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Episode 203 ~The Willingness To Shine~

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The Power of Will, Iron Will, if anything I’m dense enough, hardheaded, my heart like a stone and how I wish I could lift my feet but I shuffle around like a zombie but a vampire and wouldn’t need the light. “The Willingness To Shine.”

Sunday, January 20, 2019

Episode 203 ~The Willingness To Shine~

To Will:
How To Make A Million Dollars, other than discovering a diamond mine, there is no California Gold Rush unless you count the MILF and for now, stick to counting every single dollar, and what about the Midas Touch I brought up once before?

Illuminati if a nigga shine

I bet you wish you had that now, at least when it came to time, seriously how long did you sleep and reading isn’t exactly what you call work I mean it’s “Lolita” by Vladimir Nabokov for god’s sake. You want to hear God laugh but that’s the thing, last week I did nothing but plan, this week you’ll do nothing, but work and I do mean the day job; so much for the power of positivity. If you pour the Bisquick you have to expect pancakes, or as the last two days have gone, if you want the peanut butter you have to clean the knife, and speaking of more chores, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 020 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 028 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Read Deal with the Devil (The Forge Trilogy #1)
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

Don’t bother asking about the days, hell don’t bother asking about the sun, maybe you shouldn’t ask for anything but “The Will” and that means taking some responsibility, do you hear me Take Responsibility for Your Life. Remember that quote from The Last Jedi about hope, but unlike them, you have seen the sun, and even if it’s not there now, it only means you need to light a fire be the spark or whatever.

You see Iron is not meant to shine but how does the song go, “fire plus iron” and that Will is something you have plenty of with all, anger, lust, and pride; another one of your motivations goes, you can’t bury a seed, but a seed is meant to know burial. Iron comes from the Earth, Bruce Lee said to be like water and iron can be melted and formed into new shapes, beautiful, deadly, and with purpose as long as they are oiled, sharpened. That’s what these lists are for, to shine yourself up, to live your purpose, to channel your fire as Thor channeled “lightning” to his hammer but you have a pen, well a keyboard and again this week Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 028 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Read “Lolita” Vladimir Nabokov
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

Now Moses had God to forge him but again with the motivations, you made you, this is the desert (no wonder you’re dry, you know what I mean) better you take B III as an example of determination, with meds you’re saving his life but what about yours, so you have The Willingness To Shine?

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Episode 196 ~Love Is Like Will~

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Love in the context of myself is often a dirty word and there a few in this to give you fair warning, there’s also the want of green, and I’m not endorsing PCH, though I still search there but what about for the Man In The Mirror. “Love Is Like Will”

Sunday, January 13, 2019

Episode 196 ~Love Is Like Will~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, say you have a million dollars, and you’re there, you’re going to get it, but while you’re out, you might as well do a few things before you stop by to pick it up. I remember being heavy into PCH once upon a time, hell you are too, but I’m talking about hours upon hours of play, yeah I honestly missed writing, but I was all in for some simple paper, something green that didn’t make me jealous, sick or more monstrous.

Call it delusion, insanity, obsession, but I never liked it and would I have loved it, if it resulted in my winning… to be like John Wyllie (August 31st, 2012) or Tamar Howard (February 27, 2015). The 27th hurt the most because I remember going into work that day; I was watching the notices and knew that PCH was in town, and how confident was I that all that “hard work” was going to bear fruit, not the job but the games and what happened next? Nearly four years ago, if that had been you we wouldn’t be having this conversation, but again you didn’t want to do any of it, and here you are now, waking up at 2:15 AM every morning, reading, writing, sigh TRYING Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 014 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 020 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish The Art of the Pimp by Dennis Hof
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

There are days that you hate writing I know; you downright despise it, we can go back to the reason this started, and no I’m not talking about childhood dreams, like most things this is all because of a Bitch (Language), you’re acting like a Pussy (Will)… where’s the positive? The positive is, you can make every day like the 27th, not the failure, frustration, or the train of Fucks (stop already) today could be the day, as your Motivations go. If you want another F here’s one for you, FIGHT, Blessed Cause I Got Fight. The difference between PCH and what you are doing now and yes, you will continue to search with PCH and play the occasional game, not to mention the mailings because honestly, you like money a lot, but you love you and to become someone even better Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 020 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Read Deal with the Devil (The Forge Trilogy #1)
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

When you looked at PCH you eventually only looking at other people and yes you don’t like most people… you called the veterinarian a jerk, and he saved B III’s life, and you love Triple B because he sees you. I feel sort of like O’Brien from George Orwell’s book 1984 telling you that you must love yourself, it’s not enough to read the words, to obey what I’m saying but you must look at the man in the mirror and know my friend the truth Love Is Like Will.

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Episode 194 ~How Will Goes Unwritten~

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Am I writing good or bad, truth or fiction; I would be rather pleased if I were writing anything at all and the one that I’m doing it all for, could never read one word of it, though he understands, or so I hope, it’s for him. How Will Goes Unwritten?

Friday, January 11, 2019

Episode 194 ~How Will Goes Unwritten~

Hey Lady Sophia,
How To Make One Million Dollars, stop writing checks, although honestly, I don’t remember the last time I ever did, money orders nowadays, though my debit card could probably tell quite a few stories. This week my writings were supposed to be one about positivity, but I might have spoiled that yesterday because I find there are words that even I won’t write and you ask me why not considering the things I do write every day.

For one I refuse to write an obituary for my son, hell no, B III is going to live, and that’s even if I call the Vet he treated him an idiot, doesn’t mean he’s a hero either and haven’t I written plenty that I’m petty amongst other things. Also, I won’t write, “goodbye,” “The End,” or will I remain silent when my child NEEDS something, and I will never write a single regret of having him in my life. Yes, I write of my failures often when it comes to being his father but I will never write than I gave up on him; like I told the man in the mirror as I want to be The Best Man I Can Be, right behind that I need to be the best father ever.

Lady Sophia, I never want to be ashamed of my name ever again, and it’s hard, but with this week, yes I’m turning every negative into a positive because writing out the usual spiel does nothing but keep me in a Mad Season. How about that period when I didn’t want to say that I’m sorry for things that absolutely, positively have nothing to do with me or what about saying the word impossible; well you know that goes with my “mission statement.” If I learned anything from the “Ho Business” yes I’m nearly done with “The Art of the Pimp” and still thinking about dealing with the MILF, I never want to write a deal that I’M the one that’s going to get screwed in the end once again.

Writing is my purpose Lady Sophia and like I was telling “Okay” last night, my “why” is Triple B which means I should honestly get to work, he’s not the only one who needs to live and I already said yesterday I don’t write suicide notes. One more thing, I should never write another excuse as to why I can’t do something or didn’t “TRY,” and never again another statement for the Day Job; I know How Will Goes Unwritten.

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Episode 189 ~Your Will On Paper~

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What was that about keeping no good vibes last week? If anything I am feeling chipper and I’m hoping to keep it that way or so it’s written right, and I do that every single day without fail. Your Will On Paper

Sunday, January 6, 2019

Episode 189 ~Your Will On Paper~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, your name being on the schedule and how I know it’s hard keeping up the feeling of yesterday but that’s something right there, the past was good, maybe even remarkable. Perhaps it’s something to your Motivations, yesterday was such a feeling and how excited are you today, considering what, a text message, that we’re having this conversation, how about tearing open another 5-hour ENERGY, living on it.

Maybe they should make you a spokesperson, today you saw some guy living his best life after a year of making funny videos about food and by September you’re going to have a million dollars. Keep fighting it, and again I know it will be harder tomorrow but that’s another thing, the challenge, whatever doesn’t kill you had better start running and that will be the only reason you run now. Well, that and your goal and this is where the rubber meets the road isn’t it, one more reason to get into novels, because the word “completed” is beautiful, so is MILF, a spoonful of sugar as they say with these Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 007 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 014 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish The Zombie Survival Guide by Max Brooks (Gift)
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

Such a way to start the new year am I right, and no that’s not sarcasm or any negativity, because this is an opportunity, you can see it right… if you could keep your eyes off the MILF’s… okay, that would only be dirty but incredible. Something else you must come to realize, seeds sprout from the dirt, from the darkness, chasing the light much like B III today. Talk about being “Johnny on the Spot” when it came to his bathroom needs. At least whatever had him up all night seems to have passed and you proved yet again you can get up that early and honestly who needs to dream of angels when you have one to see in the nude and again six opportunities, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 014 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Finish The Art of the Pimp by Dennis Hof
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

How about some other paper or on screen activities such as finally cleaning out your email, now that was joy some years ago, and again when was the last time something brought a bout of anticipation, and that’s what life needs to be. The “Hero of Your Own Story” keep the excitement coming, and instead of thinking about the rock of tomorrow, know that the paper will save you and there will even come a day when you won’t have to imagine that, such intelligence… it’s Your Will On Paper.

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Episode 182 ~The “Sent” Of Will~

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I send good vibes to some, I keep none for myself, at least I hope they were right, beautiful, anything but my usual spiel much like today’s conversation and there will be plenty more. The Sent Of Will, ha

Sunday, December 30, 2018

Episode 182 ~The “Sent” Of Will~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, write it down, know that one way or the other that scary feeling, the shakes, your sickness will exist but crying in a Mercedes and going “home” to a mansion is so much the better and may it be a sin to want more stuff just saying.

Yeah, you’re always just saying sigh, but yeah you’re afraid of saying something stupid which is inevitable, for example, friends; females that you haven’t slept with, males that would fight by your side but both will except your stupidity to a degree. The things I have said this week, if not only today all before talking to you before the New Year which reminds me of one thing I need to do besides what I have done, what I sent out into the world. Indeed not stories but plenty of sins and secrets. I do wish this last report card was better but again at the closing of the year as with every week don’t we strive to do better, with these, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 007 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish Christmas Cake: A Holiday Collection by Celia Aaron
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

I know that number one would seem like success right, apparently not by the time and how I’ve been sweating it out, nothing by comparison to you, actually chasing something that’s real. Is it strange that for one to have a soul, one must have guts, balls, a backbone, which means you’re standing up, which might explain after today your exhaustion and what will happen tomorrow? Hopefully not that, how your ears are ringing, your heart rattling its cage, or how about the rout of more and more promises like every week’s Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 007 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Finish The Zombie Survival Guide by Max Brooks (Gift)
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

Now look further ahead Will, Chris Rock said that the more shit (language) one has, the less shit they can talk which is great since you’re a writer but tomorrow is New Year’s Eve, geez what have we done between two days, two friends, and how many hours. The things I have brought into the world and sent out but you’re reading the New Year’s Resolutions of 2018, and now here we go again, what can I tell you besides well, there is going to be shit however whatever you choose, I want you to survive all of it. Not only survive, but I also want you to live, take responsibility, I don’t want you to fear or regret whatever comes from you, smells like victory doesn’t it; wishing you a Happy New Year Will from The Sent Of Will.

2019 Resolutions:

  1. See Braxton through another year
  2. Continue to write my blog, at least 400 words daily and gain a profit
  3. Complete one novel without NaNoWriMo
  4. Sleep with a different girl a month (and, or) have a girlfriend/submissive
  5. Read over 25 books one being a cookbook
  6. Participate in NaNoWriMo (a novel in a month) 50,000 words
  7. Finish all repairs (Back Fence, Refrigerator Light, Car, etc.)
  8. Publish two books, poetry and novel
  9. Collect more than 4,000 dollars in 52 Week Money challenge
  10. Read for an hour and a half every day

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Episode 175 ~Bells, Pails, Will Tell~

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All I want for Christmas… that’s like a list of the women I want to (um okay) if anything I want my wallet to be as full as my fridge, my son, and what’s up with, the cleaning supplies and gift bags and no one’s named charity. Bells, Pails, Will Tell

Sunday, December 23, 2018

Episode 175 ~Bells, Pails, Will Tell~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, let other people do it, The Salvation Army, Prosperity Ministry, and what’s one more pretty girl, but no, you have no choice but to listen to those loud ass bells, same with people, you have no faith in yourself, and how much did you spend today? Man I know how you feel about charity, it doesn’t make sense you know, somebody has millions if not billions of dollars, but from the proceeds of their obscene profits, they donate a million and feel good about themselves, tsk, tsk.

Now I don’t want to lecture you about money, hell you have over a thousand dollars waiting “The Alamo Fund” I’m also not telling you to be a fool and spend it all, neither am I complaining about how you’re living… Okay so that’s what I do honestly but what I mean is, you shine up like a new penny for what; did you spend money on “B III” today, in a way, seeing as how you always share right? You spend money on Pussy (Language), Pets, and Prose, and it’s the first, and the last that makes you so silly don’t you think, bringing up those Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish The Golden Line: (Knotted Book 1), Addison Cain
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

Well, Merry “Freaking” Christmas, a 17.5 F and the most you can even start to hope for is five out of six until “Triple B” has his next Vet appointment, annual and his heart condition. You have a heart condition dammit because you believe in such things and throw money at them; being a father to a son because you have to, you clean up the house, get a haircut, shower, shave, buy presents and yes you feel better. My point is you believe in everything but yourself, you want to make others happy, you say your son is going to live until his brown coat is silver, you give everything you are to everything else, but you are impossible, unbelievable, worthless Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Finish Christmas Cake: A Holiday Collection by Celia Aaron
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

So much noise and somehow the holidays are supposed to be the cure and not the virus, how full would your gas tank be, your wallet, hell even your bed if all this faith you have somehow you could keep; Grammarly, blogging, put your money where your mouth is but you would never. Tell them to stop those bells, call out the liars, it’s okay to like your friends, but you go out of your way for them, be selfish, but it won’t be this week sigh I could guess that Bells, Pails, Will Tell.

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Episode 168 ~Will In The Placebo~

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Placebo, Gazebo, how I like a good rhyme but I wish I could say that I want my life; maybe that would make my mom happy on her birthday today, and how many women did I buy gifts for last night? “Will In The Placebo,” so I THINK it’s affection or life

Sunday, December 16, 2018

Episode 168 ~Will In The Placebo~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, don’t be the smartest person in the room; I read somewhere once that if you’re the brightest bulb in the box, you’re in the wrong place… explains why you keep “B III” around. According to your Motivations, it always comes down to who’s the hungriest, who’s willing to do Whatever It Takes, who dare I say loves the most and that is where we get into the placebo effect of what it means to be alive now.

You are your father’s son; I remember being in his truck and him pointing out to a structure in the distance and him asking if I knew what it was, I didn’t naturally, but it’s called a gazebo; it wasn’t a real lesson, lip service or a lasting impression moment, he just wanted to be smarter. As with most of your life, you haven’t wanted to last, love, or ever truly live; you know why you don’t care for lying, because you know how it feels to do it to yourself, you stay in this place you couldn’t name and let everyone else give your existence meaning. In saying that, you also know that it’s mom’s birthday, is it an insult to her this farce, parody, mockery, and any of words you can find in a thesaurus to know This Is Your Life moment to moment, these Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish One Book Besides “Begging For It” Todd Michaels
    Failed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

One point, you are still alive, Will and the placenta sigh another one of your Motivations, your Comfort Zone is your enemy and where are you at this very moment as we’re talking? Could you conceive what it might be like to live like you see ants marching across the kitchen floor, “Triple B’s” area, the bathtub (aren’t you glad you won that war), how about doing your math homework in class, or rushing out in a frozen car to the day job. How about living like you’re working for NaNoWriMo year round, maybe as though you’re wanting to please some girl, that rush to protect B III, living for the hate or the love, what about Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Finish The Golden Line: (Knotted Book 1), Addison Cain
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

You’re not sick Will, you’re not dead, and you’re definitely not still in the womb and as much as you confess I’ll Always Love My Mama, the way you love your little boy, and think quite fondly of a few women, when will you recognize yourself in the mirror? You don’t have to know all there is to know in the distance, you don’t need to be comfortable all the time (you should know that better than anyone), and you don’t have to be the hero, the victim, or even the villain. Only don’t be mediocre, Live Your Life, don’t be Will In The Placebo.

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Episode 161 ~Baby It’s Will Outside~

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Nobody would have to coerce me into staying here, the monsters, the mayhem, the man that awaits me, hell I saw a glimpse of him, talk about going from the second circle of Hell to the ninth plus “Triple B” thinks I’m a meanie. Baby, It’s Will Outside

Sunday, December 9, 2018

Episode 161 ~Baby It’s Will Outside~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, outwit, outplay, outlast, and what wouldn’t give to stay in the house all day, despite getting a full eight hours; that’s the dream, and you would rather keep dreaming am I right? It’s a reason most of those reality shows take place on the beach, in the kitchen, or skimpy attire because who likes being cold, more to the point who likes feeling dead I ask daily?

Despite the cold, the concept of becoming a corpse, and the possibility of gaining, more likely, losing cash, nevertheless you go out and what scares you the most is not the man in the mirror but the man they see. I know how things were in the past and they don’t sound anywhere near as good as Baby It’s Cold Outside; you’re sick, frozen in fear and yet warm in cozy in sheets, in a hot shower, or with the furry kid, and the future… Even Spotify agrees you vanish in “Fearless Motivation” and yet if you had to face the man the rest of the world sees, neighbors, family, the vet’s office, not that I’m sparing you any misery either, with Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
    Failed
  5. I Will Finish Dancing In The Dark By T.L. Martin (Goodreads)
    Completed
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel
    Failed

My, don’t I make becoming an ice cube, sound so much more appealing as days go by, no one is looking forward to seeing you but the Day Job and only so you can be frozen in place unloading trucks. The score didn’t move up any from last week, and even now that’s a bit of counting my chickens before they hatch because according to Goodreads I haven’t finished “Dancing In The Dark.” Hell if it wasn’t for last night, one of “B III’s” nails getting caught in his collar you would have more than enough reasons not to brave the cold of this world, and if there was a pretty girl in the mix… whoa, just Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 001 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
  4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
  5. I Will Finish One Book Besides “Begging For It” Todd Michaels
  6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

Besides today, of course, there is one work shift to consider; one more reason you’re frozen, tears, sweat, and other things the body excretes; what temperature does blood freeze at, that’s a type of you’re a writer and not a psycho inquiry. You’re a writer, an artist, like those who did Baby It’s Cold Outside and you can practice from anywhere because Noah knew the flood would pass, but it’s freezing in your part of the world, so you believe and Baby It’s Will Outside.

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Episode 154 ~Well Wish Me, Will~

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I rarely wish anymore; I don’t ask for miracles, wait and hope or more like fear, I can’t tell count how many nightmares I’ve endured, but none of any prophecy as of late, yet I wish to go back to bed and turn off and on my lamp. Well Wish Me, Will.

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Episode 154 ~Well Wish Me, Will~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, well you don’t wish for it unless you’re the President, some other political party figure, or one of the proles and they each get a dollar even that seems much too much for the President and again the party. Excuse me for getting political, but I know you’re planning on making your million and how to get out of Day Job for it; if November were any indication you’d work, but Retail is Hell on Earth honestly.

Tis the season of wishes, hopes, and dreams and my how they have changed since childhood; most nights you wish for the simple, a clean bathroom, an unfrozen car, for “B III” to live forever, you hope not to be humiliated, you dream you could sleep forever. A suicidal sentiment but to Rest In Peace, shouldn’t we want that every night, shouldn’t we want our breaths, the beats of our hearts, everything good and best to come to us all “Johnny On The Spot.” Of course every week a plan is in place to become a better man and have I, will you be, well according to Six Impossible Things:

1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
Failed (Day 002 No Fap)
2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
Failed
3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
Failed
4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
Failed
5. I Will Finish Dancing In The Dark By T.L. Martin (Goodreads)
Failed
6. I Will Finish My “NaNoWriMo”
Completed

I wish “Triple B” could talk because the first question I would ask him, is he happy, needs his nails clipped, medication time is constantly in flux, a bath would be good, a few other incidentals but he’s lying here on vacation. Three authors aren’t worried about anything I have to say and contrary to the opinion of NaNoWriMo, the world doesn’t need your novel, and something worse than a 17.5 F isn’t going to make you feel any better. Plan for this week but why bother, you’re busy being a prole, gambling on the probability, the possibility, of dealing with fewer people when you need only deal with one and his Six Impossible Things:

1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
5. I Will Finish Dancing In The Dark By T.L. Martin (Goodreads)
6. I Will Edit One Chapter Of My Newly Written Novel

Always the wish is to be a better Will than yesterday, to show tomorrow what is coming so maybe one day your “magic lamp” the one sitting on your nightstand is minuscule compared to everything else; my the wishes we have made, to wake up, watch TV, wonder. Yes, wonder and not plan on the future when the walls come tumbling down, to have the power to make your dreams become a reality and yet serve every Master but yourself, how you make their dreams come to fruition, so they do, Well Wish Me, Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 147 ~The Language Of Will~

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Every time I go to speak, it comes out as a yawn, a tapestry of obscenity or praise for B III; how I wish I could know appreciation for keeping myself alive and all that’s required is taking pills slathered in peanut butter. The Language Of Will

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Episode 147 ~The Language Of Will~

To Will:
How To Make One Million Dollars, with NaNoWriMo nearly over I have been lost in my Motivational playlist, I have done you the courtesy of adding it to Youtube, but one of the phrases I remember is something to the tune of, keep your mouth shut and work, let your success make the noise. I’m going to tell you this second that one of your goals this week, will be to finish “Plague Two Pay” even if right now it sounds like Star Trek Deep Space Nine “Babel.”

Social Anxiety can be a real bitch (Language Please), but there are times like these I don’t think it’s “SAD” but more like utter exhaustion; the way I have been speaking this weekend can be chalked up in one word, Zzz… If it’s not that it’s the marching of God only knows how many feet, but as the song goes 99 Problems, but I’m not missing any bitch yet (again Will). If I do speak actual words they have mostly been “Take your medicine puppy,” “such a good boy,” or “not right now” so you already know what I’ve failed with those, Six Impossible Things:

1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
Failed (Day 002 No Fap)
2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
Failed
3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
Failed
4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
Failed
5. I Will Finish Dancing In The Dark By T.L. Martin (Goodreads)
Failed
6. I Will Continue “NaNoWriMo” 12,600
Completed

What’s one more 17. 5 F and in this case, the F would stand for; yeah, I’m not going to say but with my Motivations, that F should start the mantra of Find A Way and haven’t you today, giving yourself another 1,800 words for the novel. What about going out to make some money though you’re already $150.00 down “Grammarly” that’s for your career, nothing has staunched the idea you’re going to make it as a writer and shouldn’t that count as a real blessing. Can you be glad that this is the last week of NaNoWriMo and what will you do with all your time after that, editing is going to be a pain in the: yes save the dirty words for the story and the overwhelming exhaustion for these Six Impossible Things:

1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
3. I Will Review Sell My Soul (Sixty Days #1) by Jade West
4. I Will Review Depredation By Natalie Bennett
5. I Will Finish Dancing In The Dark By T.L. Martin (Goodreads)
6. I Will Finish My “NaNoWriMo”

Words like Easy Street, Rested, and Happy don’t come to a man like you, but you have to start thinking positively, and I’m sure you don’t want me mentioning, Motivation, NaNoWriMo, or Ant one more time but fact vs. fiction, you have a chance at finishing one of those. Once you stop playing pretend though, what comes next, what does it take to be Phenomenal other than hard work, kicking everything else to the curb, how about a lifetime commitment, writing The Language Of Will.

I Will Have No Fear