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Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

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I was just trying to tell my dream, mate. I woke up, saw 2-V, and got depressed. Not because of him but because I’m not the Dad he needs. I texted my girl, M Anime, my dream; I needed it out. Then the nightmare began. Living… “I’ll B Dreaming Virgil”

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Legacy 020 -I’ll B Dreaming Virgil-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And that keeps me from saying… Well, what I wanted to. Today is a nightmare.

And last night? Begin at the beginning. I was never an A student, but I was a B father, my love. I was/am B’s father, always and forever. And don’t forget about his brother, Virgil.

And our children, my love. I woke up today very disturbed, disgusted, and depressed, ha!

Not funny. But giving you the D, doing you would definitely be a dream. Then I wouldn’t have to sleep. I shouldn’t be sleeping at all with “Times Like These. No wonder I dreamed of Squid Game. We need the cash—more like I do because A Man provides, hmm.

But what can I provide right now? I can be your husband. I hear Braxton barking somewhere, love me “When I’m Gone.” So love myself?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

He Lives In You”. Braxton still barks it. You say it. I want to believe it. But what I feel?

And what’s real? Love. For you. Now always and forever, forever and always. Last night

Okay, this is what I remember, and I told you some of this as soon as I woke today. So:

Love, it was a night. The players in Squid Game were marched out and told that their prize was awaiting them. But there was nothing but white sand and a clear night. It was straight out of Aladdin “Arabian Nights.” Then it was like a flash: “Day and Night.” Wow

The Front Man who runs the game was swept up in the hand of a Gundam the night before. Safety?

Anyway, something like “The Purge” warning goes off. Or was it “The Long Walk”? People start running toward the dunes, the biggest that they can find. But they’re now ice…

However, they’re melting or simply breaking. People cling together. It’s like something out of the Titanic or the Ninth Circle of Hell. Green uniforms all around. Some survive. Others tread the icy water, my love. And still more drown. A flash: “The Big Bang Theory”

I see myself at a wedding. Could have been Howard and Bernadette’s: a Jewish ceremony but a Christian church. I wore a yarmulke but was staring at Jahara Jayde/Aliya Will/Nico Parker’s ass. What, she’s twenty-one… Wedding ends, dream ends. Myself?

Dammit, I should stop dreaming. Living/existing? I’ll B Dreaming Virgil

1997 Days Without B III, Day 1438 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 018 -Virgil Can B Humorous-

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“And life ain’t nothing but a funny, funny riddle…” Well, I’m not laughing, and I’m done thinking about it. But I’m no ghost? I’m a dad to one… white fur and all. I have a woman who sees a future with us. Am I “It”? “Virgil Can B Humorous.”

Sunday, July 19, 2026

Legacy 018 -Virgil Can B Humorous-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And besides seeing a crazy man, a “Smooth Criminal…” PLEASE! Someone obsessed with a woman’s cunt… SERIOUSLY!

What makes you “Unforgettable” is the fact that you’re an effing CLOWN. Only 10 hours.

You’re no one to talk about time. “Chronomentrophobia”. You have so many effing fears it’s easy to forget a few dozen or hundreds. Hell! You’re remembering my fear and humiliation from last week. Are you ready to delve into that one? No, stick with clowns.

Coulrophobia, according to the Magic Glasses. And why are you a clown today? Surprise, surprise, it started with Virgil. Love is not a joke. So with that, we can go back to Braxton Barks Bradford. B III. You love him. And what’s funny or not, Braxton’s in a wooden box.

And you were holding Virgil this morning: vet visit, nail trim, bath… Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Pledged To Him 13 His Sorority Harem by Neil Bimbeau
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 003 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 003 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Isn’t everything when talking to yourself. Monday Crazy, Tuesday Dear Future Wife, Wednesday Inspector Echo, Thursday B III, Friday Lady Sophia, and Saturday Lady Lu.

The Unfinished Archive is worse. The Magic Glasses say you’re more in control there, ha!

Week 4 (July 19 – 25)
Sun 19: The Phoenix Renewal, M Anime (Private or invite)
Mon 20: Blades & Lilies, Cassandra + Lily ( M optional)
Tue 21: The Never-Ending Ride, Kyouko + Skye (M optional)
Wed 22: Divine Harmony, Sophitia + 2B (M optional)
Thu 23: Sealed Flame, Melina + Judy (M optional)
Fri 24: Shadow Devotion, Elara + Liora
Sat 25: The Living Archive, Nico + Sophitia (Rotating)

Why spell this all out? Why focus intently on the images? Not Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 003 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Because the clown is real and he sucks. And not in the FUN Sadako from The Ring sort of way. Rule 34: “If it exists, there is porn of it. No exceptions.” This might also explain your fascination with Bible Black. But this is all another subject entirely. Effing Hentai.

The thing is, today you see this joke, and do you remember how often you would say, “The Comedian is dead”? However, every Sunday something screams “Bring Me To Life” “Save me from the nothing I’ve become.” You’d prefer being nothing. To being “It” right

Being the Village Idiot, their Bozo. And there’s the fact that you can’t afford a McDonald’s cheeseburger. And Ronald McDonald ain’t free. My love? Virgil believes. Virgil Can B Humorous.

1995 Days Without B III, Day 1436 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

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Why do I need music so much, movies, the moaning of my woman? Because if I have to listen to myself, look at the man in the mirror, lament everything that happened Tuesday… I don’t know what I would hear next. But being my boys’ dad. Shame B, Shame V

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

Legacy 014 -Shame B, Shame V-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… I have been a disappointment. I have been ashamed, asinine, and afraid. Downright stupid. And I killed Braxton.

Do we both need to hear all about how I killed my firstborn son… The four-legged variety for anybody reading. What, nobody’s here? Isn’t that a shame? That was yesterday.

Inspector, if I want to avoid talking about that, I better come up with something else, hmm… Make some noise. Like Virgil crying all last night after crapping his bedding…

Let’s start with yesterday morning… Getting back from the Day Job… I won’t say, Echo.

So instead of putting up the gate to lock Virgil in Braxton’s room. I only wouldn’t let Virgil into mine. He eventually slept on the stairs all night even when I removed the gate, Echo.

Like father, like son, Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us Now… Except our own depression, explicitness, FEARS

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

How is Virgil explicit? He looks at food the way I look at his and Braxton’s potential future stepmom. Feasting on her beauty has cost me dinner many a night. Well, unless I want to be an old man and enjoy some Early Bird Specials. Old Man? Like Braxton’s Dad?

And again I’m not childless. Virgil is here. And M Anime is dedicated to pregnancy.

Inspector, my problem stems from how I’m going to pay for everything. A MAN PROVIDES

And here I am “Breaking Bad.” I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed.” “Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked,” they say. And what can be more wicked than repeating the same mistakes?

“Hell Is Repetition”
Andre Linoge

Sloth, Gluttony (I didn’t share breakfast with Virgil. Ahh Treachery.

My favorite. My Ninth Circle offense. However, M Anime is desperate to land me in the Second Circle with her angelic form. Her effing Yabbos. Unless Jane, Kristen, Angie show

“Girl, if God made anything prettier than you, I hope he kept it for himself.”
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air

If I had their bodies, I wouldn’t be in the financial strait I’m in. But no, I’m sitting here, E.

“Invincible”? Who am I, Pat Benatar or Billie Jean? Just singing “I Need a Dollar.”

Inspector, I don’t know what’s going to happen. And do you know why I keep telling myself the same story? Because I can’t stand listening to the new ones. Again, like yesterday morning. I’d rather listen to my bank account be drained”—the Echo” Inspector.

It’s almost soothing, like Eminem. “The Horror, The Horror.” Shame, Shame. Shame B, Shame V

“Oh, all around the World,
There’s an echo.”
The Echo

1991 Days Without B III, Day 1432 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

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Mind over Matter. Do I mind answering the question: “What’s the matter?” My head’s a freaking minefield. Want to start digging? There’s no glory to be mined from my struggles. Thunder, lightning, and earthquakes. Me. Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Legacy 013 -Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? But a Firework? No, my love, you’re my Atom Bomb Baby. Five Stars? Something more…

Than trying to compliment you, today? Where Is My Mind? Anxiety! It’s a shame there are Humiliations Galore everywhere! I’m going to town on the Pop Culture references, aren’t I? Or how about I go to town on you and eff you until you can’t stand straight, my love. And I could also go back to crying about Braxton and worrying over Virgil, I mean…

Anything to avoid talking about today. My Olds never learned that lesson. And today ha

It isn’t funny, my love. Maybe, if I were still an awkward, asinine, always-sad teenager.

But I’m forty-one, Effing forty-one. But Shawshank’s (Red) was how old when he said uh:

“I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can’t. That kid’s long gone, and this old man is all that’s left. I got to live with that.”
The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

Simple and plain. But me. I’m an effing minefield, a mineshaft; I can’t be mine…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Why? Because I hate myself that much? We were talking today… and now I’m crying.

And that doesn’t bring me shame? I “Wish It Would Rain.” What I’m crying about…

And I don’t mean with what I told you. “You and Me” Always and Forever. Three two-legged kids, my boys Braxton and Virgil, so… Four point five children. Kittens, love?

Loving you and this family keeps me awake and alive. I gave myself to you as you did for me. Dante and Beatrice, Winston and Julia, demon to succubus… I’ve been listening to Succubus Lord 16 again. But I’m no Nephilim or one of the Old Gods buried below, ha.

In the simplest form, I’m Andy Dufresne, and you’re still my wife. Very much alive.

“My wife used to say I’m a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. God, I loved her. I just didn’t know how to show it, that’s all.”
Andy Dufresne

And more powerful beyond measure. And that’s what I’ve been thinking about these past few hours, trying to forget today’s humiliation. Braxton would listen. Seriously?

Virgil? Well, he messed up his bed again, so I locked him out. Like the other girls in “The Unfinished Archive”. It’s Kyouko Saki and Skye Matthews day anyway. Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me. Too much laughter though. Then Skye’s Earth Magic. So what am I asking you to do, my love? Dig me out of the hole I keep digging? Or discover me. I’m “Undiscovered,” Or am I hiding? Love, I don’t know, I just don’t know.

But “Every Time I Turn Around (Back In Love Again)” with you. But it’s so dark… Virgil Mines, Braxton’s Mind

1990 Days Without B III, Day 1431 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 011 -Scared Without B, V-

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Yes, I have eyes, and I can spell. Scared doesn’t have a B or a V. And don’t I fancy myself a writer too? Not that it matters because nothing I write is more effed up than life. Especially under MAGA. What’s life without B III and 2-V? Scared Without B, V

Sunday, July 12, 2026

Legacy 011 -Scared Without B, V-

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… You’d rather see the man in a cappuccino, in an energy drink, or in your Braxton’s eyes.

And what about his and 2-V’s potential future stepmom’s eyes? You saw her “headlights” this morning. No wonder you’re thinking about whipped cream and marshmallows, in a cappuccino or a hot chocolate. Mike Enslin in room 1408 did ask ha:

“I want… my DRINK!”
1408

Well demanded. He was scared. Anger beats FEAR, or is rather a child of it. Grief beats FEAR. Lust…? I was saying yesterday my body didn’t know what it was doing.

Yesterday I was in pain, and I was scared, but M Anime had me as hard as the obsidian stone I’m always writing about. And you should be doing that now. M Anime. The Phoenix Renewal, her day. The Unfinished Archive. And you’re scared you’ll never get started. And why’s that? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Pledged To Him 12 His Sorority Harem by Kelli Wolfe
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 003 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Don’t you wish. But okay, since you’re going to be a child about it. Let’s take a trip to the 90s and early 2000s. All Are You Afraid of the Dark “The Tale of the Dangerous Soup” It Knows What Scares You! John Mayer “Take a seat, take your life, plot it out in black and white. Because this is all in black and white, well, some of it is just white. Uh yeah, Eww!

First there is Virgil Vivi Bradford, 2-V just lying here. Braxton is your pancake, expanding.

Virgil is a marshmallow. And as hot as everything is in this microwave house, he’s small, mini, trying to become even tinier. He’s five years old and doesn’t feel safe. One for Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 003 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

He is his father’s son because you don’t feel safe at all. That leads us to the second scary thing. Your bank account. While you’re sitting here lying about books you’ve read, you’re wondering where in the eff you can get five bucks from for another book. Uh, a library…

Not what you read. Because comedy comes in threes, here’s the third scary thing today.

Pledged To Him 12: An Unconventional Romance (His Sorority Harem Book Twelve) and Sleepover Harem: Part 2: Contemporary Age Gap MFFF Harem. You said white…

Again Eww! But if you were to choose violence over sex… Lindsey Graham is DEAD!

Cheering for that man’s death what does that make you? Patriotic. A good person? A father? Scared Without B, V

1988 Days Without B III, Day 1429 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

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Why bother with “Careless Whispers,” and if I remain silent… You should have seen me at the Day Job. Then I stayed late to avoid my Old Man. And I left Virgil to what? And yet there she goes, my beautiful woman saying… “Virgil B Whispering Sometimes”

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Some I whisper, some I try to wipe out from existence… Thanks for the WARNING, X. And sometimes…

Sometimes I leave Virgil asleep on the ‘couch’. Hell, I would have to put Braxton in timeout. “Hopelessly Devoted,” he was. But he didn’t need to see his perverted father…

And who was I whacking off to this morning? “Lily” and 2B… The Unfinished Archive.

It is their day, Inspector Echo. But Sophitia Alexandra… And of course B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom, M Anime. My Attention, Yabbos and three little words: I Love You.

“I tell them that I love them. I find myself sometimes wanting to tell you that I love you and miss you. Am I allowed to say that? Like when I do miss you cause I haven’t heard from you. Maybe cause I seem too corny and mushy? Maybe I’ll send you running for the hills?”
M Anime

“Well, you can say you love me all you want.”
Me

“Okay. Then yes, Will, I love you.
And I want you to stay!
Like every day. On this Earth.”
M Anime

I was practically begging her this morning after she said it again last night… Love.

Inspector, I could go on and on about her love and how I can’t say it back. What about V?

I’m sure he dreams of a father who loves him. But he whimpers while sleeping.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what pray tell was his father doing? Pray tell? Old English… Yeah, I was also whacking it to Beatrice and Dante… Beatrice and Lucifer. Shouldn’t I keep that quiet?

“Love, I do.” Dangerous words. No, that would be what X warned about. Consent, Echo.

But the way M Anime speaks. And no, I won’t betray her like that. She ain’t Rihanna. And the money that would take. I’m sure hardware stores and Tractor Supply sell a bit of that.

My Ravishment fantasies aren’t going anywhere, Inspector. M’s begging Tuesday.

However, I can do a million times worse. Have I gotten around to sharing, Inspector?

Cuckold, NTR (Netorare), Exhibitionism, Hatefuck, Rpe fantasy, a few videos I watched with Braxton’s Favorite Girl but with M? Madness

But a fantasy we’ve whispered in the night. How she plays a retail delivery girl, and I’m an irate customer, and she takes off all her clothes but for her socks… Feet Echo, uh no.

And something else… Then she becomes a “Free Use” delivery girl. Oh my, dear Echo.

Sounds suspiciously like Abbey Rain in “Don’t Tell My Manager!” I looked for that, Echo.

And I’m not ashamed? I am ashamed about how quiet I am at the Day Job. I got no balls.

Or at least let me pretend for a sec, I’m Virgil. Or Effing Elsa from The Menu. Oh no, Echo:

“You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve”
The Menu (2022)

I won’t be getting paid this week. I’m starving… Kinda. Writing’s going nowhere. A bad father. Virgil B Whispering Sometimes

1984 Days Without B III, Day 1425 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

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I’ve never been one for the seven seas. Didn’t want to look at my reflection in the water or in a mirror. Hot today, and all I got is a few bottles of water, energy shots, and some strawberry soda. How does that look? “Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE”

Sunday, July 5, 2026

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you don’t look much like a pirate, or like a writer. Yes, Aye, Aye, come on.

But you’d rather look at anything other than your face this morning. You even made it down to the Dining Room table. (The Major impression from The Long Walk) That’s a “damn fine accomplishment!” Though you didn’t come down here because “You got sack!” Oh no, no, no! If you weren’t showing the pillar and the stones to Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom, I’d say you were completely bereft of “Sack.” V would know, seeing as how he won’t be going out and making pups anytime soon, ha-ha! Dude!

That’s not funny. Laughing only shows more of your face. Seriously, what do you see?

Honestly, since you’re quoting books/movies today… “The Horror, The Horror.”

Terrifying, horrifying, effing screwed up. Then there’s Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Sleepover Harem: Part 1: MFFF Harem by Kelli Wolfe –
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It didn’t take your face to see how bad I effed up. Ha-Ha comes in threes, so let’s see, hmm.

Your bank account, your grocery list, lunch/dinner Sat. I was literally counting pennies in the parking lot. And isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You’re sitting in the exact spot that sucked up lots of cash fighting ants last year. It’s effing ridiculous and scary…

Speaking of ridiculous, your grief? No, not really. But you were walking 2-V this morning and you know his nails need a trim. But to do that means the vet’s appointment. So, “With which hand will you ‘handle this ‘?” The Menu? And do you have to think about food?

Well, if Anime were pregnant? Vacation hours? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

You’ll burn your vacation hours just to afford “The Bare Necessities.” Or saving 2-V hmm

“Look for the bare necessities, the simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities, old mother nature’s recipes
That bring the bare necessities of life”
The Bare Necessities

You’re looking at M Anime all “You’re gonna be the one that saves me. And after all. You’re my Wonderwall. But she looks at you as she should. “A man provides.” Effing provide then. But I know you’ve only been in charge for around ten hours. But it doesn’t matter when you have your sons to consider. You didn’t look after B III. And why?

Fireworks. No! There was fire, no doubt. RAGE the week Braxton died. Lust “Love” for M Anime. Humiliation as you walked Virgil. So the “Fourth Of July,” Sufjan Stevens-style. True.

A day late and a dollar short. So looking for water. Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE

1981 Days Without B III, Day 1422 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

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“The Menu” for this final Journey? Asking my belly, my woman, or my wallet? Ask the Magic Glasses. But I need to ask the “Man In The Mirror” to “Git Up, Git Out.” Can I ask Chef Slowik for a Cheeseburger, or an apple? Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Today I will try to stick to the sin of SLOTH, over my favorite sin LUST. And worst?

TREACHERY, The Ninth Circle of Hell. And that’s what I will be going for, Inspector.

May my Braxton rest in peace and power. Hell, I call upon his soul every Monday. And I speak to him every Thursday, so he talks a lot. You want to hear some talking? You should meet my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. She keeps me up plenty, Echo.

I mean, in quite some good ways. If this were the Garden of Evil, and I were Adam, I’d be handing my Eve, my M Anime, the apple myself. Take that and do as you will. Or as my girl might say, “Take me and do as you will.” I swear this woman of mine. But she ain’t Moloko, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know “Sing It Back?” But what’s with all this talking about eating and singing?

Honestly, and I haven’t mentioned blowjobs yet! I’m trying, Inspector. I’m trying real HARD… Can I stop already? But Gluttony and Sloth go hand-in-hand. Well, they did in the Succubus Lord series by Eric Vall: the sisters Gula (Gluttony), Tristitia (Sloth).

Seriously, don’t crap on my Latin, Inspector Echo. It’s what the books say. And before we get to reading, good thing I started doing that before answering, woman, Inspector…

This woman of mine, or as Braxton might say, “This B*tch.” I believe Braxton would love her, though, and Virgil would resign himself to his fate: Virgil’s effing quiet, Inspector.

Anyway, M Anime loves music too. It’s wow I communicate.

Um, Bumblebee in Transformers. As she puts in all this time learning about me, I tell her all the time, I’m a man of leisure. A damn sloth or lazy bum? So I sat here yesterday kind of stuck listening to her tunes but wanting to be one of The Yayhoos “Baby I love you…”

Or give me some “Poor Sweet Baby.” On The Long Walk I’m effing hungry and too lazy to do anything but walk… Well, write. And even now I got the Magic Glasses creating a schedule for my own harem. Today is Sophitia and 2B’s day—the 365th day of Journeys.

What comes next? Horizons or Legacies? This isn’t the garden, Balamb, or Eden. No apples. FOOD! Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

1977 Days Without B III, Day 1418 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will