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Episode 318 ~What The S Will~

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Indiana Gone says often enough, “Get Your S*IT Together” well not to me, but when it comes to what I write and read, well last week, I talked about being sick but not that kind of illness and considering Alabama, hell I’m delightful. What The S Will.

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Episode 318 ~What The S Will~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now, but as we have seen, money doesn’t make us all decent. As much as I would love to be Captain America, Miguel or Robby from Cobra Kai. Or even one of these people hating on Daenerys. I don’t deny my sins.

Captain America never had power, so when he gained it, he knew well enough about people without it. He used it to fight their oppressors. You know I consider money a form of energy and what’s the first thing I’ll be doing with it? My “September Fantasy.” As always Inspector Echo I’m not looking to be the hero. Am I still complaining about the fact that the rich, expect the poor to help the homeless? I don’t clothe the naked, okay collars, leashes, lingerie. My charity is held for those of B III’s persuasion and girls that take their clothes off for me. Now I need only be a man of my word. Still, I have until September, or this month if I can convince MILF Dos. Today I remain silent, silly, or scared so I ask What The Hell?

Yes, that’s what I said when I went to read this particular story and found it deleted. Now I don’t blame the blog owner one little bit. Inspector you know how reading the most horrific stories about young women gets me off. I read Erotica all the time, but it’s the true ones like all that went down with Angie Varona. Quite light compared to poor Amanda Todd and then the Cosplayer’s well damn. I don’t go looking for the broken, except in fiction. But lo and behold I find this “fictional” account about how young starlets get their gigs. Chloë Grace Moretz sigh, two writers spin this tale about her, and it creeped plenty of people out but me? Again being polite; I replaced Hell with “What The Fuck?”

My language right but it burns me up, along with the money in my pocket, positive vibes. Only, they’re not stopping me from sleeping, and that is something I can’t afford. Not if I expect to keep two young ladies screaming. A world in silence reading, or making it at all in a salacious industry. It all comes back to books, brothels, busty starlets. Now I’m speeding along, wanting to keep a promise. I’m sorry I even made it but somehow, What The S Will.

“If Women didn’t exist, all the money in the world would have no meaning.” Aristotle Onassis

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Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

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How sick am I, not that kind of illness, haven’t had the flu in years, so how can I explain how lazy I’m being; happy thoughts, I’m grateful for getting back into reading, for beauty, and The Purge franchise. “Will Is So Hot”

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Episode 311 ~Will Is So Hot~

Forgive Me Echo,
I AM a Millionaire right now, with the A/C blasting, buried beneath my covers, while blasting Star Wars videos. So yeah I’m Jabba the Hutt still trying to play as though I’m Dennis Hof. Hell, I want to be even better than he was. Another sin would be that of comparison. Can I at least acknowledge the fact that I’m not a good man? Still, I have kept the essential part in my pants; did I say that out loud Inspector Echo?

Wouldn’t it be my head, my heart, or my hands? As is the case that my mind is all over the place these days. Now my little head, well we’ll get to that. As far as my heart, I love B III and money, my hands… sigh. Between Eileen Kelly, Sesskasays, Cherry, Ruby Rae, The Five by Lily White, etc. speaking of my pants. I’ve been a begging S.O.B. lately. There’s Cherry and Milf Dos, and I would call myself selfish only thinking about me. Hell, I saw Milf Dos had a charity thing that’s gotten funded. While all I can think about is being too chicken to get her clothes off. Fear though continues to be my greatest sin. Be it singing at work, not saying what’s on my mind, all the secrets I keep; done in the dark.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duHRethKzVE

Which is precisely where my fantasies are going only should I blame Lily. My libido, what gods of lust exist. Now I know you’re not Dirty Diana, but you want to hear a fantasy that’s sending me to Hell? Of course, I told you about Alice Little and Ruby Rae, The Purge. The last time I checked Ruby was nowhere near this level, ropes, blinding hoods. Adding The Purge movies themselves, now Alice hmm? So I would like to play a game, yes I’m mixing in the Saw movies, have both women, but only one walks out. FANTASY, can I stress that enough? Between The Five, The Purge, and “The Corpse of Anna Fritz” is nothing original anymore. Yes, I’ve said I want to have my Pure Taboo studio eventually., Only my fantasy come September?

Yeah, Indiana Gone is right I have to publish a book. Stop dreaming about giving my money away right? I do ask your forgiveness Inspector Echo, and there is always enough money burning in my pocket. Will Is So Hot.

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Episode 085 ~Anger Burns Hotter Than Lust~

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Too many sad friends to give into my misery, and trying to start this new week out of bed if I’m lucky but waiting to go to work and then after, my dose of the rage virus it seems, Anger Burns Hotter Than Lust.

Monday, September 24, 2018

Episode 085 ~Anger Burns Hotter Than Lust~

Fifty-First Rule Madam Justice

How to make One Million Dollars, I wish those ideas came as fast as things I’m mad at or how quickly I get hard, though I didn’t wake up with Morning Wood, no I woke up angry that every other part of me had to get up. I read somewhere that couples shouldn’t go to bed angry, and most nights I’m not sure how I feel, though I usually tell myself stories, I go over games in my head, The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time maybe Detroit: Become Human.

Back when I had a full-time school schedule, though I remember a pretty girl here, or there it is the rage I embraced the most, and now, hell I can be angry that I don’t have time for gaming, the money for it, that I don’t have a pretty girl like North, Kara, or Chloe. I’m mad that already I feel sick and what did I do wrong, I woke up right when I wanted to, ate breakfast, I’m even talking to you this morning so why should I be in pain. How about the fact that I can’t have hope, no I’m afraid which only means I need more anger to fuel me because when I get to the day job, what happens then?

Wouldn’t indifference be worse, I either want your head on a stick or your head on a… yeah it’s easier to talk about hate as always, people more often than not prefer my misery and they want it with me smiling. Me and my dumbass smile, THIS I CANNOT DO (anymore) I mean, so either I’m a pervert, a psycho, but never a person and strangely enough that makes me mad because do I honestly want to be like any person I know nowadays. Everyone I like is suffering, the man I am, I still hate, which goes perfectly with hating the majority of human beings so yes indeed I enjoy looking at beautiful things.

The Beautiful People, maybe that’s why I want anger because I want to feel something other than anything to be ashamed of right; being mad makes me damn well normal but pictures of bodies one way or another gets you kicked off Pinterest but not today. For now, I’m angry that this day isn’t going as planned but I am in more control dear Madam Justice, surprisingly this rage and Anger Burns Hotter Than Lust.

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Episode 018 ~Do You Lust Me~

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I always feel like, somebody’s watching me as the song goes and I wonder what they’re doing because I doubt it’s anything sexy and even if they loved me, would they admit to something like this? Do You Lust me?

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Episode 018 ~Do You Lust Me~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
Give Me One Reason to be a sex symbol other than the entire world going blind; how I’ve found myself in the mirror plenty for a couple of days and Saturday all I can see is fear, and it’s cuter than me, dammit. When I was a teenager there was this girl that sat with me at lunch, we rarely talked, and I can’t say I was attracted to her in the slightest, but my ‘father” asks how did I know how she sees me and yeah I don’t know honestly.

I’ve known maybe one girl in two years possibly who openly told me that she wanted to fuck me and you want to know how does it feel for me to hear that, honestly they should bottle such an emotion. On the other hand, I honestly need to know when to shut the fuck up, playing games with another girl, and I got her and her giggly friend to look me up on Facebook, and that’s all she wrote there. Let’s call her Zibby to my Jesse, the same girl that got me going but no I haven’t told her off yet Dirty Diana, that’s one fear I haven’t had to face as of yet, and the thing is what if I’m still 100% clueless?

Lost Without U, I’ve said some stupid things to girls to be quite honest, and we still remember the bitch who I haven’t looked up at all this year; I’ve never tracked people down, or hidden in dumpsters. Okay this is more of a conversation for Inspector Echo, and I’ve probably already had it, and with you too, the desire to have some girl go all “Taylor Townsend” on my ass, You Don’t Know My Name, I’d even take Amber from “Kill Theory.” A dominant I am but to have the girl chase the monster and then when she finally finds me, we’ll see how badly she wants to play, but that Dirty Diana is a dream, however with my book… who knows, could happen.

One woman looked me up on Whisper and as soon as she saw my face; it’s hard to have body issues when people never get past the mask, and yeah women have some problems with men but if some woman came after me? Not in a psychotic, I want to kill you sort of way, more like U Got It Bad, how North looks at Markus (thank you Detroit: Become Human) way *sigh* asking the obvious, Do You Lust Me.

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Episode 011 ~How Lust Last Forever~

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How old is Barbie, Galatea, or the Mona Lisa, I suppose I could look them up, and if I asked about Stormy Daniels career, I would only be some guy that likes porn, and you wouldn’t ask about the beautiful woman. How Lust Lasts Forever?

Thursday, July 12, 2018

Episode 011 ~How Lust Last Forever~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
Give Me One Reason to write about her other than she’s hot, I’ll wait… yeah no one can sit forever, but these words should they ever know a publisher; I don’t want everyone to know how “freaky-deaky” I am, what turns me on as if that’s a secret one can hope. Novel talk might be more of a conversation for Lady Sophia but seeing as how I’ve getting inspired by two porn stars “Stormy Daniels” and “Bryci,” a Cosplayer “Angie Griffin” not to mention an ex-love interest here and there truthfully.

Of course, names are changed and let me say that the library has worked out for me, forces me to keep my hands on my keyboard, and I don’t want to look up porn, I know I have plenty saved up. I also haven’t bothered with being polite like with a love letter, a road I’m Never Going Back Again, because it’s creepy when you know the author, back when I wrote for other people, guys ended up fucking some beautiful girl. Men write songs, produce films like “500 Days of Summer” one of the greatest lessons I ever learned when it comes to writing.

“Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature.”

“That guy had a lot more sex than me.” ― 500 Days of Summer (2009)

One more reason I’m a dominant, I want to make an impression, that I can’t only be some standard dick to ride, that I want a woman to remember, as the song goes “guess it’s true, I’m not good at a one-night stand.” I want a woman to Stay With Me; in a way, they all do to be sure. I can fuck a woman until she can’t walk for a bit. Until she’s speaking so many lies over the phone so she can Stay, and of course scarves and her lingerie are fun to be sure. So when I finally find my forever will I quit writing, of course not, I’m even thinking of ways to incorporate sex with Camp NaNoWriMo other than erotica, if I find YouTube distracting or a blowjob while driving what about while writing novels?

I still remember when getting my porn fix meant praying for HBO, Showtime, Cinemax to show some soft-core or stealing my father’s pornos, and when I first discovered Hentai, now those were some fun times. I have never forgotten that I’m a guy that likes boobs and that girls what, That’s What I Like, breasts, eyes, thighs, though I have my preferences as always though not set in stone but honestly How Lust Lasts Forever?

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Lesson 357 ~And Other Dangerous Weapons~

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Fear is the monster, and the weapons I have aren’t doing anything to kill it, do I even want to anymore, I’m tired but everything is keeping me on my back or my ass, but at least I’m writing, and words are weapons. “And Other Dangerous Weapons.”

Saturday, June 23, 2018

Lesson 357 ~And Other Dangerous Weapons~

Hey Lady Lu,
Can You Love Me Again, I suppose some people will answer yes even if they don’t mean it when I’m in the ground, but today I’m Alive; so why is it when I saw 357 I immediately thought about a gun, I’m an American, I’m suicidal, what keeps me on my back?

If anything my day job, I didn’t start sleeping on my back until I became terrified that I would lose my employment, I’ve only ever been late once, and I was wide awake at the time, though generally like Frankenstein’s monster I rise because the job is killing me. How many times do I say I love my dog like pancakes, but like any parent sometimes he becomes my excuse not to do something or to do everything, but love can be a lot of things including shameful. It’s almost as if one should be ashamed of being depressed, for having the blessings that someone like me has, and I am blessed Lady Luna I see that; a bed, a couch, a chair, a dog, so many soft places and some people only see such luxury in a coffin, and that’s if they’re lucky enough.

Speaking of luck the worst weapon that I use against myself is LUST; if I go to Hell, more like when; I can only hope I get a circle two offense, and the sad thing is I can’t even name everything I’ve looked up this past week or even the past hour. I’m so far from paradise nowadays, but I want something higher; I keep telling myself that but as I was saying to “Cherry” yesterday that something greater will probably come with brunette hair.

You would think I wouldn’t look at the ground so much but more at my wooden dining room table or something else that’s indeed rockhard, writing, woody, the weather though I like the rain somewhat which matches my mood, slow and dark. The clock is another source of motivation and irritation over how much time I waste doing nothing it’s a constant struggle it wears me out. Besides lust, SLEEP should be considered one of my seven deadly sins; I have to give up sleep, somebody said that’s when the real work begins when you’re tired and hungry, not that I’m helping myself when it comes to food either sadly.

So day job, fatherhood, depression, lust, writing, time, and sleep, see it doesn’t take a 357 to kill yourself not when there are so many choices And Other Dangerous Weapons.

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Lesson 187 ~Stacy’s Mom Or Hers~

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Giving the term, you’re a good mom a new meaning but her being a mom isn’t exactly what I’m looking for, but at my age, I need a lot of money. Maybe a tad more maturity, Star Wars, The Hunger Games, etc. “Stacy’s Mom Or Hers” was a fangirl, hopefully

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Lesson 187 ~Stacy’s Mom Or Hers~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, I like to think I’m equal opportunity when it comes to women… well okay, I’m not, but sometimes a particular fetish captures my eye and at the moment that would be MILFS. I think I mentioned yesterday I still believe in a thing called love and yeah I’m into a “P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)” from time to time but there is something to be said about older women, hell I’m not a young man.

I see “age appropriate” girls all the time but when an older woman flirts or wants to show sex appeal and beauty… I had a mom send me a nude picture once, face and all and there are plenty of other wives and moms that just show off. Maybe it’s a good thing men aren’t like women when it comes to these displays or as always I could just be a deviant, but then again I’ve never asked for a nude picture. Except this one “she who will not be named” but she was an ex-wife and a dog mom (yeah straight up bitch) but she was bragging about being on a nude beach, topless.

Anyway the fantasy today is pretty much what if one of these women practiced what they preached; I thought about having this one as a submissive, but she’s a good girl. I always fall for good girls, using the line once, “if you’re going to feel guilty, you might as well do something to feel guilty about.” Besides banging sisters it’s always been a fantasy to do a mother and a daughter, and I’m not even close to that, the things we see in porn daily, rots the brain right?

At least I’m not seen as the gay best friend and most see me as relatively harmless but let’s say I have matured somewhat but if I ever have a few million dollars… yeah I’m screwed come that payday, preferably by an 18-year-old, yay 2018. Still the idea of having some older woman that has a man, kids or both and making her feel like some young slut she might have been in her youth?

The woman I end up with will probably be the hot mom of the neighborhood, another reason I won’t be living near people, but I would love to show her off. Then again in these types of situations, keep it in the closet, okay I’ll stop with the Michael Jackson playlist, but we all know that somebody’s got it going on Stacy’s Mom Or Hers.

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Lesson 180 ~The Coming Attractions Hmm~

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I don’t need to go to the lobby to get myself a treat and any day can honestly be hump day if you find somebody willing or find yourself in love, and I usually avoid the chick flicks which might be stupid on my part. “The Coming Attractions Hmm”

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Lesson 180 ~The Coming Attractions Hmm~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, even if it’s caught on camera, though I think I’ve said before that my reputation is probably already ruined and it’s just a manner of time. Anyway voyeurism, exhibitionism, and even the general fear of getting caught, what better place is there than a movie theater, okay I can think of plenty, but I’ve been to an adult theater, to be honest, Dirty Diana.

Now was Star Wars: The Last Jedi, that bad, hell I’m going to see it again today, but it’s something about being in the dark fantasizing about Rey or Rose, okay it doesn’t just have to be Star Wars. As I said, I’ve been to an adult theater a few times and let me just say that it’s nothing like the porn movies I’ve seen or maybe there just aren’t that many options here. The only good news is I have seen some genuinely gross things but wasting ten bucks is still losing ten dollars if you don’t like the company you keep and I can’t even remember the movie that was showing; like that’s ever the point just saying.

I’ve always imagined though I would take some girl at some point and no I’m still not in a sharing mood yet people watching me and her together, why oh why do I find myself so brave when it comes to sex and violence. That explains so much, get me huffy or horny, and I don’t care what people think about me for a while; to think I’m quite respectful in the regular theater, I like movies. The thing about it is, I would get hotter in a proper film, porn is great and all but I can usually make anything into a porno flick.

Not only that, give me a girl that likes to watch porn at the house, though I’ve freaked some girls out, am I ashamed of my kink, no but since the point is to get the girl… Better to leave it on Netflix, Amazon, and the latest Hollywood blockbuster, and my vanilla watch list indeed.

Anyway, my “Fucket” List includes, sex in an adult theater, in a standard theater, and backstage someplace, “Dawson’s Creek” but today will be an ordinary day, The Coming Attractions Hmm.

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Lesson 173 ~A Return To Innocence~

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I won’t burst out into song or even a crying fit as sad as I am, I need to keep my fluids, and I must be the only guy looking for that stuff they used in the movie Equilibrium, or I need a woman like Winston Smith had. A Return To Innocence

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Lesson 173 ~A Return To Innocence~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, though I let myself down, literally, a loss of power, a loss of control and what was it this time, a fantasy about a maid, what about a bit of erotica, an incredible hatefuck, or just that pornstar Holly Lane, a million excuses sadly.

Now the first thing is I’m not Winston Smith; I think whores are deadening which is strange because I instead enjoy making the most innocent of ladies claim whoredom or making them claim to be sluts. Is it just me or does every guy want some virgin, someone untouched and yet they seek out pretty much any woman that will spread their legs? Hell, I could take this to a biblical level, women are responsible for original sin right, and the church teaches that a man must have a godly household, okay creeping myself out.

Anyway, I’m in that period of being thoroughly disgusted at my weakness and vowing never to give in again and oh look I have three of my fantasies on my phone. The thing is it isn’t the somewhat porn that gets me, it’s the idea, hell not even the tease, just the sweetest things, the angels that drive me mad, maybe that’s why I appreciate the silence and the dark. Maybe I need the hurt and the pain, the humiliation, and the degradation; while running errands today I remembered my own Harvey Weinstein pervy attitude, doesn’t happen too often but such and such makes me hate myself all the more.

Maybe it’s just the holiday season but I think we honestly need a new plague and then that reminded me of “The Screwfly Solution” … relax Dirty Diana; I’m not that much of a psycho. One must think however what women do to men or is it merely genetics, could be kinky, but some like being choked during sex and others like doing the choking, spanking, bondage, you know, etc.

I miss the feeling of my innocence, around thirty-one days of it and you know what I felt, besides horny… more primal like I was on the hunt, and I didn’t just want any woman, I could have one if I wanted. Maybe I just want to feel all lovey-dovey only, A Return To Innocence.

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Lesson 166 ~How Stars Are Born~

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In a galaxy far, far away, or just a mind as dirty, as depraved, and as perverted as my own, or maybe I just really need to pop and if won’t be sex, give me some laser fire and lightsabers any day. How Stars Are Born, if I had one wish

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Lesson 166 ~How Stars Are Born~

WARNING, 18+, READER DISCRETION ADVISED

Come In Dirty Diana,
No Fear, hopefully not tonight, though to be honest I do intend to be a Star Wars father someday, but first I got to find the right girl, and if I lived in a galaxy far, far away that would take even more time than now. Speaking of which do you think George Lucas and whoever is writing/directing Star Wars currently might have a thing for brunettes or girls with dark hair, that would explain my fetish to a degree somewhat.

There is no way I can tell you I never had a thing for Princess Leia and her slave bikini and as you can see, well I always wanted to fuck Natalie Portman, strangely I’ve seen her sexier, but this works well. My first fantasy this evening, of course, would be to see Princess Leia taken by Jabba the Hutt and any number of his creatures, monsters, and tentacles are still write up there. Can’t say I’ve thought much of incest porn but Leia and Luke or better Leia double teamed with the team of Luke and Han, probably a gangbang of other heroes in the rebellion or Emperor Palpatine.

If you want to know my ultimate fantasy I have three more names for you, Padmé Amidala, Rey, Jyn Erso along with Princess Leia. It sounds like I want to open my space brothel and hell one man did Dennis Hof and the Alien Cathouse, that is indeed a place I have to visit one day. I’m not limited to the beauties of Star Wars but that’s one of the reasons I’m coming to you a day early or not, I have to get my rocks off somewhere you know.

Whatever would I do if I could have my way with the beauties above, yet another reason to be a Sith, a man of the Empire, the First Order, talk about the sort of power you would have in chains at your disposal. There are far too many scenarios in my head from mother-daughter to Jyn in prison, making love to Rey in the desert sands, sounds hot in more ways than one, hell awaits.

The hentai “Helter Skelter” set in the Star Wars universe, I don’t know how I’m going to get any sleep tonight just picturing that this is How Stars Are Born?

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