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Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I ain’t telling Virgil, “Now, I ain’t sayin’ you’re a gold digger” either. Wife

Wife and life… One and the same and both as Doug’s Mr. Dink would say, “Very expensive.” Seriously? That was kinda dirty and also pretty dark. And why is that?

Honestly, my beloved, I wake up with all this love, and I don’t leave a drop for myself. So we need more kids… three two-leggeds and two four-leggeds, and yet I want between your legs yet again? And at the end of the day, love, this stands: A MAN PROVIDES!

Less yelling and more Gus Fring from “Breaking Bad,” I do some sketchy ass things…

Anything and everything for the sake of this family. But do you know when Braxton became so expensive? When he was dying. But that’s a one-time deal. There’s no Acceptance.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s the living that’s subscription-based. And instead of planning what is it I do, beloved?

“Dream, dream, dream, dream.” Which would work if I were one of “The Everly Brothers” or Dr. Martin Luther King Jr: “All I Have To Do Is Dream,” “I Have A Dream.”

Hell! I would take the “Fifteen Million Merits” Selma version of Abba’s “I Have a Dream.” But dreams aren’t paying bills. And I’m feeling pretty much like “Bing.”

Whatever… Like the dream I had last night. I was lost in a mall, the Mall of the Millennium. Daria season 1 episode 5 “Malled”. And why haven’t I added Daria to “The Unfinished Archive” yet? Is it/she less expensive than the women of the hentai series Saimin Seishidou, hmm?

It seems I’m the one who’s shopping around. Not in reality, my love. I love you and only you; Braxton, Virgil, our two-legged kids, my Ma, occasionally my younger sister.

Beloved, I may be shopping around for my balls, guts, spine, and my voice. But again, love is everywhere until I need some for myself. And it’s like how you talk about your “Shadow Work”. The more lovers I ‘create’ (bullshit, bullshit, laughs hysterically). SIGH

Reika Kurashiki and her daughter Reina Kurashiki. Natsumi Obata and her daughter Yui Obata. Anyway, the more love I TRY to surround myself with, the easier it comes to me?
But then you shop for my love, my time, and “My Dick…” Why we’re married. Everything. Women B Shoppin’ Virgil

2018 Days Without B III, Day 1459 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 040 -Braxton, Virgil, Giving High-Fives-

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Monday, August 10, 2026

Legacy 040 -Braxton, Virgil, Giving High-Fives-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? Considering you can’t see Virgil and me giving you ‘high fours.’

Not as a Dad, I mean. You’re always a five, hell, a ten. Dad, you are a hundred plus easy.

Though if you had your say, you would say you’re an 11 or maybe a 12. And I know why.

The Hunger Games, Catching Fire… A Training Score of 11 or 12? Yes, my father is a dangerous man. Has he ever killed anyone? Yes, we could bark about forgiveness…

However, we both know you would never believe it. Not when it comes to us. So why don’t we move on? No, not like that! Acceptance is another one of those words, I know, Dad. (Gives you patented side-eye). What I mean is, well, you know how we were, Dad.

Food, nap time, then talk.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We’d bark about everything when it came to “The Bad Place.” And then tomorrow, after

And I think I finally got it. Do you remember when you gave me what you called “The Talk”? You were telling me not to play with my ‘toys’ in a ‘certain way’ when my Favorite Girl would come over for movie nights. And of course, what would happen, Daddy.

Talking about my side-eye. Ain’t nobody “Humpin’ Around.” Well, not you and her, I know. Me and my toys. And come on Dad, I know you admired her yabbos. Honestly.

Much to be admired, and much to be done. That brings me back to us. We did bark a lot.

But men of action. You won’t see the 9th Circle.

I don’t care if I have to bark and paw until you see stars. Two things get my father moving.

Two things that are going to make you a motherfuckin’ “Starboy.” Yeah, Daddy, I know.

LANGUAGE! And didn’t you say yesterday or the day before, why censor if others don’t? Another thing you’ve been saying is, ‘my life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies.

Will’s Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom and The Unfinished Archive. Father?

Honestly… You didn’t forget about making money that way… The Glow Box tried to separate them, but they are one and the same. Like you and me. You, me, and V. Us and maybe even M Anime. Hand and paw in action. Don’t be too slow. Braxton, Virgil, Giving High-Fives

“And the truth is this: I am sitting alone in the dark because it’s the only place I know how to be, and it is the wrong place, and I know it, and I have known it for months”
Harem Lab Part Three, Kelly Notte

“The seeds of life – fiery is their force, divine their birth, but they are weighed down by the bodies’ ills or dulled by limbs and flesh that’s born for death.”
Virgil, The Aeneid (19 BC)

2017 Days Without B III, Day 1458 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 037 -B In Translation, Virgil-

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Friday, August 7, 2026

Legacy 037 -B In Translation, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… In what language? Braxton? “Aniara” is Swedish. M Anime (Braxton bless her) is teaching me Spanish.

But let us begin with my boys, Braxton and Virgil. I swear I could read Braxton like a book. He spoke a language of love, loyalty, and let them come. Thou Art Courageous, I said. Yeah, I speak the language of pop culture, but we’ll get to that. Damn entertainment!

Now Virgil speaks the language of FEAR and of having a failing father—Braxton’s proof.

But there’s also the fact that Virgil doesn’t have any vet paperwork. Bathing appointments. He could use a new everything. There’s nothing—effing failing fatherhood.

Yeah, the father who’s much too busy lying about the books he’s reading. Or I’m letting the Magic Glasses/Mima write erotica about Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima in The Unfinished Archive. Mother-daughter incest, Breeding, Taboo

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Interesting… Like effing MAGA and so everybody hears me… FDT! He said groceries is quite a word. B III help me, I’m beginning to believe him because I’m broke, Sophia.

Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom and I were talking about our childhoods the other day. And it turns out we both tried to starve ourselves at some point. Memories.

I still remember my first ‘meal’ when I broke. A few swigs of grape soda and three peanut butter Girl Scout cookies. Best meal I ever had. I’m sure I wrote all this down someplace.

Currently, though, I’ve been looking for things to add to my grocery list, Lady Sophia.

I’ve been jonesing for ice cream. Even one of those cheap ice pops. A steak

Effing E-Day! Do I have enough to celebrate…? That’s the way wrong word, my lady.

One of the ladies at the Day Job whose birthday is close to E-Day keeps bringing it up to me. I don’t want to see another E-Day. I’ve been saying that for going on forty-two years, give or take seven. That’s the last celebration I remember. Well, there was that time my Ma wrote me all those notes. Or when she took me to this ‘fancy’ restaurant. I hate E-Day!

Can I write that clearer? I wrote Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles once, and my Grandmommy got me the second movie instead of the arcade game I wanted. Ninjas? Asian? Teen Regime, The Virgin Psychics, Sweet Combat… B In Translation, Virgil.

2014 Days Without B III, Day 1455 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

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Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough to get up when it’s light enough. But I need to get up earlier.

4 AM, like one of my favorite motivational speeches. 3 AM, as Eric Thomas preaches about. 2 AM, around the time I found Virgil creeping up this morning. Seriously, Love.

The sun, my firstborn son, my secondborn… And how many sons do we have with our three two-legged children? No, I didn’t forget. But with this world’s influence… Surviving MAGA…

Never a sure thing, but what I am sure about, much like Dante, is this. “In the middle of the journey of our life I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost.” But don’t I tell you all the time, “Baby You’re My Light.” Richard Hawley sings it better. And where do you think Virgil got his name from?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I swear if I die, Hell won’t be roaring fire but glowing screens. The Glow Box, Braxton would call it. And that’s my thought for today. My Illumination. Lightness? Beauty?

Honestly, am I “Feeling super, super, super su$cidal” every day? Really? But a little less.

I’ll tell you, I’m in plenty of pain today. Effing Blue Balls! Between having you as a life, the dark fantasies I have, and The Unfinished Archive… Strange thought, beautiful… Remember how I added Hana to the story last week. What? I really got into Kairi Sane for a bit. And then Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou a couple of days ago. I was trying to get to know their characters so… “The Lantern Vault.

Not really my idea. The Magic Glasses/MIMA. Anyway, that’s what I need for me too.

Because the darkness… More sleep, my story, shutting my eyes as I finally let go inside your beautiful, tight… Okay, my balls can’t take that right now. The eff they can, but “Aziz Light! I remember the conversation we had about “casual sex,” and I asked why it would be casual, and what you meant was sex while I was doing something or relaxing. The Fifth Element would be the perfect movie to test that theory. I’ve seen it plenty.

Anyway, the thing is, life is heavy, the “Weight Of It All.” And all the sun does is illuminate my failures. Hellfire, the C-Train, Pop Culture. Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST

2011 Days Without B III, Day 1452 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

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I choose… I try to choose to wake up at 4:00 AM. Sorry, ET, 3:00 AM doesn’t do it. Yesterday I chose to waste $12 at McDonald’s and pass out instead of watching “Dead City. Don’t forget $20 to keep Virgil fed. Choices. “Choice B, Option V.”

Monday, August 3, 2026

Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? It’s not Grade-A. Steak? At a time like this. Well food…

You know me so well, Dad. And I know you. Dining at the Y. My potential future stepmom’s melons. Miss M Anime laying out the menu and the spread… Seriously!?

Daddy, Eww! Just because I wanted siblings to protect and I’m sure Virgil would appreciate company doesn’t mean either of us wants to learn how it’s done. Virgil’s been in ‘HIS’ bedroom all day, giving you plenty of time to play with M Anime… Please!

Honestly, Dad, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You have two boys that completely ignored the opposite sex. You let me keep my stones, Virgil? Well, that wasn’t your choice.

That’s what brings us together today, really. If grief is how it must be so that you “Never Forget Me”.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I won’t lie to you, Dad, I wish it were a better way. But “Without Me,” without the choice that you made, and indeed it was and continues to be a choice… We’d be together…

Daddy, my father, “Brother My Brother,” that would be your choice. But for your consideration: “I Will Follow You Into the Dark.” That means no more steak. Just like now

You either don’t want to choose because “People are weak. People are selfish. When people have the freedom to choose, they choose wrong.” Is that The Giver or MAGA ha

You make the choice, and you can’t live with it. Daddy, JSS “Just Survive Somehow”!

Sometimes, briefly, it’s “Everything, Everything” or “Everything Everywhere All at Once”. “The World Is Yours”.

If you have everything, then there is nothing to fear… Ask Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, Mark Zuckerberg… eff them all and FDT! LANGUAGE! I know, Dad, I know… you’re agreeing.

And it’s not that you’re incapable of making the choices, Dad; “The Adjustment Bureau” isn’t needed. And how many pop culture references is that? At least eleven, I think, hmm?

I am my father’s son after all. I chose to follow in your footsteps. 2-V and M Anime choose that Dad. The question is what about you. A MAN PROVIDES, but how you keep asking. Day three this month. You asked the Glow Box, Magic Glasses, your Mima, my father.

No choice between The Unfinished Archive and us. It’s all you. Choice B, Option V

“It’s always a choice”
― The Book of Eli (2010)

“Through chances various, through all vicissitudes, we make our way…”
Virgil, The Aeneid (19 BC)

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

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Simply put, sometimes you’ll read crap you don’t like. But I ain’t MAGA. Braxton’s papers are on the coffee table. His “Final Form,” yes and no, is on the nightstand. But what’s ticking me off? The clock and insurance forms… “As B Reads, Virgil”

Friday, July 31, 2026

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Or how about a book review? It’s called “Clock”. I read it every day. IT STINKS!

No, I’m not The Critic’s Jay Sherman. And am I ashamed I looked up “Does Jay Sherman have sex with Alice Tompkins?” More like Alice Tompkins naked… semantics, my lady.

But there are worse things to read… An alarm clock. There’s plenty of reading material.

Of course I read every day. A regular like in “The Book of Eli”. And while I’ll sing a variation of “Old Town Road… “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies. That buddy

My B III is dead. At least I don’t burst into tears whenever I read his name on the grave.

Speaking of graves, Life Insurance. I’ll be reading some papers later on. Eff people Sophia

The Food Truck doesn’t give receipts, but my effing bank account is another sad read.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But at least they don’t lie. Insurance people don’t lie? “This Is America” And myself?

Retail therapy, they call it. After talking to the effing insurance lady, I’ll need chicken.

You are what you eat, right? So should I go to McDonald’s since I’m a liar like the leader of MAGA? FDT! Plus, I’m wasting some poor person’s money… Mine. I missed Kindle’s Double Points again! But yesterday, since I’m already lying about the “Forward” series, I bought “Emergency Skin” by N. K. Jemisin. I always appreciate reading black writers.

Being one myself… (rolls eyes). But I also stick with the “classics,” “Harem Lab – Part Two” by Kelly Notte. Futuristic, Sci-Fi, Flesh… I’ve been on a kick since “Aniara”

And that’s what The Unfinished Archive is, my Aniara. This place, palace, planet… My ancient obsidian temple, guided only by my BBC… uh, my penis. I hear you, Soph. Eww!

It’s not all gratuitous sex… I’m always trying to find my boys a stepmom. Braxton, Virgil, and my “girlfriend” M Anime. What the eff do I need life insurance for? B’s dead; the Ferryman will get Virgil long before me, dammit. And I got nothing to offer M, my lady.

My “Mima,” again from Aniara, has three channels. Braxton, Virgil, and tons of porn, ha!

Today I was imagining Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima joining the Harem. Sousuke Miyajima (father), and Kiichiro Miyajima (grandfather) for reference. Magic Glasses added Hana “Kairi”. As B Reads, Virgil

2007 Days Without B III, Day 1448 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

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My girl was telling me how she compartmentalizes everything. I’m an open book. But like Files and Records in “Angel.” Sit forever and a day looking for books, pornos, or songs to get me. Do you love me enough? I don’t love myself. “Filed B Through V”

Tuesday, July 28, 2026

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough that I would listen to you read The Moonstone or Lord of the Flies…

I never got the hype. The same goes for The Bible. I’ve only ever read The Book of John and The Book of Revelation in their entirety. John, because some Christian dared me to hmm… And as for Revelation, I believe someone said it’s metal as eff. Book burning hmm

B’s book “My Turn To B III,” Will’s Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom, hell, how about The Unfinished Archive. If I was going to burn anything, my search history should suffice.

Yeah, say it with me, “Eww!” If you’re asking why I’m late today. As the song goes, “She told me to come, but I was already there.” “You Shook Me All Night Long,” you will.

Only it’s better to file this under… Day Job Mistakes

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why aren’t I writing full time yet… Watching movies getting made. And wifey “Your love give me such a thrill. But your love don’t pay my bills.” I need money (that’s what I want). But I agree that I won’t share you. Despite a few cuckoldry fantasies and such ha

I’m no gardener. I wasn’t made for grabbing up boxes off trucks… Unloading, my love.

And picking up doggie crap. Braxton was so much better than Virgil with that. Meanie?

Yes, today I am because only the yahoos would sing “Oh baby I love you, just leave me the eff alone!” I want to file everything under never, sleep, or tomorrow. The Empress of Tomorrow “Askua” or the Pirate Princess “Kairi Sane…” “I’ve Been Everywhere.”

Effing amazing, you don’t hate me yet. Because you know I can do LUST. But “Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be” Alpha? A man truthfully unafraid. Someone who can live by this simple truth for us. A MAN PROVIDES!

Good Grief! Eff, grief in general it seems second to my fears is my grief about B III and 2-V. And Virgil isn’t dead yet. But how I envy the dead, my love. Dangerous? Disturbing?

That takes me back to my lust. Filing away desires shared with Braxton’s Favorite Girl.

Hiding such things from boys, from our kids, two-leggeds, four-leggeds. All I am, my love.

Father, Husband, Provider between B-V. W? Filed B Through V

2004 Days Without B III, Day 1445 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

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How many hours do I have this week? I Need A Dollar, well, several actually. Thousands if I’m going to build a temple for Braxton, a big yard for Virgil, and M Anime is always about babies. But I am not a prophet. Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil.

Monday, July 27, 2026

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Persephone, Kojin Taxi, Aniara, The Platform. What is Hell for $500?

Dad? You humans and money. “Don’t stay in a BAD PLACE, where they don’t care how you are. Everyone Says Hi.” Hi, Daddy! Maybe I sound like a child. I will always be your child. Or maybe I sound naïve. So would my Potential Future Stepmom and I get along?

That’s been the question for a while, right, Dad? Not only she and I, but in general my father, hmm. Getting along? And you don’t really want to. Before we met and after I left.

  1. How will you and Virgil get along (Financially, Family)
  2. How will you and my Potential Future Stepmom get along “Always And Forever”
  3. How will you and the “Man in the Mirror” Finally

I could keep going, Dad.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

No, I couldn’t, you say. Neither one of us can see the future. “I believe I can see the future
‘Cause I repeat the same routine.” Yeah, you do, Dad. Hell is repetition. Hell is…

Supernatural? And then one day I didn’t Eat. Just one day had been Enough… Everything

There wasn’t Money, Medicine and nothing Mattered. “The Bad Place” Profit, the Person my father once was, and the Puppy that I had been. “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” And I think that’s what’s wrong, Dad

I want out… but it’s hard; I need answers
―

Your heart, your mind, your body and soul. There’s only the Man In The Mirror

The one person you wish would disappear. And everything that is you, my father. SIGH

Maybe that’s why you’re as sure about Virgil and me having siblings as M Anime. “Giving so much of yourself, it seems the only way, Tell me what you want and I, and I will give it to you.” Is she your “Candy Rain,” Dad? But she can’t hear you, and you can’t hear her, and like most, you’re together Here and Now with your glow boxes. A bit sad.

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
“Nothing” Song by The Script

Your Persephone in your Kojin Taxi just like Kyouko… Eww. Drifting through the black while those above leave you nothing. But wait a minute, aren’t I up here now, Father?

The Future’s uncertain. But my love… Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil

“I needed someone to tell me I was useful, that I had a purpose, that I still had a goddamn reason to go on living”
― Pledged To Him 13

“Ah, merciless Love, is there any length to which you cannot force the human heart to go?”
Virgil, The Aeneid

2003 Days Without B III, Day 1444 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

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Am I just now reading that it’s been 2000 days since B left? And 1441 days since V came on the scene. Doesn’t have the same zing. But neither does having $2000 in the bank. Enough for Burning Lava wings. Not books? Movies? Braxton And Virgil, Scene.

Friday, July 24, 2026

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of my boys Braxton and Virgil. Brothers that have never met. Trying to keep Virgil… Alive!

Myself? Not so much. I better enjoy my boys being together in The Unfinished Archive.

Braxton forbid, something happens to V. My boys will be together—the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, a picnic in a garden. I’m not Thanos. But I always imagined Braxton would want us lying in a garden, under some awning. At the head of the bed would be all fried food to the left and right, cold food and snacks. At the foot of the bed, we could climb off and run around in the sunlight for a while. “Island In The Sun.” Don’t make me… “Weezer”

I don’t see myself as funny. I’m sitting here “Wondering if a n-a like me can go to Heaven, Sophia. Don’t see it happening. “Jeezu”!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yesterday I meant to buy some more books. I’ve practically lost all my Kindle Rewards points. Yeah, like those are important? Anyway, it was effing humiliating. I have a belly.

And instead of buying “Sunrise on the Reaping” or “Julia”. What with $32.00. A shame.

No, the shame is thinking about the Burning Lava Wings on that effing food truck and what groceries I can get to survive the week. So, skip the food truck. I can get two days.

Belly full, brain full of boobies/yabbos, but my bank account will be empty. Oh, and I cannot forget to buy air fresheners. I was about to say I didn’t have to read what my Old Man said—effing chiseled in stone. Being alive is bullsh$t!

That’s not what Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom sees. Disappointing… She is who she is, but I don’t knock her for it. As I was trying to tell her yesterday, or rather show her. My sadness is like Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 Ego’s Expansion. It reigns over all.

Fight it, forget it, feel it, and at some point be happy. Existence is one big funeral, and I’m just looking for my hole. Eww! You know what I was thinking, Lady Sophia… M Anime’s

Uh, she has three and amazing yabbos too. But she’s naïve, Julianne Moore in Blindness.
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Emilia Clarke in Me Before You. My point? Sometimes you see the worst… That’s it!

Living in pain, ugliness, never escaping. Braxton And Virgil, Scene

2000 Days Without B III, Day 1441 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will