Saga 146 ~Thankful B Cause… Virgil~

November 24, 2022November 24, 2022 WillLeave a comment

Happy Thanksgiving? Cue Karlee Grey as a Pilgrim. And a “Native” Giggity. Is that Racist? Well, I have bigger fish to fry or a turkey. I’m wondering whether my Ma will send one for Virgil. And then there’s the Day Job (sigh). Thankful B Cause… Virgil

Thursday, November 24, 2022

Saga 146 ~Thankful B Cause… Virgil~

662 Days Without B III, Day 103 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? How about, what are you thankful for? My eyes are open, so you know me.

The better to see you with my boy. Except I don’t. New glasses and all. I swear I got sick when I first put them on. Or was it that I saw the old man that remains, Braxton? Hell! I believe I can see the future… as the song goes. If that were true, you’d still be alive. It always comes back to that, doesn’t it? B, it leads me to a bunch of questions for you, ha. Are you thankful that you’re wherever and not here? That I keep your memory alive, even if it’s only in my grief? What about the fact that I’m not alone? It is Virgil’s First Thanksgiving. You love your grandma’s cooking; I haven’t heard from her about food.

But B, I’m time-traveling today, but we will finish talking tomorrow. But what about now? Can I stay in the moment? That’s the problem. The moment always hurts. Your past? Braxton, when I think about the last few hours… I’m disgusted with myself. Private Time. I have these new glasses again, but I’ve been all sorts of woozy. To see the world any clearer? Yeah, that’s exactly what I need, isn’t it? Existing in such a place B III. Dammit! Then there’s Thursday, um, your today. B III, the Humiliations Galore, what will they be? Then again, I am thankful. For moments I have the chance to somehow, someway, become. You know the man you believed I was for so long. Suddenly I see, right?

Whether that’s the result of glasses, “gunk,” or gorging myself on tacos and nacho fries. Clarity, Unforgettable, The “Best Friend” I ever had. That’s what you are, my Little B. Always and Forever, I’ll be thankful that I was/am your Dad. That’s what transcends time. Only again, you want to know about today? Did I ever think I was so tired because of my eyes? I’m still all pumped up on 5-hour ENERGY. Why can’t I see to be thankful? Because I know how it all ends unless I do something. I have Virgil, but he ain’t you, B III. My “faith” hasn’t run out on that, though. Not yet… But you’re asking for one thing, though. Two; thankful for Yabbos. Thankful B Cause… Virgil

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Saga 139 ~B Hold, V’s Place~

November 17, 2022November 16, 2022 WillLeave a comment

Nothing’s gonna change my world… but until I have one, I must exist in this one. And the world keeps on turning. B III’s bed is on the other side. V doesn’t curl up like a pancake. More like he goes all over. But really, where am I? B Hold V’s Place.

Thursday, November 17, 2022

Saga 139 ~B Hold, V’s Place~

655 Days Without B III, Day 096 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? You know this week and the next for me… It ain’t right but to write.

The things I forget. Not you, Triple B, never you. Everything remains exactly the same. Okay, so that’s a lie. Braxton, see why I never told you… EVERYTHING. 90, 98%? Inevitable. Should I survive the rest of the day… Wednesday, November 16, 2022? I’ll be madder. None of this is Virgil’s fault, of course. Hell! Not when I threw out your last can of food. Or when I was sure you were haunting me. I would find a toy or bandanna thrown about somewhere. Is that a point in V’s favor? I was telling Echo that V ain’t you, but? Well, again, it could be the time of the year. If I wasn’t so busy with… no, not for you. I haven’t told Virgil Vivi.

So humiliating I should go back to talking to Inspector Echo. I’m not Virgil’s Daddy. Only I find myself playing that role again, and I want to remember how it was with us, B III. Didn’t I write a whole ass book about it? And yet I have to face this week and the next. Anyway, let me get to the point. So I let Virgil sleep on the bed. You had your side. How I miss that. We would be back to back. Your constant vigilance of the bedroom door. When you weren’t at your post. I’ve noticed I find myself at the edge of the bed every morning, and Virgil is dead center. Even when I’m writing, Virgil Vivi takes up space. (Sigh)

I had to move your bed over by the bathroom. You hated waiting for me to get out of the shower. The thing is, I saw Virgil sniffing around your bed, and I yelled. Virgil knows. That bed is where you died. And here comes today’s bout of tears. He stays away from there for the most part. I’m still mad about your pillow; he pooped on it. And I destroyed it; it’s in the closet. V has your food/water bowls. A few of your toys, too; it ain’t right. And now, his first Thanksgiving here. Your favorite day next to your birthday, I know. It’s not his place to be you. Mine to be a Dad? Everything has its place. B Hold, V’s Place.

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Saga 132 ~GLASS Dismissed, B, V~

November 10, 2022November 10, 2022 WillLeave a comment

Went to see Black Panther: Wakanda Forever today. I can’t say how much I saw with broken glasses and watching with an old pair. I need to take a look around, at Virgil, at existence, sigh. And learn how to live? GLASS Dismissed, B, V

Thursday, November 10, 2022

Saga 132 ~GLASS Dismissed, B, V~

648 Days Without B III, Day 089 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? You were too smart for your own good sometimes. Is there such a thing? Myself?

People thought it was because of the glasses. That’s where I was today, Wednesday, November 9, 2022. I went to the eye doctor. It wasn’t by choice, Braxton. Broken glasses. Plus, you’re joining the club. You know, talking to you for two days. But I don’t mind when it’s you. Of course, five girls are gasping or sighing with relief. I don’t know B. Speaking of the ladies. So, um, I had to buy new glasses. The deed is done, and I’m another $206.00 in the hole. Can I go a day without thinking about sex? Try a day not wondering about my lost boy. Not your fault, B III. Hell! I couldn’t see you if I wanted Braxton. Glasses fucked and all. I’m trying!

But give your Dad a pretty brunette in glasses, gushing about me. Yeah, I’m in trouble. Or how do the kids say, shut up and take my money? She upsold your Dad quite a bit. Well, it could be worse, Triple B. While I was sitting there thinking about doing some Triple X shit. $732.00 was the total price for today. But Tuesday, I ensured I had my insurance and paperwork cocked, locked, and ready to rock. Virgil appreciates eating. But I still don’t like looking into mirrors. Which I did a lot of today. Um, Wednesday. The glasses I bought were not in my black battle standard but brown. Staring at her tits but your eyes, lower… I mean, you’re short, not in, um…

Only I’m sure I’m going to Hell. Yet the thought did cross my mind, again, that looking through your eyes. I mean your perspective. Could this all be your doing? That makes me a horrible human being, Braxton. My paranoia surrounding you? No, that’s Virgil’s thing. What? I have yet to have had any time to train him. But here we are 89 days in. Three months B III. However, did I teach you Triple B? I didn’t. I was there sitting on your mom’s couch. You and I learned from each other. But to be without you, Braxton. The last look you gave me. Maybe you know I can’t stand looking at myself anymore. So I went to see Black Panther: Wakanda Forever today. But, GLASS Dismissed, B, V

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Heartbeat Clarity

June 8, 2017 WillLeave a comment

What do you do if what you see in the mirror isn’t what you want to see… I do what I can but I can’t afford plastic surgery. Sometimes I don’t even bother to look anymore, that’s the beauty of dreams or wondering what “she” sees. “Heartbeat Clarity”…

Love… Prescription… Glasses

May 8, 2017 WillLeave a comment

This is why you don’t wear glasses to bed though honestly I think I’ll leave mine on my “first” time just to really catch what’s going on, while getting it on. Love makes it so you can’t see straight anyway… Love… Prescription… Glasses

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyviASgvfpk

My heart skips a beat;
makes up with two, maybe three… a feat
holding back my heart, for I’m no hunk
or Hulk seeing stars, just collisions
Only never between the sheets

I watch you fall from the sky
and have no reason to ask the deities why
Yet I remain a monk
As you make your decision
But I’m just another guy

No Aristotle, Socrates, Plato… they thought a lot
Not even they knew how to stop
this thing they call “love”, who’d a thunk
Me and you
Love me like you do
That’s not a mission

Just a dream in my bunk

So why are you here today?
Did we Marvin Gaye
and get it on… from my dreams to my bed double vision

new prescription or am I drunk

Inspired By: ???, The Isley Brothers “Between The Sheets”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, Charlie Puth Ft. Meghan Trainor “Marvin Gaye”, and Foreigner “Double Vision”

Love Sees… Surprise

May 7, 2017 WillLeave a comment

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T_GALiBCGlw

And what’s another sunup
A pillar of hope
Pitched tent
The perfect ten
This very visible sin
Thinking out loud, do you love me… nope?
Sigh

Because three little words aren’t said enough
or far too much
What’s the meaning of

such a word as love
Not just a word on the page
Memories of some long forgotten age
Is a heart a cage?
No matter how I try

it is this dream of us
only it’s not quite paradise
when I realize
I’ve never been on the otherside
on the inside of love because
Maybe I was waiting for you
to love me like you do
Perhaps I am scared to
My love, why

Standing here right before your eyes

Mistake or surprise…

Inspired By: ???, Ed Sheeran “Thinking Out Loud”, The Contours “Do You Love Me”, Bliss 66 “Not Quite Paradise”, Red Hot Chili Peppers “Otherside”, Nada Surf “Inside Of Love”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, and Sia “My Love”

Three Alarm Love

May 6, 2017 WillLeave a comment

Love is coming… no not so fast, if it were I would be on a porn star level; I’m still waiting on love and sometimes I can’t help but wonder why. My heart is a constant reminder but so many girls seem to be false alarms. “Three Alarm Love” please

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3WLJZqPqNU

This heart is an alarm bell
that’s been tripped
a time or two

Buttons opened, clothes unzipped
Love me like you do
Hot as Hell

But, I love you
Three little words, I don’t know very well
They slipped?
Say something
“God I’m coming!!!”

My love, can’t you tell

Breathing Comes Easy

May 5, 2017 WillLeave a comment

There’s plenty I wish she would say and there’s plenty I wish I could say but in the end it’s what we should say that matters. If I could get her off I would be quite fortunate but if she said that she loved me, sigh. “Breathing Comes Easy”… to some.

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4V_oWaCdu5o

Breathe, before or after, maybe
realizing it’s not just because
evoking erotic platitudes
An afterglow or “I’m coming!!!”
The answer SHOULD be love
How if you could love me like you do
Everything even breathing; is easier to say I love you

Inspired By: ???, “Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, and Lifehouse “Everything”

Written If Not by Cupid

May 5, 2017 WillLeave a comment

How do they write the love stories, the love poems, the songs… ever get that feeling that there is something everyone else knows and you’re just not getting? I’ve imagined my first, well… everything; how that might change me. Written If Not by Cupid.

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDstJE0u0zU

And love is written by…
well, all of the rest
The girl who lost her dress
Perhaps the boy who asked why
My, my, my
How some have confessed
But when I love you… I don’t want to guess
Yet together we lie

I love you
is defined by the man I hope to be
not the man you see
who would have you, love me like you do
Only if you are the girl I hope you are
My love when do we start

Our love story

Inspired By: ???, Johnny Gill “My, My, My”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, and Sia “My Love”

Love a Little Sooner

May 5, 2017 WillLeave a comment

You just don’t know how some things are going to end and others you hope they never do. I don’t when I started to believe I would find love first and I still do but some say, nice guys finish last take that however you like. Love a Little Sooner

See Me Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmsPhSlhKbQ

So let the stars be lost in your eyes
Let them return in sweet agony
for an angel has forgotten how to fly
I know you don’t love gravity
but good luck with shooting the moon

Only you… somehow
Without buttons, zippers, panties, dress
all of me comes up or paradise falls down
Lose your wings in such a pretty mess
Love makes us loons

Is this love after all
Three little words I can’t let drop
as I’m enjoying the fall
“Please don’t stop”
Your words are my favorite tune

and I will never ask you when or where too
Of course it is a sin
to love me like you do
You’ll be on your way back again
Will you leave me marooned?

When you do say something
“I’m coming!!!”
My love… make it soon

Inspired By: ???, OK Go “Shooting The Moon”, Yazoo “Only You”, John Legend “All Of Me”, Vanity “Pretty Mess”, Whitesnake “Is This Love”, Jamie Kennedy and Stu Stone “Circle Circle Dot Dot”, Ellie Goulding “Love Me Like You Do” Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack, A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera “Say Something”, Sia “My Love” and Oleta Adams “Get Here”

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