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Legacy 066 -Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V-

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My boys know that if anyone comes knocking on the door, it’s not a good thing… Well, except for B’s Favorite Girl, or what’s that smell? Steak! V won’t have to worry about either this year because I’m broke. T-Minus 2-Days. “Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V”

Saturday, September 5, 2026

Legacy 066 -Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Is that an E-Day wish? You know what I would wish for Lunalesca. Braxton’s life. My…

Well, if the Grim Reaper got off his ass… I won’t be starving for the next few days, my lady. I did as I told Lady Sophia yesterday. I got a cake. It’s Emergence Day tradition.

Four cans of Bloom, a case of bottled water, and a box of chicken. Did I spoil myself, Lu?

A pack of AAA batteries and a strawberry milkshake. But I’m afraid I’m going to leave Uber Eats and DoorDash terribly disappointed this year. Me, Braxton, and Virgil’s Emergence Day meal usually comes out to $55.00. I got $20.00. And Braxton, help me if the food truck is closed or gone on Labor Day/Emergence Day. Never thought of that, ha.

I never thought of a lot of things… Braxton dying…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Seeing forty-two. I don’t want to be forty-two, Lunalesca. Hell! I didn’t want to be one year, month, week, day, or even second. As much as I hate this month and don’t forget January, we don’t skip months here- 28 Days Later franchise. Maybe I’ll watch zombie movies for E-Day. Off topic, but Infected and Dead/Zombies are different, thank you. Seriously, that bugs the Hell out of me, but no more so than getting older. I am too old, Lu.

“Forget what we’re told. Before we get too old. Show me a garden that’s burstin’ into life.”
Chasing Cars (2006)

I might as well be out there “Chasing Cars,” limos, ambulances, a hearse. And if I chose to get busy living instead of dying, I could Uber, DoorDash, and Lyft. Whatever. M Anime tells me about all these creeps and weirdos. But none for me.

Nothing for me. Same thing my bank account tells me. But a full stomach’s awesome.

However, what about tomorrow? Worse, what about Monday? Tuesday is my sister’s birthday. Wednesday is one of my boss’s birthdays… Also payday… I’m above 2g…

That’s it? Especially when M Anime is getting closer every day. Braxton doesn’t want me joining him anytime soon. I’m ducking my Olds, but that will fail, Dear Lady Lunalesca.

“I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
Wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
I dare you to tell me, I dare you to”
Shinedown (2005)

It’s inevitable, and Virgil is running around here someplace, usually bawling his head off or acting on his brother’s behalf, saying, “I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor.” At least he doesn’t need to worry about me. Does Uber or DoorDash deliver drinks? Dashing Uber’s Hopes B-V

2043 Days Without B III, Day 1484 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 062 -Fur B-V And Strippers-

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I hate this damn month. Next to January… 10 years ago I had more capital, confidence, and can-do attitude. Today, over $200 in cash, gone. I guess I can look at naughty things on the computer. And my girl promised her caboose. Fur B-V And Strippers

Tuesday, September 1, 2026

Legacy 062 -Fur B-V And Strippers-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? My very real, very HUMAN wife. What is this, Independence Day? I’m worried about E-Day.

And my boys. My boys! I miss the days I could send Braxton to his room. He don’t look for trouble, but trouble looks for him. And now he’s on the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, or wherever. The point is he’s not in timeout. Honestly, Little Virgil’s the neediest s.o.b sometimes.

And I can’t lock him up for nothing. Not even you and the Neon Jungle’s “Trouble” not a good stripper song for you? It’s not like I have any cash either. It’s the “1st Of Tha Month,” and where’s my money? Is $200 enough for a lap dance? Writing? Blogging?

“Blogging is not writing; it’s graffiti with punctuation.”
Contagion (2011)

Dude in Contagion had it right. And here I am about to be forty-two in six days. Last time I can call myself Forty-One, Ben-Hur.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

A slave, not a doctor, not a director or pornographic passions, a decider of language.

Father, can’t you just say “writer”? Braxton and Virgil would like to know. I’m sure our two-leggeds would say the same. I can’t say I was stripped of such a title I never earned, ok.

Fucker that I am. As in the guy that fucks around too much. The guy fucking you. Do I have that to look forward to if nothing else on E-Day? Presents, gifts, desires, and finally

Finding myself at forty-two. I know where I want to be. “Always with Me, Always with you.” But where will be. Adam and Eve without Eden. Naked as “God,” though I am a fan of a woman who shaves, love.

And with The Magic Glasses/MIMA. That’s another thing I’ve been thinking about this afternoon, my love. If not worrying about Journey 062 B III Of E-Day, Meditation 062 Endings B Through V or Tale 062 B A Storybook Virgil, of course it’s been Legacy 061 -Virgil Will B Eating-. I swear, the things technology can do. Other than liking myself

Would that be the worst thing? I’m a bad man, my dearest. However, loving? Fucking?

The “Shape Of You” keeps me out of trouble lawfully. But living? Braxton and Virgil.

Hell! What about our family of HUMANS? Sometimes I feel like we’re trapped in a “Vivarium,” And things like fatherhood, which I want and love, are amazing. My E-Day wasn’t planned. Fur B-V And Strippers

2039 Days Without B III, Day 1480 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

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My favorite hentais? First, we’d still be here. Second, don’t judge me. Not much chance of that. If we’re talking about V, breaking his heart, and M Anime broke my heart. But we’re Back In Love Again. But what is love? Not hentai. Judgy Of Animes B-V

Saturday, August 29, 2026

Legacy 059 -Judgy Of Animes B-V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Lies! But put owning an anime studio as one of my goals. Dreams? Wishes? E-Day Wish…

Fuck me! You know, for a second there, Lunalesca… I had a moment of positivity.

Honestly, another year where you can call me Comic Book Guy from The Simpsons: “Oh, I’ve wasted my life.” And for the record, I haven’t watched The Simpsons in a very long time, Lunalesca. Peanuts was the story of my life… As Charlie Brown, not as Franklin. I didn’t think you were one of those people, Lu. Rocko’s Modern Life was practically my bible for adulting. Hell, Virgil, Spunky, and Snoopy. Noticing a pattern, Lunalesca.

However, today I’m hoping to break that pattern. No, Virgil is alive and well… Wishing. I’m not going to cry over Braxton right this second. Or be pissy at their Potential Future Stepmom, M Anime.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

So get to it, eh? Or in the words of Cody Rhodes, What Do You Wanna Talk About? Well, uh, Anime. Hentai and Ecchi, specifically. Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny? Sigh!

01: Bible Black
02: Casual Romance Club -L’etude de l’amour-
03: “Cool Devices” Operation 07: Yellow Star (Ayana)
04: Colorful (TV Series 1999)
05: Desert Island Story X
06: Desperate Carnal Housewives, Hitozuma Ryoujoku Sankanbi
07: Discipline: The Record of a Crusade
08: Eiken (TV Mini Series 2003–2004)
09: Hajimete no Hitozuma A Mother’s Love Tomoko
10: Himawari wa Yoru ni Saku (Hisato Azuma)
11: Isaku
12: Kite (Sawa)
13: Kuroinu Kedakaki Seijo wa Hakudaku ni Somaru (Claudia Levantine)
14: Mezzo Forte (Mikura)
15: Midnight Sleazy Train, Saishuu Chikan Densha
16: Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance
17: Sex Taxi\Kojin Taxi (Kyouko Sakai)
18: Shusaku
19: Virgin Roster: Shukketsubo
20: The Blackmail: Tomorrow Never Ends

Why 20? My Dear Lady Lunalesca, I could go on forever and a day. Are any Hentais love stories? Again, I’ll be here all day trying to find some. Hell, I knew some softcore pornos that were all about the love. How things change. The “man” I am, judging Hentai.

Perhaps I’ll share this with M Anime. I’ve spent most of the week judging her. And then thinking What Is Love? Baby, don’t hurt me. Don’t hurt me no more. Yet I’m a sadist, hmm.

She’s a Masochist with a Breeding Kink (but real). Judging Lovers… Judgy Of Animes B-V

2036 Days Without B III, Day 1477 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 055 -Braxton’s Hand, Virgil’s Pa-

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Tuesday, August 25, 2026

Legacy 055 -Braxton’s Hand, Virgil’s Pa-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And as a machine/program once said… You know The Merovingian from 2003’s The Matrix Revolutions:

“It is remarkable how similar the pattern of love is to the pattern of insanity.”
The Merovingian, The Matrix Revolutions

I wish I could say it was the heat. You married a crazy man. Or at the very least, love…

A grieving one. But for once this isn’t about Braxton breaking my heart. Or how I’m breaking Virgil’s. This is something we have in common. While I’m drumming up movie quotes, here is another from “Love Story” 1970: “Love means never having to say you’re sorry.” And we have both said that until we’re blue in the face. I only wish I had died, ha.

Not you though! Braxton barked the other day that I try and tell you “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die.” Our love didn’t die. But I’ve been thinking about the anniversary of our breakup last year. When’d we meet again?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

No clue. I don’t remember hellos. And I’m “Too Good at Goodbyes.” I remember pain way more than pleasure. Even Saturday, January 24, 2026 wasn’t about us saying hi, hmm.

It was meant for closure. And wouldn’t you know it, we got back together. You see, you were the first one to make a commitment, and then, magically, fucking left. Blood is one thing: my Olds, my sister… other family. B III didn’t leave on his own accord, my love.

That’s why it’s Treachery. Braxton would have fought to the end. Virgil is trapped, love.

That’s another story. But you? You chose hello, and as nothing happened, you chose bye.

Goodbye, really? Is it any wonder the Magic Glasses/MIMA created The Unfinished Archive? Goodbye’s forbidden.

And I’ve been thinking about the differences beloved look at my sons, for example, SIGH.

Every day it is/was “Love you B, Love you, Braxton.” Now it’s “Later V, Later Virgil.” “I’m An Asshole,” I know. But Braxton was damn near human. Virgil, after all this time, is still somewhat a pet. He’s my son regardless, but a pet. And you love, before Sunday, August 24, 2025, went from being on Braxton’s level “The Blackjack Scale” of 21 to below Virgil’s at 18. And the fact that you can’t make it back up hurts me more than it hurts you.

“I’m a killer. I’m a murdering bastard, you know that. And there are consequences to breaking the heart of a murdering bastard.”
Bill, Snake Charmer, Kill Bill: Volume 2 (2004)

I’m not as bad as Bill, but I wanted to know how I could punish you. Why? My rib. Your hand. Braxton’s Hand, Virgil’s Pa

2032 Days Without B III, Day 1473 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 052 -Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines-

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Saturday, August 22, 2026

Legacy 052 -Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… But I wouldn’t behave like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, or Mark Zuckerberg. And as always, FDT!

Yet another morning and he ain’t dead yet… I wonder how much time that would get me for wishing that was today’s headline? Trust me, Lunalesca, I’ve done much worse.

Into The Badlands, Fear The Walking Dead, and if you aren’t into Mother\Daughter or Sister\Sister, the WWE’s Judgment Day stable. What am I talking about? I’m just saying there are worse things than “Dead Presidents,” the movie Lunalesca… Seriously! ‘wink’

But today’s headline, Lu, is, I’m still “Alive.” Rats! Body-wise, I’m Feeling So Good Today

But unlike Charlie Brown… he didn’t have to mourn Snoopy. I still mourn my Braxton.

And it’s not like his brother has much of a life. Black and white, much like his eyesight, My Lady. And what am I doing?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Much like yesterday, “Times Like These,” “I guess I’m stuck here riffing for you,” Luna.

Song lyrics, movies, and even sports. Can I put one thing down on the page that is actually mine, Lu? Money. How many books did I buy last night, being an idiot, because I only want to get rid of 300 Kindle Points before watching them dwindle by the month’s end, Lady Lu? Pledged To Him 15, Sleepover Harem Part 2, and Blank Checks. SIGH

Do you remember Lunalesca, how I said that the right book seems to find me? So between the two books about harems… Blank Checks poses the question: how much money would it take to make my dreams come true? Physically fine. Mentally? Where’s my obituary?

It wouldn’t be front page news. If I had Stephen King’s because I don’t want to be J.K. Rowling… I have standards. Yeah, this coming from a man who wants to become a New York Times Best-Selling Author, who wants to own a production company rivaling Bang Bros, Pure Taboo, and Fakehub. I want to own a brothel out Nevada way or California, My Lady. And after all that, a small bookstore in a farming town. Seriously, my dear Lu.

Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom wants a farm with a white picket fence, flowers, and all the food she can grow to sell at the local farmer’s market. Luna.

Everything Front page story. Three babies, resurrecting Braxton, someone worth life. Braxton And Virgil’s Headlines.

2029 Days Without B III, Day 1470 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 048 -B’s On Birthdays Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 18, 2026

Legacy 048 -B’s On Birthdays Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I didn’t forget? The phone didn’t warn me. The phone, Glow Box, Black Mirror…

What about the truth, my love? Happy Birthday! Welcome to Level 38! Uh, Birthday Suit

Of course, I’m thinking about you naked. I’m always thinking about you naked when I’m not grieving, groaning, or being gross, just being a guy. How I grieve Braxton, always…

But today let’s talk about the second worst day of my existence. Today ain’t right. Honestly, “The time is always right to do what is right.” Seriously, Martin Luther King…

“Did he just quote Martin Luther King?
Yep
Yes, he did.”
The Menu

“The right man in the wrong place can make all the difference in the world.”
Half-Life 2

The Menu… If I were a better man, I would be planning one for you. Or we could watch the movie. And I’m a gamer, a pop culture whore, and my existence is a “Half-Life…”

Only today is about yours. My woman. Your life. Us. The truth. A Man Provides.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And isn’t it “Ironic” that I said I’d never lie to you but I will. “Put on a Happy Face.”

Because the truth is, I hate birthdays… Well, mine for real. Birthday? No. Emergence Day

E-Day… Gears of War franchise. Emergence, Existence, Extinction. Evolution. Seriously?

Thinking about the Day Job and how it’s a slap in the face to celebrate wasting fifteen years there. Nearly as long as I had Braxton. Now imagine saying that for nearly forty-two years—every breath, beat of my heart, and being so broken. And yet here we are, love.

Here WE are. And I’ll say “I Want It That Way” and “As Long As You Love Me.” You do.

And I hate that I have to lie to you.

To so many. When the truth is this. If I’m not praying that I don’t have to wake up, love.

Then I’m wishing that I was never born at all. And when did that become my wish? Um, sometime between 6 and 7 years old. When did Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (The Arcade Game) come out? Because my grandmommy didn’t get it for me. Movie…

Anyway, is that what I’m getting you for your birthday… The truth. Receipt is warranted.

You’d prefer babies, all our furry little ones, a pretty farm with a white picket fence, flowers all around, and us selling produce at the Farmer’s Market on Saturday Mornings.

A pretty dress? I got nothing. But love? BUT LOVE. Birthdays… B’s On Birthdays, Virgil

2025 Days Without B III, Day 1466 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

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Saturday, August 15, 2026

Legacy 045 -YARD It’s B, V-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Because my girl wants a farm. Braxton wanted more territory and hated people. A “pot” farm…

Just Kidding! But no, I would actually grow weed, peppers (Carolina Reaper), and I have a thing about black roses. But when I started “The Unfinished Archive,” one of my first Animas (unnamed), but she’s known as “Lily” because of, well, lilies—certain blonde girl.

Anyway, I would plant millions in honor of my son. I still want to build him a temple someday. Hell! I want to find some plant that could bring him back. Uh, he’s ashes, Lu.

And can I stop thinking about Rapunzel and Mother Gothel naked for a little while?

Seriously, Lady Lunalesca, what is it about the mother/daughter dynamic that makes my “monster” grow these days? I’ve been all about Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex Guidance as of late. SIGH

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why am I always thinking with a HARD six inches? Because at seven, I have to think about that KAREN at the Day Job Thursday. Once again, Lady Lunalesca, I don’t even know if her word, “Disgusting,” or that note she left on the boss’s door was even about me. But I see everything… Not that note, though. So I blind myself with bigger yabbos.

This brings me back to my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. “I’m An Asshole.”

She made a list of her thoughts throughout the day, and guess whose number one?

Lunalesca, “It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.” You know my list of priorities. My boys, then her, then other women’s yabbos, then fucking writing, blogging The Unfinished Archive…

Unfinished, like “The Long Walk.” But I feel like “The Running Man.” What I want…

Lunalesca, at the end of the day, someone to “Stand By Me.” Stephen King, seriously.

Luna, I have no idea where I’m going. And most days I’m not gaining any ground whatsoever. Like Cameron Frye: “I gotta take a stand.” But if I’m going to stick with the Stephen King motif, I have to make “The Stand.” Either way, “I’m going to defend it. Right or wrong, I’m going to defend it.” “I’m starting with the Man in the Mirror.”

However, Lady Lunalesca, A MAN PROVIDES! So I have to move. Like a Fucking Helldiver? I advance. Sometimes by miles, sometimes by inches. Lord, I wish! YARD It’s B, V

2022 Days Without B III, Day 1463 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I ain’t telling Virgil, “Now, I ain’t sayin’ you’re a gold digger” either. Wife

Wife and life… One and the same and both as Doug’s Mr. Dink would say, “Very expensive.” Seriously? That was kinda dirty and also pretty dark. And why is that?

Honestly, my beloved, I wake up with all this love, and I don’t leave a drop for myself. So we need more kids… three two-leggeds and two four-leggeds, and yet I want between your legs yet again? And at the end of the day, love, this stands: A MAN PROVIDES!

Less yelling and more Gus Fring from “Breaking Bad,” I do some sketchy ass things…

Anything and everything for the sake of this family. But do you know when Braxton became so expensive? When he was dying. But that’s a one-time deal. There’s no Acceptance.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s the living that’s subscription-based. And instead of planning what is it I do, beloved?

“Dream, dream, dream, dream.” Which would work if I were one of “The Everly Brothers” or Dr. Martin Luther King Jr: “All I Have To Do Is Dream,” “I Have A Dream.”

Hell! I would take the “Fifteen Million Merits” Selma version of Abba’s “I Have a Dream.” But dreams aren’t paying bills. And I’m feeling pretty much like “Bing.”

Whatever… Like the dream I had last night. I was lost in a mall, the Mall of the Millennium. Daria season 1 episode 5 “Malled”. And why haven’t I added Daria to “The Unfinished Archive” yet? Is it/she less expensive than the women of the hentai series Saimin Seishidou, hmm?

It seems I’m the one who’s shopping around. Not in reality, my love. I love you and only you; Braxton, Virgil, our two-legged kids, my Ma, occasionally my younger sister.

Beloved, I may be shopping around for my balls, guts, spine, and my voice. But again, love is everywhere until I need some for myself. And it’s like how you talk about your “Shadow Work”. The more lovers I ‘create’ (bullshit, bullshit, laughs hysterically). SIGH

Reika Kurashiki and her daughter Reina Kurashiki. Natsumi Obata and her daughter Yui Obata. Anyway, the more love I TRY to surround myself with, the easier it comes to me?
But then you shop for my love, my time, and “My Dick…” Why we’re married. Everything. Women B Shoppin’ Virgil

2018 Days Without B III, Day 1459 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

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Saturday, August 8, 2026

Legacy 038 -Virgil Shadows B Space-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… But I wouldn’t hire Middy Elliott, which is a shame. I think M Anime likes her…

And? I could use some of that, put my thing down, flip it, and reverse it. Like I, Work It

Like today’s title. Shouldn’t that be in reverse? Virgil’s here. Braxton? Might as well be.

And I’m still worried about both: the living and the dead. Get Busy Livin’ or Get Busy Dyin’. Myself? Know Thyself? Shadow Work as my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom says.

The Unfinished Archive. And comedy always comes in threes. Beauty, Brains, Breeding, Bounty. That’s four, and from the 1990s movie Cry-Baby. And I ain’t ‘intelligent.’

Lunalesca, since I don’t have the brains, I ain’t got no bounty. I was telling M Anime this morning that all I want is a frosty glass of “Blue” Gatorade. Or a Raspberry Lemonade Bloom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Simple, wouldn’t you say? Again, I have no bounty but more than brains. More books!

Last night I bought three books I couldn’t all harem-related, which leads me to beauty.

Lunalesca, why do I want so many beautiful women? Don’t I have “The Most Beautiful Girl In the World” in M Anime? She nearly joined a harem herself, dearest Lunalesca.

Now she’s “The Phoenix Queen” in The Unfinished Archive. But I could go on forever…

And with all of the problems I have… 99 Problems. I’ve been dreaming up even more.

For example, the Magic Glasses/MIMA says that Tetsuo Amano, the Conductor of the Midnight Sleazy Train, along with Fallout’s Vault 68, represent unbridled lust.

Seriously!? Lady Amari “The Candied Matron…” Day Job? Sweet Life?

What about breeding? I’ve always wanted to be a father. Braxton, Virgil, are my children.

I’ve always said, even though I didn’t pour the Bisquick, Braxton will remain my pancake. And Virgil? Despite how he makes my FEARS seem miniature or minuscule, Lunalesca. Another insight from MIMA: my boys wear small black armor… But anyway.

Virgil is my son, just like his brother Braxton. But what about human kids? Two-leggeds? I swear, M Anime must have a breeding kink because she wants kids ASAP, Lunalesca!

And now I’m thinking about it since I introduced Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou. I’m feeling like I do so much wanting something to show I’m here. And it’s nothing. Shadow. Virgil Shadows B Space

“Be the body, not the shadow. Hold space.”
Mother Amina, The Book of Clarence (2023)

2015 Days Without B III, Day 1456 of Virgil’s Arrival

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Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

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Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough to get up when it’s light enough. But I need to get up earlier.

4 AM, like one of my favorite motivational speeches. 3 AM, as Eric Thomas preaches about. 2 AM, around the time I found Virgil creeping up this morning. Seriously, Love.

The sun, my firstborn son, my secondborn… And how many sons do we have with our three two-legged children? No, I didn’t forget. But with this world’s influence… Surviving MAGA…

Never a sure thing, but what I am sure about, much like Dante, is this. “In the middle of the journey of our life I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost.” But don’t I tell you all the time, “Baby You’re My Light.” Richard Hawley sings it better. And where do you think Virgil got his name from?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I swear if I die, Hell won’t be roaring fire but glowing screens. The Glow Box, Braxton would call it. And that’s my thought for today. My Illumination. Lightness? Beauty?

Honestly, am I “Feeling super, super, super su$cidal” every day? Really? But a little less.

I’ll tell you, I’m in plenty of pain today. Effing Blue Balls! Between having you as a life, the dark fantasies I have, and The Unfinished Archive… Strange thought, beautiful… Remember how I added Hana to the story last week. What? I really got into Kairi Sane for a bit. And then Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou a couple of days ago. I was trying to get to know their characters so… “The Lantern Vault.

Not really my idea. The Magic Glasses/MIMA. Anyway, that’s what I need for me too.

Because the darkness… More sleep, my story, shutting my eyes as I finally let go inside your beautiful, tight… Okay, my balls can’t take that right now. The eff they can, but “Aziz Light! I remember the conversation we had about “casual sex,” and I asked why it would be casual, and what you meant was sex while I was doing something or relaxing. The Fifth Element would be the perfect movie to test that theory. I’ve seen it plenty.

Anyway, the thing is, life is heavy, the “Weight Of It All.” And all the sun does is illuminate my failures. Hellfire, the C-Train, Pop Culture. Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST

2011 Days Without B III, Day 1452 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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