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Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

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Would you lie with me and just forget the world as the song goes, but the Earth is quite a large place and to own it would mean getting up off my behind and taking it, but I’m too busy on my back, sleeping. Late, Great, Lazy Will.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and my first purchase should be a new bed. Noted I’m doing better than yesterday when I could barely get up. Still, this morning, it felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. Plus I didn’t get “dressed up” for Whataburger.

The free Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit wasn’t worth it. Speaking of my mouth, when is this deeper voice going to kick in as Brainbuddy says. I’m so tired of being referred to as Ma’am. How about being afraid, and the bullies don’t have to sock me to take my air. I’m still on my Game Of Thrones kick Dirty Diana. I could never reach Daenerys Targaryen or Cersei Lannister. I’m not on Sansa Stark’s level or brave enough for Arya Stark. Do you think I could speak any of Missandei’s languages? Is that why I like the fairytale princess. Guarded by the dragon, trapped by her parents, kept asleep by some magic spell. You know how I like my peace, quiet, etc. At the same time, I want a loud woman. Isn’t communication the key?

Only I look back at Sick Fux by Tillie Cole. The way Rabbit and Dolly lost themselves together in bed without ever having touched. Illicitness, intimacy, insanity, how often I talk about hiding this madness. The white rooms of my skull, screen, and finally shelf. I’m not a writer to be lazy. I write because I’m dead or I fear it, sort of like Clear Rivers in Final Destination 2. Only my freedom lies in the green of the almighty dollar. People with money fear nothing but losing it all or gain an obsession for much more. Now I know that doesn’t sound so sexy, but that’s the thing. I want a place where I won’t have to hide what I want and hell I’m not disguising it here. The things I want bedroom wise.

So I lie in bed most off days imagining there is a girl as sick as me. The UNIVERSE answers these things in ways. Yes, I found this Hentai, Bible Black New Testament: vol.4, the two patients. Again, I don’t want to leave my bed. I still have my The Purge/Red Dawn Fantasy waiting. Say it with me, “Three Months.” I could do worse right, Inner Demons, Lara In Trouble. The Corpse of Anna Fritz WHAT Late, Great, Lazy, Will.

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Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

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Don’t try to wrap your head around this one, lips, hands, whatever you would so choose because could it be possible I’m not in the mood after today started with quite the awesome dream. “Will Hates Head Games.”

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Still, if I ever start talking about caviar and the French Riviera, feel free to shoot me. You’ll know I’m not in my right mind. While I’d bang pretty Cherry from across the pond, I heard somewhere that a dog in a palace is still a dog. That’s the truth.

The truth, though is making my head hurt, the both of them. You remember, I talked about being Prometheus. The bird that skipped my liver to feast upon my heart or my dick. Now it looks like my brain is catching up. I’ve also spoken about how when “I Have A Dream,” it will reveal itself in some way. Only I never know exactly how at the time. However, this meaning came faster than most or didn’t. Geez, Dirty Diana, I was on the brink. So the dream, all I can remember was being back at my parents’ house, in my old room. There I had this blonde sucking my cock; took me all day to find out her name. Madison Foxx, you’ll remember her from such films as “Dong Diner” Money Talks. Also “First Marriage Proposal” Bangbus Homer Drool.

So before I could make my “deposit” in her pretty mouth, I woke up. So how does this equate with my life? Well, I’ve been talking to Alice Little of course at the Moonlite Bunny Ranch and let’s say I was premature. I’m not giving up Dirty Diana. I believe and all that but three months. Which leads me to how long it takes to publish a book. At worse, I’ll never make it. At best eight weeks and then one month to make that money. How about the fact that in Dong Diner, Madison walked out. Jessi Stone was the star “dream” girl, but everything it took to get to her. Still, Madison was the truth I didn’t see.

I panicked, I lost my mind and nearly got hacked today. There I was, tagging shoes this morning and I get an alert that my account was compromised right? Relax as I said a scam, but I almost blew everything because I was afraid. Now I stopped before I did anything stupid, so no hacker got a payload. I didn’t blow mine, and the hot redhead won’t see it sigh.

Am I coming or going, how Will Hates Heads Games.

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Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

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So I did pick one fantasy, and it breaks my heart and how can I expect to stay awake all night for this, what will the bunnies/lovers say, that I’m crazy and trust my novels are something else. Willing The Red Dawn.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, so I’ll relish this fantasy:

Dear Alice and Ruby,
More on my “Red Dawn” Fantasy which I have filled you both in on. Still, I wish to go further in the details. Again you both know you will play cult followers of “Good Leader Tavis” from @ThePurgeTV. Only you will be looking to escape her. Moments before The Purge warning, which we will watch together you beg me to let you in. You’ll either be wearing blue robes like the show. Underneath, red thigh netted thigh highs, fluffy orange skirt, black bustier with orange strings. Pink and black striped thigh highs, hot pink fluffy skirt, black bustier with pink ties holding. Alice and Ruby respectively.

If not that blue virgin killer sweaters with the stockings. Alice’s hair will be in curly pigtails. Ruby’s hair will be in waves flowing down her shoulders and back. Shoes will be sneakers but switched to black ankle strap high heels. Now I was planning a Purge party, but the “victim” never got delivered. So you two are talking me into keeping you safe for the duration. There is a lot you may have a problem with such as my video camera. Being tied up, an assortment of sex toys, the blinding hoods. Most of all indeed my grand finale.

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For example, sex toys are throughout the room. So when I don’t have you both in bed, you can get off to a toy on the wall, dresser, glory hole style. When you have the hoods on they will serve as other “party goers.” Near the end, you two will have a small, playing wrestling match. The winner will be of my choosing, and the loser will have a hood placed over there head to signify defeat. Afterward, the winner will help me play with the loser who will not be allowed to talk or react until I say so. Think “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” to a certain extent.

Also while I’m looking at the Peppermill Resort? I wish there were a room like the Princess Suite at the Mustang Ranch. Could find a way to set up a suite as such but this won’t be happening until September, if ever. Anyway, that’s my fantasy. There is more to come if I can find a way and you both agree, Willing The Red Dawn.

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Lesson 082 ~Waiting to See It~

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What are you waiting for, Ellie Goulding doesn’t have to wait for anything but I am waiting for the worst possible outcome at every single given opportunity. Waiting to See It, Pennywise doesn’t scare me so much as my wasted life.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Lesson 082 ~Waiting to See It~

Hey Lady Lu
No Fear but wait for it, doesn’t it always return; maybe I will feel better when the days of “Sapphire” have ended but again I’m waiting. I wonder when was the last time I waited for something besides the ending of a mental health crisis to come to a conclusion, and I suppose Amazon leaves something to look forward to a bit.

I’ve been thinking about when doom became the end of it, always waiting for the end to arrive which seems constant, a ticket I couldn’t pay, for sleeping pills to take effect, losing my job, not like those kids in Stephen King’s “It” but yeah everything seems to be life or death. What about disappointment, I guess my nap truly didn’t do anything for me this afternoon, just another sign of the times. Even getting off work, I tell myself that things are going to get better, I’ll be more productive and it’s more a case of, I’ll do better next time every single day.

What happened to those days when I couldn’t sleep, not because I was afraid but because I was excited, these days I either work until I can’t think anymore or I fall asleep in seconds, talk to “Indiana Gone” about my texting, in less than three minutes I can be gone for the night. I do remember a Christmas Eve, here or there where my sister and I couldn’t sleep and we would wake up in the dark going to get our presents and then it grew later and later, now it doesn’t matter, wake up, walk Braxton, another day, Recently I’ve been thinking about this new place Luna, my empire and having to fund it, to be seen and heard but wouldn’t that just bring back all the fear?

It wasn’t so bad now was it, giving up the poem a day in exchange for the rules and if we didn’t have our conversations who would even know or care, I would actually be surprised if one person knew I was missing from our old stomping grounds. The thing is this place should have already been unveiled, grand opening but no, I’m still waiting and I can’t afford that, even if this is the month of Sapphire it’s wasted.

So what have I learned today, maybe there truly is a reason I’m sitting here, just Waiting to See It.

I Will Have No Fear

Lesson 073 ~Bursting At The Seams~

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Things I’m not into, talking in my sleep or self- harm and yet a word came out and how does one go about cutting the back of their own neck. “Bursting At The Seams”, it’s tearing me apart Luna or something like that I suspect, any thoughts?

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Lesson 073 ~Bursting At The Seams~

Hey Lady Lu,
No Fear, I don’t normally talk in my sleep but I swear right on cue as the alarms began buzzing the word “burst” was on my lips and I can’t fathom why? Is this going to be one of those nonsensical posts which just makes no sense and is better left screamed into a pillow, now where is the fun in that?

Speaking of which, when was the last time that I screamed ever, I was on the verge, and this is one of those things that just doesn’t do well in print, is that why I want to be louder, get others to do it for me, maybe I need some godawful tragedy. Am I that much of a heartless bastard, I already told you, I’ve been forgetting things, like having a stake in Hurricane Irma, hell I don’t but I still remember exactly where I was when 9/11 happened, haven’t I been talking about the days of “Sapphire”. Yet another reason I talk to you, because all my crap seems juvenile, compared to the greater troubles of the universe right?

Which gets us back to today’s lesson and how it must have taken a hell of a lot to get that one word out of me in my sleep, something out loud with nothing but Braxton to hear me and between me, you, and him we’re great listeners but not such smooth talkers. How about talking in general because I can’t figure out how I got the cut on the back of my neck, I mean it’s easy to say that Braxton did but I can’t confirm it. I came up with a joke today that either my dog or my bitch did it but that’s exactly the type of humor that gets you fired and I was tempting fate

I was on the cusp though Lady Lu, I could feel it in my bones, I mean how my novel is so bloated, I come up with excuses by the truck load to not talk, not in front of customers, chicken biscuits, and other people have their worries. The mask is starting to slip again, I kept quiet around one manager and another saw, a bit of my face too.

So what have I learned today or rather thought… maybe something inside me is trying to get out, and if I can’t find my voice, damn censorship but something is truly Bursting at The Seams.

I Will Have No Fear