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Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

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How many days has it been that I have chosen to drown myself in sheets and not water? Well, would that be a bad thing; Thursday’s usually are, but all my dirt has gone elsewhere, but I do clean up nice sometimes. “Will Is Hanging Out.”

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. With this kind of money, I would be eccentric. I would also need an NDA, and I’m looking forward to those. Another way of saying that would be I’m an old PERV in dirty clothes, reading erotic books. Also, I don’t tend to keep my naughty thoughts to myself. There is plenty more I should be cleaning up other than my head. B III, my laundry, my fridge, the house.

It’s one of the reasons I like layers and wrapping up beautiful things. For somebody who’s addicted to control a GOOD surprise isn’t a bad thing. I adore perfection, and I’m not perfect but seeing a person’s flaws? I don’t know; it shouldn’t make me feel better. I mean the more she seems too good to be true, the purer, the more innocent, the dirtier I want to take her. MILF Dos might be mad, but I was never a fan of tattoos on women. I’m not trying to sound like someone out of The Handmaid’s Tale. I will stand behind the fact that the uniforms are sort of sexy. Now if I could only get hold of that Halloween version. Sometimes I can be worse than a girl when it comes to clothes. I’ve said before that I spend more on clothes than time talking girls out of them.

Worse talking to myself, I’m still with Brainbuddy. My Life Tree’s growing, I haven’t looked up any porn, though this morning I came close. Twitter is not doing me any favors, and I’m still not counting Beauty In The Broken. If I told you what I was into recently, now that would be all kinds of dirty. The last time I lasted this long with NO FAP? Let’s say I finally saw those “Dirty Mom Tits” I was panting about in the shower once. Speaking of which back to cleaning, again my head’s a mess but who knows what’s going on in there. The only thing I have cleaned somewhat is what of my Pinterest boards. Sex symbols could have some organization, and I wrote out all my goals two days ago. I was lucky to stop when I did, and it’s not like I’m missing the Day Job. What about Outskirts Press, that’s one more thing that might do me dirty. So as of now, Will Is Hanging Out.

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Episode 345 ~You Got Will’s Number

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Killing two birds with one stone or feeding them with one scone. I hope my wife is more understanding than vegans or Peta perhaps. Anyway even Dennis Hof was married once but my ambitions. You Got Will’s Number

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Episode 345 ~You Got Will’s Number~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Today I got a call from Outskirts Press wanting to give me more money. Visualization can be a powerful thing, my love. Even when I imagined you, and talk about thinking of good. Again I’m finding it hard without cursing myself or others, you know I can tell you what I want. Now I won’t ask you to promise you won’t get mad. By this point, you’re the Ava Fontaine to my Yuri Orlov. Only I don’t lie to you, and if anything, I value life. So here are Twenty Goals I Have For My Life.

  1. I AM Writing A Bestselling Novel. I Have Fifty Shades Of Grey (Sales) Millions
  2. I AM Buying Multi-Million Dollar Homes. Nevada, California, New York, Alabama “A Greystone Property.”
  3. I AM Marrying A Woman Between Katelyn Nacon, Haley Pullos, Sydney Sweeny. Alycia Debnam-Carey, Lexi Ainsworth, Jennifer Lawrence, etc.
  4. I AM Watching B III Play With His Many Siblings, Two Sons One Daughter
  5. I AM Opening A Brothel In Nevada (Carson City)
  6. I AM Opening A Restaurant With M. Amine as Head Chef or Head Manager
  7. I AM Hiring Contractors From Japan To Help In Construction Of A “Love Hotel”
  8. I AM Opening A Gentlemen’s Club Nearby As Well
  9. I AM Opening A Movie Studio For My Stories like “Pure Taboo,” “Fetish Network”
  10. I AM Writing Other Stories And Novels Of Course
  11. I AM Helping “Indiana Gone” With School And Her Ranch (Dogs, Cats, Piggies, etc.)
  12. I AM Helping “Okay” Start A Full Business And Spend Time With Her Family
  13. I AM Helping “Cherry” Publish More Titles. I’ll Hire Her Myself For International Connections
  14. I AM Paying Off My Olds, One Million Dollars And $100,000 For Each Year They Bankrolled Me After Eighteen
  15. I AM Making Sure My Little Sister, And Half- Brothers Are Okay (With Our Father Shudders)
  16. I AM Helping Out My Adopted Big Sister, My Kids Crazy Aunt, And MILF Dos As Well
  17. I AM Starting My Network Channel For Cosplayers. Sex-Ed, Reactors, Adult Entertainment, And Gamers
  18. I AM Starting Two Modeling Agencies, One In The US Another In Europe “TTB?”
  19. I AM Accomplishing All This Before 40. My First Million Will Come on June 30, 2019. Whatever It Takes
  20. I AM Tyrion Lannister In How I’ll Meet Death

“In my own bed, at the age of 80 with a belly full of wine and a girl’s mouth around my cock.” Tyrion Lannister GOT

Caesar was ambitious, but I want you to see everything I love in life, and that’s everything. All the money I have well, I love you more, and I trust you. Isn’t that what today is about, I don’t trust anybody. I have friends though, people I want to help, and hell this is a short list of goals in no particular order. Do I love you or the art more? That’s why you’re my muse baby girl and always will be my love. In any book makes you number one You Got Will’s Number.

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Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

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Well back to women’s rights or a lack thereof, how I can read “Beauty in the Broken” and then watch “The Handmaid’s Tale” and with all the ideas I have I either neither tentacles or a train, thank you, “Rainey Summer Day.” Will Takes A Turn

Thursday, June 6, 2019

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Now if you want to know what turns me on, a billion. Hell trillion, how about some number so high I’ll break the internet trying to find it. There is one mere word though; Everything. You know the expression I’ll try anything once.” Not when it comes to food and several other things, but let’s talk about sex. Though at this stage in the game I would prefer money.

It’s like something out of The Screwfly Solution. The process of turning sexual instincts to those of violence. I want to convert money into women and vice versa. Rumplestiltskin mastered spinning straw into gold. Only like my motivations say I’m not looking for a magic wand, I’m hustling. Speaking of a horror film and a fairytale. For now, my newest craze is “The Handmaid’s Tale.” I’m thinking about that episode Jezebels. First off you know whores have never been my thing. I always look for the most innocent. Now I do enjoy dirty names, MILF Dos could tell you that much. I also realize I still have a thing for Kristen Gutoskie. I fell for her in “Containment,” but she plays the Martha “Beth” now. The thought of her as a Handmaid? So that brings me to the point today. Things that turn me on but shouldn’t. They could be evil.

There was the Yandy “Brave Red Maiden Costume” fuck I wanted one to go in my Submissive’s Closet. Didn’t I mention that “The Handmaid’s Tale is sexy? Only Gilead must fall. A quick turn I know and almost as fast as my writing, from sweet and gushy to Erotica. How fast the porn can get to you, I’m still constantly on guard. I haven’t seen any tits besides the cosplayer’s (Patreon). On Twitter, I know too many people. There’s “Beauty in the Broken” my latest erotic read. Should I report myself to Brainbuddy since that “technically” is porn? If I were to say something, I refer back to Jezebels and that idea they had with all the drugs. For all those in the back, illegal and wrong, as much as The Corpse Of Anna Fritz.

Reminds me of creeping out Ruby Rae. I should make a list of what not to say to women, but I need only one, ANYTHING. Everything and Anything with my tastes, Will Takes A Turn.

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Episode 338 ~How Will Tale’s It~

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Well, I leaped today, or stepped in getting myself published for real, once and all, and will this one story be my happily ever after, I believe it will get me to Nevada (Happy Thoughts) it’s only a hundred poems. “How Will Tale’s It.”

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

Episode 338 ~How Will Tale’s It~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Matter of fact I’m approaching billionaire status because there are so many books I want to buy. As always I’m one for tradition. Though my parents never read to me as a child, it’s something that dads do. I’m not one for the classic fairytales. Ask me how our daughters Katniss, Tris, and Ember got their names, and I’ll point out the authors. If we have another daughter Daenerys, isn’t out of the question, right ha.

Anyway, I’m wondering why it took me so long to find you baby girl. First I think of all those knights of old. How did they ever know the damsel was in distress ever. Men can never reach for Heaven. How about Happily Ever After right? It’s never told or done sloppily. Was I blind, like Daenerys? All I ever saw was the Iron Throne. Even now, with all the love, I have for you. I want you by my side. I could never turn my back on all I desire, my wife, my children, but they say Caesar was ambitious. Now I can’t underestimate fear. For a damsel, you are. Still, distress? I mean you’re hot as Hell, but that’s for more than your looks, or where I’m going. You made me bend the knee. B III is as fierce as Drogon, and you won him. Only you still terrify me, three little words.

I Love You. I don’t think those words are in the fairytales. Now I could be wrong, and I know Peeta asked it of Katniss “Real Or Not Real.” I’ll read our kids; The Hunger Games one day. Is it too soon for Star Wars Little Golden Books? Here and Now I promise I’ll never go crazy with the How I Met Your Mother routine. One more story I should write down before we’re old and gray. The last time I wrote a novel with a woman was with my “adopted” big sister. Still, the question remains. Because while I can say you’re more than a woman to me, princess, queen, angel, goddess. You know that’s it, there were no words for you. I said before; when I first began writing, it was my name. So I gave my last one to you, My Love.

Tale as old as time right, but with my words, strange How Will Tale’s It.

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Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

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Sharia Law, The Handmaid’s Tale, or all the stupid laws on the books these days, I swear, I’ve started blocking Twitter with my hand because I know too many people and tomorrow, well there goes my streak. Porn To Be Will

Thursday, May 30, 2019

Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, also a porn junkie. Am I growing something besides my collection, clothes, or creepy captions? According to Brainbuddy, yes. The question remains, and my new favorite game show. Now Ladies and gentlemen “IS THIS PORN?”

Let’s start with Episode 333, I noticed yesterday but more so today. Of course, this all started when I compared shudders and friend to porn stars. Brazzers and Reality Kings, nice? So yes, my former adult viewing has advanced in nearly two years. To this day, the word “skeevy” still gives me a chill. Now it goes right under “Stupid” and above “Stalker.” One I was that’s fair enough, the second I despise feeling, the last being an outright lie. Was it skeevy, yes, was it stupid? You know how I feel about wasting time, but here we are. Was it stalker-like, other than wanting to buy company stocks for the first time? Making her a villainess in a novel Hell since that night of reading I’ve never looked her up. Again Is This Porn?

I keep asking myself. Every day my Life Tree grows more. It’s less about avoiding NO FAP and more about leaving porn altogether. Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter, on the last two, I haven’t avoided seeing a naked female. Dirty Diana, it’s not like I’m sticking around. Okay, five seconds for Sabrina Nichole who did Playboy and is now a cosplayer. I swear porn is one of those words like love but long story short. It’s meant to produce sexual arousal, and I didn’t look that long. No wood honest. Now, what about a book review and this blog. I finished a critique of an erotica novel. I looked up Jenna Rickert for one of my writing reasons too. So have I broken My Word to Brainbuddy?

Tomorrow another cosplayer is giving her farewell. I’ll be receiving an uncensored view drools. So yeah that is going to count as porn. I know another failure, and you know I’m not a competitive person. I do like winning. Lust, of course, is less of a sin than greed. Only besides breasts, I’ve thought about books and bucks, how I HATE MATH. If I could get 200,000 people to believe in me at five dollars in profit? I ask the lesser question about the little head but the big head too, Porn To Be Will.

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Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

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If I told you what my business was; well, it beats the alternative, and what word could I use, better to focus on being the husband I want to be, the lover, father, the man, who looked up long enough not to put her in my DVD. When Will Looked Up

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I became so by looking down. Sometimes I think I’ve run through everything Spotify has to offer. I have found my purpose in the greatest of sins. So when I did look up, it was with fire in my eyes. According to my motivations. Albert Einstein talked about living in a friendly or hostile Universe. Only I became indifferent. People look down on me and now? Hell if I’m going to be this low, I might as well run it.

So when I looked up and saw you, well I’m not the singer I used to be. Anyone at my old Day Job can tell you that. In my current work, despite what people think of it, I honor women, I respect them. Still, you are so much more than my latest; you’re my greatest inspiration. I could sound like some macho chauvinist and treat you one way. And yes feminism confuses me, us being equal. So maybe it’s the primal instinct that says I should chase you. I know I call you a princess, an angel, my queen, a goddess. You should never elevate a woman so that you’re beneath her I read somewhere. Only if I did not, how would I run my business? If I didn’t, I would be the common man or worse, a Republican. I was following your lead, and quoting Madmartigan from Willow here:

I looked up, and that’s when I realized that I had something real to do. Love isn’t work, or a chore, if anything it should be like breathing. While I want the world, baby girl, you are my sky. Sigh that’s too much for anyone.

Now I didn’t have to put you on a pedestal, a throne. I didn’t have to knock on Heaven’s door. As the song goes, without you they’re never gonna let me in. One more reason I have never looked to any God. Because to me, Heaven is looking up when the kids say “look what mommy did.” It’s watching B III leave me and climb to your lap smirking. “If you want her, come claim her.” Paradise is lying in bed and seeing you right above me; I love you.

I don’t look up because everyone looks down one way or another. It wasn’t red, gold, and green it was you When Will Looked Up.

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Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

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Would you lie with me and just forget the world as the song goes, but the Earth is quite a large place and to own it would mean getting up off my behind and taking it, but I’m too busy on my back, sleeping. Late, Great, Lazy Will.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and my first purchase should be a new bed. Noted I’m doing better than yesterday when I could barely get up. Still, this morning, it felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. Plus I didn’t get “dressed up” for Whataburger.

The free Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit wasn’t worth it. Speaking of my mouth, when is this deeper voice going to kick in as Brainbuddy says. I’m so tired of being referred to as Ma’am. How about being afraid, and the bullies don’t have to sock me to take my air. I’m still on my Game Of Thrones kick Dirty Diana. I could never reach Daenerys Targaryen or Cersei Lannister. I’m not on Sansa Stark’s level or brave enough for Arya Stark. Do you think I could speak any of Missandei’s languages? Is that why I like the fairytale princess. Guarded by the dragon, trapped by her parents, kept asleep by some magic spell. You know how I like my peace, quiet, etc. At the same time, I want a loud woman. Isn’t communication the key?

Only I look back at Sick Fux by Tillie Cole. The way Rabbit and Dolly lost themselves together in bed without ever having touched. Illicitness, intimacy, insanity, how often I talk about hiding this madness. The white rooms of my skull, screen, and finally shelf. I’m not a writer to be lazy. I write because I’m dead or I fear it, sort of like Clear Rivers in Final Destination 2. Only my freedom lies in the green of the almighty dollar. People with money fear nothing but losing it all or gain an obsession for much more. Now I know that doesn’t sound so sexy, but that’s the thing. I want a place where I won’t have to hide what I want and hell I’m not disguising it here. The things I want bedroom wise.

So I lie in bed most off days imagining there is a girl as sick as me. The UNIVERSE answers these things in ways. Yes, I found this Hentai, Bible Black New Testament: vol.4, the two patients. Again, I don’t want to leave my bed. I still have my The Purge/Red Dawn Fantasy waiting. Say it with me, “Three Months.” I could do worse right, Inner Demons, Lara In Trouble. The Corpse of Anna Fritz WHAT Late, Great, Lazy, Will.

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Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

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I could say anything right, though how many times have I told B III to shut-up and I love him more than anything, hell I love him like pancakes but what about if someone else wants to do the talking hmm? How To Speak To Will.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I still don’t know how to speak RICH. Although if our President is any indication (tell me he didn’t win again I want to stay in Nevada). There’s nothing to it; I’m ahead of him. Also, if I mention caviar or the French Riviera, feel free to slap me. I like “Gotta Have The Money” as much as the next guy, but you know how I would spend it, love.

Books, of course. Writing them, selling, buying. I tell you I don’t mean to sound like that douche from “Good Will Hunting.” You know I have ideas. Only, you remember how long it took me to find the words to talk to you, twenty seconds. You usually get to know someone over dinner right. So our first date was the movies, watching you react to a film I’ve seen, how many times now? Who am I to know anything about facial expressions or body language. As you well know, I Won’t Dance, even at our wedding. Okay, I did try? However, it was more the Star Wars, Game Of Thrones, The Hunger Games, Divergent; please I’ll stop motif. Shouldn’t a guy dream of our wedding?

Yeah, most of my family wasn’t there because they never learned how to speak to me. So now isn’t the time to go mending fences though you’ve heard me rant and rave. You have seen me cry over many television characters, no doubt. The past two weeks it was Daenerys before that Missandei. She could speak seventeen languages and so far, the way you talk to me, my heart, B III, our other children. I swear I don’t know how you do it. Sometimes it’s like I’m still learning to speak, again my family. I take it back; they knew too well how to talk. No, what they couldn’t do for the life of them was listen. That’s your secret.

Even now, I feel a movie marathon coming on “Us,” “The 13th Warrior,” and “WALL-E.” Or we can sit here and let me try to find the words that aren’t from any form of entertainment or Saturday Nuclear Tunes. Only Tuesday sigh. Am I afraid I’ll run out of stories to tell you someday? Now that’s a reason to write, but these three words never get old. I Love You, not a social convention but How To Speak To Will.

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Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

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Don’t try to wrap your head around this one, lips, hands, whatever you would so choose because could it be possible I’m not in the mood after today started with quite the awesome dream. “Will Hates Head Games.”

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Still, if I ever start talking about caviar and the French Riviera, feel free to shoot me. You’ll know I’m not in my right mind. While I’d bang pretty Cherry from across the pond, I heard somewhere that a dog in a palace is still a dog. That’s the truth.

The truth, though is making my head hurt, the both of them. You remember, I talked about being Prometheus. The bird that skipped my liver to feast upon my heart or my dick. Now it looks like my brain is catching up. I’ve also spoken about how when “I Have A Dream,” it will reveal itself in some way. Only I never know exactly how at the time. However, this meaning came faster than most or didn’t. Geez, Dirty Diana, I was on the brink. So the dream, all I can remember was being back at my parents’ house, in my old room. There I had this blonde sucking my cock; took me all day to find out her name. Madison Foxx, you’ll remember her from such films as “Dong Diner” Money Talks. Also “First Marriage Proposal” Bangbus Homer Drool.

So before I could make my “deposit” in her pretty mouth, I woke up. So how does this equate with my life? Well, I’ve been talking to Alice Little of course at the Moonlite Bunny Ranch and let’s say I was premature. I’m not giving up Dirty Diana. I believe and all that but three months. Which leads me to how long it takes to publish a book. At worse, I’ll never make it. At best eight weeks and then one month to make that money. How about the fact that in Dong Diner, Madison walked out. Jessi Stone was the star “dream” girl, but everything it took to get to her. Still, Madison was the truth I didn’t see.

I panicked, I lost my mind and nearly got hacked today. There I was, tagging shoes this morning and I get an alert that my account was compromised right? Relax as I said a scam, but I almost blew everything because I was afraid. Now I stopped before I did anything stupid, so no hacker got a payload. I didn’t blow mine, and the hot redhead won’t see it sigh.

Am I coming or going, how Will Hates Heads Games.

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Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

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I’m the boy in the hood, straight out of suburbs variety, and in this life, I’ve had hands, headbands, a plethora of hoodies though now I only want a crown, a halo for my angel, and a roof over B III’s head. Bad Hair Day Will, no time.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and you would still find me in a black hoodie, matching jeans. As the song goes all black everything. Still, between you and me, one reason I don’t like “some” people, is because of my hair. You know I’ve always been partial to brunettes. Now one piece of advice I wish my mother had given me was that when a woman changes her hair, it usually means something. So um, did you do something with yours?

Anyway, a bad hair day for me is putting on a football helmet, a baseball cap. Anything sports related short of Olympic season or Kofi Kingston being champion. If our kids are jocks though they have my full support or I’m a hostage, SEND HELP. Speaking of rescue, I’m still not one to be the knight in shining armor. To quote another song, “I am the man that will fight for your honor.” Only it looks like I should have worn the helmet right? Is that why I still wear the hoodies in the summer, and that’s when I go out at all. I’ll have days when my pillow is my best friend, though B III will intervene. I’m lucky I still have eyes today.

Do I need to go and get a haircut? I get the same thing every time. Shave it all, the better to wear my crown. I have businesses to run, a family to provide for, and I’m sure we’ll be in the spotlight. Back to helmets, except for the eunuch part, I wouldn’t mind playing Grey Worm and going to some conventions. Now, who would you be love? That explains part of why I married you ha. Another would be I’m relaxed with you. An easy tell I know. If I take off my hoodie, buy you a matching one or the sweetest thing would be giving you my own.

Also, you don’t laugh at me for wearing a headband. Yes, I like Cobra Kai and didn’t I build my private dojo, though I’m more a lover than a fighter. When I was a kid, I hated people touching my head. However, lying here in your lap? Yeah, now I know why Triple B does it often. Only today beautiful I’ll put the comb down and won’t bother with the mirror as your eyes tell no Bad Hair Day Will.

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