Lesson 108 ~And Maybe I Snore~

To someone so I won’t have to dream alone someday, that is when I do dream; sleep, more like the walking dead these days and I’m looking for that perfect zombie apocalypse partner. And Maybe I Snore but I haven’t had anyone to tell me.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Lesson 108 ~And Maybe I Snore~

Dear Future Wife,
It’s a valid question if I snore or not, I’m sure before we take such a step you’ll have plenty of chances to learn the truth of this. I can tell you with utmost certainty that I sleep like a log, I get up for two things in no particular order, work, the dog, and you, any other time I’ll probably be dead to the whole world.

People can be exhausting but with you, as corny as this might sound, you have to be the dream, honestly, as much as I sleep I don’t find many opportunities to dream because I’m searching for you and when we’re together… I don’t want to miss a thing and no I don’t sing in my sleep and I’m pretty sure I don’t talk, at least the last time I recall I woke up rattling off cheat codes to Star Wars: Rogue Squadron. I think you’re pretty used to the quiet when it comes to me, more than a quirk, or a habit, a necessity because yes, people take a lot out of me but you…

On one hand, I would say you wake me up to everything in this world and I’ll never get bored and on the other, you can find both my love and my trust in you as I lie here. There is only one other who has ever known this and you’ll find him at the foot of the bed curled up, standing guard, or simply watching TV when I’m out like a light or trying to read. Sharing my bed, I swear that dog must trust you, he’ll get used to you, and he sleeps as much as I do, I can’t help but wonder what he’ll do with you around and me lying here.

I have always imagined that we’ll have lots more to do but nothing makes me happier than to lie here next to you, reading until we can’t hold up a book, watching a movie and knowing we’ll have to watch the whole thing tomorrow, or listening to our playlist on a Saturday morning for a few hours. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy being in bed for other things and you won’t ever have to worry about a cup of coffee, though I’ll buy you a machine if you like, I’ve never been one to indulge myself.

And maybe I snore, I’m still waiting to confirm that but I look forward to the day we find out, someday, how long until then?

Lesson 101 ~Sometimes I Love You~

Sometimes it’s smart to keep my mouth shut when it comes to women, especially a woman I haven’t even found yet, maybe she would think I’m insane. “Sometimes I Love You”, and better she never knows but then again as the song goes more than words.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Lesson 101 ~Sometimes I Love You~

Dear Future Wife,
Sometimes I love you for not making me say it; it’s not that I don’t, it’s not that I don’t want to, need to, if anything I want to believe that those three words matter but they’ll be lost. How can they be lost, I love your inquisitive mind but again it might be too much, just too damn much somedays and I want to say I’m sorry right off the bat.

“Love means never having to say you’re sorry.” Love Story

You leave me breathless, that much is true, but sometimes it’s going to be them and no I don’t mean other women… I mean people in general. There will be days when I love you is just me finding my way to the bed we share rather than wanting to be alone. It might be when my voice gives out from singing so loud that my voice gives out, drowning in so many cruel words.

“But everyone knows that a man ain’t suppose to cry, listen.
I gotta cry ’cause cryin’ eases the pain, oh yeah.
People this hurt I feel inside, words can never explain.”
I Wish It Would Rain, by The Temptations (1967)

If I allow you to ever see me like that then is that love or what and it’s okay you don’t have to say anything either because sometimes I don’t have faith in words, yes this coming from a writer you made your husband. You might not hear me, as much as I mutter, and with that inquisitive mind you might want to ask questions, I might even be afraid to answer; the truth will set you free… of the mortal coil. I’m not a drinker, of course, you know that but if I ever pull out a glass or decide to fire up the PS3 or PS4, god knows what number we’re on now, I will return to you a better man and you’re more than welcome to wait.

I’ve left you waiting for a while I think because I’m still looking for the words and “I Love You” let’s just say those words came to soon, too late or were simply wasted and I never would with you, with us, I think the dog will attest to that. They will even be a day I’ll love you for bringing those words out of me as only you can, for being “the air that I breathe” as the song goes from The Hollies, remember.

How I love how you sing to me and you love when I talk to you and believe me when I say, that it is never a sometimes I love you between us, it’s an always unless the following girls walk by just kidding unless… okay, for letting me be me, sometimes I love you because you make me better.

Placating My Sugar

Rage, rage, against the dying of the light they say and I snuff it out willing, well not really haven’t had such an occasion in years, in probably a decade even but the wishes keep coming. “Placating My Sugar”, I try, another day would be easier

They tell me to hurry up
from since I was tied
to a grasshopper, but they insist.

Only I have been hushed
for so long, I don’t know if inside
it’s impossible, immoral, illegal, insane, a wish

As my poor heart was crushed,
But nowhere to run to baby, nowhere to hide
and I’m stuck with this

Just a word too much;
suicide it’s a suicide
waiting to blow, waiting for Miss?

What’s her name, what’s mine, in the mush
being melted damn near fried
by how many candles, day one ish

A touch of love, of death, or a girl at the sagebrush
Yet I am preoccupied
blowing out this yearly dish
One more sugar rush

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How to Open Unwritten Love Letters

I was thinking about “Lessons in Falling” and I said I never talked to a girl’s father before but I haven’t talked to a lot of girls either so… Anyway she might have to talk me up to him and hell to myself How to Open Unwritten Love Letters

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_3…

“Are you sure he even remembers”

“Because I tell him all about you”
So why am I whispering
I love you or whatever

If you could only see the way she loves me
“Should you really be writing an apology?”
Sometimes I think I should forget her
“Don’t you ever say that again”
But is beautiful the way to begin
Maybe I should let her

Only your love remains unwritten
Just by no means hidden
A few loss feathers, face riving in pleasure
Fallen angel, ravishment, I’d take you to Hell
As you tell me the things I don’t tell myself
When we’re together

“Love me like you do”
God, Cupid, pretty girl listening
Alone forever

Waiting on unwritten love letters

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Elly Tran Ha… Elly Kim Hong, Tonic “If You Could Only See”, Lenny Kravitz “Again”, Mariah Carey ft. Miguel “Beautiful”, and Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack

A Couple of Feet to Bed

How far is she, a few feet, a few yards, couple of miles, some days, and in the end she’s still headed to one place right? “A Couple of Feet to Bed”, but even more so into my heart… anyway to make her come faster ha hah…

You’d think she never walked before

Her dress a mess on the floor

Does she even want me anymore?

Yes she’s a pretty dream

Only I’m not tired

A scream queen

Can you take me higher?

 

Just whoever leaves paradise?

Or rolls the dice with vice

Thought having wings was nice

Yet she falls down

A little more, a little further

The way I feel about you now

What if you were her?

 

Like Ariel with new legs

No angels don’t beg

Why they’re left to men instead

And a man is told to stand

Only I want to fall

I’m not sure than you can

is all

 

From her head down to her toes

she cried “more, more, more

There you go

Now would you take a step or two?

Would you lie with me?

Won’t you love me like you do?

Don’t you see?

 

She has never come for me

But will you?

 

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

 

Inspired by: Brittany Anne Pirtle – Emily… Power Rangers Samurai, Selena Gomez Ft. A$AP Rocky “Good For You”, Creed “Higher”, Finely Quaye “Dice”, Ryan Adams “Wonderwall”, “The Little Mermaid” (1989), Billy Idol “Rebel Yell”, Billy Idol “Rebel Yell”, Snow Patrol “Chasing Cars”, and Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack

 

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1NsEIm_7VM

Brittany Anne Pirtle - Emily… Power Rangers Samurai (A Couple of Feet to Bed)

Clearing My Heart

It’s not like I’m going to actually talk… I clear my throat to say nothing at all so indeed what is the point. Clearing My Heart… why not just break it again and it will be empty soon enough right? The words never come from my mouth anyway.

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9JvzxwmTs18

 

Em, ahem,

Let me try this again

But of course I never say

I dream of three little words

If only I could say one to you girl

And it wouldn’t be about me

Because there is nothing I

want more than to say hi

 

Only how, I wish em, ahem

Just I don’t want to be him

Flunking recess because I don’t play

Just you stand there waiting

Do you need help translating?

How I wish that you could see

that I am barely breathing

Isn’t that the best kind of dreaming?

 

Exhausted from, em, ahem, when…

Well isn’t love a sin;

yesterday, last night, today,

when not in word form?

Still I have yet to perform

Maybe

you’ll love me like you do?

If it’s ever right, can I say something to you?

 

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

 

Inspired by: Brittany Anne Pirtle – Emily… Power Rangers Samurai, ItsReal85 on WorldStarHipHop “Turtles Episode 10”, “Fifty Shades of Grey” by E. L. James, Duncan Sheik “Barely Breathing”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, and A Great Big World Ft. Christina Aguilera “Say Something”

Brittany Anne Pirtle - Emily… Power Rangers Samurai (Clearing My Heart)