Balls! Braxton, my son, Thou Art Courageous. And that’s why I can’t accept you being gone. Not now, not ever. As far as I’m concerned, I remain a father, a dog dad of two. Always! Forever!

And what does that make me? That’s the question I’ve been asking myself Day Job-wise.

Am I delusional? Am I damned for what happened to you? And then there’s your brother, V. Not loving him as much makes me a dum-dum. As Carlos says, Dee-Dee-Dee

That brings me to today. Yesterday was about my whining vis-à-vis “Backrooms.” Not done there.

Today I got two words for ya, Village Idiot! What, you thought this was about your brother turning six, nine days ago? There I go being an idiot. At least the village doesn’t see this

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

But what do I want the village to see? I’ve been so exhausted I can barely remember all my worrying about the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Isn’t that what life espouses, Braxton?

With enough money, life can be whatever I want it to be. So where is all the money going, hmm? Virgil still has cake and even pie. That’s another thing, B. Where’s my time, hmm?

I told myself I’d be done by 10:30 PM… I still remember being up at 4:00 AM some nights, B. You and your brother’s looks.

Bedtime before I have to go back to the Day Job, aka “The Bad Place.” Why not name it the Backrooms, B III? Of everything in that place, I’m the something off for sure, Braxton.

Again, the Village Idiot. And if it only stopped at the Day Job. It’s the same with Whiteout Survival, writing, and women, too. It’s a constant “Mad Season” here, B III, honestly. No wonder you made sure I always got to bed, and Virgil is content to cuddle almost all the time. Stupidity is catching.

It’s the only time I shut up. If it isn’t rage or indifference, I constantly whine about anything and everything. Is it any wonder I seek solace in Virtual Insanity? Safety, sinning, scared sometimes… And STUPID. Case VI Detective Braxton

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

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Ask V about me drunk… “This one time my Dad drank a lot and spun me around to King of Wishful Thinking and Days Go By”. B’s Fav Girl has seen me drunk. I wish I could afford to have a drinking problem so I wouldn’t whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil.

Wednesday, October 28, 2026

Legacy 119 -Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Is whining a sin? No more so than staying up until 10:30 PM for this… Lying on Kindle.

Being a pop culture whore… (Takes a sip of Bloom) It’s just the way I’m wired, isn’t it, Inspector? Isn’t it? Two things. One, a small introduction into the “Backrooms”. Two, I’m thinking about Bloom from the Winx Club, naked. I was always more of a Flora man, honestly. And trust me, Inspector, I can think of so much worse. “Lollipop Asia.” I’m not whining…

Mary: “You want to know the real reason your wife left you? It wasn’t the drinking! Or the stumbling home at all hours or the rage! It was the whining! Nothing’s ever your fault is it? You drink too much? Blame your job. You hate your job? Blame the world. You get kicked out of the house? Blame your wife. You attack me and tie me up? Blame your brain- you are your fucking brain, you dipshit!”

Clark: “You’re saying it’s my fault?”

Mary: “Yes. But it’s just the way you’re wired, isn’t it? Isn’t it?”
Backrooms (2006), Kane Parsons

This is what I’ve been thinking about since I watched the Backrooms. This one scene.

Inspector, it explains why my Braxton left. See, I did it again. And you know something, “I don’t think I want to change.” No, let me remain a “Man of Constant Sorrow.” Better my tears for my “Lost Boy,” Because “Oh yes, there will be blood.” Again, Pop Culture Whore.

Better blood than… Eww! We’ll get to that. And why say Eww? It’s a function of the male anatomy. And I won’t take the fall for a woman failing to cum. Selfish lover… Me? Never.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do I have to whine about today? The humiliation at the Day Job that I couldn’t put a Christmas sock display up? The Visual Lady had to help me. I am the “village idiot” once again. King Kong and Captain Clark got nothing on “Smiling Faces Sometimes,” hmm.

I wasted another $40 bucks today on Bloom and chicken. And today’s payday, my Inspector.

So there’s more money to cry about, and I’m no billionaire. The money disappears. Fuck!

Then there’s M Anime. (Drools).

“So This Is Love”. Not yet. But I like the fuck out of her. I lust the fuck for her…

Sigh, I can’t whine about her not knowing me. She knows I’m no Prince Charming.

However, does she know everything? I’m sure I’d be “Beggin” for her to come back.

Inspector, remember the third worst day of my existence? Not my fault. Yeah, keep telling yourself that, “Clark.” What, I do want a therapist that’s good in bed. And now I’m thinking about Mary naked. Rule 34 Inspector, fucking Rule 34. But M Anime, right.

Today she asks me, “Do you think of me only as Pussy?” “Strawberry Wine” at her age, Inspector. A drink? I’m sober; that’s why I whine. Pop’s Wine, Braxton, Virgil

2096 Days Without B III, Day 1537 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

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Sure, I can run. I need cash from the Day Job, I care about my woman, and I still consider myself the father of two canine companions. But only one has shuffled off the mortal coil. The other turned six on Tuesday. “Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil.”

Saturday, October 24, 2026

Legacy 115 -Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… So I’ll invest in Carolina Reaper Peppers. Or what’s this new pepper…The 2023 Pepper X

And what’s this talk about, spicy food? I’m hungry! Or I’m an idiot carrying $35.00.

And I still haven’t left the house yet. What have I been doing all day besides being sick, Lady Lunalesca? I did it! This son of a bitch did it! I finally caught up with all of M Anime’s messages. Would my Braxton be proud that, for once in this “life,” I was catching up with the living and not the dead? His and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom. And V?

Virgil continues avoiding getting stepped on. But hey, there’s still cake, or rather pie. There is a distinction, Lady Lunalesca. And I am trying to find the line. It’s like saying, I like salsa, but feel some kind of way…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know, ingredients-wise. I seriously need to get to the store. And before all that…

Ahem, “I Need Some Sleep.” Another cross. There is a difference between sleep and rest.

“Go to bed.”
Tony Stark

“But would you be able to rest?”
Pepper Potts

“Endgame”

Pepper Potts asked the right question. And with this week coming up. “Mo’ Money! Mo Money! Mo’ Money!” “Get the money! Dollar, dollar bill, y’all!” And what I choose to do with that money… Did I ever mention how understanding my girlfriend is? My girlfriend

I’ve been trying that on for size with M Anime. “If It Isn’t Love?” It’s not yet Lady Lunalesca. But considering peppers weren’t the only thing I was looking for. The fact that M Anime makes me want to be a better man… And asking her for a dildo video…

Lust and Love, Lunalesca. One has been sated momentarily… Yeah, I couldn’t keep it in my pants reading all of M Anime’s messages. But now I’m aiming slightly higher Lu.

Food, Sex, and Silence! I’ve caught up with the sex… All by myself. Now the food. A chicken biscuit compliments of the Day Job, a bag of popcorn, and no clue on dinner. Lu, according to MAGA, “BEEF, It’s What’s For Dinner” is no longer economically viable. I swear to Braxton. Once again, speaking of my boy, I do need to catch up on what I promised him: “If I Had A $1,000,000.” I asked the Magic Glasses/MIMA about this…

Lunalesca, Braxton and Virgil, M Anime, even myself all keep me runnin’. Catch-Up Braxton, Ketchup Virgil

2092 Days Without B III, Day 1533 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 113 -Hair Braxton And Virgil-

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Last week I mentioned a knight in shining armor. You don’t need armor when you’re busy hiding with your puppy. You don’t need armor when you’re hiding from customers. Or with a beautiful woman. Or on your back in another way. Hair Braxton And Virgil.

Thursday, October 22, 2026

Legacy 113 -Hair Braxton And Virgil-

2090 Days Without B III, Day 1531 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Well, while at the gas station, I muttered my most sacred wish.

Wait, who’s making the wishes here, your brother or me? Virgil’s been six, two days.

How dare I, right? But it wasn’t the wish that I could bring you back. Or that I was in bed with your potential future stepmom. No, B. I was busy buying gas, but it won’t get me where I want to go. And what, I’m no warrior, I’m no writer, and wanking, very eww!

But you should know all about that after having “The Talk” with you about your favorite girl visiting. And your brother doesn’t have that problem. No balls. Seriously, I relate…

Figuratively, of course, as today I was hiding from customers at “The Bad Place.” Were they going to hurt me? You know who the real enemy is I’m afraid, B.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

That’s why armor is useless to me. I’m sick of being scared, B. I want to shrink, I want to

Well, you know what. But as annoying as V is… I mean, he cuddles himself like someone is after his vital organs and MAGA is in the room. But leaving your brother to the world…

And speaking of the world or worlds, The Unfinished Archive. M Anime says I could be omniscient… I mean, take a look at yesterday, the illusion that represents digital life…

There’s the need to be young again or fake it. I’m forty-two. Effing sucks, honestly.

However, there was the machine; I can’t be human, not for this. How often have I sided against humanity, B?

I’d choose your fur any day. And you were no fan of clothes. Hell, even getting you to wear a collar was a concession. And V only wears one when he’s walking. That’s what we call safety. Well, at least until they invent Poké Balls. Like, you’d stand for that.

My little Pokémon. You were my Pikachu. Well Pancake. But you know, “I choose you.”

And your bro: Bulbasaur, Charmander, or Squirtle. My starter, so I may live again, hmm

Living again. Surrounded by the love of your potential future stepmom. M Anime says she’s KFC, and not in a nice way. Breasts, Legs, and Thighs. Or breasts, legs, and ass, maybe… Or TLC. Her armor doesn’t exist. I’m no prince. Hair Braxton And Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

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B and V know my Day Job as the “Bad Place.” And how much did I make at the Bad Place? Well, V has a fresh bag of food and eight slices of b-day pie left. Let him eat cake or pie, while my paycheck and “life” look like Bingo winnings. “B For Bingo, V”

Wednesday, October 21, 2026

Legacy 112 -B For Bingo, V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… As much as I want my now six-year-old Virgil to live, I know what I want, Inspector Echo.

I wish I were as “innocent” as Art Baker in “The Long Walk.” I want to go home. Nope!

For a week, since I started fantasizing about Jahara Jayde… Really? But she’s not the point, Inspector. No, when I close my eyes, I know what I’ve been wishing for. What I’ve been wanking so as to avoid thinking about it. And who would I pray to if I would dare?

I can’t write it down. But I never told Braxton he was going home. I’ll always remember the look on his face that Sunday so many years ago when the veterinarian told me the truth.

Braxton looked at me like, “We’re going home, Dad…” The thought of if I had brought him back with me.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And now I look at his brother: my second-born son, Virgil Vivi. I gave him his birthday treat and then, in the evening, two “slices” of his birthday pie. Virgil thought he won the lotto.

On another note, I need to check my books… I won’t be eating as good as V; I know that.

But anyway, I was feeding him, and while we didn’t have that movie night yesterday, I was reminded of the old man in the 1993 film “Groundhog Day”. And didn’t I say I once thought that Virgil was a reincarnation of Braxton? And it’s like I can save my son?

Inspector, with the way things are going… I did check the books. Groceries? $44.27? Eff!

Let him eat cake, right?

Virgil, that is. What about me? Bingo! No V in Bingo. And no me either. It comes back to Braxton. Always to Braxton. He and Virgil fight for their lives. Braxton’s book is still out.

But I was at the Day Job today. What made me wish I was back in bed? Add another D and A. The B isn’t needed, hmm. Please! If I weren’t crying over B or wanking over M. Did I say that? My boys Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime. Trying to catch up with her

Honestly, so are the Magic Glasses/MIMA. Other humiliations? Couldn’t help customers find a tie. Moving things with my bosses. Musical selections. Becoming the village idiot.

Bingo! Lotto? Some chick’s legs? Losing? B For Bingo, V

2089 Days Without B III, Day 1530 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 108 -The Sleeping B Virgil-

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Am I slow? Or is it everything and everyone else? It has to be me. And I’m tired of waiting. I’m tired, period. I remember when 400 words was supposed to be easier, and now… What time is it? It was 2:30 AM, and I’m still in bed. The Sleeping B Virgil

Saturday, October 17, 2026

Legacy 108 -The Sleeping B Virgil-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And still a misanthrope. An equal opportunity misanthropist. But big yabbos and a tight pussy help.

Seriously! What, Lunalesca? I’m trying to stay awake here. And as much as I love, love, Braxton is gone. And my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, “My Goddess,” why aren’t I busy with her today? Trust me, I’ve been up “All Night Long” before. Lunalesca, sigh.

Guess you can say I’m out of practice. Hugh Hefner or Dennis Hof, I’m not. What, dead, Lunalesca? Is it too much to wish? But what I mean is an everlasting party. Cum one, cum all. Eww! My record is five orgasms over the span of a few hours. I’m not Jim from American Pie. So who am I? I was sitting in the parking lot thinking, I’m so tired.

Lunalesca, I’m so tired of trying. Like (Dystopian) Riley said:

“I have no allegiance to mankind in general, only to my man.”
Dystopian Girls 7

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s my M Anime. Hell, those are my boys. M hates the comparison, but I’m not comparing her to my furry boys like that. See, to me, everyone’s (deceased). Zombie…

Scary, but it’s the season, and so when someone is in this bastion of life in the realm of the dead, it means they’re something special. More Than A Woman. A warrior in my eyes

“I am First Omet’iklan, and I am dead. As of this moment, we are all dead. We go into battle to reclaim our lives. This we do gladly, for we are Jem’Hadar. Remember: victory is life!”
― Star Trek DS9

Yes, the Jem’Hadar were the bad guys. But I think it’s more the alien aspect. I’ve been reading the Unfinished Archive, and the women who make up the Sorcerer’s Harem are witches/sorceresses/, and divine entities. The Sisterhood of the Black Bible/Acolytes of the Black Bible Order are all witches. Named mothers and daughters… The prisoners in the dungeon, monster women…

Again, I am tired. And let’s be clear, I’m tired of people. Clearer? I’m tired of being me, Lady Lunalesca. A man, a boy, always. Diary of a Tired Black Man. I ain’t that smart…

Again, I’m tired. I’m so fucking tired I looked up sleeping contests. Next to misanthropy

And since neither the Sorcerer nor I can bring back the dead yet… My Braxton. And I’m trying to keep Virgil safe. I have been remembering Sleeping’s greatest hits, Lunalesca.

Number one will always, forever be those afternoons when B III would watch over me.

Whenever I answer every message from M Anime, and one had her yabbos on display.

When I’m sick and wake up feeling good, I imagine Heaven. The Sleeping B Virgil

2085 Days Without B III, Day 1526 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 106 -Braxton The Responsible, Virgil-

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I’m a father of two boys who happen to have four legs each, B and V. I have a girlfriend, and what have I done for her besides listen? M Anime’s understanding, B III was as he lay dying, and 2-Vwill be six soon. “Braxton The Responsible, Virgil”

Thursday, October 15, 2026

Legacy 106 -Braxton The Responsible, Virgil-

2083 Days Without B III, Day 1524 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Well, they will not sing songs about this day. Or any day.

But I did write your book, B, two of them, actually. “My Turn To B III,” you know, like “It’s My Turn To Fly” from The Urge, in the movie “Titan A.E.” Urges, Braxton, Eww!

Let’s instead stick to pop culture that doesn’t involve me sending you to your room…

How about the Rainbow Bridge? Dark Humor or a bad joke. Either way, uncool, right?

Anyway, “I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself.” And you know I do that through being a Pop Culture Whore. “The Mighty” (Freak the Mighty), “Finding Carter” (Little Lyndon, Tiny Taylor), etc. And so I was thinking of you and your brother, Braxton the Brave and Virgil the Valiant. However, your brother has some work to do. “Let him grow up some more.” Really!

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

I could use that advice myself, if I’m to know “Glory.” If you’re keeping score, B, that’s three movies, one TV show, two books, and one song. Yesterday I talked to Dear E about all the things I’ve been forgetting and the needless things I can always recall, like “Toys”:

Memories of things that never happened
These are always the hardest to forget
The Mirror Song, Thomas Dolby ‧ 1992

But your brother and I were walking today, and I caught sight of his growing whiskers, the white, the gray… I swear, Lord of the Rings, now? All this talk of twins, close brothers and sisters, mothers and daughters. Will we get to Jahara Jayde today? Maybe. But B III

“He seemed so wise… and ancient, like the first dog who ever walked the earth.”
Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey

Virgil is getting older. Six years old, on the 20th. Not even half your age yet, and I am so worried, B. Just Survive Somehow.

It’s why I split up my accounts, so there would be no mistake between Necessary and FAFO money. I’m trying to be… Responsible. Hell, I would take bravery, valiantly, gallantry. Pretty much the same thing. And it wouldn’t matter, B: “I got soul, but I’m not a soldier.” I’m not a warrior nor a knight. I talked about being a savage, but no, B III:

“A knight in shining armor is a man who has never had his metal [or mettle] truly tested”
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The path of the “Sorcerer,” the wizard, necromancer, or warlock. Like A.J. Markam’s Succubus, Eric Vall’s Satan’s Sorority Girls, Rodzil’s LaBraun’s Dystopian Girls, etc. Powerful women all surrounding one man. Whatever’s my “superpower,” Braxton Barks?

Honestly, “The Unfinished Archive,” including Jahara Jayde, because your father is responsible… Magic Glasses/MIMA. Me? Good? Braxton The Responsible, Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad