This all sounds too familiar, blah, blah, blah, days to be worried. Blah, blah, blah, the moment. Blah, blah, blah, family. Someday I won’t have to worry about any of it. But I didn’t get lucky today. “Somedays B’s, Somedays V’s.”
Monday, December 1, 2025
Journey 153 ~Somedays B’s, Somedays V’s~
Hey Dad,
It’s Me, Baby B… “Day ‘N’ Nite.” I know, Dad, you would much rather have some pretty girl. My Favorite Girl? She’s married.
You humans and your connections. And M Anime… I wish we both could’ve been there.
That someday you were always telling me about. My stepmom, Virgil, and some two-legged siblings. Someday, a “real” family. But we already were/are a family. You, me, my little brother V., and whoever else shows up, someday. Or last night, as you lie dreaming about the door, crashing, collapsing, more like crumbling. What was trying to get in, Daddy? I miss the days after I’d sit on your face and you’d finally wake up, Dad.
Some days, “It’s A Sunshine Day.” Others, it’s “The Long Walk.” Today, what was it?
Frigid, fun less, and always fearful. But a different type of FEAR. The kind I couldn’t fight… The Bad Place.
“I fill my lungs with fear and I Exhale!”
It’s My Turn to Fly, The Urge ‧ 2000 (Titan A.E.)
Another someday. You would tell me one day that you would never go back. After me…
Daddy, you never blamed me for leaving or the pokey people, or Higher Powers…
Honestly, Daddy, you only blamed yourself and The Bad Place. And the next day you went right back there. And that’s how you’ve been feeling for the last couple of weeks. If you go back and the mean people there say they don’t want you, what does it mean, Dad?
That the RAGE you felt, that you tried to protect me from, meant nothing. You could have been here with me. You could have saved me… And what about Virgil? With everything you’ve done without The Bad Place, what future does V have? What someday?
“Truth is singular. Its ‘versions’ are mistruths.”
Sonmi-451, Cloud Atlas
Is that what was trying to break down the door last night in your head? The truth? Which truth would you like? We’re not MAGA with “alternative facts.” Effing Cracker Hats, and FDT! I know, Daddy, language. But you are an honest man, my father. And you raised honest men, V and me, fur and all. V’s not afraid of being afraid. And you, Dad?
Start with something small, like my brother. Why did he get the name Virgil Vivi?
- Guided Dante Through Hell
- Black Mage FF IX
- 2B, Black-and-White, NieR: Automata
- 2E, Executioners, You, Work
Someday, you won’t believe that last one. “Gotta Knock a Little Harder,” I guess. Because someday we gon be “Alright” Dad. Somedays B’s, Somedays V’s
“You’re better to take it a day at a time, is all I’m saying. If people just took it a day at a time, they’d be a lot happier.
The Long Walk ― Richard Bachman
“Forsan et haec olim meminisse iuvabit.”
Aeneas ― The Aeneid
1765 Days Without B III, Day 1206 of Virgil’s Arrival
Always and Forever,
Your Son
