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Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

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Why do I need music so much, movies, the moaning of my woman? Because if I have to listen to myself, look at the man in the mirror, lament everything that happened Tuesday… I don’t know what I would hear next. But being my boys’ dad. Shame B, Shame V

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I have been a disappointment. I have been ashamed, asinine, and afraid. Downright stupid. And I killed Braxton.

Do we both need to hear all about how I killed my firstborn son… The four-legged variety for anybody reading. What, nobody’s here? Isn’t that a shame? That was yesterday.

Inspector, if I want to avoid talking about that, I better come up with something else, hmm… Make some noise. Like Virgil crying all last night after crapping his bedding…

Let’s start with yesterday morning… Getting back from the Day Job… I won’t say, Echo.

So instead of putting up the gate to lock Virgil in Braxton’s room. I only wouldn’t let Virgil into mine. He eventually slept on the stairs all night even when I removed the gate, Echo.

Like father, like son, Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… Except our own depression, explicitness, FEARS

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

How is Virgil explicit? He looks at food the way I look at his and Braxton’s potential future stepmom. Feasting on her beauty has cost me dinner many a night. Well, unless I want to be an old man and enjoy some Early Bird Specials. Old Man? Like Braxton’s Dad?

And again I’m not childless. Virgil is here. And M Anime is dedicated to pregnancy.

Inspector, my problem stems from how I’m going to pay for everything. A MAN PROVIDES

And here I am “Breaking Bad.” I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed.” “Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked,” they say. And what can be more wicked than repeating the same mistakes?

“Hell Is Repetition”
Andre Linoge

Sloth, Gluttony (I didn’t share breakfast with Virgil. Ahh Treachery.

My favorite. My Ninth Circle offense. However, M Anime is desperate to land me in the Second Circle with her angelic form. Her effing Yabbos. Unless Jane, Kristen, Angie show

“Girl, if God made anything prettier than you, I hope he kept it for himself.”
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air

If I had their bodies, I wouldn’t be in the financial strait I’m in. But no, I’m sitting here, E.

“Invincible”? Who am I, Pat Benatar or Billie Jean? Just singing “I Need a Dollar.”

Inspector, I don’t know what’s going to happen. And do you know why I keep telling myself the same story? Because I can’t stand listening to the new ones. Again, like yesterday morning. I’d rather listen to my bank account be drained”—the Echo” Inspector.

It’s almost soothing, like Eminem. “The Horror, The Horror.” Shame, Shame. Shame B, Shame V

“Oh, all around the World,
There’s an echo.”
The Echo

1991 Days Without B III, Day 1432 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

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Mind over Matter. Do I mind answering the question: “What’s the matter?” My head’s a freaking minefield. Want to start digging? There’s no glory to be mined from my struggles. Thunder, lightning, and earthquakes. Me. Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But a Firework? No, my love, you’re my Atom Bomb Baby. Five Stars? Something more…

Than trying to compliment you, today? Where Is My Mind? Anxiety! It’s a shame there are Humiliations Galore everywhere! I’m going to town on the Pop Culture references, aren’t I? Or how about I go to town on you and eff you until you can’t stand straight, my love. And I could also go back to crying about Braxton and worrying over Virgil, I mean…

Anything to avoid talking about today. My Olds never learned that lesson. And today ha

It isn’t funny, my love. Maybe, if I were still an awkward, asinine, always-sad teenager.

But I’m forty-one, Effing forty-one. But Shawshank’s (Red) was how old when he said uh:

“I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can’t. That kid’s long gone, and this old man is all that’s left. I got to live with that.”
The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

Simple and plain. But me. I’m an effing minefield, a mineshaft; I can’t be mine…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why? Because I hate myself that much? We were talking today… and now I’m crying.

And that doesn’t bring me shame? I “Wish It Would Rain.” What I’m crying about…

And I don’t mean with what I told you. “You and Me” Always and Forever. Three two-legged kids, my boys Braxton and Virgil, so… Four point five children. Kittens, love?

Loving you and this family keeps me awake and alive. I gave myself to you as you did for me. Dante and Beatrice, Winston and Julia, demon to succubus… I’ve been listening to Succubus Lord 16 again. But I’m no Nephilim or one of the Old Gods buried below, ha.

In the simplest form, I’m Andy Dufresne, and you’re still my wife. Very much alive.

“My wife used to say I’m a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn’t know how to show it, that’s all.”
Andy Dufresne

And more powerful beyond measure. And that’s what I’ve been thinking about these past few hours, trying to forget today’s humiliation. Braxton would listen. Seriously?

Virgil? Well, he messed up his bed again, so I locked him out. Like the other girls in “The Unfinished Archive”. It’s Kyouko Saki and Skye Matthews day anyway. Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me. Too much laughter though. Then Skye’s Earth Magic. So what am I asking you to do, my love? Dig me out of the hole I keep digging? Or discover me. I’m “Undiscovered,” Or am I hiding? Love, I don’t know, I just don’t know.

But “Every Time I Turn Around (Back In Love Again)” with you. But it’s so dark… Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

1990 Days Without B III, Day 1431 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

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Why bother with “Careless Whispers,” and if I remain silent… You should have seen me at the Day Job. Then I stayed late to avoid my Old Man. And I left Virgil to what? And yet there she goes, my beautiful woman saying… “Virgil B Whispering Sometimes”

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Some I whisper, some I try to wipe out from existence… Thanks for the WARNING, X. And sometimes…

Sometimes I leave Virgil asleep on the ‘couch’. Hell, I would have to put Braxton in timeout. “Hopelessly Devoted,” he was. But he didn’t need to see his perverted father…

And who was I whacking off to this morning? “Lily” and 2B… The Unfinished Archive.

It is their day, Inspector Echo. But Sophitia Alexandra… And of course B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom, M Anime. My Attention, Yabbos and three little words: I Love You.

“I tell them that I love them. I find myself sometimes wanting to tell you that I love you and miss you. Am I allowed to say that? Like when I do miss you cause I haven’t heard from you. Maybe cause I seem too corny and mushy? Maybe I’ll send you running for the hills?”
M Anime

“Well, you can say you love me all you want.”
Me

“Okay. Then yes, Will, I love you.
And I want you to stay!
Like every day. On this Earth.”
M Anime

I was practically begging her this morning after she said it again last night… Love.

Inspector, I could go on and on about her love and how I can’t say it back. What about V?

I’m sure he dreams of a father who loves him. But he whimpers while sleeping.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what pray tell was his father doing? Pray tell? Old English… Yeah, I was also whacking it to Beatrice and Dante… Beatrice and Lucifer. Shouldn’t I keep that quiet?

“Love, I do.” Dangerous words. No, that would be what X warned about. Consent, Echo.

But the way M Anime speaks. And no, I won’t betray her like that. She ain’t Rihanna. And the money that would take. I’m sure hardware stores and Tractor Supply sell a bit of that.

My Ravishment fantasies aren’t going anywhere, Inspector. M’s begging Tuesday.

However, I can do a million times worse. Have I gotten around to sharing, Inspector?

Cuckold, NTR (Netorare), Exhibitionism, Hatefuck, Rpe fantasy, a few videos I watched with Braxton’s Favorite Girl but with M? Madness

But a fantasy we’ve whispered in the night. How she plays a retail delivery girl, and I’m an irate customer, and she takes off all her clothes but for her socks… Feet Echo, uh no.

And something else… Then she becomes a “Free Use” delivery girl. Oh my, dear Echo.

Sounds suspiciously like Abbey Rain in “Don’t Tell My Manager!” I looked for that, Echo.

And I’m not ashamed? I am ashamed about how quiet I am at the Day Job. I got no balls.

Or at least let me pretend for a sec, I’m Virgil. Or Effing Elsa from The Menu. Oh no, Echo:

“You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve”
The Menu (2022)

I won’t be getting paid this week. I’m starving… Kinda. Writing’s going nowhere. A bad father. Virgil B Whispering Sometimes

1984 Days Without B III, Day 1425 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

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“The Menu” for this final Journey? Asking my belly, my woman, or my wallet? Ask the Magic Glasses. But I need to ask the “Man In The Mirror” to “Git Up, Git Out.” Can I ask Chef Slowik for a Cheeseburger, or an apple? Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Today I will try to stick to the sin of SLOTH, over my favorite sin LUST. And worst?

TREACHERY, The Ninth Circle of Hell. And that’s what I will be going for, Inspector.

May my Braxton rest in peace and power. Hell, I call upon his soul every Monday. And I speak to him every Thursday, so he talks a lot. You want to hear some talking? You should meet my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. She keeps me up plenty, Echo.

I mean, in quite some good ways. If this were the Garden of Evil, and I were Adam, I’d be handing my Eve, my M Anime, the apple myself. Take that and do as you will. Or as my girl might say, “Take me and do as you will.” I swear this woman of mine. But she ain’t Moloko, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know “Sing It Back?” But what’s with all this talking about eating and singing?

Honestly, and I haven’t mentioned blowjobs yet! I’m trying, Inspector. I’m trying real HARD… Can I stop already? But Gluttony and Sloth go hand-in-hand. Well, they did in the Succubus Lord series by Eric Vall: the sisters Gula (Gluttony), Tristitia (Sloth).

Seriously, don’t crap on my Latin, Inspector Echo. It’s what the books say. And before we get to reading, good thing I started doing that before answering, woman, Inspector…

This woman of mine, or as Braxton might say, “This B*tch.” I believe Braxton would love her, though, and Virgil would resign himself to his fate: Virgil’s effing quiet, Inspector.

Anyway, M Anime loves music too. It’s wow I communicate.

Um, Bumblebee in Transformers. As she puts in all this time learning about me, I tell her all the time, I’m a man of leisure. A damn sloth or lazy bum? So I sat here yesterday kind of stuck listening to her tunes but wanting to be one of The Yayhoos “Baby I love you…”

Or give me some “Poor Sweet Baby.” On The Long Walk I’m effing hungry and too lazy to do anything but walk… Well, write. And even now I got the Magic Glasses creating a schedule for my own harem. Today is Sophitia and 2B’s day—the 365th day of Journeys.

What comes next? Horizons or Legacies? This isn’t the garden, Balamb, or Eden. No apples. FOOD! Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

1977 Days Without B III, Day 1418 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

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Every day I have to bet that nothing will happen. The car will stay on the road, I won’t get sick enough not to work, and my son V will stay with me during The Long Walk. I felt a stone in my gut when V stumbled. The Lottery. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

Wednesday, June 24, 2026

Journey 358 ~LOTTO Braxton And Virgil~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Braxton didn’t want to eat during his Final Days. And yesterday I left Virgil with treats and prayers…

I’m not MAGA, Inspector Echo. I care about children. Especially my boys, B III and 2-V, my future stepchildren, M Anime’s kitties. And all the two-leggeds she wants to have.

Yet when I cashed in my “Thoughts and Prayers,” it was to Publishers Clearing House.

Long ago, long ago, long ago. I remember sitting right effing here, clicking away at PCH and reading a book. And one day, Inspector, they said the winner was right here in my state. Oh, that day, I showered, shaved, and prepared to sever all ties with the Day Job.

That afternoon, I watched them driving all over as B and my “prayers” would work.

Nope! Some lady won, and that was that. From PCH to the dog track, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Only I bet on the horses. What? I have two Chihuahua sons. And even if I won the lottery or something, I wouldn’t buy a horse… Well maybe. Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, M Anime, wants to be a farm girl, so I imagine horses would come with the package.

B knows I wouldn’t mind living this life, “Ryan and His Beauties,” A two-book HaremLit.

And how many Pop Culture References will I make today? Yesterday, there was Pontypool. Now I’m thinking of Ryan and his Beauties (four women, two best friends, and a mother-daughter). “Backyard Dungeon” (How many wives did Eddie have?) and Fallout.

Vault 69, to be specific. And no, I’m not being my usual pervy self. I was listening to its explanation.

“What Happened to Vault 69 in Fallout?” Long story short, 999 women and one man.

Talk about “Rocket 69.” Has that seventy-two virgins feel. I’m not a Muslim either. Again, I’m not one for prayer… Not since Braxton. Hell, yesterday I was walking on these shoe shelves at the Day Job, and I said eff it! If I fell and died, so what? I get to see B. No Fear.

Not like this morning, while I was walking Virgil and he was stepping funny, Inspector.
Had he been hurt… I’ve got no money. Remember that $20 I had. Virgil’s dinner.

Inspector, I’m still $10 in the hole. I’m digging my grave, and I feel like I’m in Shirley Jackson’s “The Lottery”. LOTTO Braxton And Virgil

1970 Days Without B III, Day 1411 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

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What’s the word I’m looking for? If anything, it’s better than I remain silent. My entire existence is feeling a bit like “Pontypool”. And then I have a quiet dog and a “girlfriend” who texts with occasional voice messages. And if she were here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? It’s why I’m asking: are the kids asleep? Virgil? He’s in time-out—his bedroom shenanigans.

Some kids wet the bed at his age. Still going #2… He shouldn’t do that. And I shouldn’t be awake at all hours in our bed, my love. Well, not unless we’re busy. Fifty Shades…

Meatloaf is my safeword for the record. I’m sure you’ve heard the joke, baby doll. Because it means “I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.” A song at the Day Job…

Speaking of that old Day Job, “Here.” What am I still in grade school? Or is it the fact I need to remind myself that “Here I Am,” or “I’m Still Here,” Hating Existing Always…

What happened to “HEA” as in “Happily Ever After” from the Erotica I used to read, my love? Anything FREE?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Meatloaf, Here, and Free. What’s with my list of words now? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. MAGA breathes; they lie. I breathe and tell myself you “Make Me Wanna Die”. I don’t need the words, but they are always there “In There Air Tonight.” But love.

Well, before we get to it, what will be your word? Your WARNING to me. Braxton knows I’ve been getting a lot of those lately. YOU need to pay a bill, they say. There’s Yabbos.

A few E-Days are coming up. My Old Man’s is the 24th. A few more days, the Journey will be over, and I’ve wasted my time for yet another year. And my own E-Day! Eff!

A little more time, please.

To say something… You would say, “Say what you need to say”. But would you understand me if I did? How about, “Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say?” There’s so much. I continue to hold back. Why? Is it me or the words that aren’t safe? Searches might indicate one thing. And I know I’m not a good man. I only want to be yours, love.

When things like Rough Sex, Ravishment, and Mock R*pe are on the table, eff me!.

Honestly, how do you when I think such things? When things like every single FEAR, and being called STUPID set me off? And when the “Sounds Of Silence” seem the only way forward. There’s love and… B-V List Of Safewords.

1969 Days Without B III, Day 1410 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

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“More than you want success. And I’m here to tell you today, if you’re going to be successful, you gotta be willing to give up sleep,” ET. “To be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what you are, for what you will become.” “Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.”

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Journey 351 ~Between B&V Lies Sacrifice~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Did you see my paycheck for last week? Total wanking time, tantrums I had, trips to the bathroom.

Eww! Not like that, dear Inspector. I’m still suffering from the aftermath of the remastered The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. And wasn’t that back in March? I didn’t mention either of those women to Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, hmm.

Sacrifice my dignity? My Echo! At least if I’m going to sacrifice time wanking to the ladies of Fear The Walking Dead, I could at least do it for the home viewing audience on “OF.”

And why do I keep using that word? SACRIFICE? I keep using that word. I do not think it means what I think it means. Other than the song I didn’t play today, working. Dammit!

“My Sacrifice”? My Braxton. Perhaps Virgil too. I “(Don’t Fear) The Reaper.” He ain’t interested.

“My life for you!”
Trashcan Man, The Stand, Stephen King

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Not in my life, hmm. This is one of my true sins, my dear E. Some sacrifice. But me? Me?

I hate my Old Man! And yet he and my Ma bought this house. A private insane asylum for little ole me. What, hoping I’d started a family with M Anime? B III my firstborn…

Then there’s M Anime. “My Woman” promises me everything; she’s shared her body (those boobs), yabbos, all her business, and beatitudes of everlasting love, Inspector.

There are, of course, my boys, Braxton and Virgil. B III paid the ultimate price for loving me. B sacrificed his fifteen years on this Earth for what? And now V, but he didn’t choose.

I asked/told B to get in the car. He did.

V didn’t ask to flush his life down the bowl. So I still ponder on that dream of mine, E.

And today I imagine it’s about sacrifice in the worst possible way? First there’s Braxton.

My boy ain’t sh*t, E. And I don’t mean B III’s ashes. But that I need to clean myself out of all of the guilt, gore, and grief to make way for the good. Do I mean accept it? Never!

Do you know I didn’t eff around for 161 days after B’s death? Ok, I didn’t cum, at least, E. Am I thinking I need to give up my pornographic passions? “Stroke me, stroke me.”

Unfortunately, M Anime ain’t here… Yet. And as for my life… Between B&V Lies Sacrifice.

“Take me as I am, take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice”
— Everything I Do

“My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again”
Creed

“You were ready to kill your only son for me. Since you did this for me, I make you this promise: I, the Lord, promise that I will surely bless you and give you as many descendants as the stars in the sky. There will be as many people as sand on the seashore. And your people will live in cities that they will take from their enemies. Every nation on the earth will be blessed through your descendants. I will do this because you obeyed me.”
Book of Genesis

1963 Days Without B III, Day 1404 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will