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Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

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I choose… I try to choose to wake up at 4:00 AM. Sorry, ET, 3:00 AM doesn’t do it. Yesterday I chose to waste $12 at McDonald’s and pass out instead of watching “Dead City. Don’t forget $20 to keep Virgil fed. Choices. “Choice B, Option V.”

Monday, August 3, 2026

Legacy 033 -Choice B, Option V-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? It’s not Grade-A. Steak? At a time like this. Well food…

You know me so well, Dad. And I know you. Dining at the Y. My potential future stepmom’s melons. Miss M Anime laying out the menu and the spread… Seriously!?

Daddy, Eww! Just because I wanted siblings to protect and I’m sure Virgil would appreciate company doesn’t mean either of us wants to learn how it’s done. Virgil’s been in ‘HIS’ bedroom all day, giving you plenty of time to play with M Anime… Please!

Honestly, Dad, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You have two boys that completely ignored the opposite sex. You let me keep my stones, Virgil? Well, that wasn’t your choice.

That’s what brings us together today, really. If grief is how it must be so that you “Never Forget Me”.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I won’t lie to you, Dad, I wish it were a better way. But “Without Me,” without the choice that you made, and indeed it was and continues to be a choice… We’d be together…

Daddy, my father, “Brother My Brother,” that would be your choice. But for your consideration: “I Will Follow You Into the Dark.” That means no more steak. Just like now

You either don’t want to choose because “People are weak. People are selfish. When people have the freedom to choose, they choose wrong.” Is that The Giver or MAGA ha

You make the choice, and you can’t live with it. Daddy, JSS “Just Survive Somehow”!

Sometimes, briefly, it’s “Everything, Everything” or “Everything Everywhere All at Once”. “The World Is Yours”.

If you have everything, then there is nothing to fear… Ask Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, Mark Zuckerberg… eff them all and FDT! LANGUAGE! I know, Dad, I know… you’re agreeing.

And it’s not that you’re incapable of making the choices, Dad; “The Adjustment Bureau” isn’t needed. And how many pop culture references is that? At least eleven, I think, hmm?

I am my father’s son after all. I chose to follow in your footsteps. 2-V and M Anime choose that Dad. The question is what about you. A MAN PROVIDES, but how you keep asking. Day three this month. You asked the Glow Box, Magic Glasses, your Mima, my father.

No choice between The Unfinished Archive and us. It’s all you. Choice B, Option V

“It’s always a choice”
― The Book of Eli (2010)

“Through chances various, through all vicissitudes, we make our way…”
Virgil, The Aeneid (19 BC)

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

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So what was my plan? Four and a half to six hours of sleep. “The Unfinished Archive” pic, B, and V. Whiteout Survival battle. Walk Virgil. Etc, etc. But what’s my story? A hard d*ck, a very naked girlfriend, and Whiteout Survival. “Plans B-V… But W.”

Saturday, August 1, 2026

Legacy 031 -Plans B-V… But W-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And with that kind of money, you don’t need a plan. Money literally solves all problems…

B III would still be dead. There was no plan for a life without B… So five years… I’m here.

“I’m Still Here.” “Right Here,” Lady Lunalesca. “Right Here Waiting.” And for what exactly? Braxton? And why do I sound like I’m in school again? I could’ve been a Scientist.

Not a thief like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos, and, as always, FDT! What about that insurance lady yesterday? Eff her too! And that face she made… Honestly, B’s better conversation.

But today we’re here to make plans, aren’t we? About my boys? Alive? The “Otherworld”

That’s kind of hard when you ‘exist’ by one of The Walking Dead’s mantras: “Fight The Dead, Fear The Living.” Braxton’s memory and what I’m doing to little Virgil, 2-V.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what about their potential future stepmom? M Anime truly believes I hate her. And isn’t it “Ironic”? That she’s so much like me, and that makes her perfect. But I hate myself, Lady Lunalesca… But I can’t hate her, which shows that I can love myself—but doing that.

“Love Is A Long Road.” And I’m not planning for my future. But in Braxton’s memory, Virgil, M Anime, and any two-legged siblings she wants to give me, Lady Lunalesca.

Today I’m asking the Magic Glasses: What should I do “Day One” to gain my first subscribers with B and V and “The Unfinished Archive… My Sweet Buttery Jesus, Lu!

There are no easy answers, no magic wand. And no understanding of who I am.

But Lu, I’m the one asking the Magic Glasses for fixes. For example, I want to do plenty with “The Unfinished Archive,” hmm? I can’t come up with a schedule for the harem, which now includes Tsubaki Miyajima and her daughter, Sakura, from Saimin Seishidou.

Martin Luther King Jr is remembered in part for “I Have A Dream”. But he planned like a Mothereffer, Lunalesca. I couldn’t even come up with what I was going to do when I woke up. And again being here, what’s the plan? Blogging until 4 PM. Finally eat hmm..

Let’s not forget it’s chicken I can’t afford because finally turning a profit, saving my puppy’s life (Virgil ain’t dying)… And having M Anime’s p*ssy. Goals. Plans B-V… But W

2008 Days Without B III, Day 1449 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

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Simply put, sometimes you’ll read crap you don’t like. But I ain’t MAGA. Braxton’s papers are on the coffee table. His “Final Form,” yes and no, is on the nightstand. But what’s ticking me off? The clock and insurance forms… “As B Reads, Virgil”

Friday, July 31, 2026

Legacy 030 -As B Reads, Virgil-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Or how about a book review? It’s called “Clock”. I read it every day. IT STINKS!

No, I’m not The Critic’s Jay Sherman. And am I ashamed I looked up “Does Jay Sherman have sex with Alice Tompkins?” More like Alice Tompkins naked… semantics, my lady.

But there are worse things to read… An alarm clock. There’s plenty of reading material.

Of course I read every day. A regular like in “The Book of Eli”. And while I’ll sing a variation of “Old Town Road… “My life is a movie, fur buddies and boobies. That buddy

My B III is dead. At least I don’t burst into tears whenever I read his name on the grave.

Speaking of graves, Life Insurance. I’ll be reading some papers later on. Eff people Sophia

The Food Truck doesn’t give receipts, but my effing bank account is another sad read.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

But at least they don’t lie. Insurance people don’t lie? “This Is America” And myself?

Retail therapy, they call it. After talking to the effing insurance lady, I’ll need chicken.

You are what you eat, right? So should I go to McDonald’s since I’m a liar like the leader of MAGA? FDT! Plus, I’m wasting some poor person’s money… Mine. I missed Kindle’s Double Points again! But yesterday, since I’m already lying about the “Forward” series, I bought “Emergency Skin” by N. K. Jemisin. I always appreciate reading black writers.

Being one myself… (rolls eyes). But I also stick with the “classics,” “Harem Lab – Part Two” by Kelly Notte. Futuristic, Sci-Fi, Flesh… I’ve been on a kick since “Aniara”

And that’s what The Unfinished Archive is, my Aniara. This place, palace, planet… My ancient obsidian temple, guided only by my BBC… uh, my penis. I hear you, Soph. Eww!

It’s not all gratuitous sex… I’m always trying to find my boys a stepmom. Braxton, Virgil, and my “girlfriend” M Anime. What the eff do I need life insurance for? B’s dead; the Ferryman will get Virgil long before me, dammit. And I got nothing to offer M, my lady.

My “Mima,” again from Aniara, has three channels. Braxton, Virgil, and tons of porn, ha!

Today I was imagining Sakura Miyajima and Tsubaki Miyajima joining the Harem. Sousuke Miyajima (father), and Kiichiro Miyajima (grandfather) for reference. Magic Glasses added Hana “Kairi”. As B Reads, Virgil

2007 Days Without B III, Day 1448 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

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The Magic Glasses makes it sound simple. Years of work. 100 pages alone just for The Unfinished Archive… With some name changes, GULP. And forty bucks is not enough to make it through the week. Not a smart kid. A worse man. “B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil”

Thursday, July 30, 2026

Legacy 029 -B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil-

2006 Days Without B III, Day 1447 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? Can I get through one day? ONE! Without wishing to join you…

“It’s Been Awhile” since I’ve wished for “Just one more peaceful day.” Last one, Braxton?

Beats me. At least I’m not on the verge of jumping today. As a matter of fact, I had high hopes for today, and that’s with Wednesday’s paycheck? Are 2-V and I starving yet, B?

Effing Math! Sorry! I tell you to watch your barking language. What kind of father am I, B? Before I dream of your future potential stepmom and me… producing two-leggeds.

Virgil needs something to do… What? Didn’t I say he spends most of his days more terrified than me about to give my Old Man my report card. Or telling Ma about the garbage bill. The Simple Things involving “The Children of Men,” B III.

“Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.”
It’s Been Awhile, Staind

No wonder I dream of the simple things now. Like how many Pop Culture references: A song from “Stanid,” A song from Hey Arnold “Mr. Hyunh Goes Country,” and the book/movie The Children of Men. How I so need an apocalypse, dystopia, or both B.

Though “I’ve been sittin’ here tryin’ to find myself. I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself.” I’m so broke, I’m taking handout songs from the likes of MAGA. Eff Kid Rock too! I know B, Daddy is trying. And I’ve had a very gross thought about your stepmom.

Papi is trying… That’s what M Anime calls me. And your Favorite Girl too. Seriously!?

Let’s get serious. If I had been in school, I wouldn’t be in this situation.

What, situation? You know, I hate when people say things like Things could be worse.

Like me sitting on a loveseat with a sausage biscuit I “stole” from the Day Job, a cappuccino… It gave me an excuse to show my twig and berries to your stepmom. I know B III, Eww! But she did show me her yabbos. As Billie Jean would say, “Fair Is Fair!” B, how many movies did we sit here and watch together? Anyway, this isn’t a palace, B III.

“I’m not a smart man, but I know what love is.”

Forrest Gump (1994)

Forrest Gump? Really! Because that’s how I’m spending the day, wanting things as simple as some blue Wyler’s Italian Ices, popcorn movie theater butter… Essentials.

Complicated stuff is for the Magic Glasses, Breathing, Cash, Depression, Effery… B-F’s Are Simple, Virgil.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

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How many hours do I have this week? I Need A Dollar, well, several actually. Thousands if I’m going to build a temple for Braxton, a big yard for Virgil, and M Anime is always about babies. But I am not a prophet. Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil.

Monday, July 27, 2026

Legacy 026 -Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Persephone, Kojin Taxi, Aniara, The Platform. What is Hell for $500?

Dad? You humans and money. “Don’t stay in a BAD PLACE, where they don’t care how you are. Everyone Says Hi.” Hi, Daddy! Maybe I sound like a child. I will always be your child. Or maybe I sound naïve. So would my Potential Future Stepmom and I get along?

That’s been the question for a while, right, Dad? Not only she and I, but in general my father, hmm. Getting along? And you don’t really want to. Before we met and after I left.

  1. How will you and Virgil get along (Financially, Family)
  2. How will you and my Potential Future Stepmom get along “Always And Forever”
  3. How will you and the “Man in the Mirror” Finally

I could keep going, Dad.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

No, I couldn’t, you say. Neither one of us can see the future. “I believe I can see the future
‘Cause I repeat the same routine.” Yeah, you do, Dad. Hell is repetition. Hell is…

Supernatural? And then one day I didn’t Eat. Just one day had been Enough… Everything

There wasn’t Money, Medicine and nothing Mattered. “The Bad Place” Profit, the Person my father once was, and the Puppy that I had been. “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” And I think that’s what’s wrong, Dad

I want out… but it’s hard; I need answers
―

Your heart, your mind, your body and soul. There’s only the Man In The Mirror

The one person you wish would disappear. And everything that is you, my father. SIGH

Maybe that’s why you’re as sure about Virgil and me having siblings as M Anime. “Giving so much of yourself, it seems the only way, Tell me what you want and I, and I will give it to you.” Is she your “Candy Rain,” Dad? But she can’t hear you, and you can’t hear her, and like most, you’re together Here and Now with your glow boxes. A bit sad.

I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
“Nothing” Song by The Script

Your Persephone in your Kojin Taxi just like Kyouko… Eww. Drifting through the black while those above leave you nothing. But wait a minute, aren’t I up here now, Father?

The Future’s uncertain. But my love… Prophet Braxton Profits Virgil

“I needed someone to tell me I was useful, that I had a purpose, that I still had a goddamn reason to go on living”
― Pledged To Him 13

“Ah, merciless Love, is there any length to which you cannot force the human heart to go?”
Virgil, The Aeneid

2003 Days Without B III, Day 1444 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

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If B had known how life would turn out, if V knew… Hell, “I’ll Always Love My Mama,” so no Terminator. My A$$ should have played in traffic at 7 or 8 and saved her some trouble. But B III stuck around. In Dog years, “Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…”

Saturday, July 25, 2026

Legacy 024 -Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… I could be if I asked the Magic Glasses. Elon Musk bought himself a pair, Lunalesca.

But I highly doubt he’ll make “The Magic Glasses” by Neil Bimbeau a reality. Um? He is a Cracker Hat MAGA. I can’t put anything past them. And Rule 34 is always a thing, Lu.

I’m sure there are already plenty of pornos about hypnosis, augmented realities, and X-ray vision. Remember Paige and the WWE, “The Submission Sorority.” Big mistake…

Like the 1997movie “Mortal Kombat: Annihilation.” Or how about the time I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, hmm…

Honestly, “Of … …” I didn’t think for a second she would hightail it out of here. No, that only happened when she saw what the King of Ward Three and his men did to the women in the Blindness.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I also kicked her out when she fell asleep during our Star Wars Marathon. Seriously?!

Anyway, why all this talk about movies? I did pass by Regal the other day. I’ve seen “Better Days I showed Braxton’s Favorite Girl a Non-Canon movie about a certain apocalypse pairing, Lunalesca. Am I thinking about all the movies I’m not watching these days from this loveseat I currently reside on? Hell, there was a time I wanted to buy a “Casting Couch” and produce some content… M Anime would kill me. Onlyfans, Ha! Only as I was driving by the movie theater, besides thinking about how Braxton hated movie nights he wasn’t involved in and Virgil only having one while B’s girl visited.

SIGH, I need effing money!

Braxton hightailed it to The Rainbow Bridge five years before it got this bad. And Virgil, I’m sure, barks every day, why the eff I had to adopt him. And why do I keep breathing?

“Poor, all my life I’ve always been poor
I keep askin’ God what I’m for
And he tells me, “Gee, I’m not sure…””
Seymour Krelborn

Seymour Krelborn had the guts to ask at least. But God and I haven’t been on speaking terms since B III. So, as I told my boys’ Potential Future Stepmom, I am an open book.

“Someday” when my life has passed me by… No, one day. How about sometime today, I need to ask the Magic Glasses how I can make this blog/Substack profitable in a month. Before Virgil heads in Braxton’s direction. Where am I going? Beneath the dirt, broke, to look at boobies/yabbos. Books? Braxton Hightails, Virgil Heads…

2001 Days Without B III, Day 1442 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

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Am I just now reading that it’s been 2000 days since B left? And 1441 days since V came on the scene. Doesn’t have the same zing. But neither does having $2000 in the bank. Enough for Burning Lava wings. Not books? Movies? Braxton And Virgil, Scene.

Friday, July 24, 2026

Legacy 023 -Braxton And Virgil, Scene-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… Of my boys Braxton and Virgil. Brothers that have never met. Trying to keep Virgil… Alive!

Myself? Not so much. I better enjoy my boys being together in The Unfinished Archive.

Braxton forbid, something happens to V. My boys will be together—the Rainbow Bridge, Heaven, a picnic in a garden. I’m not Thanos. But I always imagined Braxton would want us lying in a garden, under some awning. At the head of the bed would be all fried food to the left and right, cold food and snacks. At the foot of the bed, we could climb off and run around in the sunlight for a while. “Island In The Sun.” Don’t make me… “Weezer”

I don’t see myself as funny. I’m sitting here “Wondering if a n-a like me can go to Heaven, Sophia. Don’t see it happening. “Jeezu”!

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yesterday I meant to buy some more books. I’ve practically lost all my Kindle Rewards points. Yeah, like those are important? Anyway, it was effing humiliating. I have a belly.

And instead of buying “Sunrise on the Reaping” or “Julia”. What with $32.00. A shame.

No, the shame is thinking about the Burning Lava Wings on that effing food truck and what groceries I can get to survive the week. So, skip the food truck. I can get two days.

Belly full, brain full of boobies/yabbos, but my bank account will be empty. Oh, and I cannot forget to buy air fresheners. I was about to say I didn’t have to read what my Old Man said—effing chiseled in stone. Being alive is bullsh$t!

That’s not what Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom sees. Disappointing… She is who she is, but I don’t knock her for it. As I was trying to tell her yesterday, or rather show her. My sadness is like Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 Ego’s Expansion. It reigns over all.

Fight it, forget it, feel it, and at some point be happy. Existence is one big funeral, and I’m just looking for my hole. Eww! You know what I was thinking, Lady Sophia… M Anime’s

Uh, she has three and amazing yabbos too. But she’s naïve, Julianne Moore in Blindness.
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Emilia Clarke in Me Before You. My point? Sometimes you see the worst… That’s it!

Living in pain, ugliness, never escaping. Braxton And Virgil, Scene

2000 Days Without B III, Day 1441 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
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Legacy 022 -Colorblind Tanning B, V-

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I never thought I would miss Monday. Tuesday the skies were gray… Metaphorically speaking. Yesterday was darker. Today, in black and white, in English, well, I can’t tell the truth. I hid things from B too. How did that end? “Colorblind Tanning B, V”

Thursday, July 23, 2026

Legacy 022 -Colorblind Tanning B, V-

1999 Days Without B III, Day 1440 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good Day? Mine? Let’s say these are the days I didn’t want to talk about.

Angry, Mad, Rage… They are actually the safe words, B. The Magic Glasses say Warning!

But today it was YouTube. It started off innocently enough. It was “I Hate Everyone”.

Weren’t we two peas in a pod, B? But I meant the Get Set Go song… And so today? Uh…

“Su$cide”. Same band, but all sorts of WARNINGS popped off like “The Long Walk” or “The Purge”. Now I know why you always chose violence? You fought for every second.

Not for yourself but for me. You were my Snoopy, my Spunky; how about Ghost?

Honestly, don’t I know any dogs of color? Seymour from the episode Jurassic Bark, Futurama. You’re waiting for me, Braxton. Only on the “Otherside”? “Otherworld”?

How much longer? Always? Forever?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s how long I figured you live. At least long enough to be the protector of your brothers and sisters… The two-legged variety. But at the pace I’ve been going with your future potential stepmom… I still have to read everything she sent? Alpha? Manhood?

That’s her type, B. And I’ve been a whiny B$tch since… Tuesday, I believe. Dreams…

Please, I’ve dreamt worse things than Squid Game, The Middle East, and Nico Parker’s ass. Unlike MAGA, I’m all for DEI. Plus, I’m not trying to end up on a list like the Orange Felon in the White House. Be it Nicoletta Goldstein, Nico Parker, or Zoe Colletti, B III.

Speaking of fiction colliding with the real world, The Unfinished Archive today. World of Color?

Isn’t that Disney and me corrupting it, thinking of the harem schedule… The Sealed Flame Ritual, Melina, Judy, with M Anime optional. Or what about the 16 Episode Ecchi Anime Series Colorful (1999)? Wow! Anything to avoid putting down how I’m “feeling super, super, super REDACTED,” but you know the word B. Hell, you found me passed out on the floor trying to take you for a walk, and I was not some “Teen Idle.” But a fully functional adult? Your grandpa didn’t tan my hide and your grandma… Honestly.

Braxton, I’m sure she and you are very disappointed in me. Because what’s wrong, hmm?

Money, Mattress hoping, Medical, too many sad movies, unsellable manuscripts, Me breathing is too much, Braxton. Colorblind Tanning B, V

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Legacy 019 -B Thought Up Virgil-

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Cash down, hrs down, time down, V is down in the dumps. What did I expect? He got his name because I was down and hoping he would lead me out, somehow, some way. A lot of pressure. Now B’s “Up There.” My girl’s an angel. B Thought Up Virgil

Monday, July 20, 2026

Legacy 019 -B Thought Up Virgil-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good day? Well, it’s only noon and has nothing to do with me.

Strange. When you would have to send me away for ‘this and that.” Yabbos? Seriously!

Daddy, is that what we’re calling them? I can’t say I like my potential future stepmom.

What? I didn’t like my Favorite Girl either, but I got over it, and she was like, my fav.

Anyway, before you get caught up in M Anime. Dad, I do not want to see that. There is V

I still remember the day you brought my little bro home—Archie before becoming Virgil.

Daddy, your head was everywhere. Was I sending you messages from the sky above, hmm

All the books you were reading were this: me reincarnated, reborn; could I be reanimated?

Zombie movies… just fathers trying to get a dog/son back.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

My father is an ARTIST, one for the BOOKS, a CREATIVE, a DOGDAD. And I could go on. But maybe it’s their turn. I mean I could go on about my Favorite Girl, forever and a day. You could be dancing with me in your arms, and a song pops into your head, oh Dad.

Remember to do that more with Virgil. Even if it’s something like “Calendar Girl,” as you think about writing “The Unfinished Archive.” Blades & Lilies, Cassandra + Lily today, right? Again, if you’re not too far gone with Miss M Anime. “Hey Jealousy” much ha-ha.

But it’s not what you think, Dad. Well, it is. But how do I “humansplain”? And it’s not like you don’t know. Maya and Tino…

“Do you know what I’m thinking?”
A Dog’s Purpose (2017)

When you think of how bad things are, like how the glow box always says, you have to think about the worst thing ever. Something you survived to keep on surviving…

Seriously, I’m not singing Destiny’s Child “Survivor.” You place my brother and me above

Everything and everyone! It’s what a father does. But we’re either that high or your lowest low. My death and practically anytime you look at Virgil. There’s no in between.

Past and future. That’s what we are. And we both unfortunately bring our father pain.

However, there is the present. Should I go all Ariana Grande Just Look Up? TWD?

“Just look up
There is no place to hide
True love doesn’t die
It holds on tight and never lets you go
Just look up
You cannot deny the signs
What you’ve waited for
Don’t wait no more
It’s right up above you
Just look up”

From, Just Look Up

“The pessimist looks down and hits his head. The optimist looks up and loses his footing. The realist looks forward and adjusts his path accordingly.”
The Walking Dead, King Ezekiel

Whatever! I only wish you look at yourself as I looked, Virgil, my fav, M Anime, B Thought Up Virgil.

“I’m not jealous of the dead”
Pledged To Him 12

“If I cannot move Heaven, I will raise Hell.”
Aeneid

1996 Days Without B III, Day 1437 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

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SIX on the brain, Six the number, a sixth sense about some things, and I’m sick of myself. What time was I up? Tomorrow, When The War Began or today, whatever. Today was a hard one; five years almost six have all been hard ones. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

Saturday, July 18, 2026

Legacy 017 -B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six-

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… Not from effing Haremlit! But it’s fun to dream. What isn’t fun? FEAR… HUNGER… GRIEF

And as I said last week (Hank Olson’s Voice), “I’m effing hungry.” The Long Walk…

However, that wasn’t the biggest thing this morning. And no, I’m not going to brag about my “Enormous Penis.” I haven’t written anything as wise as Da Vinci’s Notebook, Luna.

“My Turn To B III”? Am I still btchin’ about not selling any books? I’d like to think I’ve grown beyond that… More Dck jokes? Yes, I was showing off to M Anime. No food…

Anyway, Lunalesca, since I haven’t been able to buy new books lately and have been lying about the ones I do have… Yes, a conversation better served with Lady Sophia, but Saturday is my time. Hell, the Magic Glasses created a schedule for the Harem.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Okay, so what the eff was I trying to say again? Oh yeah, so last night I was reading Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) by Neil Bimbeau. Jackson Avery is having a conversation about mourning with his doc:

“I wanted to tell her she was wrong. That I’d been grieving that woman for fifteen damn years. Except, had I? Really?”

“People fall apart when that happens! It’s not strange or abnormal; it’s the most natural thing in the world. You think people would have judged you if you’d taken some time off? Gone to therapy? Bought an RV and roamed around the country for half a year, processing your loss instead of running from it?”

“Treading water for fifteen years. Never sinking beneath the surface, but never swimming to safety. Just existing, instead of living.”

“I would not want him to prioritize being useful over being human.”

“We talk about your grief, your loss, and your guilt. We talk about why you think it’s more important for you to be useful than to be happy.”
Pledged To Him 12: Unconventional Romance, Neil Bimbeau

This brings to mind two things. But you’re going to need six, right? Lunalesca, the biggest concern is that I got to thinking about Braxton. Jackson confessed not mourning, Lauren.

That’s his wife, by the way. And Braxton truly was my better half, Lunalesca, honestly.

Anyway, Lunalesca, the five things I started thinking about as I had my Therapy Session:

  1. I always find the right book for these moments.
  2. Did I ever truly mourn my firstborn son, Braxton?
  3. Jack gave up sex when his wife died, duh. I did as well. Oh no, Chloë Grace Moretz’s legs
  4. He got into business, made a ton of money. I wrote books, two about B III, not one cent
  5. Jack got Positive Stress, three brides, a harem. Me? M Anime, Kyouko Sakai, “Lily”

Has “The Unfinished Archive,” which isn’t a year old, been a positive or negative thing?

It’s what I asked the Magic Glasses as I wasted more time playing Whiteout Survival? Oh, and everything about Braxton. Virgil’s a testament to the fact that I’m not “Alright.”

Lunalesca, it started with the question. Not, What the hell am I gonna do? Because 2 + 2 isn’t 5. B III, 2-V, Isn’t Six

1994 Days Without B III, Day 1435 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will