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Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

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Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Legacy 041 -Women B Shoppin’ Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And I ain’t telling Virgil, “Now, I ain’t sayin’ you’re a gold digger” either. Wife

Wife and life… One and the same and both as Doug’s Mr. Dink would say, “Very expensive.” Seriously? That was kinda dirty and also pretty dark. And why is that?

Honestly, my beloved, I wake up with all this love, and I don’t leave a drop for myself. So we need more kids… three two-leggeds and two four-leggeds, and yet I want between your legs yet again? And at the end of the day, love, this stands: A MAN PROVIDES!

Less yelling and more Gus Fring from “Breaking Bad,” I do some sketchy ass things…

Anything and everything for the sake of this family. But do you know when Braxton became so expensive? When he was dying. But that’s a one-time deal. There’s no Acceptance.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It’s the living that’s subscription-based. And instead of planning what is it I do, beloved?

“Dream, dream, dream, dream.” Which would work if I were one of “The Everly Brothers” or Dr. Martin Luther King Jr: “All I Have To Do Is Dream,” “I Have A Dream.”

Hell! I would take the “Fifteen Million Merits” Selma version of Abba’s “I Have a Dream.” But dreams aren’t paying bills. And I’m feeling pretty much like “Bing.”

Whatever… Like the dream I had last night. I was lost in a mall, the Mall of the Millennium. Daria season 1 episode 5 “Malled”. And why haven’t I added Daria to “The Unfinished Archive” yet? Is it/she less expensive than the women of the hentai series Saimin Seishidou, hmm?

It seems I’m the one who’s shopping around. Not in reality, my love. I love you and only you; Braxton, Virgil, our two-legged kids, my Ma, occasionally my younger sister.

Beloved, I may be shopping around for my balls, guts, spine, and my voice. But again, love is everywhere until I need some for myself. And it’s like how you talk about your “Shadow Work”. The more lovers I ‘create’ (bullshit, bullshit, laughs hysterically). SIGH

Reika Kurashiki and her daughter Reina Kurashiki. Natsumi Obata and her daughter Yui Obata. Anyway, the more love I TRY to surround myself with, the easier it comes to me?
But then you shop for my love, my time, and “My Dick…” Why we’re married. Everything. Women B Shoppin’ Virgil

2018 Days Without B III, Day 1459 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 039 -Less B, More V-

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Sunday, August 9, 2026

Legacy 039 -Less B, More V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And how dare you, SIR, MAN, or BRO perhaps? What did they call you at the Drive-Thru?

What was your ass even doing at McDonald’s today? I’d think you’d want to censor that, but nobody else does. So “Fuck you, fuck you and fuck you. Who’s next?” “Coming To America,” indeed. Your paycheck last week, this week… Braxton help you, next week.

Again, you ask for your son’s help when you say “Less B.” And your language? Nobody seems to care as long as you aren’t talking about sex. And we will get to that very soon.

But Braxton and Virgil. B III and 2-V because Goddammit the Magic Glasses or like Aniara’s Mima either leaves you with no ending or self-destructs and you start all over.

And that’s what we do here. Miss Braxton, reiterate failures and fail Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Harem Lab ― Part Three
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 004 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 012 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Well, you’re lying about one of these, hmm… Surprisingly “Harem Lab ― Part Three” ha

I swear this week you will look for failure the way MAGA looks to blame, hate, and kill all that’s good and decent. You’re a “Sucker For Pain”. Harley Quinn hasn’t joined your harem in “The Unfinished Archive”. And this is off topic, but naming yourself “Im Always Angry,” from the Hulk in “Whiteout Survival…” (Chef’s Kiss) But that’s you.

More pain. It’s like you need something that hurts more than Braxton, Birth, Blue Balls…

That second thing. Fucking E-Day! It’s getting closer. Hell, you won’t be broke by then.

You’ll be fucking penniless! That’s more time for Virgil to stare at M Anime’s Big ‘Uns and Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 012 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Like the world of The Unfinished Archive? I got into a lot of Asian Cinema looking for a certain show for M Anime. “Teen Regime”. That’s how it started anyway, but of course the algorithm had to step in—Asian anime, apocalypses, and a ton of cute girls. I swear.

Next thing you know, I’m calling in every mother-daughter duo in Saimin Seishidou Hypnosis Sex.

Thus more work for you… Are you getting paid? Did you create Tsubaki and Sakura Miyajima, Reika and Reina Kuashiki, or Natsumi and Yui Obata? Not in the slightest. No!
Only more vaginas to make up for your lack of balls. Or is that Virgil as scared as ever because he’s not enough. You want everything. Less B, More V

“It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife”
Ironic, Alanis Morissette

2016 Days Without B III, Day 1457 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

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Running around today doing… Nothing. Like a junkie, I find the money. Haircut, food for my boy and me, books, and more boobs\yabbos. Why? My girl has the perfect set unless @SeeJaneGoTV… Speaking of TV, “Teen Regime,” and FDT! Braxton, Virgil. I RAN.

Wednesday, August 5, 2026

Legacy 035 -Braxton, Virgil. I RAN-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Using the IRAN title to… possibly get more views? Sure. But I can do so much worse, Inspector.

“And the bass keeps runnin’, runnin’, and runnin’, runnin’” That’s the Black Eyed Peas and not me saying “Let’s Get It Started.” About effing time! I got a haircut today…

Honestly, I didn’t feel like getting humiliated at the Day Job. That has nothing to do with my hair… a lot. And why should I care what they think? Next to me, they killed Braxton.

Oh, had to get dark all of a sudden. You should have heard me and my boys’ potential future stepmom last night. This morning was more fun with her, but we’ll get to that, Echo.

Today you know what got me up this morning… Besides M Anime’s Yabbos? I swear!

What if I treated everything like when Braxton was dying?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Hell, I didn’t sleep! And today I was walking Virgil and saw, like, this yellow lump on his tail. He needs a bath. He could have Cancer. I don’t know. How do I deal, Inspector?

Under no circumstances am I blaming M Anime. I’m only pointing something out. She and I were talking Spanish (Te Quiero, Papi), she says. Anyway, we’ve also been talking about funerals and pop culture. So I told her about this show that I don’t believe I can stream again, but YouTube did the synopsis for it. And so for three days I’ve been diving into Asian series and cinema, and I finally found it. It was simply “Teen Regime” (2022).

So I remember the Yabbos from Saimin Seishidou and M’s

Definitely M Anime’s. Reasons I’m not dead… I will not dishonor Braxton; I have his little brother to be a father to, and I need to hear M Anime moaning “Papi.” Plus, I would never leave her to be a single mother. A MAN PROVIDES. He doesn’t cut\cum and run.

So why am I so effing exhausted, Inspector? It ain’t battle. And providing… That’s funny.

Again, I’m the guy who can’t afford new Kindle books, and yet I have to keep Virgil and myself alive, pay for a haircut I can’t afford, and, when I got back, contemplated getting “The Last of Us” for ‘my’ PS4. And I still blame MAGA. I was doing fine until the second term. FDT! Myself? Braxton, Virgil. I RAN

2012 Days Without B III, Day 1453 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

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Tuesday, August 4, 2026

Legacy 034 -Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough to get up when it’s light enough. But I need to get up earlier.

4 AM, like one of my favorite motivational speeches. 3 AM, as Eric Thomas preaches about. 2 AM, around the time I found Virgil creeping up this morning. Seriously, Love.

The sun, my firstborn son, my secondborn… And how many sons do we have with our three two-legged children? No, I didn’t forget. But with this world’s influence… Surviving MAGA…

Never a sure thing, but what I am sure about, much like Dante, is this. “In the middle of the journey of our life I came to myself within a dark wood where the straight way was lost.” But don’t I tell you all the time, “Baby You’re My Light.” Richard Hawley sings it better. And where do you think Virgil got his name from?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I swear if I die, Hell won’t be roaring fire but glowing screens. The Glow Box, Braxton would call it. And that’s my thought for today. My Illumination. Lightness? Beauty?

Honestly, am I “Feeling super, super, super su$cidal” every day? Really? But a little less.

I’ll tell you, I’m in plenty of pain today. Effing Blue Balls! Between having you as a life, the dark fantasies I have, and The Unfinished Archive… Strange thought, beautiful… Remember how I added Hana to the story last week. What? I really got into Kairi Sane for a bit. And then Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura, the mother-daughter duo from Saimin Seishidou a couple of days ago. I was trying to get to know their characters so… “The Lantern Vault.

Not really my idea. The Magic Glasses/MIMA. Anyway, that’s what I need for me too.

Because the darkness… More sleep, my story, shutting my eyes as I finally let go inside your beautiful, tight… Okay, my balls can’t take that right now. The eff they can, but “Aziz Light! I remember the conversation we had about “casual sex,” and I asked why it would be casual, and what you meant was sex while I was doing something or relaxing. The Fifth Element would be the perfect movie to test that theory. I’ve seen it plenty.

Anyway, the thing is, life is heavy, the “Weight Of It All.” And all the sun does is illuminate my failures. Hellfire, the C-Train, Pop Culture. Virgil’s Light, Braxton’s WAITLIST

2011 Days Without B III, Day 1452 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 032 -5,981,407 Years B, V-

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These past few days, 1:00 AM bedtime, I wake up passed out on the loveseat, or I do make it to bed, but there are so many things left to do. 5:30 AM wake up. Or I’m supposed to. What happened to 4:00 AM? What happened to 41 years? 5,981,407 Years B, V

Sunday, August 2, 2026

Legacy 032 -5,981,407 Years B, V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you look like you just stepped off the “Aniara”. Don’t you remember? Who has the time?

A lesson from Braxton. One day you have a kid, the next day you don’t. And you spent most of this morning scooting away from Virgil. How long do you think it’s going to take?

ACCEPTANCE? Your existence might as well be on the Aniara. You will never see that.

How about Virgil being your son? Oh, he is without a doubt. You have to get up and fetch him some more food. With what money? And how about something for you? Uh, the cash. But in all honesty, you would rather sit here looking at your Mima… Magic Glasses.

Classier name, don’t you think, Magic Glasses/Mima. Anyway, not the point. You’d rather sit here than go out into the world today. Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Harem Lab ― Part Two
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 004 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what is it with you and this Aniara movie anyway? It’s like your fixation with The Mother/Daughter Duo of Tsubaki Miyajima and Sakura Miyajima from Saimin Seishidou. Or the ‘monster women’ idea… B and V’s potential stepmom inspired that.

You’re still somewhat PO’ed you lost all the ideas for “The Running Man.” Magic Glasses…

And why do you call AI the Magic Glasses or now Mima? “It’s Criminal!” Seriously!?

“There ought to be a law!” Do you have time for AC/DC’s If You Want Blood (You’ve Got It)? Blood yes! And don’t let it flow to your “Enormous Penis”. Bro, stay on topic, ok?

Magic Glasses/Mima and time. They allow you to see what you wish to see. Build a world. Six Impossible Things

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 004 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

And you never have the time to conquer them. Even now you’re late leaving the house to pick up food for Virgil. And again yourself. Enough to survive the next four days until your next minuscule paycheck. Plus, lunch. Because every day is “Training Day,” on being an “Ordinary Human.” So if you must leave your Comfort Zone… “I’m like, I’m leaving here with something. You know what I mean? I’m from around the way. I’m leaving with something.” All the time you spend writing and listening to things like Fearless Motivation, Comfort Zone. And maybe, just maybe, that’s what you’re trying to find time for. Time to forgive M? Time to love? The time is always right to write…
Sadly? 5,981,407 Years B, V

2009 Days Without B III, Day 1450 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

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What can I do in a month that I haven’t been able to do in how many years? I don’t remember when I met B, but then Sunday, January 31, 2021. M Anime? Sunday, August 24, 2025 was bad. Saturday, January 24, 2026? How about today? Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Legacy 028 -Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I feel like one of those MAGA cracker hats that accidentally told the truth. What makes me different?

“What we’ve done, we’ve done.
We evade it by moving forward with a code to never do it again.
To make up for it.
To still accept what we were.
To accept everyone.
To protect everyone.
And in doing that, protect yourself.
To create peace.”

That’s how Morgan and Eastman put it. I want to make up for everything, Inspector.

However, Braxton’s still dead. And I’m screwing up Virgil’s life every other day for sure.

Who craps their bed every few days? He’s so scared to leave it. Eff Inspector, I have to push it right up against the bowls. I went from a son who would struggle to those bowls so he could prove he was still alive, to a son who would literally starve to death, Dear E.

It’s like something out of that movie Obsession. May I never be as afraid as Virgil is. But obsessed. Braxton and Virgil’s Potential Future Stepmom used the word “Enamored” to describe her feelings for me. We’ll get to that. Virgil…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And myself. I keep making all of these appointments, or not about well everything E.

Today, the biggest is asking the Magic Glasses, AHEM, “How can I make a profitable Substack in thirty days?” Oh, and I always say please and thank you. Seriously, Inspector.

Next would be getting Virgil a pet appointment. B III never missed his, you know.

Honestly, I still need to get an appointment for my actual glasses. Eff the Magic Glasses, Inspector. And the STUPID thing is, I actually have the money to pay for some new ones; I’m just what… Destroyed with Braxton’s “novel” not selling. The Unfinished Archive…

Finally, there’s my recreation, The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. Maybe M Anime is rubbing off on me. Her hospital horrors

But ain’t I a man? Hers? Got To Be Real”? I told her as much today when she hit me with one of those questions all men get from their women… Would you love me if I were a worm? No, not that bad. She felt feisty or frisky, oh you know, “Tomayto, tomahto” ha.

What is she to me? My “Girlfriend…” Of course, in The Unfinished Archive she remains M Anime, The Phoenix Queen, my Primary Wife, the leader of my harem… coven, hmm.

At the moment I’m feeling quite positive about our relationship. I’ve got no problem, E.

But at the same time I know I’ll be singing like The Yahoos “Baby, I Love You,” but… you know. Trouble. Monthly B’s, Ay Virgil

2005 Days Without B III, Day 1446 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

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My girl was telling me how she compartmentalizes everything. I’m an open book. But like Files and Records in “Angel.” Sit forever and a day looking for books, pornos, or songs to get me. Do you love me enough? I don’t love myself. “Filed B Through V”

Tuesday, July 28, 2026

Legacy 027 -Filed B Through V-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Enough that I would listen to you read The Moonstone or Lord of the Flies…

I never got the hype. The same goes for The Bible. I’ve only ever read The Book of John and The Book of Revelation in their entirety. John, because some Christian dared me to hmm… And as for Revelation, I believe someone said it’s metal as eff. Book burning hmm

B’s book “My Turn To B III,” Will’s Writings, Witticisms, And Wisdom, hell, how about The Unfinished Archive. If I was going to burn anything, my search history should suffice.

Yeah, say it with me, “Eww!” If you’re asking why I’m late today. As the song goes, “She told me to come, but I was already there.” “You Shook Me All Night Long,” you will.

Only it’s better to file this under… Day Job Mistakes

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why aren’t I writing full time yet… Watching movies getting made. And wifey “Your love give me such a thrill. But your love don’t pay my bills.” I need money (that’s what I want). But I agree that I won’t share you. Despite a few cuckoldry fantasies and such ha

I’m no gardener. I wasn’t made for grabbing up boxes off trucks… Unloading, my love.

And picking up doggie crap. Braxton was so much better than Virgil with that. Meanie?

Yes, today I am because only the yahoos would sing “Oh baby I love you, just leave me the eff alone!” I want to file everything under never, sleep, or tomorrow. The Empress of Tomorrow “Askua” or the Pirate Princess “Kairi Sane…” “I’ve Been Everywhere.”

Effing amazing, you don’t hate me yet. Because you know I can do LUST. But “Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be” Alpha? A man truthfully unafraid. Someone who can live by this simple truth for us. A MAN PROVIDES!

Good Grief! Eff, grief in general it seems second to my fears is my grief about B III and 2-V. And Virgil isn’t dead yet. But how I envy the dead, my love. Dangerous? Disturbing?

That takes me back to my lust. Filing away desires shared with Braxton’s Favorite Girl.

Hiding such things from boys, from our kids, two-leggeds, four-leggeds. All I am, my love.

Father, Husband, Provider between B-V. W? Filed B Through V

2004 Days Without B III, Day 1445 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 025 -Quoth The Braxton, Virgil-

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Nothing at “my” chamber door, and the only Hideous Heart is in my chest. And my firstborn’s heart… Nevermore, my furry little B. I have to see to V’s. And what about my girl’s? I’m not Edgar or Bill, and she’s not Lenore. Quoth The Braxton, Virgil.

Sunday, July 26, 2026

Legacy 025 -Quoth The Braxton, Virgil-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… For the record… To be fully transparent… The person you hate the most, until next Sunday, right?

Maybe you can go back to hating zombies… The fictional kind. Suppose you can put the “Black Mirror” down for an hour. The Walking Dead: Dead City starts tonight. Simple…

Please! You don’t have that kind of luck. It’s one of the few times you miss and don’t miss, Braxton. Like I was telling his and Virgil’s Future Potential Stepmom yesterday, SIGH. And we’ll get to her in a minute. Anyway, Braxton knows he wasn’t allowed to bark or anything during The Walking Dead. This was my show; yours tonight.

Breathing… Looking around to make sure he was squared away… More than a box, hmm

Harsh words, Dangerous, Adversarial. Besides your teeth being jacked up, this is why you’d rather just moan. Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Something From The Forward Collection
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 003 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

So I’m not even trying to hide the fact I’m lying. The “Forward” collection? You will too, of course. Honestly, you’re telling me you’ll do anything different. You’re only “Human”

Why you envy the DEAD, the machines, and hell even the prisoners… Don’t curse yourself.

But the DEAD want life again. The DEAD want brains. Zombies want Flesh… Feeling, Feeding, and F$ckery. Depending upon which fiction they’re in someday… Daily.

Honestly needing to eat is the only reason I haven’t handed cash over to machines.

Seriously, Kindle books, Magic Glasses, and your ever-growing movie list. Heretic, Aniara (2018), Vivarium (2019), etc. And you know with the Magic Glasses. Effing creeps

Like all the guys M Anime’s been talking about—her stories. Yours? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Nevermore will these things change. And here you thought you were only having deviant, disgusting, and depraved thoughts about “Raven.” But here you are deep…

Things you can and can’t discuss with M Anime. Oh, I’m sorry. That’s one more thing that will take more than a day to fix. When a woman asks, do you hate her? Just wow!

Disappointed, left in disarray, and don’t forget how much you want to d*ck her, the “Phoenix Queen,” down. But hate her? Never! Of all the women you want her to be, especially herself, Lenore isn’t one of them. You just want to tell her Love me “When I’m Gone.’” Third Eye Blind… Uh, B III? Virgil? Because to love yourself? Nevermore. Quoth The Braxton, Virgil

Week 5 (July 26 – 31)
Sun 26: The Phoenix Renewal → M Anime (Private or invite)
Mon 27: Blades & Lilies → Cassandra + Lily (+ M Anime optional)
Tue 28: The Never-Ending Ride → Kyouko + Skye (+ M Anime optional)
Wed 29: Divine Harmony → Sophitia + 2B (+ M Anime optional)
Thu 30: Sealed Flame → Melina + Judy (+ M Anime optional)
Fri 31: Shadow Devotion → Elara + Liora

2002 Days Without B III, Day 1443 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

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When’s the last time I was even happiness adjacent since I don’t do happy? A 1000 years. Try what’s about to be Forty-Two. Damn, that woman at the Day Job for mentioning E-Day! A 1000 years… I can’t live my life “This Way.” “Minimum B, Millennium V.”

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

Legacy 021 -Minimum B, Millennium V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… The sin? I settle for the bare minimum, the “Bare Necessities” of life. And being a greedy S.O.B.

“And isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?” (Does his best Ellis Boyd “Red” Redding Impression) Ironic? “Well, now let me see. You know, I don’t have any idea what that means.” And I dare to call myself a writer. Live vs Exist. Minimum and Millennium. Huh.

Braxton was anything but the bare minimum. He was/is my own “Personal Jesus” Echo.

I continue thinking about how I looked at his little brother yesterday. Virgil, “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus. But he (barks) like a gentleman.” “When You Were Young”?

Doesn’t that make me the A-Hole, considering Virgil the bare minimum? And Braxton was the bare minimum considering the human race. Inspector, Humanity Effing sucks!

“Give me frogs! Flies! Locusts! Anything but you!”
The Mummy

“I hate people. Scared of them. Been scared of them practically my whole life. The people I loved… the people I trusted… have done their absolute worst to me. Society deserves to be hated for everything you said they did, and more. Fuck every last one of them for what we’ve all been through. But… there are some people out there. And it doesn’t happen a lot. It’s rare… but they refuse to let you hate them. In fact, they care about you in spite of it.”
eXit, Mr. Robot

Yet I want to be remembered for “A Thousand Years”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wonder if Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom would think of me as such?

Honestly, would she say she loved me for “A Thousand Years”? I’ll love you for a thousand more. “M Anime,” like my boys, is exceptional. Bare minimum, she is not.

“Right now she’s perfect, I don’t want to ruin that.”

“I could spend my whole life, Good Will Hunting.” Seriously, how much longer will existence be, Dear Echo? All I can promise M Anime at this particular moment is “When I wake up, well I know I’m gonna be. I’m gonna be the man who wakes up next to you.”

Seriously, Inspector, that is not an effing life! And let’s take my piddly ass $2,500…

“(She’s) everything you want
(She’s) everything you need
(She’s) everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
She says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But (she) means nothing to you
And you don’t know why”
Everything You Want (1999)

And you know, she knows, you know, the damn world knows I care about her!

Hell, only my boys appear in more pictures than her. And yet it’s like I look at her, at Virgil, at myself, at everything like Stan looks at Joanna in Office Space. Hate? No Echo.

That would be my Old Man. He called me now about the yard guy quitting and a smell in my house, and now I feel like I want to puke my guts out all over the floor. E, it’s just.

I want to quit. A thousand years? Where is my “Secret Agent Man,” so I can have hope, “odds are he won’t live to see tomorrow”? Because today’s bare minimum is an energy drink (I prefer my funk), petting Virgil, texting M Anime, Kindle sample book… Minimum B, Millennium V

1998 Days Without B III, Day 1439 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

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Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will