Dreaming the Red Room Cares

I took a step today to fill my red room lair… she’s been in my dreams, my fantasies, even finding pieces of my heart on occasion. Dreaming the Red Room Cares, much like my crush… doubtful but my head, my pages, and everywhere else is full of her

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOZMWrTRkB8

And don’t be scared
“I’m not”
Is it excitement or worry?
You’re so damn hot
My, such a beautiful fury
Tell me, if you dare

All of me, all of you bared
“Just breathe”
How can I ignore a goddess?
Yes we aim to please
I’d say if you didn’t leave me breathless
As I stop and stare

It just doesn’t seem fair
“Let me love you”
Isn’t that my line?
If I were to let you love me like you do
Only I can’t seem to make you mine
But that sounds just like a prayer

Not just to be there
“Stay with me”
Did I say it before? You’re hot as Hell
Like an atom bomb baby
So if we explode, Heaven, Hell, anywhere
I hope you know I care

Finding that there is still air
“Morning” “Hi”
Are you mine, my girl, my love
Everyone says hi, but as long as you don’t say goodbye
Haven’t I dreamed, quite enough?
Of a love like ours, and empty red room lair

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Lee DeWyze “Blackbird Song”, OK Go “You’re So Damn Hot”, Johnny Jewel Ft. Saoirse Ronan “Tell Me”, John Legend “All Of Me”, “Just Breathe” and “Morning Hi” by Will Bradford Jr, Lo Fidelity Allstars “Battleflag”, “Fifty Shades of Grey” by E. L. James, OneRepublic “Stop and Stare”, Glee Cast Version “Let Me Love You (Until You Learn To Love Yourself)”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, The Seeds “Can’t Seem To Make You Mine”, Madonna “Like A Prayer”, Sam Smith “Stay With Me”, Brother Love “Summertime”, Five Stars “Atom Bomb Baby” (1957) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters), Delta Spirit “Yamaha”, The Temptations “My Girl”, Sia “My Love”, and Young Beautiful in a Hurry ft. Fyfe Monroe “Everyone Says Hi”, (David Bowie Cover)

Some Things Can’t Be Erased

“I don’t always like… the things that I like,”
― Erased: A Dark Romantic Thriller

So I liked this but I can’t help but wonder about the people that like this, especially the women. I wouldn’t change a word but how blurry that line must have been for the author. Some stories play jump rope with it, some do their best to fade it and for others the line isn’t there at all, my favorite.

I guess that makes the Halloran Asylum the perfect place for this story, and the whole dime a dozen aspect, or maybe I’m reading far too into this; in my experience most women wouldn’t cater to this, not out loud anyway. Maybe that’s what this book makes me think about the movie “Sucker Punch”, I don’t want to give too much away but yeah the bad guys, I mean the really bad guys don’t get to have their way with the heroine. See even now I believe I should have to talk to a shrink about these desires but why, feelings like this are natural or the characters seem to think so all the way.

“Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me” S&M, Rihanna

“Erased” doesn’t exactly cross the line, it seems to show the line of erotica and “reality” or at least in a way I’m reminded like in any movie this is all fiction and should not be duplicated… which parts though hmm? That’s where it gets blurry, on one hand I compared this to a movie on the other this could just as easily be ripped from any headline; news flash, our heroine is also a reporter. Now on a personal level I would have liked to see more from the villains and from Marla’s interactions, another reason I’m reading the bonus epilogue for this and the prequel, decent freebies really.

Seriously though why is this sort of stuff looked at as crazy, dirty for sure, hot as Hell definitely, makes you feel wrong somehow but talk about our influences. As though I can influence you to read this book and I’m talking to the ladies here, because being a straight guy with massive experience across the internet I doubt most guys would but should I give it a shot?

“You’re a natural submissive, and I want to work with that.”
Erased: A Dark Romantic Thriller

It’s a weird case with most women, how can Marla be so badass on one hand and then in the next so submissive, this is sort of the essence of BDSM. Now guys I could recommend “Kojin Taxi”, “Shusaku” pretty much anything in the Harem genre though you shouldn’t expect a lot of sex scenes from random beauties, I really hope you like Marla though.

Except that name… sorry just personally preference, but I’ve come up with some strange names but stop me if you’ve heard this, girl gets kidnapped, girl and bad boy hook up, everybody gets what’s coming to them in the end. I’m not spoiling anything if you read this genre that’s the common story thread and then I have to ask why don’t men and women watch this sort of stuff together. Truthfully it’s more a BDSM story than a prisoner story which just makes the setting all the more perfect because it’s treated as though it’s crazy for Marla, Gabriel, and Halloran to feel the way they do.

Which leads me back to the guys, you know what separates a guy like Halloran from, such and such guy in Nevada… consent, you don’t have to imagine this just go Nevada and you can find the same thing, guys losing money to spend time with beautiful women. I like this story, I really do but maybe for women it’s a fantasy and for guys that talk about or even consider it, quite possibly it’s just primal nature. There are a few things that will make you feel bad, maybe because you’ll like it or a touch a feminism but again, these stories are marked toward women.

Myself… I only got into the genre because of “Fifty Shades of Grey” and before that I studied the Marquis de Sade but to have someone actually say like in “Erased” that some of these things can actually be okay… For the fellas if missionary and maybe an occasional happy ending is all you’ve been taught then, this book will actually be a great read.

“Someday you and I are going to have to work out a safeword,” he says. “Because in our world, sometimes people say ‘stop’ and don’t mean it.”
― Sansa Rayne, Erased: A Dark Romantic Thriller

Being a guy of course I know plenty of girls and we sometimes talk about my latest read that might turn into their latest read but I’m actually more into putting let’s say words into action. With these words, I think I’ll give them a four out of five… yes I’m that hard to please or am I a snob?

For example, I know one woman who would be all for this except for being on the receiving end, she likes the whips and the bondage as long as she’s doing the whipping, so I think this book wouldn’t be anything new to her. Another one will talk about being spanked, choked, and even tied up but gets nervous if a guy gets close, she would read this with gusto though because it’s a different world sexually for her truthfully. How I got into this myself… that’s a story I’ll have to write someday but as for this book in general, I actually know an erotica reading group, so recommended.

“We live in a weird and random universe, people.”
― Erased: A Dark Romantic Thriller

So what didn’t I like… I asked this somewhere before but you can never have too much sex and I suppose the author didn’t want to overwhelm the reader but wait to you see my story. I honestly wish and maybe I’m a bad guy but if the other bad guys had taken their turns with Marla that would have been pretty interesting. Also that Iris tidbit was a bit of a snooze, yes I get it, Gabriel is good and everyone else is bad, didn’t necessarily have to drive another nail through her coffin.

All in all, four stars, easily earned, not as many quotable thoughts but there is always something and I am somewhat enticed to read a bit more from Sansa Rayne, did I mention the free epilogue and prequel? What did I learn from this, that again I’m not sick, that adult anime can take novel form, and straitjackets sort of creep me out but then again worked for Sucker Punch.

Fellow Finding Feathers

For once I’m not falling… I’m not flying or doing any other more interesting F’s but I suppose I must learn someday. Fellow Finding Feathers… they once did such things but I do believe I’ll find my own angel someday

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Z4hCmwqP3E

The things I could do
with just one more feather?
Maybe one more love letter…
but I could always say it better
And I would try to

A few more feathers, a softer pillow,
there’s nothing left to be said
as I lie alone in my bed
dreaming of Heaven instead
That’s for lovers and heroes

I wonder can villains be lovers
Can an angel be indecent?
You’re hotter than Victoria’s Secret
Even more feathers will be needed
since you’ll never be under my covers

You’re even farther from Cupid’s arrows
to tell you the truth
So I’ll hand him more than a few
If there is a chance you’ll love me like you do… how many arrows flew
Not enough I suppose

With so many I’ll learn to fly
Or are you an atom bomb baby
I’ll be waiting
Just you won’t stay with me
This is why I try

If I can crawl, I can walk, run, jump, and climb
Run boy run but I must be blind
Because angel… you pull off a feather saying “here use mine”

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Alesso Ft. Tove Lo Heroes (We Could Be), Victoria’s Secret, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, Five Stars “Atom Bomb Baby” (1957) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters), Lenny Kravitz “I’ll Be Waiting”, Sam Smith “Stay With Me”, and Woodkid “Run Boy Run”

Happy Endings Don’t Splat… Sometimes

I see what could be happily ever after; I see my beautiful crush, so why would I want to close my eyes for even a second… a kiss and other things perhaps. Happy Endings Don’t Splat… Sometimes, maybe that’s why it’s better I can’t reach her.

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iv9QUD-D6MM

To a first kiss… there’s no guide
Front, back, side to side

Could it be I’m falling?
So why does all my clothing fly
Standby…
Your body’s callin’

Just no angel falls out of the blue
As I make capes out of bedsheets
Zero to hero would be quite a feat
Maybe it’s you
I’m still wondering where will meet
Now I’m waiting for an atom bomb baby, we come in peace, sex zombies
Even a magical amulet; would you love me like you do

The sun, the moon, the very stars fall
Why do I want you from all of the above?
All of me, my love
Wants you to stay up there is all

“Stay with me”
Falling is not happily
ever after, and I don’t know what the ending will be

I…

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Ludacris “Act A Fool”, The Spinners “Could It Be I’m Falling In Love”, R. Kelly “Your Body’s Callin’”, Hercules (1997) “Zero To Hero”, Tsutchie ft. Kazami “You”, Five Stars “Atom Bomb Baby” (1957) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters), “Sex Zombies” and “Amulet” by S. Wolf, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, John Legend “All Of Me”, Sia “My Love”, and Sam Smith “Stay With Me”

 

Beyond Ruin… Not This Series

“They only love us when we’re perfect.”
― Beyond Ruin

This one was far from but that’s not the writers fault, that’s merely me being a heterosexual guy, with somewhat traditional values, wait did I really just say that. Let me say something else, that this story was a tremendous addition to the series despite what the title may imply.

Now what I didn’t like, I should say didn’t like right, it wasn’t that I was driven into a hate filled rage or anything just stuff I personally would have rather skipped; first and foremost, would be the Mad and Dylan hookups. As I said before I’m a straight guy that reads erotic novels, so I’ve read enough to sort of expect these things, but yeah I’ll stick to the M/F but I heard someone say once, as long as there’s a naked chick in the room it’s not gay… couldn’t give me that huh Kit. Secondly when I say traditional I’m all for an orgy but there is a level of intimacy, of love that I think should be shared with two people, that’s why this and Beyond Jealously, weren’t my favorites in the series but all the sex was awesome, besides the Mad and Dylan mashups of course.

As for the story as a whole, I’ve been out of the loop for quite some time but I knew what to expect and I’m already jonesing for the next book in the series, a benefit of being away. Another benefit of the Beyond Series, you know exactly what’s going to happen, Kit Rocha, tells us in the first few pages you’re only looking for the motivations. I usually don’t like books that are so predictable but that is part of the Beyond Series charm and dare I say the entire genre maybe, and yes I’m looking at you billionaires.

This one was a shot rather than a cup of tea but trust me there’s not enough alcohol in the world to open me up about doing some of this stuff but I’ve always wondered, do women get turned on by the idea of two men? Now opening up about this book, that’s something I’m more than willing to talk about and I’ll try not to spoil much but of course you’ve been warned okay.

“The thing that would hold them together in tough times and bring them back when they’d fought with one another. It would shelter them, give them strength, show the world what they meant to each other. Love.”
― Beyond Ruin

First we of course have the usual set up of lovers, Dylan, Mad, Scarlet, Jade/Jyoti and the set up for the next book Hawk and Jeni which I found downright cute. Maybe that’s not the right word for dystopian romance but what else would I say about other parts of this book, I’m weirded out, awesome, pretty hot and sexy.

You love her
But she loves him
And he loves somebody else
You just can’t win
And so it goes
‘Til the day you die
This thing they call love
It’s gonna make you cry
J. Geils Band, Love Stinks

Maybe it’s a bit too much to ask to be everything to somebody, I heard somewhere that, your heart and soul can belong to one person and your genitalia can travel and the O’Kanes know plenty about this. There’s also that touch of romance, as I said I’m a sucker for that one and only sweetness and when you’re not losing yourself to the sex, the way Lex hangs onto Dallas or how Hawk feels about Jeni and those moments between just Dylan and Jade or Mad and Scarlet, or Jade, Scarlet, and Mad, were incredible. Yes, that’s one of my favorite things, that just because this novel focuses on the main four-way, doesn’t mean that everyone else just disappears.

Well if you’re not counting death, just saying if anyone was attached to Colby and Scott… didn’t think so, which is probably another downside, trust me I know about the qualms about killing off characters but the series has lasted so long that if something were to happen to any of the O’Kanes… Speaking of which we’re at war now, which everyone knew was coming but at least it wasn’t stretched out like The Walking Dead right. There were a few surprises in Beyond Ruin but what thing that will never change, is at some level it will always be the man’s fault of course.

I can give away the ending because it’s always happy at least as far as the lovers are concerned, everyone loves a happy ending, though I’ve read an author here or there that actually had the guts for a tear jerker. Is that what’s coming next, I hope not but as for this book, there’s love, there’s war and as this is currently marketed to women… I’ve seen the Facebook page, there is female empowerment.

“Before he took Jeni to bed, he had to learn everything he could about what she wanted and needed. Because when he took Jeni to bed, he had to be ready to convince her to stay there.” ― Beyond Ruin

This is probably what I like most about these books, I would figure, women see themselves as the heroines or even the victims but honestly this shows me the type of man I want to be, maybe Roosh V would be impressed, confident, dominating, alpha. Who would I recommend this book to, well I have bought copies for two quite different friends both women so…

My favorite parts, other than when the four became pairs of two, would actually have to be the meetings among the sector leaders, I think other than Beyond Control and whenever Lili got to town this one showed even more of how the leaders have control, maybe I just like the idea of power. This is also why I couldn’t relate to any of the female heroines this time, maybe Cerys has a point, because my favorites are Noelle, Emma, and Lili; does that make me a bad person because I’m into submission and Emma is an artist of course. I was surprised with Jade/Jyoti, if one character stood out in particular, but my favorite scene with her was when she and Dylan were alone or when she took power actually which was pretty great.

As for my friends, one hasn’t read it but she’s all into BDSM so she would probably get off on the powerful women seeing she’s more of a top than a bottom. Female empowerment to be had, the one who has read it probably didn’t get past the first few chapters, these books are more for people who not only own their sexuality but embrace it and celebrate it, for it being dystopia and a bit violent at times this series is all about love, life, and did I mention all the sex. Is there such a thing as too much sex, I mean you know what you’re getting into when you pick something like this up right, but still you need to be ready.

“This is what it means to be an O’Kane. No fantasy off-limits if it gets everyone off.”
― Beyond Ruin

So because I did in a way I’ll give it four stars, I don’t think I have to explain anymore what’s keeping me from pushing that fifth star but there are plenty of people I don’t want to watch have sex or read about but I’m all for it honestly. There is plenty of educational opportunities and quotes for anyone willing to give this a read, O’Kane for life indeed.

Through the Roof Expectations

High expectations for love perhaps… maybe that’s why I never find it because when “she” comes around I’m always looking down, maybe a quick smile, a quick glance in my direction but no more. Through the Roof Expectations, I have to look up.

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aw4cvvt8ssY

To every star in the sky… thank you
My love’s on fire, so take the night off
God shouldn’t see that

Dear neighbors, I think we can be loud too
What were we doing… REALLY at a loss?
Just look at her, you can cut me some slack

And you scream “love me like you do”
But what I want… *cough*
Shouldn’t be said… while I’m on my back

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Sia “My Love, Smash Mouth “All Star”, and Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack

Try and Love the Air

She won’t know that I’m there… sounds a bit creepy but I mean she won’t notice the real me because the things I want don’t make for polite conversation or work when she actually wants me. Try and Love the Air… or is it better not to be shy?

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LhuxJTYiKA

Almost, maybe, not so shy
Shall I tell you this time?
How beautiful, how wonderful, hot, sexy, fine?
Yeah if you were mine
“Umm you know I…”

Well I’m still breathing *sigh*
I watch you walk away again today
You always take my breath away
Is that why I can’t ask you to stay
Dream lover, I close my eyes

Just thinking, someday I’m going to be that guy
“And”, you heard me… don’t say I love you
Zoning out… can I tell you the truth
Maybe you would love me like you do
Insanity but everyone says hi
Now, I guess I’ll have to try
Either I’ll be alone or my, my, my

Someday… “morning”, “hi”
“Do you want me to stop?”
“Oh my God!”
A bit from the Marquis de Sade
Silence sounds better that goodbye

So I keep it all locked up inside, the shy guy, the nice guy, my art of getting by

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Lenny Kravitz “Again”, Bobby Darin “Dream Lover”, Simple Plan “I’d Do Anything”, Enemy At The Gates (2001), Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, Young Beautiful in a Hurry ft. Fyfe Monroe “Everyone Says Hi”, (David Bowie Cover), Jimmy Cliff “Many Rivers To Cross”, Johnny Gill “My, My, My”, Sugar Ray “Someday”, “Morning Hi” by Will Bradford Jr, Marquis de Sade, and “The Art of Getting By” (2011)

Horizontal Planning

I’ve never been kissed… to be quite honest I think it was actually easier to put a man on the moon; people have faith, the world is ending, and love is crazy but being with me, now how would that happen? Horizontal Planning…

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Efhtg0Yp5gs

Your kiss is like the moon landing
All the universal laws… redrafting
An angel flying, no you’re standing
For now, right here next to me

But whatever is the Devil planning
Or all the gods commanding
Is there a magic so enchanting
Some potion or love spell, like Vampire Academy

Could love be a disease beyond understanding?
Robots taking over, or aliens; I’m adding
the zombies too, end of the world, so hot we’re fanning
my atom bomb baby

Just… I’m jealous of all the lovers having
a reason for this crazy little thing called love, banning
zealous, obsessed with sex “gentlemen”, okay maybe I’m ranting
Maybe, but for the love you, supplanting
if any and all other reasons, three little words, I love you, advancing
now from my heart to my lips; love me like you do that song keeps planting
everything, from vanilla skies, to Sade who I idolize laughing

Sadism, ravishment, BDSM; thirteen women said no, not even you sweet lady

About you and I smashing, crashing, slamming
down to earth, to my bed; my heart and all its misunderstandings
Abandoning all hope for ye who enters my bedroom door, but love is so demanding
As for all of me and you, perhaps: before we watch world war three on pay TV

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Princess Ashelia B’nargin Dalmasca… Final Fantasy XII, Mick Smiley “Magic”, Vampire Academy (2014), Five Stars “Atom Bomb Baby” (1957) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters), Queen “Crazy Little Thing Called Love”, The Isley Brothers “For The Love of You”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, Lifehouse “Everything”, Jennifer Paige “Crush”, Marquis de Sade, Bill Haley and His Comets “Thirteen Women” (1954) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters), Peter Gabriel “Down To Earth”, “The Divine Comedy” by Dante Alighieri, John Legend “All Of Me”, Crown City Four “Watch World War Three (On Pay TV) (1960) Cold War Classics (Atomic Platters)

Building Headboards… Harder, Higher

After you break a heart I think everything else gets easier… I wouldn’t know, I’ve never broken any girl’s heart before and of the girls that have broken my heart, well they were not just girls I suppose. Building Headboards… Harder, Higher

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JXBkMCJtDOY

Wings, a halo, how far
As I see the stars in your eyes
The words you hold like cerulean skies
Because love is way up there; how bizarre
I ask forgiveness, not permission… oh my lord

To be a villain, why not the hero
How else are heroines made?
My love, dauntless, girl on fire, be not afraid
For you, I’d go from zero to hero, but I’m just a Negro
Looking at the girl I adore

Just wondering what makes my friend, my lover, my passion, my sin?
And do you love me, or would you love me again
Zero chance; no angel you’d fly out the door
Must it always be heartbreak, one or quite a few?
If only you would love me like you do
No, I’m not the one you’d take your cape off for
Every girl, deserves a man that can break headboards

But for you, for love, I would do even more…

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Victoria… Real Doll, OMC “How Bizarre”, Regina Spektor “Hero”, Chad Kroeger Ft. Josey Scott “Hero”, Enrique Iglesias “Hero”, Sia “My Love”, “Divergent” by Veronica Roth, “The Hunger Games” by Suzanne Collins, “Article 5” Kristen Simmons, Hercules (1999) “Zero To Hero”, The Contours “Do You Love Me”, John Newman “Love Me Again”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack and “The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1 (2011)”

Fell Where

I’m falling and someday the pencil will fall, her dress, my fingers no longer on the keys but upon her body, my lips to her lips, to the bed, to the floor, and yet they sing love lift us up where we belong. Fell Where because she doesn’t know how far

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ngz7HnoPBNM

Making a mess of wishes
For you’re more beautiful by far
What good are the stars?
My love I would tell

The artists great and small, dancers, musicians
writers, villains, what I see
If I thought you’d hear me
over the debris, and oh well

Just don’t give up on me… and our kisses
Ablaze, a spark, take my love-struck heart
Zealot that I am for the love of you with but this contrition
May I become the marquis de Sade and have you be
Insatiable yet innocent, indecent yet intimate, these things and even more too
Now would you be my naughty nympho… love me like you do
Exchange your wings for everything or just for me, Heaven for Hell

Or is it a mistake we fell

Copyright © 2015 Second Circle Creations, Will A. Bradford Jr. All rights reserved.

Inspired By: Victoria… Real Doll, Sia “My Love”, The Tony Rich Project “Nobody Knows”, Solomon Burke “Don’t Give Up On Me”, The Isley Brothers “For The Love of You”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, and Lifehouse “Everything”