Journey 269 ~Letters B And V~

When will I be brave? These days, I’m more like MAGA, the Cracker Hats, and never forget FDT too! I’m scared of so many words. And I don’t even call my boys by their names most days, like Final Fantasy X-2 Y.R.P. More like B, V, W… “Letters B And V.”

Friday, March 27, 2026

Journey 269 ~Letters B And V~

Hey, Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… But not mine. For the love of Braxton, not mine. And what about his? B III

Also, the price I should make “My Turn To B III.” Peace Sells,” but who’s buying? Didn’t I say something to Braxton yesterday about being into Heavy Metal? And poor little Virgil has to suffer through it. Yes, My Lady, I wrote that. And I wrote B III’s book too.

That makes yesterday all the more humiliating. And not being completely out of food portion of the program. I had two bags of popcorn and some bread with peanut, Sophia.

First and foremost, I’m a writer, a starving artist. Secondly, it always comes back to my boys. Virgil’s eating. And if it wasn’t for Braxton’s kidneys, my firstborn would have kept eating, and lastly… Humiliation! I prefer Infatuation by Rod Stewart or “Obsession” by Animotion.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But Humiliation by Will. I got my first paycheck from Amazon: a whopping $2.76, Soph.

It took me a sec to figure out why Amazon was sending me money. ME! Then I remembered. A copy of my book. The copy I bought. I was making sure everything was ok. Other than being a bestseller and leaving the Day Job. Honoring my beloved B III, huh

My Turn Could B III:

And maybe it should have been. Free, I mean. It wasn’t ready… I wasn’t ready. And who is ever ready to lose their fur baby? Saying I like a book about losing my furry son seems wrong. But honoring him. That I liked. And I tried to like this book; I wrote all about him that I could remember then. Five years ago, when I wrote it. I like that this reminds me of how it felt to be right there with him. Good and bad, happy and sad. Whatever. Would I recommend this to anyone? Well, I tried before I got through it all. If you want to know my mind, of course, you do; of course, read this.

How was that for a book review, Lady Sophia? I paid myself, so I might as well write a book review about myself. The least horrific thing I’ve written or read this whole week, SIGH.

I wish I could be scared of books and knowledge like MAGA. FDT! But these words, the letters for my boys. Letters B And V

1881 Days Without B III, Day 1322 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 264 ~Virgil Of Planet B~

And on what planet did my firstborn son, Braxton, not pass away? On the same one where I can switch places with Johnny Sins, or talk young women into a Bangbus or Fake Taxi. The same one where Six Impossible Things GET DONE. “Virgil Of Planet B”

Sunday, March 22, 2026

Journey 264 ~Virgil Of Planet B~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And to put things bluntly, it’s like you’re taking my head off her. You know “Highlander” style.

What’s things you shouldn’t tell AI for $500? Not that it would have an answer. And since you have movies on the brain, the Highlander series, The Long Walk, The Running Man, and that scene where “Forrest Gump” is running across America… Seriously, an answer.

What’s today’s question? You won’t ask how to ACCEPT Braxton’s passing. That’s never going to happen. If you talked to Virgil Vivi, you’d ask, “What seems to be your boggle?”

“Demolition Man”? Really? It feels like everything you touch is all coming apart, and it’s only been nine hours. It’s like existing in the Bexhill camp from “Children of Men”.

Honestly, you need a movie night. You, Virgil, and Braxton (in spirit). Forgetting Braxton should be on Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Pledged To Him 11 by Neil Bimbeau (Sorority Harem Series)
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

What about joining Braxton, your personal “Spirit In The Sky”? If lust wasn’t considered a sin, had plenty of women with skimpy bikinis and big ole Yabbos. But you don’t live in a porno at most or “This Is The End” at least. Are you done with the movie references?

Mortal Kombat, Resident Evil. You’ve got a better shot at making porno with M Anime.

For your eyes only. Only if you were a goddess and had a body like hers, there’s a lot of “Opportunities,” And now there’s even more music. Didn’t someone say, I wish life came with a soundtrack so I know what’s going on. You rather it was Street Blowjobs, Bangbus, or Fake Taxi. But here, Planet B. Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Failure is par for the course. Again, you look at the combination of Mortal Kombat and Resident Evil. I got AI to combine them with your words, these words, and a word. You won’t be an A-Lister anytime soon. Or a writer asking AI to do all the heavy lifting.

Please! Eric Vall and Neil Bimbeau. Are you lashing out because of jealousy, frustration, or your STUPIDITY? All the above? You’re thinking of your aunt. She had you all wrong.

Destroying the world was never the point. Leaving it primarily, transforming it through apocalyptic means or a dystopian existence, Hell, even saving it. Mortal Kombat!

However, will you do that? No KINGS Day Protest. FDT! Kojin Taxi 2? “Not Quite Paradise.” Virgil Of Planet B

1876 Days Without B III, Day 1317 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 263 ~Sea Braxton And Virgil~

Drowning is one of my greatest fears, physically speaking. I was drowning in Far Cry 5 once, and I turned the game off. But no time for games now. Sweating from writing, whining, and worthless security. Not as bad as M Anime’s. Sea Braxton And Virgil

Saturday, March 21, 2026

Journey 263 ~Sea Braxton And Virgil~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Billionaire right now… And somewhere, The Killers sing “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” “When You Were Young”?

I’m not so much anymore. And today I’m feeling like I should have been gone long before forty-one (cue Ben Hur gallery drums). Back when I had a chance of seeing Jesus. I’m not an atheist thanks to Braxton. And someday Virgil… The souls of my sons do not vanish.

But it will take a miracle to see my Braxton again. And it will take another one to understand my Virgil—something like walking on water. Clarence, I’m not Lunalesca.

Honestly, what I wouldn’t give to ask my M Anime, “Would you lie with me and just forget the world?” M Anime is sick of snow, not Snow Patrol. And Chasing Cars, my dear Lunalesca. At this moment, my Lady, I’m “Dead In the Water.”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I’m reminded of the many, many nights I planned to do “It.” Not that damn clown, who didn’t help my overall hatred of clowns. And not “Paradise by the Dashboard Light.” I told you or one of the girls about my “first time.” Empty parking lot, street/store light up above, me naked in the backseat with a Lana Tailor, Leana Lovings, and Tegan Mohr lookalike. I should have married her. Or ended it right there because life right now, Lu…

I can’t breathe. But the bigger concern is, I don’t want to keep trying to. Like yesterday, when I was talking to Lady Sophia. The portals from my vision, the blackness, it sucks all the air so I can’t breathe. And Braxton… He fights outside.

Him, Virgil, my Animas… Oh, I have had many a word with M Anime about Shadow Work and Carl Jung. The obsession of my Obsession. Animotion, Animas, Anime, and my M Anime. I could drown in her “Con La Brisa” and everything, my Lady Lunalesca.

But she’s far away, and here I am in the open ocean, the sea, whatever. Salt water from my tears. Sweat from my “work,” my moment of triumph, my frustrations, and most of all my FEAR. Did you see what happened to the AI? And then there was Norton, Lu.

How can I be expected to get a good night’s sleep? Not that I have been. My bed’s not rocking. Yet the blankets won’t drown me. Sea Braxton And Virgil.

1875 Days Without B III, Day 1316 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 262 ~Comes After V, Braxton~

“When, O Lord, when it’s gonna be our time?” When I’m not afraid? When will the day come when I can make that kind of money and be respected for writing? Hell, I’ll take the money and a Moral Kombat rip-off. Writing “Comes After V, Braxton“

Friday, March 20, 2026

Journey 262 ~Comes After V, Braxton~

Hey, Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Or not, seeing as how I only have one book out. And back in the day…

Well, I was not a good storyteller when I was a child. I should have taken the hint, I know.

Why so glum, you ask? If you had asked me thirty minutes prior, hell, if you had asked me when I was supposed to wake up, I would say it’s dumb forgetfulness. But right now?

Well, thanks to Norton and M Anime, I’m what you would call “Scaroused” sporting a Fearection. Not that the two are related. Norton reminded me that “Oh no, the world is a scary place.” While M Anime’s Yabbos remind me that today’s a “Lovely Day.”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

However, I can also thank Cherry too… the concept of her Yabbos and the prospect of pizza. As Panda Express asks, “Have You Eaten Yet?” M Anime would be disappointed.

And I’m disappointed in myself because don’t I owe you a book review, Dearest Sophia:

Banged By The Bikers, Seconds:
I shouldn’t do the guys like that, but you get what you pay for—and seeing how this was free helps much like Carla was for Scotty and his friends. So yeah, it was good. I can’t give a reason why I wouldn’t like it; I’ve also read Lolita Minx’s Taking the Team. If anything, you have a little time, and you’re looking for wham bam thank you ma’am, Banged By The Bikers. The best part of the course was Carla and the boys having their fun. I can’t say there was anything else. I’d probably buy the full collection.

Okay, now that the review is done, what else am I forgetting? Oh, there’s my ever-growing collection of story ideas that I have yet even to fathom. And why is that, Lady Sophia? A lot

Story ideas “Journey 248 ~B Cause There’s V~.” and beyond.

  1. Cerberus Syndicate, Inferno Syndicate
  2. Dying Light Rip-Off, M Anime Ravishment, Save The World
  3. The Running Man Rip-Off, Huntresses vs. Dad and Pups
  4. Mortal Kombat, M Anime, Kyouko Sakai, blonde gymnast, LSU

And yet I’m reciting the alphabet because what comes after V? When is the last time I got a W. Again, M Anime’s Yabbos are a WIN. But WHEN will I feel better, stop being stupid, and stop being afraid? WHEN. Comes After V, Braxton

1874 Days Without B III, Day 1315 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 257 ~Virgil, Dr. B Calling~

What was it I said about the news last week? I can’t save the world, but can I myself… And any other life that follows. Braxton is an angel for trying, literally. Virgil needs to see a vet. And I should get my head examined. Um, Virgil, Dr. B Calling

Sunday, March 15, 2026

Journey 257 ~Virgil, Dr. B Calling~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… So don’t go asking “What’s my destiny, Mama?” This ain’t Forrest Gump. My mental acuity, um, STUPIDITY

Well, it’s a choice like effing you up on Tuesday, March 10, 2026. And I am sorry. But it could be worse… Really? If it were in your DNA? Kendrick Lamar? A rapper or an athlete? Remember when one of the youngsters asked you something like that at the Day Job? You’re an old man. Old enough to hear the bark of your passed firstborn.

Honestly, you could use a thorough head examination. But the closest you’re gonna get is if your eyes are checked out. This week? And before that, there was last Tuesday.

Seriously, that’s my fault. M Anime’s yabbos drove me wild. The real deal, Holyfield, ha.
But the “Magic Glasses,” my term for AI, isn’t a doctor. But Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Pledged To Him 10 by Neil Bimbeau (Sorority Harem Series)
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 006 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 000 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

However, if you’re not gonna fix yourself this week, why don’t you try fixing Virgil?

Please, Virgil lost his balls years before you met. And considering I couldn’t keep my “organ” in my pants… Something you have to look forward to with M Anime. When she’s playing good girl, it’s an “organ.” When she wants to make a pornstar blush cock, dick, yogurt slinger… thank you, Eric Vall and Succubus Lord Series. Speaking of which, you need to find something else to read this week. Keep your organ out of sex toys you bought on E-Day. All the money in the world for books and adult novelties. Being a Dad.

Virgil is alive and well, but he has an appointment due. But Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Honestly, you need money for an eye exam, an antibiotic shot, and Virgil’s annual exam. And what about the house’s health? The Termite Guy wants his money, not now, but right now. And will the Carpenter Ants return? Yikes! Around the time M Anime arrives?

Braxton! Because who gives a rat’s butt about Jesus? Anyway, only last night or this morning, yeah, this is all your fault, dude, you were telling her about effing a baby into her. You couldn’t save Braxton, you’re trying to keep Virgil from the furnace… Don’t even get started on Whiteout Survival. You can’t save yourself. And you and M Anime want to bring another life into the mix. All You Need Is Love? And Braxton. Virgil, Dr. B Calling

1869 Days Without B III, Day 1310 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 256 ~Buzzing of B’s, Virgil~

Please tell me the car is going to start, and the radio too. Don’t let those be sirens outside the window because I have Chinese and Russian contacts. Tell me my son V is breathing. Have I satisfied my girl? Have I won a prize? Buzzing of B’s, Virgil

Saturday, March 14, 2026

Journey 256 ~Buzzing of B’s, Virgil~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Billionaire right now… Because I’m in the business of listening. And who’s the last billionaire I listened to? FDT!

You can’t shut that Mother effer up! And did I really have to say Mother effer? Next thing you know, I’ll be back to looking up MILF Porn. But didn’t I speak about P.Y.T.’s last week? Leana Lovings, Lupe Fuentes, and Elise Rae… And only yesterday did I discover the identity of the blonde animus. Only I gave her much bigger Yabbos: a gymnast, Lu.

And I’m not dumb enough to say her name or describe M Anime. She’s the only reason I’m not looking up MILFs right now. Uh, she wants me to make her a MILF. Give my boys, Braxton and Virgil, some two-legged siblings. But Virgil is buzzing along somewhere, Lunalesca. And I wish Braxton had bugged me this much before passing.

“If you strike me down, I shall become more powerful than you can possibly imagine.”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Braxton, more than anyone, knows how to reach me. Through movies, music, and manuscripts. I still haven’t finished “Remember Me: Understanding The Stages of Grief and Remembrance From The Loss Of A Pet.” Have I not had some downtime, Lunalesca?

The silence? Ironically, one of my favorite horrors is A Quiet Place. What about “The Silence…” (cough) Rip-off! Like I’m one to talk, and I’d rather not talk. I have less of a chance of saying something STUPID in real life. In real life? That silence kills me, my Lady.

When I get in the car, the radio won’t play. If M Anime ever arrives, that’s no good at all. Trying to prove I’m “A strong survivor, a real provider.. a Tru Rider.. that’s me.”

I can do that in the bedroom, but I haven’t felt right since Tuesday. And if I’m not taking care of my body, what about the house? The weather is getting warmer, and you recall the bugs in June. I swear, even now, I can hear their chomping, munching, Lunalesca.

Every silence while I’m awake has to be filled with something instantly. And I listened to my wasted breaths, the ticking of the clock, the sounds of battle from Whiteout Survival, that’s how it is, Lunalesca. It’s like switching out my garrisons. If you time it right, three seconds feels like nothing, and everything’s good. Miss the timing, and the silence is filled with FEAR, and it’s loud. But beautiful things… Buzzing of B’s, Virgil

1868 Days Without B III, Day 1309 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 255 ~Virgil, Braxton’s Overwhelming Story~

Too many stories at once. B’s book. The “love” story with my girl. And speaking of girls, what’s up with that hot blonde she showed me? I have a brand new character. But more about my boys, the bank, and my bed. “Virgil, Braxton’s Overwhelming Story”

Friday, March 13, 2026

Journey 255 ~Virgil, Braxton’s Overwhelming Story~

Hey, Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Better yet, let me give you a review. Great, one more thing for my to-do list.

So I won’t be watching The NeverEnding Story or Stranger Things tonight. Hell, I can’t remember what I did last night other than seeing M Anime’s yabbos. No man can forget the sight of those melons. She overwhelms all thought and reason, she’s my Obsession.

But I’m sure you don’t want to hear what I do with my “organ,” especially after Tuesday, my Lady. And do I need a wambulance talking about B III or worrying about 2-V? I’ll never be done crying over Braxton and sweating about Virgil, and me about our survival, ha.

Speaking of sweating three stories from “Journey 248 ~B Cause There’s V~.”

  1. Cerberus Syndicate, Inferno Syndicate
  2. Dying Light Rip-Off, M Anime Ravishment
  3. The Running Man Rip-Off, Huntresses

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

No AC Hometown Heat Wave

What’s not to like, other than the entitlement of women? I mean that in a purely fictional sense, of course. Francine and Ellen. But two bad apples don’t spoil this bunch. However, I’ve only finished the first one. And it’s a definite four-star read, that’s a fact. I like it.

However, with that being said, it’s not a standout title, special, or extra spicy. Heatwave…

But it does have its kinks. My favorites are the waitress and Becca. Granddaughter, soon?

And even the whole “buying a truck and gaming” parts, while somewhat cheesy, were excellent. I could see this breaking a few of my friends’ hearts before getting to what we came here for, and you know what that is…

Lady Sophia, how was that for a book review? I wish I could go into more detail, but I’ve been a bit overwhelmed reading. Adult Book Store in every sense if we’re talking about Pledged To Him 10 by Neil Bimbeau and M Anime… Between Hate Eff and Breeding kink, and that was M and not Mr. Bimbeau. But the whole Jackson with the blondes…

Speaking of blondes, I’m still trying to figure out this blonde anima of mine. I mean, M Anime showed me a picture, and I’m being the “Perverter of Prose” and all. I made her dirty. And now she stands with M Anime and Kyouko Sakai. But who is she? You don’t want to know. Enough troubles. Virgil, Braxton’s Overwhelming Story

1867 Days Without B III, Day 1308 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 250 ~Time Out B, V~

No news is good news… I wish I could go back to the days when I could ignore the White House—the days when I could ask my Ma to go to McDonald’s. But if I’m going to pay $15, I’ll stop at the food truck. But what did B and V do? “Time Out B, V.”

Sunday, March 8, 2026

Journey 250 ~Time Out B, V~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And man, aren’t you in trouble. You’re still thinking about my effing up at the Day Job.

“Watch World War Three (on pay TV).” If, unfortunately, you survive this week, then the week after… Do you believe they will let you keep playing DJ at the Day Job? Hell, you have the same worries every week. And since you’re neither a billionaire, white… BEING a man… The jury is still out on that one, but M Anime KNOWS so. Saw your penis!

Speaking of which, what is so wrong about dreaming about a girl jerking you off on a “Sunday Morning” while you live to classic apocalyptic rock from the Fallout franchise?

Because you’re not MAGA. You don’t mock dead soldiers. You still cry over Braxton every couple of weeks. But that’s not why you’re in trouble. Could be, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Banged by the Bikers – Part 1 by Lolita Minx
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 006 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Or are you bored and lonely? Dumb and horny. And what about Lady Luck? You’re Diggin’ like the Seatbelts, and you’ve only been awake for eleven hours. Geez, my friend:

“Could it be that I got bored and lonely? Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny? Could it be that Lady Luck has smiled herself on me?”
Seatbelts

It ain’t nowhere near Halloween. And what about Virgil’s birthday, or did you forget, ha?

And there’s always E-Day, The Most Worthless Time Of The Year. Do you want to put yourself in a time-out? Eliminated, deleted, sing me to sleep… Emily isn’t Asleep. right?

What’s the last thing you watched with Ms. Browning? Don’t go looking her up because you’ll have to kick Virgil out of the room and then… What did I say that you have to remember? Perverter of Prose. Though AI was nice, breaking down my brothel fantasy; Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 006 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Numbers four and six. Only six encompasses everything. Be Not So Fearful, Just Survive Somehow, “Good Night, Good Luck,” Endure And Survive, Stay Alive, “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die.” I can do this all day… Okay, stop because you have other things on your plate? Really?! If you did, you wouldn’t be in so much trouble. Only you are.

A bank is sending you letters. Having no money at your actual bank because you ain’t getting any hours, having to pay off the exterminators, and not selling any books.

Seriously, you bought more books because you couldn’t finish the one on pet loss… yet. But a woman getting effed by bikers is no trouble. But the people you know… Criminality. Time Out B, V

1862 Days Without B III, Day 1303 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 249 ~Staring B’s Bedtime, Virgil~

Having all the time in the world to dream. After “The Long Walk” and becoming “The Running Man,” everything I want can be brought to me in bed. Where are my dog sons? Where’s my woman or women? Chicken and waffles? “Staring B’s Bedtime, Virgil.”

Saturday, March 7, 2026

Journey 249 ~Staring B’s Bedtime, Virgil~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Billionaire right now… Nope! I’d be in the Epstein Files. Leana Lovings, Lupe Fuentes, Elise Rae… my T**N Category.

Why yes, Lady Lu, I’m an aspiring Porn Star, a perv, the Perverter of Prose (I should remember that ha), but I’m also a poet, a dull prosiest, and always and forever a Pup Dad.

But which one of those things would get me out of bed the fastest? Hell, I’ve done all of those things from bed. And what I wouldn’t give to see Braxton walk from his bed right back to this loveseat and bark, “Did I effing stutter? Bedtime!” It’s ten in the morning, and all I want to do is be back in bed. Beneath the covers, as B watches over me. Or with his potential stepmom, M Anime. I haven’t heard from her in a bit. What Is Love? Haddaway

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Uh, it’s only ten, well, 10:20, but I’ll give it a think. I still stand by the idea that love is the belief, faith, duty, privilege, whatever, of putting something ahead of yourself, My Lu.

Luna, it’s putting all that you are to the side for whatever, deities, damsels, doggies…

“Fellas, when you wake up in the morning, you should look yourself in the mirror and say, ‘Eff you! Eff your hopes, Eff your dreams, Eff your plans … Eff everything you thought this life was going to bring to you. Now let’s go out there and try to make this b*tch happy.”
Chris Rock

Now I like how Chris Rock put it. But I was thinking about what I said yesterday about Charles Bukowski and “So You Wanna Be A Writer.” How dare I question my writing, dear Lunalesca? Nine years of talking to you and the girls, myself, and Braxton. And having him talk back. And what about Virgil? Hell, I talk to my dead firstborn more, Lu.

“Yes, I’m macabre, but you know you need this.” Nope!

I can’t even “Express Myself” with my own words. Because all I want to do is sleep, Lunalesca. Perchance to dream. “All I Have To Do Is Dream.” How Kruger of me, or is that The Everly Brothers? I’m not trying to be MAGA here but like them… Effing up?

Lunalesca, it’s what I do. “The Scorpion and the Frog.” And being in bed is like the only time I’m not letting anyone down—more like being asleep, which is where Virgil is involved. I can’t hurt him when I’m sleeping. But I’ve never harmed a hair on his head.

Ironically, Ready or Not, I’m going to do so much more with M Anime. If I get up, build a home. Staring B’s Bedtime, Virgil.

1861 Days Without B III, Day 1302 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 248 ~B Cause There’s V~

One book I was never able to finish was the Bible. Sure, I’ve read a few books within it. But never cover to cover. Now I’m finding myself reading things I don’t wanna: pet loss, effing mail, my stupidity. Yet I keep writing. “B Cause There’s V”

Friday, March 6, 2026

Journey 248 ~B Cause There’s V~

Hey, Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Because Virgil is here. Isn’t that the same thing I’ve always told his big brother, Braxton?

“I Have A Song.” I have a story… Most days, I feel like Charles Bukowski is speaking directly to me as I listen to “So You Wanna Be A Writer.” I’d rather be Johnny Sins.

Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom, M Anime is good for the ego, Bless Her Heart.

But my body and I have an “It’s complicated” type of relationship. And my brain is even worse. And yet which one do I listen to? As Matchbox Twenty sings, “I feel stupid.” Uh, effing duh? But you’re expecting a story, my Lady. The Day Job’s summary for you, Soph.

I was playing DJ at the Day Job and decided to play the song “Watch World War Three (on Pay TV).” Effing MAGA! Effing war!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Now, if only reading about that and other Humiliations Galore could be as easily forgotten as “Remember Me: Understanding the Stages of Grief and Remembrance From the Loss of a Pet.” I’ve got nothing against Reese Taryn. If anything, I’ve been so tired, and I’m not absorbing any of the words. Or I have absorbed far too many with Braxton.

I mean, as far as the full story of my grieving coming to an end with Braxton. There is no The End. Later on? See ya later? Or as I told him every time I left the house, Love you, B, Love you, Braxton. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tripped over the letters and numbers B III and 2-V—my two boys.

And the three stories that I can’t allow myself to forget because I haven’t even started to write them. How do I expect to make any money…? With what I did at the Day Job.

Honestly! A HUMAN fighting ring. The “Inferno Circuit.” It is run by a three-dog criminal empire known as the Cerberus Syndicate. Heroes: Braxton, Virgil, Myself…

Secondly, there was the Dying Light Rip-Off. M Amine’s nightmares. The three characters that “ravage” her, and the demon that can’t take her. Strength. Submission.

Finally, there is stealing from The Running Man. Huntresses hunting a man and fur buddies. Plenty of ladies along the way. But Virgil and M Anime, they are what matters.

Writing. What good does it do? B Cause There’s V…

1860 Days Without B III, Day 1301 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will