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Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

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Would you lie with me and just forget the world as the song goes, but the Earth is quite a large place and to own it would mean getting up off my behind and taking it, but I’m too busy on my back, sleeping. Late, Great, Lazy Will.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Episode 326 ~Late, Great, Lazy, Will~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and my first purchase should be a new bed. Noted I’m doing better than yesterday when I could barely get up. Still, this morning, it felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. Plus I didn’t get “dressed up” for Whataburger.

The free Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit wasn’t worth it. Speaking of my mouth, when is this deeper voice going to kick in as Brainbuddy says. I’m so tired of being referred to as Ma’am. How about being afraid, and the bullies don’t have to sock me to take my air. I’m still on my Game Of Thrones kick Dirty Diana. I could never reach Daenerys Targaryen or Cersei Lannister. I’m not on Sansa Stark’s level or brave enough for Arya Stark. Do you think I could speak any of Missandei’s languages? Is that why I like the fairytale princess. Guarded by the dragon, trapped by her parents, kept asleep by some magic spell. You know how I like my peace, quiet, etc. At the same time, I want a loud woman. Isn’t communication the key?

Only I look back at Sick Fux by Tillie Cole. The way Rabbit and Dolly lost themselves together in bed without ever having touched. Illicitness, intimacy, insanity, how often I talk about hiding this madness. The white rooms of my skull, screen, and finally shelf. I’m not a writer to be lazy. I write because I’m dead or I fear it, sort of like Clear Rivers in Final Destination 2. Only my freedom lies in the green of the almighty dollar. People with money fear nothing but losing it all or gain an obsession for much more. Now I know that doesn’t sound so sexy, but that’s the thing. I want a place where I won’t have to hide what I want and hell I’m not disguising it here. The things I want bedroom wise.

So I lie in bed most off days imagining there is a girl as sick as me. The UNIVERSE answers these things in ways. Yes, I found this Hentai, Bible Black New Testament: vol.4, the two patients. Again, I don’t want to leave my bed. I still have my The Purge/Red Dawn Fantasy waiting. Say it with me, “Three Months.” I could do worse right, Inner Demons, Lara In Trouble. The Corpse of Anna Fritz WHAT Late, Great, Lazy, Will.

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Episode 325 ~Will You Come Early~

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Three months to go again last year I gave myself the time to make a million dollars and how was I going to do that, write a book, hell I have several but also 99 Problems, and that’s not an excuse but where did the time go? “Will You Come Early”

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Episode 325 ~Will You Come Early~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now. So my worst sin of today is that I didn’t do it much sooner. Indeed I have long held the belief that if you’re on time, you’re late. Just if you’re early, you’re on time. Then I got my Day Job and how that panned out.

Now it’s not Thursday yet so I WILL behave myself, but I want to explode right now. I’ve never drunk a whole lot. Cigarettes are STUPID, and I was never an addict to any particular drug. Only when it comes to PMO (Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm), I’m still on NO FAP. Still holding back and I’m even pissed at myself some. Because I thought today would be the day. I’m not reading an Erotica title, and most of the porn around I control but Twitter sigh. There’s also the fact since I didn’t have anywhere to be today, guess where I am. I can still make the bed but other than B III I haven’t left my room to go anywhere.

Speaking of waking up early, three months Inspector Echo. As always, it’s to the point that I don’t text that pretty redhead anymore. Doesn’t that show I don’t have faith that I’ll make it to Nevada. I’ll have to text her sooner or later, but I want to with better news. Also in that what about MILF Dos? Too afraid to ask her for what I desire anymore. Hell, I shouldn’t though I still believe, there is more than enough to go around, my money affirmations. If it’s not her, it’s one of several girls, but I’ve never paid for a porn star. Ahem Mia Rose but I got my money back, and that was her and Amazon’s fault anyway.

The last thing I bought from Amazon were books. Self-help and something about money. Along with that crappy WWBM title I’m sorry to say. Which brings me back to today and what I should be reading. Instead, for the most part, I’m either sleeping or yearning for The Queen of The North, Sansa Stark, Sophie Turner. You know MILF Dos reminded me of her. I wish I had gotten into Game Of Thrones sooner, but you know I watched Sophie and Maisie in; you don’t want to know ha. Forgive me, Inspector Echo for being late and still asking the question, Will You Come Early.

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Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

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I could say anything right, though how many times have I told B III to shut-up and I love him more than anything, hell I love him like pancakes but what about if someone else wants to do the talking hmm? How To Speak To Will.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

Episode 324 ~How To Speak Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and I still don’t know how to speak RICH. Although if our President is any indication (tell me he didn’t win again I want to stay in Nevada). There’s nothing to it; I’m ahead of him. Also, if I mention caviar or the French Riviera, feel free to slap me. I like “Gotta Have The Money” as much as the next guy, but you know how I would spend it, love.

Books, of course. Writing them, selling, buying. I tell you I don’t mean to sound like that douche from “Good Will Hunting.” You know I have ideas. Only, you remember how long it took me to find the words to talk to you, twenty seconds. You usually get to know someone over dinner right. So our first date was the movies, watching you react to a film I’ve seen, how many times now? Who am I to know anything about facial expressions or body language. As you well know, I Won’t Dance, even at our wedding. Okay, I did try? However, it was more the Star Wars, Game Of Thrones, The Hunger Games, Divergent; please I’ll stop motif. Shouldn’t a guy dream of our wedding?

Yeah, most of my family wasn’t there because they never learned how to speak to me. So now isn’t the time to go mending fences though you’ve heard me rant and rave. You have seen me cry over many television characters, no doubt. The past two weeks it was Daenerys before that Missandei. She could speak seventeen languages and so far, the way you talk to me, my heart, B III, our other children. I swear I don’t know how you do it. Sometimes it’s like I’m still learning to speak, again my family. I take it back; they knew too well how to talk. No, what they couldn’t do for the life of them was listen. That’s your secret.

Even now, I feel a movie marathon coming on “Us,” “The 13th Warrior,” and “WALL-E.” Or we can sit here and let me try to find the words that aren’t from any form of entertainment or Saturday Nuclear Tunes. Only Tuesday sigh. Am I afraid I’ll run out of stories to tell you someday? Now that’s a reason to write, but these three words never get old. I Love You, not a social convention but How To Speak To Will.

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Episode 323 ~Always Choose Hope Over Fear~

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I was hoping to say “Long Live Queen Daenerys Targaryen of the Seven Kingdoms,” but I did fear that something like this would happen to her and thus the Game Of Thrones concluded but what about real life. Always Choose Hope Over Fear.

Monday, May 13, 2019

Episode 323 ~Always Choose Hope Over Fear~

Eighty-Fifth Rule Madam Justice

I AM a Millionaire right now but am I hoping for more or fearing that I will lose what I have. You know me Madam Justice like Daenerys Targaryen, may she R.I.P. I have my ambitions. There is one common phrase; “I Want It All.” Fear comes when you have plenty. So that is why one must push forward. You can run from fear, face it down, or destroy it. Only let me take another quote from Game Of Thrones.

“Leave one wolf alive and the sheep are not safe.”

Now I won’t lie to you. When I rise on any given morning, I don’t HOPE for the best going to the Day Job. Those people made it impossible. Instead, I prepare for the worse, and still, there are specks of light. Remember, yesterday I had a little conversation with myself? Yeah, the Honey Butter Chicken Biscuit. I wasn’t hoping for one, wishing or anything so I get two in my lap. Hell, I should stop praying for respect at the Day Job, and it will fall out of the sky now. Is it my fear that I’ll never have it at all and again I have enough, a paycheck.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Isy2vphAbaI

Why does hope scare me so? If anything, it is my hope that should frighten them. For they say Caesar was ambitious, Madam Justice I wanted to buy an airline for vengeance. I did start writing a short story about it. I hope I’ll have enough money to shut down my Day Job. Enough that Walmart will overtake Target. Noted I hate them both but Target fired me and why; FEAR. Losing all I had, my S.A.D. I could continue. Only there was never any hope there. Those that people have for me should scare me more than my desires any day, dear Madam Justice.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QCHlCiB98N4

I say it often enough, my hopes. Write a bestseller, make one million dollars. Move to Nevada, buy-in to Dennis Hof’s brothels or build my own, then a restaurant. Nudie Bar, love hotel, movie studio. All this and have a family. Only then I’ll know the fear of having something to lose. Hell, I have B III, and I won’t even put such a thought in the universe because he is going to live forever.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9Th3z76-y0

So yes, hope can drive many a man insane, but fear is a death sentence. It did end the Mother of Dragons Queen Daenerys Targaryen; Always Choose Hope Over Fear.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WTWQ21Naok

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Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

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Don’t try to wrap your head around this one, lips, hands, whatever you would so choose because could it be possible I’m not in the mood after today started with quite the awesome dream. “Will Hates Head Games.”

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Episode 319 ~Will Hates Head Games~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now. Still, if I ever start talking about caviar and the French Riviera, feel free to shoot me. You’ll know I’m not in my right mind. While I’d bang pretty Cherry from across the pond, I heard somewhere that a dog in a palace is still a dog. That’s the truth.

The truth, though is making my head hurt, the both of them. You remember, I talked about being Prometheus. The bird that skipped my liver to feast upon my heart or my dick. Now it looks like my brain is catching up. I’ve also spoken about how when “I Have A Dream,” it will reveal itself in some way. Only I never know exactly how at the time. However, this meaning came faster than most or didn’t. Geez, Dirty Diana, I was on the brink. So the dream, all I can remember was being back at my parents’ house, in my old room. There I had this blonde sucking my cock; took me all day to find out her name. Madison Foxx, you’ll remember her from such films as “Dong Diner” Money Talks. Also “First Marriage Proposal” Bangbus Homer Drool.

So before I could make my “deposit” in her pretty mouth, I woke up. So how does this equate with my life? Well, I’ve been talking to Alice Little of course at the Moonlite Bunny Ranch and let’s say I was premature. I’m not giving up Dirty Diana. I believe and all that but three months. Which leads me to how long it takes to publish a book. At worse, I’ll never make it. At best eight weeks and then one month to make that money. How about the fact that in Dong Diner, Madison walked out. Jessi Stone was the star “dream” girl, but everything it took to get to her. Still, Madison was the truth I didn’t see.

I panicked, I lost my mind and nearly got hacked today. There I was, tagging shoes this morning and I get an alert that my account was compromised right? Relax as I said a scam, but I almost blew everything because I was afraid. Now I stopped before I did anything stupid, so no hacker got a payload. I didn’t blow mine, and the hot redhead won’t see it sigh.

Am I coming or going, how Will Hates Heads Games.

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Episode 318 ~What The S Will~

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Indiana Gone says often enough, “Get Your S*IT Together” well not to me, but when it comes to what I write and read, well last week, I talked about being sick but not that kind of illness and considering Alabama, hell I’m delightful. What The S Will.

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Episode 318 ~What The S Will~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now, but as we have seen, money doesn’t make us all decent. As much as I would love to be Captain America, Miguel or Robby from Cobra Kai. Or even one of these people hating on Daenerys. I don’t deny my sins.

Captain America never had power, so when he gained it, he knew well enough about people without it. He used it to fight their oppressors. You know I consider money a form of energy and what’s the first thing I’ll be doing with it? My “September Fantasy.” As always Inspector Echo I’m not looking to be the hero. Am I still complaining about the fact that the rich, expect the poor to help the homeless? I don’t clothe the naked, okay collars, leashes, lingerie. My charity is held for those of B III’s persuasion and girls that take their clothes off for me. Now I need only be a man of my word. Still, I have until September, or this month if I can convince MILF Dos. Today I remain silent, silly, or scared so I ask What The Hell?

Yes, that’s what I said when I went to read this particular story and found it deleted. Now I don’t blame the blog owner one little bit. Inspector you know how reading the most horrific stories about young women gets me off. I read Erotica all the time, but it’s the true ones like all that went down with Angie Varona. Quite light compared to poor Amanda Todd and then the Cosplayer’s well damn. I don’t go looking for the broken, except in fiction. But lo and behold I find this “fictional” account about how young starlets get their gigs. Chloë Grace Moretz sigh, two writers spin this tale about her, and it creeped plenty of people out but me? Again being polite; I replaced Hell with “What The Fuck?”

My language right but it burns me up, along with the money in my pocket, positive vibes. Only, they’re not stopping me from sleeping, and that is something I can’t afford. Not if I expect to keep two young ladies screaming. A world in silence reading, or making it at all in a salacious industry. It all comes back to books, brothels, busty starlets. Now I’m speeding along, wanting to keep a promise. I’m sorry I even made it but somehow, What The S Will.

“If Women didn’t exist, all the money in the world would have no meaning.” Aristotle Onassis

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Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

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I’m the boy in the hood, straight out of suburbs variety, and in this life, I’ve had hands, headbands, a plethora of hoodies though now I only want a crown, a halo for my angel, and a roof over B III’s head. Bad Hair Day Will, no time.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Episode 317 ~Bad Hair Day Will~

Dear Future Wife,
I AM a Millionaire right now, and you would still find me in a black hoodie, matching jeans. As the song goes all black everything. Still, between you and me, one reason I don’t like “some” people, is because of my hair. You know I’ve always been partial to brunettes. Now one piece of advice I wish my mother had given me was that when a woman changes her hair, it usually means something. So um, did you do something with yours?

Anyway, a bad hair day for me is putting on a football helmet, a baseball cap. Anything sports related short of Olympic season or Kofi Kingston being champion. If our kids are jocks though they have my full support or I’m a hostage, SEND HELP. Speaking of rescue, I’m still not one to be the knight in shining armor. To quote another song, “I am the man that will fight for your honor.” Only it looks like I should have worn the helmet right? Is that why I still wear the hoodies in the summer, and that’s when I go out at all. I’ll have days when my pillow is my best friend, though B III will intervene. I’m lucky I still have eyes today.

Do I need to go and get a haircut? I get the same thing every time. Shave it all, the better to wear my crown. I have businesses to run, a family to provide for, and I’m sure we’ll be in the spotlight. Back to helmets, except for the eunuch part, I wouldn’t mind playing Grey Worm and going to some conventions. Now, who would you be love? That explains part of why I married you ha. Another would be I’m relaxed with you. An easy tell I know. If I take off my hoodie, buy you a matching one or the sweetest thing would be giving you my own.

Also, you don’t laugh at me for wearing a headband. Yes, I like Cobra Kai and didn’t I build my private dojo, though I’m more a lover than a fighter. When I was a kid, I hated people touching my head. However, lying here in your lap? Yeah, now I know why Triple B does it often. Only today beautiful I’ll put the comb down and won’t bother with the mirror as your eyes tell no Bad Hair Day Will.

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Episode 316 ~There’s Power In The Dollar~

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A “strange” man once rapped “no one man should have all that power” I swear if I were a rich man, sadly I might be a card-carrying member of the Republican Party because I know I want it all. There’s Power In The Dollar.

Monday, May 13, 2019

Episode 316 ~There’s Power In The Dollar~

Eighty-Fourth Rule Madam Justice

I AM a Millionaire right now. I have to believe that and in my rule more than anything at this particular moment. As today’s affirmation was “Whatever It Takes,” and now I’m praying to be Jack Skellington asking, what have I done? I need to bounce back. The usual first thought when I realize my negativity is ahem Yes I Have A Million Dollars. Hell Madam Justice I spend two hours daily in my Spotify playlist Show Me The Money.

Which do I love more though, power or women, that is what brings me here today. The strength I don’t possess but the women I want. Now I know the things that money can do. Only like anybody walking the planet, I want more. Well, not the people that don’t know about pay but anyway This Is America. Now that small piece of paper might as well be an energy bar. When I think about it, video game health bars are usually green, blue, or gold. You’re going to have me sounding like Martin Lawrence in Boomerang in a minute. My GREEN bar has taken a significant hit, but it’s that blow making me not fear for my life but feel this life for once.

Not meaning I’m not afraid. I’m the greatest monster creator you’ve ever met ha. With enough money, I can let the beast out to play. Still, that’s what I started today. Though I came off more as ma’am, I want some more, please. Call it a lack of faith on my part Madam Justice that I don’t believe in money or I don’t have enough. Women will hate me for saying this, but they all have a price “Heartless Prince” by Stella Hart. I’m on constant repeat with this, but Money Can Make Anyone Beautiful. Could that be it, dear Madam Justice? I need enough money never to be invisible.

How many times have I said, with the right amount, I pay off my Olds and then tell my “father” I never want to see him ever again. What about paying girls not to imagine all the things I want to do to them or to pretend I’m someone else. No, I want to be that someone else. Only with sending in that money, I have to change and soon. There’s no choice but to LIVE The Impossible Dream because There’s Power In The Dollar.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=US2nyRgg-SY

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Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

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So I did pick one fantasy, and it breaks my heart and how can I expect to stay awake all night for this, what will the bunnies/lovers say, that I’m crazy and trust my novels are something else. Willing The Red Dawn.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

Episode 312 ~Willing The Red Dawn~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
I AM a Millionaire right now, so I’ll relish this fantasy:

Dear Alice and Ruby,
More on my “Red Dawn” Fantasy which I have filled you both in on. Still, I wish to go further in the details. Again you both know you will play cult followers of “Good Leader Tavis” from @ThePurgeTV. Only you will be looking to escape her. Moments before The Purge warning, which we will watch together you beg me to let you in. You’ll either be wearing blue robes like the show. Underneath, red thigh netted thigh highs, fluffy orange skirt, black bustier with orange strings. Pink and black striped thigh highs, hot pink fluffy skirt, black bustier with pink ties holding. Alice and Ruby respectively.

If not that blue virgin killer sweaters with the stockings. Alice’s hair will be in curly pigtails. Ruby’s hair will be in waves flowing down her shoulders and back. Shoes will be sneakers but switched to black ankle strap high heels. Now I was planning a Purge party, but the “victim” never got delivered. So you two are talking me into keeping you safe for the duration. There is a lot you may have a problem with such as my video camera. Being tied up, an assortment of sex toys, the blinding hoods. Most of all indeed my grand finale.

Lucky2Buy Women’s Sexy Backless Hollow Out Anime Cosplay Virgin Killer Sweater One-Piece Bikini Knit Tank Top Vest
Premier Standard – Women’s Platform Ankle Strap High Heel – Open Toe Sandal Pump – Formal Party Chunky Dress Heel

For example, sex toys are throughout the room. So when I don’t have you both in bed, you can get off to a toy on the wall, dresser, glory hole style. When you have the hoods on they will serve as other “party goers.” Near the end, you two will have a small, playing wrestling match. The winner will be of my choosing, and the loser will have a hood placed over there head to signify defeat. Afterward, the winner will help me play with the loser who will not be allowed to talk or react until I say so. Think “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” to a certain extent.

Also while I’m looking at the Peppermill Resort? I wish there were a room like the Princess Suite at the Mustang Ranch. Could find a way to set up a suite as such but this won’t be happening until September, if ever. Anyway, that’s my fantasy. There is more to come if I can find a way and you both agree, Willing The Red Dawn.

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Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

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How sick am I, not that kind of illness, haven’t had the flu in years, so how can I explain how lazy I’m being; happy thoughts, I’m grateful for getting back into reading, for beauty, and The Purge franchise. “Will Is So Hot”

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now, with the A/C blasting, buried beneath my covers, while blasting Star Wars videos. So yeah I’m Jabba the Hutt still trying to play as though I’m Dennis Hof. Hell, I want to be even better than he was. Another sin would be that of comparison. Can I at least acknowledge the fact that I’m not a good man? Still, I have kept the essential part in my pants; did I say that out loud Inspector Echo?

Wouldn’t it be my head, my heart, or my hands? As is the case that my mind is all over the place these days. Now my little head, well we’ll get to that. As far as my heart, I love B III and money, my hands… sigh. Between Eileen Kelly, Sesskasays, Cherry, Ruby Rae, The Five by Lily White, etc. speaking of my pants. I’ve been a begging S.O.B. lately. There’s Cherry and Milf Dos, and I would call myself selfish only thinking about me. Hell, I saw Milf Dos had a charity thing that’s gotten funded. While all I can think about is being too chicken to get her clothes off. Fear though continues to be my greatest sin. Be it singing at work, not saying what’s on my mind, all the secrets I keep; done in the dark.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duHRethKzVE

Which is precisely where my fantasies are going only should I blame Lily. My libido, what gods of lust exist. Now I know you’re not Dirty Diana, but you want to hear a fantasy that’s sending me to Hell? Of course, I told you about Alice Little and Ruby Rae, The Purge. The last time I checked Ruby was nowhere near this level, ropes, blinding hoods. Adding The Purge movies themselves, now Alice hmm? So I would like to play a game, yes I’m mixing in the Saw movies, have both women, but only one walks out. FANTASY, can I stress that enough? Between The Five, The Purge, and “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” is nothing original anymore. Yes, I’ve said I want to have my Pure Taboo studio eventually., Only my fantasy come September?

Yeah, Indiana Gone is right I have to publish a book. Stop dreaming about giving my money away right? I do ask your forgiveness Inspector Echo, and there is always enough money burning in my pocket. Will Is So Hot.

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