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Episode 011 ~How Lust Last Forever~

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How old is Barbie, Galatea, or the Mona Lisa, I suppose I could look them up, and if I asked about Stormy Daniels career, I would only be some guy that likes porn, and you wouldn’t ask about the beautiful woman. How Lust Lasts Forever?

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Episode 011 ~How Lust Last Forever~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
Give Me One Reason to write about her other than she’s hot, I’ll wait… yeah no one can sit forever, but these words should they ever know a publisher; I don’t want everyone to know how “freaky-deaky” I am, what turns me on as if that’s a secret one can hope. Novel talk might be more of a conversation for Lady Sophia but seeing as how I’ve getting inspired by two porn stars “Stormy Daniels” and “Bryci,” a Cosplayer “Angie Griffin” not to mention an ex-love interest here and there truthfully.

Of course, names are changed and let me say that the library has worked out for me, forces me to keep my hands on my keyboard, and I don’t want to look up porn, I know I have plenty saved up. I also haven’t bothered with being polite like with a love letter, a road I’m Never Going Back Again, because it’s creepy when you know the author, back when I wrote for other people, guys ended up fucking some beautiful girl. Men write songs, produce films like “500 Days of Summer” one of the greatest lessons I ever learned when it comes to writing.

“Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature.”

“That guy had a lot more sex than me.” ― 500 Days of Summer (2009)

One more reason I’m a dominant, I want to make an impression, that I can’t only be some standard dick to ride, that I want a woman to remember, as the song goes “guess it’s true, I’m not good at a one-night stand.” I want a woman to Stay With Me; in a way, they all do to be sure. I can fuck a woman until she can’t walk for a bit. Until she’s speaking so many lies over the phone so she can Stay, and of course scarves and her lingerie are fun to be sure. So when I finally find my forever will I quit writing, of course not, I’m even thinking of ways to incorporate sex with Camp NaNoWriMo other than erotica, if I find YouTube distracting or a blowjob while driving what about while writing novels?

I still remember when getting my porn fix meant praying for HBO, Showtime, Cinemax to show some soft-core or stealing my father’s pornos, and when I first discovered Hentai, now those were some fun times. I have never forgotten that I’m a guy that likes boobs and that girls what, That’s What I Like, breasts, eyes, thighs, though I have my preferences as always though not set in stone but honestly How Lust Lasts Forever?

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Lesson 357 ~And Other Dangerous Weapons~

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Fear is the monster, and the weapons I have aren’t doing anything to kill it, do I even want to anymore, I’m tired but everything is keeping me on my back or my ass, but at least I’m writing, and words are weapons. “And Other Dangerous Weapons.”

Saturday, June 23, 2018

Lesson 357 ~And Other Dangerous Weapons~

Hey Lady Lu,
Can You Love Me Again, I suppose some people will answer yes even if they don’t mean it when I’m in the ground, but today I’m Alive; so why is it when I saw 357 I immediately thought about a gun, I’m an American, I’m suicidal, what keeps me on my back?

If anything my day job, I didn’t start sleeping on my back until I became terrified that I would lose my employment, I’ve only ever been late once, and I was wide awake at the time, though generally like Frankenstein’s monster I rise because the job is killing me. How many times do I say I love my dog like pancakes, but like any parent sometimes he becomes my excuse not to do something or to do everything, but love can be a lot of things including shameful. It’s almost as if one should be ashamed of being depressed, for having the blessings that someone like me has, and I am blessed Lady Luna I see that; a bed, a couch, a chair, a dog, so many soft places and some people only see such luxury in a coffin, and that’s if they’re lucky enough.

Speaking of luck the worst weapon that I use against myself is LUST; if I go to Hell, more like when; I can only hope I get a circle two offense, and the sad thing is I can’t even name everything I’ve looked up this past week or even the past hour. I’m so far from paradise nowadays, but I want something higher; I keep telling myself that but as I was saying to “Cherry” yesterday that something greater will probably come with brunette hair.

You would think I wouldn’t look at the ground so much but more at my wooden dining room table or something else that’s indeed rockhard, writing, woody, the weather though I like the rain somewhat which matches my mood, slow and dark. The clock is another source of motivation and irritation over how much time I waste doing nothing it’s a constant struggle it wears me out. Besides lust, SLEEP should be considered one of my seven deadly sins; I have to give up sleep, somebody said that’s when the real work begins when you’re tired and hungry, not that I’m helping myself when it comes to food either sadly.

So day job, fatherhood, depression, lust, writing, time, and sleep, see it doesn’t take a 357 to kill yourself not when there are so many choices And Other Dangerous Weapons.

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Lesson 187 ~Stacy’s Mom Or Hers~

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Giving the term, you’re a good mom a new meaning but her being a mom isn’t exactly what I’m looking for, but at my age, I need a lot of money. Maybe a tad more maturity, Star Wars, The Hunger Games, etc. “Stacy’s Mom Or Hers” was a fangirl, hopefully

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Lesson 187 ~Stacy’s Mom Or Hers~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, I like to think I’m equal opportunity when it comes to women… well okay, I’m not, but sometimes a particular fetish captures my eye and at the moment that would be MILFS. I think I mentioned yesterday I still believe in a thing called love and yeah I’m into a “P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)” from time to time but there is something to be said about older women, hell I’m not a young man.

I see “age appropriate” girls all the time but when an older woman flirts or wants to show sex appeal and beauty… I had a mom send me a nude picture once, face and all and there are plenty of other wives and moms that just show off. Maybe it’s a good thing men aren’t like women when it comes to these displays or as always I could just be a deviant, but then again I’ve never asked for a nude picture. Except this one “she who will not be named” but she was an ex-wife and a dog mom (yeah straight up bitch) but she was bragging about being on a nude beach, topless.

Anyway the fantasy today is pretty much what if one of these women practiced what they preached; I thought about having this one as a submissive, but she’s a good girl. I always fall for good girls, using the line once, “if you’re going to feel guilty, you might as well do something to feel guilty about.” Besides banging sisters it’s always been a fantasy to do a mother and a daughter, and I’m not even close to that, the things we see in porn daily, rots the brain right?

At least I’m not seen as the gay best friend and most see me as relatively harmless but let’s say I have matured somewhat but if I ever have a few million dollars… yeah I’m screwed come that payday, preferably by an 18-year-old, yay 2018. Still the idea of having some older woman that has a man, kids or both and making her feel like some young slut she might have been in her youth?

The woman I end up with will probably be the hot mom of the neighborhood, another reason I won’t be living near people, but I would love to show her off. Then again in these types of situations, keep it in the closet, okay I’ll stop with the Michael Jackson playlist, but we all know that somebody’s got it going on Stacy’s Mom Or Hers.

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Lesson 180 ~The Coming Attractions Hmm~

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I don’t need to go to the lobby to get myself a treat and any day can honestly be hump day if you find somebody willing or find yourself in love, and I usually avoid the chick flicks which might be stupid on my part. “The Coming Attractions Hmm”

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Lesson 180 ~The Coming Attractions Hmm~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, even if it’s caught on camera, though I think I’ve said before that my reputation is probably already ruined and it’s just a manner of time. Anyway voyeurism, exhibitionism, and even the general fear of getting caught, what better place is there than a movie theater, okay I can think of plenty, but I’ve been to an adult theater, to be honest, Dirty Diana.

Now was Star Wars: The Last Jedi, that bad, hell I’m going to see it again today, but it’s something about being in the dark fantasizing about Rey or Rose, okay it doesn’t just have to be Star Wars. As I said, I’ve been to an adult theater a few times and let me just say that it’s nothing like the porn movies I’ve seen or maybe there just aren’t that many options here. The only good news is I have seen some genuinely gross things but wasting ten bucks is still losing ten dollars if you don’t like the company you keep and I can’t even remember the movie that was showing; like that’s ever the point just saying.

I’ve always imagined though I would take some girl at some point and no I’m still not in a sharing mood yet people watching me and her together, why oh why do I find myself so brave when it comes to sex and violence. That explains so much, get me huffy or horny, and I don’t care what people think about me for a while; to think I’m quite respectful in the regular theater, I like movies. The thing about it is, I would get hotter in a proper film, porn is great and all but I can usually make anything into a porno flick.

Not only that, give me a girl that likes to watch porn at the house, though I’ve freaked some girls out, am I ashamed of my kink, no but since the point is to get the girl… Better to leave it on Netflix, Amazon, and the latest Hollywood blockbuster, and my vanilla watch list indeed.

Anyway, my “Fucket” List includes, sex in an adult theater, in a standard theater, and backstage someplace, “Dawson’s Creek” but today will be an ordinary day, The Coming Attractions Hmm.

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Lesson 173 ~A Return To Innocence~

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I won’t burst out into song or even a crying fit as sad as I am, I need to keep my fluids, and I must be the only guy looking for that stuff they used in the movie Equilibrium, or I need a woman like Winston Smith had. A Return To Innocence

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Lesson 173 ~A Return To Innocence~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, though I let myself down, literally, a loss of power, a loss of control and what was it this time, a fantasy about a maid, what about a bit of erotica, an incredible hatefuck, or just that pornstar Holly Lane, a million excuses sadly.

Now the first thing is I’m not Winston Smith; I think whores are deadening which is strange because I instead enjoy making the most innocent of ladies claim whoredom or making them claim to be sluts. Is it just me or does every guy want some virgin, someone untouched and yet they seek out pretty much any woman that will spread their legs? Hell, I could take this to a biblical level, women are responsible for original sin right, and the church teaches that a man must have a godly household, okay creeping myself out.

Anyway, I’m in that period of being thoroughly disgusted at my weakness and vowing never to give in again and oh look I have three of my fantasies on my phone. The thing is it isn’t the somewhat porn that gets me, it’s the idea, hell not even the tease, just the sweetest things, the angels that drive me mad, maybe that’s why I appreciate the silence and the dark. Maybe I need the hurt and the pain, the humiliation, and the degradation; while running errands today I remembered my own Harvey Weinstein pervy attitude, doesn’t happen too often but such and such makes me hate myself all the more.

Maybe it’s just the holiday season but I think we honestly need a new plague and then that reminded me of “The Screwfly Solution” … relax Dirty Diana; I’m not that much of a psycho. One must think however what women do to men or is it merely genetics, could be kinky, but some like being choked during sex and others like doing the choking, spanking, bondage, you know, etc.

I miss the feeling of my innocence, around thirty-one days of it and you know what I felt, besides horny… more primal like I was on the hunt, and I didn’t just want any woman, I could have one if I wanted. Maybe I just want to feel all lovey-dovey only, A Return To Innocence.

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Lesson 166 ~How Stars Are Born~

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In a galaxy far, far away, or just a mind as dirty, as depraved, and as perverted as my own, or maybe I just really need to pop and if won’t be sex, give me some laser fire and lightsabers any day. How Stars Are Born, if I had one wish

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Lesson 166 ~How Stars Are Born~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, hopefully not tonight, though to be honest I do intend to be a Star Wars father someday, but first I got to find the right girl, and if I lived in a galaxy far, far away that would take even more time than now. Speaking of which do you think George Lucas and whoever is writing/directing Star Wars currently might have a thing for brunettes or girls with dark hair, that would explain my fetish to a degree somewhat.

There is no way I can tell you I never had a thing for Princess Leia and her slave bikini and as you can see, well I always wanted to fuck Natalie Portman, strangely I’ve seen her sexier, but this works well. My first fantasy this evening, of course, would be to see Princess Leia taken by Jabba the Hutt and any number of his creatures, monsters, and tentacles are still write up there. Can’t say I’ve thought much of incest porn but Leia and Luke or better Leia double teamed with the team of Luke and Han, probably a gangbang of other heroes in the rebellion or Emperor Palpatine.

If you want to know my ultimate fantasy I have three more names for you, Padmé Amidala, Rey, Jyn Erso along with Princess Leia. It sounds like I want to open my space brothel and hell one man did Dennis Hof and the Alien Cathouse, that is indeed a place I have to visit one day. I’m not limited to the beauties of Star Wars but that’s one of the reasons I’m coming to you a day early or not, I have to get my rocks off somewhere you know.

Whatever would I do if I could have my way with the beauties above, yet another reason to be a Sith, a man of the Empire, the First Order, talk about the sort of power you would have in chains at your disposal. There are far too many scenarios in my head from mother-daughter to Jyn in prison, making love to Rey in the desert sands, sounds hot in more ways than one, hell awaits.

The hentai “Helter Skelter” set in the Star Wars universe, I don’t know how I’m going to get any sleep tonight just picturing that this is How Stars Are Born?

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Lesson 159 ~Have The White Stuff~

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Talk about the wrong stuff if you’re reading this, but I don’t judge… much and I hope you can afford me the same courtesy when it comes to particular sexual proclivities, brush up on your Japanese before reading. Have The White Stuff.

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Lesson 159 ~Have The White Stuff~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, life is pretty much vanilla, I like vanilla… as part of an ice cream flavor, the humdrum of life, and yes especially my women, though I did have a thing for Asian girls, another day and time I think.

The language though “Bukkake” don’t ask me why this has been on my mind this past week, considering I wouldn’t share my woman but the whole aspect of cumming on her face… If anything how I’ve been thinking of telling a girl, of course, if I kept one around, that she wouldn’t leave until she’s thoroughly bathed from head to toe, all sticky with myself, hell I don’t know how she would ever get clean? Maybe it’s something primal about marking your what’s yours and no I’m not into “watersports” but covering a woman in white, is something to see.

Speaking of being covered in white didn’t I say how I like my women and no I’m not a racist, my hate is universal, more or less, but it’s something about a white girl and no I haven’t been influenced by the media. Zoë Kravitz, Alicia Keys, Tessa Thompson, Amandla Stenberg (before she hacked off her hair), I’m seeing but sue me for having an affinity for lighter skin women. I’ve never seen the movie Jungle Fever, though I did spend more than an hour looking up the song from GTA San Andreas; any way you know my type, brunettes with nice boobs, Katniss Everdeen, Tiffany, identified as Jennifer Lawrence.

I like whip cream topping and the whip cream bikini, now that is what I call dessert, and is less messy than other toppings not that I don’t enjoy them as well. Now, this other particular fantasy was inspired by women; since my notes have been considered creepy, the idea of actually saying something “skeevy” and a woman finding it and then ravishing her just like I’ve written, isn’t that something. You can also think about outfits, again I’ve thought about ravishing a bride or a virgin all done up in white, what about a school girl in her blouse, a professional woman, the list goes on for some time.

Dirty Diana it just goes with me being a man, a gentleman, a lover, a monster, you recognize what they all have in common, despite who they choose in spraying, filling we all just know we, Have The White Stuff.

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Lesson 158~Time Humiliates Again Will~

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If you asked me my favorite sin, I would say Lust, my needed sin would be Wrath, and the one I most indulge in would be Sloth, then again check my search history right but speaking of history, I write still. Time Humiliates Again Will.

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Lesson 158~Time Humiliates Again Will~

Forgive Me Echo,
No Fear, it’s why I enjoy anger so much or namely one of the seven deadly sins “wrath” but which would you prefer that I drown in a lake of tears or that I burn in a lake of fire… least I’m warm.

Today let’s focus on three of the seven the first being WRATH because it’s taking over, every day it grows stronger, and I know honestly enough that anger doesn’t help anything but my fear. No, I’m not going to quote Master Yoda or some tired cliché but why do people only see the worst parts of me and then with their laughter, snickers, damn can we just call it human nature, they invite the monster out to play? How not to sound like a psychopath *ahem* see I can’t even say what I was going to because I need this job and for some reason, I feel someone is reading.

What about LUST, I recall talking about a woman I met recently on the Whisper App who could do nothing but yap all day at me but what did I think about her at the time? Well, there was time enough to lie and doesn’t that just show how powerful lust it, I hate hunters, I lied about my schedule and other things and why, because I wanted her, what kind of man am I? Not that she’ll know, she wanted to “hang out, ” and I already told her I was shallow, sins galore. Anyway we traded pictures last night, now isn’t it funny she suddenly shut up, and she can’t go out, not because she’s married of course but because someone needs surgery?

Not that I’m busy crying over her though I got off an hour early from work and after freezing thanks to the dog I climbed right into a warm bed and decided I live here now. Yeah, I couldn’t even get it up to go to my workstation, and I just slept most of the day away, waking up all shocked and surprised though I did manage to eat. SLOTH, a waste of time and that’s what all the sins have in common, they were a waste of time and how am I going about correcting this because sorry just doesn’t cover it Inspector Echo.

I am sorry though, I apologize, to you, to the world, to the future missus who knows I am better than this and to myself but Time Humiliates Again Will.

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Lesson 152 ~Behind In My Lusting~

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Baby got back and did you wonder how or why I know this, probably because it’s all I get to see while they’re running away but I have always been a sucker for a pretty face… okay and nice boobs. Behind In My Lusting, its just been a Hard month

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Lesson 152 ~Behind In My Lusting~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana
No Fear, just because you can see fear, doesn’t mean it can see you, and maybe that’s why so many guys like big butts, as for me, well, I ain’t leaving it that’s for damn sure. Ask me my personal preferences, and I’m more a breast man, which might explain why I’m such a big baby, what do you think hmm?

“Some brothers wanna play that “hard” role
And tell you that the butt ain’t gold
So they toss it and leave it
And I pull up quick to retrieve it.”
Baby Got Back Sir Mix-A-Lot

I can honestly say that I’ve never done anal with any woman before, is that weird considering all the kink that I’m into these days? I’ve told you about tentacles, gangbangs, and the fact that I don’t share… but it is a fantasy of mine, to have a woman taken in every hole, not a Devil’s Three-Way, I’m not there yet. I wonder how much one of those “fucking machines” cost, yes I honestly looked up those words today and can I just say for the record, what’s with me?

You could think I have been a bit turned off a butt stuff as of late, haven’t picked up that boo Shiver in weeks, yeah reading about two men is not my cup of tea, but I have truly been writing. I think I told all of my “imaginary friends” that I finished NaNoWriMo just yesterday so now I don’t have any excuses not to be reading, speaking of which Shiver sounds better than my worthless drivel. Speaking of which, I don’t think I even put any let’s say “anal stimulation” in my book, what am I getting all shy now or maybe I’m just sort of surprised if anything.

I don’t have anything against ass at all, I like spanking, and I can even enjoy getting spanked, a girl gripping my ass as she sucks me off, and one of the few places where different temperatures may turn me on. As far as going up that direction when it comes to my ass, there are reasons I am staying out of prison, and that’s probably in the top three.

So then you ask why do I expect some girl to let me do it to her, here’s a bigger question as I am one for the primal instinct, who first thought that this was a good idea? The pursuit of pleasure cannot be denied or perhaps it is evolution, as I discussed with a friend, due to overpopulation how best to continue the human condition and yet not produce offspring to perpetuate the problem. I’m behind in so much Dirty Diana, but maybe that’s not a bad place to be in this angle of love Behind In My Lusting.

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Lesson 131 ~Butt Words Will Never~

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Sticks and stones may break my bones but chains and whips excite me, as the song goes, and speaking of music what about other dirty words, anatomy class was one thing but visceral experience teaches you more. Butt Words Will Never… fill in the blank.

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Lesson 131 ~Butt Words Will Never~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,

No Fear, though the smallest words usually bring that about for me… being someone who utterly despises bullies and name calling, I wonder why I have taken to it in the bedroom. For example, the whole “daddy” concept was sort of creepy for a while until a girl actually called me daddy, and there is one that greets me every morning as Papi… over text, I’m not that lucky honestly.

Is porn to blame, if anything I watched plenty of “ExCoGi” some time ago and my favorite part is when the guy would ask if they like getting their hair pulled and if they were a little whore and then he would make them say it. Even before that though I’d use the word bitch, normally just saying, oh such and such bitches or is bitching but that was in general terms, I’d say that about anybody really. I still find the word “cunt” somewhat crass, though I’m an American, in other countries that word is pretty normal and I do use it in writing from time to time, weird?

Are you okay?

No.

Bitches, man. ― Warm Bodies (2013)

Most of the women I know hate terms like slut, whore, cum dumpster, and the list goes on but just being honest it turns me on to say such things. Lately, though my fantasy has been that movie “I Love You, Daddy” starring Chloë Grace Moretz; yes I am going to Hell but she’s twenty now. The thought of “taking” a woman and hearing her cry out those words over and over again, insert Homer Simpson *drooling* get my drift.

You can also go into everything girls have called me over time, pervert, stalker, freak, monster, again I can go on for quite some time, but I’ve never been close enough to be a stalker, debatable some might say, most have never seen my freaky side, monster (is it because of my face), pervert, no comment. So why wouldn’t I be somewhat mean, that’s not bitterness, it’s just who I am; what has saying to a girl she’s, beautiful, pretty, queen, goddess, princess, or just her name ever gotten me?

Now, of course, I’m not saying all the time in the bedroom and I can’t promise I won’t hurt them, in a good way S&M but hurting feelings is another thing. I can be plenty sensitive myself of course only I know the truth in reality about the things I say, Butt Words Will Never…

“When she’s abandoned her moral center and teachings…when she’s cast aside her facade of propriety and lady-like demeanor…when I have so corrupted this fragile thing and brought out a writhing, mewling, bucking, wanton whore for my enjoyment and pleasure…..enticing from within this feral lioness…growling and scratching and biting…taking everything I dish out to her…..at that moment she is never more beautiful to me. ”
― Marquis de Sade (Sadism Quotes)

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