Episode 314 ~Get Will Soon Card~

Can’t decide or a healthy adult male, if I had Christian Grey money or one of the many billionaires I read about, most girls would call me Mr. Right and Dr. Feelgood. Now I’m the cure to things people won’t do, and B III can’t do. Get Will Soon Card.

Saturday, May 11, 2019

Episode 314 ~Get Will Soon Card~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Millionaire right now, or I should be. The reason is that my shift at work still has people fighting to take it (Positive Vibes). Though even if I were sick, I don’t think I’ve ever received a Get Well card. Don’t get me wrong Lady Lu; I’m grateful. I’ve never spent twenty-four hours in a hospital, and B III is going to live forever. I’m calling it now; my son knows how to live.

However, like most he has the Get Will Soon Card, never leave “home” without it literally. If he wants to go for his walk I’m taking him, anywhere else (the pet shop/vet visits) we’re together. What about the day job? I get calls all the time, and again I’m thankful for the usual hours. Next week I’ll have more than enough to make up for Norton, but we’ll get back to them in a moment. I think the UNIVERSE is conspiring to save me money. I’ve filled you in on The Cosplayer quitting. What about my ice cream melting while I waited for food from one of my favorite restaurants. Closing for good, owners retiring.

In all fairness, I don’t write or send Get “Well” Soon Cards myself. Only the receipt I got for new boots because for damn sure I needed them. Falling apart, smell making me sick, my poor feet but I was too greedy to want to buy more. That’s until just yesterday. Speaking of greedy, Norton tried to make me feel better. So they sent me a $25 Amazon card. I promise not to spend it on a girl wanting to see her boobies. Where was I a minute ago? Yeah as far as boobs are concerned; while one redhead said no, the other is all in. So now I have to get to work, you know I don’t like letting pretty girls down, and in four months I want seven figures, so here I am.

From the bed to the table. All on the grounds of getting to a bigger bed and much softer pillows if you know what I mean. So I can experiment with my “Red Dawn” fantasy. The name isn’t original, but neither is “Girls That (William Fell…) For” Winterfell ha. Sigh my latest novel doesn’t even have a name for now.

Grateful and sick of this life, Get Will Soon Card.

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Episode 313 ~Willing A Bad Story~

One of my motivations talks about Becoming The Hero Of Your Own Story and to this day I still hear my mother saying, God is in control, or I could have imagined that like her reading to me or singing Simple Man. Willing A Bad Story

Friday, May 10, 2019

Episode 313 ~Willing A Bad Story~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and a damn good writer. Then again is there such a thing as a bad story? Lord of the Flies by William Golding, I heard it’s a classic, but I could never read it. How about Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, the word still creeps me out saying. Not to mention the story was longwinded and let’s say I was expecting something, different. Okay before you go calling the cops for my studies in DDLG, I tried reading the Bible too. Even got through a few books.

I’m not looking up the last book I crapped on. Still last night I was telling Dirty Diana about my “Red Dawn” fantasy. Decided to pass it on to the redheads over in Carson City, Nevada. Didn’t take long for one to say no flat-out. Speaking of beauties with red hair looks like I’ll be saving ten bucks on Patreon. The cosplayer is quitting. Of course, while I know this has nothing to do with me, I’m a selfish S.O.B. I have come up with a myriad of reasons this is my fault. So don’t want to attempt emailing the other girl in Nevada, scared to press MILF Dos. Busy complaining to “Indiana Gone.” My words have power Lady Sophia.

If I upset you don’t stress, never forget
That God isn’t finished with me yet
I feel his hand on my brain
When I write rhymes I go blind and let the Lord do his thang
~Ghetto Gospel Tupac Shakur~

Now imagine being hit with that kind of power bearing down for years “What’s My Age Again?” So like Peter Banning, you can imagine why I find it challenging to think happy thoughts. Let alone write any. There’s my “Dad,” the day job, and destruction. If anything I can write about desire and of course that centers on my dick (Language?). I read Dennis Hof’s book. I also look into novels of women being “dugout.” Well, not today because I was out cold. Don’t I usually write about my day? Only again the day job is nothing I want to remember. There is also a box of melted ice cream; some fucked up nonfiction (STOP}. Sigh the end of an era with the closing of one of my favorite restaurants.

I remember what Jessica Rabbit would say about her being “drawn.” Now could you only fathom her creator’s thoughts? If you want my own, you need only look up a Songbird’s Shame by Studio F.O.W. I’m not a bad writer. I don’t know how I got here. Only the story Lady Sophia the show goes on Willing A Bad Story.

Songbird’s Shame

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Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

So I did pick one fantasy, and it breaks my heart and how can I expect to stay awake all night for this, what will the bunnies/lovers say, that I’m crazy and trust my novels are something else. Willing The Red Dawn.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, so I’ll relish this fantasy:

Dear Alice and Ruby,
More on my “Red Dawn” Fantasy which I have filled you both in on. Still, I wish to go further in the details. Again you both know you will play cult followers of “Good Leader Tavis” from @ThePurgeTV. Only you will be looking to escape her. Moments before The Purge warning, which we will watch together you beg me to let you in. You’ll either be wearing blue robes like the show. Underneath, red thigh netted thigh highs, fluffy orange skirt, black bustier with orange strings. Pink and black striped thigh highs, hot pink fluffy skirt, black bustier with pink ties holding. Alice and Ruby respectively.

If not that blue virgin killer sweaters with the stockings. Alice’s hair will be in curly pigtails. Ruby’s hair will be in waves flowing down her shoulders and back. Shoes will be sneakers but switched to black ankle strap high heels. Now I was planning a Purge party, but the “victim” never got delivered. So you two are talking me into keeping you safe for the duration. There is a lot you may have a problem with such as my video camera. Being tied up, an assortment of sex toys, the blinding hoods. Most of all indeed my grand finale.

For example, sex toys are throughout the room. So when I don’t have you both in bed, you can get off to a toy on the wall, dresser, glory hole style. When you have the hoods on they will serve as other “party goers.” Near the end, you two will have a small, playing wrestling match. The winner will be of my choosing, and the loser will have a hood placed over there head to signify defeat. Afterward, the winner will help me play with the loser who will not be allowed to talk or react until I say so. Think “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” to a certain extent.

Also while I’m looking at the Peppermill Resort? I wish there were a room like the Princess Suite at the Mustang Ranch. Could find a way to set up a suite as such but this won’t be happening until September, if ever. Anyway, that’s my fantasy. There is more to come if I can find a way and you both agree, Willing The Red Dawn.

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Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

How sick am I, not that kind of illness, haven’t had the flu in years, so how can I explain how lazy I’m being; happy thoughts, I’m grateful for getting back into reading, for beauty, and The Purge franchise. “Will Is So Hot”

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now, with the A/C blasting, buried beneath my covers, while blasting Star Wars videos. So yeah I’m Jabba the Hutt still trying to play as though I’m Dennis Hof. Hell, I want to be even better than he was. Another sin would be that of comparison. Can I at least acknowledge the fact that I’m not a good man? Still, I have kept the essential part in my pants; did I say that out loud Inspector Echo?

Wouldn’t it be my head, my heart, or my hands? As is the case that my mind is all over the place these days. Now my little head, well we’ll get to that. As far as my heart, I love B III and money, my hands… sigh. Between Eileen Kelly, Sesskasays, Cherry, Ruby Rae, The Five by Lily White, etc. speaking of my pants. I’ve been a begging S.O.B. lately. There’s Cherry and Milf Dos, and I would call myself selfish only thinking about me. Hell, I saw Milf Dos had a charity thing that’s gotten funded. While all I can think about is being too chicken to get her clothes off. Fear though continues to be my greatest sin. Be it singing at work, not saying what’s on my mind, all the secrets I keep; done in the dark.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duHRethKzVE

Which is precisely where my fantasies are going only should I blame Lily. My libido, what gods of lust exist. Now I know you’re not Dirty Diana, but you want to hear a fantasy that’s sending me to Hell? Of course, I told you about Alice Little and Ruby Rae, The Purge. The last time I checked Ruby was nowhere near this level, ropes, blinding hoods. Adding The Purge movies themselves, now Alice hmm? So I would like to play a game, yes I’m mixing in the Saw movies, have both women, but only one walks out. FANTASY, can I stress that enough? Between The Five, The Purge, and “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” is nothing original anymore. Yes, I’ve said I want to have my Pure Taboo studio eventually., Only my fantasy come September?

Yeah, Indiana Gone is right I have to publish a book. Stop dreaming about giving my money away right? I do ask your forgiveness Inspector Echo, and there is always enough money burning in my pocket. Will Is So Hot.

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Episode 310 ~Will’s Mr. Big Stuff~

“A big dog, a boss hog, what I want is the question,” and the song answers that too “I Want It All,” what did you expect me to do the song Mr. Big Stuff, I’m not that old, but I’ll find aging in luxury with a beautiful wife. Will’s Mr. Big Stuff

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Episode 310 ~Will’s Mr. Big Stuff~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now. No multimillionaire, not enough, billionaire, how about a trillion? Now didn’t Forrest Gump say something directly about he wasn’t that smart, but he knows what love is? You won’t like me saying this baby girl. I always told myself when I chose a woman to be with, forever, I wanted a girl so beautiful that I didn’t want to um? That’s a conversation for another time and not that we haven’t.

I think they’re bigger, I would know it. I want to be that kind of daddy, on top of running all the businesses I do. Also knowing I will keep some of it away from our children. I intend to be there to watch them grow up. When they smile, I want to know how they can be happier. They laugh we need more of it. While it doesn’t need to be said but they’ll be no bribes to college. They are going to know they’re smart enough; they’re the best. Okay, do the opposite of everything my “father” did but yes providing for them. They want to sword fight, I love Star Wars, and I’m getting into Game Of Thrones. They want to play the guitar; they get lessons. Swimming’s a must because hell something as vast as the ocean terrifies me; Poseidon anyone?

It’s bigger because my love for you is so great. We’re going to need the space for everything else. It’s no secret even with lifestyles of the rich and famous I want the world to go away. My movie theater; everything delivered, personal on-call vet for B III right? Am I still so afraid you’ll leave me? Do I not want you to escape? Mr. Grey will see you now. The fact that you haven’t run for the hills yet is promising. It could be with all this space I want to shed all my worries. Of course, those should stop at the front door. Am I just a greedy SOB? True enough but the meaning of life to me is simple. Seek Out A Kingdom Worthy Of Your Soul and once upon a time I thought I sold mime.

Big things come in small packages. I knew that when I met my firstborn. When I wrote my first book, bestseller, one million, met you. I love you, and now ha Will’s Mr. Big Stuff.

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Episode 309 ~Remember, Keep Your Head Up~

My head hurts, the other head actually but I’m keeping him in his pants while my brain is going all sorts of crazy today, but I keep pushing forward, looking into the future which has been written but not published. “Remember, Keep Your Head Up”

Monday, May 6, 2019

Episode 309 ~Remember, Keep Your Head Up~

Eighty-Third Rule Madam Justice

I AM a Millionaire right now; I can see everything I want to own here and now. The women I want to fuck (LANGUAGE) Lena Paul and Milf Dos or must I go back to the redheads. So I’m sitting in my bed with three different screens not wanting for anything. Tell that to my pants. Three screens are a bit excessive. I’m not giving up porn. More often than not when I rise from my bed; I’m cursing the sky above instead of being grateful for another day. I am thankful Justice (Positive Vibes).

There is plenty to be down about Madam Justice. I might be making a mistake here. Not complaining about money, “There Is More Than Enough To Go Around). Anyway, Norton decided to rob me, but they’ve never let me down in terms of security. In other news on watchdogs you know I’m preoccupied with it. So many secrets and then someone goes and steals my equipment at the day job. I hate the place, still trying to get out of two shifts but damn. I am damned considering what I’ve said to Milf Dos. I swear why can’t my mouth be as hard to open as my eyes are in the morning. Wouldn’t this explain why I like BDSM and tying people up? As they say, the hands are the Devil’s playthings, and I’ll burn.

I’m not a pessimist Madam Justice. That spotlight at the end of the tunnel isn’t Hellfire, an oncoming train, or a firefight. I am still rooting for a zombie apocalypse or The Purge day. But more so a sunny day on the beach with “MY” family, so an optimist dreams only of the third? While I ask the UNIVERSE and yes keep my head up. I know better than to spend my life dreaming, of the heat of the sun. I AM a realist. I look forward and adjust my path. Like at this moment right now. I am not giving in to the temptations of girls in books, on Facebook and Twitter. I tell myself I’ll get the money back, damn Norton and my raging libido on most days.

Also, I don’t intend to go crazy. My father said he would knock my head from my shoulders. Only no pike is waiting for me, not now or ever. Madam Justice I’m awake and alive, Remember, Keep Your Head Up.

“There’s a saying – the pessimist looks down and hits his head. The optimist looks up and loses his footing. The realist looks forward and adjusts his path accordingly.” TWD

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Episode 308 ~Thought I Saw Will~

I did not mean to go so dark but when you go from thief to slave, to joke, and the nothingness begins to regain an appeal, but I’m feeling that hole with cash because money makes me Happy, bury me with it, Thought I Saw Will.

Sunday, May 5, 2019

Episode 308 ~Thought I Saw Will~

To Will:
I AM a Millionaire right now, and so are you. So you need not be a thief but lo and behold out of the mouths of babes. Some little boy takes one look at you and says you’re robbing the store. Some adults are like that too. Do you remember 1998 when McWane Science Center opened? Now you’ve heard worse and even more so Will. Okay I know you’re keeping up the positive vibes “Easy Street” and all that. Your motivations teach that you must let the past go but always remember where you came from so ahem…

You see the trick is you’ve never known such places. The BITCH (Language) had you hiding out in her garbage because you were skeevy. The Rainbow Girl, hell, not a clue there. The Harmonic War, well. Your “father” might have done you a service, telling you. Indeed showing you that you were nothing, less than that. I’ve said it so many times before; you don’t look in mirrors; only when you get caught? You’re horrified by what you see. So you write, you make money, you do anything and everything to avoid knowing who you are. Your every meme becomes a battle, every idea the definition of thought crime. Words dismissed like Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 026 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 033 No Fap)
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
    Failed
  3. I Will Name My Novel And Write A Back Cover Of It
    Failed
  4. I Will Review Crave (Addicted To You #1) K.M. Scott
    Failed
  5. I Will Enter The Mythic March Short Story Contest
    Failed (Missed The Deadline, Can’t Do)
  6. I Will Finish Reading The Five by Lily White
    Failed

Today you were listening to Brainbuddy, and it said to visualize your enemy. Wow, that’s too damn easy. Again look in the mirror, and you see who you are trying to beat. Who you have to destroy, the man you never want to see again. These days you see a man whose pockets are so fat that he can have everything. Pay off the dentist to fix him. Be the number one fan of cosplayers. Have that fantasy at the Peppermill Resort in Reno. If I say it enough and believe that. I’ll be that author, pimp, hotel owner, The Director and it all starts with these Six Impossible Things:

  1. I Will Keep It In My Pants (Day 033 No Fap) Real Girls Are An Exception
  2. I Will Be The “Father” My Dog Deserves
  3. I Will Name My Novel And Write A Back Cover Of It
  4. I Will Review Crave (Addicted To You #1) K.M. Scott
  5. I Will Get Out Of Home & Kid Shifts
  6. I Will Finish Reading The Five by Lily White

I saw you though Hugh Hefner, Dennis Hof, Jimmy Stephans. Some guys over in Europe, I’m better off not naming. Todd Michaels, S. Wolf, and still I ask the question, erase everything you could dream of and who are you, Will. It always boils down to that one moment in your senior year of high school, a minute, less. That would explain plenty, focusing less on money but that moment I Thought I Saw Will.

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Episode 307 ~The Fourth Hour Will~

What time did I get out of bed this morning, when did I take my hand out my pants, who am I, and Why did I start writing, and where? I’m at my table as confusing as ever but positive vibes at this time. “The Fourth Hour Will”

Saturday, May 4, 2019

Episode 307 ~The Fourth Hour Will~

Hey Lady Lu,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and that means being Mr. No Days Off instead of Mr. I Don’t Feel Like It. Today May The Fourth Be With You. Happy Birthday to “Indiana Gone.” Here’s to the four months I have to cash my check. A toast to the memories of “DC.”

I read somewhere a day ago that being a real adult means being tired no matter how much sleep you get. Besides that keeping me in bed there’s let’s say other not nice things. Plenty keeping me down but still thirty-two days of NO FAP. I continue thinking about missing the deadline for my short story. I need to write a review for Booksmart. I received an invite to Amazon Vine. These conversations My Lady are pushing all day events now. I swear my novel was quicker but heading into the fourth hour. Still, I press on with Yahoo scares, Cloud Services, Apple, and even this place. I mean “fuck” (Language) I want to be known. Only I don’t know whether this is worry, just my imagination or paranoia. If I were a better man, I wouldn’t need to struggle at all. Between “The Keys To Life,” “Temptations End,” “Apocalypse Rush,” “Pay Two Plague.” I add my number five novel to that count. Two hundred fifty thousand words, add in you and the others and my 120,000 worded story. OMG!!!

I am grateful Lady Luna.

Excuse me for sounding like a petulant child. A complaining teen, a worry wart, and an entitled celebrity as I do have a million dollars. I’m a man, a writer, and a survivor. More to the point a winner. Once again I’m going to be a bestselling author. A brothel owner, boss of a “love hotel” in the states. With a plethora of cosplayers and pornstars making movies and shows on my network. Big dog, big nuts as Lamar Davis would put it. A boss hog like the mayor. A businessman and I need to put the ladies man aside until I finish phase one. Which I should tell myself tomorrow. Today there is so much to do though between this conversation. Again a review I’m bound to do. My emails to Alice Little and Ruby Rae. Oh, answering that invitation. Books, as much as I enjoy reading, hopefully not because the fourth is with me, The Fourth Hour Will.

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Episode 306 ~Capes Are Overrated Will~

Nobody plans on being a hero so how does one plan on writing one; I don’t have that gift but there are plenty of others, and then there’s always Amazon, but I’ve been n the wrong department for some time. Capes Are Overrated Will

Episode 306 ~Capes Are Overrated Will~

Hey Lady Sophia,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and as my daily motivations and affirmations go, money is a form of energy. So while I’ll never claim to be a scientist, well not since school. Energy is neither created nor destroyed just transferred. Sorry, my former geek vibe days.

Lady Sophia these are trying times for geeks and other fandoms. You might think I would be happier (I am grateful, positive vibes). What I mean is Star Wars Day is tomorrow. Avengers: Endgame was the conclusion of several storylines. I got to see Arya Stark’s sideboob. Now isn’t that what it always comes back to with me. One reason B III is my only guy friend. Still, he’s naked all the time except wanting to buy him bandannas. That’s more clothes than I buy most girls on any day. I purchased “Indiana Gone” a dress once. Only my life’s work s more to the point of getting women out of their clothes. Hence my novels and why I don’t write heroines at all.

Okay so that sounds bad, but as always I could do worse seeing as how I’m just getting started now. A tent in my pants and all I should be working on my novel. How about looking over the books. I could write about surviving addiction, nearly thirty days now NO FAP. As a writer, if you’re not doing your due diligence, you should be reading. Well other than Triple B’s prescriptions. Amazon Wish List, bill collectors, and long overdue emails. So it’s time to get back to some erotica which isn’t helping with Brainbuddy. Again I’m no hero; I’m a strange man to a lot. Hell Luke Cage doesn’t wear a cape. I don’t think so, never watched that story.

The thing is I don’t want to write that or even live that. My novel, if it were a love story, would be about how far I could fall. How fast can an angel catch me before? Would a girl follow me down, or could she resurrect me? I dole out wings, costumes, PhDs but never capes? If I write about criminals, well my character shot a woman in the shoulder. I left it to his dad to be her killer. An alter ego to burn villain and victims alike. Still, I can’t help liking such pretty wrapping. Book covers, lingerie, “dollar dollar bill, y’all” but Capes Are Overrated Will.

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Episode 305 ~Will And Dead Lines~

Can I pick only one fantasy? There are going to be plenty of wardrobe changes and even more malfunctions? So here I am ready to do it all without energy drinks since writing and sex keep me up most nights. Will And Dead Lines

Thursday, May 2, 2019

Episode 305 ~Will And Dead Lines~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Well, at least I saved sixty bucks since “Okay” didn’t show. I haven’t talked to “MILF Dos” in quite some time. One more girl isn’t comfortable getting naked on camera. Now, Dirty Diana, I wanted to continue our discussion from yesterday. I wanted to get real, and I’m actively attempting to tone down some things. Still, I’m upset I missed that contest on Goodreads. Only, between completing Camp NaNoWriMo and well some other women drool.

So I’ve been talking to two recently, redheads and I shared two fantasies for my trip around Nevada way. Positive vibes as always. The first one is with @TheAliceLittle and @TheRubyRae as my stars. They play two of the girls from that cult from @ThePurgeTV. I’ll be celebrating my Purge from @RenoPeppermill. So Alice and Ruby will need a place to hide from what all the men want to do with them outside. Why should I hmm seeing as how my first Purge victim didn’t get delivered. How will they convince me to let them stay, there’s one right way?

My next fantasy comes from Detroit Become Human. Now while I like North plenty you know, Kamski had a thing for the Chloe model. I can only imagine Todd bending Kara over the sink sometimes. Sex dolls are becoming the rage, and we do have androids. Yes, I have made an “investment,” but as always I’m a traditionalist. I want the real thing and two girls playing androids wishing to serve their owner. Wouldn’t that be awesome? But, Chloe and Kara are both blondes; redheads would be something but wigs? I haven’t decided yet, and of course, there’s an issue.

There are four months from May 1st yesterday. I have to make one million which explains me finishing my book now. Again Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy energy. I still believe the UNIVERSE is attempting to make that happen since I’m not paying four other ladies. The fantasies keep flowing. Arya and Sansa, Katniss and Primrose, Two Witches. I have a thing about the big sister little sister dynamic, age appropriate of course. I could do much worse fantasies though. For example, one ranch has a Princess Suite, and I said yesterday I’m a fan of Vault Girls. Four words Dirty Diana “Humbert, Humbert, Eileen Kelly.

Enough money and I don’t have to talk; hope publishing isn’t Will And Dead Lines.

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