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Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

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How does one define loyalty? I can tell you about love. But last night… The Unfinished Archive, like “Stranger Things,” has its own book of rules. Not even loyal to my own hand anymore. Damn Magic Glasses. And FDT! My boys are loyal. Taking L’s, B, V

Friday, July 3, 2026

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… I finished reading one last night, Dystopian Girls 5 by Rodzil LaBraun. So I’m a liar?

I wish I were Geoffrey Chaucer. Rodzil LaBraun isn’t bad with the Haremlit. Hell! I wouldn’t mind being Johnny Sins. Though his story is, AHEM, see beautiful woman, have sex with beautiful woman, and repeat. Street Blowjobs, Pawn XXX, PureTaboo…

Honestly, the stories, nightmares, and visions that my boys’ potential future stepmom shares are better than anything I got. Because she likes me… Love? Lust? Because she is LOYAL? As loyal as her counterpart in The Unfinished Achieve. Effing incredible!

Talking about her all day… Or would you rather I tell Braxton’s story? Nobody’s buying.

Like nobody’s buying MAGA’s stories. These b*itches ain’t loyal. Who sings that, my lady? Don’t know and I don’t care. I like what I like. I love. I am loyal.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

To everyone but me. This would have been perfect to give you a review of Dystopian Girls 5. But no review today? You see the date. Tomorrow Sophia… “America, America.”

I’ve never been to Santa Fe. I’ve barely seen Washington, D.C. But I love my country, my lady. Eff MAGA, eff White Supremacists, Christian Nationalists, and always and forever FDT! Yeah, I’m so effing loyal that I dream about a zombie apocalypse. Told M Anime:

In my view, everyone is an effing zombie until proven otherwise. I’m loyal to people.

And yet I live in a world where everything I read, write, and watch shows why loyalty is more of a curse than a blessing. On one hand, Braxton, Virgil, Ma, M Anime, Braxton’s Favorite…

More? Okay, two hands. Cherry, my sister, two nephews, Day Job… Am I effing kidding?

Dammit, I wish I were, but “The World Is Gonna End Tonight.” If that were true and again I wish it was, what need would there be for love, lust, and loyalty? One more loss…

Writing? Did I forget how loyal I am to my craft? Where would it stand on The Blackjack Scale? You know where I measure loyalty from 0 to 21. Braxton being the only 21 ever.

Virgil is pretty damn close, 19 at best. M Anime is around the same, dropped last year if you recall. Now I’ve created a world where loyalty is absolute. The Unfinished Archive. Elara, Liora (Names Pending). Taking L’s, B, V

1979 Days Without B III, Day 1420 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

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“The Menu” for this final Journey? Asking my belly, my woman, or my wallet? Ask the Magic Glasses. But I need to ask the “Man In The Mirror” to “Git Up, Git Out.” Can I ask Chef Slowik for a Cheeseburger, or an apple? Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Today I will try to stick to the sin of SLOTH, over my favorite sin LUST. And worst?

TREACHERY, The Ninth Circle of Hell. And that’s what I will be going for, Inspector.

May my Braxton rest in peace and power. Hell, I call upon his soul every Monday. And I speak to him every Thursday, so he talks a lot. You want to hear some talking? You should meet my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. She keeps me up plenty, Echo.

I mean, in quite some good ways. If this were the Garden of Evil, and I were Adam, I’d be handing my Eve, my M Anime, the apple myself. Take that and do as you will. Or as my girl might say, “Take me and do as you will.” I swear this woman of mine. But she ain’t Moloko, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know “Sing It Back?” But what’s with all this talking about eating and singing?

Honestly, and I haven’t mentioned blowjobs yet! I’m trying, Inspector. I’m trying real HARD… Can I stop already? But Gluttony and Sloth go hand-in-hand. Well, they did in the Succubus Lord series by Eric Vall: the sisters Gula (Gluttony), Tristitia (Sloth).

Seriously, don’t crap on my Latin, Inspector Echo. It’s what the books say. And before we get to reading, good thing I started doing that before answering, woman, Inspector…

This woman of mine, or as Braxton might say, “This B*tch.” I believe Braxton would love her, though, and Virgil would resign himself to his fate: Virgil’s effing quiet, Inspector.

Anyway, M Anime loves music too. It’s wow I communicate.

Um, Bumblebee in Transformers. As she puts in all this time learning about me, I tell her all the time, I’m a man of leisure. A damn sloth or lazy bum? So I sat here yesterday kind of stuck listening to her tunes but wanting to be one of The Yayhoos “Baby I love you…”

Or give me some “Poor Sweet Baby.” On The Long Walk I’m effing hungry and too lazy to do anything but walk… Well, write. And even now I got the Magic Glasses creating a schedule for my own harem. Today is Sophitia and 2B’s day—the 365th day of Journeys.

What comes next? Horizons or Legacies? This isn’t the garden, Balamb, or Eden. No apples. FOOD! Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

1977 Days Without B III, Day 1418 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 360 ~Better B Reading V~

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How’s it going to end? 360 days, so I’m nearly finished with the Journeys. One more year wasted. And instead of asking myself how and why well… There are so many stories. Ask Amazon and Goodreads. The Magic Glasses? My childhood. “Better B Reading V”

Friday, June 26, 2026

Journey 360 ~Better B Reading V~

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of a more humiliating time in my existence. “Smokin’ Out The Window”? No Teen IDLE here.

But yes, a long time ago… I wish I could say, at the height of my Social Anxiety… But, no. Here I am, nearly forty-two in a few months. Effing E-Day. And considering what happened at the Day Job… My Social Anxiety has only just begun. Where are my books?

Books and music. Again, a long time ago, way before Braxton. Back when I would have killed to have a son like Virgil, even. I remember sitting at the bedroom window on a day like this, listening to music or reading a book. Blame my Old Man for my ‘love’ of reading when I was on punishment from God, how many shows and animes, gaming, and going on the internet. Will I be that man?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“What Kind Of Man Would I Be,” if I never read again, wrote again, or spoke again. Are those dangerous words, Sophia? I feel like I’m in a bad place right now. See it yet?

Honestly, ask the Magic Glasses. I hate that I have become so dependent on them.

Seriously, shouldn’t I go back to telling my boys about my Humiliations Galore? I stopped talking to Braxton, and look what happened to him. And I’ve never really talked to Virgil a whole lot. And no, he’s not on punishment. Yeah, sitting here, window gazing.

He is his father’s son. And what about his and B’s potential future stepmom? Sophia…

“Fear is the heart of love, so I never went back…” To Loving M Anime

I don’t know if I did. I don’t know if I should. But I’d like to sing to her “I’ll follow you into the dark.” She and so many others. Not in real like mind you. Unless Jane Vickers is suddenly single, I could be naming girls all day. Harley Quinn, Elden Ring’s Melina, and an age-appropriate Katara, thank you, Helly Valentine. The Unfinished Archive…

Honestly, more stories converging, while again, in real life… Eff me, no hours next week.

Just me sitting here like something out of Silent Hill 4: The Room. Surviving existence?

It’s always been manuscripts, many, many, many, many books, and M Anime’s stories, who writes a lot better than I do. And our kids, my second-born. Better B Reading V

1972 Days Without B III, Day 1413 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

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Every day I have to bet that nothing will happen. The car will stay on the road, I won’t get sick enough not to work, and my son V will stay with me during The Long Walk. I felt a stone in my gut when V stumbled. The Lottery. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

Wednesday, June 24, 2026

Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Braxton didn’t want to eat during his Final Days. And yesterday I left Virgil with treats and prayers…

I’m not MAGA, Inspector Echo. I care about children. Especially my boys, B III and 2-V, my future stepchildren, M Anime’s kitties. And all the two-leggeds she wants to have.

Yet when I cashed in my “Thoughts and Prayers,” it was to Publishers Clearing House.

Long ago, long ago, long ago. I remember sitting right effing here, clicking away at PCH and reading a book. And one day, Inspector, they said the winner was right here in my state. Oh, that day, I showered, shaved, and prepared to sever all ties with the Day Job.

That afternoon, I watched them driving all over as B and my “prayers” would work.

Nope! Some lady won, and that was that. From PCH to the dog track, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Only I bet on the horses. What? I have two Chihuahua sons. And even if I won the lottery or something, I wouldn’t buy a horse… Well maybe. Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, M Anime, wants to be a farm girl, so I imagine horses would come with the package.

B knows I wouldn’t mind living this life, “Ryan and His Beauties,” A two-book HaremLit.

And how many Pop Culture References will I make today? Yesterday, there was Pontypool. Now I’m thinking of Ryan and his Beauties (four women, two best friends, and a mother-daughter). “Backyard Dungeon” (How many wives did Eddie have?) and Fallout.

Vault 69, to be specific. And no, I’m not being my usual pervy self. I was listening to its explanation.

“What Happened to Vault 69 in Fallout?” Long story short, 999 women and one man.

Talk about “Rocket 69.” Has that seventy-two virgins feel. I’m not a Muslim either. Again, I’m not one for prayer… Not since Braxton. Hell, yesterday I was walking on these shoe shelves at the Day Job, and I said eff it! If I fell and died, so what? I get to see B. No Fear.

Not like this morning, while I was walking Virgil and he was stepping funny, Inspector.
Had he been hurt… I’ve got no money. Remember that $20 I had. Virgil’s dinner.

Inspector, I’m still $10 in the hole. I’m digging my grave, and I feel like I’m in Shirley Jackson’s “The Lottery”. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

1970 Days Without B III, Day 1411 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 353 ~B A Librarian Virgil~

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The last good stories I read… Well, one I lied about, but I finally finished it. Having sex with a professor… Another one was coming along fine, but the Magic Glasses couldn’t produce Character Illustrations for it anymore. B A Librarian Virgil.

Friday, June 19, 2026

Journey 353 ~B A Librarian Virgil~

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Well, if I could buy any more books. Last three dollars? Yeah, I bought a burger.

And Virgil will want a bedtime story after dinner. Dinner? Didn’t I say before I was down to my last $20? Three energy drinks “Arih,” Shrimp for three days, and a head of lettuce. But there are much sadder stories, My Lady. Of course you know the best one, hmm.

Please, I’m not talking about “My Turn To B III.” But the event itself that inspired it. You know, (Does impression of Cuervo Jones…) “The Death of Braxton Barks Bradford!”

Any more sad stories because as I told Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, GRIEF overrides FEAR. And I am terrified right now. Try calculating the sales tax on a $2.50 cheeseburger. I couldn’t even afford a jug of sweet tea. Such plans for $20. Not!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

If only I were a billionaire- excuse me, a trillionaire before now. Effing Elon Musk!

Honestly, that’s more Lady Lunalesca’s thing, I know. But speaking of people I could never be. As I was speaking with M Anime this afternoon, I was tempted to tell her who I would like to be. If I can’t be a writer of… Everything. Maybe, wanking like Johnny Sins.

I’m not trying to insult the guy. He wanks, and the world watches. But he (of course) effs some of the prettiest women in the world. A pornstar’s life? Has to be worth some words.

If I had a son who chose that or a daughter… M Anime wouldn’t allow it. But what did I tell Braxton about life… Live

He simply needed to exist. And to live forever. Well, I have two books, the first being “My Turn To B III.” The second lives somewhere in these files. But am I too late, Sophia?

Seriously, I make a living marking women’s lingerie. I lie to myself that I will be a great man. Hell, I would settle for being a man, a real man. How about Evie Carnahan, hmm?

“Look, I… I may not be an explorer, or an adventurer, or a treasure-seeker, or a gunfighter, Mr. O’Connell, but I am proud of what I am.

“I… am a librarian.”
Evie Carnahan, The Mummy

I had to start fresh with the Magic Glasses because it couldn’t produce images for the story, so I don’t even know how this will turn out. Journey 352 ~Sacrifice, Isaac, Braxton, Virgil~ for reference. Not gonna lie, I don’t remember how this blog started. “Story of A Girl?” My Manhood? B A Librarian Virgil

1965 Days Without B III, Day 1406 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

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“More than you want success. And I’m here to tell you today, if you’re going to be successful, you gotta be willing to give up sleep,” ET. “To be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what you are, for what you will become.” “Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.”

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Did you see my paycheck for last week? Total wanking time, tantrums I had, trips to the bathroom.

Eww! Not like that, dear Inspector. I’m still suffering from the aftermath of the remastered The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. And wasn’t that back in March? I didn’t mention either of those women to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, hmm.

Sacrifice my dignity? My Echo! At least if I’m going to sacrifice time wanking to the ladies of Fear The Walking Dead, I could at least do it for the home viewing audience on “OF.”

And why do I keep using that word? SACRIFICE? I keep using that word. I do not think it means what I think it means. Other than the song I didn’t play today, working. Dammit!

“My Sacrifice”? My Braxton. Perhaps Virgil too. I “(Don’t Fear) The Reaper.” He ain’t interested.

“My life for you!”
Trashcan Man, The Stand, Stephen King

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Not in my life, hmm. This is one of my true sins, my dear E. Some sacrifice. But me? Me?

I hate my Old Man! And yet he and my Ma bought this house. A private insane asylum for little ole me. What, hoping I’d started a family with M Anime? B III my firstborn…

Then there’s M Anime. “My Woman” promises me everything; she’s shared her body (those boobs), yabbos, all her business, and beatitudes of everlasting love, Inspector.

There are, of course, my boys, Braxton and Virgil. B III paid the ultimate price for loving me. B sacrificed his fifteen years on this Earth for what? And now V, but he didn’t choose.

I asked/told B to get in the car. He did.

V didn’t ask to flush his life down the bowl. So I still ponder on that dream of mine, E.

And today I imagine it’s about sacrifice in the worst possible way? First there’s Braxton.

My boy ain’t sh*t, E. And I don’t mean B III’s ashes. But that I need to clean myself out of all of the guilt, gore, and grief to make way for the good. Do I mean accept it? Never!

Do you know I didn’t eff around for 161 days after B’s death? Ok, I didn’t cum, at least, E. Am I thinking I need to give up my pornographic passions? “Stroke me, stroke me.”

Unfortunately, M Anime ain’t here… Yet. And as for my life… Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.

“Take me as I am, take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice”
— Everything I Do

“My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again”
Creed

“You were ready to kill your only son for me. Since you did this for me, I make you this promise: I, the Lord, promise that I will surely bless you and give you as many descendants as the stars in the sky. There will be as many people as sand on the seashore. And your people will live in cities that they will take from their enemies. Every nation on the earth will be blessed through your descendants. I will do this because you obeyed me.”
Book of Genesis

1963 Days Without B III, Day 1404 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 346 ~Braxton, Virgil, Code Zzz~

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I woke up at 4 AM and didn’t try to talk myself back to sleep. No excuses, no exposition of stories, and not even an egad dude, do you see what time it is? The Magic Glasses are really turning my dreams real. Not like that! Braxton, Virgil, Code Zzz.

Friday, June 12, 2026

Journey 346 ~Braxton, Virgil, Code Zzz~

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… After I take a nap, of course. After I figure out one to tell you. Maybe…

“Oh, maybe it’s your kind of way
Maybe this is Heaven’s gate
Maybe I’m your King
Or maybe I don’t know a thing
Maybe you’re too far away
Maybe you know God awaits
Maybe it’s your touch
Or maybe I just dream too much
But you’re beautiful
You’re everything, everything and more.”
― Dear Heaven

I don’t think I’ll be singing anything so beautiful to M Anime—no offense to The Book of Clarence. I don’t think I’ll be telling her any bedtime stories either. No, when we’re in bed really… B III up in Heaven, The Rainbow Bridge, wherever 2-V behind the door, um

“I Just Had Sex”! I expect that’s what my boys, my sons, will hear. Birds and the Bees indeed, Lady Sophia. I had to share that story with Braxton. “Are you a Chihuahua or a Hound dog,” I’d ask him. Doesn’t matter; a dog is still a dog, and he liked his girl or parts.

Best Breasts, Legs, and Thighs can be found in a bucket of chicken—Braxton’s dreams.

“Sleepy time B”! I remember.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Virgil is always sleeping. Like Father, like Son. Do we both wish to join his brother?

Honestly? No on his end. If Braxton taught me anything, it’s that “You want… every… single second.” Weird ain’t it? I write some pretty evil stories, my Lady. And of everything I’ve ever written. Everything I’ve ever put my name to paper. It’s not his novel “My Turn To B III” that defines me as a writer. It was his Euthanasia that made me his executioner. We’re not talking about the ramifications of that story. A love story, Sophia?

M Anime and I? Again, we won’t be telling bedtime stories. But if we have children, fairy tales will be in abundance. Can’t be reading Destroyed by Pepper Winters. Done?

How long have I been picking away at that book? I don’t know what I did last night, but I woke up around 4 AM. I’m trying to be careful with the Magic Glasses. Who’s doing the writing, me or them? One pair is producing character sheets. Another has my shorts around my ankles as I read about Nicoletta Goldstein sucking my… Seriously, my lady?

In my dreams. And maybe V is dreaming about me actually lying here being productive.

He could be dreaming of having a better Dog Dad. I mean, I did turn on the air… For him

Another story of my weakness? No, thank you. But “Feeling So Good Today.” So fiction writing? But air, ARIH energy, Authorship? Braxton, Virgil, Code Zzz

1958 Days Without B III, Day 1399 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 344 ~Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters~

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It starts with a passage on self-harm in Destroyed by Pepper Winters. My big sister would be so disappointed in me. First-World Problems. I can turn on the air, I can buy food… Uh. And writing and mourning daily. “Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters”

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

Journey 344 ~Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… And where do sinners go, Inspector, I ask you? Sinners go to Hell. At least it’s warm. Deserving….

Well, if I end up in the 9th Circle of Hell where I belong. Treachery. After B III. Uh 2-V

Relax, Inspector Echo. Virgil Vivi Bradford is alive and well. Awake and Alive. So hot…

Physically, with the weather and the picture the Magic Glasses made the other day. Yup

But let’s talk about all the yabbos from the harem sisters, the Bible Black Acolytes, Hell “The Candied Matron” who the Magic Glasses added to “my” story “Shadow Work,” too.

There’s Braxton’s Favorite Girl who is a sista, but not my real sista, thankfully. I swear she has some huge yabbos. However, can my Favorite Girl be considered a sista?

Inspector, she is Latina. But she’s not my real sister. My boys’ potential future stepmom.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And she has the most perfect set of yabbos in the whole wide world. Sorry, Jane Vickers and Kristen StephensonPino. And what about Cherry? I still haven’t seen those fully.

Even with M Anime in my hemisphere, I still want to see Cherry’s. Why, Inspector?

Because I Wanna! “Hate to Say I Told You So.” And what was that? I don’t cheat; I don’t court other women… Yeah, my harem would like to have a word. Cosplay, the considerations of effing other women… M Anime should tell herself “I’m Every Woman,” because to me she is. She’s my Divergent. But my boys? Cute beyond words.

So how can I betray all of them? Does my Treachery have no bounds? I “Search And Destroy,” myself, Inspector.

Thank you, Skunk Anansie. How about thank you, “Sucker Punch”? The Magic Glasses compared my story to that movie. And when I’m not asking its opinion on that, I’m using them to see the women of Saimin Seishidou, the Milfs at least: Natsumi Obata, Tsubaki Miyajima, and Reika Kurashiki. I gotta stop before I wreck the Magic Glasses and men.

Guys love those pictures. But what about from an intellectual standpoint? I have betrayed my “Big Sister,” whom I wanted to talk about today. Not to be confused with my actual blood little sister. No, my big sister from Australia, Tanya. She’d ask why I’m sitting here suffering. If it wasn’t the sun’s rays, it’d be starving myself, or effing sleep—Braxton’s Virgil’s, Missing Sisters.

1956 Days Without B III, Day 1397 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 339 ~B With Grief, Virgil~

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Well, today I wasn’t reading my Day Job schedule, so no news is good news… There are other things I could read. “Destroyed” By Pepper Winters is all about grief. And when did I last get a “pet loss” book? MAGA fears books. Me? “B With Grief, Virgil”

Friday, June 5, 2026

Journey 339 ~B With Grief, Virgil~

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Write one. Recount one. Hell, effing steal one! Effing Magic Glasses! I’m better off watching TV.

Regular TV, with ads. How many streaming services am I paying for? How much longer?

Is that what’s grieving me this morning? How I wish I could say it was B III. Let It Be.

And make no mistake, my lady. Braxton is always there. The day he died, then the day I was born. I swear Braxton’s death slightly edges out my existence, but E-Day is getting closer, my lady. Why can’t I just be with my boy already? Honestly, let’s sing it, Sophia…

“Could It Be I’m Falling in Love”? M Anime? I’m not ready to tell her that yet. But we were talking about getting old and such. I told her about getting sloppy drunk on E-Day.

“King of Wishful Thinking,” remember?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s rare to meet a woman that will entertain the idea of a ‘HateF*ck,’ but rarer still to meet a woman that accepts the hardest word in the English lexicon for a woman. It’s the word ACCOUNTABILITY. It’s one of those things that’s never advertised. Grief, rage, oh B yes.

There’s a reason she’s B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom. But today’s no fairytale, Sophia.

No, the story that got me moving today is completely fictional. Me and (redacted) mom…

And no, I don’t mean Special K or Milf DOS. Kink unlocked? Let’s say I have a thing for name-brand chicks. I’ve seen M Anime in uniform… Yabbos on display. I can name dozens of women, companies, “companions,” and cash flow. But (redacted) mom? Really

Today I’m lying in bed thinking about why I haven’t gotten my Day Job schedule.

Honestly, like the effing Stay Puft Marshmallow Man, it just popped in there—an idea.

“I don’t look for trouble, but trouble looks for me. Hey hey!” Again, grief, rage, and fear!

These things don’t have to advertise. I’m broke, and I’m still buying. My love for my boys and the way I tell their potential stepmom “I really, really, really, really, really, really like you…” What kind of teenage girl am I, with Neon Jungle and now Carly Rae Jepsen as well? But the point is, I don’t know why I haven’t gotten my schedule, but worst case, yep.

Always and forever! Love and Happiness? B With Grief, Virgil

1951 Days Without B III, Day 1392 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 337 ~Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil~

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How many words have I spoken today? Decent ones? I said hello to my boys, both dead and alive. I spoke to their potential stepmom. Every other word has been eff, forced, and for me. I leave the worst. Not joining B yet. “Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil”

Wednesday, June 3, 2026

Journey 337 ~Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Blood, Sweat, and Tears? I wish. But I did have the Day Job today and still no A/C.

If anything, that only shows I don’t speak Virgil after all this time, which makes me a jerk, now doesn’t it? Don’t I love my son? As I love his brother. Hell, it’s Braxton’s fault.

Strange… Losing B sent me to Hell, and of course, who led Dante through Hell, hmm?

Archie became Virgil. But Archie was around $150.00. How a capitalist finds love. Or a fool and his money are soon parted. How much did my Old Man take me for? Him and his ‘friend’ to fix the A/C? I can’t afford that. But between fries and air conditioning?

Braxton and Virgil would be of the same mind, so there’s that. It’s like the same race or species speaking a variation of their language.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Like Black people? MAGA Black people. Eff them and FDT! And even more black people

Or how my woman compares her Latin American heritage. Spanish people here, other Spanish people there… elsewhere. But my Puerto Rican Goddess… What’s my line…?

“You make me want to be a better man.” ‧

Plus I wish I tried harder in my Spanish classes in school. But she and I speak a very particular language. Something else that involves sweating… And tears last year.

Inspector, water under the bridge. And funny I mention bridges. Am I trying to stay cool thinking of 1997’s A Christmas Carol “I’ll Cross This Bridge With You”? Dear Inspector.

She’s willing to learn so many ways to speak to me. And she’s so “Sexy.” But Peter Cincotti was wrong; M Anime’s a sweetie. Honestly…

What am I trying to say? I’ve got no money, and I keep saying, “A Man Provides.” Trust me, Echo, I know people who are worse than “Breaking Bad” and the drug trade. Oh no

And I could be all crude like Kanye West saying, “Only good gon’ come is this good when I’m cumming.”M Anime wouldn’t mind. She wants a big family. Three kids (two-leggeds) Virgil and her kitties. She’s said enough; she shows everything, and she is wow!

But, I don’t even know how to speak to myself. Everything, “Makes me wanna scream!” So I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself. I get behind myself, I need to remind myself, and that includes “Feeling super, super (super)!” LANGUAGE! Now Speaking Braxton, Virgil

1949 Days Without B III, Day 1390 of Virgil’s Arrival

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