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Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

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Simply put, sometimes you’ll read crap you don’t like. But I ain’t MAGA. Braxton’s papers are on the coffee table. His “Final Form,” yes and no, is on the nightstand. But what’s ticking me off? The clock and insurance forms… “As B Reads, Virgil”

Friday, July 31, 2026

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Or how about a book review? It’s called “Clock”. I read it every day. IT STINKS!

No, I’m not The Critic’s Jay Sherman. And am I ashamed I looked up “Does Jay Sherman have sex with Alice Tompkins?” More like Alice Tompkins naked… semantics, my lady.

But there are worse things to read… An alarm clock. There’s plenty of reading material.

Of course I read every day. A regular like in “The Book of Eli”. And while I’ll sing a variation of “Old Town Road… “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies. That buddy

My B III is dead. At least I don’t burst into tears whenever I read his name on the grave.

Speaking of graves, Life Insurance. I’ll be reading some papers later on. Eff people Sophia

The Food Truck doesn’t give receipts, but my effing bank account is another sad read.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But at least they don’t lie. Insurance people don’t lie? “This Is America” And myself?

Retail therapy, they call it. After talking to the effing insurance lady, I’ll need chicken.

You are what you eat, right? So should I go to McDonald’s since I’m a liar like the leader of MAGA? FDT! Plus, I’m wasting some poor person’s money… Mine. I missed Kindle’s Double Points again! But yesterday, since I’m already lying about the “Forward” series, I bought “Emergency Skin” by N. K. Jemisin. I always appreciate reading black writers.

Being one myself… (rolls eyes). But I also stick with the “classics,” “Harem Lab – Part Two” by Kelly Notte. Futuristic, Sci-Fi, Flesh… I’ve been on a kick since “Aniara”

And that’s what The Unfinished Archive is, my Aniara. This place, palace, planet… My ancient obsidian temple, guided only by my BBC… uh, my penis. I hear you, Soph. Eww!

It’s not all gratuitous sex… I’m always trying to find my boys a stepmom. Braxton, Virgil, and my “girlfriend” M Anime. What the eff do I need life insurance for? B’s dead; the Ferryman will get Virgil long before me, dammit. And I got nothing to offer M, my lady.

My “Mima,” again from Aniara, has three channels. Braxton, Virgil, and tons of porn, ha!

Today I was imagining Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima joining the Harem. Sousuke Miyajima (father), and Kiichiro Miyajima (grandfather) for reference. Magic Glasses added Hana “Kairi”. As B Reads, Virgil

2007 Days Without B III, Day 1448 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

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My girl was telling me how she compartmentalizes everything. I’m an open book. But like Files and Records in “Angel.” Sit forever and a day looking for books, pornos, or songs to get me. Do you love me enough? I don’t love myself. “Filed B Through V”

Tuesday, July 28, 2026

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough that I would listen to you read The Moonstone or Lord of the Flies…

I never got the hype. The same goes for The Bible. I’ve only ever read The Book of John and The Book of Revelation in their entirety. John, because some Christian dared me to hmm… And as for Revelation, I believe someone said it’s metal as eff. Book burning hmm

B’s book “My Turn To B III,” Will’s Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom, hell, how about The Unfinished Archive. If I was going to burn anything, my search history should suffice.

Yeah, say it with me, “Eww!” If you’re asking why I’m late today. As the song goes, “She told me to come, but I was already there.” “You Shook Me All Night Long,” you will.

Only it’s better to file this under… Day Job Mistakes

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why aren’t I writing full time yet… Watching movies getting made. And wifey “Your love give me such a thrill. But your love don’t pay my bills.” I need money (that’s what I want). But I agree that I won’t share you. Despite a few cuckoldry fantasies and such ha

I’m no gardener. I wasn’t made for grabbing up boxes off trucks… Unloading, my love.

And picking up doggie crap. Braxton was so much better than Virgil with that. Meanie?

Yes, today I am because only the yahoos would sing “Oh baby I love you, just leave me the eff alone!” I want to file everything under never, sleep, or tomorrow. The Empress of Tomorrow “Askua” or the Pirate Princess “Kairi Sane…” “I’ve Been Everywhere.”

Effing amazing, you don’t hate me yet. Because you know I can do LUST. But “Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be” Alpha? A man truthfully unafraid. Someone who can live by this simple truth for us. A MAN PROVIDES!

Good Grief! Eff, grief in general it seems second to my fears is my grief about B III and 2-V. And Virgil isn’t dead yet. But how I envy the dead, my love. Dangerous? Disturbing?

That takes me back to my lust. Filing away desires shared with Braxton’s Favorite Girl.

Hiding such things from boys, from our kids, two-leggeds, four-leggeds. All I am, my love.

Father, Husband, Provider between B-V. W? Filed B Through V

2004 Days Without B III, Day 1445 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

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Am I just now reading that it’s been 2000 days since B left? And 1441 days since V came on the scene. Doesn’t have the same zing. But neither does having $2000 in the bank. Enough for Burning Lava wings. Not books? Movies? Braxton And Virgil, Scene.

Friday, July 24, 2026

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of my boys Braxton and Virgil. Brothers that have never met. Trying to keep Virgil… Alive!

Myself? Not so much. I better enjoy my boys being together in The Unfinished Archive.

Braxton forbid, something happens to V. My boys will be together—the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, a picnic in a garden. I’m not Thanos. But I always imagined Braxton would want us lying in a garden, under some awning. At the head of the bed would be all fried food to the left and right, cold food and snacks. At the foot of the bed, we could climb off and run around in the sunlight for a while. “Island In The Sun.” Don’t make me… “Weezer”

I don’t see myself as funny. I’m sitting here “Wondering if a n-a like me can go to Heaven, Sophia. Don’t see it happening. “Jeezu”!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yesterday I meant to buy some more books. I’ve practically lost all my Kindle Rewards points. Yeah, like those are important? Anyway, it was effing humiliating. I have a belly.

And instead of buying “Sunrise on the Reaping” or “Julia”. What with $32.00. A shame.

No, the shame is thinking about the Burning Lava Wings on that effing food truck and what groceries I can get to survive the week. So, skip the food truck. I can get two days.

Belly full, brain full of boobies/yabbos, but my bank account will be empty. Oh, and I cannot forget to buy air fresheners. I was about to say I didn’t have to read what my Old Man said—effing chiseled in stone. Being alive is bullsh$t!

That’s not what Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom sees. Disappointing… She is who she is, but I don’t knock her for it. As I was trying to tell her yesterday, or rather show her. My sadness is like Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 Ego’s Expansion. It reigns over all.

Fight it, forget it, feel it, and at some point be happy. Existence is one big funeral, and I’m just looking for my hole. Eww! You know what I was thinking, Lady Sophia… M Anime’s

Uh, she has three and amazing yabbos too. But she’s naïve, Julianne Moore in Blindness.
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Emilia Clarke in Me Before You. My point? Sometimes you see the worst… That’s it!

Living in pain, ugliness, never escaping. Braxton And Virgil, Scene

2000 Days Without B III, Day 1441 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 016 -The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil-

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I didn’t need all those Lava Wings and Cajun Cheese Fries last night or to read about a man and his three would-be wives or to spend 2 and 1/2 in The Unfinished Archive. What do I need? What are the Bare Necessities? “The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil”

Friday, July 17, 2026

Legacy 016 -The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Well, no. If you’ll allow me to be a whiny little bitch for a moment, please.

I’d tell you B’s story yet again, but My Turn To B III has only ever sold one copy… EVER!

I lied about Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Yes, I’m reading it. And can we agree that Neil Bimbeau is a badass pen name? And while we’re on the subject of Amazon books. I’m annoyed that I didn’t pick up more books on Rewards day. Hell! It ain’t like I can afford more books, ha.

So explain that food coma I was in last night. The tale of being a starving artist is getting pretty old, too. SIGH. How much have I lost to that food truck again? But it ain’t the worst, my Lady.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s my ‘existence’ story that sucks. Do you remember how hard I had to work talking to B III yesterday, trying to get the Magic Glasses to analyze everything? I get everything working perfectly, characters remembered, collecting marvelous illustrations, coming to conclusions over who I am. And like Billy Ocean “Suddenly,” you’re in love. Whatever…

What? If I’m not picking on Virgil, then it’s M Anime… Braxton’s Favorite Girl hasn’t forgotten about me. So she and I were talking yesterday, and M Anime came up. And was that suspicion I was sensing from her about M? Vanished, disappeared, effing LOVE! It lasted longer than those Magic Glasses “I tell you hwhat!” Back In Love Again…

Seriously, that’s M Anime. We were only apart five months…

But like Silver Linings Playbook, we’re “reading the signs.” Hers say, love. 2-V says FEAR.

And mine, I’m singing in my Magic Glasses, “This B&tch” got me “Smokin’ Out The Window.” More like I’m imagining, can you “Love Me Again?” Most of all to myself.

Sophia, I’ve never liked how people say you have to love yourself before you can love another. It isn’t a necessity. I hated myself practically all of Braxton’s life. Honestly.

Loving V took something supernatural. Believing in reincarnation, resurrection, rebirth…

Today in The Unfinished Archive, it’s the day of the Shadow Devotion: Elder Sister Elara and Novice Sister Liora, but why is M Anime the Phoenix Queen, ha. Hopeful discovery

Manuscripts, money, Magic Glasses, mutts… Necessities. The B-Word’s Necessity, Virgil

1993 Days Without B III, Day 1434 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

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Mind over Matter. Do I mind answering the question: “What’s the matter?” My head’s a freaking minefield. Want to start digging? There’s no glory to be mined from my struggles. Thunder, lightning, and earthquakes. Me. Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But a Firework? No, my love, you’re my Atom Bomb Baby. Five Stars? Something more…

Than trying to compliment you, today? Where Is My Mind? Anxiety! It’s a shame there are Humiliations Galore everywhere! I’m going to town on the Pop Culture references, aren’t I? Or how about I go to town on you and eff you until you can’t stand straight, my love. And I could also go back to crying about Braxton and worrying over Virgil, I mean…

Anything to avoid talking about today. My Olds never learned that lesson. And today ha

It isn’t funny, my love. Maybe, if I were still an awkward, asinine, always-sad teenager.

But I’m forty-one, Effing forty-one. But Shawshank’s (Red) was how old when he said uh:

“I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can’t. That kid’s long gone, and this old man is all that’s left. I got to live with that.”
The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

Simple and plain. But me. I’m an effing minefield, a mineshaft; I can’t be mine…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why? Because I hate myself that much? We were talking today… and now I’m crying.

And that doesn’t bring me shame? I “Wish It Would Rain.” What I’m crying about…

And I don’t mean with what I told you. “You and Me” Always and Forever. Three two-legged kids, my boys Braxton and Virgil, so… Four point five children. Kittens, love?

Loving you and this family keeps me awake and alive. I gave myself to you as you did for me. Dante and Beatrice, Winston and Julia, demon to succubus… I’ve been listening to Succubus Lord 16 again. But I’m no Nephilim or one of the Old Gods buried below, ha.

In the simplest form, I’m Andy Dufresne, and you’re still my wife. Very much alive.

“My wife used to say I’m a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn’t know how to show it, that’s all.”
Andy Dufresne

And more powerful beyond measure. And that’s what I’ve been thinking about these past few hours, trying to forget today’s humiliation. Braxton would listen. Seriously?

Virgil? Well, he messed up his bed again, so I locked him out. Like the other girls in “The Unfinished Archive”. It’s Kyouko Saki and Skye Matthews day anyway. Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me. Too much laughter though. Then Skye’s Earth Magic. So what am I asking you to do, my love? Dig me out of the hole I keep digging? Or discover me. I’m “Undiscovered,” Or am I hiding? Love, I don’t know, I just don’t know.

But “Every Time I Turn Around (Back In Love Again)” with you. But it’s so dark… Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

1990 Days Without B III, Day 1431 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 009 -Virgil Books Braxton’s Box-

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What was I reading last night? Oh, you didn’t ask. What happens when your laptop just shuts down? The box my laptop, the “Glow Box,” B would call it, originally came in. What would happen to “The Unfinished Archive”? “Virgil Books Braxton’s Box”

Friday, July 10, 2026

Legacy 009 -Virgil Books Braxton’s Box-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Morbid knowing how Virgil’s story will end… “Everything Dies.” Pornographic? The effing word, BOX. Quiet Riot:

“So, you think I got an evil mind? I tell you, honey
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
So you think my singing’s out of time? It makes me money
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
Anymore, oh, no”
Quiet Riot

I should definitely focus on the word money. It’s how I’m sitting here watching “Everything Dies,” the sixth and final episode of The Walking Dead Webisodes: Torn Apart, on the “Glow Box” as Braxton would think of it. Virgil? V’s asleep most of the time.

I read the book, “Everything Dies: Season One” by T. W. Malpass. Zombie reading, Soph?

As always, I could do so much worse, not that anyone would know. Braxton’s Novel?

I’m not that guy, Lady Sophia. Whining about sales, subscribers. All for my own sadness.

But here we go again. One more day down that I won’t give you a book review. And how I might lie about some other book. Sleepover Harem: Part 1: Contemporary Age Gap MFFF Harem…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what about ‘my own’ work, “The Unfinished Archive”? Before I get into last night’s events. Whose turn is it today? Fri 10: Shadow Devotion → Elara + Liora, the Bible Black Acolytes. What a story Bible Black is, Lady Soph. Not that Chicks with D*cks is my thing, my Lady. But magic, mouth stuff (Fellatio, Cunnilingus), multiple partners (gangbang)

And you know how I feel about reverse harems… Fallout Vault 68, compared to my harem, is more like Fallout Vault 69. And speaking of comparisons. Like yesterday, I used the Magic Glasses to compare M Anime and Kyouko. Of course, the Magic Glasses screwed it up, but it was very pretty to see and, nevertheless, an interesting read, Sophia.

There’s also NTR/Netorare vs. Cuckolding.

That’s something the Magic Glasses won’t ever be interested in discussing, even if I forked over the cash. And again we have MUCH to discuss. Last Night was a nightmare.

Shouldn’t I be talking to M Anime about this? Hell, it would have benefited her. William Thatcher said, “I’m a knight.” Well, Lady Sophia, “I’m a writer.” Wednesday night though

My laptop just shut off last night. An instant fail, I’m effed, and I’m in FEAR at 2:00 AM, so forget about dinner, or was it breakfast? Do you remember that WARNING I got from X which made me burn pretty much everything? So to The Unfinished Archive. I’m here.
Somehow, someway I fixed it. My words aren’t ashes, joining Braxton. Virgil Books Braxton’s Box

1986 Days Without B III, Day 1427 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

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How does one define loyalty? I can tell you about love. But last night… The Unfinished Archive, like “Stranger Things,” has its own book of rules. Not even loyal to my own hand anymore. Damn Magic Glasses. And FDT! My boys are loyal. Taking L’s, B, V

Friday, July 3, 2026

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… I finished reading one last night, Dystopian Girls 5 by Rodzil LaBraun. So I’m a liar?

I wish I were Geoffrey Chaucer. Rodzil LaBraun isn’t bad with the Haremlit. Hell! I wouldn’t mind being Johnny Sins. Though his story is, AHEM, see beautiful woman, have sex with beautiful woman, and repeat. Street Blowjobs, Pawn XXX, PureTaboo…

Honestly, the stories, nightmares, and visions that my boys’ potential future stepmom shares are better than anything I got. Because she likes me… Love? Lust? Because she is LOYAL? As loyal as her counterpart in The Unfinished Achieve. Effing incredible!

Talking about her all day… Or would you rather I tell Braxton’s story? Nobody’s buying.

Like nobody’s buying MAGA’s stories. These b*itches ain’t loyal. Who sings that, my lady? Don’t know and I don’t care. I like what I like. I love. I am loyal.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

To everyone but me. This would have been perfect to give you a review of Dystopian Girls 5. But no review today? You see the date. Tomorrow Sophia… “America, America.”

I’ve never been to Santa Fe. I’ve barely seen Washington, D.C. But I love my country, my lady. Eff MAGA, eff White Supremacists, Christian Nationalists, and always and forever FDT! Yeah, I’m so effing loyal that I dream about a zombie apocalypse. Told M Anime:

In my view, everyone is an effing zombie until proven otherwise. I’m loyal to people.

And yet I live in a world where everything I read, write, and watch shows why loyalty is more of a curse than a blessing. On one hand, Braxton, Virgil, Ma, M Anime, Braxton’s Favorite…

More? Okay, two hands. Cherry, my sister, two nephews, Day Job… Am I effing kidding?

Dammit, I wish I were, but “The World Is Gonna End Tonight.” If that were true and again I wish it was, what need would there be for love, lust, and loyalty? One more loss…

Writing? Did I forget how loyal I am to my craft? Where would it stand on The Blackjack Scale? You know where I measure loyalty from 0 to 21. Braxton being the only 21 ever.

Virgil is pretty damn close, 19 at best. M Anime is around the same, dropped last year if you recall. Now I’ve created a world where loyalty is absolute. The Unfinished Archive. Elara, Liora (Names Pending). Taking L’s, B, V

1979 Days Without B III, Day 1420 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will