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Log 036 ~Let’s Look Up Will~

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Now you know everything, and like Jon Snow, I know nothing, well usually but who I am and what I do, well most would run away but you’re here and in love, don’t they say that conquers all, including my fear. “Let’s Look Up Will” or not

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Log 036 ~Let’s Look Up Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, but SPOILER ALERT I’m not perfect. It’s no secret I’m a writer, but I find my words lacking when it comes to you. Angel, queen, goddess, should I stick with beautiful? I place you so high because you could never let me down. Hell, I never would have believed you would fall for me baby girl. How about the fact that I go so low hoping you’ll never see everything? I would say I’m an open book, but then like a couple of days ago I fear everyone knows too much.

You know like I’m some Erotic novel that needs that HEA disclaimer. With other people, well, I’ve lost friends and family. Now you and me, I need to know that there is a happy ending. In this day and age, I would be surprised if you hadn’t looked me up before we were together. I’m always one for research because I like the control. People can’t be too careful, but still, I wonder what makes you different. Other than being right here and now not running away. Deciding you’ll stay with me; how I wish my playlist were the only thing you’d find. That’s another reason I want my name in the public eye. Of course, you’re not one to be blinded by the glitz and the glamour. Why am I still hiding from you after all this time Love?

Higher aspirations, headphones, wanting to build Heaven for an angel? I still remember reading that somewhere, if you desire an angel, you have to aspire to build her such a home. It wouldn’t bother me if my “blood” read my books but you? Would I give you my phone right now; of course, but I fear you would run? I don’t want any secrets between us; only I don’t want to be alone either. If there is one word that defines me, it would be fear. Only it gets lost in everything else that I am. So why do I think I have the right to ask for everything that you are and may become. You became my wife, the mother of our children. I want to be a better man, but more so I only want to be yours. The man I am Here and Now my baby doll?

Greatest fan of your life but Let’s Look Up Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Log 029 ~First Time For Will~

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My first time… falling in love, the second time, the third, hell I have kind of lost count and the first, last, and the only motif, well these days I’m just there, and I have better things to do than wait, but still, I dream. First Time For Will

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Log 029 ~First Time For Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and what do you do with a million dollars? You know how I want to quote Office Space right now? Speaking of a movie about work, I don’t want to rant about that anymore today. Baby Girl, you’ll hear me go off every day, that is until the book is published. When I get the business up and running. How about the studio and everything else? Today I want to talk about, first, last, and only? As long as we’re not recounting that “first time” honestly my love let’s not okay.

Let’s think more like the time you and I first met. You know the saying about how time flies, well not here? I could give you all the clichés. I believe love is an acceptable form of suicide. How glad I am I didn’t say those words? Another saying is if I had to do t all over AGAIN. Look I like Lenny Kravitz as much as the next guy, but no I wouldn’t want to repeat this road. I’m glad I found you, but my life has been The Maze Runner. Yes, another movie reference? I like introducing you to movies, that’s my whole control thing again. You are stepping into my world as I step into yours, “Melancholia” one more film. I never saw it, but it’s about two planets colliding, and with you, it felt like nothing would ever be the same.

Everything with me is always to the extreme, I know. Somebody I can survive the zombie apocalypse with ha. You don’t laugh if I want to build an armory and a prepper stash. You’ll be the last person to know me, hell the only one. I want you to be the last person I will ever hurt. If you didn’t know how you wouldn’t be mine. My love, you could be the only love to make B III give up his spot. Might you be the last time I ever have to fear a woman? Well, I’m sure our daughters finding love, yeah that would scare the crap out of me at some point. Should I tell you about the first time, I knew I was in love. The start of an obsession. Multiple times I sent women heading for the hills? To have a woman say “I Do,” Hey Lover, First Time For Will.

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Log 022 ~Love Will Sound Like~

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The only PERSON’s opinion that should mean anything is my own and possibly the girl I marry, should I also include my furbaby anyway, a girl said something today and let’s say my earphones will be on. Love Will Sound Like

Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Log 022 ~Love Will Sound Like~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, but I don’t need a hearing aid. Old as I am, as loud as the world is, I should be grateful. One of my many motivations today stressed the importance of showing gratitude. I’m thankful my ears are healthy, hell perfect. I didn’t have to listen to A&W; I did get through my Meditation. One more afternoon of people showing me who they are, to be honest. You know what I usually don’t hear, those three little words. I love you.

It’s not that they don’t exist; it’s just that people don’t make them matter. When there was only me and B III, I said them all the time and meant them. Do you know what he said in return? He growled when he knew I was upset and looked for something to fight. My “father” and nephew stopped by, and he barked at the gate, wanting them to go away. Let’s not talk about my dad, and I don’t know any of my nephews enough to form an opinion. Triple B cries when I’m hurt and lies on the affected area. No wonder I thought a bug flew in my ear, too much toxicity at work. Yeah, people talk too damn much. I hear the clack of his nails on the floor, or the pitter-patter, a bath, and a nail grind are needed. He huffs, and he puffs, letting me know to get off my behind and do something anything.
Talk about having a purpose.

Now you tell me you love me, and again I am grateful. I feel undeserving sometimes I know, it even scares me a bit. You want to know when I hear it baby girl. Those Saturdays we lie here for two or three hours and imagine we’re the only two people left in the world. Please don’t let our kids be jocks? A cappuccino when I’m working or hot chocolate when I finish, coffee umm eww. Those times you sing to me because every day I’m losing my voice. How we watch some movie, I’ve seen a dozen times, and you’re surprised or pepper me with questions. Those nights we rant together about what they did to poor Prince Henry or Queen Daenerys. I can pretend I don’t hear some STUPID girl in my ear because I’m coming home to you. Love Will Sound Like

“You’re a good man,
(Will.)
And it doesn’t matter what
anyone else thinks but me.” movie Death Race – 2008

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Log 015 ~Will Needs A Mirror~

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I don’t think a girl has ever asked me, “does this dress make me look fat” and I learned from Cory Matthews never to tell the “absolute” truth about everything, I guess it pays not to be a prize myself. “Will Needs A Mirror.”

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Log 015 ~Will Needs A Mirror~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, so why not several mirrors? The first time I even bought a mirror for myself was when I got my first place. I did a few weeks of basic training in the Navy after that my first retail job. People don’t like it when it looks like you don’t iron or covered in dog hair. If anything I felt that when I found you, the apocalypse would have begun. You know me baby-doll, considering my profession I’m all kinds of shallow.

It keeps going back to I don’t want anyone ever to feel like I did or still do? I was thinking about why I wanted to be a father, and while I do “copy” him, I want more money. The thing is I don’t want our children to ever hate themselves because of something I said. To feel so low that they never feel the need to look in a mirror. Heads hung low, minds so dark that they can’t see who they are ever. Looking in their wallets or hiding in words to say, “at least I’m not that evil.” I want pictures on the fridge, notes in lunch boxes and picnic baskets. I want their rooms decorated in all the things they love in life. So I’m back to the point of if I were a rich man. Well, I am, but what do I know about art, dancing, and can you plant black roses, The Hunger Games?

As the song “I just wanna look good for you,” and I should apologize if I’ve made you feel pressured like that My Love. I do love how you sing, though. Again back to my point because if it were up to me, I’d still be looking at blank walls. If it weren’t for you, my life goal would remain to stay here at home. You don’t keep beauty to yourself though; it should be to share with the world. One more reason I became a writer, and everything else fell into place. I don’t need mirrors if my children see me as well, is Superman too much to ask or Black Panther? If you see me and want me, everyone can go to Hell baby-girl. I’m praying I guess to see myself how you and the children see me when I feel so bad.

Who sells the best, my profession, Will Needs A Mirror.

“I’m not sure. But I always read that you had to be OK with yourself first before you could be OK with another person. Now I feel OK with you. But I don’t know how OK I was with myself before I met you, so maybe you’re making me OK.”

“You’re not that OK.”

“OK.”

  • Defending Your Life (1991)

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Log 008 ~Will Has Heart BUM~

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As far as I know Link and Princess Zelda never got married, of course, Luke found out Princess Leia was his sister and where was Nakia for T’Challa in the Avengers films, is it easier being a hero than a husband, Thy Art Courageous? Will Has Heart BUM

Tuesday, July 9, 2019

Log 008 ~Will Has Heart BUM~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I owe it all to Zelda. What, can you fault a guy for wanting to name our daughter after a princess, Leia, Shuri, or Zelda. It worked for Robin Williams. I also have stock in the Legend of Zelda franchise and Quantic Dream. Now before I put you to sleep, though if I did, we wouldn’t be married ha; you know I love a good story. So, my Queen, I was thinking about how our love is an adventure. We keep going and going like something out of Final Fantasy until they get to FF “XXX…” sorry work related My Love.

Anyway, Link, (the protagonist for those who don’t know) is always chasing maybe three things. The Triforce, heart pieces, and his princess. Power, wisdom, and courage, I needed all three to have you by my side. I gave my whole heart to you, and every day, I find these pieces in everything I do with my life. All so I can give you more and our kids. You, of course, remain the reason, and even though I have you, I keep running. Am I afraid? Courage does not mean the absence of fear. I love you, but I keep thinking that I’ll always need something more. It’s like I’m forever opening a treasure chest and I’m praying I’ll find something there. When it was only me and B III, I felt like I was playing Heavy Rain seeing how far I would go for my son, to be his father.

I always find the strength, for him, for us, but I never know what’s next. The hearts will keep coming, the adventure will continue, and I’ll never get enough of you. Today I guess I’m asking myself why did Link get up in the first place. What did Princess Zelda see that said this boy, this man can find a way? Luke was a farm boy, T’Challa was his father’s son. What is it I want to say? I treasure you because, with all I had, I had nothing? It could be that love cannot be hidden. How about happily ever after isn’t only that, the prince keeps going, the warrior continues to fight. The princess, the queen, isn’t always a damsel in distress. A man can be a hero and love but my chest, Will Has Heart BUM.

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Log 001 ~A Will Date Night~

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First off Happy Anniversary to me, two years of blog posts, every single day and starting Camp NaNoWriMo, so if you ask me why I don’t have a girl, as the song goes Everyday, I’m Hustling and even if I had one. “A Will Date Night”

Tuesday, July 2, 2019

Log 001 ~A Will Date Night~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now so our anniversary should be something even more epic. Is it cute or all kinds of creepy that I put more thought into our wedding day that our first date? Star Wars, The Hunger Games, Divergent, The Walking Dead, Article 5 I could continue. My movie list or reading list. No surprise now that I’m a bit of a homebody, even with multiple millionaire dollar homes. What was it I said about not building my bedroom on each of my business properties. You know, I will.

Anyway, we’re going out tonight and not to the movies, a museum, or anywhere muted. For someone who loves music, it’s something about concerts or places with live music that irks me. Restaurants, well I’m still mourning the loss of Seafood & Chicken Box, but there is always the Red Lantern. I’ve said often enough if I ever mention caviar go ahead and shoot me, please. I’m not much for some drinks as my friends will tell you, yet we have full wine cellars. My most romantic destinations are always in books. A vacation on our anniversary is one thing but what about other days.

People say you want to know how boring you are, let them ask about your hobbies. Again I retreat to the quiet places, libraries, book stores, a walk through the woods. There we go with that creepy factor now. I want to show you off, not like a trophy or anything but your what inspires me always. A night beneath the stars sounds a tad better than a night surrounded by them. We have a full theater room, but I only want to sit on the couch and watch something. Every Saturday and this is a constant, but I want to lie in bed with you and listen to nuclear pop for three hours. I want private hotel rooms with room service. Video Games but wait what’s my age again and nothing to do with sports titles. Where did I find you babydoll, or was it the other way around?

First dance at the wedding or did we have a lightsaber duel, both equally hilarious coming from me right? Karaoke or a poetry reading, again my attempts at humor. Still, it is our anniversary, and every day I love you more. Oh, Nothing on a boat, A Will Date Night.

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Episode 359 ~Will Visits Olive Garden~

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I’ve never eaten at Olive Garden, I liked The Shrimp & Chicken Box, but I always ate at home, and I realize I still sound like that boy eating by himself I the cafeteria but if I had the money, the power, and the woman. Will Visits Olive Garden.

Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Episode 359 ~Will Visits Olive Garden~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. One more reason I “work” so hard, I want my Soup, Salad, and Breadsticks at home. There is also the fact that B III hates car rides. On the other hand, Daddy needs some downtime. When he was sick, he didn’t even give me time to myself in the bathroom. I do better when I’m sick; you’ll never hear me ask you to make me a sandwich. I do like soup though, chicken noodle or steak and potato from Campbell’s. Campbell’s Chunky Grilled Chicken & Sausage Gumbo is what I call elegant dining. Add in shrimp and ghost pepper sauce yum. I’ve said before if I ever mention caviar I’m either a hostage or crazy. The different kinds of sick sigh. It could be I want an excuse to stay in bed with you another day.

Speaking of green, I hope I’ll never be so sick again. Would you like to see me cook some? I haven’t killed anybody, yet; now though one woman ran away, another got sour punch candy in her eyes (not my fault). I like Sprite, not Sierra Mist; Sprite always settles my stomach. Yes, I can say you give me butterflies, but here we are still. The jobs I have now aren’t making me physically ill on the daily. I also built them from the ground up. There’s no need to hide or to worry. If you could only imagine, in some way how long it took to be comfortable at the movies, the library, the pool? More reasons I built them in my house. Creepy you think I’m trying to keep you from the world. Far from it, I’m the Beast, and you’re my Beauty, wow does that make me a PRINCE somehow, my love?

My love for you is purer than my anger or fear. With everything I have do you know I’ve never had Olive Garden Breadsticks? I could always have them delivered, and I won’t ask, would you rather stay in tonight? How I hate asking for anything but being sick, well that’s a good excuse. I’m always open to learning, growing, evolving, but when everybody looks at you like you’re STUPID? I love you because you don’t, again one of many reasons. My son is cute, baby girl you are beautiful, our other children are happy. So nobody notices at all that Will Visits Olive Garden.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 352 ~Will And The Wardrobe~

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The business is winding me down, I don’t think it would be so if I were in a line of work that I enjoyed though most women would prefer I don’t win an AVN Award or do business in the AEE, but today should I put on pants? “Will And The Wardrobe.”

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

Episode 352 ~Will And The Wardrobe~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now but am I a hero? I’m not sure if we’ve had the sickness and in health conversation, or depressed. It’s just lying here nestled in bed, delusions of grandeur. Very expensive as Mr. Dink would say, from the sheets to the bed in general. The most expensive room in our home is the bedroom? Now I don’t mean it like when I’m at work but between us. Having you here Love and you know I wish I could say it’s not about the money at all.

You, all our kids, money, are the big three. I could quote Scarface right now, but later on, I only want to indulge in YouTube. Still, it seems wrong to have everything, to want more, and to be grateful for pants. Sweatpants, jeans, you know I own a suit here or there for the red carpet and business events. It took me forever to wear shorts at the pool before I owned several myself. I’m still the guy that will put on sweatpants and a hoody to get a free biscuit or taco. Is that what’s going to get me up today with everything, a free taco? Don’t I work so hard so I can write while on the beach? Signing autographs in books, and staying in bed? First world problems am I right, 99 Problems and I won’t finish that statement, no way Love.

When we got married, with all our many themes, I liked the pageantry. Can’t say I support Nike, Under Armour, Levi or the like. For me, it’s whatever’s comfortable but zipped up hoodies are a must. I’m busy being rich than looking it though having you on my arm. Again nothing else matters. Of course, we have our unique wardrobe, but where does the money go? The softest towels, more blankets, comfy spots for B III. If anything I want to be comfortable in the skin I’m in babydoll. Today I don’t, so these blankets are doing the trick. A hot shower, wrapped here in your arms, whenever I let Triple B out of timeout? Sometimes I think I’m a real Scrooge when it comes to socks and underwear. Money can’t buy me this, well hot water to be fair.

I was never in the closet so coming out; no need I’ll stay not looking at Will And The Wardrobe.

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Episode 345 ~You Got Will’s Number

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Killing two birds with one stone or feeding them with one scone. I hope my wife is more understanding than vegans or Peta perhaps. Anyway even Dennis Hof was married once but my ambitions. You Got Will’s Number

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Episode 345 ~You Got Will’s Number~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Today I got a call from Outskirts Press wanting to give me more money. Visualization can be a powerful thing, my love. Even when I imagined you, and talk about thinking of good. Again I’m finding it hard without cursing myself or others, you know I can tell you what I want. Now I won’t ask you to promise you won’t get mad. By this point, you’re the Ava Fontaine to my Yuri Orlov. Only I don’t lie to you, and if anything, I value life. So here are Twenty Goals I Have For My Life.

  1. I AM Writing A Bestselling Novel. I Have Fifty Shades Of Grey (Sales) Millions
  2. I AM Buying Multi-Million Dollar Homes. Nevada, California, New York, Alabama “A Greystone Property.”
  3. I AM Marrying A Woman Between Katelyn Nacon, Haley Pullos, Sydney Sweeny. Alycia Debnam-Carey, Lexi Ainsworth, Jennifer Lawrence, etc.
  4. I AM Watching B III Play With His Many Siblings, Two Sons One Daughter
  5. I AM Opening A Brothel In Nevada (Carson City)
  6. I AM Opening A Restaurant With M. Amine as Head Chef or Head Manager
  7. I AM Hiring Contractors From Japan To Help In Construction Of A “Love Hotel”
  8. I AM Opening A Gentlemen’s Club Nearby As Well
  9. I AM Opening A Movie Studio For My Stories like “Pure Taboo,” “Fetish Network”
  10. I AM Writing Other Stories And Novels Of Course
  11. I AM Helping “Indiana Gone” With School And Her Ranch (Dogs, Cats, Piggies, etc.)
  12. I AM Helping “Okay” Start A Full Business And Spend Time With Her Family
  13. I AM Helping “Cherry” Publish More Titles. I’ll Hire Her Myself For International Connections
  14. I AM Paying Off My Olds, One Million Dollars And $100,000 For Each Year They Bankrolled Me After Eighteen
  15. I AM Making Sure My Little Sister, And Half- Brothers Are Okay (With Our Father Shudders)
  16. I AM Helping Out My Adopted Big Sister, My Kids Crazy Aunt, And MILF Dos As Well
  17. I AM Starting My Network Channel For Cosplayers. Sex-Ed, Reactors, Adult Entertainment, And Gamers
  18. I AM Starting Two Modeling Agencies, One In The US Another In Europe “TTB?”
  19. I AM Accomplishing All This Before 40. My First Million Will Come on June 30, 2019. Whatever It Takes
  20. I AM Tyrion Lannister In How I’ll Meet Death

“In my own bed, at the age of 80 with a belly full of wine and a girl’s mouth around my cock.” Tyrion Lannister GOT

Caesar was ambitious, but I want you to see everything I love in life, and that’s everything. All the money I have well, I love you more, and I trust you. Isn’t that what today is about, I don’t trust anybody. I have friends though, people I want to help, and hell this is a short list of goals in no particular order. Do I love you or the art more? That’s why you’re my muse baby girl and always will be my love. In any book makes you number one You Got Will’s Number.

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Episode 338 ~How Will Tale’s It~

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Well, I leaped today, or stepped in getting myself published for real, once and all, and will this one story be my happily ever after, I believe it will get me to Nevada (Happy Thoughts) it’s only a hundred poems. “How Will Tale’s It.”

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

Episode 338 ~How Will Tale’s It~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Matter of fact I’m approaching billionaire status because there are so many books I want to buy. As always I’m one for tradition. Though my parents never read to me as a child, it’s something that dads do. I’m not one for the classic fairytales. Ask me how our daughters Katniss, Tris, and Ember got their names, and I’ll point out the authors. If we have another daughter Daenerys, isn’t out of the question, right ha.

Anyway, I’m wondering why it took me so long to find you baby girl. First I think of all those knights of old. How did they ever know the damsel was in distress ever. Men can never reach for Heaven. How about Happily Ever After right? It’s never told or done sloppily. Was I blind, like Daenerys? All I ever saw was the Iron Throne. Even now, with all the love, I have for you. I want you by my side. I could never turn my back on all I desire, my wife, my children, but they say Caesar was ambitious. Now I can’t underestimate fear. For a damsel, you are. Still, distress? I mean you’re hot as Hell, but that’s for more than your looks, or where I’m going. You made me bend the knee. B III is as fierce as Drogon, and you won him. Only you still terrify me, three little words.

I Love You. I don’t think those words are in the fairytales. Now I could be wrong, and I know Peeta asked it of Katniss “Real Or Not Real.” I’ll read our kids; The Hunger Games one day. Is it too soon for Star Wars Little Golden Books? Here and Now I promise I’ll never go crazy with the How I Met Your Mother routine. One more story I should write down before we’re old and gray. The last time I wrote a novel with a woman was with my “adopted” big sister. Still, the question remains. Because while I can say you’re more than a woman to me, princess, queen, angel, goddess. You know that’s it, there were no words for you. I said before; when I first began writing, it was my name. So I gave my last one to you, My Love.

Tale as old as time right, but with my words, strange How Will Tale’s It.

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