Chronicle 086 ~Give B A Hand~

Didn’t I say something about being up to my neck in… whatever last week. The first thing I read about today is a woman in a noose. Fiction, but um yeah, TX. But I’m more to the idea of finding a way for me to live. Give B A Hand; he was good at that.

Saturday, September 25, 2021

Chronicle 086 ~Give B A Hand~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Billionaire right now, but maybe if I said, “I’m Will, I AM a Billionaire.” No, I’m Will (only) Will.

I wanted to use another word than that in parentheses, but you know how Hemmingway is. Do I want to spend today complaining about that fucking App? Pardon my French. Also, forgive my SPOILER ALERT if you haven’t read The Handmaid’s Tale. Ofglen (Emily in the show) hung herself. The things I don’t need to be thinking about today Lu. Yeah, yeah, I finished another book. To Braxton, all that would mean is that he would have to get up so I could order another one. Hell reading, writing, it’s what I do. I would say it’s who I am but who is that again? It’s what I have been thinking about since I woke up. I’m Ofwillie. I had another name; it’s forbidden. Daddy

I’m sure I’ve written way more nasty stuff when it comes to women. I in no way, shape, or form wish to insult Margaret Atwood or her work. Can you blame me, though, for being in this state of mind? I have my hoodies, live-by routine, very much fucked. Should I stop Lady Lu? Who knows, in the “future,” like at the end of The Handmaid’s Tale, warning SPOILER ALERT. I could be looked upon as some authority, a genius, a call from the darkness which is this present. A better comparison… Winston Smith. Braxton was here for the reading of 1984, I’m sure. Lady Lu, if you told me it was my purpose to be one of his comfy spots, that’s a life lived.

I’ve told you before that with Braxton, he was the only one who didn’t expect me to be anything more than his Daddy. I made that choice; I like being that man. I love Braxton. Now I have women in my life, Carolina Bound, M Anime. I’m still pretending Lunalesca. Carolina Bound, of course, knows me better than anyone “Of Inner Demons.” Such a risk. As for others, first, there is the indifferent or those that see worthlessness. My Olds. Enemies, Lady Lu, my God, I understand why Offred AKA June was giving up… easier.

“Nolite te bastardes carborundorum,” ― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale

As in Don’t let the bastards grind you down. I’m the worst one looking in the mirror instead of my kid’s eyes. I counted on Braxton. Give B A Hand

237 Days Without B III

BLM Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Chronicle 085 ~It’s Empty B Cause~

Like Father like Son. I’m running on empty and still trying to say something of value. Braxton was dying, and he continued to love so much he stayed beside me. He loved himself enough to walk to his water bowl. “It’s Empty B Cause,” nothing it’s full

Friday, September 24, 2021

Chronicle 085 ~It’s Empty B Cause~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Billionaire right now. If I hope to remain so, I know I can’t have days like yesterday or today.

In the back of my mind, the “thought” was there, but we’ll get to that in a bit. I don’t want to go blaming Braxton for anything. Only the house is emptier. I guess I decided to take the night off from playing the beast, and instead, I was a vampire. This morning a ghost. Yeah, I’m still up to my “Stuff and Thangs on Onlyfans. It’s not even like I want to be seen. Well, you could ask M Anime. But I’m not one for a certain kind of picture sending. I’m not STUPID, Sophia, but we’ll get to that too. As for other things in my pants, money? No, even though I got paid. For dinner, I had four bags of chips ha.

Oh, I always have money but between gaming and books. I’m trying to keep up with The Handmaid’s Tale, but I’ll still remain ignorant on life. Yeah, if I could stay awake to live it. My bed is empty right now, but I was up most of the night. B could be keeping it warm. I should get clean, but what are the odds, Lady Sophia. So much to do and no desire at all. Pleasing an empty stomach? Worse is the blank my mind is drawing. I’m filling out. Yesterday M Anime said that, and my answer is? Working out, eating; to be fat, happy? Sophia, I wish I could remember why I even wanted to start talking to you like this after Braxton.

I want to tell his story. I have 50,000 words, and there is even more? I need to refill my Amazon balance and start buying more for Braxton instead of only books. The Red Collar. My skin remains empty of tattoos. Braxton’s water bowl is never empty. His bathroom spot and food dish are never filled. I won’t remove his things from the kitchen counter. This brings me to the AM as I paid tribute, and I saw B’s bucket of treats. I’m “Running On Empty,” and it doesn’t make sense to buy more. Is anything I do ever, Sophia? Writing, for example, going to Petsmart on Saturdays, being on camera, love, however, it’s sliced? My heart’s not empty. It’s broken. It’s Empty B Cause

236 Days Without B III

BLM Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Chronicle 078 ~Let’s Book It, Braxton~

I always pictured the Daddy reading to his kids. Of the 38 books I’ve gotten to so far, only 11 (maybe) were appropriate. Braxton was here for four of them. All of January. Yet The Handmaid’s Tale has been on my mind. Let’s Book It, Braxton

Friday, September 17, 2021

Chronicle 078 ~Let’s Book It, Braxton~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Billionaire right now, but what did you do today, Braxton? No hands for applause. Some whining, big floppy ears.

I want to talk about Braxton but, there’s something I’ve been thinking… Moira and Emily. Didn’t I say something um wanting to read The Handmaid’s Tale? How about today, ha. I’ve only seen the show, a bit into Season 3. So here’s my question. Would you want to be Moira, no fanfare but to know that you’re safe? No one that doesn’t know what you’ve endured can ever understand. But now you’re a person you can live, your life matters. Or would you instead be Emily? Your life matters, and everyone knows? You’re seen not only as a survivor but a big damn hero. The world that you escaped from, the things you had to do in such horrific circumstances. Not only that, but someone is waiting for you only.

I’ve been talking to M Anime about how hard it is for her to be a woman. I in no way, shape, or form what to imply I know her struggle. Oh, I would rant to B about being black. My point is this. While I imagined reading The Handmaid’s Tale instead of, well, my latest. When I walk into the house, I remember all the days Braxton was still here to greet me always. Lame, isn’t it? When he was young, for sure, I was an Emily, and I didn’t have to bring in a baby. Bringing in a bag of goodies was enough, and of course, yeah, I’ll hang onto this B III. When he was older, I was Moira. Helpfully loving quietly.

My Day Job stories were a lot more appropriate. Despite multiple uses of the word “motherfucker.” In my younger days, my Olds wanted to know about my day, but not really. Now B III, my son, wanted to know everything. Yeah, I’d imagine that’s why he fought against so much. I told you before, people would say it was like B had to protect me. Sophia, when I would pick up a book, that’s when Braxton knew I was at peace. Hell, to think today, I wanted to tell you about the last book Braxton and I read together. Succubus Lord 7. Gospel 212 and Braxton’s last Friday. He didn’t see the end of Succubus Lord 8. Not appropriate anyway. Still, Let’s Book It, Braxton.

229 Days Without B III

BLM Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

How many days has it been that I have chosen to drown myself in sheets and not water? Well, would that be a bad thing; Thursday’s usually are, but all my dirt has gone elsewhere, but I do clean up nice sometimes. “Will Is Hanging Out.”

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. With this kind of money, I would be eccentric. I would also need an NDA, and I’m looking forward to those. Another way of saying that would be I’m an old PERV in dirty clothes, reading erotic books. Also, I don’t tend to keep my naughty thoughts to myself. There is plenty more I should be cleaning up other than my head. B III, my laundry, my fridge, the house.

It’s one of the reasons I like layers and wrapping up beautiful things. For somebody who’s addicted to control a GOOD surprise isn’t a bad thing. I adore perfection, and I’m not perfect but seeing a person’s flaws? I don’t know; it shouldn’t make me feel better. I mean the more she seems too good to be true, the purer, the more innocent, the dirtier I want to take her. MILF Dos might be mad, but I was never a fan of tattoos on women. I’m not trying to sound like someone out of The Handmaid’s Tale. I will stand behind the fact that the uniforms are sort of sexy. Now if I could only get hold of that Halloween version. Sometimes I can be worse than a girl when it comes to clothes. I’ve said before that I spend more on clothes than time talking girls out of them.

Worse talking to myself, I’m still with Brainbuddy. My Life Tree’s growing, I haven’t looked up any porn, though this morning I came close. Twitter is not doing me any favors, and I’m still not counting Beauty In The Broken. If I told you what I was into recently, now that would be all kinds of dirty. The last time I lasted this long with NO FAP? Let’s say I finally saw those “Dirty Mom Tits” I was panting about in the shower once. Speaking of which back to cleaning, again my head’s a mess but who knows what’s going on in there. The only thing I have cleaned somewhat is what of my Pinterest boards. Sex symbols could have some organization, and I wrote out all my goals two days ago. I was lucky to stop when I did, and it’s not like I’m missing the Day Job. What about Outskirts Press, that’s one more thing that might do me dirty. So as of now, Will Is Hanging Out.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

Well back to women’s rights or a lack thereof, how I can read “Beauty in the Broken” and then watch “The Handmaid’s Tale” and with all the ideas I have I either neither tentacles or a train, thank you, “Rainey Summer Day.” Will Takes A Turn

Thursday, June 6, 2019

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Now if you want to know what turns me on, a billion. Hell trillion, how about some number so high I’ll break the internet trying to find it. There is one mere word though; Everything. You know the expression I’ll try anything once.” Not when it comes to food and several other things, but let’s talk about sex. Though at this stage in the game I would prefer money.

It’s like something out of The Screwfly Solution. The process of turning sexual instincts to those of violence. I want to convert money into women and vice versa. Rumplestiltskin mastered spinning straw into gold. Only like my motivations say I’m not looking for a magic wand, I’m hustling. Speaking of a horror film and a fairytale. For now, my newest craze is “The Handmaid’s Tale.” I’m thinking about that episode Jezebels. First off you know whores have never been my thing. I always look for the most innocent. Now I do enjoy dirty names, MILF Dos could tell you that much. I also realize I still have a thing for Kristen Gutoskie. I fell for her in “Containment,” but she plays the Martha “Beth” now. The thought of her as a Handmaid? So that brings me to the point today. Things that turn me on but shouldn’t. They could be evil.

There was the Yandy “Brave Red Maiden Costume” fuck I wanted one to go in my Submissive’s Closet. Didn’t I mention that “The Handmaid’s Tale is sexy? Only Gilead must fall. A quick turn I know and almost as fast as my writing, from sweet and gushy to Erotica. How fast the porn can get to you, I’m still constantly on guard. I haven’t seen any tits besides the cosplayer’s (Patreon). On Twitter, I know too many people. There’s “Beauty in the Broken” my latest erotic read. Should I report myself to Brainbuddy since that “technically” is porn? If I were to say something, I refer back to Jezebels and that idea they had with all the drugs. For all those in the back, illegal and wrong, as much as The Corpse Of Anna Fritz.

Reminds me of creeping out Ruby Rae. I should make a list of what not to say to women, but I need only one, ANYTHING. Everything and Anything with my tastes, Will Takes A Turn.

I Will Have No Fear