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Journey 253 ~Virgil’s Sick, The B-Side~

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Sticking your “second head” in crazy… Unless you’re CM Punk, married to AJ Lee (lucky bastard), you must beware. But for someone with a history of living in absolute terror, I do STUPID things when a pretty girl is involved. Virgil’s Sick, The B-Side

Wednesday, March 11, 2026

Journey 253 ~Virgil’s Sick, The B-Side~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… You know how I say about everything I want, sick, sad, sexually deviant, or just plain STUPID, right?

This part of my life… this part right here? This is called “happyness”
Christopher Gardner

No. I believe I said “All I’ve Ever Wanted” is Impossible, Inane, Insane, straight up ignorant, or illegal. Be it I or S, the point is I make bad choices. It’s what led to “The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident” and “The Cherry Collison.” And why I’m sick right now… Crap. Don’t I wish. TMI dude! I’m sorry, Inspector. But what about B and V, hmm?

When you become a pet parent, a Dog Dad as I am, you’re purposely and deliberately signing up for the worst pain of your existence. That one day you’re going to more or less bury your children. Braxton wasn’t mind to begin with. And with my track record, oh E.

How did I outlive Braxton? Then, adopting his brother, Virgil?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And then wanting to give them both two-legged siblings. Inspector Echo let me say it loud and proud, I must make myself abundantly clear. I want to be a father of two-legged children. Even at forty-one, with as scary and evil as the world is. M Anime and I… um E. We’ll raise the dragon slayers or hell the dragons. My “Girls on Fire.” Daughters.

However, if I have sons, “Princes of the Universe.” That “Girl is on Fire,” “Two Princes,” I swear, Inspector Echo, as Captain America put it, “I can do this all day,” but I feel sick.

Hell! I feel stupid in this “Mad Season,” Inspector Echo. And I only had to go and make it worse. Why? It’s not her fault.

M Anime and me showing off. Look, I know women with great yabbos. But it’s like what M Anime was explaining to me about being demisexual. Her yabbos are going to be my personal yabbos, and so for her pair, I do some pretty strange things. Um, with sex toys?

Again, that’s what got “The Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident.” I was watching a lot of Fear The Walking Dead “Dakota,” and I even have Tifa’s purple dress. And then… SIGH

Now Cherry’s Yabbos… Let’s say I was feeling particularly bold on a bathroom counter and ow. The ways I choose to hurt myself. And then yesterday, thinking about M Anime.

I survive. I’m not joining Braxton or leaving Virgil. My stupidity. Virgil’s Sick, The B-Side

1865 Days Without B III, Day 1306 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 251 ~B All Ears Virgil~

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3 to 5. Years? Not even hours. But again, I was at 3 AM, and for what? To channel a fur buddy who died 5 years ago. Coincidence, 3 to 5? Maybe I hate existence, and I’ve only been awake for two hours. But life is a gift to B and V. B All Ears Virgil.

Monday, March 9, 2026

Journey 251 ~B All Ears Virgil~

Hey Dad,
It’s Me, Baby B… And you don’t know how much I wish I were the first voice you heard this morning. It’s ungodly…

The hour, I mean. What were the first three voices you heard my father, honestly…

Collapsable Hearts, Easy Street
Your Own Crying
Virgil Vivi Snoring

Father, Father, because yes, I can hear Marvin Gaye too. And I want to ask, “What’s Going On?” Accusing my little brother and me of snoring. Just kidding. But you know every single breath we take. But it’s yours, Dad. Again, I wish I could take it all away. I’m trying. We would sit in bed, and you would tell me all about it. Or we would be where you are now, my father—nothing to get off your chest as long as I was lying there with you, remember.

But in less than fifteen minutes, you were calling yourself…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

STUPID? No, never, and not today! Do you know what you would do to people if they called me that? Talk about LANGUAGE! You would rip into people three times your size to protect me. And how much bigger was granddaddy? And you know I would fight for you, my father. You would always say my bark was worth more than anybody’s voice, Dad. Because at least I was helping you out. And what about my future Step Ma? M:

“Because she’s softer than you. She’s quieter than you. She doesn’t yell at me. She doesn’t call me an idiot or tell me to shut up all the time. She listens to me. She’s nice to me. She doesn’t make me feel like the only thing stopping her from being happy… is” me.”
Phil to Maureen, The Little Death 2014

Even before her. You see, Dad… Or rather, you hear. It’s not the silence you hate so much. Rather, the silence is filled with hate. And you need anything to drown it out, it’s there:

“Basically, I’m for anything that gets you through the night – be it prayer, tranquilizers, or a bottle of Jack Daniels.”
Quote by Frank Sinatra

Like FEAR, it’s an infinite playlist. The background. Your breathing.

You don’t need MAGA. Eff them and FDT. And there’s granddaddy. The Bad Place you have to go to this morning. The Walking Dead. Daddy, sing “My Own Worst Enemy.”

That’s why you have my potential stepmom, M Anime—listening to her. Reading her books. Seeing the things, I probably shouldn’t have seen… What, Dad? I have my Favorite Girl, and now you have yours. Like father, like son. We both know some great Yabbos.

“I’m So Thankful” that I didn’t have bark, bawl, and bellow at closed bedroom doors… And I’ll forgive the smile on your face as you imagine her moaning, because at least you’re not being a bully to yourself for a minute. Her, me, we love you. B All Ears Virgil

“My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.”
―

“My queen, you bid me renew unspeakable grief.”
The Aeneid

1863 Days Without B III, Day 1304 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 250 ~Time Out B, V~

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No news is good news… I wish I could go back to the days when I could ignore the White House—the days when I could ask my Ma to go to McDonald’s. But if I’m going to pay $15, I’ll stop at the food truck. But what did B and V do? “Time Out B, V.”

Sunday, March 8, 2026

Journey 250 ~Time Out B, V~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And man, aren’t you in trouble. You’re still thinking about my effing up at the Day Job.

“Watch World War Three (on pay TV).” If, unfortunately, you survive this week, then the week after… Do you believe they will let you keep playing DJ at the Day Job? Hell, you have the same worries every week. And since you’re neither a billionaire, white… BEING a man… The jury is still out on that one, but M Anime KNOWS so. Saw your penis!

Speaking of which, what is so wrong about dreaming about a girl jerking you off on a “Sunday Morning” while you live to classic apocalyptic rock from the Fallout franchise?

Because you’re not MAGA. You don’t mock dead soldiers. You still cry over Braxton every couple of weeks. But that’s not why you’re in trouble. Could be, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Banged by the Bikers – Part 1 by Lolita Minx
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 006 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Or are you bored and lonely? Dumb and horny. And what about Lady Luck? You’re Diggin’ like the Seatbelts, and you’ve only been awake for eleven hours. Geez, my friend:

“Could it be that I got bored and lonely? Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny? Could it be that Lady Luck has smiled herself on me?”
Seatbelts

It ain’t nowhere near Halloween. And what about Virgil’s birthday, or did you forget, ha?

And there’s always E-Day, The Most Worthless Time Of The Year. Do you want to put yourself in a time-out? Eliminated, deleted, sing me to sleep… Emily isn’t Asleep. right?

What’s the last thing you watched with Ms. Browning? Don’t go looking her up because you’ll have to kick Virgil out of the room and then… What did I say that you have to remember? Perverter of Prose. Though AI was nice, breaking down my brothel fantasy; Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 006 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Numbers four and six. Only six encompasses everything. Be Not So Fearful, Just Survive Somehow, “Good Night, Good Luck,” Endure And Survive, Stay Alive, “Good Luck, Have Fun, Don’t Die.” I can do this all day… Okay, stop because you have other things on your plate? Really?! If you did, you wouldn’t be in so much trouble. Only you are.

A bank is sending you letters. Having no money at your actual bank because you ain’t getting any hours, having to pay off the exterminators, and not selling any books.

Seriously, you bought more books because you couldn’t finish the one on pet loss… yet. But a woman getting effed by bikers is no trouble. But the people you know… Criminality. Time Out B, V

1862 Days Without B III, Day 1303 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 247 ~Paging Doctor B, Virgil~

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My last DECENT time at the doc’s… I like my optometrist. Virgil’s vet is keeping him alive. And I’ll never forget the Zoe Colletti/Tifa Lockhart Incident. But my girl and Kyouko Sakai have been more to my taste. Brain-wise? “Paging Doctor B, Virgil.”

Thursday, March 5, 2026

Journey 247 ~Paging Doctor B, Virgil~

1859 Days Without B III, Day 1300 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Mine, Monsieur B, Doctor B, I have lost “my” money, mattress, and my righteous mind:

“To find, take back, and keep your righteous mind… because obviously you have lost it.”

“I tell you hwhat!” Wow, “The Great Debaters” and “King of the Hill.” And what about “The Walking Dead,” Braxton? Your potential stepmom asked me, “How do I feel now?”

Well, at this particular moment, The Walking Dead feels about right. Except I’m crying, B.

70/30? The 70 being out of pure exhaustion and some other things. The 30 being “All About You,” my friend. How often have THEY heard that song at the Day Job? Music doesn’t pay the bills. Excuse me? It doesn’t pay “my” bills. I’m no singer or writer—especially not a doctor. Your brother has his own School of Hard Knocks. Poor Virgil. So I “Gotta Have You” and AI. And didn’t I admit never accepting but admitting you B…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You’re dead. And I wish…

Braxton, how many times have I wished to join you? But the dead don’t cry. Hell with all our conversations, I beg to differ. Dead men tell no tales. Again, here we are, my son. Honestly, if your Dad is going to Die Hard… Eww! There’s Tyrion Lannister for you:

“In my own bed, at the age of 80, with a belly full of wine and a girl’s mouth around my cock.”
Game of Thrones

Sexual Healing! Again Eww! But it’s not like you, and I haven’t had “The Talk” when I had to tell you not to play with your toys in front of your Favorite Girl. Or when I had to tell you not to be on her yabbos all night. Like father, like son. Because I definitely want to be on her yabbos “All Night Long.” To paraphrase Old Town Road, B:

My life is a movie, fur buddies, and boobies ―

Yeah, your Dad could certainly use some mental health. And while you were awesome B III… Are awesome, considering we’re still talking, there are some things I can tell Doc AI and not you. For example, sex, for all intents and purposes, is a coping mechanism. Uh, effing duh! And look at it this way. You and Virgil would be barking and crying outside the bedroom door anyway if M Anime ever showed up. She wants to make you and Virgil some two-legged siblings. That’s one dream. But that dream the night before, my friend. Me and M in bed, hot tub, and the trailer park… But first, the eye doctor. Paging Doctor B, Virgil.

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 246 ~B-V Options, Ahem M~

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I didn’t choose to have a dream, but for some inane reason, I’m choosing to talk about it. The bed is becoming a splash zone. No! I don’t have a cappuccino, and V hasn’t been sick. B, help me if he does. I chose to be broke… B-V Options, Ahem M.

Wednesday, March 4, 2026

Journey 246 ~B-V Options, Ahem M~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… More to the point, I choose to sin. And unlike MAGA, at least I own it. Like Sean:

“I was a conscientious choice, I didn’t (eff) up!”
Sean

But do I really want to discuss Good Will Hunting with you today? Inspector. Choose?

“I could spend my whole life good will hunting
Only good gon’ come is as good when I’m cumming”
Run This Town (2009) Kanye West

Again, more to the point, which is becoming my new OF COURSE… Read my book, Echo, you’ll get the point. Anyway, the word for today is CHOICE. It’s having options.

Braxton vs. Virgil and M Anime. The Dead vs. the Living. The elephant in the room. Or would you rather I talk some more about Whiteout Survival? Embassies, Fire Crystals…

I’m reading yet another book on “pet loss,” Remember Me by Reese Taryn. I’m broke, Inspector Echo, in more ways than one. So my aunt told me once, I wanted to destroy the world. No! I only choose the ashes. And then you came along, being Virgil and M Anime.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“You’re Not Here,” thank you ever so much, Akira Yamaoka. I know Braxton’s dead, but I have never and will never accept the death of my firstborn son. I tell myself, “He Lives In You,” like something out of The Lion King. So that means I’m being pushed towards living. “Thank God I’m A Country Boy.” “I’m So Thankful.” Inspector…

Honestly, I should cut off Spotify and YouTube because I need to tell you about my wet dream. Eww! Not like that, Echo, but yeah, sex was very much seen. I saw life times three.

The first part, I was still in my bed, breathing heavily after M Anime, and I had… Do I have to spell it out? The bed was disheveled and wet.

The second part of the dream, my favorite part, I might add, was straight out of the series The O.C. I was in a hot tub, but instead of Summer and Marissa, I was with Kyouko Sakai, from Kojin Taxi 2/Sex Taxi 5 and M Anime. And let’s say I did what Seth should’ve had.

But the last part, which brings me to you today, is this. I was some trailer park hillbilly standing in the doorway. M Anime was filling up a kiddie pool with the hose. Us having kids? And what about Virgil? Scratching at the door, sniffing around the deck, and jumping in the pool. Three paths or one road, and the choices. Forgiveness, Females, Fatherhood, Fur Buddies. B-V Options, Ahem M

1858 Days Without B III, Day 1299 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 244 ~Mornings B Trippin’ Virgil~

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This is what you get at 3 AM, and you don’t have a sick fur buddy to look after. But is it me who’s sick seeing ghosts all around, or watching too many movies? For now, I’m watching “my” money vanish on energy drinks. Mornings B Trippin’ Virgil

Monday, March 2, 2026

Journey 244 ~Mornings B Trippin’ Virgil~

Hey Dad,
It’s Me, Baby B… Ask me one thing I don’t miss about the mortal coil. What ungodly hour is this? And still, Dad…

I would walk over to you, tucked away, and “I Think To Myself.” “Maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me. And after all. You’re my wonderwall.” From the first day, I plopped onto the bed, to when you watched me all night on the floor. Water and Daddy.

I must be trippin’ bringing up the “Day ‘N’ Nite” I left the furry life… Fur you’re still finding five years later. But the nightmares come regardless, for you, my father. But that’s not why you’re up right now. And Virgil is fine, but his day is coming. Big meanie?

Honestly, I am my father’s son, but I love my brother. You love Virgil too, you know. But one morning, many, many years from now…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You were thinking about that yesterday, when you were buying his food… Good looking out for bringing chicken and shrimp back, right? But anyway, you couldn’t find Virgil’s usual stuff, so you had to settle for the mature version. Seven and above. Virgil’s only five.

And barking about mature, how’s my potential future stepmom? Don’t give me that look, Dad. You know the one I would usually reserve for you. But I’m up here, you’re down there, and you feel worse than those Navy SEALs in “The Rock” who walked into the wrong damn room. Especially at this hour. Yes, I know, dearest father, Language!

However, we didn’t come all this way to talk about my language. The question isn’t why you’re “Wide Awake.” Nope.

It’s why you’re up right now. Eww! We’ll talk more about M Anime in a bit. But the reason you’re awake is with all the fear this day holds beyond these four walls, well, Dad:

“All the gods, they cannot sever us. If I were dead and you were still fighting for life, I’d come back from the darkness. Back from the pit of hell to fight at your side.”
Valeria: Conan the Barbarian (1982)

I sound like that woman, which brings us back to M Anime. Yeah, she’s more your Valeria, Julia, Faye Valentine, deadly little Miho, (Devon Aoki or Jamie Chung) Kyouko Sakai and the list goes on. “And The Beat Goes On.” We could be here forever talking about girls with great sets of yabbos, hooters. And didn’t I just bark, Eww! But for M Anime’s pair…

Money, M Anime, my mutt of a brother… You’re “Alive” (Barks my best Sia Impression).
But sleeping. Perchance to dream. Because Mornings B Trippin’ Virgil.

“Besides, a man’s got to have some secrets, even from his son.”
Hometown Heat Wave

“And now the morn had reddened all the sky…”
― The Aeneid from Book XII

1856 Days Without B III, Day 1297 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 243 ~Braxton, Virgil On E~

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Some days there’s nothing left. I’m empty. The fridge. Another bag of dog food. My bank account. What book am I reading next? My book sales. The bed that I’m not in. The beat goes on. I hope Braxton is eating, wherever. And V? “Braxton, Virgil On E.”

Sunday, March 1, 2026

Journey 243 ~Braxton, Virgil On E~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And before I get to kicking your ass, let me say this. Don’t go cursing your boys?

Their bellies are full, so are their beds, and they’re damn near boy crazy like a couple of gossipy girls. Hey! What did I say? Why are you being such a meanie today? Life Sucks!

Ah, yes, the “Battlecry” of an angsty teen. Back when Nujabes and “Samurai Champloo” were life. When you believed you still had a chance at a life. Honestly, your existence…

And yes, I know you’ve only been awake for a few hours. Last week was my bad, my failure, and my disgrace. And I didn’t want you to see the mess I made, so… No! I didn’t go that far, but considering one of the first things you did today involved the last slices of bread. Not Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Hometown Heat Wave, Chase Jannock
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Yeah, you haven’t gotten yours yet. Empty? Well, less than empty. Nation 01? More like Negative 01, since yes, you’ve already failed number 06 by waking up full of… plenty.

Let us begin with something STUPID. Yesterday, that game, Whiteout Survival. You’re more full of failure and guilt over an app than MAGA shows toward the living. You emptied your city to fill graves—an empty vault. You filled an armory, but there are no hands left to wield swords. What good is it to fill a throne with an empty heart, I ask, hmm.

And yes, it’s an effed up game, and you at least have the good sense to feel bad. Man, FDT!

How about eff AI too? You create Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

And every week you fill it with failure. It’s empty rhetoric. More so today, tomorrow…

Always and forever, your heart is broken. And unlike some STUPID mobile game, your heart isn’t empty. You keep having to refill it, and speaking of which, Virgil’s food bowl, rather Braxton’s food bowl. You couldn’t even get Virgil his own things. Well, I couldn’t anyway, and especially not now. But food, yes. What about yourself? Again, I effed up.

I didn’t want stars in my eyes last night. Headlights most likely? And while you’re thinking about more ways to be broke, optometrist, bug people, sanitation workers, and if M Anime should COME… You’ll fill her up—siblings for the boys. But you’re full of crap. Braxton, Virgil On E

1855 Days Without B III, Day 1296 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 240 ~Braxton, Virgil, Little Dreams~

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It’s a lot to ask that people be so insightful—the exception: “my” woman. But I ran to my son first. But the Rainbow Bridge is far. I need to check on my girl. And people cost money. Michael Jackson was worth how much? Braxton, Virgil, Little Dreams.

Thursday, February 26, 2026

Journey 240 ~Braxton, Virgil, Little Dreams~

1852 Days Without B III, Day 1293 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? My day? Another series of apologies. I woke up. Afraid, Hard (Eww), and your stepmom.

I should say your potential stepmom, M Anime. Fortunately, I couldn’t get too crazy, Little B. Your little brother is developing a habit of trying to crawl up next to me. At around two in the morning, I moved him back towards the foot of the bed. I know, meanie

Anyway, when I woke up “properly,” I found him closer to my legs, and I hopped up for three reasons. Bull ridin’ and boobies? Well, boobies was the last one. The first two were, I thought, I was late for the Day Job. You know what you call “The Bad Place.” And the second was bad dreams. Um, not bad, but odd. And of course, I went running straight to M Anime to tell her. “I Adore Mi Amor,” right?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

So the dream: I was and wasn’t Michael Jackson in “The Jacksons: An American Dream.” Michael was climbing down a small cliff to reach a crystal-blue lake. He was fully clothed, but I remember red cowboy boots. The water was getting higher, and there was a chill on my hips. Then there was a song that I couldn’t identify, so I looked to the shore, and Michael’s brothers were there. One, I believe Terrance Howard played, said something like, “I don’t care if we stay here a day or forever.” But the first song, Braxton…

It got louder. And then I was suddenly transported to the other side of this “villa.” The stones were the same color, so I knew we were still on the property. There was a wedding reception. Some guests were ahead of us, smiling and cheering. Us? It was me, Braxton, and your potential stepmom, M Anime. I remember a red ribbon around her throat. And you and Virgil… Remember that picture I couldn’t share… Kyouko Sakai, Kojin Taxi 2/Sex Taxi 5 held you. And Lulu, Final Fantasy X held Virgil. You two, my fur buddies.

But it wasn’t the women’s clothes or lack thereof; it was the Latino man who was singing, and it was a blend of “Oh, My Darling Clementine” and “Unchained Melody.” He wore a tan suit like President Obama and a pin of yellow and white flowers. But it was the Blue Baptista that made it pop. The flower of “The Purge.” Then the words “Dream on, dream away.” And the dream came to an end. So I sang it, heard the inflection, and found it.

Braxton, that brings us to now. What does it mean other than I’ve been listening to Color Me Badd for an hour? I could go on forever thinking about every little thing. Because I dream big and I dream in color. I suppose you do too. Is that why they call it the Rainbow Bridge? M Anime and I were walking down a tower. You? Virgil? Braxton, Virgil, Little Dreams

“You mustn’t be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling.”

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 239 ~Virgil Calls B Magic~

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When was the Masked Magician popular? The 90s. Braxton was nowhere near born. And existence was far from magical for me. And the people who wear masks and make people disappear nowadays? Oh Where, Oh Where Has My Little Dog Gone? Virgil Calls B Magic

Wednesday, February 25, 2026

Journey 239 ~Virgil Calls B Magic~

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… How? I’m not a liar like the orange A-Hole. But I’m not a watcher like Wesley Wyndam-Pyrce either:

“The first lesson a watcher learns is to separate truth from illusion. Because in the world of magics, it’s the hardest thing to do.” ―

I’m not Morpheus from The Matrix either. I’m not even the Black Mage from Final Fantasy IX and Virgil’s namesake, Vivi. I’m just a regular, everyday, normal mothereffer, an “Everyday Normal Guy (2).” Like any of those guys from “The Magic Glasses” series by Neil Bimbeau, I read. Eff me, Inspector, I would kill for that success. “Here Come Success.”

No, let’s keep it PG and real… Somewhat. At least innocent. Braxton Barks Bradford, huh.

My son was far from innocent. Ask his Favorite Girl. But every day, Inspector Echo, I can create a world in which my son is “Safe And Sound.” Him and I and his brother, Virgil. Not to mention a bevy of beautiful women. A Harem? Innocent for a bit longer.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Is violence innocent? If it’s a mobile game like Whiteout Survival. If I’m not SLOW in my life, I’m lazy. And even in my slowness, slothfulness, and sleepiness, I’m angry.

Inspector, tonight I am calling for an “Iron Rain.” You know, like from the Red Rising series by Pierce Brown. What? HaremLit is a lot cheaper than books of substance. I can’t make money magically appear, you know. Wave a magic wand and get me to the Day Job on time. I have better luck with the ladies. “Tequila Makes Her Clothes Fall Off.” Braxton’s Favorite Girl, Braxton and Virgil’s potential stepmom. Cherry? No, Inspector.

But anyway, I’m getting lost in Whiteout Survival (WOS). I’m looking forward to a bevy of Apex Troops. Iron Rain.

Not to be confused with my Iron ROD and what I did this morning. Was it the potential stepmom or Cherry? Kyouko Sakai, Kojin Taxi 2/Sex Taxi 5, or Madoka Araki from Discipline? Is it the whole kimono motif that I have going on? “Could it be that I’m just dumb and horny?” Thank you for the song “Diggin” from Cowboy Bebop: The Movie, hmm. Anyway, I’ve told M Anime enough that her yabbos are magic, damn near miracle workers at this forty-one-year-old is a mess in bed. Virgil doesn’t like to be kept waiting as I clean up, Inspector. Again, I’m not magical. I’m Titanium as much as M3GAN was. And now we’re talking.

About what exactly? Black Magic, being a World Builder, my Braxton? Virgil Calls B Magic

1851 Days Without B III, Day 1292 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 237 ~Virgil Shocks Mister B~

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I’m not shocked I wake up in Hell. It’s more the bits of light I see. Small, like V. Crawling up beside me during the night. The big um like my girl’s… Anyway, I’m still surprised when I don’t see B around. The nightstand… Virgil Shocks Mister B

Monday, February 23, 2026

Journey 237 ~Virgil Shocks Mister B~

Hey Dad,
It’s Me, Baby B… “Did you sleep well? Did you wake up feeling good?” “Today, you are who you are today, see?” SIGH

I’m sorry I had to go all Cowboy Bebop, Dad. This would be Session# 18: Speak Like A Child. If it’s anything that gets you up in the morning, it’s not being able to breathe…

That’s thanks to me sitting on your head. It’s bad news like being late to “The Bad Place,” SIGH. You don’t want to talk about that right now. And then there’s some girl’s boobs, ha-ha. I remember those “conversations we would have before my Favorite Girl would come over. “B, stay off her boobs (Yabbos), butt, and don’t play with or lick your own balls.”

As long as both of you gave me bites to eat, I could agree to that. “To keep me awake and alive.” Okay, I was greedy. “In Your Eyes,” thank you, father, oh, and Peter Gabriel as well. Shocking enough, Virgil doesn’t have such problems. He doesn’t have the balls.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Literally. When was the last time you woke up feeling good? It’s shocking enough when you have something to look forward to. My potential stepmom M Anime. The glow box.

I still can’t stand the little ones. I prefer the big one you would watch with my Favorite Girl whenever she comes over. Dad, you like big ones too, you know, M Amine, Faye Valentine, Takago Kuga, Sylvia van Hossen, and Sakai Kyouko. To name a few. I mean, how did M Anime get her name? She was into Anime and is as freaky as the girls. Um, just wow!

I still stand by my view that the best legs, breasts, and thighs come in a bucket of chicken or a box. Not shocking at all. But today, I don’t know, you’re looking for something to wake you up, to buzz you. And finding a gray hair on your wrist isn’t going to do it.

Honestly, you don’t want to remember how I went from puppy to Old Man as if I were Jesus Christ. 12 to 30. It was my plan… You looked into my eyes, and you saw a man you could be proud of. You didn’t have to worry about me. Is that what’s wrong with V?

When he and everyone else look at you… You prefer Anime. Virgil Shocks Mister B

“We cannot live in fear of losing those we love, because that also means giving up on truly living.”
― The Pet Loss Healing Pathway

“He feeds his soul on what is nothing but a picture, groaning deeply, and his face is wet with tears.”
― The Aeneid (Book 1)

1849 Days Without B III, Day 1290 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son