Sunday, January 20, 2019

Episode 210 ~Telling Will Mustard Seed~

To Will:
How To Make A Million Dollars, tell yourself that you want to make that kind of money and considering the “Herculean” tasks you ask of yourself every week… let it already be said that I have failed again. I think I spoke of the purpose of one seed once that the Motivations get wrong, a seed is meant to know burial, it gains nutrients from the dirt, from the rain, people march over it, animals seek it, but if it lives its purpose, a seed will grow up.

My “big sister” Dreamswoven told me once; you can’t build a strip club next to a school which is true and morally right, only she was talking about my words, one more demonstration in the power of writing that people won’t understand you or me. Do you know that Johnny Appleseed’s apples were not exactly for eating but instead hard cider and Applejack and that it was prohibition that sought to bury that part of his legacy? In the movie Lord Of War Nicolas Cage’s character Yuri Orlov talks about there being one gun for every twelve people, and he asked himself how does he go about arming the other eleven; men with little “concepts” building empires, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 028 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 035 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Read “Lolita” Vladimir Nabokov
    Failed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

Big things, small packages as it is here in the gospel of “THEY” such glaring failure when I ask so little, hell when I enjoy so little… snacks (Peanuts, Sour Gummi Bears, Ranch Wings), several video games (TWD No Man’s Land, Far Cry 5 and Detroit: Become Human ((watching)), and sex don’t even get me started from True Teen Babes, “Taboo” and tits fantastic from the MILF. There are enough big things out there seeking to destroy you, your pillow; I suppose your PENIS can fit into that category but most importantly of all, so many people. Now the question is your faith, your belief in yourself, sometimes it’s as big as your head, above or below, sometimes it’s as small as the characters blowing away walkers and then it’s in the middle, sitting here planning again, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 035 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Read “Lolita” Vladimir Nabokov
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

Call it Joseph Seed who at the end SPOILER ALERT was right about the end, and that’s the good ending. Maybe you’ll be no better than those charlatans preaching the “Prosperity Gospel” or perhaps when you’re done drooling over some nipples, I’m asking for something as small, sporting, and sinful as the seed that plants you here every day. You know how I hate saying try, but you continue to believe and if something as tiny as your “Will” (yeah you did see the Fapping win) is enough for you to keep going as THEY say you can move mountains high, Telling Will Mustard Seed.

I Will Have No Fear