3 to 5. Years? Not even hours. But again, I was at 3 AM, and for what? To channel a fur buddy who died 5 years ago. Coincidence, 3 to 5? Maybe I hate existence, and I’ve only been awake for two hours. But life is a gift to B and V. B All Ears Virgil.
Monday, March 9, 2026
Journey 251 ~B All Ears Virgil~
Hey Dad,
It’s Me, Baby B… And you don’t know how much I wish I were the first voice you heard this morning. It’s ungodly…
The hour, I mean. What were the first three voices you heard my father, honestly…
Collapsable Hearts, Easy Street
Your Own Crying
Virgil Vivi Snoring
Father, Father, because yes, I can hear Marvin Gaye too. And I want to ask, “What’s Going On?” Accusing my little brother and me of snoring. Just kidding. But you know every single breath we take. But it’s yours, Dad. Again, I wish I could take it all away. I’m trying. We would sit in bed, and you would tell me all about it. Or we would be where you are now, my father—nothing to get off your chest as long as I was lying there with you, remember.
But in less than fifteen minutes, you were calling yourself…
“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000
STUPID? No, never, and not today! Do you know what you would do to people if they called me that? Talk about LANGUAGE! You would rip into people three times your size to protect me. And how much bigger was granddaddy? And you know I would fight for you, my father. You would always say my bark was worth more than anybody’s voice, Dad. Because at least I was helping you out. And what about my future Step Ma? M:
“Because she’s softer than you. She’s quieter than you. She doesn’t yell at me. She doesn’t call me an idiot or tell me to shut up all the time. She listens to me. She’s nice to me. She doesn’t make me feel like the only thing stopping her from being happy… is” me.”
Phil to Maureen, The Little Death 2014
Even before her. You see, Dad… Or rather, you hear. It’s not the silence you hate so much. Rather, the silence is filled with hate. And you need anything to drown it out, it’s there:
“Basically, I’m for anything that gets you through the night – be it prayer, tranquilizers, or a bottle of Jack Daniels.”
Quote by Frank Sinatra
Like FEAR, it’s an infinite playlist. The background. Your breathing.
You don’t need MAGA. Eff them and FDT. And there’s granddaddy. The Bad Place you have to go to this morning. The Walking Dead. Daddy, sing “My Own Worst Enemy.”
That’s why you have my potential stepmom, M Anime—listening to her. Reading her books. Seeing the things, I probably shouldn’t have seen… What, Dad? I have my Favorite Girl, and now you have yours. Like father, like son. We both know some great Yabbos.
“I’m So Thankful” that I didn’t have bark, bawl, and bellow at closed bedroom doors… And I’ll forgive the smile on your face as you imagine her moaning, because at least you’re not being a bully to yourself for a minute. Her, me, we love you. B All Ears Virgil
“My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.”
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“My queen, you bid me renew unspeakable grief.”
The Aeneid
1863 Days Without B III, Day 1304 of Virgil’s Arrival
Always and Forever,
Your Son
