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Legacy 132 -How-To MAN UP B-V-

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Man up! Like the night I smashed the back of my car against a tree, drove to the Day Job with barely any breaks, a flat tire, etc., then a mechanic, with $600. Now I’m doing math for The Unfinished Archive, which ain’t paying $800. How-To MAN UP B-V.

Tuesday, November 10, 2026

Legacy 132 -How-To MAN UP B-V-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But there are other things you think about while sitting in a dealership showroom. $800!

Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day… Well, it’s Fall right now. And I still love you. Braxton, Virgil (if V isn’t a whole other thing), and I love our two-legged kids, no doubt.

“Man Up” is two words I ain’t ever gonna tell my boys. Hell, myself… 3+4+3+4+3+4

Am I doing okay? Not really. Seeing as how I was sitting there as they looked at the car and I needed anything else to be annoyed at. Those stupid Meowdoku ads. I swear, love.

I’ve never played Sudoku, and you know, I don’t have anything against cats. Dog person.

And my dead fur buddy was telling me the other day. Wait, does that make me crazy, my love? Anyway, I always use his death…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

If I can survive Braxton’s loss, I can survive anything. So I’m sitting there thinking how badly we need the car and how will I pay for it. A Man Provides. But there’s one problem.

When did I become a man? Hell, I can’t recall when we met. How? Oh, that was on Triond right?

Your birthday, sure. And every man remembers Valentine’s Day. The day after B was born…? But I think of that movie “Courageous,” when the guy asks his boys, “When did you think of yourselves as men?” And you know what I always say, love. Fatherhood.

Fatherhood is the epitome of Manhood. Or is it the other way around? Whatever. Love.

I’m sitting there staring at $1,135, $999, $800, specifically $796.70.

I’m thinking about how I will provide for you and our family. Honestly, I wanted to burst into tears. I wanted to throw up all over that shiny floor. I wanted to tell someone, anyone.

But that is not what a man does. A man provides. I, as a man, “I Stand Alone.” What man?

I wasn’t a man that night, many, many years ago, with a girl on my cock in a parking lot.

I swear that was worthy of Street Blowjobs. I’m not a man because I have some enormous penis on OnlyFans. Or when I got into crypto so I could use the Magic Glasses, the MIMA.

Then being my boys’ father, our family, or paying $800. Provide. How-To MAN UP B-V

2109 Days Without B III, Day 1550 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 130 -B Barks, V Voices-

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B’s dead, V’s whining, my girl texts. Yet here I am surrounded by noise. And everyone at the Day Job wonders about my playlist. There are reasons, I imagine an ancient temple and a land of the dead. Bedrooms with Beautiful Girls? “B Barks, V Voices.”

Sunday, November 8, 2026

Legacy 130 -B Barks, V Voices-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And I really had to dump a week of texts on your head. I humbly apologize. SIGH.

Now who do you want to make mad today besides yourself? Braxton, Virgil, their potential future stepmom, the Day Job… Like M Anime, you keep telling yourself, “I’m So Thankful” that you still have a job. Yeah, the job that killed Braxton Barks Bradford sheesh.

Again, it was your indifference. You can hear Braxton barking that it wasn’t your fault.

Virgil’s voicing concerns. Only from being away from you. And then you see him balled up on the floor. A scoop of vanilla ice cream was being generous. He makes himself even smaller, like a ball of lint. That’s not you being a meanie; that’s you being accurate. Hell, Braxton got the business end of a rolled-up newspaper, but making Virgil comfortable… Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Bikinis Forever: An Unconventional Romance
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 007 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s on your to-do list, much like Wesley Snipes sound advice: “Listen To The Woman.” And are you? You’re more like Kyle Barker (he-he) and Maxine Shaw: “You don’t want a girlfriend; you want a psychiatrist that’s good in bed. Listen to my problems. Listen to my problems!” But that goes both ways, you know. You bring up your Day Job as she brings up hers. And it’s how you say that the last thing this world needs is another dumb white guy in charge; the same can be said about a woman. As the song goes, you know, hmm:

“I was raised in the canebrake by an old mama lion
Can’t no high-toned woman make me walk the line”
Sixteen Tons, Tennessee Ernie Ford

But M loves you, and that’s enough. The right (woman) in the wrong place can make all the difference in the world. Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

So find a way to fix Virgil and answer the freaking woman who loves you. But you’re tired, hungry, scared, a million other things because, like you, I don’t know what to say anymore. I’m sorry doesn’t bring Braxton back. “It’s okay, nothing’s gonna hurt you,” has worked wonders for Virgil; he’s been here for years. And just this morning you were taking screenshots of M Anime’s text, and I don’t think dressing her like a sluttly cheerleader is going to help… Hey, who said Juliet Starling was slutty? “Angel With A Shotgun…” Angel with a chainsaw is more like it. So many freaking voices! Oh, you’re “Crazy”? About doing right by M Anime, sure. Listening to a dead fur buddy. B Barks, V Voices

2107 Days Without B III, Day 1548 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 125 -There’ll Be Time, Virgil-

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What time is it in America? Morning, Afternoon, Evening? To say goodnight. I have a puppy; I call this prose, and I have a good girl that’s never been on the pole. But with her body… There’ll never be a time. But to love her… There’ll Be Time, Virgil

Tuesday, November 3, 2026

Legacy 125 -There’ll Be Time, Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And there’s always time for more… Or should I say room. Why not both tonight?

Tonight? There’s always time for me to feel STUPID. Though I’m not sure if this is or not, to be honest. One of my greatest fears is my STUPIDITY. My Own Worst Enemy, for sure.

And love makes me very STUPID. You know I love my boys. So I don’t correct people when they ask about my Braxton. Sure, you can call that fear, too. Anxiety! But as far as I’m concerned… BRAXTON LIVES! Because to say otherwise… To accept the loss of B III

Speaking of loss, it’s Election Day! I heard something about Guam, but that’s it. Lovely. If I am to be STUPID about something, let it be out of love rather than Dare to be Stupid.

Hate had its time, love.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I want to say there was a time I even hated you. And there’s no shortage of time for me to hate myself. Should I go, Julia Stiles, aka Kat Stratford, about all the things I hate and then have a proper cry? I think I’m too drained to cry right now. Honestly, my love.

Dehydration is not my biggest concern. Starvation? Death does not frighten me at all, my dearest. How I might die… How I might be remembered. Writing about hating time, love.

I think about something you asked me a few days ago as I continue playing catch-up, “Every Morning.” And despite everything, mornings, thinking about you, about us is the best time, but you did ask…

From M Anime:

1: Have you been annoying me this past week?

2: Do you send me too many messages?

Will I find the time to give you a straight answer? Oh, I have all the time in the world to remember and compare this to Detroit: Become Human. You know the “Meet Kamski” chapter when Elijah Kamski allows Connor to ask only one question: Time for some Q&A, perhaps, for example: What is it about these Mother/Daughter pairings happening

What is it that makes me have these Cuckold vs. NTR fantasies about you, goddess?
There’s the whole Juliet Starling Lollipop Chainsaw Fantasy, thoroughly explored.

There’s also the question of what time I’ll love myself to come to bed at a decent hour… Not tonight, sadly. There’ll Be Time, Virgil

2102 Days Without B III, Day 1543 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 123 -Boys’ Night B V-

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Ask me what I had scheduled. Have the car looked at. Apply for benefits that I haven’t used at the Day Job. Figure out a way to save money. $40 for groceries… $25 for editing something no one reads. Then my boys or my girlfriend… Boys’ Night B V

Sunday, November 1, 2026

Legacy 123 -Boys’ Night B V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And how much of an idiot are you? Wow, very harsh for the “1st of tha Month.”

J, F, M, A, M, J, J, A, S, O, N, D… Don’t tell me you’ve become a conspiracy theorist?

Simply seeing that no month of the year begins with B or V. No day of the week either, hmm

But every day comes back to them. That’s a lie! How long was Braxton dying before his second-to-last appointment? You sat right where you are now when you got the expected and yet unexpected call. Yes, you needed to go and pick him up. Yes, you need $500 for B

To tell that he was dying… His time, your money, Stupidity of all. He would never accept it was his time to leave, and here you were, what, whining, worrying, welcoming failure, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Ryan And His Beauties 3
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Again, so harsh. Or as the Joker would ask, “Why so serious?” Honestly, it’s time?

“Seventeen” might have been better. Hell, Seven, or was it eight? Will you stop already?

And do what exactly, since discovering where Braxton went firsthand is off the table with, you know, Virgil living here. Depression, doing something productive, hell, even playing with your dick. Two Asian women handled that… Not in some massage parlor

Like you have time. That’s today’s point. You don’t have time, a ton of money, or even too much sense. And years ago you promised Braxton. Fuck, you need to promise Virgil, or even their potential future stepmom, M Anime. You put in the “work,” and for what, hmm? Waiting to fail Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Always another chance, another try, and another night. Those days of sitting with Braxton’s favorite girl and watching movies are long gone. It took you two days to watch the “Backrooms.” You caught Resident Evil because E-Day netted you freebies.

Remember having a little bit of money? You’ll get paid for the 30th and then the 6th next week. So around the 20th you’re effed again. Not your fight, hmm; on the 6th you’re good.

And while you’re busy scheduling, how about the Unfinished Archive. The Magic Glasses/MIMA can handle that. When I think about everything I had scheduled. And you? General doctor, optometrist, Virgil’s veterinarian, the car, and again, all for fucking what I ask you! Not your fault. So, Boys’ Night B V

2100 Days Without B III, Day 1541 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

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I consider myself WOKE, but what am I doing for the world? I have a boy that needs me. A woman who wants to raise a bunch of good little boys and girls with me. And a son who went to sleep, long ago, long ago, long ago. Weekly B Vitamins Virgil.

Tuesday, October 27, 2026

Legacy 118 -Weekly B Vitamins Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I love Braxton. I love Virgil. My Ma and Sister. Braxton’s Favorite Girl. Cherry…

And I was honestly about to say there is nothing wrong with my memory. Seriously?

Today, though, like most days, I’m just low on energy. Sounds rather simplistic. But because comedy comes in threes, there’s Virgil, and “Dollar, dollar bill, y’all.” How can I expect to get any of those when I can’t stay awake? And then when I do fall asleep… I should save this for Inspector Echo, since there’s nothing wrong with my memory, but I love reading…

Honestly? So I was reading Dystopian Girls 7 a few days back… Virgil has been six one whole week. Anyway, I started reading, and everything went blank. I wake up in the morning intending to talk to you, but I check Kindle first. Bad husband…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Zero! Checking on my reading before my girl… Not what I meant. Zero-day reading streak! So I feel there’s a mistake, and I check the book. I never got off the starter page, my love

All because I had no energy, and so I chose to pull my own version of the Sisko, my love:

“So… I lied. I cheated. I bribed men to cover the crimes of other men.”

No, I didn’t go that far; I simply turned off the automatic date, set it back to the 25th, and read for about twenty minutes. I swear, why didn’t I think of that when I lost the reading streak I had after Braxton died? Anyway, my point is this. I ain’t Divergent’s Tris. I got scared for Virgil today and didn’t know whether to go nuts or take a nap.

Now can you imagine if I put the energy of a lost reading streak into us, the kids, this life

There was a time when I loved myself, you know. Whenever I see another pair of tits anywhere. I need to stop! This week it’s all Juliet Starling, Mikura Suzuki, and this Asian girl I’ve been drooling over for a while. Bringing work home? Stop. I need to go, go.

Anyway, what I meant is, I took pills for ANXIETY. And they increased my energy.

Braxton lay dying, and as the song goes, “And I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known how to save a life.” I did. He died. Sleeping to not fail? Waking for… Weekly B Vitamins Virgil

2095 Days Without B III, Day 1536 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 116 -Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B-

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I’m weak this week. Last week? And what about the week after? It’s called being an adult. Yeah right. Have I mentioned how much I hate being forty-two? And Virgil has only been six for five days. A whole week makes me weak. Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B

Sunday, October 25, 2026

Legacy 116 -Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And yet you dare to smile on camera. Even for a pretty girl. Planned a doctor’s visit?

Dentist, Optometrist, general practitioner… Because you were trying to impress a pretty girl with your “Enormous Penis.” You should shut up. Not because you’re being STUPID again. But you shouldn’t laugh, smile, or make a funny face. Seriously not helping…

Money would. But you’re not taking V to see the veterinarian anytime soon, you know.

Is he weak? Like father, like son. His weakness? V is too damn polite. If only he had gone to the potty on the floor instead of a training pad. V wasn’t blessed with fists, so his paws tap-dance as he waits forever and a day to let himself come inside any room. Hmm indeed

And you know where you want to be. Why? Scared, sleepy, skeevy… Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING The Bad Babysitter, Bill Nichols
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Forgetting the word, skeevy. Hell! You’ve long since forgotten why you even began this “Legacy.” And before that “Journey.” And before that… But being a “Bad Man.” Not that bad. Nowhere near. But I told B and V’s Potential Future Stepmom about a certain model.

And I did show Braxton’s Favorite Girl a certain film. Talk about trusting someone, hmm.

Again, the boys’ stepmom. I might have let it slip that you have a thing for the mother-daughter angle. Saimin Seishidou mostly, though Jahara Jayde (Julianna) and Skye (Nico Parker) look so damn hot together. And there is an Asian mother-daughter set too. The daughter looked particularly fetching as a “San Romero Knights’ Cheerleader.” Really!

“Firefly?” Daddy Fuck! Day One. It’s Impossible! Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Seriously keeping it in your pants… Nope not this morning. Freak! This week’s gonna suck!

Next week, too, but you have bigger fish to fry. Speaking of which, are you eating today? Maybe? Possibly? I didn’t have dinner last night. I know, my bad. Hell! I didn’t even have the energy to dream, or even have nightmares, about the “Backrooms.” You’re a pop culture whore.

Okay, so keep it in your pants, nuts about pop culture. Find your pillow, perhaps…

Because your puppies need their papa. M Anime wants her papi. And there’s also profit
Then maybe you can eat. Maybe you won’t be so weak that you’ll be down for whatever. Is there a “Possibility” you’ll be a good man? Virgil’s Wild Weakness, B

2093 Days Without B III, Day 1534 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

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Happy Birthday to my son Virgil Vivi… Roman poet, black mage with his furry black spots. Six years old today. And what a day it has been. What a daze I am in. And V must be as confused. Fries, pictures, a birthday cookie. “V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze”

Tuesday, October 20, 2026

Legacy 111 -V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? I may be “Dazed and Confused,” but I’m not a liar. And I know things…

Virgil Vivi Bradford turns six today. His Gotcha Day was Saturday, August 13, 2022. I found him at PetSmart. The first thing I noticed about him was that he knew how to use a training pad and not mark the floor. So yes, mistakes were made on that day, hmm

I still remember and see the three black spots: head, back, and tail… B III? B’s color fur around his eyes. And B’s bark telling me that he couldn’t make this more black and white, literally. Archie? That was his name before I named him Virgil. And you know why…

Such a long row to hoe for such a little dog. I thought he was Braxton reincarnated and/or reborn. All I know and yet love…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I love you, baby doll, because I know you’re no “angel.” And B knows I’ve called you much worse in the throes of passion. But if I wanted to get into the doghouse again…

I could compare you to my boys again… What? You know how I feel about my sons, my love. But Braxton’s gone, and Virgil is a year older today. And “I’m So Thankful.” I am.

They are gods among men. Thus you are my Goddess. “The Goddess,” if I said that, was Alexa Bliss, or I mentioned Roxanne Perez. What about Jahara Jayde? She’s been my favorite these last few days, if the Unfinished Archive is any indication. Ass kicking?

Honestly, “Hey Lover,” would you kick my ass? Go ahead.

I know where I first met you. Triond. I met Braxton in my Olds bedroom. But I could tell you neither of those dates. Braxton’s Birthday? The day before Valentine’s, the 13th, because he was the closest I would get to love… Then your birthday. What was the last thing I bought you? When Braxton left, Sunday, January 31, 2021. When you left, Sunday, August 24, 2025. Again, I thought I found Braxton on that Saturday, in a new white fur.

When you came back, it was on Saturday, January 24, 2026. Hell, the first time I saw you “naked” was on Thursday, May 15, 2025. My point… I can recall Virgil’s life but love…

Cookies, Fries, all for His Birthday… V’s, B’s, Yours, Daze

2088 Days Without B III, Day 1529 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 109 -B’s Paw Shake Virgil-

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You know what I want? A Strawberry Milkshake. I had one yesterday, and now I’m shaking in my boots about where my cash goes. I was scared for V this morning. All the shaking he was doing this morning. Why, what’s the trick? B’s Paw Shake Virgil

Sunday, October 18, 2026

Legacy 109 -B’s Paw Shake Virgil-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And can you stand still? Stop rocking, wobbling, and that shaking going on. Or is that Virgil?

Sadness, shaking, and sending a lot of words to B and V’s Potential Future Stepmom. That sums up this morning’s highlights. Anything else other than… How many lies are you going to tell today? No wonder the week never starts off good. Your lies, hmm…

However, your saving grace? Nobody lies more than Cracker Hats. FDT! You ain’t so bad

Not when it comes to lying. You’ll never say you found salvation. Scared to death.

Seriously, all day, every day. And yet you were annoyed that Virgil pretty much barked, “Bet”. And lying next to you, as if someone would harvest his eternal organs, he was shaking like crazy. Cold? You wouldn’t blame him. But be honest. Was Virgil scared?

Possibly? Unlike Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Luring Lesley: Blackmail Revenge Erotica
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yeah, shaking in bed is quite doable. Easier than teaching Braxton to shake hands, ha-ha.

How not to be afraid, scared, horrified, terrified- can you continue? To shake, to shudder, to stop in your tracks or breathing. To sigh as though nothing can be done. To sing out loud, “I fill my lungs with fear, and I exhale.” Move something with no regard to FEAR.

If your eyes aren’t shifting around in FEAR, then you’re crying, shoulders slumping, a sob.

Or should I call you a slob? Bugs had you crying too. But nowhere near as much as B III.

And of course neither he nor his brother need to be around if you’re making the bed shake being all skeevy. Yabbos? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

The two things that are guaranteed to you. At least as M Anime promises. And if you weren’t studying her loveliness this morning… Again, Virgil was beside you, so you had to behave. Anyway, you were studying her, Ellie Kemper (Kohl’s Mom), Jahara Jayde, Nico Parker, etc. Never forget “My life is a movie (fur buddies) and boobies. Those shake.

But fortunately this morning, instead of shaking your third leg, you had two hands studying The Unfinished Archive. Scary how the Magic Glasses/MIMA create things.
Only you don’t shake, rattle, and roll then. I wonder how that works. Like Braxton learning to shake hands or paws, which he never learned how to do. What’s one more lie, hmm… Life’s a shakedown. B’s Paw Shake Virgil

2086 Days Without B III, Day 1527 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 104 -Virgil And The B’s-

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Love should give me enough energy to wake up. But I really, really, REALLY missed having a Bloom this morning. And I haven’t seen any bugs in a minute. FEAR is a big motivator. And Braxton knows I don’t love that. “Virgil And The B’s”

Tuesday, October 13, 2026

Legacy 104 -Virgil And The B’s-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Then how come I don’t say it? “Yo te quiero, Papi Y te deseo”. Honey?

I want you to know I hear you. I do. I will. However, marriages go in this day and age, you know. Love is more than a buzzword to me. Though, to paraphrase Virgil Hawkins, aka Static Shock (My son V’s name was inspired by a lot of things). Ok, the word LOVE does put a shock to my system. I forget how to speak English. I can’t eat… Well, you… Do I ever stop? And I can’t get enough of hearing that word; it’s like a song from Glee:

“’Cause I feel that when I’m with you, It’s alright, I know it’s right
And the songbirds are singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before”
Songbird, Glee Cast

And don’t get mad for the comparison, but Braxton showed me love until his last…

Breath… Beat of his heart… Belief in his eyes that I would bring him back. That’s what Dads do, hmm:

“He was the boy’s father. Father’s are supposed to protect their sons, not leave them alone.”
― A Different Alchemy

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But what do husbands do? “Well, I’ll be sitting here. Working on this beer. Oh, baby, I love you, just leave me the fuck alone.” You know I don’t drink. No, I’m just tired today.

And so I’m sitting here humming “I Want A New Drug.” “But Your Love Is My Drug,” isn’t it? Oh, looks like I found my phone. Plus, I have a puppy sleeping on my lap, and you know the law. You can’t move for anything. And if Virgil were Braxton, it would not even be a question. Again, being sleepy turns me into a fucking meanie. And yesterday I was talking to Braxton about beast. But I’m not some superhero trying to keep my control.

I’m not a fucking drunk.

I’m “Just A Man.” And what is worse than a man? People are so vexed with what a woman is. The people MAGA has no respect for. Incubators. Broodmares for the state, the fear out of The Handmaid’s Tale. But you are my wife, and the things we do, hmm…

I’m surprised I don’t bother you about my Stuff And Thang more often. Bugging you.

That’s what I feel like sometimes. I want to say I’m a busy bee, but I’m more of a mosquito:

“If you think you’re too small to make a difference, try sleeping in a closed room with a mosquito.”
―

But I’m squished and squashed. It’s like I’m constantly bleeding out. “These wounds won’t seem to heal. This pain is just too real.” “Oh yes, there will be blood.” I write shit. But Honey, there’s you. Virgil And The B’s

2081 Days Without B III, Day 1522 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 102 -Braxton Verses Virgil Versus-

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I’d like to say I don’t pit my boys against each other. Both sit beside me, sleep on the bed, and say or bark whenever. B would fight the world; V cries, wanting to be part of mine, but I’ve never shut him out. Choices. “Braxton Verses Virgil Versus”

Sunday, October 11, 2026

Legacy 102 -Braxton Verses Virgil Versus-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And as you can see, you want to be a writer again. I don’t blame you. Beats…

SIGH… It beats me beating off to some hot blonde with… Well, that’s a long, laughable, law-abiding story. And until you can sell some books about “Wee Little Puppy Man.”

Honestly, his name is B. (Stands in front of B’s Box Fight Club style) His name was Braxton Bradford, Braxton Barks Bradford. What? Yes, it beats Robert Paulson, aka Bob.

“Hey, you created me; I didn’t create some loser alter-ego to make myself feel better. Take some responsibility!”
Fight Club

Quick question: B III or 2-V? Firstborn vs. second-born. Big Brother vs. little brother, friend? How many verses have found print about this kind of thing? How many wars, the real versus, have seen light? To you it’s like The Shawshank Redemption, am I right:

“I guess it comes down to a simple choice, really. Get busy living, or get busy dying.”
The Shawshank Redemption

To answer the question, Braxton. That’s sad, ain’t it? So what book will you lie about today? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Dystopian Girls 7 Rodzil LaBraun
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

For the record, I am trying as you will try. And that again is a choice. But for your ref:

01: Legacy 102 10/11 Dystopian Girls 7
02: Legacy 095 10/4 The Copilot by Luke Witten
03: Legacy 088 9/27 Teachers: A Single Dad Harem (Currently Reading)
04: Legacy 081 9/20 Caught in the Act – a SHORT erotic babysitter story

How did you come up with the latest book on this list, hmm? Number of boobies, brevity, the idea that you might behave if it’s sexy but not too sexy. What was the last book that made you bust? Oh right, your week has only just begun. That sucks, seriously.

What, I’m no motivational speaker. The Instructor from “The Animatrix.” Here are Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

By Braxton, my dude, the things you choose to remember: The Instructor, Shiva, Medusa, hell, the whole “The Unfinished Archive” you “wrote.” You’re writing. Because again, before your nap, you chose to be a writer. But will you choose to be tomorrow? You’re genuinely curious to see. It’s laughable that at one point in my existence, I wanted to be the Secretary of Defense, a soldier, a wartime journalist, and now what do you do, friend?

You could be telling the Visual Lady what went down at the store. Freely, sadly. Because what you want to do doesn’t pay a dime. What you have to do is by no means better.

Breathing through other people’s words. Living for them, B, V, M. Braxton Verses Virgil Versus.

2079 Days Without B III, Day 1520 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will