Episode 361 ~Will Of The Moment~

The first days I realized a girl could make me feel anything but fear and now as an “adult” *snickers* hell what kind of man “should” will I be and anybody that says “be yourself” deserves a spanking. Will Of The Moment

Thursday, June 27, 2019

Episode 361 ~Will Of The Moment~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, but an epiphany can come cheap. Now I know what you’re thinking, that one moment, my senior year of high school. To think that had nothing to do with sex. The second, of course, has everything to do with it, feeling, control, and my wisdom.

I’m a dominant, a sadist, and a rich man. Even with all that, I am still afraid. So what’s wrong with one moment of freedom? Someone said that not all people use their freedom responsibly. My philosophy remains you can do what you want as long as you don’t harm others. I still think of when my “big sister” told me you don’t build a strip club next to a school. True enough, but people would rather have my fear of their fear. Think “Prayers For Bobby” or “Me Before You.” I must be unhappy for others to be happy. What makes me happy is sex, but that’s not allowed. With all the monsters roaming the Earth I’m looked at as one. My novels, studies, these words Dirty Diana give but a moment of freedom. The thing is one can become obsessed, a junkie even.

“Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”
Oscar Wilde

Doesn’t sound sexy I know, I’m still on Brainbuddy. Now, as it says above, sex is about power, and above all else, that’s what I want. Power without sex; well, let’s skip the philosophical, political, painstaking research. “Deliciae Dolor” The Pleasure of Pain in the book or Delight Pain by Google Translate. My pleasure comes from the pain of others. Again I reiterate the fact that I’m versed in “Safe, Sane, Consensual” (SSC). Also, “Risk-aware consensual kink” (RACK). What I’m getting at is what gets me off the fastest, not that I’m one for leaving a woman wanting. The difference between The Handmaid’s Tale and Whitney Wright in Angelic Bride To Anal Angel. (I didn’t watch any of it). I guess that doesn’t make me any different than most people ha.

My fetishes make me fearless, except trying to explain them. The acts give me a type of control in lives that I never see in mine. The wisdom, if you only knew Dirty Diana. Most supervillains are certified geniuses. Dennis Hof ran gas stations before brothels and Jimmy Stephens well he knows the law well. I only want to forget everything, but I still deny myself Will Of The Moment.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 360 ~Why Worry? Write Will~

Last week I asked what I was I thinking, but at this point, that word should be synonymous what am I “worrying” about, movie tickets, Pinterest boards, my arsenal and more. Why Worry? Write Will.

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

Episode 360 ~Why Worry? Write Will~

Forgive Me Echo,
I Am A Millionaire right now, so I haven’t bothered worrying about Nevada in a while. No negative vibes there but I have plenty to go around. I’m worried I might have wasted my life being day 360 and all. Without a doubt, I know I’m a writer because I made these stories up in a day.

I thought I lost my pocket knife today. Now I won’t tell you where but it would be serious trouble. There I was feeling around in my pocket and no blade. Could it be in a chair, the parking lot, my car, the house? Would I be on camera; my fingerprints are all over it, Inspector Echo. It turns out; it was under a paper towel here at the house. Now, why would I go all crazy over a pocket knife? Is it because I’m me or what everybody thinks about me by now? Head, shoulders, knees, and toes, becomes phone, wallet, keys, and knife? Life comes down to the smallest things, last week that was B III. I still hate the vet for thinking I would harm my son. Hell, whenever I leave the house, I pray for Triple B’s safety, but there is so much more to see.

109 Sections and counting; that’s around 327 Words? I’ve seen trouble for more and less Inspector Echo. I’m at the Day Job thinking that at any second the cops are going to burst in and congratulations will be in order. Now isn’t that another way to look at being booked? I’ve said some sexist, stupid, downright SKEEVY things about women. I’m not President Trump though or any other Republican. Only as the song goes “if you got the inclination, I have got the crime.” More often than not, the end of the world has come with a button press. At least I have seen that every so often but I’m still here. Worry, Regret, Fear, I gotta enemies, gotta lot of enemies to keep up the quotes. The truth is though I will always be the worse for sure Echo.

What about my fucked up free tickets (LANGUAGE)? Yes, it’s my fault, and now I have to deal with Office Depot sending my order to the wrong store. I apologize for my lack of positive energy. Killing myself slowly with worries while I ask once more, Why Worry? Write Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 354 ~Worse Names Than Will~

I learned from a very young age that I was better seen and not heard. I would do my Olds one better, I keep quiet, and I never go out. Not that the cops won’t show up whether I was suicidal or alternative schooling. “Worse Names Than Will.”

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Episode 354 ~Worse Names Than Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Should I say that it’s Willie who has all the money? My debit card says, Willie. My paycheck is much the same. Hell, even my “passive” or “parental” income is, Willie. I’m Jr, and he’s Sr, and should I be embarrassed? Dirty Diana, I am worse things than a freeloader on my best day. I’ve said it time after time the worst things you can call me are STUPID or RETARDED. It’s one of the reasons I hate the people at my Day Job so much. So here I am an aspiring brothel owner, pimping.

You should know I respect Sex Workers, Pornstars, Models both Erotic and otherwise. With that, I’ve never stepped foot in a brothel, not yet. I couldn’t tell you the plot of any, let’s say “Full Length” porno to save my life. Hentai maybe and a scene here or there of real sex. The thing is Dirty Diana, as a dominant, I perform scenes, I have themes, I’m an artist. Most adult entertainment doesn’t involve all that but the language? I know I try to play Captain America most days because I find swearing tawdry and crass. There is a time for it Dirty Diana. In the bedroom or performing any scene, communication and colorful language are paramount. I was never one to hurt feelings or tell lies. How I hate those people, who say hurtful things and then “Just Kidding.”

That’s the reason trust and understanding are essential. There’s this porn collection called “Exploited College Girls.” The girls are beautiful, the concept sound, but you know what gets me? “You’re My Little Whore, Say It.” “I’m Your Little Whore.” I respect those girls and their work; they are amazing. The thing is I can separate the actress from the person. Take Sabrina Nichole; if there is a God, he might have started with her beauty. Anyway wanting to see her coming doesn’t mean I think she’s only some slut. How about TTB, everyone hated the owner. Make no mistake guys got off to those girls; some moved to real porn. The thing is they got paid, and nobody hurt them. I know some girls that wear words like “slut,” “whore,” or “cunt” as a badge of honor or a word.

Only words get me into trouble, but I understand there are Worse Names Than Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 353 ~Will Of It All~

“What are you thinking” are scary words these days but I’m still keeping my mouth shut at work because if I didn’t, hell it would be worst than my Pinterest titles and those are making my head hurt. “Will Of It All”

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Episode 353 ~Will Of It All~

Forgive Me Echo,
I Am A Millionaire right now because I can afford a maid. Hell topless maids, a whole damn cleaning service (Language). I’m getting lazy about that too but another day. Didn’t I mention I haven’t talked to “Okay” in forever? One more woman I scared off but again some other time. While I’m busy committing crimes that most Republicans applaud, my head hurts. Do you know the saying, heavy the head that wears the crown? What about, the world on my shoulders? Did the angel and devil gain some weight these days?

Too many questions and since I broke NO FAP, both heads have been struggling. Again my three major sins so let’s start with LUST. Over eighty-five sections in one Pinterest board and the names are getting lame. How many dirty words can you rhyme with J or K I ask? Even if I come up with a good one, I lack the guts to write it down. I should go back to watching porn, so I believe. All the “allowances” I give myself; it’s not XVideos, Pornhub, and how I miss Motherless. Sigh and tonight is freebie night too. What I don’t miss is people but again LUST, GREED, and SLOTH. It hasn’t stopped me from imagining MILF Dos though. When’s the last time, I saw breasts “on purpose?” The world is knocking me down lower Inspector Echo without a doubt.

I don’t miss the Alamo Fund not being across from me. It’s sitting in the bank and how I want so much more money. My motivations, I have that money, but it doesn’t stop me from wanting everything. My GREED goes hand and hand with my LUST. What about my dreams of power? How my ANGER kicks in, and everything is saying stay positive? Okay B III is doing better and won’t require a vet but more meds. Tomorrow I find out how much I made at the Day Job. I haven’t worked on my novel today. There’s always food, but I’m a starving artist.

More so a sleepy one to be honest. My ANGER had me ready to attack the world. Only a Hot Pocket and an unmade bed, so SLOTH, I’m here now though, and there is so much to do Inspector. As always though I need to apologize for betraying myself. Weight Of It All Inspector Echo, Will Of It All.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

How many days has it been that I have chosen to drown myself in sheets and not water? Well, would that be a bad thing; Thursday’s usually are, but all my dirt has gone elsewhere, but I do clean up nice sometimes. “Will Is Hanging Out.”

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. With this kind of money, I would be eccentric. I would also need an NDA, and I’m looking forward to those. Another way of saying that would be I’m an old PERV in dirty clothes, reading erotic books. Also, I don’t tend to keep my naughty thoughts to myself. There is plenty more I should be cleaning up other than my head. B III, my laundry, my fridge, the house.

It’s one of the reasons I like layers and wrapping up beautiful things. For somebody who’s addicted to control a GOOD surprise isn’t a bad thing. I adore perfection, and I’m not perfect but seeing a person’s flaws? I don’t know; it shouldn’t make me feel better. I mean the more she seems too good to be true, the purer, the more innocent, the dirtier I want to take her. MILF Dos might be mad, but I was never a fan of tattoos on women. I’m not trying to sound like someone out of The Handmaid’s Tale. I will stand behind the fact that the uniforms are sort of sexy. Now if I could only get hold of that Halloween version. Sometimes I can be worse than a girl when it comes to clothes. I’ve said before that I spend more on clothes than time talking girls out of them.

Worse talking to myself, I’m still with Brainbuddy. My Life Tree’s growing, I haven’t looked up any porn, though this morning I came close. Twitter is not doing me any favors, and I’m still not counting Beauty In The Broken. If I told you what I was into recently, now that would be all kinds of dirty. The last time I lasted this long with NO FAP? Let’s say I finally saw those “Dirty Mom Tits” I was panting about in the shower once. Speaking of which back to cleaning, again my head’s a mess but who knows what’s going on in there. The only thing I have cleaned somewhat is what of my Pinterest boards. Sex symbols could have some organization, and I wrote out all my goals two days ago. I was lucky to stop when I did, and it’s not like I’m missing the Day Job. What about Outskirts Press, that’s one more thing that might do me dirty. So as of now, Will Is Hanging Out.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 346 ~Making A Willing Investment~

Last week I talked about community property, and I’m still all for keeping what’s mine which for now is a whole lot of green, but I don’t trust in God, his servants or Trump’s government so what comes next? Making A Willing Investment

Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Episode 346 ~Making A Willing Investment~

Forgive Me Echo,
I Am A Millionaire right now because I make sound financial decisions. This year I started the 52 Week Money Challenge for $1,378. There’s the 365 Day Penny Challenge for $667.95. I was going by fives, $5, 10, 15, each week, of course, $275 is waiting for Outskirts Press. As Rotti Largo sang “made a fortune and counted it.” When I do invest in myself, there’s NaNoWriMo gear, work clothes, the car, and writing. Of course, there’s B III who is my greatest treasure, and I keep him inside away from people.

My sin is not that I’m complaining about money. No Inspector Echo there is more than enough, but I want more. Hell, my sin could be Second Circle Creations, I’m sure I got that confused with the SEC. Not being into sports is a blessing. The name though I “stole” sort of from Abyss Creations. Yeah, I’m not to the point of giving up on people forever. Of course, you know what the Second Circle of Hell is; LUST. You remember 365 poems I wrote, The Bedroom Soapbox and who has over $3,000 of mine? Can you say Lars and the Real Girl but I spent a few hundred on actual tits. How about the closet for my future submissive? “Okay,” knows all about my fashion choices and books. It’s why I have a coffee table with books and a colorful closet but no models.

My sin still stands at the fact that I haven’t called Outskirts Press back. Again give me someone to trust, and I’m in Inspector Echo. I don’t fear failure; I fear people. Do you know how many blew up my Instagram when I followed PCH with money-making opportunities? Every day after I do a new Writing Reason, 1 -3 scammers send links on Whisper. I follow a cosplayer, and three new half-naked chicks are wanting to follow me. That’s it, you know it’s not the loss of money but the expectation of everybody else wanting me to give. I talked before about how people are walking around with billions. Still, the middle and lower amongst us must provide charity. Dennis Hof had it right, Inspector Echo; I like breasts. Guys, and girls like breasts, how can I get paid well.

Am I Republican? Nope, Inspector Echo, I am sorry though, about money making, money taking. The truth, I need to be Making A Willing Investment.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

Well back to women’s rights or a lack thereof, how I can read “Beauty in the Broken” and then watch “The Handmaid’s Tale” and with all the ideas I have I either neither tentacles or a train, thank you, “Rainey Summer Day.” Will Takes A Turn

Thursday, June 6, 2019

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Now if you want to know what turns me on, a billion. Hell trillion, how about some number so high I’ll break the internet trying to find it. There is one mere word though; Everything. You know the expression I’ll try anything once.” Not when it comes to food and several other things, but let’s talk about sex. Though at this stage in the game I would prefer money.

It’s like something out of The Screwfly Solution. The process of turning sexual instincts to those of violence. I want to convert money into women and vice versa. Rumplestiltskin mastered spinning straw into gold. Only like my motivations say I’m not looking for a magic wand, I’m hustling. Speaking of a horror film and a fairytale. For now, my newest craze is “The Handmaid’s Tale.” I’m thinking about that episode Jezebels. First off you know whores have never been my thing. I always look for the most innocent. Now I do enjoy dirty names, MILF Dos could tell you that much. I also realize I still have a thing for Kristen Gutoskie. I fell for her in “Containment,” but she plays the Martha “Beth” now. The thought of her as a Handmaid? So that brings me to the point today. Things that turn me on but shouldn’t. They could be evil.

There was the Yandy “Brave Red Maiden Costume” fuck I wanted one to go in my Submissive’s Closet. Didn’t I mention that “The Handmaid’s Tale is sexy? Only Gilead must fall. A quick turn I know and almost as fast as my writing, from sweet and gushy to Erotica. How fast the porn can get to you, I’m still constantly on guard. I haven’t seen any tits besides the cosplayer’s (Patreon). On Twitter, I know too many people. There’s “Beauty in the Broken” my latest erotic read. Should I report myself to Brainbuddy since that “technically” is porn? If I were to say something, I refer back to Jezebels and that idea they had with all the drugs. For all those in the back, illegal and wrong, as much as The Corpse Of Anna Fritz.

Reminds me of creeping out Ruby Rae. I should make a list of what not to say to women, but I need only one, ANYTHING. Everything and Anything with my tastes, Will Takes A Turn.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

Sharia Law, The Handmaid’s Tale, or all the stupid laws on the books these days, I swear, I’ve started blocking Twitter with my hand because I know too many people and tomorrow, well there goes my streak. Porn To Be Will

Thursday, May 30, 2019

Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, also a porn junkie. Am I growing something besides my collection, clothes, or creepy captions? According to Brainbuddy, yes. The question remains, and my new favorite game show. Now Ladies and gentlemen “IS THIS PORN?”

Let’s start with Episode 333, I noticed yesterday but more so today. Of course, this all started when I compared shudders and friend to porn stars. Brazzers and Reality Kings, nice? So yes, my former adult viewing has advanced in nearly two years. To this day, the word “skeevy” still gives me a chill. Now it goes right under “Stupid” and above “Stalker.” One I was that’s fair enough, the second I despise feeling, the last being an outright lie. Was it skeevy, yes, was it stupid? You know how I feel about wasting time, but here we are. Was it stalker-like, other than wanting to buy company stocks for the first time? Making her a villainess in a novel Hell since that night of reading I’ve never looked her up. Again Is This Porn?

I keep asking myself. Every day my Life Tree grows more. It’s less about avoiding NO FAP and more about leaving porn altogether. Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter, on the last two, I haven’t avoided seeing a naked female. Dirty Diana, it’s not like I’m sticking around. Okay, five seconds for Sabrina Nichole who did Playboy and is now a cosplayer. I swear porn is one of those words like love but long story short. It’s meant to produce sexual arousal, and I didn’t look that long. No wood honest. Now, what about a book review and this blog. I finished a critique of an erotica novel. I looked up Jenna Rickert for one of my writing reasons too. So have I broken My Word to Brainbuddy?

Tomorrow another cosplayer is giving her farewell. I’ll be receiving an uncensored view drools. So yeah that is going to count as porn. I know another failure, and you know I’m not a competitive person. I do like winning. Lust, of course, is less of a sin than greed. Only besides breasts, I’ve thought about books and bucks, how I HATE MATH. If I could get 200,000 people to believe in me at five dollars in profit? I ask the lesser question about the little head but the big head too, Porn To Be Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

Would you lie with me and just forget the world as the song goes, but the Earth is quite a large place and to own it would mean getting up off my behind and taking it, but I’m too busy on my back, sleeping. Late, Great, Lazy Will.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and my first purchase should be a new bed. Noted I’m doing better than yesterday when I could barely get up. Still, this morning, it felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. Plus I didn’t get “dressed up” for Whataburger.

The free Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit wasn’t worth it. Speaking of my mouth, when is this deeper voice going to kick in as Brainbuddy says. I’m so tired of being referred to as Ma’am. How about being afraid, and the bullies don’t have to sock me to take my air. I’m still on my Game Of Thrones kick Dirty Diana. I could never reach Daenerys Targaryen or Cersei Lannister. I’m not on Sansa Stark’s level or brave enough for Arya Stark. Do you think I could speak any of Missandei’s languages? Is that why I like the fairytale princess. Guarded by the dragon, trapped by her parents, kept asleep by some magic spell. You know how I like my peace, quiet, etc. At the same time, I want a loud woman. Isn’t communication the key?

Only I look back at Sick Fux by Tillie Cole. The way Rabbit and Dolly lost themselves together in bed without ever having touched. Illicitness, intimacy, insanity, how often I talk about hiding this madness. The white rooms of my skull, screen, and finally shelf. I’m not a writer to be lazy. I write because I’m dead or I fear it, sort of like Clear Rivers in Final Destination 2. Only my freedom lies in the green of the almighty dollar. People with money fear nothing but losing it all or gain an obsession for much more. Now I know that doesn’t sound so sexy, but that’s the thing. I want a place where I won’t have to hide what I want and hell I’m not disguising it here. The things I want bedroom wise.

So I lie in bed most off days imagining there is a girl as sick as me. The UNIVERSE answers these things in ways. Yes, I found this Hentai, Bible Black New Testament: vol.4, the two patients. Again, I don’t want to leave my bed. I still have my The Purge/Red Dawn Fantasy waiting. Say it with me, “Three Months.” I could do worse right, Inner Demons, Lara In Trouble. The Corpse of Anna Fritz WHAT Late, Great, Lazy, Will.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

Don’t try to wrap your head around this one, lips, hands, whatever you would so choose because could it be possible I’m not in the mood after today started with quite the awesome dream. “Will Hates Head Games.”

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Still, if I ever start talking about caviar and the French Riviera, feel free to shoot me. You’ll know I’m not in my right mind. While I’d bang pretty Cherry from across the pond, I heard somewhere that a dog in a palace is still a dog. That’s the truth.

The truth, though is making my head hurt, the both of them. You remember, I talked about being Prometheus. The bird that skipped my liver to feast upon my heart or my dick. Now it looks like my brain is catching up. I’ve also spoken about how when “I Have A Dream,” it will reveal itself in some way. Only I never know exactly how at the time. However, this meaning came faster than most or didn’t. Geez, Dirty Diana, I was on the brink. So the dream, all I can remember was being back at my parents’ house, in my old room. There I had this blonde sucking my cock; took me all day to find out her name. Madison Foxx, you’ll remember her from such films as “Dong Diner” Money Talks. Also “First Marriage Proposal” Bangbus Homer Drool.

So before I could make my “deposit” in her pretty mouth, I woke up. So how does this equate with my life? Well, I’ve been talking to Alice Little of course at the Moonlite Bunny Ranch and let’s say I was premature. I’m not giving up Dirty Diana. I believe and all that but three months. Which leads me to how long it takes to publish a book. At worse, I’ll never make it. At best eight weeks and then one month to make that money. How about the fact that in Dong Diner, Madison walked out. Jessi Stone was the star “dream” girl, but everything it took to get to her. Still, Madison was the truth I didn’t see.

I panicked, I lost my mind and nearly got hacked today. There I was, tagging shoes this morning and I get an alert that my account was compromised right? Relax as I said a scam, but I almost blew everything because I was afraid. Now I stopped before I did anything stupid, so no hacker got a payload. I didn’t blow mine, and the hot redhead won’t see it sigh.

Am I coming or going, how Will Hates Heads Games.

I Will Have No Fear