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Log 195 ~Willie Gamble Once Again~

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Well, it’s not Horse Racing, and it’s not “Far Cry 5” either, but it’s a risk, staying alive one more day which explains being in bed recovering all-day and as the saying goes, go big or go home, why not both. Willie Gamble Once Again.

Sunday, January 12, 2020

Log 195 ~Willie Gamble Once Again~

To Will:
I AM a Billionaire right now, but you’re not sleeping, so you should be working. You have all day tomorrow to turn this around, or should I say I do. It’s Friday at 3:30 PM; time-travel can be plenty confusing. What about money, which is today’s lesson? Once upon a time, I would bet on Horse Racing. If I had a “SPARE” $20.00, I would go to the track. When it was gone, it’s gone, can’t say I won much of anything; again, only a fact. Now I’m in the Stock Market, holding something in India and wanting to invest in Sin Stocks.

I know all about playing with my life, which is about to become your life. It’s a gamble walking with my Dæmon outside without a weapon. There’s a risk whenever I’m in the shower. I should stop right there, can’t put out negative vibes into the Universe. It’s like I have been telling Cherry, and still, things happen. I’m catching up, but now the homeowner’s association, my Dæmon, has a vet visit and playing the markets. So let’s reverse my first few lines, nothing will happen to my Dæmon. I could use a shower to get clean and nothing else. Isn’t the whole point of this year, to treat success as a sure thing, and it is without a doubt. Okay so that brings us to the basics and who knows what will happen with these our Six Impossible Things:

  1. I AM Keeping It In My Pants (Day 008 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 015 No Fap)
  2. I AM Always The “Father” My Dæmon Deserves
    Failed
  3. I AM Publishing My Poetry “GULP”
    Failed
  4. I AM Reviewing Raphael By Tillie Cole
    Failed
  5. I AM Getting My Second Car Fixed
    Failed
  6. I AM Finishing A Naughty Little Christmas by Lili Valente
    Failed

17.5, if anything that shows consistency as all the motivations speak on. Still you, well I, okay, both of us have to start taking big chances. What about the list of New Year’s Resolutions? Right now Four out of Thirteen without question. Of course, one ends this month, and I won’t say which because you’ll have to stay on top of it, my friend. Yes, I won’t get dirty right now, save that for M Anime and Cherry. It’s funny the things a million dollars would cure, and here I go again at $20.00. Well, I’m still putting the rest into savings, which reminds me, shouldn’t $15.00 go to the big bank. $10.00 to the smaller banks and five each to Amazon and elsewhere. All this talk about money, how about time, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I AM Keeping It In My Pants (Day 015 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I AM Always The “Father” My Dæmon Deserves
  3. I AM Publishing My Poetry “GULP”
  4. I AM Reviewing Raphael By Tillie Cole
  5. I AM Getting My Second Car Fixed
  6. I AM Finishing A Naughty Little Christmas by Lili Valente

I’m not suicidal, and neither are you, but as the song goes, “nuts on the table” Willie Gamble Once Again.

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Log 194 ~Does Will Like Company~

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For the first time in life, I might care if the stock market is doing well when it comes to “Bollywood” but anything to move on from some people and forward in my life. “Does Will Like Company?”

Saturday, January 11, 2020

Log 194 ~Does Will Like Company~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Billionaire right now, so that would make me part of the 1%. One more thing that separates me from the common man and yet I want the company. Well, not Eros International, but it’s a start. I finally have stock in a company, and again, it’s like two sides of the same coin. Now I want money because I can’t stand those people at the Day Job. Only I like being with M Anime; as I said the things, I’ll do if a woman is involved. Better still the things I haven’t done lately.

Is it me, or have I not mentioned Far Cry 5 for a couple of days somehow? Yes, I’m still the avid player with being captured by Jacob, freeing Jess Black. What about working for the Whitetails. Must everything sound dirty to a certain degree? On top of talking to the girls, I’ve been texting to the girls. Indiana Gone, Cherry, M Anime, I’m a regular chatterbox these days. Anything to not enjoy my company as it were. I could be worrying about the impending storm as the Day Job reached out only last night. Now Eros International doesn’t look so bad by comparison. What about my organization, you know, Second Circle Creations? At the moment, I’m the CEO, and how much is my company worth, I ask? I should add up what’s in my savings that right now is sitting on the nightstand this moment.

Again, how will I know until I get my other car fixed? Not looking forward to getting to know whoever they send to jump it, talking to my Olds, or talking to a mechanic. At least it’s not the Day Job. Don’t “THEY,” say it’s all about the company that you keep? If that’s the case, my priority is My Dæmon. My son, my companion, my prince, and if I’m not following some swaying hips, it’s his wagging tail. Now speaking of a tale, what about my story, well my poetry. Isn’t that how I intend to make my fortune? God was lonely, and he made himself a world. I’m not making such a grandiose statement, like Dante from The Walking Dead. Only Lady Luna, I made myself a universe, and I put more than money into it. Well, tell that to Outskirt Press ha.

Not their fault, but with everyone, Does Will Like Company?

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Log 193 ~The Best Will Ever~

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I’m still looking towards an incredible future, like that old diddy Thirteen Women (And Only One Man In Town) yeah, and one’s the subject of every novel I write, and my first poem. The Best Will Ever, yeah

Friday, January 10, 2020

Log 193 ~The Best Will Ever~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Billionaire right now, with no one to leave my money to at this point. No, I’m not suicidal, and focusing on the positive, I’m avoiding one bad habit. Of course, you know what habit that is; I’m going on Day 13. Is that also the reason that I’m sitting at the dining room table today? When I become that NYT Bestselling Brothel Owner, I’m sure this table will be worth a fortune. I’ll also have a family besides my little dæmon, but time travel is a tricky thing, Sophia.

Talking to you is today or rather “Wednesday” I’m still two days ahead. I’m not cynical, but today is about pain Lady Sophia. You’re the one woman in my life this second that isn’t the cause. Well, I could always give you form, or did I do so, once before. I tell myself I’m a writer, so I don’t forget myself. At this rate, I could use CliffsNotes when it comes to myself. Now does that explain why I repeat myself so often, take my novels, for example. Every single story, the main “CLONE” ends up running a Cathouse in one way or another. We also have my library, which is mostly from the erotica genre. Are you noticing a pattern, Lady Sophia? Yeah, Madam Justice, Dear Future Wife, Inspector Echo, Dirty Diana, you, Lady Lu. Then there’s the man in the mirror, owner, operator.

Knowing me, I’ll end up leaving everything I have to some woman. Not my mom or my sister, though, would money change anything. Even if it did, if that’s what brought them to the fold. The fact that I can say I want a daughter gives rise to the idea that I am a good man. I want a man that could love like me, now that didn’t sound creepy at all. One more reason I write apocalyptic tales, there’s nowhere to run to in the world. Any port in a storm right Lady Sophia? Well, people love God, and he knows everything, but here I stand surrounded by people who know nothing. Brothels, a bombed-out world, and broadcasting everything to only myself. These are the elements of my stories. No wonder I tell so many from the comfort of a warm bed most nights.

It’s not my death bed Lady Sophia, that’s the point of this year. Someday I’ll be The Best Will Ever.

I Will Have No Fear

Log 192 ~Will’s Seasonings Of Lust~

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My mom is a great cook, and when I was a kid I thought a taste of seasoning salt was the best thing ever though I still ate steak, tacos, pork chops, and everything, also I need ghost pepper sauce but be careful with that on skin. Will’s Seasonings Of Lust yum

Thursday, January 09, 2020

Log 192 ~Will’s Seasonings Of Lust~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Billionaire right now and fighting withdrawal. “THEY,” say that the first week is always the hardest, and today being TUESDAY, I’m already on Day 11. I wouldn’t call this an epiphany, but besides forbidden fruit, the lack of any at all is the best seasoning. In other words, HUNGER is the best seasoning. How about something to the tune of everything is a higher power to those with none. Some women will place themselves so high and wonder why men go for strippers.

You know me, Dirty Diana, as I told Cherry she wants the fairytale, and I am one to fuck a princess or an angel. Now I could tell you about having a heavy heart, but it won’t be this day. No, I’m focusing on a case of blue balls. When we talk about someone being blue, someone brought down low. Breathing is difficult, bedridden. So my words become dirtier, filthier, will I say sexier? Balls Of Confusion could have made a more apt title. I’m not saying I don’t know what I want, that’s never been a problem. An alcoholic used to top-shelf drinks but given a while, and cough syrup might do the trick. That’s where I am, I want a girl, but with time, every little thing she does is magic. Absence and what happens to a heart, know what I’m saying, Diana.

Once upon a time, I was looking for cover girls, and now it’s Dirty Latina Maids. Dirty Latina Maids – Ariela, to be exact or Jade Jantzen, can’t forget Ariella Ferrera. Now I know better than to compare any woman to a pornstar, a lesson I learned the hard way once before. No, that’s not a condemnation but a reality. My desire for brunettes hasn’t wavered, and the fact I’m still heavy into Hentai shows the Asian persuasion. What I’m saying is this, when one loves, there is so much more to give, and lust is much the same. It was Think and Grow Rich that even spoke about the sexual instinct as a good thing sometimes. Like with any seasoning, though. You use more salt, more whip cream, and anything starts to look much tastier. Next thing you know, you’re gorging yourself on everything around.

Hungry Like The Wolf and I need to keep hunting. Well, it’s 3:00 AM as I imagine two good friends naked (homer drooling). I want more, Will’s Seasonings Of Lust.

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Log 191 ~Will I’m On Fire~

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I tend to be a bit of a hothead for many reasons, but even Hell comes in different temperatures, or so I was taught, people talking too much and crowding my space, getting angry, and women. “Will, I’m On Fire” still

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

Log 191 ~Will I’m On Fire~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Billionaire right now, which is good because the heat is on. For the record, though, that’s one more thing I don’t pay for yet. I’m also reminded of NBA Jam the phrase “He’s On Fire.” Do you remember so many years ago that was the worst thing, going to Jeremy’s house to lose in either that or Mario Kart? Now I’m busy dealing with the likes of Faith Seed in Far Cry 5. Well, at least I didn’t die last night, in the game. You know the rule about facts, though, and I am burning up this “Monday” morning.

I know all about letting go vs. holding on, but breaking a few decades of bad habits isn’t easy. Yes, I gave LP the cold shoulder and what did I say last week, no more stewing, but I boiled over. That man deserved to get burned, but while nobody else has given this a second thought possibly, here, I am. Am I still tossing away money like there’s no tomorrow? My “father” would say I’m spending money like it’s burning a hole in my pocket. Last week it was all about Cherry, and then came M Anime. Of course, I burned up over that with Dear Future Wife in my way. If I’m not on fire about a woman, then at least I’m warm, staying wrapped up in blankets sleeping. Well, I’m back up at 1:30 AM this morning, hoping life returns to; what, normal? Now you know what that is; Inspector, I deserve BETTER.

Not to sound like Joseph Seed, but have you seen the world? Australia is burning up day by day. The country is on the edge of war because of Trump. A girl on Twitter @lilearthangelk was selling pictures to raise money, and now she’s being chased around. Wasn’t that what I was doing to M Anime, getting all hot and bothered by her and then ranting? As the song goes, moving cool. What about cold hard cash, but I don’t know how much of that I got until I get the car fixed. It feels so safe here in this warm bed. Yesterday taking a shower, let’s say I had a preview at my directorial debut. That’s not dirty; there’s so much beauty in the world, but thinking of HER?

Hot in here or just her; Will, I’m On Fire.

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Log 189 ~What Was The Point There~

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Point A to point B, but in some ways, the point of it all is to stand your ground no matter what, and so I did but why, how about asking why I play “Far Cry 5” an hour every day or what’s with my writing. What Was The Point There?

Monday, January 6, 2020

Log 189 ~What Was The Point There~

Hundred And Eighteenth Rule

Madam Justice,
I AM a Billionaire right now, but what’s it all for, you ask. The short answer, quoting Limp Bizkit “Nookie,” how about “Girls, Girls, Girls,” or she got me “So Hott.” The long story would be well “Be Not So Fearful.” FEAR is a big word. Now, of course, I could say “Everybody Wants To Rule The World,” “If I Had $1,000,000,” and “Power.” Notice POWER is bigger than FEAR. Also, the fact that my Wi-Fi is playing games today, so the music is sporadic. On the positive side, I had to get-up.

Eric Thomas says to fall on your back; if you look up, you can get up. Why did I start listening to these motivations? Let’s stick with the question of what was the point. It happened by accident, the Nuffsed Intro. Even Spotify noticed I needed the boost. I’m sticking to my promise, my Will, but yes, the fact that I stood up against LP a few days ago. I did that because I refuse to have another person look down on me, again I’m looking up. I can’t ever be anything less than myself and what do I say every single day, I AM a Billionaire. That explains why I have a few girls chasing me now, Madam Justice. Why this morning, I was once again looking up, travel fares, and a hotel and casino resort. If it works for Alice Little well? Still, as Eric Thomas says, no jealousy, no envy but I’m sicker, faster, bigger, badder, no doubt.

Why, because this morning the fact is I can do my job, but I hate the people there. I do believe in the law of attraction, so as always avoiding the negative, I want a position where I don’t hate, fear, or mourn. I want POWER is beyond my reach. Let’s say “BBB” but also bullion, biology, etc. What about what I said to you know who the other day. She’s just a friend, but the old me wouldn’t have dared. New Year, I will be bold, brave, a bad boy for life, or who knows a good man. Funny no internet and suddenly let the pop culture references fly free. Last week was to show that I can and will endure. Whatever happens, I need only this question. Everything I do is towards my desire for Power, so What Was The Point There.

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Log 188 ~Bold, Willing, And Able~

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Fortune Favors The Bold, now the first time I heard that was in “Star Trek: Deep Space Nine,” but I’m not a Trekkie exactly, a billionaire, a brave man, and yes bold, in this New Year. “Bold, Willing, And Able” yeas I AM

Sunday, January 5, 2020

Log 188 ~Bold, Willing, And Able~

To Will:
I AM a Billionaire right now, in this New Year. A time when I stand up for myself. I’m bold enough to offer pretty girls jobs. I’m capable of seeing months into the future or at least a day ahead, explaining tonight. You too, it seems, as you’re up at midnight, and we’re having this conversation. Now I know you haven’t forgotten the rule or the promise, let’s focus on the word. It’s January 5th, which is the day I set for New Year’s Resolutions. So the numbers, Eric Thomas talks about giving 120% and that will be a yearly score. 13 Women (And Only One Man In Town) or 13 Tools of The Gods in your novels. 9.3 multiplied by 13 is 120.9. Twelve months in the year but that Bill Haley song. Anyway, this year’s Resolutions:

  1. I AM Seeing My Dæmon Through Another Year
  2. I AM Writing A New York Times Bestseller
  3. I AM Making One Million Dollars
  4. I AM Writing 400 Words Everyday (Goal 120,000)
  5. I AM Visiting The Moonlite Bunny Ranch
  6. I AM Beginning To Make Investments
  7. I AM Producing An Adult Film For Sale
  8. I AM Participating In NaNoWriMo
  9. I AM In A Relationship or Sleeping With A Girl At Least Once A Month
  10. I AM Becoming Free Of Parental Oversight (Rockford, Grandma, The Car, etc.)
  11. I AM Speaking Positivity Into My Life
  12. I AM Starting Work On Life Goals “Episode 345 ~You Got Will’s Number~.”
  13. I AM Fearless Now

Of course, these are in no particular order, except #1. My child always comes first, though he’s passed out on the loveseat, wondering why his dad isn’t in bed. You wonder on Six Impossible Things:

  1. I AM Keeping It In My Pants (Day 002 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 008 No Fap)
  2. I AM Always The “Father” My Dæmon Deserves
    Failed
  3. I AM Publishing My Poetry “GULP”
    Failed
  4. I AM Reviewing Raphael By Tillie Cole
    Failed
  5. I AM Getting My Second Car Fixed
    Failed
  6. I AM Finishing A Naughty Little Christmas by Lili Valente
    Failed

17.5, now you know what you want to say, but being positive, you’re on the board. It’s always about scoring, isn’t it, but come on now you’re trying to stay PG. To be fair though standing up to LP. I wouldn’t let him tell me how to live in my reality. I sound something like The Father, Far Cry 5. Anyway, these Six Impossible Things:

  1. I AM Keeping It In My Pants (Day 008 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I AM Always The “Father” My Dæmon Deserves
  3. I AM Publishing My Poetry “GULP”
  4. I AM Reviewing Raphael By Tillie Cole
  5. I AM Getting My Second Car Fixed
  6. I AM Finishing A Naughty Little Christmas by Lili Valente

Well, this ran over time, so you have to live up to it, Will. Not can you, but will you and you know how the song goes, Run Boy Run. If you sleep away the afternoon, Pinch Me, yes, the songs are coming back then you find yourself here. Okay, one more, I’m Gonna Make It; A Will And A Way, Bold, Willing, And Able.

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Log 187 ~Maybe This Will Cure~

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I’m not sick; I have some friends who are suffering through everything but I remain healthy and active but my life is something else to be sure and it doesn’t need a cure but here we are. “Maybe This Will Cure”

Saturday, January 4, 2020

Log 187 ~Maybe This Will Cure~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Billionaire right now, and I’m awake right now. Don’t get me wrong I’m not discounting the whole 1:30 AM waking dynamic but not tomorrow. Even with a half-day, I slept most of it away, and guess what woke me up? Isn’t it always a woman? I spent most of the day talking to M Anime. For a woman, the things that men are capable of doing Lady Luna? I still remember that quote from 500 Days Of Summer, which rings as the gospel truth.

“Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature.”

Like any medication, there are side effects, but I won’t go into those. Positivity is the order of the day, so how have I done this week. Well again I am the time traveler, I wrote about Friday this morning and Saturday tonight. The point is words Lady Lu like that movie Play’d “these words they have power,” I stood up to Loss Prevention Tuesday. A term that I find myself repeating is “breathe.” More than anything, I need air. Again I told M Anime the truth. So what about my “father” or MILF Dos? Today will be the day with my father, but I can’t see the future. Lady Lu, that’s facts, for example, Far Cry 5 the Nadine Abercrombie side mission Golden Age Nostalgia. Instead, I finished Larry Parker’s side missions giving me 51/52. We never know where we will find ourselves ever.

“I had nothing left to offer but pure reflex. Pure reflex and mankind’s basic drive for survival, that somehow shouts, “NO – I WILL NOT DIE TODAY!” The Beach (2000)

Now that’s where the law of attraction comes into play. Sunday I need to write my New Year’s Resolutions but what about right at this moment. I want M Anime to say YES, and then there’s another potential. How about all my problems will be solved come February 28, 2020, by PCH. I still remember how much faith I had that one day when they came so close, awarding the grand prize. There can’t be any doubt in my mind. Trust in the universe, and if that isn’t my motivation talking. My writing is going to take off this month, I know it, I will get it done. Tonight we’ll have this conversation, and I’ll wake up fresh and ready to go in the morning. I don’t need to be saved, or cured truth be told, I need to stay awake, life is not a virus that I have.

Convincing, quite the same fire and passion I give everyone still, Maybe This Will Cure.

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Log 186 ~Prose Vs. Con Will~

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There’s always another book to read because there is still another day to live, so why not get lost in the lives of others, and I’m not a prisoner but it’s best I do continue that thought. Prose Vs. Con Will, or not

Friday, January 3, 2020

Log 186 ~Prose Vs. Con Will~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Billionaire right now, and I continue to remember the rule. “Just the facts, Ma’am,” should have joined my 365 Rules. Anyway, when I was a child, I fell in love with reading. It’s like my “friendship” with A&W. It happened out of the blue. Unlike A&W, though, I understand reading has a purpose. Besides becoming an adult, there are things I need to block out, bad things, as the song goes, Hard Times. Most of all, reading removes FEAR or delivers some other conduit.

At the start of the New Year, again, I ask myself to be ambitious and bold. I’m always one for a good quote, but we’ll get to that. So how about it, four or five books for January? Speaking with Dirty Diana, I’ve begun reading Naughty Little Christmas by Lili Valente. After that, I’ll reread The Gargoyle by Andrew Davidson. Now that novel is on my top five list of all time, no doubt. The erotica novel group I’m in has begun reading Siren by Hazel Grace. While on Twitter, I watched a few clips from Twilight, but I have never read the series. The Hunger Games, Divergent, at least two from The Maze Runner but never Twilight. I want to get into a new series, but when I can go back to back. I still tell myself stories at night as I go to sleep; it helps me plenty.

Last night it was Testy Festy and Prairie Oyster Harvest from Far Cry 5. You know I’m not particular when it comes to food. When it comes to delicacies, though, well talk about good writing because Far Cry 5 made me curious. Now last year, I wrote a list of words that were again bad. It’s fantastic the list of terms that set me ablaze in the right way. You remember how I would light up when “Okay” would text. I’m happy to see she’s getting married. Cherry is on the mend, and Indiana Gone is living her happily ever after. As much as I admire villains, I am always a sucker for a love story and again HEA. FEAR, though, didn’t I say another conduit. M Anime has me looking up another F Word Fibromyalgia. Let me end on a good note, though. She talked about having “Crazy Thoughts.”

Crazy, the best people are, another reason I read and write, Prose Vs. Con Will.

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Log 185 ~Will’s First Porn Please~

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Thursday, January 02, 2020

Log 185 ~Will’s First Porn Please~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Billionaire right now, and do you remember the rule? “Just the facts, ma’am,” from Dragnet. No feeling, believing, or even thinking (rolls eyes). I will state the problem, and any possible solution, then let it go. I called a girl pretty while I was yelling at the LP the other day. An hour or so later, I told the General Manager about the confrontation with LP. The young woman had nothing to do with it other than giving the LP the illusion of things which was last year.

Okay, now as the song goes, come on, get happy. No, I haven’t shot my first porn yet, but that’s coming this year. MILF Dos was my first model, of course. I have made offers to both M Anime and Cherry. If anything, this shows that No Fap is working. Now there has been none of that in the New Year, and there won’t be either. Still, shooting porn is the goal. So I should look up the AEE and AVN Awards, Adult Entertainment Expo, Adult Video News. How is that for ambition Dirty Diana? Which brings me to my first porn of the New Year. I’ve done my first post, text, and who knows a million other things. The first song, though, and the first video? Last year, the last porn I looked up was from Shion Utsunomiya. Today is Wednesday, “time-travel.” Other than panting for Cherry’s boobs, I haven’t watched any Adult Entertainment.

Utsunomiya Shion

Today I’ll start one more holiday book, Naughty Little Christmas, by Lili Valente. I also want to reread The Gargoyle by Andrew Davidson. Of course, there is also publishing my book of poetry, GULP. I got another email from a potential but a lesson I took to heart from MILF Dos, the devil is in the details. My first book will lead to my first erotica novel and then my movie. The question is, what will I do until then? Again Shion Utsunomiya was my last exact search. Looking up, English BBWs, that’s killing time. Why is it so hard to discover a cloud service to house any porno? Not like I could store TTB, Vault Girls, or some hot witchy stuff. My pornographic passions always end up with my character owning the sweetest brothel.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7dPoVL7nB9k
Jessica Nigri
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lf-LaFSXqGQ

I got it, two birds, one stone, Jessica Nigri, and Hogwarts; Will’s First Porno Please.

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