Eff E-Day… I started this Monday, August 26, 2024. Now it’s Tuesday, and… Is this week getting any better? I feel sick. Is that the sensation of getting older? An energy shot? Being skeevy? I’m not sleeping, so I can shout Eff E-Day! Braxton, Virgil…
Wednesday, September 4, 2024
Meditation 065 ~Eff E-Day! Braxton, Virgil…~
Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I love my boy, my son, my Braxton. I am trying with Virgil. Honest, Inspector. But today, friend…
It’s Monday, August 26, 2024. And I can’t remember; have I cried for Braxton, Inspector? I’ve been saying for these two weeks, besides, STAY ALIVE! I’m going to be selfish.
Inspector? Today, I am AFRAID. Not of forgetting my boy or finding Virgil making messes. Today, I FEAR E-Day. E-Day stands for Emergence, Existence, and Extinction, Echo. Ha-Ha! You think the Locusts from Gears of War were bad. Wait until you get a load of me. I tell myself this when I see my face in the mirror, dear Inspector.
The horror, the horror of this almost forty-year-old man, Echo. I effing hate myself today. Every day, really. But I wish I’d never emerged. I can’t stand existence. And extinction…
If Virgil wasn’t here today…
I’d be effing the bedsheets. But E-Day’s arrival demands I clean. Crispy, not crusty sheets.
Eww! What? Do you find the mention of some “romantic” stories gross? For two weeks…
Backyard Dungeon 13 has its moments. But you know that’s not what I’m talking about.
Inspector, if I haven’t been fighting everything about E-Day, you know what I’ve been watching. And the more I’ve been figuring out, the more I’ve found each day. I’d be driving Dirty Diana crazy. You remember her before my son passed, then… Uh, I couldn’t.
There’s Braxton’s spirit, specter… I don’t know. But now you all share in my skeeviness. When I’m not effing myself over E-Day, I want something, someone pretty to look at.
Being forty… plenty of effing.
Almost. But I hated thirty-nine, seventeen, and even seven. But here and now, there’s uh?
- Madoka Araki
- Tsubaki and Sakura Miyajima
- Reika and Reina Kurashiki
- Ayana Fujisawa
- Mikura Suzuki
- Asumi Hisato
- Sawa
- Tomoko
- Natsuno
- NETORARE
I thought that I would make one of those 64-brackets or something. And then I saw my Day Job schedule… Anything to keep my greatest FEAR at bay. My father is the originator of E-Day Day One. It’s good that I’m learning so much Japanese because what will my old man say to his bum of a son? I got lucky. I love Braxton. I don’t hate Virgil, Inspector. E-Day… Fearing my father, future, finding more… Eff E-Day! Braxton, Virgil…
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