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Episode 354 ~Worse Names Than Will~

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I learned from a very young age that I was better seen and not heard. I would do my Olds one better, I keep quiet, and I never go out. Not that the cops won’t show up whether I was suicidal or alternative schooling. “Worse Names Than Will.”

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Episode 354 ~Worse Names Than Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Should I say that it’s Willie who has all the money? My debit card says, Willie. My paycheck is much the same. Hell, even my “passive” or “parental” income is, Willie. I’m Jr, and he’s Sr, and should I be embarrassed? Dirty Diana, I am worse things than a freeloader on my best day. I’ve said it time after time the worst things you can call me are STUPID or RETARDED. It’s one of the reasons I hate the people at my Day Job so much. So here I am an aspiring brothel owner, pimping.

You should know I respect Sex Workers, Pornstars, Models both Erotic and otherwise. With that, I’ve never stepped foot in a brothel, not yet. I couldn’t tell you the plot of any, let’s say “Full Length” porno to save my life. Hentai maybe and a scene here or there of real sex. The thing is Dirty Diana, as a dominant, I perform scenes, I have themes, I’m an artist. Most adult entertainment doesn’t involve all that but the language? I know I try to play Captain America most days because I find swearing tawdry and crass. There is a time for it Dirty Diana. In the bedroom or performing any scene, communication and colorful language are paramount. I was never one to hurt feelings or tell lies. How I hate those people, who say hurtful things and then “Just Kidding.”

That’s the reason trust and understanding are essential. There’s this porn collection called “Exploited College Girls.” The girls are beautiful, the concept sound, but you know what gets me? “You’re My Little Whore, Say It.” “I’m Your Little Whore.” I respect those girls and their work; they are amazing. The thing is I can separate the actress from the person. Take Sabrina Nichole; if there is a God, he might have started with her beauty. Anyway wanting to see her coming doesn’t mean I think she’s only some slut. How about TTB, everyone hated the owner. Make no mistake guys got off to those girls; some moved to real porn. The thing is they got paid, and nobody hurt them. I know some girls that wear words like “slut,” “whore,” or “cunt” as a badge of honor or a word.

Only words get me into trouble, but I understand there are Worse Names Than Will.

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Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

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How many days has it been that I have chosen to drown myself in sheets and not water? Well, would that be a bad thing; Thursday’s usually are, but all my dirt has gone elsewhere, but I do clean up nice sometimes. “Will Is Hanging Out.”

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Episode 347 ~Will Is Hanging Out~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. With this kind of money, I would be eccentric. I would also need an NDA, and I’m looking forward to those. Another way of saying that would be I’m an old PERV in dirty clothes, reading erotic books. Also, I don’t tend to keep my naughty thoughts to myself. There is plenty more I should be cleaning up other than my head. B III, my laundry, my fridge, the house.

It’s one of the reasons I like layers and wrapping up beautiful things. For somebody who’s addicted to control a GOOD surprise isn’t a bad thing. I adore perfection, and I’m not perfect but seeing a person’s flaws? I don’t know; it shouldn’t make me feel better. I mean the more she seems too good to be true, the purer, the more innocent, the dirtier I want to take her. MILF Dos might be mad, but I was never a fan of tattoos on women. I’m not trying to sound like someone out of The Handmaid’s Tale. I will stand behind the fact that the uniforms are sort of sexy. Now if I could only get hold of that Halloween version. Sometimes I can be worse than a girl when it comes to clothes. I’ve said before that I spend more on clothes than time talking girls out of them.

Worse talking to myself, I’m still with Brainbuddy. My Life Tree’s growing, I haven’t looked up any porn, though this morning I came close. Twitter is not doing me any favors, and I’m still not counting Beauty In The Broken. If I told you what I was into recently, now that would be all kinds of dirty. The last time I lasted this long with NO FAP? Let’s say I finally saw those “Dirty Mom Tits” I was panting about in the shower once. Speaking of which back to cleaning, again my head’s a mess but who knows what’s going on in there. The only thing I have cleaned somewhat is what of my Pinterest boards. Sex symbols could have some organization, and I wrote out all my goals two days ago. I was lucky to stop when I did, and it’s not like I’m missing the Day Job. What about Outskirts Press, that’s one more thing that might do me dirty. So as of now, Will Is Hanging Out.

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Episode 342 ~Will Is Turning Japanese~

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You want to put a price on human life, for a night over a thousand dollars, for a piece of my soul $22.00 and change and I would only get $3.00 back, but math has never been my strong suit and no offense to Asian culture but; Will Is Turning Japanese

Saturday, June 8, 2019

Episode 342 ~Will Is Turning Japanese~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Millionaire right now and not a racist Republican. My apologies I didn’t mean to turn political so soon. Now I’m not blaming The Handmaid’s Tale, the news, or the publisher. Writing is supposed to be hard, and I mean getting published, ask me why?

Forrest Gump was not a smart man, and neither am I, but I know what love is My Lady. More so I know what lust is and I’ll be damned (Language) I was willing to pay more for that. I offered a woman once such and such amount to be with her for one night. She said no, of course, that didn’t shake my faith that every woman does have a price. To publish my book, paperback and a Kindle edition will be $1,212 for the record. I was ready to pay more for breasts than the potential of owning my “Love Hotel” someday. What a fool believes, thank you Tony Baker for that earworm. Speaking of worms, tentacles; hell, I want so many women, but my book took form for one. I can’t say her name, legally speaking, she’ll feel I was stalking her.

Now that’s hard to take that a woman, some women would make me a monster. Not that I want to be a knight, maybe a samurai. No, without a doubt I want to be Grey Worm add having a penis. One more reason to wear armor, but how would I afford it? The pen is “stronger” than the sword, or so THEY say. I was telling “Indiana Gone” yesterday my metal is untested; I’m as unknown as Arthur once was. One of the reasons “Cherry” isn’t a friend on Facebook, trusting a Dominant is sacred.

I believe that as hard as it is to trust anybody these days. It’s harder still to have faith in myself as a part of me is always hard. I’m more willing to put my coin on a woman than myself. Even now it’s easier to buy into the works of Little Lupe, Jimmy Stephens, make a deal with MILF Dos. Should I mention my crimes like last night on Pinterest again? I made a board; it’s legit. I have so many, but I got scared and deleted it. The thought of how people see me, I’m an African American Male. No offense but with writing Will Is Turning Japanese.

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Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

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Well back to women’s rights or a lack thereof, how I can read “Beauty in the Broken” and then watch “The Handmaid’s Tale” and with all the ideas I have I either neither tentacles or a train, thank you, “Rainey Summer Day.” Will Takes A Turn

Thursday, June 6, 2019

Episode 340 ~Will Takes A Turn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Now if you want to know what turns me on, a billion. Hell trillion, how about some number so high I’ll break the internet trying to find it. There is one mere word though; Everything. You know the expression I’ll try anything once.” Not when it comes to food and several other things, but let’s talk about sex. Though at this stage in the game I would prefer money.

It’s like something out of The Screwfly Solution. The process of turning sexual instincts to those of violence. I want to convert money into women and vice versa. Rumplestiltskin mastered spinning straw into gold. Only like my motivations say I’m not looking for a magic wand, I’m hustling. Speaking of a horror film and a fairytale. For now, my newest craze is “The Handmaid’s Tale.” I’m thinking about that episode Jezebels. First off you know whores have never been my thing. I always look for the most innocent. Now I do enjoy dirty names, MILF Dos could tell you that much. I also realize I still have a thing for Kristen Gutoskie. I fell for her in “Containment,” but she plays the Martha “Beth” now. The thought of her as a Handmaid? So that brings me to the point today. Things that turn me on but shouldn’t. They could be evil.

There was the Yandy “Brave Red Maiden Costume” fuck I wanted one to go in my Submissive’s Closet. Didn’t I mention that “The Handmaid’s Tale is sexy? Only Gilead must fall. A quick turn I know and almost as fast as my writing, from sweet and gushy to Erotica. How fast the porn can get to you, I’m still constantly on guard. I haven’t seen any tits besides the cosplayer’s (Patreon). On Twitter, I know too many people. There’s “Beauty in the Broken” my latest erotic read. Should I report myself to Brainbuddy since that “technically” is porn? If I were to say something, I refer back to Jezebels and that idea they had with all the drugs. For all those in the back, illegal and wrong, as much as The Corpse Of Anna Fritz.

Reminds me of creeping out Ruby Rae. I should make a list of what not to say to women, but I need only one, ANYTHING. Everything and Anything with my tastes, Will Takes A Turn.

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Episode 335 ~Will’s The Magic Word~

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Morpheus said something to the tune of, “don’t think you are, know you are,” so I am rich, but I am also upset, and let’s said nine other things, but the only Treachery I find is with myself. “Will’s The Magic Word”

Saturday, June 1, 2019

Episode 335 ~Will’s The Magic Word~

Hey Lady Lu,

I AM a Millionaire right now. Praise be, excuse me I’ve gotten into watching The Handmaid’s Tale. Isn’t it funny the moment I give up 90% of PORN I get into the rights of women? I’ve always been Pro-Choice; women kick men’s ass in the adult entertainment industry. Also, I ain’t even mad at the cosplayer today

Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom, in these three words, would encompass all my sins. Now if I’m going to get all preachy today (a minister said I would). Let’s start with the LIMBO, that is my blog and other writing. Of course, when I’m not doing that again, we get into why I started writing. Okay so if I give Think and Grow Rich, a voice, it would be Chapter 11 Transmutation which is all about LUST. In that, I couldn’t agree more on the author’s views of sex. As for the last sin at this level and it was a toughie, I would go with dear HERSEY. Haven’t I told the story of when I was a child the first word I remember writing was my name? In Jesus name, in God’s and how many women. Still, in the end, it’s my word, and no one else’s, that’s a fact.

Now, this leads me to GREED. I never started writing on the grounds of getting rich. My purpose was to be Cyrano de Bergerac, minus the death. I am also getting the girl but the going rate for women? Didn’t I say I’m not angry, but indeed I feed off punishment? Such is my GLUTTONY and even more so I want to dish it out. Such is my sadistic dominance. Now Christian wasn’t right in Fifty Shades. Hell, I avoid women that remind me of my mother, but I do understand his reasoning. Okay so I do have ANGER, let me explain. I’m on Patreon for $10. The cosplayer says she’s giving up modeling and having a final blowout 700 pictures this month. So you move to the $50 tier.

So I wait all month and you know I haven’t been doing “VIOLENCE” to myself and not writing about it in another novel. FRAUD, if anything, I don’t pretend what I am anymore (okay Day Job). Only she didn’t keep her word. TREACHERY is too big a word for this but for $100, STUPID, I thought WILL’s The Magic Word.

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Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

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Sharia Law, The Handmaid’s Tale, or all the stupid laws on the books these days, I swear, I’ve started blocking Twitter with my hand because I know too many people and tomorrow, well there goes my streak. Porn To Be Will

Thursday, May 30, 2019

Episode 333 ~Porn To Be Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, also a porn junkie. Am I growing something besides my collection, clothes, or creepy captions? According to Brainbuddy, yes. The question remains, and my new favorite game show. Now Ladies and gentlemen “IS THIS PORN?”

Let’s start with Episode 333, I noticed yesterday but more so today. Of course, this all started when I compared shudders and friend to porn stars. Brazzers and Reality Kings, nice? So yes, my former adult viewing has advanced in nearly two years. To this day, the word “skeevy” still gives me a chill. Now it goes right under “Stupid” and above “Stalker.” One I was that’s fair enough, the second I despise feeling, the last being an outright lie. Was it skeevy, yes, was it stupid? You know how I feel about wasting time, but here we are. Was it stalker-like, other than wanting to buy company stocks for the first time? Making her a villainess in a novel Hell since that night of reading I’ve never looked her up. Again Is This Porn?

I keep asking myself. Every day my Life Tree grows more. It’s less about avoiding NO FAP and more about leaving porn altogether. Instagram, Pinterest, Twitter, on the last two, I haven’t avoided seeing a naked female. Dirty Diana, it’s not like I’m sticking around. Okay, five seconds for Sabrina Nichole who did Playboy and is now a cosplayer. I swear porn is one of those words like love but long story short. It’s meant to produce sexual arousal, and I didn’t look that long. No wood honest. Now, what about a book review and this blog. I finished a critique of an erotica novel. I looked up Jenna Rickert for one of my writing reasons too. So have I broken My Word to Brainbuddy?

Tomorrow another cosplayer is giving her farewell. I’ll be receiving an uncensored view drools. So yeah that is going to count as porn. I know another failure, and you know I’m not a competitive person. I do like winning. Lust, of course, is less of a sin than greed. Only besides breasts, I’ve thought about books and bucks, how I HATE MATH. If I could get 200,000 people to believe in me at five dollars in profit? I ask the lesser question about the little head but the big head too, Porn To Be Will.

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Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

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If I told you what my business was; well, it beats the alternative, and what word could I use, better to focus on being the husband I want to be, the lover, father, the man, who looked up long enough not to put her in my DVD. When Will Looked Up

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Episode 331 ~When Will Looked Up~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I became so by looking down. Sometimes I think I’ve run through everything Spotify has to offer. I have found my purpose in the greatest of sins. So when I did look up, it was with fire in my eyes. According to my motivations. Albert Einstein talked about living in a friendly or hostile Universe. Only I became indifferent. People look down on me and now? Hell if I’m going to be this low, I might as well run it.

So when I looked up and saw you, well I’m not the singer I used to be. Anyone at my old Day Job can tell you that. In my current work, despite what people think of it, I honor women, I respect them. Still, you are so much more than my latest; you’re my greatest inspiration. I could sound like some macho chauvinist and treat you one way. And yes feminism confuses me, us being equal. So maybe it’s the primal instinct that says I should chase you. I know I call you a princess, an angel, my queen, a goddess. You should never elevate a woman so that you’re beneath her I read somewhere. Only if I did not, how would I run my business? If I didn’t, I would be the common man or worse, a Republican. I was following your lead, and quoting Madmartigan from Willow here:

I looked up, and that’s when I realized that I had something real to do. Love isn’t work, or a chore, if anything it should be like breathing. While I want the world, baby girl, you are my sky. Sigh that’s too much for anyone.

Now I didn’t have to put you on a pedestal, a throne. I didn’t have to knock on Heaven’s door. As the song goes, without you they’re never gonna let me in. One more reason I have never looked to any God. Because to me, Heaven is looking up when the kids say “look what mommy did.” It’s watching B III leave me and climb to your lap smirking. “If you want her, come claim her.” Paradise is lying in bed and seeing you right above me; I love you.

I don’t look up because everyone looks down one way or another. It wasn’t red, gold, and green it was you When Will Looked Up.

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Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

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Would you lie with me and just forget the world as the song goes, but the Earth is quite a large place and to own it would mean getting up off my behind and taking it, but I’m too busy on my back, sleeping. Late, Great, Lazy Will.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and my first purchase should be a new bed. Noted I’m doing better than yesterday when I could barely get up. Still, this morning, it felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. Plus I didn’t get “dressed up” for Whataburger.

The free Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit wasn’t worth it. Speaking of my mouth, when is this deeper voice going to kick in as Brainbuddy says. I’m so tired of being referred to as Ma’am. How about being afraid, and the bullies don’t have to sock me to take my air. I’m still on my Game Of Thrones kick Dirty Diana. I could never reach Daenerys Targaryen or Cersei Lannister. I’m not on Sansa Stark’s level or brave enough for Arya Stark. Do you think I could speak any of Missandei’s languages? Is that why I like the fairytale princess. Guarded by the dragon, trapped by her parents, kept asleep by some magic spell. You know how I like my peace, quiet, etc. At the same time, I want a loud woman. Isn’t communication the key?

Only I look back at Sick Fux by Tillie Cole. The way Rabbit and Dolly lost themselves together in bed without ever having touched. Illicitness, intimacy, insanity, how often I talk about hiding this madness. The white rooms of my skull, screen, and finally shelf. I’m not a writer to be lazy. I write because I’m dead or I fear it, sort of like Clear Rivers in Final Destination 2. Only my freedom lies in the green of the almighty dollar. People with money fear nothing but losing it all or gain an obsession for much more. Now I know that doesn’t sound so sexy, but that’s the thing. I want a place where I won’t have to hide what I want and hell I’m not disguising it here. The things I want bedroom wise.

So I lie in bed most off days imagining there is a girl as sick as me. The UNIVERSE answers these things in ways. Yes, I found this Hentai, Bible Black New Testament: vol.4, the two patients. Again, I don’t want to leave my bed. I still have my The Purge/Red Dawn Fantasy waiting. Say it with me, “Three Months.” I could do worse right, Inner Demons, Lara In Trouble. The Corpse of Anna Fritz WHAT Late, Great, Lazy, Will.

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Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

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Don’t try to wrap your head around this one, lips, hands, whatever you would so choose because could it be possible I’m not in the mood after today started with quite the awesome dream. “Will Hates Head Games.”

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Still, if I ever start talking about caviar and the French Riviera, feel free to shoot me. You’ll know I’m not in my right mind. While I’d bang pretty Cherry from across the pond, I heard somewhere that a dog in a palace is still a dog. That’s the truth.

The truth, though is making my head hurt, the both of them. You remember, I talked about being Prometheus. The bird that skipped my liver to feast upon my heart or my dick. Now it looks like my brain is catching up. I’ve also spoken about how when “I Have A Dream,” it will reveal itself in some way. Only I never know exactly how at the time. However, this meaning came faster than most or didn’t. Geez, Dirty Diana, I was on the brink. So the dream, all I can remember was being back at my parents’ house, in my old room. There I had this blonde sucking my cock; took me all day to find out her name. Madison Foxx, you’ll remember her from such films as “Dong Diner” Money Talks. Also “First Marriage Proposal” Bangbus Homer Drool.

So before I could make my “deposit” in her pretty mouth, I woke up. So how does this equate with my life? Well, I’ve been talking to Alice Little of course at the Moonlite Bunny Ranch and let’s say I was premature. I’m not giving up Dirty Diana. I believe and all that but three months. Which leads me to how long it takes to publish a book. At worse, I’ll never make it. At best eight weeks and then one month to make that money. How about the fact that in Dong Diner, Madison walked out. Jessi Stone was the star “dream” girl, but everything it took to get to her. Still, Madison was the truth I didn’t see.

I panicked, I lost my mind and nearly got hacked today. There I was, tagging shoes this morning and I get an alert that my account was compromised right? Relax as I said a scam, but I almost blew everything because I was afraid. Now I stopped before I did anything stupid, so no hacker got a payload. I didn’t blow mine, and the hot redhead won’t see it sigh.

Am I coming or going, how Will Hates Heads Games.

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Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

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So I did pick one fantasy, and it breaks my heart and how can I expect to stay awake all night for this, what will the bunnies/lovers say, that I’m crazy and trust my novels are something else. Willing The Red Dawn.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, so I’ll relish this fantasy:

Dear Alice and Ruby,
More on my “Red Dawn” Fantasy which I have filled you both in on. Still, I wish to go further in the details. Again you both know you will play cult followers of “Good Leader Tavis” from @ThePurgeTV. Only you will be looking to escape her. Moments before The Purge warning, which we will watch together you beg me to let you in. You’ll either be wearing blue robes like the show. Underneath, red thigh netted thigh highs, fluffy orange skirt, black bustier with orange strings. Pink and black striped thigh highs, hot pink fluffy skirt, black bustier with pink ties holding. Alice and Ruby respectively.

If not that blue virgin killer sweaters with the stockings. Alice’s hair will be in curly pigtails. Ruby’s hair will be in waves flowing down her shoulders and back. Shoes will be sneakers but switched to black ankle strap high heels. Now I was planning a Purge party, but the “victim” never got delivered. So you two are talking me into keeping you safe for the duration. There is a lot you may have a problem with such as my video camera. Being tied up, an assortment of sex toys, the blinding hoods. Most of all indeed my grand finale.

Lucky2Buy Women’s Sexy Backless Hollow Out Anime Cosplay Virgin Killer Sweater One-Piece Bikini Knit Tank Top Vest
Premier Standard – Women’s Platform Ankle Strap High Heel – Open Toe Sandal Pump – Formal Party Chunky Dress Heel

For example, sex toys are throughout the room. So when I don’t have you both in bed, you can get off to a toy on the wall, dresser, glory hole style. When you have the hoods on they will serve as other “party goers.” Near the end, you two will have a small, playing wrestling match. The winner will be of my choosing, and the loser will have a hood placed over there head to signify defeat. Afterward, the winner will help me play with the loser who will not be allowed to talk or react until I say so. Think “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” to a certain extent.

Also while I’m looking at the Peppermill Resort? I wish there were a room like the Princess Suite at the Mustang Ranch. Could find a way to set up a suite as such but this won’t be happening until September, if ever. Anyway, that’s my fantasy. There is more to come if I can find a way and you both agree, Willing The Red Dawn.

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