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Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

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If I told you what my business was; well, it beats the alternative, and what word could I use, better to focus on being the husband I want to be, the lover, father, the man, who looked up long enough not to put her in my DVD. When Will Looked Up

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I became so by looking down. Sometimes I think I’ve run through everything Spotify has to offer. I have found my purpose in the greatest of sins. So when I did look up, it was with fire in my eyes. According to my motivations. Albert Einstein talked about living in a friendly or hostile Universe. Only I became indifferent. People look down on me and now? Hell if I’m going to be this low, I might as well run it.

So when I looked up and saw you, well I’m not the singer I used to be. Anyone at my old Day Job can tell you that. In my current work, despite what people think of it, I honor women, I respect them. Still, you are so much more than my latest; you’re my greatest inspiration. I could sound like some macho chauvinist and treat you one way. And yes feminism confuses me, us being equal. So maybe it’s the primal instinct that says I should chase you. I know I call you a princess, an angel, my queen, a goddess. You should never elevate a woman so that you’re beneath her I read somewhere. Only if I did not, how would I run my business? If I didn’t, I would be the common man or worse, a Republican. I was following your lead, and quoting Madmartigan from Willow here:

I looked up, and that’s when I realized that I had something real to do. Love isn’t work, or a chore, if anything it should be like breathing. While I want the world, baby girl, you are my sky. Sigh that’s too much for anyone.

Now I didn’t have to put you on a pedestal, a throne. I didn’t have to knock on Heaven’s door. As the song goes, without you they’re never gonna let me in. One more reason I have never looked to any God. Because to me, Heaven is looking up when the kids say “look what mommy did.” It’s watching B III leave me and climb to your lap smirking. “If you want her, come claim her.” Paradise is lying in bed and seeing you right above me; I love you.

I don’t look up because everyone looks down one way or another. It wasn’t red, gold, and green it was you When Will Looked Up.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

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I could say anything right, though how many times have I told B III to shut-up and I love him more than anything, hell I love him like pancakes but what about if someone else wants to do the talking hmm? How To Speak To Will.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I still don’t know how to speak RICH. Although if our President is any indication (tell me he didn’t win again I want to stay in Nevada). There’s nothing to it; I’m ahead of him. Also, if I mention caviar or the French Riviera, feel free to slap me. I like “Gotta Have The Money” as much as the next guy, but you know how I would spend it, love.

Books, of course. Writing them, selling, buying. I tell you I don’t mean to sound like that douche from “Good Will Hunting.” You know I have ideas. Only, you remember how long it took me to find the words to talk to you, twenty seconds. You usually get to know someone over dinner right. So our first date was the movies, watching you react to a film I’ve seen, how many times now? Who am I to know anything about facial expressions or body language. As you well know, I Won’t Dance, even at our wedding. Okay, I did try? However, it was more the Star Wars, Game Of Thrones, The Hunger Games, Divergent; please I’ll stop motif. Shouldn’t a guy dream of our wedding?

Yeah, most of my family wasn’t there because they never learned how to speak to me. So now isn’t the time to go mending fences though you’ve heard me rant and rave. You have seen me cry over many television characters, no doubt. The past two weeks it was Daenerys before that Missandei. She could speak seventeen languages and so far, the way you talk to me, my heart, B III, our other children. I swear I don’t know how you do it. Sometimes it’s like I’m still learning to speak, again my family. I take it back; they knew too well how to talk. No, what they couldn’t do for the life of them was listen. That’s your secret.

Even now, I feel a movie marathon coming on “Us,” “The 13th Warrior,” and “WALL-E.” Or we can sit here and let me try to find the words that aren’t from any form of entertainment or Saturday Nuclear Tunes. Only Tuesday sigh. Am I afraid I’ll run out of stories to tell you someday? Now that’s a reason to write, but these three words never get old. I Love You, not a social convention but How To Speak To Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

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I’m the boy in the hood, straight out of suburbs variety, and in this life, I’ve had hands, headbands, a plethora of hoodies though now I only want a crown, a halo for my angel, and a roof over B III’s head. Bad Hair Day Will, no time.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and you would still find me in a black hoodie, matching jeans. As the song goes all black everything. Still, between you and me, one reason I don’t like “some” people, is because of my hair. You know I’ve always been partial to brunettes. Now one piece of advice I wish my mother had given me was that when a woman changes her hair, it usually means something. So um, did you do something with yours?

Anyway, a bad hair day for me is putting on a football helmet, a baseball cap. Anything sports related short of Olympic season or Kofi Kingston being champion. If our kids are jocks though they have my full support or I’m a hostage, SEND HELP. Speaking of rescue, I’m still not one to be the knight in shining armor. To quote another song, “I am the man that will fight for your honor.” Only it looks like I should have worn the helmet right? Is that why I still wear the hoodies in the summer, and that’s when I go out at all. I’ll have days when my pillow is my best friend, though B III will intervene. I’m lucky I still have eyes today.

Do I need to go and get a haircut? I get the same thing every time. Shave it all, the better to wear my crown. I have businesses to run, a family to provide for, and I’m sure we’ll be in the spotlight. Back to helmets, except for the eunuch part, I wouldn’t mind playing Grey Worm and going to some conventions. Now, who would you be love? That explains part of why I married you ha. Another would be I’m relaxed with you. An easy tell I know. If I take off my hoodie, buy you a matching one or the sweetest thing would be giving you my own.

Also, you don’t laugh at me for wearing a headband. Yes, I like Cobra Kai and didn’t I build my private dojo, though I’m more a lover than a fighter. When I was a kid, I hated people touching my head. However, lying here in your lap? Yeah, now I know why Triple B does it often. Only today beautiful I’ll put the comb down and won’t bother with the mirror as your eyes tell no Bad Hair Day Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 310 ~Will’s Mr. Big Stuff~

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“A big dog, a boss hog, what I want is the question,” and the song answers that too “I Want It All,” what did you expect me to do the song Mr. Big Stuff, I’m not that old, but I’ll find aging in luxury with a beautiful wife. Will’s Mr. Big Stuff

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Episode 310 ~Will’s Mr. Big Stuff~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. No multimillionaire, not enough, billionaire, how about a trillion? Now didn’t Forrest Gump say something directly about he wasn’t that smart, but he knows what love is? You won’t like me saying this baby girl. I always told myself when I chose a woman to be with, forever, I wanted a girl so beautiful that I didn’t want to um? That’s a conversation for another time and not that we haven’t.

I think they’re bigger, I would know it. I want to be that kind of daddy, on top of running all the businesses I do. Also knowing I will keep some of it away from our children. I intend to be there to watch them grow up. When they smile, I want to know how they can be happier. They laugh we need more of it. While it doesn’t need to be said but they’ll be no bribes to college. They are going to know they’re smart enough; they’re the best. Okay, do the opposite of everything my “father” did but yes providing for them. They want to sword fight, I love Star Wars, and I’m getting into Game Of Thrones. They want to play the guitar; they get lessons. Swimming’s a must because hell something as vast as the ocean terrifies me; Poseidon anyone?

It’s bigger because my love for you is so great. We’re going to need the space for everything else. It’s no secret even with lifestyles of the rich and famous I want the world to go away. My movie theater; everything delivered, personal on-call vet for B III right? Am I still so afraid you’ll leave me? Do I not want you to escape? Mr. Grey will see you now. The fact that you haven’t run for the hills yet is promising. It could be with all this space I want to shed all my worries. Of course, those should stop at the front door. Am I just a greedy SOB? True enough but the meaning of life to me is simple. Seek Out A Kingdom Worthy Of Your Soul and once upon a time I thought I sold mime.

Big things come in small packages. I knew that when I met my firstborn. When I wrote my first book, bestseller, one million, met you. I love you, and now ha Will’s Mr. Big Stuff.

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Episode 303 ~Will There Be Time~

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What time is it, I want to jump up for love the way I jumped for the day job this morning, reminded me of being a kid again and having no idea what day it was only believing I was late for school but late for love? “Will There Be Time”

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Episode 303 ~Will There Be Time~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and still, I don’t know how to love you the right way. People sometimes ask you how you can love me at all. So I ponder the question of, how long is forever? Look at me like I’m some sage philosopher. Anyway, a part of me wants to put some arbitrary timeframe on it, me being me. Hell, it took me twenty seconds of insane courage to talk to you, love.

How fast did I fall in love with my first born? The moment his four paws touched the floor and all I wanted to do is scoop him up. That was fourteen years ago, and to this day I still love him like pancakes. No, a breakfast buffet by now, with a plate full of bacon. Don’t ask. I love you like I’m one of the androids, from Detroit: Become Human. I’m in my mind palace examining every possible angle but time keeps moving. So how do I look standing there? My love for you is like me singing at the FORMER day job. Scratchy, stretched, and long periods of silence. Only the idea that I am capable of doing that and not caring what anyone thinks ever again love.

Hell, I want a love strong enough to stand. Observant and reasonable to understand and silent enough to listen. Our daughters have those qualities, but dad is still well dad. There will come a day when I will have to be the man I need to be. I was so when I published my first book, and I want to love you like that. When time ceases to be, and at the same time I still count on forever. I want to love you as I always do on those Saturday mornings. When it’s only us, in bed listening to my Fallout soundtrack. No, I won’t swear by the moon as Juliet once said. I love you with all myself. Only will there ever be a right time my love?

I’m not a Christian man, but somehow I’ll be mistaken. So if loving you is wrong; see even after all this time I love you through music, dreams, books. I follow that word, FOREVER. The thought that I’d never get it right. So with every breath, I choose to try again with you asking myself again Will There Be Time?

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 296 ~Will Rest Soon Enough~

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Still dreaming about counting gold and not sunlight, I suppose I’ll see enough of it when the work day’s through, and no I don’t mean the day job; to have a woman dragging me to bed, who’s not my mother, who knew. Will Rest Soon Enough

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Episode 296 ~Will Rest Soon Enough~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now but like with love, I’m greedy, I’m selfish, hell I’m human. So I keep working and never thought I would see the day when you would have to call me to bed. I ain’t gonna lie; I heard a woman say once, that a man should spend the most on his bed sheets if he intends to keep a woman there. Another said that a man must create Heaven, how better to attract an angel. Still one more said you must live as though you have what you want. For example, not writing in the center of the bed as usual.

All this so as in Conan The Barbarian, I would not face the growing darkness alone. I still don’t, not with all this light in the house, means someone is doing their job. I have all my characters. My love-struck heart has known brokenness many times over again. Between B III, you love, the children, do I have friends that I care for like that? I should like to think so. My books, brain, and businesses are all over; center around Nevada and California of course. All that glitters ain’t gold. I know that. Yes, all the bright lights of Vegas, Carson City, and Reno. The spotlights of Hollywood, the LA sun, aren’t to keep me away from you. Though there’s the purpose, taking me away from that day job glaze I once did endure.

I don’t want our kids growing up as spoiled brats, and Triple B only needs so much yard. This huge house isn’t so I can hide. I put my soul to paper every day, and I’m still not inclined to party or go out. Only a job’s a job. All the diamonds and pearls, the gems and the camera lens, no wonder a man finds it hard to rest. My Love, I never want to go back to before. What I mean is before you and where was I once upon a time? A boy on the street, a businessman, the beast. You baby girl are the richest of us all because I give you All Of Me. Sigh then why am I here instead of lying with you this very moment, I should be.

I want everything in this world, and that might make me sound bad but to have it all to give away; Will Rest Soon Enough.

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Episode 289 ~Think WILL Take It~

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For the love of money, can’t say these days I’m putting out into the UNIVERSE thoughts of pretty girls, unless their bankers, publishers, or heiress, what’s Pairs Hilton doing these days. Think WILL Take It; Tony Montana said money, power, the woman.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Episode 289 ~Think WILL Take It~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now; so I didn’t look in my wallet. There was no need to check my portfolio; I didn’t even look in the mirror. I’m lucky when it comes to that sort of thing I guess. So I went ahead, and I took that first step, another. Am I LL Cool J with a crush or maybe Positive K if you told me “I got a man.” The truth, though I’m more an Ellie Goulding fan, like Taylor Swift I thought, you belong with me. That was it.

Think we’ll take it. The way that didn’t send you running for the hills and trust me I can tell you some stories. Of course why we’re here now, a bestselling book, my other business ventures. So we can buy the place of our dreams. Even with all the money in the world, I’m still not much of a drinker. However, I can learn about wine; I also want to own a vineyard, both of us. Only despite my “other business” I do want to support let’s say Positive Ventures. I want to help animals. NaNoWriMo helped get me on track. There are amazing storytellers in the UNIVERSE. While I will never be a Christian man, and I want too much to become Buddhist. My goodness is adding beauty to the world in all its incredible forms. That’s my wish.

They’ll take it, or I should say him or her. The kids should fall in love with a furry sibling. Of course, B III will be the big brother they meet. Only I want others to feel that too, passion and money. I’m no Republican; I want all we have to overflow. I want my friend to run the restaurant. Another to have her farm, go to school, have an animal sanctuary. One more will have their full-fledged business and time for her kids. Indeed, another should feel as beautiful outside as she is within. Still not running huh, even when I repeat myself such as saying I don’t want to be the hero. I only want to be your man, a good father, and as the song goes, a simple kind of man. Now that’s worth millions I’d say.

So I’ll take the win. “The good, the bad… and the worst” because your love is worth more than money. Love, Think Will Take It.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 282 ~Willing To Be Heard~

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Hear Ye, Hear Ye, somebody loves me; positive vibes, for the future, “The Law of Attraction” and whatnot, tell the universe what you want, and I shall have it, even when we’re in the midnight hour. “Willing To Be Heard.”

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Episode 282 ~Willing To Be Heard~

Dear Future Wife,
How To Make One Million Dollars? We have noise-canceling headphones; our phones can translate. While meditating, I often listen to the sounds of the storm. The thing is with all the motivational coaching and affirmations, what I need if anything, is to hear I’m okay. See even now I want to say all sorts of things, and I can go on binging of positive vibes. Be careful what you put in the universe and what not. Only I would feel as though I was failing. Still, if I could tell you anything and you told me, Will it’s going to be okay.

Makes me sound like a hypocrite I know. I’ll also listen to just about anything, take music as long as it’s not anything gospel. I got you, and if anything, that’s the only real miracle I need. So I’ll Thank You for Loving Me. I’ve listened to half a dozen dogs that I love warn me of anything and everything. Though B III being my son, I have been thankful for every little noise that keeps him with me. Thank You (Falettinme Be Mice Elf Agin), I think that’s how I hear people most of the time. That’s how they might listen to me. And then they wonder why I no longer pay attention to them. It’s why they don’t understand me, now or ever.

It must make me sound mighty selfish that I give myself over to my work. How do people say, a penny for my thoughts and I rather keep that? I am telling them to keep their two cents in their pocket. Wait that’s charitable. I don’t need it, and math has never been my strong suit. I’ll have one ear of you my wife. I know Triple B, and the rest of the kids will have the other one. Only you, listening, hearing, and understanding me though is worth far more than the masses. No disrespect to my fans, but with you I’m unscripted, unrehearsed, unburdened. I’m starting to sound like someone out of 1984 an Unperson. I have to think that every day with you I wake up a new man, yes a better one, if only to speak.

I want to laugh freely and not worry about anything. I want to open myself up and not have a door slammed in my face. Those Saturday mornings and especially in silence My Love am “I” Willing To Be Heard.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 275 ~But Will I Love~

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I hate my day job so I’m always ready to run out of there but I love my writing, and that’s why I’m sitting here at, what time is it; and of course I wouldn’t leave the right woman, won’t go getting tired of her. “But Will I Love”

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Episode 275 ~But Will I Love~

Dear Future Wife,
How To Make One Million Dollars, well movie seats are getting comfier. I can’t say that buying furniture is my forte. One day I should give it a chance. I’m always tired, and B III has a bunch of cozy spots. I’d make falling in love easier.

“THEY,” say it took everything for Malcolm X to kneel before Allah. My backside still hurts from being knocked to my knees before the altar. (Why I don’t believe in spanking children; another story). The fear though. I was scared I would hurt Triple B being on his level. I was terrified that I wasn’t enough when I got down on one knee for you. For now, with our other kids, I know I don’t have all the answers. Scraped knees, falling ice cream cones. You know how I am cleaning. Still, while I want to be the dad that reads to them every night, I again worry. You know maybe this is why Santa only does it once a year, getting the big plush chair. His suit made for more than warmth. You know I hope you’re sitting down for this one. The truth is simple and like most truths offensive. LOVE IS EXHAUSTING.

Is that a mean thing to say? I don’t love my Day Job that’s why it sucks having to take breaks. I was ready to yell at my boss, so I wasn’t “having a seat.” I hate that sound of my knees cracking as I’ve been there so long. Love is when I kneel to pet B III. When I hold him in bed as he cries because I don’t know what else to do. Every refilled dish, rubbing his belly, playing the monster when he wrestles with his toys. Again being the father who knows someday the kids won’t need me to read to them. How about being told to sit in waiting rooms for a variety of reasons. Don’t let the kids be like me. Trips to Disney and Universal, did I tell you I hate Space Mountain?

Standing beside you was simple. In comparison looking back how lazy was I when you brought our kids into the world. Such is the strength and courage it took to hold them. There are some jobs, privileges, and honors a person can’t fail. To be weak, to not be perfect. I hold no delusions about myself, but I still cleaned for hours. I don’t want to be sick. I have my real work, my reading, and writing. It’s incredible you read as much as me. Saturday’s we still lie here listening to “Nuclear Pop.” As if I’m living in those days of “The Cold War.” I have to shut myself away from you and the kids in my; not Man Cave. I will forever be a traditionalist, my Study. What did I say; furniture shopping?

What is it “THEY” say about good deeds? I Love You; kids can be a pain in the behind. One kid has fangs. You needn’t ask But Will I Love?

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 268 ~A Will Of Curiosity~

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I wish somebody knew me as well as my dog, whenever somebody asks me questions about myself, it’s for dirt, if they read me, they are looking for the worse in me, and nobody appreciates my fandoms yet when I ask about someone. A Will Of Curiosity not

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Episode 268 ~A Will Of Curiosity~

Dear Future Wife,
How To Make One Million Dollars, figure out dogs, I know my son. B III loves Milk-Bone MaroSnacks, and Vitamin Treats; hates Dentastixs. He twirls when he does something of merit. He sits outside the bathroom door when I take an evening shower. He knows me, a part of me is sad because like father like son. What you know can’t hurt you. We’re both sticklers at clock-watching; I hate being late; we both want to assess our environments. He loves me, and I love him and when it comes to people?

I believe in love at first sight. So when I first met you as Elton John sang “If I was a sculptor…” Now while I could never excel at science my curiosity, creativity. My craving is never satisfied. Life is about learning. Liking is about belief. Love is both evolution and revolution. However, as you know, I am not a man of faith. If you like without understanding? Well, I’ve said before they make love seem like the scariest monster that’s ever existed; like room 1408. You know I like horror movies. Triple B knows not to bother me during The Walking Dead. You both know that last Sunday’s episode The Calm Before; well nightmares.

You see I want to learn how to love you. I want to know everything, but if you ever asked me how I want to be? You’ll probably beat my ass for saying this (LANGUAGE). Only I want Autumn Reeser, more to the point Taylor Townsend. Yes, I have a thing for brunettes. Okay, even more to the fact, somebody that gets all my references. You know how we can lie here together and rant about what just happened on the show, the horror, the horror sigh. We try to sleep and then we spend the morning watching YouTube videos, venting about the same episode. B III might be my ultimate weapon. How long did it take one of my friends to win him over? Four months, talk about being an excellent judge of character.

Curiosity killed the cat THEY say but satisfaction… One more reason I’m still walking. Why I like zombies and why I love you. So much that my life is an open book and I’ll again tell you I have my secrets. So you drink from the well that is my madness. You sing I want to Sink To The Bottom with you. Or are we Dead In The Water? All this is coming from someone who’s terrified of the water. But why do you scare me so much more? Unlike swimming I’m learning, wanting to know A Will Of Curiosity.

I Will Have No Fear