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Episode 303 ~Will There Be Time~

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What time is it, I want to jump up for love the way I jumped for the day job this morning, reminded me of being a kid again and having no idea what day it was only believing I was late for school but late for love? “Will There Be Time”

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Episode 303 ~Will There Be Time~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and still, I don’t know how to love you the right way. People sometimes ask you how you can love me at all. So I ponder the question of, how long is forever? Look at me like I’m some sage philosopher. Anyway, a part of me wants to put some arbitrary timeframe on it, me being me. Hell, it took me twenty seconds of insane courage to talk to you, love.

How fast did I fall in love with my first born? The moment his four paws touched the floor and all I wanted to do is scoop him up. That was fourteen years ago, and to this day I still love him like pancakes. No, a breakfast buffet by now, with a plate full of bacon. Don’t ask. I love you like I’m one of the androids, from Detroit: Become Human. I’m in my mind palace examining every possible angle but time keeps moving. So how do I look standing there? My love for you is like me singing at the FORMER day job. Scratchy, stretched, and long periods of silence. Only the idea that I am capable of doing that and not caring what anyone thinks ever again love.

Hell, I want a love strong enough to stand. Observant and reasonable to understand and silent enough to listen. Our daughters have those qualities, but dad is still well dad. There will come a day when I will have to be the man I need to be. I was so when I published my first book, and I want to love you like that. When time ceases to be, and at the same time I still count on forever. I want to love you as I always do on those Saturday mornings. When it’s only us, in bed listening to my Fallout soundtrack. No, I won’t swear by the moon as Juliet once said. I love you with all myself. Only will there ever be a right time my love?

I’m not a Christian man, but somehow I’ll be mistaken. So if loving you is wrong; see even after all this time I love you through music, dreams, books. I follow that word, FOREVER. The thought that I’d never get it right. So with every breath, I choose to try again with you asking myself again Will There Be Time?

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 298 ~Will Doesn’t Buy Capes~

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My hottest Avenger, it would be a toss-up between Scarlet Witch and Captain Marvel off the top of my head but the bigger head has been writing, and with 50,000 words I can buy all the pretty clothes a girl wants. Will Doesn’t Buy Capes

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Episode 298 ~Will Doesn’t Buy Capes~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. I choose to believe that, and I haven’t even checked this week’s paycheck as of yet. Too busy writing so I can go check out some hot superheroes in Avengers: Endgame. As somebody wrote, it’s an emotional time for nerds.

Does writing a book mean I’m a nerd? In truth, today is the first time in a month I’m going out for something other than Chinese, Errands, and the Day Job. As always I’m grateful but here’s something else I know. I’m trying to find a way to say this with a positive spin. Ahem I wouldn’t put Beyoncé in my novel. I find some of the Avengers girls hot as Hell. I even have a Pinterest of Elizabeth Olsen. Only none of them ended up in my novel either. You know who’ve I added now on in some other book? A pornstar, a cosplayer, a young authoress, a former model, not to mention some others I shouldn’t say. That’s more Inspector Echo’s business, and the government I’m quite sure.

So what does it take to end up in one of my pornos? That’s what I’m writing, a 43,500-word erotic novel. No, it’s porno, and I don’t mean that as a negative as Indiana Gone puts it, well it is what it is. For the record, how glad I am that thieves don’t usually target clothing. If I buy a woman clothes, nine times out of ten, it’s nothing to cover up. I have a closet full of submissive attire. Of course, you know this, but I bought the cosplayer clothes, along with MILF Uno. I have been racking my noggin attempting to get Cherry to lose some more. It also takes familiarity and not to be “skeevy” (yes I still hate her, and she’s a murderess in my latest novel). Anyway if I see a girl naked, I feel like I know her. A hug, devote time to her show, movies, and or books, a career in general. Building Pinterest boards maybe some examples.

  1. Lulu Final Fantasy X
  2. Tiernan Hebron
  3. Honoka Toudou
  4. Eileen Kelly
  5. Court Carmody
  6. Jewel Staite
  7. Cherry
  8. Haley Alexis Pullos

Of course, there are far more, and with this list, a fourth of them aren’t even real. Now you can’t say I don’t have a thing for powerful women, but Will Doesn’t Buy Capes.

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Episode 296 ~Will Rest Soon Enough~

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Still dreaming about counting gold and not sunlight, I suppose I’ll see enough of it when the work day’s through, and no I don’t mean the day job; to have a woman dragging me to bed, who’s not my mother, who knew. Will Rest Soon Enough

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

Episode 296 ~Will Rest Soon Enough~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now but like with love, I’m greedy, I’m selfish, hell I’m human. So I keep working and never thought I would see the day when you would have to call me to bed. I ain’t gonna lie; I heard a woman say once, that a man should spend the most on his bed sheets if he intends to keep a woman there. Another said that a man must create Heaven, how better to attract an angel. Still one more said you must live as though you have what you want. For example, not writing in the center of the bed as usual.

All this so as in Conan The Barbarian, I would not face the growing darkness alone. I still don’t, not with all this light in the house, means someone is doing their job. I have all my characters. My love-struck heart has known brokenness many times over again. Between B III, you love, the children, do I have friends that I care for like that? I should like to think so. My books, brain, and businesses are all over; center around Nevada and California of course. All that glitters ain’t gold. I know that. Yes, all the bright lights of Vegas, Carson City, and Reno. The spotlights of Hollywood, the LA sun, aren’t to keep me away from you. Though there’s the purpose, taking me away from that day job glaze I once did endure.

I don’t want our kids growing up as spoiled brats, and Triple B only needs so much yard. This huge house isn’t so I can hide. I put my soul to paper every day, and I’m still not inclined to party or go out. Only a job’s a job. All the diamonds and pearls, the gems and the camera lens, no wonder a man finds it hard to rest. My Love, I never want to go back to before. What I mean is before you and where was I once upon a time? A boy on the street, a businessman, the beast. You baby girl are the richest of us all because I give you All Of Me. Sigh then why am I here instead of lying with you this very moment, I should be.

I want everything in this world, and that might make me sound bad but to have it all to give away; Will Rest Soon Enough.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 291 ~Blue Balls, Purple Wills~

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One of the first to see the blue sky after the purple I have been up so late, eyes open wide, pick up a finger put it down and then again, not to mention other parts of my anatomy as well. “Blue Balls, Purple Wills”

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Episode 291 ~Blue Balls, Purple Wills~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now but if I could ask the UNIVERSE for more? Let’s say some men ask for bigger pants. I want a woman, not that I need one. What I could use is a good night sleep, and B III is the best cuddle partner ever. For these past few days, sex has been to me what thirty million was to Montgomery Brewster. You get sick of it, but in the end, you want so much more.

I still remember when I was building my HENTAI collection, and now I’ve caught up to one. Hot Juicy Teacher a.k.a. Onna Kyoushi and the character of Honoka Toudou. Only I should also mention her little sister Mikoto Toudou. The question is why; trust me it doesn’t take much to get me going. One more reason, I’ve been working to the midnight hour. Too busy edging, hell I didn’t even do my morning routine today. So I should be grateful for the pain. Also for seeing the sunrise with my schedule at the day job and my conversations with you girls. Can you see why I’m making it my life’s goal to stay in bed with something, someone beautiful? Not that I don’t enjoy the sun, though I wear hoodies.

I am keeping all the darkness covered up on the outside as well as within. That is because of things like Hot Juicy Teacher Volume 3: Science. One particular scene when the four boys gangbang the Toudou sisters. While I’m busy acknowledging my darkest inclinations, I even used that scene in my book. I am making it a mother and a daughter. Now if it’s any consolation, I’m erasing the daughter’s mind to a certain degree. Of course, there is one way to clear the “little head,” but again I’m fighting the fight. I want to be a better man. Yeah and own a company the likes of PureTaboo or the Fetish Network oh and a brothel, that hasn’t changed.

You know that might explain it, relating to the character of Yuuichirou Date. A young man accused of a crime he didn’t commit. Only then he became the monster everyone said he was. Next, he was forced to sit back and watch Honoka “taken,” and he didn’t even get Kaho Yuuki in the end. Damn sexy brunettes, Alycia Debnam-Carey continues to haunt my dreams. So I fight a severe case of Blue Balls, Purple Wills.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 289 ~Think WILL Take It~

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For the love of money, can’t say these days I’m putting out into the UNIVERSE thoughts of pretty girls, unless their bankers, publishers, or heiress, what’s Pairs Hilton doing these days. Think WILL Take It; Tony Montana said money, power, the woman.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Episode 289 ~Think WILL Take It~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now; so I didn’t look in my wallet. There was no need to check my portfolio; I didn’t even look in the mirror. I’m lucky when it comes to that sort of thing I guess. So I went ahead, and I took that first step, another. Am I LL Cool J with a crush or maybe Positive K if you told me “I got a man.” The truth, though I’m more an Ellie Goulding fan, like Taylor Swift I thought, you belong with me. That was it.

Think we’ll take it. The way that didn’t send you running for the hills and trust me I can tell you some stories. Of course why we’re here now, a bestselling book, my other business ventures. So we can buy the place of our dreams. Even with all the money in the world, I’m still not much of a drinker. However, I can learn about wine; I also want to own a vineyard, both of us. Only despite my “other business” I do want to support let’s say Positive Ventures. I want to help animals. NaNoWriMo helped get me on track. There are amazing storytellers in the UNIVERSE. While I will never be a Christian man, and I want too much to become Buddhist. My goodness is adding beauty to the world in all its incredible forms. That’s my wish.

They’ll take it, or I should say him or her. The kids should fall in love with a furry sibling. Of course, B III will be the big brother they meet. Only I want others to feel that too, passion and money. I’m no Republican; I want all we have to overflow. I want my friend to run the restaurant. Another to have her farm, go to school, have an animal sanctuary. One more will have their full-fledged business and time for her kids. Indeed, another should feel as beautiful outside as she is within. Still not running huh, even when I repeat myself such as saying I don’t want to be the hero. I only want to be your man, a good father, and as the song goes, a simple kind of man. Now that’s worth millions I’d say.

So I’ll take the win. “The good, the bad… and the worst” because your love is worth more than money. Love, Think Will Take It.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 284 ~Six Degrees Of Will~

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I remember that game six degrees of separation, and I’m hoping I can find those types of connections, throughout the universe, in my head, and especially in my novel these days, because a change of work would be just “Great.” Six Degrees Of Will

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Episode 284 ~Six Degrees Of Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
How To Make One Million Dollars? Put one thing out there in the universe, and you can see though I should switch it up. From If I Had $1,000,000 to “Yes I Have A Million Dollars.” Only as the saying goes ahem Fuck Bitches, Get Money.

Ain’t that the dream Dirty Diana? See I’ve thought about something Chris Rock spoke of when he said the three things men want. “Food Sex, Silence,” and that gave me an idea about the next quarter of my novel. “Signs,” give me fifteen, opening, lunch break, closing, Inventory. Now I know you’re not Lady Sophia, but this next chapter will involve, breaking a woman. Lots of licking and dick sucking, and getting back to work. Now my day job is bleeding into my real work. The point is that everything has connections in some way shape or form. Retail, my love of books, the dinner I ate, the cosplayer’s mouth, the weather and finally writing.

Of course, that’s when I’m not fighting the urge to Fap. Just this morning right away the first girl on my mind was Court Carmody. Her cosplay led me to Mariah Mallard; her boobs made me think of the MILF. Age made me envision young Eileen Kelly. The website got me to Tiernan Hebron. Then her body type had me on Brandy Woods “Debbie” from “The Cheerleaders” (1973). I have spoken about my novel looking like a basic rundown of every sexual fantasy I’ve witnessed. Almost a crutch as it were. When I want to see Angie Griffin or Lucy Tyler and aren’t I dropping names today? Only women in the public eye. Isn’t that ironic, I sit here avoiding everybody but wanting someone who sees everyone. Gangbangs, tentacle porn, I wonder how far my novel will go. Right now it’s straightforward with some traditional, voyeuristic, exhibitionism, so why wait?

The sooner I write my novel (edit) get it published. The next step will be getting money and yes broken record here we go. Now you have to know my goals every day, and that’s only two. I still plan on going out to Nevada, making a bid on one of the ranches “cathouses.” I might start building from the ground up. My what a bordello. With more money a love hotel, restaurant, a strip club, a slice of sin city to make all mine. I am finally heading out to California. I have a movie studio and can write my stories, produce, and direct. Here’s something awesome, have a new cosplayer on my arm or a bunch all in succession. Have my fun, but always I want a family.

The Law of Attraction Dirty Diana. I’m envisioning my first million in the bank. Ask, believe, and receive but you have to work. As the song goes “I’ve got the brains, you’ve got the looks” you know what comes right after that. I’m still, looking to the future I suppose which makes plenty of sense right; Six Degrees Of Will.

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Episode 282 ~Willing To Be Heard~

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Hear Ye, Hear Ye, somebody loves me; positive vibes, for the future, “The Law of Attraction” and whatnot, tell the universe what you want, and I shall have it, even when we’re in the midnight hour. “Willing To Be Heard.”

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Episode 282 ~Willing To Be Heard~

Dear Future Wife,
How To Make One Million Dollars? We have noise-canceling headphones; our phones can translate. While meditating, I often listen to the sounds of the storm. The thing is with all the motivational coaching and affirmations, what I need if anything, is to hear I’m okay. See even now I want to say all sorts of things, and I can go on binging of positive vibes. Be careful what you put in the universe and what not. Only I would feel as though I was failing. Still, if I could tell you anything and you told me, Will it’s going to be okay.

Makes me sound like a hypocrite I know. I’ll also listen to just about anything, take music as long as it’s not anything gospel. I got you, and if anything, that’s the only real miracle I need. So I’ll Thank You for Loving Me. I’ve listened to half a dozen dogs that I love warn me of anything and everything. Though B III being my son, I have been thankful for every little noise that keeps him with me. Thank You (Falettinme Be Mice Elf Agin), I think that’s how I hear people most of the time. That’s how they might listen to me. And then they wonder why I no longer pay attention to them. It’s why they don’t understand me, now or ever.

It must make me sound mighty selfish that I give myself over to my work. How do people say, a penny for my thoughts and I rather keep that? I am telling them to keep their two cents in their pocket. Wait that’s charitable. I don’t need it, and math has never been my strong suit. I’ll have one ear of you my wife. I know Triple B, and the rest of the kids will have the other one. Only you, listening, hearing, and understanding me though is worth far more than the masses. No disrespect to my fans, but with you I’m unscripted, unrehearsed, unburdened. I’m starting to sound like someone out of 1984 an Unperson. I have to think that every day with you I wake up a new man, yes a better one, if only to speak.

I want to laugh freely and not worry about anything. I want to open myself up and not have a door slammed in my face. Those Saturday mornings and especially in silence My Love am “I” Willing To Be Heard.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 277 ~Green Around The Willie~

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Still all about these redheads today and more so my green, how did Lance say in GTA, “your green and my dead brother’s white lad.” and yes I know he was referring to drugs, but we all have our sickening vices. Green Around The Willie

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Episode 277 ~Green Around The Willie~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
How To Make One Million Dollars, I suppose being ALIVE was Adam’s paycheck. For naming all the animals in the Garden Of Eden. I should work on my names and titles; this one was gross. Only less than “Blue Waffle” and is Fleshlight’s “Classic Pink Lady” crude, sounds classy Dirty Diana.

So when I dream about green, besides shoving Ruby’s panties aside. It was more to the point of my fantasies being slightly “sick” by “usual” standards. You know I’m reading “The Secret,” and I’m still listening to all my other motivations. All suggest you act as though you have what you want. Okay, I AM a Millionaire, (aim for what you want, I promised a million by September). Anyway, I AM going to Carson City, Nevada, that’s where all the brothels are. Now there’s one, the Mustang Ranch and a particular suite The Princess Room. However, what sort of man would choose such a room? There are, of course, other bordellos. The Moonlite Bunny Ranch and what is it with redheads and me these days? Nevertheless possibly my “worst” fantasy is that of “Ravishment” shudders.

I should calm down but remember how I’m all about redheads, Alice Little, Ruby Rae. There’s Courtney Carmody who I’ve done more “business” with these days. I’m sticking with the positive vibes. Again I AM a Millionaire; I AM a Pimp, I AM Powerful. You know the type of power it would take to get some of the hottest cosplayers to work for me. How much green do you think that would require. There is always more from guys like me. Diana, that of course, is the dream. Still these days it’s sickening to look at a woman as; there are some choice words. Well hell in my case I’m pretty damn good Dirty Diana.

There was a time I was all into getting down and dirty outside. One of the very few reasons I’m into camping, fishing. Making love under the stars or fucking like beasts in the grass. What about my “bad” ideas of voyeurism? However, these days the only thing I’m lusting for is “Dolla Dolla bill y’all.” That’s all I was doing at work today. I have created a playlist about my abundance of money, affirmations of wealth. I felt no fear of spending it today on Court. I’ll get the MILF to talk to me again at some point. Pretty women Green Around The Willie.

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 275 ~But Will I Love~

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I hate my day job so I’m always ready to run out of there but I love my writing, and that’s why I’m sitting here at, what time is it; and of course I wouldn’t leave the right woman, won’t go getting tired of her. “But Will I Love”

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Episode 275 ~But Will I Love~

Dear Future Wife,
How To Make One Million Dollars, well movie seats are getting comfier. I can’t say that buying furniture is my forte. One day I should give it a chance. I’m always tired, and B III has a bunch of cozy spots. I’d make falling in love easier.

“THEY,” say it took everything for Malcolm X to kneel before Allah. My backside still hurts from being knocked to my knees before the altar. (Why I don’t believe in spanking children; another story). The fear though. I was scared I would hurt Triple B being on his level. I was terrified that I wasn’t enough when I got down on one knee for you. For now, with our other kids, I know I don’t have all the answers. Scraped knees, falling ice cream cones. You know how I am cleaning. Still, while I want to be the dad that reads to them every night, I again worry. You know maybe this is why Santa only does it once a year, getting the big plush chair. His suit made for more than warmth. You know I hope you’re sitting down for this one. The truth is simple and like most truths offensive. LOVE IS EXHAUSTING.

Is that a mean thing to say? I don’t love my Day Job that’s why it sucks having to take breaks. I was ready to yell at my boss, so I wasn’t “having a seat.” I hate that sound of my knees cracking as I’ve been there so long. Love is when I kneel to pet B III. When I hold him in bed as he cries because I don’t know what else to do. Every refilled dish, rubbing his belly, playing the monster when he wrestles with his toys. Again being the father who knows someday the kids won’t need me to read to them. How about being told to sit in waiting rooms for a variety of reasons. Don’t let the kids be like me. Trips to Disney and Universal, did I tell you I hate Space Mountain?

Standing beside you was simple. In comparison looking back how lazy was I when you brought our kids into the world. Such is the strength and courage it took to hold them. There are some jobs, privileges, and honors a person can’t fail. To be weak, to not be perfect. I hold no delusions about myself, but I still cleaned for hours. I don’t want to be sick. I have my real work, my reading, and writing. It’s incredible you read as much as me. Saturday’s we still lie here listening to “Nuclear Pop.” As if I’m living in those days of “The Cold War.” I have to shut myself away from you and the kids in my; not Man Cave. I will forever be a traditionalist, my Study. What did I say; furniture shopping?

What is it “THEY” say about good deeds? I Love You; kids can be a pain in the behind. One kid has fangs. You needn’t ask But Will I Love?

I Will Have No Fear

Episode 270 ~Will Read In Bed~

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Green, Yellow, Red, though I have always been one for brunettes myself, I can name quite a few redheads that aren’t pornstars; well until I head to “The Moonlite Bunny Ranch” someday, write my book, make a movie. Will Read In Bed.

Thursday, March 28, 2019

Episode 270 ~Will Read In Bed~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
How To Make One Million Dollars, opening a novelty store on top of all my business ventures. I can’t say it was on my to-do list. Plenty of girls are but anyway the Moonlite BunnyRanch has one. So “Second Circle Creations” needs its Merch as well.

Today, however (Tuesday 26th) “I’m just a little Unwell” as the song goes. I wish I could believe that this is all about women. I hate when pretty girls die, Enid, Tara, Addy. Relax, I’m talking about The Walking Dead and how old is Addy or Kelley Mack? I am not my father. Violence against women is a big HELL NO. Only I am a dominant, so in the spirit of SSC, I do enjoy some rough play. Still today the only red I see besides my eyes is my wrist, from popping myself. Okay, so I have looked up several “redheads” or the like today. I need anything just anything to take the edge of today’s ugly events. I’m so greedy Dirty Diana that goes without saying but here:

  1. Two Different “Addys” Z Nation, TWD
  2. Tessa Fowler
  3. Siri
  4. Court
  5. Ruby Rae
  6. Alice Little

Of course, that’s in no particular order. The red hair gets to me today. Yesterday it was blondes. Tomorrow probably goldilocks but it’s something about seeing dark haired girls. Decapitated, heads on pikes, reanimated that turns me off. Call me crazy but Frankie? You know that’s it. Enid, Tara, and Addy, I felt such attraction to but Frankie, I guess I didn’t feel the same. Not that she’s unattractive, but I think I didn’t see enough of her. Like my writing, I always need a muse in reality. Which also explains why I suck at it. Me being a louse, and how dare I make lists, that’s trouble. For now, my problems are named STRESS, HUMILIATION, and RAGE. I swear, my blood was boiling. I could stomp my way to Hell itself. Damn my wrist is ready to fall off with my punishments, you know.

Get your mind out of the gutter Dirty Diana; you remain innocent. I’m the guilty one and let’s not go into politics. I’m talking about my fantasies. You know I told you about my Purge TV story? Two runaway cultists want to hide with me. They are willing to do anything to stay the night. After The Walking Dead episode “The Calm Before” I’d like to be Prince Henry. I have to choose between Lydia and Addy (age appropriate). Could be a voyeur/participant. As Enid, Tara, perhaps Addy try to “convince” The Whisperers not to kill them by any means necessary. Cruel fantasies you think and haven’t I talked about escape. Should I instead be kept to the red of my anger? Some woman, book, or sweet dream. My Dirty Diana, Will Read In Bed.

I Will Have No Fear