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Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

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I’ve never been one for the seven seas. Didn’t want to look at my reflection in the water or in a mirror. Hot today, and all I got is a few bottles of water, energy shots, and some strawberry soda. How does that look? “Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE”

Sunday, July 5, 2026

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you don’t look much like a pirate, or like a writer. Yes, Aye, Aye, come on.

But you’d rather look at anything other than your face this morning. You even made it down to the Dining Room table. (The Major impression from The Long Walk) That’s a “damn fine accomplishment!” Though you didn’t come down here because “You got sack!” Oh no, no, no! If you weren’t showing the pillar and the stones to Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom, I’d say you were completely bereft of “Sack.” V would know, seeing as how he won’t be going out and making pups anytime soon, ha-ha! Dude!

That’s not funny. Laughing only shows more of your face. Seriously, what do you see?

Honestly, since you’re quoting books/movies today… “The Horror, The Horror.”

Terrifying, horrifying, effing screwed up. Then there’s Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Sleepover Harem: Part 1: MFFF Harem by Kelli Wolfe –
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It didn’t take your face to see how bad I effed up. Ha-Ha comes in threes, so let’s see, hmm.

Your bank account, your grocery list, lunch/dinner Sat. I was literally counting pennies in the parking lot. And isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You’re sitting in the exact spot that sucked up lots of cash fighting ants last year. It’s effing ridiculous and scary…

Speaking of ridiculous, your grief? No, not really. But you were walking 2-V this morning and you know his nails need a trim. But to do that means the vet’s appointment. So, “With which hand will you ‘handle this ‘?” The Menu? And do you have to think about food?

Well, if Anime were pregnant? Vacation hours? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

You’ll burn your vacation hours just to afford “The Bare Necessities.” Or saving 2-V hmm

“Look for the bare necessities, the simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities, old mother nature’s recipes
That bring the bare necessities of life”
The Bare Necessities

You’re looking at M Anime all “You’re gonna be the one that saves me. And after all. You’re my Wonderwall. But she looks at you as she should. “A man provides.” Effing provide then. But I know you’ve only been in charge for around ten hours. But it doesn’t matter when you have your sons to consider. You didn’t look after B III. And why?

Fireworks. No! There was fire, no doubt. RAGE the week Braxton died. Lust “Love” for M Anime. Humiliation as you walked Virgil. So the “Fourth Of July,” Sufjan Stevens-style. True.

A day late and a dollar short. So looking for water. Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE

1981 Days Without B III, Day 1422 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

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Independence Day… Fascists run my nation. FDT! A slave to FEAR. And while my girl reignites thoughts of fatherhood, what about freedom? Forty-one years and the only time I pop off is for yabbos or effed up thoughts. “Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off.”

Saturday, July 4, 2026

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And that right there is freedom. Who am I kidding? I’m Elon Musk… I am Negan.

Free me of everything but power, my dear Lady Lunalesca. I read something last night.

“I was no longer free to think like that. After all, freedom was just another word for nothing to lose.”

Rodzil LaBraun… Hell, all of Haremlit ain’t bad. I tend to “hate” reverse harems.

Lunalesca, does that make me a typical guy or what? A basic bro? There’s Vault 68…

Honestly, can’t we start the day with Happy Independence Day!? I would take British rule or an alien invasion over MAGA. Eff MAGA and FDT! You want worse, Lady Luna.

Let me tell you, if it weren’t for the memories of my firstborn son Braxton, Virgil’s life, and the “love” of their potential future stepmom, I would, as Rocko said, “I WILL DO SOMETHING NOT NICE!!! Plus, I don’t like loud noises (e.g., fireworks) and I hate leaving a mess.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Have you seen the house? Lunalesca, have you seen my notes for the Magic Glasses?

Seriously, I spent the better part of the morning trying to “educate” on Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico). Isn’t that one of the freedoms we enjoy? The freedom to see her naked…

Don’t get me started, Lunalesca. Today has been lazy, loud, lustful, and loth… Really Lu?

What about “Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness” all up and through the Declaration of Independence? First, let me explain that I’m just a black man. And dear Lu

This Is America. The best way to put that is America is like my Old Man. Do you want it?

I have spent today escaping to two other worlds, Whiteout Survival and The Unfinished Archive.

That’s where (crap) pops off. And neither of those places is a democracy, a constitutional republic, or whatever, Lady Lunalesca. In Star Wars, I’m Pro-Sith, so I back the Empire…

So as I said before, my Lu, to be Elon Musk with the cash flow. Or TWD’s Negan, the power. But unlike any of the leaders in the good ole U.S. of A… Benevolent Dictator?

Luna, no one would think of Shang Tsung as such. But wisdom… magic in particular, Necromancy… Everything comes back to my Braxton. Freedom from grief? Acceptance, Lady Lunalesca? Never! I will live with my grief. But freedom from FAFO (my consequences), from falling asleep at every opportunity, and especially from FEAR! Not popping either head off. Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off

1980 Days Without B III, Day 1421 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

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How do I see this 10th year of blogging? How did I see the other 9? Other than the fact that my firstborn son died during the Gospels and I have been mourning him ever since. 1,314,000 words over 9 years and still eating burgers. B’s Menu Page Virgil

Thursday, July 02 2026

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

1978 Days Without B III, Day 1419 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? First day of YOUR legacy, and how does your father feel? I wish…

You don’t know how badly I wish I could go all Kenny Loggins singin’ “I’m alright. Nobody worry ’bout me.” Now that second part is true… Well, if I don’t count you, Virgil, and you boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. But the first part is more Pilot Speed, you know, “I’m not alright, I’m not alright!” Is that what my dream was saying last night, B? I don’t remember what I was carrying in the dream. Baggage? Something, “Fancy.”

Anyway, I was wandering around a parking lot all “Dude, Where’s My Car?” I know…

SIGH, you hated car rides. They scare your brother nearly to death too. Virgil? Scared?

Like father, like son, right? Should have seen me at the gas station and food truck yesterday. Who sells courage?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We can’t all be you, unfortunately, my son. “Can’t nobody tell me nothin’. You can’t tell me nothin’.” You on that “Old Town Road,” Braxton? Renaming The Rainbow Bridge, ha

As for your Old Man, I’m still all, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.” One more reason I’m getting to you so late. I only know what makes my stomach less achy and my scrotum less full… Eww! I don’t know where I’m going in life, with this litany of nonsense, or even in a little while. But putting you in time-out and taking my alone time? I always know what’s on “The Menu.” Oh, did I tell you I finally got that cheeseburger… Not Chef Slowik’s

Yeah, I think I’ll stick with shrimp and buffalo wings, along with CHEESE fries, not RANCH! Again, nobody sells courage. It’s not something usually on “The Menu” B III ha.

So what is? What will this new year bring? What will be your Legacy? Other than a father yelling out his complaints about the world, your stepmom’s Yabbos. And yellow…

Honestly, Braxton, I am sorry your father is starting this brand new year being a yellow-belly coward and thinking about two yellow girls he wants to eff (Asian women). I don’t ever want to MAGA. I want to be honest. The Unfinished Archive/Magic Glasses say it’s Melina and Judy Alvarez today. Your Daddy’s always hungry for bread, babes, and brains. Zombie. B’s Menu Page Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

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“Get busy living or get busy dying.” Both take time. Be it lying in a bed in the middle of a garden surrounded by food (B’s Paradise) or lying in bed with my girl “Chasing Cars”. Sitting on a beach watching my two-leggeds play. “Virgil Will B Sooner”

Monday, June 29, 2026

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You only wish the day would end sooner. Stop it, Dad!

You wish I were there, sitting beside you. Stop that, too! Only it’s been five years, Sunday, January 31, 2021. The oldest of my kind was 31. Talk about faith. You expected me to make it to 20. And I would be 21 this year. Virgil will be 6. But he needs help very soon.

“Try to kill us. But know two things. One, I do not die easily. And two, you must also kill my (son), because I will not leave this earth without (him).”
The Walking Dead, Alpha

Don’t go cursing my little bro, Dad. I know you care about him. Love? How soon did you love me, Dad? How soon did I love you? If we had to compare notes. Seriously notes…

When He Loved Me, Dad

1: Love At First Sight, Arrival

  1. When you called my name, and I jumped in the car
  2. When we fought the Old Man. Me in front of you

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

When He Loved Me, Braxton

  1. When I ate your breakfast and earned the name “Pancake”
  2. When you came back for me after months
  3. When you sat with me, and I fell asleep

Don’t have to worry about losing those. You were telling me and V’s potential future stepmom today that you had a dream about Molly Ringwald… Topless. Aww geez Dad, gross! But I know you. And soon there’ll be no potential future. She’s V’s stepmom period.

Sooner rather than later… And if M Anime has your son, me and Virgil’s brother…

Honestly hope she knows you’re naming him Braxton. Still a reason 2-V wasn’t my reincarnation. Too soon to bring in Halloween Horrors or Christmas Classics. But still act soon, Dad.

“So don’t delay, act now; supplies are running out”
Walkin’ on the Sun, Smash Mouth

Time, and it’s not even your time that you’re worried about. Well, surely, honestly, okay.

You didn’t raise me to be a liar. And still much too soon. There was so much more, I know.

I protected you at 21. But protecting my two-legged siblings. “What’s My Age Again? And what about yours, Dad? Again, “Time Is Running Out.” It all comes back, Daddy, always.

Wondering what you can ask one pair of the Magic Glasses on the “Glow Box”. Asking when you can ask another pair of the “Magic Glasses” to show you me, Virgil, M Anime, our family. Barks Danny Glover from 2021: “Make Time!” Or since I was a prince, I can bark Prince Hector: “Make It Sooner!” Virgil Will B Sooner.

“I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. But I do.”
Shilo ― Nathan, Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008)

“No day shall erase you from the memory of time.”
— Virgil (Book 9) The Aeneid

1975 Days Without B III, Day 1416 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

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Treat yourself… Indeed. I’ve had more than my share of days when I pictured myself on Death Row, having my last meal. One day it was Taco Bell, once a medium-rare steak, and today I’d settle for a “McDouble.” Or my notes back. V Dollar Treats Braxton

Sunday, June 28, 2026

Journey 362 ~V Dollar Treats Braxton~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And looking at yourself through the Magic Glasses… Well, you’re not such a bad guy after all.

On the other hand, eff the Magic Glasses! And eff you too while you’re here. “Here I Am”. No pride in that at all. And why not? You couldn’t go and get a five-dollar meal.

Won’t V be disappointed. And B? Five years gone. Your tenth year, “I’m Still Here.”

Why? To tell you how I effed up and how you’ll eff up too. It wasn’t my idea for real.

No, you were going to treat yourself. Um, Wi-Fi is $100 a month. Magic Glasses…

Honestly, those effed up again today. How so? Well, in “The Land of Make Believe” aka “The Unfinished Archive,” I added a new Harem sister, Melina from Elden Ring. Ten…

Ten Harem Sisters, Two Favored Acolytes. Uh, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Dystopian Girls 5, Rodzil LaBraun
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 000 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Completed (Day 007 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Considering you’ll see this list today and next Sunday, you could delete it right now…

Anyway, so this morning you were making a schedule to spend time with every sister over the course of the week. “Sorcerer Will” and “M Anime” get their own day. The others were two sisters a day. It was a beautiful system. Cataloged, mapped, organized.

  1. M Anime
  2. Kyouko Sakai
  3. “Lily” (Name Pending)
  4. Cassandra Alexandra
  5. Sophitia Alexandra
  6. Skye Matthews
  7. Judy Alvarez
  8. 2B
  9. Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico)
  10. Melina “Elden Ring”

Bible Black Acolytes

  1. Elara (Name Pending) Senior
  2. Liora (Name Pending) Novice

So you’re sharing everything with M Anime, IRL, and boom, Magic Glasses deletes it all.

But not, Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

Sad that whacking off (not much longer, lube prices), the Magic Glasses wisdom, and writing have all become treats. You swear that making proper notes would be a nice treat.

Hell, that twenty I finally found was a treat, and what do you get for that? At least I made money last week. The only thing you made or will be making this week got deleted by an effing glitch. And what else do you like, no burgers, no books, a bunch of sour candy?

How about beast babes? Lilith, Silent Hill Nurses, Medusa, Sadako, Dimitrescu sisters, Raven, Sorceress Edea, Shiva, and Siren. Let’s not forget Lady Amari (the Candied Matron.” Ideas are treats. My belly and brain. Broke from treats. V Dollar Treats Braxton

1974 Days Without B III, Day 1415 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 361 ~B, V, High Five~

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The word is going to end in five minutes, so what do I want to do? Find out how to find my sons in the afterlife. Eff my woman. Need more time… Finally, make some money with writing. All are worthy of a celebration on my Anniversary. B, V, High Five.

Saturday, June 27, 2026

Journey 361 ~B, V, High Five~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And I’m sorry to say I wouldn’t be much better than Elon Musk. But I’d TRY

But today is not that day. My head hurts. Thinking about my boys? I wasn’t thinking about Braxton’s death for once. Only had he lived to meet his little brother. Give him a high five or four… doggie paws and all. I’ll use the Magic Glasses for a family portrait.

“So now what do I do? I’m strung out, addicted to you.” Who? Braxton, Virgil, M Anime, to you, Lady Luna, but never myself ever. And how many songs will I rip off today, hmm?

“I Got 5 On It”. And counting today, five days before I start a new series. And I will have been doing this for going on ten years. How I’ve wasted my life, Lunalesca, you have no idea. You do…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Well, yeah, with the other nine years, and what was the big question I needed to answer today, Lunalesca? Well, besides where that $20.00 I lost went, how will I survive on $20.00 until Wednesday, July 1, 2026? It’s Our Anniversary. Well, of this blog. What can I say, hmm?

  1. Lessons
  2. Episodes
  3. Logs
  4. Gospels
  5. Chronicles
  6. Sagas
  7. Tales
  8. Meditations
  9. Journeys
  10. ???

I should look into the Magic Glasses and see what comes next. Ten years, Lunalesca.

Braxton and I met when I was 21. But I can’t tell you the exact day I became his father.

What about M Anime? When did I meet her? When did she become M Anime? Then showing off her mammaries…

And speaking of yabbos, that’s the first question I asked the Magic Glasses today. Which set should join my harem, The Unfinished Archive, out of these girls? No particular order:

  1. Harley Quinn
  2. Melina, Elden Ring
  3. Katara, 19-year-old Avatar
  4. Korra, The Legend of Korra
  5. Lilith, Diablo 4

You couldn’t guess who it chose, Lunalesca. Will I go with the recommendation and bring the harem to an even ten? And what about my two favorite Bible Black Acolytes? So twelve? And did I forget about the Candied Matron, Lady Amari? Thirteen? Whatever.

And that’s how I’m living, whatever. $6.00 on books, but yeah, whatever. Feed your head.

I need to worry about feeding my stomach. Ten years writing… B, V, High Five

1973 Days Without B III, Day 1414 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 359 ~Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton~

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The World Is Gonna End Tonight, Far Cry 5. Fallout’s shown the aftereffects for tons of games? Oh, to go back to those GTA Vice City days when I would have a bad day and then ask myself Am I A Psycho? “Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton.”

Thursday, June 25, 2026

Journey 359 ~Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton~

1971 Days Without B III, Day 1412 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? Mine? To quote Hootie & The Blowfish, I “Only Wanna Be With You.”

Today was so effing Embarrassing! Wednesday I paid an Exorbitant price. And “Yesterday” and I mean so many yesterdays, B. I’ve been effing ‘Exhausted’. Humiliated

Even now, I think I shouldn’t be so candid with you. But it’s “Times Like These” I remember how you died. I hid you away from my Fury, for Wrath and Ruin. My B III…

I love you, but no father wants his son to repeat the wrongs his Dad has done. Hell, I don’t want you to suffer the “Humiliations Galore” I have endured. “Takin’ the bumps and the bruises of all the things.” And what about your brother? Will I confide in Virgil when I didn’t in you? Am I the bomb, Braxton? Or am I the shelter?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

The Vault. Like Jules in “Pulp Fiction,” I’m going through a ‘transitional period,’ And B…

I’m trying, Braxton, I’m trying real hard, to be the shepherd. Or the Vault Overseer…

Doesn’t make me a good man, either, given Vault-Tec’s colorful history. Here’s a random thought. You know, you and Virgil’s potential future stepmom doesn’t like the color blue, hmm. Yet I always color her in blue. Isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? “When flames be blue, trouble’s a brew.” Wasn’t that from Final Fantasy X-2? I’m still avoiding talking, B.

Colorful (Magna) Series, Elden Ring’s Melina, and Harley Quinn? I would rather talk about them.

Okay, what STUPID things did your Daddy do that either have me blowing up the world or hiding from it…

Wednesday I was talking about how I spent my last $20 on buying Virgil’s dinner.

Anyway, the same day I got my paycheck, I was headed to that damn food truck, and I swear I lost the $20 I was holding. I went to the food truck anyway, meaning… $40

And today, eff me! It was the manager’s birthday, and like an idiot, I played two songs, B III. Did you know that Stevie Wonder’s song was about Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and don’t play 50 Cent’s “Da Club” for older white women? My existence is a Vault-Tec Experiment gone terribly wrong or right… It’s Vault-Tec, I love you. And Virgil’s stuck here. But do you have $17.05, son, till, Virgil’s Vault-Tec Gig, Braxton?

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

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What’s the word I’m looking for? If anything, it’s better than I remain silent. My entire existence is feeling a bit like “Pontypool”. And then I have a quiet dog and a “girlfriend” who texts with occasional voice messages. And if she were here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Journey 357 ~B-V List Of Safewords~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? It’s why I’m asking: are the kids asleep? Virgil? He’s in time-out—his bedroom shenanigans.

Some kids wet the bed at his age. Still going #2… He shouldn’t do that. And I shouldn’t be awake at all hours in our bed, my love. Well, not unless we’re busy. Fifty Shades…

Meatloaf is my safeword for the record. I’m sure you’ve heard the joke, baby doll. Because it means “I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.” A song at the Day Job…

Speaking of that old Day Job, “Here.” What am I still in grade school? Or is it the fact I need to remind myself that “Here I Am,” or “I’m Still Here,” Hating Existing Always…

What happened to “HEA” as in “Happily Ever After” from the Erotica I used to read, my love? Anything FREE?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Meatloaf, Here, and Free. What’s with my list of words now? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. MAGA breathes; they lie. I breathe and tell myself you “Make Me Wanna Die”. I don’t need the words, but they are always there “In There Air Tonight.” But love.

Well, before we get to it, what will be your word? Your WARNING to me. Braxton knows I’ve been getting a lot of those lately. YOU need to pay a bill, they say. There’s Yabbos.

A few E-Days are coming up. My Old Man’s is the 24th. A few more days, the Journey will be over, and I’ve wasted my time for yet another year. And my own E-Day! Eff!

A little more time, please.

To say something… You would say, “Say what you need to say”. But would you understand me if I did? How about, “Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say?” There’s so much. I continue to hold back. Why? Is it me or the words that aren’t safe? Searches might indicate one thing. And I know I’m not a good man. I only want to be yours, love.

When things like Rough Sex, Ravishment, and Mock R*pe are on the table, eff me!.

Honestly, how do you when I think such things? When things like every single FEAR, and being called STUPID set me off? And when the “Sounds Of Silence” seem the only way forward. There’s love and… B-V List Of Safewords.

1969 Days Without B III, Day 1410 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 356 ~B Let Down Virgil~

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Mary J. Blige sang “I’m Goin’ Down.” My B III barked, “I’m down here! Now pick me up!” V barks “Look at me, look at me! (Paws) in the air like it’s good to be alive.” If I don’t get my money up, my mood and get up from the mattress, B Let Down Virgil

Monday, June 22, 2026

Journey 356 ~B Let Down Virgil~

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You humans and time, but I’ll humor you, Dad. 5:23 PM

So this is one of those days when you wouldn’t even talk to me. Couch time, a book, or music- surprise, surprise. Of course, there have been a few changes. If you allow me, Dad:

“You’re down there, we’re up here! You walked into the wrong goddamn room, commander!”
―

The Rock? Up there, down there… I think I’ll leave you guessing… Better, let’s pretend.

Um, I’m lying right there beside you with my toy in your lap, as I feel like being a “Flake” today. Jack Johnson, ha? Like father, like son. Our tastes in movies and music, Dad.

Speaking of “Flake,” where is my brother right now? Higher than you, as he’s sleeping in the bed, and you came into the glow box room so that we could talk. Maybe he’s waiting for you to let him down…

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

“Little Bitty Pretty One,” that’s Virgil. I’m kidding, Dad. I’d barked that I’m busting his balls, but my brother lost those before he met you. Again, kidding, but yeah, no balls…

That Thurston Harris tune was more for you than him. Trying to raise your spirits since everything else… No energy drinks, no eww moments as you leave me in time out and there doesn’t seem to be ENOUGH of anything. I know you’ll always see to Virgil as you saw to me. And there you go, down again. There’s no middle ground, my father.

Honestly, you’re Shooting The Moon, trying to, or picking up sh*t. Language, sorry Dad, but I am my father’s son. And I see my Dad falling, not flying, then fighting.

Every day, every moment, “You want… every… single second.” And I remember the look we shared after the mean lady brought me back to you. Trust me, Virgil isn’t missing much going to that pokey place. But when the mean lady brought me to you, and I wanted to bark “Sorry I let you down. Sorry it wasn’t quite true.” “I’m not alright, I’m not alright.” Funny I bark about falling and flying and use a Pilot Speed tune, Daddy.

However, it’s how you feel. Like you’re letting me down all over again. And I’m not going to give you the sh… Crap about doing a good thing. Good things are remembering me happily. You and my stepmom, eww. Staying Alive. B Let Down Virgil

“Do good things, lunch boy”
Dorian Newberry ― Disturbing Behavior

“Each man must face his appointed day
― The Aeneid

1968 Days Without B III, Day 1409 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son