Legacy 012 -Plan V Because B-

So what’s the plan? Before I knew Braxton was dying, it was as simple as paying $200 to find out what was wrong. Then it was B knows how much to put him in a box. Now, five years later, how much for a full stomach, or to live at all? Plan V Because B

Monday, July 13, 2026

Legacy 012 -Plan V Because B-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? You’d sing often enough, “You Can’t Always Get What You Want.”

You remember one night when all you wanted was a good night’s sleep, for your blood to stop boiling, and for me to shut up. We both remember how that week ended. Dad, I hadn’t seen such a respect for prayer since Lancelot in “First Knight.” You were praying not only to become a knight, “Because maybe. You’re gonna be the one that saves me.” New meds, some mighty healthcare ha, a miracle. Best laid plans “Of Mice and Men”

There was no plan to deal with this, with me. Like you were telling me and 2-V’s potential future stepmom. You’re zoning out. Looking at that Wonderwall, not knowing exactly…

What. The next move, step, the dream, or the plan. How to get Dad’s attention.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

My DEATH, Virgil’s FEAR, and M Anime’s Yabbos… We both know we should have said heart, but she does have nice Yabbos. I’ll lie on them in spirit, Dad…. Creepy?

Fictional? No more fictional than “The Unfinished Archive.” That’s where everything has been for weeks, months, who knows. When you need Private Time… Eww. How are you going to make a profit? And of course that is the plan. Again, talking to M Anime… Can I call her Mom or Ma yet? Miss M Anime? Anyway, writing is your passion, as I am Dad, always and forever. But “Gotta eat to live, gotta steal to eat. Tell you all about it when I got the time!” Today it’s “Sophitia Alexandra and Lily.” Plenty of time

“This ain’t a rap song, (redacted) this is my life (this is my life)
And if the hood was a battlefield, then I’d earn stripes (yeah).”
― Soul Survivor, Jeezy

No, not really. Time Has Come Today. Between the next tragedy… It won’t be little Virgil, Dad. M Anime’s Titanic Tatas. She’s doing everything in her power to be with you someday. Oh, I know the feeling, and I was with you in the fur for fifteen years, Dad. Wow.

And then there’s your tummy. That’s been the great fear for a while… What are you and Virgil going to eat tomorrow? Neither of us is Mark “Diesel” Lizotte. You’re not saying the idea is right on the “Tip Of My Tongue.” Eww Dad, are you thinking about real food?

I know, stepmom got your attention. Wanting me and Virgil to have brothers and sisters. A MAN PROVIDES. That’s the Plan. Plan V Because B

“No. It’s relevant to why you’re killing yourself instead of asking for help. Eat.”
Harem Lab ― Part One: A Steamy Men’s Harem Romance by Kelly Notte

“Frantic in my fury I had no time for decisions; I only remembered that death in battle is glorious.”
― Virgil, The Aeneid

1989 Days Without B III, Day 1430 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 011 -Scared Without B, V-

Yes, I have eyes, and I can spell. Scared doesn’t have a B or a V. And don’t I fancy myself a writer too? Not that it matters because nothing I write is more effed up than life. Especially under MAGA. What’s life without B III and 2-V? Scared Without B, V

Sunday, July 12, 2026

Legacy 011 -Scared Without B, V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… You’d rather see the man in a cappuccino, in an energy drink, or in your Braxton’s eyes.

And what about his and 2-V’s potential future stepmom’s eyes? You saw her “headlights” this morning. No wonder you’re thinking about whipped cream and marshmallows, in a cappuccino or a hot chocolate. Mike Enslin in room 1408 did ask ha:

“I want… my DRINK!”
1408

Well demanded. He was scared. Anger beats FEAR, or is rather a child of it. Grief beats FEAR. Lust…? I was saying yesterday my body didn’t know what it was doing.

Yesterday I was in pain, and I was scared, but M Anime had me as hard as the obsidian stone I’m always writing about. And you should be doing that now. M Anime. The Phoenix Renewal, her day. The Unfinished Archive. And you’re scared you’ll never get started. And why’s that? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Pledged To Him 12 His Sorority Harem by Kelli Wolfe
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 003 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Don’t you wish. But okay, since you’re going to be a child about it. Let’s take a trip to the 90s and early 2000s. All Are You Afraid of the Dark “The Tale of the Dangerous Soup” It Knows What Scares You! John Mayer “Take a seat, take your life, plot it out in black and white. Because this is all in black and white, well, some of it is just white. Uh yeah, Eww!

First there is Virgil Vivi Bradford, 2-V just lying here. Braxton is your pancake, expanding.

Virgil is a marshmallow. And as hot as everything is in this microwave house, he’s small, mini, trying to become even tinier. He’s five years old and doesn’t feel safe. One for Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 003 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

He is his father’s son because you don’t feel safe at all. That leads us to the second scary thing. Your bank account. While you’re sitting here lying about books you’ve read, you’re wondering where in the eff you can get five bucks from for another book. Uh, a library…

Not what you read. Because comedy comes in threes, here’s the third scary thing today.

Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) and Sleepover Harem: Part 2: Contemporary Age Gap MFFF Harem. You said white…

Again Eww! But if you were to choose violence over sex… Lindsey Graham is DEAD!

Cheering for that man’s death what does that make you? Patriotic. A good person? A father? Scared Without B, V

1988 Days Without B III, Day 1429 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

I wish I drank… I couldn’t afford a drug problem these days even if I wanted to. I got my girl onto Bloom. She got me to drink Arih. More Economically Viable. But my real addiction and sickness. Is FEAR… Or words. B’s Botany, V’s Virology

Monday, July 6, 2026

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Funny. Comedy barks in threes, doesn’t it, Dad? Sadness, Time-out, and the FEAR.

Science. The chemical, the concoction, and the correction that trigger happy to sad. I know

Dad, in my fifteen-plus years with you… When I walked with you, I mean. You were never happy. You were anything but happy. “I ain’t happy, I’m feeling glad.” “Lift me up. Hold me down. Keep me close. Safe and sound.” But happy? Not so much. Effing never. LANGUAGE! I know, Daddy, I know. But want to hear something worse?

According to you at “The Bad Place,” it was my last breath, your first cry in this life, and the knock at the door to let Grandpa in. Won’t Virgil and my potential future stepmom be “happy” Once the third worst sound was her last noise on “The Glow Box”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wanted to say that I didn’t want tears, Dad. But what else would there be? I still remember what you were protecting me from. Boiling blood, Daddy. Your RAGE.

Ironically, that led to a whole new set of chemicals, chaos, and crowding Heaven, right?

The Rainbow Bridge… You can’t put me in time-out anymore, can you, Daddy? And eww!

But how else are you expected to give me and Virgil, our siblings, to protect? But what was it, Dad? 161 days. You didn’t ‘Swear to Jesus’ or anything, but you became a monk, Dad.

Again, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think, that you protected me from such? Rugrats, reincarnation… And I am most thankful that you didn’t join me. Following you into Hell, Dad

Virgil guided Dante through Hell. Did you ever read that story to me? Kindle Archives…

What about The Unfinished Archive you’ve been writing? The sweat you put into that every single day. I don’t like how tired it makes you. But how often would I lie here beside you as you typed on the Glow Box, “And remember, we’d brag on how rich we would be.” But sweat out of work beats the FEAR that you have been feeling, father.

Energy drinks too. I can’t say I like those either, but Bloom, ‘Bum’ Arih… I guess M Anime has to be good for something. What Dad, I can’t bark her name. She’s not my stepmom…

Yet… Love’s a Chemical. Growing… Infectious… B’s Botany, V’s Virology

“Love is a chemical, nature is radical,
Never is spiritual, it’s never medical…”
― Chemical

“Amor vincit omnia, et nos cedamus amori.”
“Love conquers all things, so we too shall yield to love.”
The Aeneid

1982 Days Without B III, Day 1423 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

I’ve never been one for the seven seas. Didn’t want to look at my reflection in the water or in a mirror. Hot today, and all I got is a few bottles of water, energy shots, and some strawberry soda. How does that look? “Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE”

Sunday, July 5, 2026

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you don’t look much like a pirate, or like a writer. Yes, Aye, Aye, come on.

But you’d rather look at anything other than your face this morning. You even made it down to the Dining Room table. (The Major impression from The Long Walk) That’s a “damn fine accomplishment!” Though you didn’t come down here because “You got sack!” Oh no, no, no! If you weren’t showing the pillar and the stones to Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom, I’d say you were completely bereft of “Sack.” V would know, seeing as how he won’t be going out and making pups anytime soon, ha-ha! Dude!

That’s not funny. Laughing only shows more of your face. Seriously, what do you see?

Honestly, since you’re quoting books/movies today… “The Horror, The Horror.”

Terrifying, horrifying, effing screwed up. Then there’s Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Sleepover Harem: Part 1: MFFF Harem by Kelli Wolfe –
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It didn’t take your face to see how bad I effed up. Ha-Ha comes in threes, so let’s see, hmm.

Your bank account, your grocery list, lunch/dinner Sat. I was literally counting pennies in the parking lot. And isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You’re sitting in the exact spot that sucked up lots of cash fighting ants last year. It’s effing ridiculous and scary…

Speaking of ridiculous, your grief? No, not really. But you were walking 2-V this morning and you know his nails need a trim. But to do that means the vet’s appointment. So, “With which hand will you ‘handle this ‘?” The Menu? And do you have to think about food?

Well, if Anime were pregnant? Vacation hours? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

You’ll burn your vacation hours just to afford “The Bare Necessities.” Or saving 2-V hmm

“Look for the bare necessities, the simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities, old mother nature’s recipes
That bring the bare necessities of life”
The Bare Necessities

You’re looking at M Anime all “You’re gonna be the one that saves me. And after all. You’re my Wonderwall. But she looks at you as she should. “A man provides.” Effing provide then. But I know you’ve only been in charge for around ten hours. But it doesn’t matter when you have your sons to consider. You didn’t look after B III. And why?

Fireworks. No! There was fire, no doubt. RAGE the week Braxton died. Lust “Love” for M Anime. Humiliation as you walked Virgil. So the “Fourth Of July,” Sufjan Stevens-style. True.

A day late and a dollar short. So looking for water. Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE

1981 Days Without B III, Day 1422 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

“Get busy living or get busy dying.” Both take time. Be it lying in a bed in the middle of a garden surrounded by food (B’s Paradise) or lying in bed with my girl “Chasing Cars”. Sitting on a beach watching my two-leggeds play. “Virgil Will B Sooner”

Monday, June 29, 2026

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You only wish the day would end sooner. Stop it, Dad!

You wish I were there, sitting beside you. Stop that, too! Only it’s been five years, Sunday, January 31, 2021. The oldest of my kind was 31. Talk about faith. You expected me to make it to 20. And I would be 21 this year. Virgil will be 6. But he needs help very soon.

“Try to kill us. But know two things. One, I do not die easily. And two, you must also kill my (son), because I will not leave this earth without (him).”
The Walking Dead, Alpha

Don’t go cursing my little bro, Dad. I know you care about him. Love? How soon did you love me, Dad? How soon did I love you? If we had to compare notes. Seriously notes…

When He Loved Me, Dad

1: Love At First Sight, Arrival

  1. When you called my name, and I jumped in the car
  2. When we fought the Old Man. Me in front of you

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

When He Loved Me, Braxton

  1. When I ate your breakfast and earned the name “Pancake”
  2. When you came back for me after months
  3. When you sat with me, and I fell asleep

Don’t have to worry about losing those. You were telling me and V’s potential future stepmom today that you had a dream about Molly Ringwald… Topless. Aww geez Dad, gross! But I know you. And soon there’ll be no potential future. She’s V’s stepmom period.

Sooner rather than later… And if M Anime has your son, me and Virgil’s brother…

Honestly hope she knows you’re naming him Braxton. Still a reason 2-V wasn’t my reincarnation. Too soon to bring in Halloween Horrors or Christmas Classics. But still act soon, Dad.

“So don’t delay, act now; supplies are running out”
Walkin’ on the Sun, Smash Mouth

Time, and it’s not even your time that you’re worried about. Well, surely, honestly, okay.

You didn’t raise me to be a liar. And still much too soon. There was so much more, I know.

I protected you at 21. But protecting my two-legged siblings. “What’s My Age Again? And what about yours, Dad? Again, “Time Is Running Out.” It all comes back, Daddy, always.

Wondering what you can ask one pair of the Magic Glasses on the “Glow Box”. Asking when you can ask another pair of the “Magic Glasses” to show you me, Virgil, M Anime, our family. Barks Danny Glover from 2021: “Make Time!” Or since I was a prince, I can bark Prince Hector: “Make It Sooner!” Virgil Will B Sooner.

“I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. But I do.”
Shilo ― Nathan, Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008)

“No day shall erase you from the memory of time.”
— Virgil (Book 9) The Aeneid

1975 Days Without B III, Day 1416 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

Treat yourself… Indeed. I’ve had more than my share of days when I pictured myself on Death Row, having my last meal. One day it was Taco Bell, once a medium-rare steak, and today I’d settle for a “McDouble.” Or my notes back. V Dollar Treats Braxton

Sunday, June 28, 2026

Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And looking at yourself through the Magic Glasses… Well, you’re not such a bad guy after all.

On the other hand, eff the Magic Glasses! And eff you too while you’re here. “Here I Am”. No pride in that at all. And why not? You couldn’t go and get a five-dollar meal.

Won’t V be disappointed. And B? Five years gone. Your tenth year, “I’m Still Here.”

Why? To tell you how I effed up and how you’ll eff up too. It wasn’t my idea for real.

No, you were going to treat yourself. Um, Wi-Fi is $100 a month. Magic Glasses…

Honestly, those effed up again today. How so? Well, in “The Land of Make Believe” aka “The Unfinished Archive,” I added a new Harem sister, Melina from Elden Ring. Ten…

Ten Harem Sisters, Two Favored Acolytes. Uh, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Dystopian Girls 5, Rodzil LaBraun
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 007 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Considering you’ll see this list today and next Sunday, you could delete it right now…

Anyway, so this morning you were making a schedule to spend time with every sister over the course of the week. “Sorcerer Will” and “M Anime” get their own day. The others were two sisters a day. It was a beautiful system. Cataloged, mapped, organized.

  1. M Anime
  2. Kyouko Sakai
  3. “Lily” (Name Pending)
  4. Cassandra Alexandra
  5. Sophitia Alexandra
  6. Skye Matthews
  7. Judy Alvarez
  8. 2B
  9. Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico)
  10. Melina “Elden Ring”

Bible Black Acolytes

  1. Elara (Name Pending) Senior
  2. Liora (Name Pending) Novice

So you’re sharing everything with M Anime, IRL, and boom, Magic Glasses deletes it all.

But not, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Sad that whacking off (not much longer, lube prices), the Magic Glasses wisdom, and writing have all become treats. You swear that making proper notes would be a nice treat.

Hell, that twenty I finally found was a treat, and what do you get for that? At least I made money last week. The only thing you made or will be making this week got deleted by an effing glitch. And what else do you like, no burgers, no books, a bunch of sour candy?

How about beast babes? Lilith, Silent Hill Nurses, Medusa, Sadako, Dimitrescu sisters, Raven, Sorceress Edea, Shiva, and Siren. Let’s not forget Lady Amari (the Candied Matron.” Ideas are treats. My belly and brain. Broke from treats. V Dollar Treats Braxton

1974 Days Without B III, Day 1415 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 356 ~B Let Down Virgil~

Mary J. Blige sang “I’m Goin’ Down.” My B III barked, “I’m down here! Now pick me up!” V barks “Look at me, look at me! (Paws) in the air like it’s good to be alive.” If I don’t get my money up, my mood and get up from the mattress, B Let Down Virgil

Monday, June 22, 2026

Journey 356 ~B Let Down Virgil~

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You humans and time, but I’ll humor you, Dad. 5:23 PM

So this is one of those days when you wouldn’t even talk to me. Couch time, a book, or music- surprise, surprise. Of course, there have been a few changes. If you allow me, Dad:

“You’re down there, we’re up here! You walked into the wrong goddamn room, commander!”

The Rock? Up there, down there… I think I’ll leave you guessing… Better, let’s pretend.

Um, I’m lying right there beside you with my toy in your lap, as I feel like being a “Flake” today. Jack Johnson, ha? Like father, like son. Our tastes in movies and music, Dad.

Speaking of “Flake,” where is my brother right now? Higher than you, as he’s sleeping in the bed, and you came into the glow box room so that we could talk. Maybe he’s waiting for you to let him down…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“Little Bitty Pretty One,” that’s Virgil. I’m kidding, Dad. I’d barked that I’m busting his balls, but my brother lost those before he met you. Again, kidding, but yeah, no balls…

That Thurston Harris tune was more for you than him. Trying to raise your spirits since everything else… No energy drinks, no eww moments as you leave me in time out and there doesn’t seem to be ENOUGH of anything. I know you’ll always see to Virgil as you saw to me. And there you go, down again. There’s no middle ground, my father.

Honestly, you’re Shooting The Moon, trying to, or picking up sh*t. Language, sorry Dad, but I am my father’s son. And I see my Dad falling, not flying, then fighting.

Every day, every moment, “You want… every… single second.” And I remember the look we shared after the mean lady brought me back to you. Trust me, Virgil isn’t missing much going to that pokey place. But when the mean lady brought me to you, and I wanted to bark “Sorry I let you down. Sorry it wasn’t quite true.” “I’m not alright, I’m not alright.” Funny I bark about falling and flying and use a Pilot Speed tune, Daddy.

However, it’s how you feel. Like you’re letting me down all over again. And I’m not going to give you the sh… Crap about doing a good thing. Good things are remembering me happily. You and my stepmom, eww. Staying Alive. B Let Down Virgil

“Do good things, lunch boy”
Dorian Newberry ― Disturbing Behavior

“Each man must face his appointed day
― The Aeneid

1968 Days Without B III, Day 1409 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

Father’s Day… Add it to the day Braxton died, the day I was born, the day M Anime left. Hell, at this point, every day is pretty bad. And I didn’t even try to wrangle a free meal from Olds? B knows, Virgil and I could use one. “Virgil, How Daddies B.”

Sunday, June 21, 2026

Journey 355 ~Virgil, How Daddies B~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you’re lucky you’re so down. You can’t look yourself in the eye—Virgil’s on the floor.

Well, the couch now, whatever. You’re looking down. And that means you’re not looking up, thinking about B this Father’s Day. Your firstborn, your Spirit In The Sky, Heaven side

Hell for all you know Braxton went straight down. If anybody would follow you right into Hell, it would be him. Is that why Virgil got his name? Here’s some effed up reasoning for you… You know how that Ass in The White House is putting his name on everything.

Well, Virgil was already in Hell waiting for Dante, and of course (shudders) you named your little Virgil to see you through… or simply to remember he exists—poor pupper.

Honestly, what kind of father does that make you? Wait, Father’s Day! Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Harem Lab – Part One: A Steamy Men’s Harem Romance
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You’re lying. How many legs does Virgil have? Despite his white fur, it wouldn’t save him. Hell, aren’t Chihuahuas originally from Mexico? Really, this is how you’re spending the day. If you’re not lying with your mouth, you could still be lying in your room…

Seriously, besides lying about your Six Impossible Things, you have been making other lists too for those musically inclined. And not like you did for your Dear Mama. So look:

  1. “Otherworld” Final Fantasy X
  2. Holding Back The Years, Simply Red
  3. Only You, The Platters
  4. Poor Sweet Baby, Snoopy! The Musical
  5. Spirit In The Sky
  6. Dear Mama
  7. The ‘Instrumental’ in the Betterhelp Pad Thai Commercial
  8. Just Look Up, Ariana Grande

Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

So what is wrong with you right this second? You can’t tell Braxton… He’s dead. Virgil is second-born, but he’s got his own problems. Mostly that his father’s a Nobody!!!

“I’m not a nobody!”
“A man that lacks honor is a nobody.”
Clarence and Thomas
The Book of Clarence
(2024)

However, you can’t talk to your boys’ potential future stepmom. She wants your kids too!

And then there’s your Olds—a small Father’s Day greeting. An invite, dinner, worry, lies.

Cue Betterhelp Commercial “Pad Thai”

I want to join my boy more than anything. Not because I miss him so much. I hate being here. I’m scared all the time, and that’s the reason I’m so exhausted. I got my living son, my woman, and my purpose, and it’s not enough. Then it’s all too much. Hungry, horny, helpless… Enough? More? Virgil, How Daddies B

1967 Days Without B III, Day 1408 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 349 ~Braxton, Virgil, Soft Paws~

I may wallow in pain. Give myself a walloping as in a smack to the face. Just to wake up… And I may want to join my boy. But I treat everyone else gently, with kid gloves, and soft paws… But I am “My Own Worst Enemy.” Braxton, Virgil, Soft Paws.

Monday, June 15, 2026

Journey 349 ~Braxton, Virgil, Soft Paws~

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Seeing an all-too-familiar scene, I would say not. Are there differences?

I’d be at my post… Left side at the foot of the bed. “Staring at the world through my rearview.” Eyes in the back of my head, right, Dad? And my little brother? Bless Virgil.

Conked out on the right side at the foot of the bed. Dreaming his life away like father like son. Or maybe he understands something. I served you as best as I could—little princes.

I protected your outer world for the most part. Emotional, yeah. It’s one of the promises you told Virgil, and I’s potential future stepmom. “I Feel Everything.” Because with me.

Yeah, INDIFFERENCE you’re always saying. Those final days before I… Well, you were so mad. RAGE. And you wanted to keep me safe… From you…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You aren’t a monster. Definitely not MAGA. FDT! You’re “Just A Man,” “Human,” an “Ordinary Human.” More. You are my father, my Dad, my Old Man. Same for my bro.

And M Anime? Dad, I was a bachelor for life, but you promised Virgil a mom and me and siblings… Don’t need to know how they’re made, eww! But you chose her, and she chose you. And she sees what your “Princes of the Universe” do every single day, Dad.

But like us, you’re afraid of hurting her too. Do you remember that movie night when my favorite girl was here? Yeah, which one? Because she was the only one I ever just let in.

Yeah, I know after six months, being a hard ass.

You didn’t think twice about showing her that certain video you sent me out of the room for. “Of Inner …” Do you think you could share something like that with M Anime? That’s why it isn’t love yet… Because as strong as Virgil and I are. You worry, Dad.

You think 2-V needs to see a veterinarian soon. You worry that anything could happen.

And as much as my potential stepmom promises… I don’t think you’d need the gate to keep V and me away. But again, you fear her seeing everything. Hearing. Understanding.

What’s there to understand? Okay lots. You treat us with soft paws. You pause. Dad.

Papi… I don’t want to know. Why do you hate yourself? Braxton, Virgil, Soft Paws

“Invincible, Impenetrable, Invisible no longer applied to me. I adopted three new things: Resurrection. Redemption. Resolution. All my life, I’d been a pawn. But not anymore. I was a provider, lover, father, and friend.”
Destroyed

“Unhappy boy, if you can break through cruel fate…”
Aeneid

1961 Days Without B III, Day 1402 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

My boys’ stepmom and I chase each other, but in the end we got each other. But I don’t know where I’m going half the time, and I know I can’t stay here. My Olds were hoping I’d set roots. 3 beds, 2.5 baths, but like me When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks.

Sunday, June 14, 2026

Journey 348 ~Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… Are you scared yet? Are you broke? Is the air still on? Are there any bugs around?

You should check Virgil. Braxton knows he can’t afford a vet visit with the hours at the Day Job. And how much did it cost to put Braxton in a box? Virgil’s not joining him.

Seriously, this isn’t “The Beach,” and you’re not Leonardo DiCaprio/Richard. But how would you know? When’s the last time you looked into a mirror? That’s right, the Black Mirror, sitting around with you d*ck in your hands. I still think I effed that up for you by talking to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom yesterday. My bad, dude. Her box.

You and Leo have the same problem. Trying to put ‘something’ in a box that doesn’t belong to you. Your baggage, all these empty boxes and my Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Destroyed by Pepper Winters (Kindle)
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

At least I’m not ‘lyin’ about #1. I did finish that last night. But on top of making up for my lies about two more books. How will you even afford another novel? Please Haremlit!

And there lies this week’s dilemma. You need five bucks. V needs five bucks. Fries…

However, what are you doing? Wondering why there isn’t a Roman Numeral for B, hmm.

Something else in a box… The Roman Empire. But all of your boxes are empty. Hell, every week is a bunch of empty boxes left unchecked. At this very moment, your Day One-ish, you can pretty much consider 2 through 6 absolute failures. Effing seriously!

Always the question remains. Baggage or Boxes? Are you moving or staying? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

If anything, you’re always running—females, Fun, and Food. But most importantly of all, there is only one ‘F’ that matters. Eff off? You know what you were thinking about.

Depression? Bipolar Depression, the last time you were diagnosed by a doctor. Yeah, you remember them, and you don’t even need to go around saying “I Need A Dollar.” The Day Job handles that. But isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think that lying in bed and working the Day Job, knowing that you wouldn’t have to spend a dime, doesn’t have you looking for a Doc but dreaming of the ferryman? But not that F either. It’s FEAR. Always. Forever.

Because is there a FUTURE? Fictional worlds. M Anime’s Love. When Braxton’s Chasing V Bucks

1960 Days Without B III, Day 1401 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will